#honestly Yohei was a little hard to sort

[nian-7]

helloo! Can I ask for a second part about deaf mc fem who uses special hearing aids with saimon, yohei, anne and kanata?) plss and thank you for your work ^^

hi! i'll do my best, anon!

Saimon, Yohei, Anne, Kanata x fem!reader

✧deaf!s/o

✧fluff

-He's very caring in general, Saimon tries not to treat you any differently than anyone else. To him, you're just like anyone else. He never forgets that you're deaf but it's not something he treats you differently for.

-He'll love you just the way you are no matter what. If you use sign language to communicate, he'll learn it so you don't have to worry about the communication barrier.

-Saimon, in general, is a very considerate person. He always smiles whenever he watches you and Ryu are messing around with each other or when you and Shiki are quietly sitting together. Perhaps you've become like their mom in a way! And nobody is complaining that's for sure.

-He reminds Ryu gently when he forgets that you're deaf if you've taken off your hearing aids and to not shout at you. Above all else though, he wants to make sure you're comfortable and that you feel safe at Bar 4/7. You're his lover after all!

-A protective guy, he scolds Ryu for being too rough with you in fear of your expensive hearing aids breaking. Yohei wants you to be safe and he takes on the role of your 'protector'.

-He learns to understand sign language but if you're able to hear him then he won't sign unless he needs to. Truly, he doesn't care if you're deaf or not because what's important to him is that he loves you for you.

-Honestly, if you only communicate through sign language and you sign 'I love you' to him, it hits him right in the chest still. He didn't think you just signing something that simple would hit him hard but he feels little butterflies in his stomach (he won't ever tell you about it) that makes him return your gesture.

-Anne doesn't treat you any differently than anyone else. They take you out shopping and always invite you to any social events they're going to or even BAE's performances!

-Though they'd find sign language confusing if you used it, they'll try to learn it even if it doesn't go well. It may not click in their head at first but if you keep trying, they'll eventually get some down!

-They sort of treat you like a princess too. Buying you clothes or makeup without worry of you paying them back because well, they want to spoil you! You're their girlfriend, deaf or not, they love you a lot!

-Get ready for another protective guy. Kanata treats you as if you might break and is especially protective when you both go out. He doesn't treat you as incapable though, he knows you're capable but he just can't help but feel protective over you.

-He learns sign language but only the basics. It just goes a little over his head and he can't remember all of the signs that he ends up not knowing a whole lot of it but he tries his best!

-At home, he usually leaves you be, keeping an eye on you in case you need help or you need him for something but otherwise he does his own thing. When in public though, he glares at anyone who looks at you the wrong way as if they're judging you for wearing hearing aids (they probably aren't, he's just overreacting...)

please do not repost any of my work without my permission, thank you for reading.

#x reader #fluff #gender neutral reader #nian-anon #paradox live x reader #paradox live #kanata yatonokami x reader #kanata x reader #kanata yatonokami #anne faulkner x reader #anne x reader #anne faulkner #yohei kanbayashi x reader #yohei kanbayashi #yohei x reader #saimon x reader #naoakira saimon #naoakira saimon x reader

[eshrii]

Sing Ring Release

This is from Emitsun’s book, Ho・Ho・E・Mi Happy Music Vol. 2! She talks about her re-debut and the struggles and thoughts she had throughout the whole process. I’m still not very good with Japanese, so I’m sorry for any errors. This is a little long though, so enjoy!

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This Spring, in a renewed environment, Emitsun releases her Re-Debut Single ‘Sing Ring’ 2 years after her last work.

Suddenly finding herself in an unexpected painful experience, from here on out she tries to move forward one step at a time, filled with an honest desire.

Just for the readers, ‘Ho-Ho-E-Mi Happy Music Vol. 2’ delivers a special full version of the interview seen in ‘LisAni! Volume 40’.

Now, let’s get started!

Nitta San’s eagerly awaited for new work comes from music producer Yohei Kisara san, who is representing his label ‘Stray Cats’. Furthermore, this time it is labelled as a ‘Re-Debut single’.

It’s not really because I took a break from music activities per say, but because the label changed and we’re making music with a new team, it became a ‘re-debut’. Kisara San has been looking after me ever since I became a voice actress, but this is the first time working with Emi Nitta the artist, and there was a lot we didn’t know about each other (laughs).

It’s been approximately 2 years since you last released your album ‘EMUSIC 32-meets you-’ in May 2018 but during that time, what sort of thoughts or emotions did you have about your music work?

I communicated this before to the fan club, but around the summer of 2018 I was actually diagnosed with dysphonia (T/N: a vocal disorder causing difficulty in vocalization). When we were in production for that album, my singing and speaking felt uncomfortable, and during the solo concert at NHK Hall in June 2018, I was singing with a lot of anxiety. In that state I couldn’t express my music the way I wanted to, and once I thought that maybe I should take a break from singing, but that’s also difficult…

What did you mean when you said Dysphonia?

I didn’t have any abnormalities in my vocal cords, but for some reason I couldn’t control my voice. There’s lots of different types of Dysphonia, sometimes stress is the cause, for some it’s  physical condition, or an issue with the autonomic nerves, but there’s no real way of figuring out the specific cause. For me, I don’t know what’s wrong, but I just know that it’s definitely something that makes me unable to sing. That’s why for about a year and a half I honestly just had to stop singing. I was really worried about not being able to meet everyone’s expectations, and even with public appearances I thought ‘I can’t do this’ and slowly became depressed. Nevertheless, when I revealed my condition through the fan club, I received a lot of warm messages from a lot of different people. They told me that everyone’s still waiting for my songs, and until I am able to sing, I can still and try to do other things.

You faced a lot of challenges because of that didn’t you?

I’m the type of person that hates to lose. Because of that, I tried a lot of things: singing with a fit monitor, listening with a guide melody (T/N: a melody that helps you stay in tune during karaoke), but ultimately it didn’t really do much (laughs). But last year I was invited to perform at LisAni! LIVE BEIJING, and it was an environment where nobody knew my songs. I didn’t have the pressure of people’s expectations on my back, and it was a lot of fun. That was the time when I turned towards considering the notion of a re-debut. Even though I was filled with anxiety, when I thought ‘Ah, I can still have fun singing’, I gained a lot of self-confidence. Honestly, from this point in my music activities, I always think ‘today is my worst day’. From here onwards, tomorrow will be better than today, and the day after that and so on; one by one I hope I will find my music and my voice.

Nevertheless, there must have been some painful and frustrating thoughts.

Of course. But I think that feelings of frustration and regret can be a source of encouragement. When it comes to frustration and regret, just let it run its course (laughs). When we announced the re-debut, the fans were really happy and grateful, and that gave me a lot of strength. For me, a singer is someone who can give someone strength and a push on their back through song, and I thought, ‘can I be that kind of singer too?’ That’s the kind of courage I received.

This time, the new song ‘Sing Ring’ is filled with exactly those feelings right?

Thank you. This time it’s a re-debut, so for that first song we had a talk about who would be able to write it for us. 2020 is the 10th anniversary of my voice actress debut, so I thought I could ask someone with whom I have a deep connection from back then. From my very first voice acting job, “T.P. Sakura~Time Paladin”, we asked Yozuca* san, who sang the ending theme, if she could compose and write the lyrics. Yozuca* san is my senpai who has been a singer for a very long time, and I have also already had the pleasure of singing one of her songs before (T/N: Yozuca* has also written songs for μ's).

Before Nitta san’s debut, Yozuca* san also sang “Time Capsule”, the insert song for the game “D.C. III P.P.~ Da Capo III Platinum Partner~”.

Ah yes. Yozuca* san also came to see my concert at NHK hall and it was a big thing for me. At that performance, Yozuca* san took my hand and told me “It’s okay, everyone here is your ally”. At that time I felt like I had accidentally let my anxiety show, but the me during the performance back in 2016 at the Pacifico Yokohama Convention Center, when I was pumped and full of energy, and the me afterwards that full of anxiety and nervousness- Yozuca* san saw both sides of me, and because of that she understood my feelings, and would be able to write a song with those feelings: “‘from here on out, I’ll crawl and slowly get stronger and stronger into the me I want everyone to see”.

When it was decided that Yozuca* san would work on the song, did you go and talk to her directly? 

Yes. I talked about my thoughts on the re-debut, my regrets on being unable to sing how I wanted, my current feelings. We talked about a lot of things, and she was able to translate them into wonderful words that could hopefully be conveyed to the fans. That’s why even though I didn’t write the lyrics myself, I still felt that it was my song, and the first time I received the song, I couldn’t stop crying. Even if it’s not me, it’s a song that resonates with people who have worked hard at something and have experienced setbacks and failures.

The name ‘Sing Ring’, it’s a very Nitta san thing isn’t it. Even before making this album you had a song that you wrote yourself called ‘In the Ring’.

For me, the word 輪[wa] or Ring, is a special word, even my fan club name is ‘EmiRing◎’, but I didn’t tell that to Yozuca* san. However, when I received the song, that was the name and I felt that it was fate. Until now there have been a lot of things that didn’t go well,  but even then there’s something there that feels connected. Speaking of which, this re-debut seems to be the same; my anxiety has turned into this wonderful song, and I think nothing was done in vain.

In the beginning , you start the song with acapella no? When I first listened to it, I could feel Nitta san’s resolve. You’ve been slowly and earnestly coming to terms with your current singing voice, would you call this your will to move forward?

That acapella part was actually an idea that Yozuca* san had during recording. I couldn’t really sing that well, but she was watching over me while I was singing desperately, and suggested “at the beginning why don’t you try singing it acapella almost like you’re humming it”. If you were to ask me if this song is 100% an Emi Nitta song, technically speaking it isn’t, I felt like I could’ve sang 200%, 300%....I’m still not fully satisfied with it (laughs).

At any rate, you’ve done everything in your power right now.

Yes. I think that there are a lot of things that I wouldn’t have realized if I hadn’t broke, and things that I couldn’t see until I fell. That’s why if it was past me singing like I had before, this song would most definitely just be an ordinary song, I wouldn’t have been the right person for this song. I feel like having experienced frustrations and troubles are needed to sing this song (laughs).

The lyrics in the beginning, ‘this voice resounds, and I walk from here’, and the hook ‘you don’t have to be your ideal self’ etc., the substance of the lyrics are quite frank aren’t they?

But by no means does it mean weakness, right? Even if I stumble, what’s inside of me hasn’t changed- it’s the feeling of wanting to cheer on people who are trying their best. Even if I showed my weakness, I definitely do not feel despair. It’s just like yelling ‘I’m frustrated!’ (laughs). Something that I’m really grateful for is that Yozuca* san said ‘I can write a song that has softer sounds, but I can understand the feelings of an Emitsun who wants to look cool in front of everyone’, and that one little feeling made it into the song without any difference. That’s why this song is a ‘I’m pitiful but I want to be cool’ type of song...I’m embarrassing (laughs).

There’s also a section where Yozuca* san seems to be telling Nitta san through the lyrics about the importance of moving forward at your own pace.

This was a song made for the current me, but I will definitely change from here on out. I think that there’s some things that will never change though, which is why when I received this song, I was able to think ‘I want to sing this song for decades to come!’. From there I was able to affirm that feeling that I was moving forward, this song is the first step to a brand new start, and it was an extremely big first step. That’s why during recording, of course there would be some not-so-great takes, but I was happy with every retake, and I was blessed to be able to sing the song so many times.

It’s important to continue to do the best you can without giving up.

It’s not about “if you don’t give up your dreams will come true”, but “don’t give up until your dreams come true”. In my life, I’ve been blessed with the people and the environment around me. That’s why I think ‘if you can’t hang on to your dream, then what else can you do?’ I want to be that kind of person that connects people to their dreams too. Actually, I don’t really like the phrase ‘do your best’ (ganbaru) . I feel like for some people those words might feel pushy. That’s why I’ll do my best, and hopefully if someone else sees it, they’ll be encouraged and want to work hard for themselves too. I’d be happy if that happens.

In that sense, it’s a very human song isn’t it?

I think it has a lot to do with my age as well. In terms of my appearance, my skin will get wrinkly but as I get older my experience will also grow, and I’ll be able to put myself into different things and doing it with my own body which I think is a really nice thought. Therefore I would like to do as much as I can to the best of my ability...this is a bit heavy isn’t it (laughs).

No, no it’s okay that the song’s story is a little heavy (laughs)

It’s definitely not a song that screams “listen to me!”(laughs).

Now, let’s talk about the coupling songs. Aside from the main song, there are two more new songs alongside it.

Since it’s a re-debut, I thought it’d be a great opportunity to bring music to everyone so I wanted to make a lot of new songs. My own self-indulgence was granted and this time the single has three songs. The three songs are all really different so it kind of feels like a mini album!

Firstly, your tv program that is being broadcasted on the tabi channel, ‘Emi Nitta’s Girl Trips’, the opening theme is ‘Everyday a Lucky Day!’. What kind of image was made for this song?

“I want to do ‘the Emi Nitta everyone thinks of’ character song” is the request I made. I wanted to make a song that was catchy and would make the heart cheerful. From all the songs we gathered, I chose the one that was the happiest and most exciting. I especially like the lyrics ‘The lucky song only for me’. I wonder if the extraordinary lucky song is tired of pushing me forward. Actually, I can already imagine what the atmosphere would be like when I sing this song live. Of course it’s one thing to simply listen to the song, but I think it’s much more fun and happy to experience it live. It’s the little things that can make someone happy, and I think that it’s nice for people to be able to enjoy everyday. That’s why for me, I want to be a woman that matches this song, even as I grow older.

The other song, Oratio, done in collaboration with the anime ‘Arad: Ring of Reversal’ as the opening theme, has a very heroic, rock tune.

The name of the song, ‘Oratio’, means ‘prayer’. It’s a collaborative work, so we wanted to get close to the world view of the anime. It has a good meaning, and it became ‘the anime song’. There aren't many opportunities to write '腕'(ude) and read it as 'kaina'(T/N: Don’t really know what she’s referring to here). As a person who immerses themselves in the world, it's a song that you can't help but get pumped up (laughs).

It’s a work that’s very suitable for a re-debut, and you can get to meet various expressions of Nitta san. Lastly, it might be a little too early but are there any new plans or things you want to try after the re-debut?

First we have the release, after that I think there’s a lot of things that we can do but, for the longest time, I have had this dream to sing for ten years and beyond. That's why, I’ll start by making my own path, facing what’s in front of me step by step. Of course, one of the things I want to do is a solo concert. I think it's a special thing to be able to share the same time with everyone, and even now I still go to the lives of my favourite artists, and I received unforgettable songs and moments. Perhaps, some people might not be able to listen to my songs, there are some people who go through the trouble of coming to fan club events from overseas, so not just Japan, but someday I'd like to be able to deliver it overseas too.

Your dreams have expanded haven’t they?

There’s definitely a lot of things I want to do. It’s a bit of a selfish desire, but I really love Winter and Christmas songs, so one of my dreams is to create a Christmas album someday. I’m really excited for the things I love to take shape, and I’m sure the fans will be very pleased as well. Obviously there are some people who express their despair through song, but I can sing because I seek a future beyond that. Therefore my feelings are ‘Hallelujah!’ (laughs).

Translated by eshrii/ashtrees_(twitter)

#えみつん #新田恵海 #Emi Nitta #Nitta Emi #emitsun #Translation #ho ho e mi vol.2