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togrowoldinv · 2 years
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Worth Your While
Natasha Romanoff x Female Reader
It’s a scorching hot day, but ever since you moved out of the city with your kids Natasha is determined to get work done outside. You help her and she helps you.
Warnings: Smut! 18+ please! Also a few curse words
Note: So, I spent my day working on my family farm moving and stacking wood. It wasn’t so fun haha. But I was thinking of Nat and how she’d look great doing it lol. This is reader simping/thirsting for Nat and Nat simping for reader. I hope y’all enjoy it!
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It’s early in the morning when you roll over in bed and reach for Natasha, but find an empty spot next to you. You get up to find Natasha already dressed and drinking a cup of coffee at the kitchen table.
“You’re up so early, Nat. The kids aren’t here, you could’ve slept in,” you say and she laughs at your sleepy voice. You’re moving around the kitchen to find a mug for your own morning coffee, when she hugs you from behind.
“Have mine, detka,” she says as she hands you her mug. She kisses the skin between your neck and shoulders that is left exposed by your shirt.
“Thank you. You’re the best. I love you,” you say and she smiles.
“I love you too, y/n,” she says. “Do you want to help me stack some wood today?”
You slip out of her grasp and turn around to face her. She backs you into the counter and puts her hands onto the counter next to each side of your waist. She grins at you and kisses your lips quickly.
“Hmm, I’m not sure baby. It’s kinda hot out there,” you say.
“Please?” She asks you with a small pout. You lean forward and try to kiss her pout away.
“Of course, I’ll help you,” you give in and she crushes you in a hug.
“Don’t worry, detka. Later on tonight I’ll make it worth your while,” she whispers in your ear before pulling away and leaving you a flustered mess.
You get dressed and meet Natasha outside. She’s already lifting slabs of wood and her muscular arms are enough of a distraction to make you trip over your feet.
“Watch your step,” she says with a knowing grin as you walk up to her.
“That was- I tripped over- hell why am I lying to you you’re my wife and the mother of my children. You look really good right now that’s why I tripped,” you admit and Nat kisses your cheek.
“You look good too. As always. Here let me show you how to stack this and we can get started,” Nat says.
Natasha shows you how to stack the wood and you two get to work. Every so often you sneak a glance at her arms and you feel her taking glances at you too.
It especially turns you on when Natasha lifts her tank top up to wipe the sweat from her face and she catches you staring at her.
“How much longer do we have to do this?” You ask.
“Just a few more stacks, babe. You’re doing great. Come here,” Natasha says with her arms out.
“Nat it’s a million degrees and I’m gross and sweaty, you don’t have to hug me to motivate me,” you say.
“First of all you’re never gross, but yeah you are sweaty. And so am I. Let’s finish this up and we can shower up.”
You finish up and go inside to shower with Natasha. You steal a few kisses from each other, each one deeper and longer than the last. By the time you get finished showering and start cooking lunch, the two of you are ready to devour each other.
It’s evident in the way Natasha hugs you from behind while you are making a grilled cheese. Her hands roam around your waist and slide over your underwear. You hadn’t put on pants, just one of Nat’s shirts, and she is also dressed similarly but with your shirt.
“Thank you for your help this morning, y/n,” Nat says as she leaves kisses all around your neck. Her hands dare to slip under the seams of your underwear.
“You’re welcome, my love. I thought we were waiting until tonight to do this,” you say with a chuckle.
Her response is to spin you around in her arms and kiss you until you’re both breathless.
“Do you really want to wait that long? Because I’d like to make you feel good right here and right now,” Natasha says. Her voice comes out raspy and it only spurs you on further.
“Fuck Nat,” you say. “Yes please let’s do it.”
Natasha reaches behind you and turns off the stovetop before she moves you to the opposite countertop.
She kisses you again as she reaches for the hem of your shirt to pull it off over your head. Her lips immediately find their way to your breasts as she licks and sucks in every way that makes you feel good. Her fingers move stealthily back under your underwear and she runs them through your folds.
“Natasha,” you moan her name breathlessly when she touches you just right.
“Fuck y/n. So wet for me already. Good girl,” she says as she pulls your underwear off.
You take the opportunity to take her shirt off and start kissing her chest the way she had yours.
“You’re so beautiful, Natasha,” you say.
As your lips move up her chest and to her neck, her fingers slip into you causing you to gasp in pleasure.
“You feel so amazing, detka. You’re so good,” Natasha encourages you further.
It doesn’t take long for you to reach your high with a shout of her name.
“So good. So good for me,” Natasha says as she works you down. She kisses you deeply and you move to kneel in front of her.
You pull down her underwear and immediately can tell how wet she is. You kiss her thighs and her legs threaten to go weak.
“Detka, please don’t tease me,” Nat says. Her head is thrown back in pleasure.
“Okay baby,” you say and with that you dive right in.
You lick her center and she moans your name. It’s enough to encourage you to work faster and she’s coming undone under your tongue in no time.
“Fuck yes, Natasha. You taste so good,” you say as you lick her once again.
When you stand back up to kiss her, she melts at the feeling of your lips against hers. And the taste of herself on your tongue makes her moan. You keep kissing her as you move towards your bedroom, not quite wanting this to be over yet.
But when your phone rings and it’s Laura saying she’s on the way back with the kids, you step back to take in your wife’s state and you smile.
“What?” Nat asks.
“I just love you so much,” you say. Her lips find yours again.
“I love you too, y/n. So so much,” she says. “To be continued?” Nat asks as you two put clothes on.
“Definitely to be continued. As soon as possible,” you say seriously and she smiles.
“As soon as possible, yes,” she agrees.
The two of you spend the rest of the day with your kids and, as agreed upon, later that night you continue your adventures together. And it’s just perfect, as life with Natasha always is.
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kxrytfanfics · 4 months
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strawberry blonde.
authors note; literally the only experience i have in writing is kids stories and smut so pls dont execute me + its been like 5-6? years since i wrote anything bc depression lol, i take feedback and if the screenshot owner doesn't want me to use their screenshot let me know ! . screenshot credit x
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Fanfic summary ; Just some random Astarion x gale fluff, not sure in which act it takes place.
The camp was shrouded in a deep, eerie silence, broken only by the gentle rustling of leaves in the cool night breeze. It had been an exhausting day, and Astarion rose to his feet with great care, carefully navigating towards the riverbank. As he settled onto a nearby boulder, a whirlwind of thoughts raced through Astarion's mind, each one more chaotic than the last.  Gale's words had caught him off guard, and his mind raced as he struggled to process the unexpected love confession.
Though Astarion shared those same feelings, the entire situation filled him with a sense of dread. A blanket of twinkling stars spread across the dark, velvety sky as the elf's gaze drifted upwards, the words "I've fallen in love with you" echoed in his head. It was almost comical how his original plan of seeking protection had crumbled apart, with him also falling in love with the wizard. Suddenly, Gale's voice cut through Astarion's thoughts, bringing him back to reality "It's a beautiful night, isn't it?.
"Hmm..." The elf's brow furrowed as he deep in thought, his gaze fixed on Gale's. Astarion felt a wave of calmness wash over him as he looked into Gale's eyes, his mind finally at ease. He carefully studied the wizard's face, searching for any signs of exhaustion. "Shouldn't you be resting?" Astarion asked in a hushed tone, his brow furrowed as he waited for Gale's response.
"Looks like there's no rest for the wicked,"
Gale chuckled softly as he settled down next to the elf, his eyes fixed on the other man's delicate features.
"I couldn't sleep at all," the wizard added, his jaw stretched wide as he released a deep, exhausted yawn.
 Astarion noticed Gale's yawn and brushed it off, unimpressed by his excuse. The elf exaggeratedly rolled his eyes and sneered, "I've seen you sleep through a literal murder, dear."
"May I ask you something, Astarion?" Gale asked hesitantly, his gaze still fixed on the elf's face.
"Go ahead and ask your question," Astarion replied, meeting Gale's gaze. "Would you mind staying in my tent tonight? I am feeling quite lonely," the wizard asked tentatively.
Astarion chuckled, his voice laced with playful teasing, as he scooted closer to Gale. "So, you're just looking for a cuddle, huh?" he teased. Astarion gazed up at the stars, a look of wonder on his face. "The stars are truly beautiful tonight," he murmured.
"Okay, I'll join you, but only if we can stay here a little longer," the elf purred, resting his head on Gale's shoulder.
"Got it" Gale agreed, fighting to keep his eyes open. He put his arm gently around the other man, hoping not to startle him.
"I hope you know I love you more than anything, Astarion." Gale said with a gentle, loving tone.
"I love you too." The elf replied playfully, his voice filled with affection.
Gale's heart skipped a beat as Astarion's words filled him with joy.
Neither of them knew where their relationship was going or what would happen next, but for a while, they found the peaceful temporary bliss they had been searching for.
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make-me-imagine · 9 months
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Hey 👋 First off: HAPPY BIRTHDAY 🎉!!!!
For the asks Fake dating, Enemies to lovers, Slow burn (if I remember properly), I have a tricky question 😉🤣.
- Eomer, Faramir, Aragorn?
And, more generally: how are you doing? What do you have planned for tonight? A special menu or program? I do hope you enjoy your night ☺️.
Have fun !
Thank you! <3
Hmm, actually I think it's in order already with what I would do
Eomer: Fake Dating; I think he'd be the type to help with that, and then would be teasing during it, ending up revealing true feelings
Faramir: Enemies to Lovers; maybe some Romeo and Juliet type shit? Without the same ending lol.
Aragorn: Slow Burn; I don't know what it would entail, but it would probably be a bit angsty and very romantic lol
As for your questions, I am not great lol. I have a throat infection so I can't really eat or drink anything without it hurting.
I also have nothing planned, I don't really celebrate my birthday. Haven't since I was around 16, things just "worked out" (?) that way lol.
Thank you for participating!~ <3
xx
(Birthday Sleepover!!)
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luckyqueenreign · 2 years
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Omg im the one that submitted the Gabrielle theory!! Please do use it!! I just finished you first impression and loved it!!
Two fics in one day... who am I?
I loved your Gabrielle theory and wanted to explore a possible storyline through that.
I even tried to make Gabrielle a little bit redeeming lol..She was just trying to look out for MC! Hope I did you proud :)
@fujiihime @tjsmommy719 @squishy-noodles @kunepie
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THREE’S A CROWD - SURESH / GABRIELLE POV 
Suresh looked down at his watch, Gemma’s going to kill me. It had been the third time this week, he’d promise her that he wouldn’t work late but he was now two hours late to their dinner plans. His office was currently going through a massive re-structuring, and they were short staffed, his boss was asking for an “all hands-on deck approach” from all the senior and mid-level staff. He couldn’t say no when he was on the fast track to partner. He thought he had come up with a great solution to their temporary problem weeks ago, he asked Gemma to move in with him. His apartment was nicer than hers, it was bigger, it was on a better part of town. She basically lived there as it was, it just made sense. 
But Gemma said no, multiple times. She said she had a “rule” about not living with someone before she was engaged to them. They’d been together for over a year now and he could see himself proposing to her. He was going to propose to her. She was his dream girl after all. He just needed to get over this hump at work and then he would propose. They could have the big wedding she’d always dreamed of. His family wasn’t super traditional, but he imagined they’d want to keep some of his Sri Lankan traditions for the wedding. 
He turned his key into Gemma’s knob and turned it to open the door. The apartment was pitch black. 
“G?” 
Down the hall he could hear faint whispers from what seemed to be a conversation and he could see the glow coming from underneath Gemma’s bedroom door. 
Why is her door closed. She never closes her door. 
“Gemma?” 
With that she stopped talking and she rushed whoever was on the other line off the phone. She rushed out of her room, flustered. 
“Hey babe!” 
She ran over to give him a kiss. 
No argument? No snide remark about being late? 
“I’m sorry I’m late, work ran over again.” 
“It’s ok, should we go out, order in? I guess I could also whip up something quickly too. Not sure what you’re in the mood for –“ 
“Gemma who was the on the phone?” 
“What do you mean?” 
“Just now when I got home you were on the phone. Who were you on the phone with?” 
“Hmm... I could do with a Chinese...” 
“Gemma!” 
“Oh sorry! I was uh just oh on with Chloe.” 
“Since when do you stutter just to say you were on with Chloe?” 
“I didn’t stutter…oh my god Suresh what’s with the grilling? If you’re stressed from work keep it there, please. Don’t bring it home to me. I’ve not done anything to you. I was just trying to sort your dinner and you’ve come home with all this weird aggressive energy.”
“Well, this isn’t my home now is it, Gemma!” 
“Nope, not this again. We are not having this argument right now. Literally what’s wrong with you?” 
“What’s wrong with me?! You’re over here having secret conversations; you refuse to move in with me and you’re acting like there’s something wrong with me?” 
“We’re not doing this right now. Just go to your apartment Suresh. We’ll speak in the morning.” 
With this he turns around and storms off leaving Gemma’s apartment. 
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Suresh drives aimlessly towards his apartment, but he realizes he doesn’t want to go home. He starts driving towards The Social. It’s his favorite bar, it’s close to his office and his apartment. He decides to leave his car near his apartment. The amount of drinking he’ll be doing tonight he shouldn’t get behind the wheel of a car. 
Suresh receives his usual raised eyebrow and come-hither stares from women that he’s become accustomed to it over the years. After over a year of successfully ignoring those types of looks from women he feels like he’s built a special Gemma armor around him. Mostly impenetrable to women. 
“Reshyyy!!!” Gabrielle squealed from the other side of the bar, she couldn’t contain her excitement and ran over to hug him. “I haven’t seen you in like a week where have you been?”
“Work has been an absolute mad house. I need lots and lots of tequila tonight.” 
“Your wish is my command!” 
Gabrielle smiled mischievously as she dropped two tequila shots in front of Suresh. She pressed her breasts together and leaned forward to him. 
“Let’s see if this big boy can handle these tiny tequila shots.” 
Suresh took down the two shots with ease. 
“Just leave the bottle.” Suresh continued to drink shot after shot for the next hour or so.
“Babes, we’re actually closing down in 15 minutes.” 
Suresh was drunk. Very drunk. He was slurring his words. He got up and the room started to spin but he got his bearings. 
“Nooo. But weee we’reere just starrrrting to have fuun.” 
Gabrielle walked over to him and held his shoulder. 
“Suresh are you ok,” Gabrielle said as she looked at him with a flirtatious smile. 
“Of course, I am G,” with that Suresh grabbed Gabrielle into a sloppy drunken kiss. For Gabrielle this was months in the making. She’d dreamed of what kissing Suresh would feel like, and what being with him would be like. She didn’t know much about him but she hoped this kiss was the start of something more. 
“Do you want to go back to my place, or should we go to yours?” Gabrielle asked expectantly. 
Suresh looked at her confused. “I don know where I live.” He started to laugh.
Gabrielle laughed with him. “Alright we can head to my place then, I can drive.”
Suresh snored in the passenger seat as Gabrielle drove them to her apartment. OMG I can’t believe this is happening. He’s so gorgeous. 
When they arrive at her place Suresh is still very inebriated. He's swaying as he walks down her hallway. She leads him to her bedroom, and they start to kiss. Their kiss starts slow and sensual, and she starts to kiss his neck as she starts to move down to his chest he says. “Gemma, I love you so much just move in with me.” 
Gabrielle stops kissing him. 
“Suresh, what did you say”
“Gemma, I love you.” 
With that he turns over and begins to snore. 
How could she be so stupid. Of course, he has a girlfriend. Gemma. 
He’s made a fool of me for MONTHS. Flirting with me. Gassing me up. Making it seem like he wanted anything with me. He clearly just did that for attention. I’ll give him attention. How could he cheat on his girlfriend? And I know he's not the type of guy to ever own up to his mistakes. Maybe I should help her find something in his phone that will make her see what a shitty, two-timing boyfriend she has.
Gabrielle looked around for Suresh’s phone, once she spotted it, she got to work. She removed his shirt and his pants. She left his underwear on but inched it down. She put on her red lacy lingerie set and took out his phone and posed. When she finally had the picture, she liked she saved it to his camera roll. 
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Suresh woke up in a panic. This wasn’t his apartment. This wasn’t Gemma’s apartment. He wasn’t wearing clothes. Who was next to him?? He tried to move but his head felt like he had been buried under a ton of bricks. He had to get the hell out of here. He didn’t remember having sex. He didn’t remember much of anything. Gemma’s apartment. Car. THE SOCIAL. He finally inched his head over and he could see her red hair, her tattoos. What did you do Suresh? 
Suresh tried to silently get up and get his things. Everything was everywhere and his pounding headache made it so much harder to pick everything up. When he finally finished getting dressed, he heard Gabrielle stir.
“Good morning, babe,” she said. 
“Hey Gab. Listen nothing happened between last night, right? 
She started to giggle, “Well I wouldn’t call that nothing,” she said as she pointed to Suresh’s member. “I had a lot of fun last night. Maybe we can do it again soon” 
“G, you’re a great girl but I can’t. I’m sorry. I have to go.” 
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
You have to tell Gemma. There’s no way out of this you have to tell Gemma. But what do I tell Gemma? What the hell even happened?
Suresh takes an Uber home to wash the smell of tequila and regret off him. He gets dressed and starts to make his way over to Gemma’s apartment. But it’s empty. He calls her. 
“Hello Suresh.” She answers icily on the other line. 
“Babe where are you?” 
“I’m out.” 
“I’m at your apartment, I wanted to see you. Will you be home soon?” 
“No.” 
“G come on. Where are you?” 
With that he heard the key in the lock, and he turned around to find her standing at the doorway. She had a few bags from the market in her hands. 
“Well, are you going to help me then or just stare,” she said as she smirked at him and handed him some bags.
“Should we go out today, I ran all of the errands I needed to run yesterday and this morning,” she said as she put away the groceries. Completely unaware of the absolutely horrific thing Suresh did last night. 
“Resh?” 
“Huh? Oh yeah, let’s go out.” 
She looked at him sideways, “Are you ok?” As she got closer to him, she knew something was up. “You got drunk last night, didn’t you? Oh, and I can see it’s a bad hangover too.” She said laughing. “OK, new plan. We’re ordering really greasy burgers. I’m going to the shops for beers, you need a hair of the dog. Grab some painkillers from my medicine cabinet and a water and relax on the couch. I’ll be back in 10.” 
“Gemma.”
“Hmm?” 
“I don’t think I’ve ever loved you more.” 
She smiled back at him wide. 
Suresh needed time to gather his thoughts. He couldn’t hurt her right now. He knew that if he told her about last night that it would shatter her world. It would be one thing if Gabrielle meant something to Suresh, but Gabrielle meant absolutely nothing to him. He couldn’t even remember sleeping with her or kissing her. Shit, I remember kissing her. I called her G. I thought she was Gemma. Gemma will leave you. You can’t tell Gemma. 
Before he could think about it anymore, Gemma walked back into the apartment. 
“Ok drunky…I come bearing more goods to get you drunk again.” 
That afternoon came and went they watched movies and cuddled on the couch. Suresh decided he would keep Gemma in the dark about his darkest secret. 
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reynita9 · 2 years
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Hm I have gone to therapy for 11 weeks and actually feel I am doing my inner work less since I began. I think I do this check it off a list thing. Like, oh therapy? ✔️! And then I live the rest of my week in an attempt to not be self aware.. because that’s “what therapy is for” (problematic? yeeaa) and I still have the belief that the corrosion of intact communities is why therapy is so important, and then also when people think the art of being heard is restricted to transactional relationships (professionals) it further cripples our capacity to show up and be heard, hold space for, and walk with another through transitions of greatness and of tragedy, to create healing within our own communities. It’s an ouroboros of what heals and what harms and they both do. This whole thought is half baked, hope I don’t sound like my brain is fried, But maybe. I’m writing it in one minute on a break between an actually important task I’m working so hard to complete tonight. and tbh I’ve realized I even write better when I’m not in therapy. I feel better. My brain feels like my own. It’s scary and beautiful and my only consistent home at the same time. Hmm ya my daily responsibility/rather than a once a week date.. This is the first time in my adult life where I’m trying talk therapy, so, do I bring this up to her? when she convinces me that this is a part of the process and I should stick-with-it will I only rebel more? lol
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megan-loves-surveys · 25 days
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Haven't used this in forever but I miss Bzoink so here I am instead xD
What are some of your favorite cities you’ve been to?  Hmm, I loved New Orleans, NYC and Boston a lot. Also Melbourne!!
Would you allow your children to date prior to 16? I'm not having kids, but if I did, I'd be a hypocrite if I didn't, cos I started dating at 14 lol.
Did you ever go through a phase where you thought guys in bands were ‘hot?’ Of course, still do!
What’s something about adult life you were never warned of or prepared for? How difficult it would be to find work, they acted like we'd all just waltz into jobs the moment we left school.
Did your parents teach you proper table manners when you were growing up? Yes, but they didn't go overboard.
What was the last thing you baked? I don't bake.
Do you live more than 5 hours away from the nearest international border? I live on an island, so there is no 'border' really to speak of. But if you count the edge of the land going to the water as the border, then no, it's much closer than 5 hours.
Does your town have a farmer’s market? Not that I know of.
What’s the westernmost point you’ve been to? Dunno tbh, I'm not even sure where NZ is when it comes to east/west, cos we're in a weird position xD
What was the last restaurant you made a reservation at? Myself personally? My bf Will got me to make a reservation the other week cos he was busy at work and couldn't do it.
When did you last feel lonely? Hmm, not sure.
Can you easily tell when others are masking their true emotions? It depends.
How often do you wash your car? I don't have a car.
When did you last lend money to a friend? I don't lend friends money as a rule, it's a slippery slope. If they need something, I'll buy it for them.
Which app on your phone do you tend to get the most notifications from?  Facebook probably, or Messenger when I'm chatting to someone. Also, Discord too.
Do you own a Dutch oven? If so, what was the last thing you cooked in it? I don't even know what that is.
What is currently on your kitchen table?  A few decorative things cos we didn't have dinner tonight, we had a huge lunch so we just had toast lol.
What is your favorite time period in history to learn about? History is boring to me.
How old were you when you met your current best friend? I was... 14 cos we met at the start of 2002 before my birthday.
Have you ever kissed a smoker? Most likely.
What is the minimum age to obtain a driver’s license in your state/country? Do you think this is an appropriate age? It's 16, it used to be 15 when I was a teenager. And yes it's appropriate.
If you won the lottery, do you think any of your family members would ask you to give them some of your money? I wouldn't tell them. Only trustworthy people I would give some money would know - like my Mum & Dad, my stepmum, Will and a few of my friends.
What is the craziest thing you’ve seen happen at your workplace? I work at a divorce lawyer's, so I see a lot of extremely angry people. I've had people go into screaming fits, both in person and on the phone, one woman had a meltdown and was throwing a tantrum, one guy punched a wall. It's insane, we have a security officer now.
Do you own any home automation gadgets like wifi thermostats or wifi bulbs? No.
What is something you gave up on after many failed attempts? Driving. I'm too scared to take my practical test lol.
How old were you when you started to seriously think about what career path you wanted to pursue? High school. I kept changing my mind before that.
Have you ever disliked a book so much that you didn’t finish it? Oh yeah, loads. Thankfully most of them were library books so it didn't cost me anything.
Would you rather read a book, or listen to the audiobook? Read. I don't have the attention span for audiobooks, I'd get distracted and my mind would wander.
Do you think tomorrow will be a better day than today? Today's been great, but tomorrow will be even better cos I'm seeing my favourite band live and meeting them!!! <3
Spell your name without any R’s, I’s, G’s, or E’s: My name would hilariously be... Man. I had to get rid of the G and E xD
Is there anyone on your mind? Yep.
Describe your bra: Haha it's a bright purple shade and it's a push up one xD
Do you ever want kids? No thank you. I've never wanted them, and my boyfriend has adult kids and doesn't want any more xD
What are you looking forward to this summer? Summer literally just ended for us haha.
How are you doing in school? -
What color do you like most today? Purple.
Rain or sunny? Sunny. Rain sucks, it rained most of today.
Live close to a beach? Loads, but I never really go to the beach.
What does your hair look like, normally? Depends - the day I wash it, it's quite straight. But by the next day, it's gone wavy and then starts to curl up.
What are your thoughts on marijuana? I don't smoke it, and probably never will. But I don't care if other people smoke it whatsoever, you do you. I also voted for it to become legal when they did the referendum for it in NZ.
When was the last time you spent the night with someone? Last night I stayed at my boyfriend's house.
What song are you listening to, if any? The roaming legendary Pokémon battle theme from the B&W soundtrack.
Pretend that you are five years older, what would you be doing right now? The thought of that scares me, lol.
What subjects are you good in? I was always good at Computers/IT, Legal Studies and English.
Ever kissed someone whose name started with an X? Not that I can think of.
Any complaints? I hope the rain stops before tomorrow cos waiting outside the venue to go in for the concert won't be fun in the rain cos there's no shelter lol.
What’s your favorite alcoholic beverage? Jim Beam, Malibu or Long Island iced teas.
Do you miss anyone? Sure.
What's the highlight of your morning routine that sets a positive tone for your day? Doing my hair.
Are there any new podcasts or audiobooks that have been accompanying your commutes? I don't have the patience for podcasts.
How do you wind down and relax after a long day? Any particular activities or rituals? I play video games, listen to music and watch YouTube videos.
Have you discovered any hidden gems in your local neighborhood recently? Maybe a new cafe or park? Not really.
What's your go-to way of staying organized and managing your tasks right now? Write them on my calendar or in my phone.
Is there a specific dish you've been cooking or enjoying frequently in your current meal rotation? My meals have been all over the place lately tbh haha. I didn't have dinner today or on Saturday, and I won't have dinner tomorrow either.
Have you made any changes to your exercise routine lately? New workouts or activities? I go to the gym 3 times a week, but this week I'm only going twice cos I was super busy today and I also don't have time tomorrow.
What's a recent small achievement or milestone that you're proud of? Going longer on the treadmill when I do go to the gym, lol.
Are there any movies or TV shows you're re-watching and finding new details in? I've been rewatching Big Bang Theory a lot lately, it's hilarious, I don't care what people say.
How do you stay inspired and creative during your work or free time these days? Dunno tbh.
Have you come across any interesting articles, websites, or online communities recently? I've been reading a lot of TVTropes.
What's the latest hobby or interest you've picked up, and what drew you to it? All my hobbies are the same as usual.
What's the most memorable interaction you've had with someone today? I had lunch with my Mum for her birthday and while we were eating, the waitress came to ask how our food was - my Mum couldn't answer cos she was eating her steak, I said it was good. After she'd moved on, my Mum said "I couldn't reply cos I had my mouth full of meat" xDDDDDDDDDD I just stared at her and then we both just broke down laughing xD It was so funny.
How do you inject moments of positivity into your daily routine, no matter how busy it gets? Oh, loads of things.
Are there any personal projects you're working on right now that bring you joy? Eh...
What's a current goal that's shaping the choices you make on a daily basis? Just losing weight.
Have you visited any local events or markets that have given your weekends a unique flavor? Does wrestling events count xD
How do you stay connected with friends and family despite your busy schedule? I talk to most of my friends and my boyfriend via Facebook messenger or text, and my online friends via Discord. I'm allowed to use Discord at work when it's quiet xD
What's the most interesting thing you've learned recently, whether intentionally or by chance? Dunno.
How do you maintain a balance between screen time and other activities in your day? Hahaha, funny. My weekly average of screen time on my phone is 4 and a half hours a day lol.
Have you experimented with any new methods of relaxation or mindfulness lately? No.
What's your strategy for making the most of your weekends and recharging for the week ahead? Um.
Have you been dedicating time to any DIY projects or crafts that reflect your creativity? No.
How do you incorporate learning and personal growth into your everyday life? I read Reddit a lot, and I love looking at random Wikipedia articles xD
What's a unique tradition or habit that you've cultivated recently, making each day special? Uh....
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Promo time!!!
Oop I can already see drama from the hovering over the video for just a second 😭
Okay let's do this xD
AAAAHHAUGH he should've 😭
But also I mean he does have a right to be mad xd
Hmm it's not really BECAUSE of him though
True though not an apology, especially since he probably came to him with it as an apology xd
AAAHHH NEW PEOPLE!!
SLFKGDLSJS "I'm about to pee myself" "Please do not" girl fr xD mood lol. And please don't, but also she seems sweet :D she's so excited to meet him :)
Heard there would be another autistic doctor looking up to Shawn and this is really cool!!
Hope it goes well :D
Writing wise mostly lol
I mean all med students do lol
Is that xD? I figured it's from a different conversation than that topic but eh maybe not! Either way she seems cool :)
Bro looks annoyed before the how we learn bit btw lol xD the bit before the wave
Oope 😳 o.o contaminateddd
Hmm well yeah bestie that is how it works sometimes
Sorry xD I know you're/she's probably just trying to be clear lol not necessarily in shock but honestly that's also valid
Just not time for that in an OR necessarily lol
Oop "Leave. Now" o.o
Gosh I hope this goes well xD
Anyway!! I'm so excited :DD
That's the last of my last thoughts on the promo, so now it's time for the. . .
REVIEW
I loved this episode!! I thought it was a really good premiere and having it be all about babies was fun :D. Obviously with other stuff going on but given that that was one of the big/biggest events from last season (two of the biggest, if we include Eden), specifically the end of last season, so it makes sense to have the episode kind of centered around that :)). But in a thematic way so it's not just one or two babies :), if that makes sense? Yeah, sure, it does :D. Anyway, I really liked it :)). And I'm SO glad they all survived lol xD 😅.
Now! Onto personal bits :))
They'll be short because I actually did decide to do this tonight lol
Missing Danny <33 glad he's doing well though, and that he and Jordan are still in contact and on okay terms :)). I hope he comes back one day but with just one season left, for character arc reasons I hope he doesn't xd. Unless there's a flash forward, which would be rude because I deserve to see him come back lol. Anyway!
Marcus just screwing off is amazing xD. Yk what, after everything he's done (like worked hard I mean and been through some stuff), he deserves it xD. And I'm happy he and Dalisay are happy and good :DD. Good for them :)). Ik the actor quit to focus on his political career but I do hope he comes back for the end :). Just like Antonia and a ghost vision of Melendez lol xDD.
Lim and Glassman fighting over the President position - but in an opposite way xD? - was great lol xD. I love these two idiots. Plus, like I said, the serious mixed with joking tone was fun lol. Anyway, they slayed 😌
The Asher Jordan bestieism :D. But I really hope we actually get more of that in the future :((. I love Asher and Jerome (I would say as much as the next person but I love them way more than that xD, I absolutely adore them lol) but I feel bad for Jordan :(, and I need me that bestieism time <3. Related and separate concerns lol. Anyway, while I hope he spends more time with Jordan in the future I do get it and I don't really blame him much lol. But yeah, he slays, I'm sure Jerome was slaying too, they slayed <3.
I'm glad Jordan has Kalu back now :)). Honestly I was not thinking that would be his avoidance reason but it's interesting! A good reason writing wise but I am glad they made up a bit :D :) also that takeout bit at the end was so cute 🥰 them <3
Y'all I was stressed about Park and Morgan this episode 😭😭 xd. I didn't think that after all this "work" like put into the storyline they would kill Eden but gosh was I scared xd. I'm so happy he and Jack survived though :'D :')). And I loved the bond they formed as parents <33. Also hallelujah that the parent issues didn't last for another episode, I was scared it would but I'm so glad Morgan took at least a step into accepting Park into that more <33. Bc he was so valid for wanting her to acknowledge his love and effort more, and I'm glad she did :'). I love them both so much :D <333 :) 🥰. Anyway, I'm so glad everyone's okay <33
Once again I just really feel for Jordan 😭. It sucks to feel like others are leaving you behind and I just really hope/want the best for her <33. It's such an isolating feeling so I hope it goes away for her soon, at least mostly. I'm glad she has Kalu now too :').
Shaun and Lea once again just out here doing their best :')). Like I said, I like that their small disagreement didn't last too long. Not that the small ones necessarily always do on the show, I'm just saying this one was small. I just like that Shaun noticed it and talked through it without needing any- prompting, I guess :). Like neither of them had to have a big moment where they knew they had to bring into, they just lived, tried, and adjusted :))). I really loved that :D <33. Also, stop, they're just so cute <333. Anyway, Steve is adorable :D, and I love them all so much :) <3. Also the bit with Glassman at the end is just aaOUGH still going so insane over that dynamic and always will (be). It's just so interesting that even when they're not really speaking, Shaun will still confide when he's at a low point, even almost can't help it, and Glassman will still be there for him and take care of the baby <3. Y'all I love them so much 😭😭❤️. Ill over them <33. Also the ending scene was just so real (literally, was so just. . . idk yeah, real xD. I can't personally relate.to that exactly but it was just really tangible, you could really feel that, and I ADORED that about it, just loved it) and good. AUOGHH!! Loved it <33.
Overall, I really enjoyed this episode!! I thought it was super great and I loved the theme, plus there were just so much good scenes that felt so real and raw. Also let us not ignore the amazing emotions and acting from the pair of parents for Jack and Morgan and Park, wow, knocked it out of the part :'o (yes, my brain- zoned out while I was saying that and don't know what I was meaning, but you get the vibe - it was amazing, lol). Everything felt so charged and so great :D. Just loved it!!
Soo, yeah! I really enjoyed this episode, I thought it was great. It was a really good transition from last season and I like that :)). The next episode looks super interesting!
This has been my review of. . .
The Good Doctor, Season 7, Episode 1: Baby, Baby, Baby
I loved it! I'm really excited for the next episode! I think it's going to be an interesting storyline and I hope it goes in a cool direction :D.
I'll be back next week with my review of. . .
The Good Doctor, Season 7, Episode 2: Skin in the Game
See you then!!
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Tonight, Xichen and A-Yao were having a date in New Fangfei pavilion (A-Yao's Jing Manor residence apartment/mansion)
Xichen: I'm so glad to hear that Wen qing had met her family.
Yao: right. *sips* I find that it was really emotional.
Like when my A-niang came back.
Xichen: yes. And A-Yao, I must commend you on your hospitality.
Bringing her to the cloud recesses and accommodating transport.
Yao: that's how guests are treated in Jingjing. And not only Jingjing, but the whole empire.
Xichen: *caresses face* that's great.
Yao: mn.
*kisses Xichen's hand* would you like some more snacks?
*hands him a plate of bean cakes*
Xichen: sure.
*takes a bite*
Your chefs are really gifted in the culinary arts.
Yao: I agree.
*wipes the crumbs from on the side of Xichen's mouth*
Xichen: ohh. *blush*
Yao: Yunping Xichen is still Yunping xichen I see. *laugh*
Xichen: because my Yunping A-Yao is there to take care of me.
Yao: awwww.
Xichen: how didn't team dimple barge in and take you away?
Yao: because they respect me. But if you snatch me from them, then they'll have a problem.
Xichen: ohhh. So they'll allow it if it's your wish, lol.
Yao: mhm. Well I'm their Huangdi and boss.
They think what I say goes.
Xichen: that's right.
Yao: *fixing his clothes* it's beginning to feel cold.
Xichen: *covers him with his outer robe*
Maybe we should snuggle together, in bed.
Yao: mn.
Xichen: *hugs*
Both: *began snuggling in bed*
Xichen: warm now?
Yao: yes, er ge.
Xichen: *caressing his dimple*
Yao: *blushing*
Xichen: so what's up, Huangdi?
Yao: in your arms.
Xichen: would you stay?
Yao: where else would I go?
Xichen: *smile*
Yao: er ge. I'm planning for the future.
Of my Song'er.
Xichen: that's great. And Song'er grew up to be such a strong and well mannered young man.
Yao: mhm.
His future is really bright.
And thanks to your tutoring.
Xichen: thanks to your upbringing.
He'll make a marvelous Huangdi some day.
Yao: yes indeed.
Xichen: *kisses*
Yao: *closes his eyes*
Xichen: A-Yao. Your empire is flourishing and it will forever flourish. A lot of hulijings are now respected and honoured because of you. And~~
Yao: *fast asleep*
Xichen: asleep already? You were always the last to fall asleep.
*admires* he's so cute. And he snores like a cat.
Xichen: he's exhausted from imperial work. Hmm.
A-Yao, I will always be by your side.
Even if I have to fight 10 sets of team dimple.
*rests A-Yao's head on the pillow.*
Xichen afterwards lights the incense burner, which had the incense that Wei wuxian gave to A-Yao.
Then he lay back down, next to him.
"Goodnight, A-Yao."
.
Xichen quickly fell asleep soon after, with A-Yao tucked in his arms and robes.
But then when the incense began to burn and let out its smoke a while later, xichen began to have strange dreams.
As if he was teleporting through a psychedelic void, then he was walking through his own memories.
First, he's looking at his childhood self in the cloud recesses, then he's looking at himself talking to Lan wangji about his crush. Then lastly, he got teleported to Yunping.
Xichen: is this real?!
Why am I back in Yunping.
Thereafter a young A-Yao, comes out of nowhere.
Xichen: *aroused by him* A-Yao.
Yao: er ge, I was looking for you all over. I prepared your bath.
Xichen: Huangdi?? That's sweet of you Huangdi.
You're really husband material.
Yao: *blushing* oh my. And how did you know that I was the hulijing emperor? *nervous* er ge?
Xichen: *walking towards him* maybe instincts, *smile* your majesty.
Yao: *stepping back nervously* I'm not huangdi yet....er ge....well I am, but not technically. I didn't......have my enthronement yet......*blushing*
I'm A-Yao, remember?
Xichen: you're really cute, you know that?
Yao: *blushing* er ge. Y....your water is getting cold.
Xichen: oh really, Foxy?
(Dream sequence ends)
~~~
Xichen: *undresses A-Yao*
Yao: *wakes up* A-HUAN! A-HUAN!! *startled*
Xichen: Huangdi needs to take a bath.
Yao: n...no....Xichen. I'm still in bed.
Xichen: *caresses his lips and chest*
Yao: *confused*
Xichen: I'll help you, Huangdi.
Yao: what has gotten into you? And why  is your voice so deep?! Are you and Hanguang Jun doing a competition to see who has the deepest voice!!
Xichen: *undressing himself* is my voice sexy? A-Yao.
Yao: *laughing* very sexy.
Are you drunk.
Xichen: whenever I see that face. *fondles his thigh* A-Yao Huangdi.
Hulijing emperor.
Yao: possessed by xue yang?
Xichen: no, but you do things to my yang. Hulijing emperor.
Yao: *nods* Huanhuan.
Xichen: *sucks his neck* why did you tell me that you're not the emperor yet?
Yao: when did I say that?
Xichen: just now there. In my dream.
Yao: in your dream?!
*glances* (shoot! He lit the incense burner, with the incense Wei Gongzi gave me. Guess I got to play along) because, HuanHuan. Title doesn't matter.
Xichen: you're right. *whispers in his ear* now call me Lan gege.
Yao: Lan gege.
Xichen: without the Lan this time. *lifts chin* say it now.
Yao: Huan, I will tell team dimple that you're ordering me.
Xichen: sorry sorry, my sexy Huangdi.
Yao: *kisses deeply* gege.
Xichen: good Huangdi.
Can you. *grabs wrists* Lick my ear and call me gege again?
Yao: *folds arms* why?!
Xichen: cuz I would die if you don't.
Yao: don't you think you're a bit too dramatic?
Xichen: *caresses chin* you're my life, A-Yao. And I don't want to lose it. But if I do, I'm losing for you.
Yao: sometimes Minshan is right about you. You are corny. *joking*
Xichen: are you seduced by it?
*rests his liebing flute on the tip of A-Yao's nose*
Yao: pretty much!
*licks ear* gege.
Xichen: mmmmmm.
Super hot.
Xichen: i just feel like!!.*ties him up with his headband.*
Yao: how dare you tie me up, you mischievous Lan.
Xichen: cuz you're my property.
Yao: and you're MY harem member.
Xichen: well I must satisfy my Huangdi.
And those sexy looking dimples.
Yao: what a handful.
Huan, go to bed..You need rest.
Xichen: no. I want to make out with you.
Yao: oh dear.
Xichen: done!
Yao: aren't you afraid of me bursting it? Er ge?
Xichen: I won't mind, A-Yao. *kisses*
There was a knock on the door.
*from outside* Huangdi, your extra midnight tea. May I come in?
Xichen: *covers Ayao with a blanket* how dare you disturb my emperor at this hour!!!! I'll stab you! Or amputate your leg!
Yao: (why did he suddenly turn into minshan?)
Forgive me your Excellency.
Yao: serve the tea to Rusong Dianxia if he's still awake.
Yes Huangdi.
Xichen: *kisses* they had the audacity.
Yao: it's fine.
Xichen: I love you! *kisses his hand*
Yao: will you untie me?
Xichen: not yet, A-Yao.
*embraces him, then sniffed his hair and behind the ears* A-Yao, you always smell so sweet.
Yao: hmm.
Huan, you shouldn't scold my staff.
Xichen: *sniffles him* I'm sorry.
Yao: forgiven!!
Xichen: *makes him lay flat on his stomach, then began doing papapa*
Yao: *panting*
Xichen: *groans* A-Yao. A-Yao I wanted to do this for the longest while but that wicked, entitled team dimple keeps blocking me!! Finally I get to love you! Finally.
Yao: *feeling blissful*
Xichen: how dare they drill me. You're mine and mine alone! Where the hell did these three come from.
Yao: er ge. Don't bash them. They're very close to me.
Xichen: A-Yao. I love you, A-Yao.
And you should understand that I get tension whenever team d is around. They're like a protective fence. What if I want a taste of those juicy dimples too?! Think about me, team d.
Yao: ok ok, er ge. I understand. But can you slow down at least.
Xichen: but it feels so good!
Yao: *trying to catch his breath*
You horny Lans
*eyes flashed gold* dare to take advantage of Huangdi. *subtly hits him with some energy.
Xichen: *falls asleep* 
Yao: *smiling* goodnight er ge. *touches face* you funny Lan.
*uses a teleportation talisman on him to teleport him to Huan hall.
~~~~~
Next morning poor A-Yao is unwell and unable to walk. Yet he was being attended by his staff, physician and team D.
Yao: ouch. *moves my hip*
Xiying: Huangdi, have some more soup.
Huangdi, you should use this oil. It would get rid of the pain.
Fuying: what happened to our beautiful Huangdi?
Yao: don't ask.
Fuying: yes Huangdi. *bow*
Attendants: *massaging his head, and arms*
Huangdi, your bite marks are healed.
Yao: excellent.
May we continue massaging?.
Yao: yea guys, every part of me is sore.
Our emperor is really delicate.
He has beautiful, delicate skin!.
Poor Huangdi.
Xue yang: Jiggylicious, I thought you don't get sore.
What happened with you and Lan lips.
Yao: I think he lit the incense burner.
Xue yang: so he was high! Ahahahaha!!!
Yao: maybe so.
Mo xuanyu: omg the incense burner? Like the lan one? I heard that it makes Lans perceive their desires through dreams and hallucinations
But I thought it was a myth.
Yao: it's true!
Xue yang: obviously that's dr*gs.
Su she: told you guys Xichen has a hidden agenda. He's evil. All Lans are evil. My emperor, how should I be at your aid?
Yao: support the pillow under my back.
Su she: sure darling. I'll fluff it as well.
Yao: you're so delightful.
Xichen: *entering, not remembering half the things that happened* morning A-Yao. How are you?
Su she: LAN XICHEN!!!! *unsheaths Nanping* I WILL KILL YOUUUU!!!!!
Xichen: hey hey, put away your sword. What happened to you?
Su she: no! What happened to you! How dare you misbehave with my Huangdi!!
Mo xuanyu: Yao gege can't even walk because of you!
Xue yang: did you guys break the bathtub, or the bed? What did you break?
Xichen: A-Yao.
Su she: dont you dare say his name!!!!! Call him Huangdi!!! And kneel too!!
Xichen: Su she calm down.
Su she: I AM CALM!!
Xichen:  but you're red with anger.
Su she: that's it, I'm beheading him. *rushes*
Xichen: *runs*
Mo xuanyu: Shanshan, Shanshan stop. Wait no. Behead Lan lips. Look at our Yao gege's condition. You have no respect for him.
Xue yang: *laughing*
Yao: that's enough.   
Su she: *stands protectively near A-Yao.*
Xichen: what happened last night? All I remember is the date and then we had papapa. I thought it was a dream.
Su she: idiot.
Yao: darling, I don't blame you though. It was some incense I got from Wei gongzi.
Xichen: you drugged me?!
Yao: not really! It was an experiment gone wrong!
Xichen: and out of all the people, you got it from Wei wuxian! He's crazy.
Yao: dude that's your brother-in-law!
Xichen: doesn't make him more sane, A-Yao.
He makes the worst decisions and gives the worst advice.
Yao: you're the one who lit the incense burner, Mr Xichen. Cuz I fell asleep first!
You woke me up and decided to undress me!
Xichen: how am I supposed to think straight when you're this hot.
And you were going to light it anyways.
Yao: but I didn't know that you were going to be that horny.
Mo xuanyu: can you two stop bickering like a married couple. Even though you are. I'm getting jealous.
Xue yang: let them bicker nah. And if they stop, then Shanshan would Nanping Xichen's ass.
Yao: Huan.
Xichen: I'm sorry A-Yao.
Xichen: do you need anything?
Yao: *pouts* no. I'm good for now, Huan.
Mo xuanyu: you better go to horny jail.
Su she: I hate you.
Xue  lipsy, you need to chill. 
You know Jiggy is the boss of the bed
Yao: Huan gege.
Xichen: *blush* yes A-Yao.
Yao: you were really cute.
Xichen: *smiles warmly*
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orderd a cd of tehillim by steve reeich for no reason other than that i was sitting thinking hmm i need more steve reich in my life and saw some1 seling it for super cheap and was like ok lemme getit lol. also like always wanna hear stuff to like maybe not inspire is the right word i mean i guess it is but like listening to cool shit ive never heard b4 really does fire me up if it hits right and ill feel real energized to record stuff naturally and will put me in a productive mood . also ordered cluster 2 a few days ago. yayyy i tired REAELLY hard to record some more music tonight but just didnt produce anything i thnk rly stood out but gonna relisten to what i recorded later tonight b4 going to bed to see how it rly sounds. am having soooo much difficulty coming up w/ a melodica track i want atleast just one melodica track or two but its sooo hard idk i love the melodica but its hard capturing its beauty on a recording in the way i play especially. like its p hard but i def want a melodica track but ill see i dont knoooooow i do think im almost done w/ it i still havent decided on what would be a good opening track tho idk if i should try to record something to be a good opener or if i should decide on an existing track to be the opener. its hard to choose cause i feel like its a p big thing what the opener is. tho i do have a track that would perfectly for the closer which is rly great yayy.
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(136-150 albums etc that I’ve listened to this year, copied from twitter) (now with art. [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11])
names and thoughts below cut
136/ Proc Fiskal - RT Hon (2023) absurdly cool hi tech sound de sign it fills a neat space where it's not "heavy" but it's not "chill" either.
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137/ VA - SPC 18 (2023) absolutely insane turnout for this one! namedropping hilites: "doodack beta" BANGER. MASSIV. "a, b, or d-side?" cute :D "NO MORE SUICIDES" MASSIVELY UNDERRATED MINDBENDER. ERFBOUND. "the most average cbat in ohio" mad decent B)
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138/ Dialed - Dials And Tribulations (2023) a nice chillout idm sort of flavor kinda late 00s sound somewhat? alright all around
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139/ Jesper Kyd - Warhammer 40K: Darktide OST (2022) i got a comment abt JK's electostyle shining in here and… partial agree. the man loves his epic orch but when he pulls out the synths he goes hard. much love for both in "Transmission Commences". +holy shit "Disposal Unit"!
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140/ Keiichi Suzuki - Mother Revisited (2021) this is a heartfelt reprise of the more human side of earthbound's soundtrack. ("mostly" because… wow there's some psychedelics here.) sadly overall not quite my cup of tea, but i cant help but admire the, well… heart.
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141/ GRiZ - Rebel Era (2013) man this griz fellow makes some sexy music. finally, some funk in my wobs!
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142/ Machine Girl - 13th Hour EP (2013) hmm. this doesn't quite vibe with me and i can't place why. except "Trigger Finger", which feels like an odd one out?
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143/ Falcon Funk - Falcon Funk EP (2013) i am excited to announce that koan sound is not the only funky wob dude kicking ass in the early 10s. final track is a bit weak, drifting into some less funky style. feels misplaced. but the first three tracks? hell to the yeah.
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144/ Pegboard Nerds - The Lost Tracks (2013) two big highlights here for me: "FrainBreeze" holy hell an absolute banger opening. i love the FUNK "Lawless" is absolutely WILD to me. im down for the hard acid throwback. but the rest? still really good actually!
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145/ Stenny & Andrea - Vostok Smokescreen (2013) the synths float and the drums have a lovely texture. exactly the kind of kind-of-techno hazy-but-not-really vibes that i needed tonight.
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146/ KNOWER - Let Go (2013) oh yeah, i just remembered. i really really love the stabby synthy jazzy vibe these guys pull off. i honestly thought "time travler" wouldn't hold without anonymoose's video but wow it still slaps. hot damn.
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147/ Genevieve Artadi - Forever Forever (2023) honestly sounds like it could've come from cuneiform. like a particularly relaxed Thinking Plague. soft and luxurious.
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148/ Fantastic Plastic Machine - Scale (2013) man. there's a lot here but i'm struggling to mesh with it. this feels like FPM wanted a piece of that fidget electro swingy houseish action and then… produced something thatd steamroll a 1998 set, but in 2013… bluh :\
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149/ Flume - Arrived Anxious, Left Bored (2023) massive and l u s h . this is a funny spot where i just had a good time so idk what to add lol. its good!
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150/ Flare - DOTS (2013) man, ken ishii always hits just right for me. lots of raw synth stuff but with just enough of a liquid bed to sit comfortably. feels like a really great combo of "old vibes" and new.
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break ups and break ins
a/n: i didn't have any motivation to continue writing so it stayed in my drafts for forever. it's a super messy fic im not super proud of tbh i wanted to scrap it but i got so far lol
genre: angst to fluff
pairing: hawks x reader
summary: you and hawks break up, but someone breaks in?
word count: 3.7k+
09.16.21
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"come on, stop being so sensitive," hawks groans with an eye roll as you gawk at him. "you think i'm being sensitive because I'm hurt that you're out there flirting with other girls while we are in a relationship?"
you scoff in disbelief before tears form in your eyes, "i can't believe you right now, keigo."
hawks' brows knit as he stares at you bewildered, "i've already told you that it's just an act i have to out up because of the commission. i can't let them figure out i have a romantic relationship with someone. you don't know what they would do or could do."
"but that doesn't mean you can flirt around with no boundaries!" your voice comes out loud as your arms flail out in front of you, tears streaming down your face, "do you know how much it hurts to see you on television sweet-talking every girl out there when you're my boyfriend? i thought you would respect what we have..."
"(name), just admit you're just jealous of the fangirls and leave it at that," hawks closes his eyes, shaking his head in frustration, "honestly, they appreciate me so much more than you do."
your eyes widen in shock as you feel your heart shattering into tiny pieces so small you aren't sure if you could piece it back up.
"keigo, i love you for who you are—not because you're hawks," your voice now small and laced with hurt. "if you can't see the reason why i am so upset, i think it's best if we end it."
hawks' eyes quickly glance to yours before they look away just as quick, "i think that's what's best too," he whispers, causing your brows to furrow in sadness as you purse your lips tightly.
taking a step forward, you wrap your arms around your now ex-boyfriend, taking in his comforting arms and smell, "thanks for everything." a heavy sigh left from his lips before he nuzzled into you, "can i hold you in bed one last time?"
words died in your throat as you felt the tears sting your eyes once more. a nod was your only reply as hawks lifted the two of you up with his large wings, carrying you into the bedroom.
no words were exchanged as the two of you allowed your quiet breaths to mingle together in silence.
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your heart was still achey from the fresh break-up as your cries and tears quietly filled the air. your nose and eyes red and raw from all the wiping you had done—the tissues around you as proof.
"hey, come on. you can't keep living like this and expect to get better," mirko says and she stands infront of you with a small smile. "how about we watch something to distract your mind?" she suggests as she turns around to pick up the controller to turn the television screen on.
"hawks, being the number two hero must be so taxing! how do you do it?"
hawks gives that big bright smile you've always loved, "my fans always give me motivation to do my best! i love you my babybirds!"
"oh shit-" mirko quickly turns the television screen off before she turns over to you, watching as your lips quiver before you break out in another crying session.
"rumi," you whine, muffled behind your tissues, "he doesn't care for me at all!" letting out a sigh, she walks over and places a comforting hand on your hair before running her hand through your locks, "hey, don't say that. hawks' cared for you a lot. break-ups happen, but don't let it keep you like this. let's go out and have some fun today, yeah?"
your teary eyes glance up at her before you let out sigh, "okay."
but to your surprise, a quick hour later here you were on a chair getting your makeup done professionally as mirko sat on the couch, munching away on a carrot. "rumi? why am i getting my makeup done professionally?"
"my makeup artist is good at what she does when she beats my face with makeup for those hero galas. i thought it would make you feel better getting your makeup done professionally before we go out and explore the city a bit," she finishes, taking another crunchy bite of her carrot.
a small, "oh" leaves your lips before your attention focuses back on the lipstick that gently glided across your lips. "there, all done. you look great!" the makeup artist cheers as she hands you a mirror.
your eyes sparkled once you saw your reflection—you had never felt so pretty before!
"are you ready to go out now?" mirko asks with a smile as she stands from her seat. you couldn't help the small, yet excited, smile, "yeah."
-
your words had been on repeat in hawks' mind.
you were upset because of how he was treating his fans—flirting with his fans as you put it. it was a constant argument the two of you had and frankly, he was getting tired of it. why you couldn't understand where he was coming from?
he didn't want to break up because of something so trivial, but it seemed like a break up was the only option. but it was fine, his fans kept him going; or that's what he thought was keeping him going.
"hawks! we love you!" his fans cried as he landed down in front of them, his handsome smile swooning everyone lucky enough to get their eye on him. "thanks birdies! i'm always happy to have your support!"
"can i have a picture?" "sign my shirt for me!" "you're the best hero!"
fans; something he enjoyed about being a hero. everywhere he went, they were there to offer him their love and support which he appreciated and loved!
but there often came days when he just wanted to stay cooped in his apartment. away from the world and away from the hero hawks. he simply wanted to escape and enjoy being keigo for a little while.
maintaining a facade took a lot away from him. it was tiring, exhausting even, trying to keep up with how fast his mind was going. a million different things happening at once and hawks had to be able to solve them. a little much for a single guy, don't 'cha think?
landing in at his balcony, hawks let out a heavy sigh as he was finally done with another tiring day of being the number two hero. thankfully, he had the next day off to do, well, nothing.
staring at the dark apartment with a an empty look, hawks let out a groan of exhaustion before unlocking the door and stepping in.
it was quiet, extra quiet these days. since he had gone to living by himself again.
after removing his hero gear, hawks walked into the kitchen and frowned at his lack of food in the fridge. usually, you were always there to greet him with a smile and a hearty dinner after a hard day at work.
well, that didn't matter anymore because you two had broken up, hawks mentally responded to his thoughts.
it seemed like tonight was one of those nights he really missed you.
you made this place feel like home and the more he thought about it, you were his home. he was safe with you and it was okay to let hawks go for the night and just be keigo. you loved him as he came, his flaws and everything. even the emotional baggage!
letting out an exhausted sigh, hawks closed his empty fridge before making his way towards his bed, plopping down with a grunt. "i'll just get a bigger breakfast tomorrow," he noted, pulling out his phone to catch up on his social media for the night.
hawks wasn't expecting to see much on his social media, he's too busy to be checking these sorts of things. today though, he was a little extra bored at home—until he saw a photo of you that mirko shared.
hawks quickly sat up in disbelief. hawks was genuinely confused. you had always been super pretty, but you were extra pretty in this picture. was it because you were no longer his? his eyes glanced over you in the photo for many long minutes as he took in your beauty. you looked so ethereal.
hawks was so thankful for mirko, he would have never stumbled across this photo of you.
the more he smiled at the photo, the more his heart ached. if only he just listened to you more and tried to find a solution to this problem, you would still be with him, in his arms. he was a fool to let you go because he didn't understand your pain. especially when you were always there for him when you couldn't understand his pain.
hawks found himself pulling up that photo of you whenever the days were tough. it never failed to bring a smile to his lips.
until mirko deleted the post.
he should've saved it when he had the chance, hawks thought as he let out a groan upon finding no picture. but, maybe mirko still had it on her phone? thankfully, there was a top five hero meeting that day which meant he could ask mirko about the picture.
hawks sat impatiently in his chair as he drummed his finger against his thigh, counting down the minutes until the meeting would conclude. it must've been distracting, because mirko approached him first after the meeting.
"hey birdbrain, what's up with you? you looked distracted during the meeting," mirko questioned walking up to the winged hero. hawks perked up slightly, before giving her a smile, "hmm? nah, just sick of meetings, wanted to get out." mirko eyed him curiously, "if you say so."
"i saw that picture you posted of (name)," he commented, "you two were hanging out?"
"huh? oh, this picture?" pulling up the picture on her phone, she showed him the photo before pulling away to hawks' dismay. "yeah, we went out. it was about time too! (name) seemed to be enjoying herself, so i'm glad i got to capture that."
hawks couldn't help the smile on his lips knowing that you were happy and could enjoy yourself. he really just wanted you to be happy, even if that wasn't with him.
"if you wanted the photo, you could've just asked," mirko smirks, causing hawks to duck his head down in embarrassment. "but even if you ask, im not giving it to you." Hawks turned his head brows furrowed and confused, slightly offended, "why would you even suggest it then?"
"not sure, maybe it'll be a way to encourage you to find a way to get it."
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mirko had an interesting way of talking, hawks thought as he continued on with his patrol. it seemed like she was hinting at more than what she was saying, but he wasn't really interested in solving puzzles when he was busy being the number 2 hero.
and boy, was he busy busy.
it felt as if all the villains knew hawks would be out on patrol today, using that to their advatange by stiring up so much more trouble than on a typical day—not that he couldn't handle it, it was just more work that he would have hoped to do that day.
from the sky, he could see a crowd forming below on the streets as they cheered him on for another successful capture. hawks let out an exhausted sigh, but floated down to greet his fans nonetheless. there even happened to be press.
"hawks! you were amazing out there!" "great work! i can always count on you!" "you looked so attractive fighting those villains!"
hawks lifted up his visor and gave the fans a handsome grin, causing a chorus of squeals. hawks glanced at one of the fans near him lips curled in a smirk, mouth ready to open and say a few lines that would send arrows straight to the heart when he subconsciously stopped himself.
closing his mouth, he gave her a gentle smile before a soft reply came out, "thank you for supporting me."
it was weird of him to respond to fans in such fashion, but your words were stuck in the back of his head. he wished he could have acted this way before you two broke it off, it would have saved a lot of heartache.
hawks hoped you would notice his change. and unbeknownst to him, you had.
your eyes were glued to the television that aired the news that also happened to feature your ex-boyfriend, hawks. your heart felt fuzzy as you watched him, he seemed different...more down to earth?
"your eyes haven't left the tv since hawks appeared," mirko comments causing you to avert your eyes embarrassed. "i was just interested in the news for today, that's all," you tried but knew mirko wouldn't buy into your lie.
"yeah, okay. keep telling yourself that," she chuckles as she she sits down beside you. "so, whats going on in that head of yours now?"
"he's different now, rumi," you state, eyes drifting back to the screen. "he's talking to his fans like they're fans." your shoulders slump sadly, "i wish he was like this when we were together...i guess he really doesn't care about me after all."
mirko lets out a grunt as she listens to your moping. turning towards her, you notice her adjusting her purple thigh high socks to sit snugly against her upper thighs, "you have patrol this evening?"
"yep, my turn for an evening patrol. they're not that bad, more bad guys come out at night," she jokes with chuckle but you don't find it funny. "i know you can easily beat them, but that doesn't mean i worry any less for you," you sigh. "stay safe please."
"will do, cry baby," she jokes once more causing you to angrily pout, "i'm not a cry baby!" "says the one crying over hawks. bye!" and with that she quickly leaves out the door before you could throw a pillow at her.
rolling your eyes playfully, you walk over toward the bedroom you shared with mirko. you had a nice futon on the floor beside of her bed that surprisingly was very comfy. organizing her room a bit and folding her clothes she tossed around, you tried to busy yourself until she came back.
which was surprisingly short.
you heard the main door swing open before hearing her move around the living room and kitchen. she must've forgotten something, you thought to yourself as you made your way toward the bedroom door you had previously closed behind you.
"rumi? did you forget something?" you ask as you open the door, just to find yourself staring at the stranger in the apartment who donned a black ski mask with some sort of weapon in their hand. unfortunately your voice had caught their attention and their head quickly turned toward you before bolting it down the hallway for you.
screaming, you quickly shut the door and locked it before the thief could get in. the rattle of the doorknob causes you to let out another shriek as you looked around for a way to protect yourself and to escape.
the only solution that came to your mind was to block the door with whatever heavy furniture mirko had on her room which consisted of her bed, a desk and her clothes drawers. you did your best to block the door, but it was proving to be not enough.
"open the door and i won't hurt you miss," the voice called out and you felt your stomach twist from their words.
you scurried around to look for your phone and thankfully found it amongst this chaos and your body went on auto-pilot and dialed the first person that came to your mind whenever you were in danger.
your shaky hand brought your phone to your ear as you ran into the furthest corner of her room. your free hand covering your trembling lips. please pick up.
"hello? (name)?"
"keigo please help me," you cried quietly so the person on the other side couldn't hear you, but the desperation in your voice was clear as day for hawks. "(name)? whats happening? where are you?" his voice was now firm and laced with worry as you began to sob in through the phone.
"i'm at mirko's and she just left for patrol but someone broke in and i hid myself in her room. i'm so scared, please come quick." and right after he heard you squeak in fear from the unidentified noises through your phone.
"i'm coming right now," you could hear the power his wings had as he lift himself into the sky, "does she have any windows you can exit from?" glancing behind you, you took a mental note that her windows were large enough for you to escape through—the only problem was mirko lived on the tenth floor.
squeezing your eyes shut, you nodded even though hawks could not see you, "yeah, but she doesn't have any escape ladders and i'm on the tenth floor." hawks cursed under his breath on the other side, "just hold on, i'm almost there."
clutching onto your phone, you jumped when the barricade you made against the door was getting tossed around from the force of the stranger on the other side trying to break in. scrambling around, you quickly unlocked the window before opening it, allowing the wind to flow in.
with another jolt from the door all of your barricades flew from the door, leaving it vulnerable. you knew the door would fall with his next move, so with trembling hands, you maneuvered your body outside the window, letting your bottom sit on the window frame.
from a distance, you could hear someone calling out your name. when you narrowed your eyes to focus, all of the stress left your body as you watched them shoot towards you. hawks had come to your rescue!
but hawks wasn't close enough.
the door behind you broke allowing the stranger into the room and before they could grab a hold of you, you jumped.
"(name)!"
as your body free fell down towards the earth, hawks used his wings to give himself one strong push forward before folding his wings tightly behind his back to gain speed to reach you.
reaching his arms out, he caught you in time before shooting back up towards the sky, "that was so stupid of you!" you shouted loudly against the wind, "what if i wasn't there in time?"
glancing up at him, you gave him a small smile, "i just knew you'd get to me in time ."
-
"agh, more paperwork i have to fill out!" mirko groans as she walks around her messy apartment after hawks and her had caught the suspect and had cops take care of him. as she walked away into her bedroom with a line of curses, you quietly turned over towards hawks who had his back facing you. he was on call with the commission.
"yep, i'll get that finished tomorrow," ending his call and stuffing his phone in his pocket, he turns around to find you staring at him. his cheeks flush slightly from the sudden eye contact, but he managed to compose himself. "are you doing alright? that must've been quite the terrifying experience."
"yeah, thanks for picking up. you were the first person i thought to call," you confess and he perks up. "oh yeah?"
"you've always kept me safe and i just really needed you when i was in danger. so thanks," giving him a smile he mirrors you. "of course, anything for you."
your heart flutters from his words, but you slightly turn yourself away, glancing down. you two were no longer dating, so there was no need to get butterflies over him again. "well, thanks again. you must have a busy day tomorrow."
"do you buy any chance still have that photo of you when you were out with mirko?" hawks asks suddenly causing you to glance up at him. "you know, when you two went out a couple weeks ago? you were all dolled up and honestly, just super pretty?" hawks says boldly with a sheepish grin.
"why are you asking?"
"send it my way."
you gawked at him, "you want me to send you a picture of me? we're not dating anymore, that would be weird!" hawks could only shrug, "okay, that's simple then. let's go on a date." you gawked even further, "what is going on inside of that bird brain? all this for a photo?"
"i want to be the one who takes those photos of you. i want to be the reason you get all dolled up. i know i messed up, (name). i've been changing the way i talk to my fans because i understand how i hurt you. could you give me another chance to make it better? i promise i will treat you the way you deserve to be treated."
this was coming too suddenly, your wounds were just starting to heal.
"you...you don't mean that, hawks," you say dejectedly as you back up to sit on mirko's couch. "i'm scared."
"he means it you know?" mirko pops out of the hallway suddenly and stands with her arms crossed against her chest as she stares at the two of you. "he's been asking me for that picture nonstop since he saw it online."
"but he really does love you still, (name) and i know you still love him too. go ahead and give it another shot, i'll be here to kick him to the curb if he does anything bad to you." she encourages, making you glance back towards hawks.
"promise?" your eyes are sparkly from the tears that had glossed over your eyes and hawks gives you a confident nod, "promise. i'll pick you up at six tomorrow?"
you couldn't help your growing smile, "yeah, i'll be waiting."
- e x t r a -
as hawks flew off towards his apartment, the notification ding of his phone went off causing him to take a look. you had sent him a text!
opening the message his eyes widen from the photo you sent, it was the cute pic of you all dolled up!
"i'm so in love!" he shouts loudly in the sky.
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miserable-sarah · 2 years
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Life is Hard
Dean x reader
Warnings: Sad, language
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“Hey Y/n are you okay?” Dean asks quietly as he enters your room. “You’ve been distant.” He says sitting next to you. You have no will power to get words out, you’re laying down on the bed just staring at a blank wall. No tears are coming anymore you just feel emotionless but also so emotional. “Y/n?” Dean says shaking you a little
“I don’t know” you say not a hint of your voice behind the words. You’re just mentally checked out. Lately you’ve been ignoring people, avoiding going out, trying to sleep all day and night so you don’t need to deal with the world, at first you told them you were sick but it’s been a while since then.
“Y/n what’s wrong? You haven’t been yourself” he says, you can hear the concern tone in his voice. You flip onto your back and look at him.
“Life is hard” is all you say staring at him the same way you were staring at the wall. Emotionless.
Dean shifts onto the bed laying down with you “yeah, I know” he clears his throat “what’s been going on”
“The whole world is falling apart, my life is a mess, I hate myself, I hate everything about me.” You say truthfully looking at the ceiling “you know I just want to enjoy life, I used to want to travel, not for jobs just actually travel stop at cool places, do cool things, live my life with no regrets, you know like just really experience life. Now here I am waking up every morning coasting through life not even remembering my days because they go by so fast and they’re not worth remembering. I go to sleep every night staring at this same spot on the ceiling wishing my life was over already” your eyes don’t move from the spot
“Y/n..” Dean says with sadness on his voice, he knows he’s part of the problem ever since you got with him hunting has been way more work than usual, I mean demons and people constantly trying to kill you wasn’t part of the plan. “I want you to be happy” he says stroking your hair
“Me too” you say quietly biting your lip now letting a tear roll down your cheek.
“Is it my fault?” He chokes out. You lay on your stomach holding your head up to look at him. Tears are in his eyes, you can tell he’s thinking of breaking up with you for your own good.
“No” you sigh laying on his chest. “I think I just need a break from hunting, I think I need to do things I enjoy, find myself again.” You say rubbing his chest “I think you need to take me on a road trip, no work involved and have a real date” you look up at him. Tears still in his eyes
“I think that’s a great idea” he exhales and pulls you in closer to him holding you “y/n I love you, I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way”
“I love you too Dean. I’ll be okay I just need to escape for a little” you say snaking your arms under him so you’re hugging him, kinda. Dean places a kiss on top of your head
“How about we leave tonight? Hmm? Just get up and go” he says, you look up at him smiling “there’s that beautiful smile” he smiles back at you
“Yeah let’s do that” you kiss him. And lay back down on his chest, you really got lucky with him.
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I just felt like writing something lol
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riridontneedya · 2 years
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IMPERIUM✨
Pairing: Draco Malfoy x Any house Reader, Harry Potter x
Wordcount: 4,210
Warnings: SMUT, ANGST dom ,sub, daddy ,oral, teasing ,praise, spitting , chocking etc run of the mill smut.
A/N : Well the time has come I've finally given in.. I say finally didn't take much conviction lol. Anyway in this universe Dumbledore is still very much alive and no-one tried to kill one another so all is well. As always enjoy and let me know what you think xx
Summary: Draco and y/n battle it out for the new position as headmaster but what happens when they are made to work alongside one another
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“Ladies and gentlemen, if I may have your attention please” spoke Dumbledore. He arose from his chair gently tapping his knife against his chalice in order to garner the crowds attention . Shortly everyones eyes were fixated on him. He cleared his throat and began. “I would like to thank each and everyone one of you for coming out tonight … as we all know its been a tough decision for me to step down, however! .I have no fear as I know the school will be in the safest of hands. I hand picked these two myself and in-fact trust them with my life. I know they have been working tirelessly day in and out to ensure not only my trust .. but all members of committee and most importantly our students. So with that being said when it is revealed in tomorrows assembly who the new headmaster and deputy are I want you both to know ,no matter the outcome I am so proud of you both, so let us raise a toast to our candidates . Y/N Y/M/N Y/L/N and Draco Lucius Malfoy”. With that Dumbledore rose his chalice high in the air smiling warmly at the pair. Everybody followed suit and raised their glasses high in celebration.
Draco and Y/N graciously thanked everyone as they showered them with words of praise and encouragement . Just then Y/n went to speak however her words were abruptly cut short by Astoria. As if an eager child unable to contain her excitement she blurted out. “ Draco and I are so grateful for all the support, so as a thank you after this we will be having refreshments and canapés at the Malfoy manor to celebrate his new position as headmaster .. all are welcome to join”. ‘Headmaster .. oh my how incredibly presumptuous” Y/N chuckled into her drink. “Excuse me” squeaked Astoria, she spun around rapidly locking eyes with Y/n. Y/n folded her arms across her chest and began “I do believe you heard me Astoria .. you said headmaster and thats yet to be revealed so for you to address Draco as said headmaster is well.. presumptuous”. Astorias tongue prodded the inside of her cheek, you could tell by the hue of red in her face she was infuriated but trying to find the words without imploding.
“Well , I just know he will ok so yeah just know that”, spat Astoria in a feeble attempt to shake off Y/ns rightful observation’. ‘Oh I see” snapped y/n “why didn't you say it was you sooner, Sybil , Sybil Trelawney teacher of divination . What are you doing here under the guise of Polyjuice potion? I mean you could’ve just come with your crystal ball and tea leaves and said he was the winner that way instead of this elaborate scheme don’t you think?” The laughter of fellow by standers suddenly erupted around the women. Astoria who now sup parsed hues of red was the shade of a beetroot , completely enraged prepared to snap she was interrupted by Dumbledore. “ NOW now girls quell your fiery natures, this is to be a peaceful night of celebrations”. The woman smiled coyly at Dumbledore. ‘My apologies Dumbledore” y/n chimed up. “We speak no more of it ok” Dumbledore smiled and gently patted the crown of y/ns head and proceeded to make his way back to his chair. Y/N turned and smiled gloatingly at Astoria. In response Astoria screwed her face up mockingly and fled no doubt to chastise Draco for not swooping in and defending her.
“Pwoarh Nice one mate” chuckled Fred as he held out his fist waiting for Y/n to bump it. Hahah stop it you she giggled. ‘Here , should we go to the manor after this for a laugh” sniggered George appearing alongside them. “Ha, I'm sure she’s revoked my invitation effective immediately” said Y/n, as she peered over to Astoria , she could see her flailing her arms around whilst Draco made no attempt to conceal his look of boredom in the conversation. “You know what lets .. Ive been dying to get a peek of the manor anyway what harm can it do”. ‘Cracking’ the twins harmonised in unison. The trio linked arms and jollied along.
Once arrived at the manor they soon found it to be every bit luxurious as they envisioned. The floors were marble and reflected the light of the enormous crystal chandeliers suspended from the ceiling. Each stair of the grand staircase was illuminated by candle light creating an auburn strip propelling up the length of the stairs. Every inch of the manor oozed with decadence. “Wow , its rather impressive” mused y/n . “You can say that again” chimed Fred as he helped himself to a glass of champagne , handing one over to y/n. They began to mingle and drink with the rest of the party guests it was an overall pleasant evening that was until Astoria appeared before Y/n. “Glad to see you could make it y/n” said Astoria with a constipated smile. She had made little to no effort to conceal her sarcastic tone.
Y/n had no interest in rehashing todays mini confrontation. Instead she pulled a sickly sweet smile and said “ Wouldn’t miss it for the world, thank you for your generous hospitality Ms Green grass.” Astorias face dropped “green green .. she muttered, haha don’t be silly you must get use to calling me Mrs Malfoy”. Now despite y/ns fondness to antagonise Astoria at any given opportunity she couldn’t help but see she was visibly hurt. She immediately began to fumble her words in a bid to preserve her feelings “honestly , Astoria I'm sorry I didn't know the extent of your relationship .. I apologise”. Astoria still hadn’t reacted she stood stationary bottom lip protruding sad and helpless like a lost puppy. Y/n gently squeezed Astorias forearm and began to say “ look you mustn't pay it any mind, Draco wouldn’t dare indulge in any small talk with me about family life .. so don’t stress it congratulations by the way”. Astoria looked up at her with eyes softened . Relief washed over Y/n as she could tell she was receptive to her. Y/n couldn’t help but wonder to herself why he hadn’t mentioned news as big as that , they had worked so closely over these months . To be fair on a good day if you hadn’t known Draco you wouldn’t even know he had a girlfriend let alone fiancé .. or wife ?
Astoria went to talk but just then none other than Draco emerged behind her . His hand came down onto her shoulder. sharply. “ thats enough now sweetheart , I think Daphne was looking for you actually”. There was a weird exchange of eye contact Astoria weakly smiled and left. It was now just y/n and Draco stood before one another. Draco broke the silence by clearing his throat “ Y/L/N, may I interest you in a nightcap in my office ,there are things Id appreciate to discuss before we venture into our new working relationship”. Although slightly bewildered she agreed as after all they were to work alongside one another and she’d rather it be somewhat harmonious than turbulent.
Y/n followed Draco across the length of the great hall and into a pair of grand double doors. The room was vast , books littered the walls as far as the eye could see and in the corner a fireplace roared. Draco stood behind his desk and motioned for y/n to take a seat opposite him. She smoothed the back of her dress and proceeded to make herself comfortable. Draco started pouring whiskey from the crystal decanter into a couple of whiskey tumblers. The burn of the fire whisky ignited as it glided down her throat. The combination of whiskey and champagne left Y/N beginning to feel somewhat merry, she hadn’t really noticed during the quiet sobering conversation with Astoria. ‘So what is it you have in mind Draco?”. His stormy grey eyes peered over at her from behind his glass. ‘Very well” he remarked and manoeuvred himself to Y/NS side of the desk .He perched himself on the edge legs akimbo and both his large veiny hands clasped around his whiskey glass. Y/n inhaled sharply as she averted her gaze from his legs splayed before her. Continuing he said “ As you're aware I have my plans about how Hogwarts should be run , I have a detailed strategy and I plan to implement it as soon as possible .. so what I'm really asking is are you with me or against me because I have no intention of being held back”.
Y/n blinked rapidly .. she was unable to process what he was saying , how could he be so smug thinking he had headmaster place secured already. “ Fuck sake Draco, ok first that wasn’t really posed as an option now was it ?, also enough with belief that its your divine right to just be appointed as headmaster! What makes you think that if you somehow are the headmaster I will just bend at your will? Pathetic!” She scoffed into her drink. Draco began to stifle a laugh “ Ah you do amuse me y/n”, look I'm willing to let you have some creative control … only if you prove to me how badly you so desire it”. His suggestive smile sent shivers up y/n. “Fuck you Malfoy” she hissed and jolted from her seat, once she reached the door she rattled the doorknob but to no avail the door wouldn’t budge. “Open it now” she demanded . Draco slowly sauntered towards her and leant across the door “hmm I thought you liked a challenge .. guess I was wrong this will be no fun after all ” Draco was indeed correct Y/n did enjoy a challenge and he’d be gravely mistaken if he thought she would let him get away without putting up a fight”.
Something switched in Y/n she turned to face Draco who was only inches away. He towered over her with his svelte frame encased in an all black suit. ‘Is this what you want Draco hmm” she said in a sultry tone whilst hooking her finger into his belt loop pulling him closer. You want me to beg ..or would you rather me on my knees .. better yet I could be a good girl and just bend over that desk right now and let you have your way if thats what you want” . Draco's breathing was now laboured within seconds he had pulled y/n in by the waist flipped her round having her pressed against the door, his body weight up against her and his hand holding her arms in place on the door. Y/n could feel the stiffness of his impressive length against her derrière. With a shallow gasp he breathed dangerously close to her ear “ be careful what you wish for ms Y/L/N , I don’t take too kindly to false promises as I always get what I want” . With that he tossed her around to face him .Y/n was now panting her body was burning in desire she wanted nothing more than to drop to her knees there and then. No wonder Astoria was attached to his hip.. if this was anything to go off.
Y/n bit her lip she felt dizzy with emotions . Draco stood before her with a devious smile , his hands soon intertwining at her waist and face buried in her décolleté littering it with kisses making his way down to her ample bosom. Y/n couldn’t help but throw her head back in delight eliciting a small moan. That only became fuel for Draco as he hoisted her leg from the floor and wrapped it around him. It was then Y/n felt a vibration from the opposite side of the door., as if someone had knocked from the outside . It was then followed by a mousy ‘ Dray , are you in there’. Draco paused for a moment grip still tight on y/n. “What is it I'm having a business meeting , i'll be out shortly don’t hover ”. It was clear who it was… the pair unraveled themselves from one another quickly smoothing out clothing and rejigging themselves. ‘Ok let us” let me stop you Draco, Y/n interrupted pressing her finger against his lips to audibly shush him. “ As if you think id let this happen you think you get to fuck me then you do as you please and I a dutiful little lap dog . Pfffft what a joke like it or not I'm going to be your boss so the only way I'm fucking you is in the more figurative sense , now you better hurry up don’t want to keep your fiancé waiting or Is it wife hmmm”. With a quick flick from her wand she sent the door swinging open and promptly stormed out.
The day had finally arrived the great hall of Hogwarts was alive with the buzz of chatter. The sizeable table at the forefront of the hall hosted all the teachers and most importantly both Draco and y/n. Dumbledore made his way to the podium, he produced his wand and placed it at the base of his neck it acted as a megaphone propelling his voice across the hall. “Everybody if I may have your attention please.” The chatter soon died down and everyone eagerly cast their eyes on him. “ Right, I shan’t keep you in suspense anymore , it is time to announce your new headmaster & deputy ’. Both Draco and y/n fidgeted in their seats after all these months of rivalry it had boiled down to this. “ Ladies and gentlemen, introducing Ms y/n y/l/n your new headmaster !” Boomed Dumbledore. .Y/N shrieked she was giddy with excitement she couldn’t believe she had actually done it. Everyone around her broke out into wild applause there were whistles and jeers laughter overall excitement. She was being ushered by the surrounding teachers to get up to the podium to make a speech. As she was making her way she cast eyes on Draco, there he stood paler than usual and unresponsive he was there physically but not mentally his carcass stood stationary unable to ingest the news he had just been fed.
The days rolled into weeks weeks rolled into months and y/n had almost completed a whole term at Hogwarts. All was going swimmingly and albeit begrudgingly Draco was in-fact a great support on her journey. It was the last night of term and y/n sat a her desk pondering over a mountain of papers. Y/n sighed and cradled her head in her hands , she was exhausted she spent all her time dedicated to the role that she forgot to take time out for herself. There was a knock at the door “Come in” she yelled out. Draco's head emerged around the door. ‘
Oh hey you , come in come in” ushering him to the desk. ‘Oh dear , sucks to be you , regretting the position of power now?” Draco chuckled menacingly. “Ha ha very funny” she uttered dryly. “Anyway , some of the other teachers are going out for drinks but I can see you are busy” said Draco eyeballing the mountains of paper. “Yeah.. I afraid I am , but you enjoy yourself Draco have a drink for me and i'll see you next term” she smiled warmly at him. Draco locked eyes on her , hands stuffed in his pocket he began to fidget. “In all honesty I'm not the fondest of all the people going .. also Id much rather not be at home ..before you laugh or probe why just don’t because I won’t go into it but I can’t bare to spend another moment longer with …her .. so umm yeah , I can help you out here then say you make it up to me buying me a drink later?”
Y/n smirked “You’re quite then enigma aren’t you Draco ..? He raised his eyebrows at her in acknowledgement. “Fine , id appreciate that very much but I am rather tired so if it's not beneath you I can offer you a drink at mine ..”. His eyes flickered up to meet hers , stifling a smile . “Id like that ..”he said softly , ‘well then , let's get to work” y/n smiled. Draco and y/n worked through the night it was filled with chatter and laughter they felt at ease with one another. Once they finished up the momentum continued on at y/ns house. Copious amounts of fire whiskey later they found themselves delving into deeper topics having more in-depth conversations and discovering more about one another. Draco's whole demeanour was very relaxed and this was foreign to y/n. His shirt sleeves were rolled up and tie loosened. ‘You know .. you're an alright person not that much of a pain in my arse surprisingly” Draco chuckled swigging another mouthful of whiskey. “Well thats rich” laughed y/n.
“Right well I've really enjoyed this but its getting late , I can barley keep my eyes open … earlier you mentioned you didn't want to go back so .. you're more than welcome to stay …. Only if you want”. Rattled by the kind gesture he smiled affectionately. Stumbling over his words “umm yeah , thank you y/n you’ve exceeded your generosity let me at least grab us coffee for the morning then. “Sounds like a plan , hopefully you won’t find me a pain in the arse again come morning ”. With a cackle Y/n got up from the couch and showed Draco to the spare room. Once at the door she began to wish him a goodnight. As he went to hug y/n his lips grazed her cheek. Y/n suddenly recoiled , a silence loomed over them as they gazed at one another the emotions of that night in Draco's office flooding back. Y/n could feel the heat surging in her cheeks so she hastily wished him a good night and scurried to her room. Once in the shelter of her room she let out a sigh of relief. She knew it was the right thing to do but my how she craved him.
Draco burst through the door making a beeline for Y/N. He took her into his arms and kissed her with an insatiable hunger. Backing her into the wall he began to rid her of her clothing . Y/n hands clambered at his chest to do same however he abruptly stopped her “ Oh no you don’t , you think I forgot about that little stint in my office huh ? Well I didn't and I've been awaiting the day I get to fuck you senseless Ms y/n … you control me all day and now its y turn to control you .. you will do everything I say do you understand” . Enthralled by his dominance Y/n nodded enthusiastically. “Sorry I didn't hear you “ roared Draco grabbing her face towards his. “Yes who”. “Yes Draco” she moaned . “You can do better than that dear yes who, i'll only ask you one more time or i'll have bent over my knee.. so what will it be?” . “Yes … daddy “ she muttered bashfully. “Thats my girl” he bellowed. He grabbed her and thrust her onto the bed , he unfastened his tie and instructed her to lift her hands above her head. Y/n did as commanded. He bound her wrists up and hooped them over the bed post. “Now, I'm going to have my way with you and you don’t get to touch me understood!” ‘Yes daddy y/n whimpered” “ahh what a good girl you are, ugh the things I'm going to do to you”. Y/ns eyes winded in desire, Draco shimmied y/ns shirt up and instructed her to bite down using it as a makeshift gag. He suddenly began to kiss her lower abdomen slowly sliding off her trousers.
Y/n titled her hips aiding him in taking them off. Draco's eyes lit up upon the discovery of her not wearing any undergarments “oh so you were anticipating me you filthy slut” Draco chuckled darkly’. He teased and taunted kissing her inner thighs only grazing her sex, this drove y/n crazy her body craved him inside her. Draco finally delicately licked a strip against her folds causing her body to crumble at the slightest of his touch. His warm moist tongue began frantically massaging her causing her to rive in ecstasy . His tongue began to vibrate excitedly against her clitoris sending shock waves through her entire body , she bucked her hips in excitement unable to keep her composure as Draco's tongue fixated on lapping up the one spot that drove her insane. Y/n was close he was relentless with his tongue against her swollen bud , just as she was about to finish Draco withdrew. Y/ns face fell in disgust just as she was about complain he plunged his fingers deep inside her ..pumping rhythmically y/ns juices coated his fingers . His other hand sloped around her neck , eventually this caused her to release all over his hand. Draco's pupils now engulfed his eyes …he was enthralled in pleasure watching her crumble for him . “ Aren’t you a good girl , snarled Draco “squirting for daddy , whilst I love it I don’t recall giving you permission to” .y/n squirmed overcome with pleasure unable to respond.
He unhooked her and brought her to her knees. He ripped her shirt from her mouth and produced his veiny throbbing cock dripping with pre cum. Y/n gasped in astonishment and eagerly attempted to take him all in her mouth bobbing her head enthusiastically until her jaw ached and eyes began to stream. He hurled his head back in pleasure as her tongue gently caressed his pulsating tip. “Ugh yeah just like that baby “ he muttered .
Without warning y/n sucked on the tip with vigour. Draco let out a ferocious moan whilst grabbing y/ns hair fashioning it into a ponytail attempting to make her glide her tongue down the rest of his shaft. He couldn’t have her do that for too long as he surely would finish in her mouth. “You filthy filthy girl “ he beamed as he pulled her off his cock . Rocking her head back spiting in her mouth. He brought yn to her feet and began kissing her deeply interlocking his tongue with hers , she yearned so badly to touch him to feel her skin against his. “ Get over here , I want you leant over this bed frame whilst I fuck you .. I'm going to cum on that pretty pussy then I'm going to put it back in understand!” Firmly instructed Draco . “Yes daddy” that’s my girl he cooed. Draco teasingly stroked his member against her entrance this sent shock waves through y/n causing her to gyrate in hopes he would slip in. Draco caught onto this and his hand came down harshly on her derrière .y/n let out a gasp. “Don’t be greedy now” he laughed tightening his makeshift restraints on her wrists. Relentless with his teasing it was a shock to y/n when Draco abruptly pushed into her. Y/n was in euphoria as was Draco as the warmth of her walls swaddled his manhood.
Draco slammed into y/n her body rattling with pleasure, just then Draco felt himself out to release .. so true to his word he instructed y/n to lay on her back so he could empty his contents onto her. He threw his head back in jubilation upon release. As he went to enter her again this time her was slower much more gentle taking y/n into his arms. “How do you want me to finish you off baby?,like this or I could use my fingers?” Y/n shuddered remembering the bliss she was in from his lengthy fingers so it would be a no brainer to opt for them “Fingers please daddy” she uttered softly.
He untangled himself from her stood up and offered his hand . Taking her across the room he sat down in-front of the floor length mirror instructing y/n to sit in between his legs. “If its fingers you was then its fingers you’ll get but your gonna have to watch me”. His large hand sloped up her neck tenderly chocking her whilst his other massaged at her slit . Y/n was still dripping from earlier so it was light work for him to imbed his fingers into her. Y/n couldn’t take it the combination of Draco's fierce unwavering gaze in the mirror and the sheer bliss she felt with her legs quaking she soon released decorating the mirror in-front her. “Ugh your amazing baby” he beamed kissing her forehead gracefully. “Here let's get you cleaned up and we can cuddle in bed”. “Oh my … I didn't peg you as a cuddling type Draco” y/n laughed gingerly attempting to get up her legs still trembling beneath her. “Shut up you” he scolded “when will you learn there’s a lot you still don’t know about me y/n”.
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Isabel [Levi Ackerman x GN!Reader]
N.B: heya! if you're scrolling through the tags and thinking, "hey, i have read this before..." chances are you probably have! don't worry, this is not plagiarism. you read that on a - now - deleted blog (i had to restart for reasons i won't go into.) so i am reposting everything now!
synopsis: when levi's wife goes into labour, he has to drop the crude, cold façade he normally holds and be there in their time of need.
tw: possible inaccuracies as i have never been pregnant before LOL, reader is labouring, occasional use of she/her throughout, levi being soft ASF (self-indulgent all the way.)
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You turned your head at the sound of the door and almost immediately, you felt the wintery gust flood through the narrow hallway of your house. You sucked in a breath, but you quickly smiled. After all, your husband had returned to your cosy cottage.
He shut the door behind him, and you saw him lean his head against it, heaving a great sigh. You frowned at how he almost always needed those few seconds to just process everything in his head before turning to face you. You instinctively brought a hand down to your swollen tummy - was this a good decision after all? Having a baby in these troubling, turbulent times?
But then he turned around again to face you and his face was illuminated by the amber-coloured light of the oil lamp. He saw you stirring the steaming pot of stew and his steely gaze softened immediately.
He smiled.
Don’t be silly, you chastised yourself for such thoughts, he’s happy with us.
Of course he was. He could calm down instantly looking at you. He walked over and shrugged off his forest green cloak and placed it on the counter next to you. War-torn hands reaching out and cupping your cheeks, he pressed his lips to your forehead. You felt his calloused thumbs rub against your temples and you leaned into his touch. Immediately his hands fell to your tummy and rubbed in circles.
“Dinner smells good,” he whispers softly against your lips, “how was your day?”
Dinner did smell good; nothing could beat some beef stew after a long day with your cast iron kettle hanging over the fire, right? He couldn’t wait until your bellies were filled and he could cosy up with you in front of the fire with a cup of black tea in his hand.
Your smile grew wider when he sank to his knees and nuzzled against your tummy. You were probably going to give birth in the next week or two. You lowered your right hand and allowed it to tread through his raven locks, your other hand still stirring to prevent any sticking to your pot.
“Eh…” you huffed out.
Levi pulled back for a bit. “Had an ‘eh’ day myself… What’s troubling you?”
“Just very crampy today and my back is killing me. Why did you have an ‘eh’ day?”
You almost laughed when you heard Levi’s heavy sigh, and it was a long sigh too. He closed his eyes as he recounted the disaster at HQ but… what with the amount of grief Levi had been through, there was very little that could faze him now.
Still, when he recounted to you that Hange accidentally launched one of their new projects - a thunder spear - into HQ and close to his office at that - while he was drinking his tea! - obviously he would be pretty livid. All that was destroyed in the fires of the aftermath were two bedrooms and a storage room, and thankfully no lives were lost, but he wasn’t going to forgive Hange for a while after this. You had to give him credit for his composure.
“I miss Hange, even in spite of these incidents.” You spoke.
You hadn’t seen Hange since you were discharged by Erwin at three months. Well, you had waved at her in the streets when you did your shopping for you and Levi and you might converse briefly, but she was always too busy to stop by for a chat. She did, however, say she’d be present for the birth.
“I bet he’d get along with Hange.”
“Still sure we’re having a boy?” your husband asked.
You yawned as exhaustion began to consume you more and more. “Yeah, he is giving me a lot of trouble like how his father used to.” You teased.
Levi only muttered something under his breath, and you weren’t quite sure what it was. He leaned back a bit and extended his index finger. “Oi, stop giving your mother a hard time. She’s tired.”
Another yawn. “I am, actually. I might pass on dinner tonight and just head to bed.”
Levi stood up again and eyed you curiously; wasn’t like you to skip dinner but he thought nothing of it. He mentioned he’d save some for you and with a chaste kiss to your lips, you made your way upstairs.
You opened the creaky, wooden door to your shared bedroom and when you disrobed, you rooted around for a clean nightgown in your drawers. You groaned as another sharp pain radiated around your lower back and pelvic area. You held onto the edge of the drawers with a white-knuckle grip. You had gotten cramps here and there before throughout your pregnancy, but these were just all-consuming. A few more whimpers and a few deep breaths though, and they subsided.
Hmm, weird, there’s no way it’s time already? I’m still a week or two early, you said to yourself. If he wants to come now, what will happen… would he be healthy?
You shook your head and made your way over to the bed, propping yourself up with a few pillows. It wasn’t long before Levi came into the room too with a candle in his hand before placing it down on his desk. As he removed his shirt, the dull light illuminated and highlighted his defined body. You smiled dozily at him and you were fast asleep before he could even climb into bed.
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Awaking in the middle of the night with your husband’s arms wrapped around you was always a treat. He didn’t always sleep, and when he did, it was poor. But whenever his arms snaked around your chest with one hand resting on your tummy, you knew he was sleeping well. It gave you a chance to look at his unguarded and peaceful countenance.
You woke up with a feeling of heartburn that was hard to ignore so you decided a drink of water might be a good idea. You made your way downstairs, careful not to wake your sleeping husband. Leaning against the countertop once you reached the kitchen, you fetched yourself a glass of water and began to sip slowly.
Gulping the last bit down, you placed the glass in a sink and walked towards the stairs again… until you felt a gush of warm liquid flow down your legs.
Oh, crap!
You peered down at the pool of fluid between your legs that was now pooling in your hallway. Your mind froze and all you could do was stare for a few seconds.
“U-uh… Levi?!” you shrieked.
You heard a large thud from upstairs when he landed less than gracefully - unceremoniously, even - after jumping from your bed and he was quick to scurry down the stairs at the yell.
“What the hell?! Are you ok--?”
He stopped when his bare feet splashed against the pool of fluids between you both.
“Oh, my?” he questioned and peered down. “Is it that time already?”
You only blinked at his calmness at the situation. How was he not freaking out?! Your fingers moved to clench your soaking gown. He reached for your hands and walked you towards the front door. He stopped for a few seconds as he scratched his head in thought.
“Levi?!” you screeched at his silence.
He had to stay as calm as possible. It was something he was well used to, being a good captain and all. But it was so different in this situation. Seeing you panic like this and the gravity of the situation made him almost lose his composure. He was able to keep everything well hidden beneath his steely exterior and this was all because he was good at analysing typically abnormal situations.
This wasn’t a situation like this. All he had to do was be a supportive husband for you.
As he hurried down the stairs again, the realization dawned on him again.
Was this actually happening? Were you two going to be parents? Could you two do this?
Well, it was not like you had a choice now.
“Come, let’s get moving.” He said, holding you with one hand by the small of your back.
He assisted you back up the stairs as fast as your body would allow, but once you got to the bathroom just a few metres shy of your bedroom, that’s when you felt everything tighten and your breath became lodged in your throat. Your legs buckled as your hands gripped onto the architrave. Levi was quick to descend with you and hold your hand. A pained groan escaped your lips and you heard deep breaths beside you.
“Deep breaths, you can do it, [F/n]...” he said as he rubbed your back in circles. He tried to do deep breathing with you, taking long, exaggerated breaths. All to feel you a little less alone or too lost in your own pain.
It wasn’t the worst pain you had experienced - you were a former veteran of the Scouts after all - but that didn’t make the feeling pleasant either.
He propped up all the pillows to give you ample support and he placed a hand on your shin, gesturing you to keep your legs open. It seemed that the next contraction seemed to be taking its time, so he made the decision to alert the neighbours. This was a plan Levi had made with them a few months ago, that he’d call next door and ask them to go rush to the nurses and for Hange. Luckily for you two, HQ was no more than a five-minute walk away.
After slipping into a dress shirt and black slacks, he ran down the stairs and hopped over the wall to your neighbour. It was close to midnight now, but hopefully they’d be awake… If not, he’d have to leave you alone by yourself and that was not an option.
He rapped on the door and even called out to them, before knocking again. Thankfully, the middle-aged man and his wife seemed to be up and were quick to open the door.
Perhaps Levi looked a bit more flustered than he thought he did. Then again, as someone so composed all the time, any change in composure screamed out.
“Captain Levi? Is everything alright?” the wife asked.
Levi inhaled sharply. Damn, he was getting stressed already. If they were to shine the oil lamp up to his face, they would be able to see the sweat beading at his brows and how his pupils had narrowed from the intensity of the situation. “[F/n] has gone into labour, earlier than we expected. She needs the nurses a-and Hange--” Fuck, was he stuttering from it all? “I can’t leave her alone to get them and-”
The wife who was probably a good three inches shorter than him looked up at him and passed him a soft smile; a reassuring smile. She had been through all this before. She knew the chaos involved but knew the best thing he could be was a pillar of support for you. She placed her hands on his shoulders and got her to look at him. Normally he’d shrug off any physical contact from anyone that wasn’t you, but his mind was spiralling, and he was doing his best to hide it.
“Levi, it’s okay. Dear, you go get the nursing staff and Hange, okay?” she called out to her husband who had already saddled up in the meantime and taken off. “My husband will be back soon. Let me get you a few things.”
Levi tapped his foot impatiently as she pattered around the house for a bit. She came back with a bag of rags, towels and some knitted clothes.
“It’s important you stay calm, okay? What do you think you’ll have?”
Levi shrugged as he nodded his thanks. “I don’t know, of course, but [F/n] reckons we’ll have a boy.”
“Hmm… I think you’ll have a daughter!” she beamed.
Levi began to head out the door again. “Look, thank you so much for everything.”
“Best of luck, Levi,” she wished with a gleeful smile, “and congratulations.”
Levi nodded with the bag and headed back up the stairs of his home. He burst through the door of your bedroom and was immediately at your side again. He dropped the bag down at your bedside and reached for your hand. He caught you just in time for another contraction. You tried to steady yourself, but you cried out once more and gripped onto the blankets as another contraction overwhelmed you. You hastily grabbed a pillow and cried into it, trying to muffle your cries. Okay, it was official, this was the worst pain you had felt thus far, and all Levi could do was stare helplessly.
It’s not like he could do much. He couldn’t take away the pain from you, but by god, he wished he could. He’d deliver the child if biologically possible, anything to not see you in so much agony. But every time a contraction died away, you would re-emerge and tackle this again with an ungodly amount of strength.
And he couldn’t be prouder of you in these agonizing yet awe-inspiring moments.
You lowered your pillow when you vaguely heard the crowd of nurses patter into the room and everything kicked off. The lead nurse stated she’d be the main overseer to everything. At times, Levi’s mind flitted in and out of the conversation at hand from the nurses. His stare glossed over occasionally, and you couldn’t exactly decipher what it was he was feeling. Whatever it was he was feeling, he hid it well. He absent-mindedly rubbed the small of your back hoping you’d relax as the nurse checked your cervix. His ears perked up once he heard the number ‘three.’
“Three centimetres, seven to go, I reckon.”
“OOH, SEVEN?! HOW EXCITING!” a voice from outside screeched and Levi’s face fell flat. The bespectacled brunette burst through the door. “THAT’S SO FEW!”
“Hange.” Levi barked. He said nothing but his gaze said, be quiet now. “If you’re not gonna be helpful to [F/n], you can leave out the door you came in.”
“Sorry, sorry,” she aired as she rushed over to the other side of your bed and sat on top. “How are you doing, [f/n]? Anything I can do?” she asked. At first you shook your head, but when she mentioned that she brought a few scented candles to help soothe you - or at the very least, keep a gentle ambiance going - you perked up. “Okay, I’ll go light them. Levi, do you have any matches?”
“In the high cupboard left to the sink.” He said and she scurried down.
“Fuck… Levi, it’s happening again…” you groaned as you tossed your head back.
“I have you.” He reminded. He loosened his hand so you could squeeze it. With each contraction came a pain that dominated your entire being. In those moments, for those seconds that stretched into infinity, there was nothing else. Every contraction seemed to hurt more than before, and you would be left panting and almost delirious for a few seconds. Everything melted into the background when a contraction came; the nurses melted to nothing as did their encouraging cries.
But you remained grounded to Levi. He held your hand with every contraction and his lips were pressed to your sweaty temple. While you could only vaguely hear his encouraging words, he was still there and encouraging you to breathe deeply through it all, even if it hardly did anything to alleviate the pain.
“How much longer will this take?”
“She progressed quickly enough to get to the three so it may not take too long. Though it could just as easily be another few hours, or even well into tomorrow. I’m sorry, there’s no way of knowing.” The nurse replied.
Levi only nodded. He just wanted you to be okay and to make this as pain-free as possible. Hange came back in with the matches and began to light a few candles.
As time passed, your head fell. The contractions kept coming but you weren’t progressing as fast as you thought. By the time the second hour rolled by, you had only made it to four centimetres. You were reminded that you’d know when to push.
Levi couldn’t stand to see you in so much pain.
“Is there anything we can do?” he asked, now getting slightly panicked.
The nurse smiled sadly, knowing there was only so much they could do. “[F/n], how about a walk out in the fresh air?” she offered.
Levi peered over at you. Within the past two hours, he had acquired a basin and wet cloth, and was dabbing it occasionally on your forehead. “How about it?” he asked, repeating the motion of it as you lifted your head up again to receive his touch.
“If I walk down those stairs, I don’t think I’ll make it back up…” you huffed.
Hange had taken to holding your other hand too. Levi’s initial glare at her excitement seemed to do the trick and she was very helpful. Perhaps more proactive than the nurses. Then again, she was your best friend; she probably wanted to do everything under the sun.
“A bath may help?” Hange perked up. “Warm water and all?” to which you nodded.
Levi stood and pulled you up. Before you may have walked upright and with your back straight, but now you walked totally hunched over. He ordered for someone - anyone who could get there fastest - to draw a bath. A few stayed behind in the bedroom, taking turns supervising you.
Levi walked you towards the bathroom and unbuttoned your nightgown. With an ‘arms up’ command, he had it off you quickly and you were left in just your bra. He lowered you into the bath and you sat in the middle of the tub. He questioned why you weren’t going to lean back and that was when you asked him to come into the bath with you. He wasn’t going to fight you in the moment and rushed back to the bedroom and put on a pair of (swimming) shorts… or shorts he had no issue getting wet. Within mere seconds, he lowered himself into the bath and wrapped his legs loosely around your waist, his chest firm against your back. He began to rub your arms up and down and leaned over to press a kiss to your cheek.
“You’re doing so well.” He said. His tone lowered to a whisper when he heard you begin to weep. “Hey, hey, hey… What’s wrong? Ah-- Hange, can you go get us a basin?” he asked. Your face paled a little and he shouted for the Titan scientist to hurry as another contraction washed over you.
“L-Levi, I don’t feel right…”
“Hange!” he barked for the third time.
You brought a hand up to your mouth and expelled whatever food had been inside you from before. The pain of this contraction was so intense you had thrown up. Levi swept a thumb across your chin and Hange came in with a basin, and you spilled the rest into it. In fact, you threw up twice more. The bitter taste in your mouth left you feeling all disgusting and ‘icky’, and you let out a choked sob of frustration. Your body had you rocking back and forth on its own accord, trying to move with the pain so to speak, letting out pained groans through gnashed teeth.
Levi leaned you forward and began to rub your lower back. “Breathe. You gotta breathe, [f/n], come on.”
You shook your head as you wailed, almost sounding like you were giving in. “I can’t! It’s too much, Levi!”
“Hey,” he called gently. “Sniff the flowers,” he commanded and paused to breathe in, “and blow out the candles” and he exhaled. “You can do that for me?”
You weren’t sure about how the silly visual cue helped you at all, but you also knew Levi wasn’t going to quit saying it until you did what he told you to do. After a few deep breaths, you calmed down and your contraction died away. Levi continued to rub your lower back, offering whispered words of encouragement.
“Gosh, Shorty, aren’t you such a sweetie?” Hange jeered.
“Go away, Four Eyes.”
The contractions came and went, growing more and more intense. Levi sometimes opted to swish the water down and forth or turn on the tap, to give you something else to focus on. You weren’t sure how long you two stayed in the bath, but Levi helped lift you out once the water had gotten cold. Hange went to relight the candles, pillows were propped back up and you were moved back to your bedroom, to do the whole thing all over again.
And frankly, you weren’t sure how long you could hold on for. It was unbearable. As the hours ticked by until the wee morning, you were losing your strength.
“I’m sorry.” Levi mumbled as he kissed your matted hair.
“It hurts so much. I’m so tired.” You whispered, your voice dry and hoarse.
Levi looked up at the nurse and then over at the small clock on your bedside lock. Seven in the morning, so you had been labouring for seven hours, if not more if you were experiencing smaller contractions before your water broke.
How he ached to take all your pain away from you; to shoulder it all and save you from this agony. You both knew it would be worth it at the end, but the process of getting there was no doubt painful.
“You’re doing well. It’ll all be over soon, won’t it?” he asked and looked at the nurse.
“I’ll go see how far you are,” she said, softly. You let your legs widen as she did another cervical exam. You flinched a bit as you felt her gloved fingers inside. She gasped. “My, you’re almost there. Easily nine centimetres!”
For the first time in a couple hours, you felt genuine relief amidst all the chaos and pain.
.
.
.
Levi had sent the nurses and Hange downstairs an hour later, telling them they were free to help themselves to food stored in your cupboards. They had been crowding around you both for over eight hours now, they deserved a break too. You were fine with your husband sitting through your contractions with you, especially when you only had a centimetre or two left.
That was when you felt an excruciating pain down below, unlike anything you had felt all evening. Levi was at your side in seconds.
“What is it?”
“Hnnn!” you groaned out. This was it. This had to be it, the feeling the nurses told you about. An overwhelming amount of pressure was building between your legs and you let out a guttural noise. “Get Hange and the nurses.”
“Wait, is time? Now-”
“Get the fucking nurse, Levi!” you yelled, and he ran down to fetch them.
The pressure had your hips swaying into position, it was almost unbearable to refrain from pushing. The pain had your whole body trembling. Levi arrived back in with the nurses and you opened your legs at the lead nurse’s command. Your husband was sitting by your side once more, lacing his fingers with yours.
“I see a head! And plenty of hair too! The baby has moved into the birth canal. I need you to push on the next contraction.” She explained.
You heaved in massive strokes, starting to lose your breath. You were completely worn out now, body and mind. You all waited with bated breaths for the next contraction to hit. You took in a massive breath when you felt that familiar pain come back again. Your stomach tightened - everything tightened - as a scream ripped out from your throat.
“You have got to push harder, [f/n].” The nurse urged. Hange came in, sitting on the bed and shuffled onto the bed to hold your other hand.
You shook your head. There was no way you could, you were so depleted of energy.
“You can do this.” Your husband said.
“I can’t! You have to do it for me!” you wept into his arms.
“I would if I could.” He assured you.
The nurse called for your attention. “The next time you push, tuck your chin into your chest and push as though you got to do a number two. But push very hard.”
You blinked frantically. “Wait, what if I do poop?”
“That means you’re pushing right!” Hange cheered.
This entire conversation made Levi grimace, and it took every ounce of self-control to not cringe.
The final contraction hit and with whatever strength you could muster, you pushed through with a shrill cry. The baby began to crown, the hot stretching of flesh almost making you want to stop but you had to keep pushing through. You felt the head leave your body and you pushed through the rest of your contraction. You held onto Levi’s hand with such force he was pretty sure you could have broken it. And he would have taken it.
And then the pain left your body finally.
Tiny cries pierced the air.
Levi tilted your head back and his lips crashed against yours in a kiss that carried so many emotions with it; love, adoration, pride, elation and gratitude. He kissed you again and once more while your baby was being wrapped up. One of the extra nurses moved to clean you up and help deliver the placenta.
“A girl, congratulations.” The nurse whispered. Hange cracked a toothy grin, but she knew to step back and leave you two to have your moment.
You looked down at your wrapped-up little miracle, falling in-love instantly. Had her father’s hair and gunmetal eyes, but your eye shape and complexion. She also had your chin too. Your index finger rubbed against her plump cheeks and almost began to whimper again but with a few gentle hushes from you, she settled down once more. She was probably hungry too.
“She looks so much like you…” you whispered, looking up at your husband. The nurses and Hange took this as their cue to leave. Levi’s eyes had completely glossed over with a newfound vulnerable expression that you had never seen before. You could tell he was just itching to hold her, so as gently as you could, you shuffled over to the side to allow Levi to relax into the headrest. “Here, Levi.”
Your little girl was placed into his arms and a calloused thumb immediately went to trace under her eyes and around her cheeks, her forehead; everywhere. A swell of emotions overcame him like a tsunami crashing against the shoreline and he shut his eyes, tears flowing down his pallid cheeks and he made no effort to stop them. His lower lips trembled, and minute whimpers escaped his lips, but he was desperately clawing at whatever composure he had left to try to piece himself back together.
But he could cry, his daughter was here. He was a father now; he could be as emotional as he liked, and no one would care.
“Isabel.” You said, gently, and Levi nodded at the suggestion.
Levi’s thumb moved to his daughter’s fist and her fingers latched around it instantly, bringing his thumb to her mouth and began to suck. He let out a soft chuckle. “I think she’s hungry.”
“I bet she is.” You said, reaching out and taking a hold of her once more. The baby began to wriggle, and her arms broke free from the blanket, beginning to fuss. You lowered one side of your nightgown and held your daughter against your breast. She latched after a few seconds and by god was it uncomfortable. The feeling had you biting your lower lip in discomfort, but you just had to grin and bear it.
The three of you sat in silence for another half hour or so as you nursed your baby when you heard a knock on the door. Hange peeked her head around and smiled widely at you both.
“Shhh.” Levi was quick to say.
Hange tiptoed in. “I may have bought a few visitors…”
The raven-haired man’s face fell flat. “How many?”
And in came all of Levi’s newest squad and Erwin. He face-palmed at the noise and shrugged off his blazer to cover you and your daughter.
“Is this a bad time, Levi?”
“Yes, it’s a bad time. She’s barely been born a half hour and--”
“I KNEW IT WOULD BE A GIRL! TAKE THAT, MISTER DEATH WISH!” you heard come from outside the room. You only sighed softly.
“I tried to keep those two out of this,” Erwin mentioned as he walked over to the two of you. You removed your baby from your breast and buttoned up your nightgown again. The blonde smiled in pure adoration. “She’s so precious. Congratulations, Levi, [F/n].”
“Thank you, Erwin.” He replied and you nodded your thanks.
In your half-asleep state, you began to nurse again in front of everyone, not bothering to cover up. Levi sighed heavily and moved to cover you up again before you came through.
“Sir, we can call back later if you want.” Eren piped up, walking over to stand by his superior.
“It’s okay, Eren, this is natural. I don’t mind, provided you don’t stare too much.”
“I mind?!” Levi cried. With your free hand, you rested it on his hand. He took a deep breath and sighed. “Fine. You can stay, Jaeger. All of you can.”
Sasha and Connie were next to try to squeeze onto your too small bed for nine extra people.
“I brought her some potatoes!” she chimed and handed one to you. You had to politely explain that babies probably won’t eat until four months at the earliest. And even then, it would only be baby gloop and mushy foods. Not steamed potatoes.
Connie peaked over Levi’s shoulder. “Do you mind?” Levi asked him rhetorically.
“Nope,” he answered swiftly and saluted. On the wrong side. “Sir, why does it look squishy and ugly?”
And then ensued a fiery debate from everyone in the room (apart from Erwin) on why you shouldn’t call babies squishy and ugly, especially in front of their parents. Especially if one of those parents was one Levi Ackerman. But amidst all the commotion, both you and your baby were tuckered out. Levi was surprised that he saw you dozing off in spite of all the ruckus and that your baby was suckling away on nothing.
The short man may have had his doubts before Isabel was born but looking at everyone around here right now - being so chaotic and noisy, but so full of happiness and pride for you both - made all those negative thoughts wash away.
It took a bit of shuffling and squeaking of military boots, but eventually everyone was kicked out by Levi. He looked back fondly at you two, both of you sound asleep.
He would promise you both a normal, peaceful, family life one day. Even if he had to lay down his life doing it.
Because every doubt, struggle, emotional outburst, hormonal-fuelled argument led you both to this, and he would not trade it for the world.
This was his purpose; protect his beautiful wife and precious daughter.
And maybe one day, in the distant future, he would be able to spend more time with you two. In a world without Titans. In a world that was peaceful.
But for now, he had a small serving - a slice - of peace at home and he couldn’t wait to navigate this new chapter of his life with you.
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I Found My Light (Kakashi x Reader)
Chapter 1 | Chapter 2
A/n: Sound the alarms! It’s my first ever writing post! I’ve had this written for a while tbh, and I feel like I’m ready to start getting into this.
Summary: A late-night walk turns into a rekindled friendship.
Word Count: 2300
Warnings: fem!reader, SFW (but might not be later lol)
You opened your eyes for what seemed like the thousandth time tonight. Staring at the white ceiling, you sighed. Sleep seemed to evade you recently, a side effect of the recent dreariness of your life. You found yourself living the same days over and over again. Because of this, the line between day and night started to fade.
The moon was full tonight, you noticed as it shined brightly through your open window. It was the perfect temperature out, warm but chilly enough to feel comfortable wrapped in your blankets. You love listening to the occasional sounds that occurred outside, the noise of leaves rustling in the wind being your favorite.
Your gaze left the moon and landed back on your ceiling. Why is something as simple as sleeping so hard? Gods, all you wanted was an escape. With a huff, you pushed the covers off of you and sat up from your lying position. Trying to force yourself to sleep would do more harm than good right now.
You make your way to your dresser and pull out your favorite pair of black joggers. You love them because they are tight on your ankles, loose on your legs, and have a cinched band at the waist. They are perfect for any lazy day. You slip them on over your underwear, you never go to bed with pants on, and exchange your sleep shirt for a cropped black hoodie made from the same soft, elastic material as your pants.
You turn to face your large standing mirror in the corner of the room to assess your appearance. The all-black look was your favorite, especially since it will help you blend into the night. Your hair was a mess, so you decided to put it up in a loose bun on the top of your head and pull out some strands to frame your face. It felt good to not look so polished and put together. Your jonin uniform was not the most comfortable piece of clothing, especially with the way it hit your figure.
You walked out of your bedroom and across the kitchen to the front door of your apartment. One foot after the other, you slide into your sandals and grab the key to your apartment hanging on the hook next to you. With that, you leave your apartment and head out into the night.
You walked the streets of Konoha at a gingerly pace. It was probably around 3 a.m. at this point, and there wasn’t a single soul on the street with you. You make your way past the line of shops on the main street, including your favorite bakery where you'd treat yourself to a lemon square after coming back from a long mission. You thought about that lemon square a lot when you were out risking your life, embarrassingly enough.
A couple of turns later and you found yourself heading towards your favorite place in all of Konoha, a little area of woods towards the perimeter that contained this amazing koi pond. Although it was nighttime and the fish wouldn’t be as active, you still want to check to see if you can watch any. To your surprise, your favorite koi, who you nicknamed “Nishi'', was out and swimming around by himself. You sit criss-cross in the grass and watch as he glides through the calm water, almost putting you in trance. Nishi didn’t look or act like the others; He was black with white, almost silver-looking spots and he was less frantic in nature. You sway from side to side as you watch him, thinking to yourself about how you would like to be more like Nishi.
“You look cute watching the koi.” You heard a soft, yet unwavering voice declare behind you.
“Holy sh-” You almost jump out of your pants at the unexpected presence. Surprised, you quickly turn your head around to see who’s voice that could possibly be. To your disbelief, there lies a figure perched up by a tree a couple yards away from you. Their feet were crossed, legs extended, one hand in the pocket of their pants, the other holding up what looks like a copy of Icha-Icha, head turned towards you, and wild hair moving with each passing breeze. How did I not notice him?
“Oh I’m sorry (y/n), I didn’t mean to startle you. I figured you knew I was here because you walked right past me.” He brought his hand up to scratch the back of his head and let out a small chuckle. “Guess I should have made my presence known right away.”
Still in disbelief, you get up and slowly make your way towards the figure, stepping into the shadow of the tree to see him more clearly. As you approached you immediately recognized the silver-haired jonin.
“Kakashi?” You say confused. “What are you doing out here? It’s late.”
“I could ask you the same thing.” He states, closing his book and setting it down next to him on the grass. He looked different. He looked… quite hot actually. The jonin uniform you usually saw him in was traded for a pair of comfortable-looking grey sweatpants and a tight, black tank top that connected to his mask. He wasn’t wearing his headband either, just keeping his left sharingan eye shut in a permanent wink. As you observed him, you couldn’t help but notice that he was doing the same to you.
“I suppose you're right.” You smirk and let out a small chuckle. “I couldn’t sleep so I figured that if I was up I should take a walk around the village to clear my head. This is my favorite spot, so I guess I just naturally ended up here.” You exclaimed, still standing in front of him.
“It looks like you and I are having the same issue,” he states plainly, “I came out here a little while ago after tossing in my bed for an hour. I hate trying to force myself to sleep; It’s a battle I never seem to win.” His eyes averted your gaze and moved to his now empty hands in his lap. You couldn’t help but notice a hint of pain in his voice and it tugged at your heartstrings.
You know about the things Kakashi has been through, as it was pretty common knowledge to all jonin in your mutual age group. You were pretty close with his friends, Gai, Kurenai, and Asuma, but Kakashi always seemed to keep everyone at an arm’s length. He also was an Anbu for ten years, which didn’t help the disconnect either. Fortunately, he was relieved from his Anbu position a couple weeks ago, and gradually you have been seeing him a bit more here and there. Though, this is the first time you are able to have a conversation with him in what seems like forever.
“Well,” you sighed, “I guess we have lost the battle together. We must be pretty shitty jonin.” You stated flatly.
Kakashi squinted his eyes and you both laughed. You couldn’t help but take a mental picture of his face at this moment. You really enjoy seeing him happy, as it makes you happy too.
You can’t kid yourself, having a chance to talk with Kakashi alone feels like such a treat. Little genin (y/n) would be ecstatic right now. Of course you had a crush on him back then, who didn’t?
“You’ve always had a natural talent for connecting with people,” Kakashi mused, “I haven’t talked to you since we were teenagers, and here I am laughing with you like we’re long-time friends.”
You could feel your eyebrows furrow at that statement. Yeah sure, you weren’t at his apartment every week for Sunday brunch, but you did have a history.
“Kakashi,” you started, “You are my long-time friend. Just because we drifted apart doesn’t mean I don’t care about you. To be honest, I was relieved when I found out you were no longer going to be a member of the Anbu. It wasn’t good for you.” You stepped closer and sat down next to him, leaning back on the tree stump. The grass felt cool under you, sending a small shiver up your body.
“I suppose you’re right,” Kakashi stated, quoting your words from earlier. “It amazes me that none of you gave up on me. I feel like I am undeserving of everyone’s effort.” You were baffled by his honesty; Kakashi wasn’t known to be much of an open book. It upsets you so much that he feels this way as you couldn’t imagine not caring about him or any of your other comrades in the village. The faces of your closest friends flashed through your mind and you grimaced at the thought of losing them.
Not knowing if you should, you felt compelled to reach over and hold Kakashi’s hand in yours. It's cold compared to the warmth spreading from your fingertips. Hmm, I wonder how long he has been out here. Giving his hand a small squeeze, you look at him in his onyx eye. “Trust me, Kakashi. You are deserving. You are deserving of a great life and people who care about you. I know the world may seem dark, but I promise that a light is always glowing. No matter how small or dim, it’s there.”
You stare at each other in silence for a moment before he changes the position of his hand and intertwines his fingers in yours. The change was small, but it ignites a feeling in your stomach you couldn’t describe. Slowly, you felt your cheeks flush and you turned your face to look towards the sky in hopes he wouldn’t notice. You knew this action was him telling you that he accepts your words, and thanks you for them.
You spent the next hour sitting under the tree together, you looking up at the stars and him looking at you. Your intertwined hands fell between your bodies, resting on the cool grass. You felt him start to graze the back of your hand with his thumb, sending a tingling sensation up your arm. It felt so good to be touched by him, even in such an innocent manner.
A strong breeze ran through the air and hit you suddenly. You began to shiver at the quick change in temperature, realizing that you should have dressed warmer if you were going to be out this long. Yet, you couldn’t have anticipated the situation you are currently in.
“Are you cold?” Kakashi questioned with a hint of concern.
“Yeah a little bit,” you answered honestly, “but I don’t want to go back home. I’m not really tired yet.” Truthfully, you didn’t want this little moment of shared bliss to end. You started to feel like you found your escape, and you refused to be torn away from it so soon.
“Neither do I,” he confessed, “Come here.” He released his hand from yours and slid his position higher up on the side of the tree. He then spread his legs and patted the ground in between, inviting you to sit.
You felt your face get hot again, as the position he was offering you was a very intimate gesture. There was absolutely no way you could refuse his offer. One, because you were freezing and, two, young (y/n) would never forgive you.
You got up and sat down carefully between his thighs, leaning until your back met his chest. He then wrapped both of his arms around you, one around your shoulders and the other around your waist with his hand resting on your stomach. The outsides of your legs met the insides of his and you felt an immediate warmth there. Lastly, your head tilted back and rested upon his left shoulder, with his face nuzzled against your temple. You both fit together like two pieces of a puzzle, no part of you feeling any discomfort against his strong body. Engulfed in his smell and warmth, for the first time in a while you felt completely relaxed.
“Thank you, Kakashi.” You looked up at him with a warm smile.
“Anytime.” He breathed, voice muffled by your hair. You wondered if he truly meant that. I mean, after all, this is the first time you have interacted in a while. Yet, the connection you felt towards him was unquestionable.
Does he feel the way I feel?
“Hey,” you began, “are you tired at all?”
He flexed his arms and held you closer to his chest. “Not really,” he answered, “I’m enjoying this moment too much to be tired.” You smiled, and there was a pause.
“Isn’t this odd?” you questioned again.
“What? You and I snuggled under a tree in a random corner of the village alone at 4 a.m. after we haven’t interacted with each other in years?” he questioned sarcastically, “Not at all.”
“Kakashi!,” you laughed, gently nudging your elbow into his ribs as he laughed along with you.
“Yeah it’s a little odd,” he answered honestly, “but I’m not going to question it. I found my light, and now I’m enjoying it.” He nuzzled his face into your hair and breathed deeply.
Completely and utterly relaxed, you let yourself succumb to the heaviness of your eyelids. Truthfully, this has felt like the longest day in the world and you are happy to end it this way. The sound of Kakashi’s breathing and the rise and fall of his chest acted as your personal sleep machine. It’s priceless.
Before you completely drift off, you swear you could feel the soft, pillowiness of Kakashi’s lips graze the skin of your temple, a soft hum escaping from them.
“Goodnight, (y/n)”
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Queue Hilary Duff’s “What Dreams Are Made Of”. This kind of feels like the beginning of something. Should I continue? Idk if my writing is even good. If you read this, PLEASE let me know if you have any feedback. Again, this is my first story and I would greatly appreciate any feedback, advice, suggestions, etc.! I can’t believe I’m uploading, ah! - Klara
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