#hi thisss is probably gonna be my last post that i make while i'm still 19

[sir-elyan]

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#hi thisss is probably gonna be my last post that i make while i'm still 19?? its my bday tomorrow #thought i might immortalize some thoughts feel free to ignore them its #not spn #so. some birthdays arent going to be your best sometimes you're gonna cry and wonder whaaat the fuck is happening snd how you got where you #are in the blink of an eye. others might be better though and maybe waiting for those to unfold isnt half bad #and besides sometimes tears just need to be let out even if you dont know why exactly you're crying #especially if you havent cried in years or months or weeks or whatever #i do actually Feel it when i cry i think im probably the most present then #i dont know why im talking about being sad when lately ive been pretty happy! #i guess as an ode to a past me and maybe a future me too. who knows #but anyways if anyone is reading this cbsjjs its okay to cry. those days pass yknow. you forget about them eventually #or you at least dont feel it as much. but feeling it at all is the valuable part of the human experience i guess #okay idk what im talking about anymore but uhhh #surround yourself with good people <3 they care #and..bye teenage years!! you fucking sucked most of the time but you werent so bad. see you in another life 💗 #rambles