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kandi-pendragon · 3 years
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Trans Elyan my beloved 🥰
@elyan-fest
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ellitx · 3 years
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A lot of NSFW I've sent is Venti satisfying the Reader, but this time it's Reader pleasing him! They're at their room in the tavern, she's massaging his hands, leaving light kisses on his fingers. She tells him that she loves his hands. She loves him, all of him. Proceeds to pull down his pants, and work his length. She continues her kisses up and down his cock. (1)
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She places him in between her tits; she knows how much he likes them. Venti is in heaven and feels so spoiled, he’s doing all he can to stop his hips from bucking. Meanwhile, Reader is doing all she can to drive him crazy, like he does with her, with little sucks, licks here or there, kisses on the tip. (2)
“Venti. Won’t you look at me?” He does, and she’s looking at him with her doe eyes as she licks up the leaking precum. She’s going so slowly, it’s driving him mad, and even more so when she’d stop if he looks away or closes his eyes. When he finally does cum, she swallows it all not allowing a single drop go to waste. (3, end)
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ANON WTF I NEED MORE HHHHH
You beat me to it in writing a scenario AHSJKSKS YOUR BRAIN PLZ I-IM IN LOVE WITH ALL THESE IDEAS YOURE GIVING 😭
I was actually planning to post this on march 14 since it’s white day and it just perfectly fits the reader to return back how venti keeps spoiling her
I dont think i can write a full scenario because this is already god tier even if it’s short 👌✨✨ will you feed us more nsfw?
I’ll try to add my own!
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word count: 618
NSFW under the cut
Since venti loves playing with your breasts so much of course he’d also love boobjob, right?
Absolutely
He always imagined how it would feel like to run his length between them but he never asked you about it since he’s more on wanting to satisfy your needs than his.
When you started massaging his hands, it was really relaxing, and enjoys it when you trail kisses on his fingers. You’ll slowly heat things up between you two— kissing his jaw and sucking on his neck and grinding yourself against his crotch— when he felt you stop and stand up, he’ll be really confused as to why.
Did he do something wrong?
Boy did he not expect he’ll see you sink down to your knees and pull down his shorts. Expect to see him blush and stutter a lot when you did that
Of course, you’d be a blushing mess as well but have confidence in yourself that you wanna please him! Venti would always cater to your desires. It was only fair you would pay him back in kind.
His eyes will turn wide when you kissed the tip of his shaft before leaning down to capture his cock between your boobs. Venti will shakily breathe and gently grasp your hair to stop you.
“[N-Name]... y-you don’t need to—“
You ignored his words and cut him off by moving yourself. A moan will come from him as he tipped his head forward and harshly grasping on the edge of the table to support himself.
“Fuck...”
Venti rarely curses and it’s your first time hearing that from him. For some reason, it turned you on. Be proud of yourself you managed to make him good! But there’s still more, you have to bring him a thousand percent of pleasure
He’ll start twitching as you rub his dick. Alternating it between slow movements of pressure to fast and steady motions. He’s fighting the urge to thrust his hips when you teased his tip. He tightly holds onto the table once again and you can hear the faint scratching of his nails against the wooden object.
He wanted to scream so badly when you used your tongue to further stimulate him. Your breasts were so soft around him and even though your pacing is mostly slow, you make up for it by putting more pressure around him and god he fucking loves it
Venti will writhe on his seat, trying to catch his breath but he can only think of how close he is reaching his climax. His mind is filled with the softness of your tits and how warm it was with his cock buried between them
He was getting hard and it’s really painful and torturous for him. You’ll immediately switch in using your mouth, swallowing his whole length inside you, and start working on pleasing him by sucking his dick relentlessly.
Venti impulsively thrust forward; his cock caught the back of your throat and you’re struggling not to choke as he fills your mouth with his hot semen. You slowly draw out from him and make sure you got every drop of his seed inside your mouth before gulping them down.
Breathless and spent, he slumps back on his seat. His hazy gaze will search your eyes then finds them just in time for him to see them sparkle as you wiped your mouth.
He can't bring himself to the thought you just did that. Yet he’ll still praise you and pat your head when you asked him how well you did with bright eyes.
Venti will pull you back to sit on his lap and this time it’s his turn in making you a mess
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moonlit-jeno · 4 years
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58 jaehyun hhhhh
tw// mentions of alcohol, brief recreational drug use
The drink Johnny had mixed you is more tequila than juice but you sip from it anyways, fighting to keep a neutral expression instead of scrunching your face like you want to. Your eyes roam over the makeshift dance floor, snorting at everything going on. There are plenty of guys there, but none of them fit your taste. There’s only one man that you’re here for, and yet you can’t find him.
“Nice party, huh?” Speak of the devil and he shall appear. Jaehyun leans against the counter next to you, smiling with his dimples on full display. They’re adorable and you thank God you’re not too drunk because if you were, you wouldn’t be able to stop yourself from poking them. “I thought the lights were a nice touch.” “I’m not here for small talk, Jaehyun.” You interrupt, turning your body to face him fully, reaching up to drag the joint out from between his lips and place it between yours. He watches with dark eyes as you inhale deeply, head falling back on your shoulders before letting the smoke pour out.
“No?” Jaehyun humors you, that stupidly attractive smirk on his lips.
“No,” You confirm with a shake of your head, leaning in so that your lips are just inches from his own. “I’m here to fuck your brains out.”
Jaehyun gulps, his Adam’s apple bobbing with the movement. A soft “oh,” leaves him and his gaze slides down to your lips before moving back up to your eyes. “Oh baby, don’t you think it’s going to be the other way around?”
The corner of your mouth twitches up. “Why don’t we go find out?” The words hang in the air for a moment before Jaehyun swears, picking you up and carrying you through the frat house like it’s nothing. Your hands slide over his shoulders, his back, his chest, indulging yourself just a little. He’s so strong that it sets your body on fire, and your skin burns extra hot where Jaehyun’s hands touch you.
You don’t even make it to a bedroom, your back finding a wall as Jaehyun shoves you up against it. His lips are on your neck in an instant, wet kisses pressing to your skin needily. One hand shoots up to fist in his hair, holding him to your neck. “Too desperate to make it to your room?” You aim for a teasing tone but your voice is so breathless that you feel hypocritical mocking him for being desperate. Jaehyun doesn’t seem to care, growling out a “yes” against your throat. His teeth dig into your skin, tongue following afterwards to soothe that pain, and you arch against him with a cry.
One of his hands stays on the back of your thighs while his other hand roams over your body to cup your breast, down over your stomach, squeezing your ass before finally settling between your legs. A strangled noise leaves him as his fingers trail up to your pussy.
“Oh, babygirl was planning on getting fucked?” Jaehyun grins, letting his finger slide through your folds, bumping against your clit with enough force that you jolt. “No panties, how naughty.” “Mhmm, yeah. I was planning on getting fucked, Jaehyun. Better get on with it before I go find someone else.” You hold his gaze with what you hope is conviction, though it’s hard to keep a straight face when he slides two long fingers into your entrance. His eyes darken with what might be a possessive tinge and he fucks you open brutally on his fingers, twisting and scissoring the digits until you’re nothing but a moaning mess in his arms. The angle is painfully awkward for him and you’re sure that his wrist must be cramping at this point but you’re too far gone to be concerned about him. Not when he’s curling his fingers into your sweet spot hard enough that you scream his name and see stars.
The pleasure only lasts for a moment before he slides his fingers out with a flithy pop. Your eyes slide open- you don’t remember shutting them- just in time to watch Jaehyun hold his fingers up to your mouth, pressing the digits to your lower lip. Humming softly, you open your mouth to suck contentedly at the digits.
“So naughty, y/n. Did you forget we were in a hallway?” Jaehyun clicks his tongue and shakes his head, but the smirk never leaves his face. “Screaming my name like that, it’s like you wanted them to hear.”
You moan, sliding your tongue between the two fingers, and Jaehyun swears and drops one of your legs. The other remains around his waist, and you nearly fall as your leg threatens to give out.
Jaehyun hurriedly undoes his belt and shoves his pants down just enough to pull his cock out, easily lining himself up with your entrance. He doesn’t waste any time before he’s pushing in, picking your neglected leg up and wrapping it around his waist. It’s rough from the start, Jaehyun’s hips slamming against your own with so much intensity that you’re sure you’ll have bruises tomorrow. If it weren’t for the bass booming through the house, you’re sure you’d be able to hear the slap of skin against skin, the clang of his undone belt. The thought of having marks for everyone to see makes you hot, but the thought that anyone could see you right now sets you on fire. You clutch desperately at Jaehyun, pulling him as close as possible and crying out his name, trying to express just how good he’s making you feel. Jaehyun groans at how tightly your hug him, how you walls clench around his cock and make him feel like he’s suffocating in the best of ways. He pulls you in for a filthy kiss that has him sucking on your tongue and you moaning into his mouth uncontrollably, just trying your best to feel him as much as you possibly can.
The sex seems to last forever and yet, it’s not long enough. You both desperately chase your high’s and your vision whites out as you come, back arching off the wall and eyes rolling into your head. Jaehyun fills you up with his come and fucks it into you with sloppy rolls of his hips even when both of you are so far past the point of oversensitivity that it burns.
You whimper at the feeling of his come dripping down you thighs, clenching your core tightly to try and hold some of it in. The thought of going back to the party with no panties on and Jaehyun’s come dripping out of you for anyone to see makes your head spin and you shake your head, burying yourself further into Jaehyun’s chest when he tries to set you down.
“I don’t wanna go back.” You mumble. “Wanna spend time with you.” Jaehyun smiles full force, the tips of his ears turning red. He brushes his thumb over your cheek and sweeps some of the hair out of your face. “Yeah? I think I can make that happen.” He lifts you higher onto his body and lets you tuck your face into the crook of his neck. “Let’s go get you cleaned up, yeah?” “Mhmm, yeah. Might wanna pull your pants up first.”
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mourntheantagonist · 3 years
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billy hears about how steve can make guys cum untouched just with his fingers/dick. he gets keyed up, post s2 or s3 (whichever floats your boat) and goes to steve begging for him to finger billy open then make him cum untouched.
wHO TOLD YOU!!?
who exposed me??
coming untouched is my favorite thing hhhhh
I revealed this information to only a small number of people I’m coming for all of you 🔪
anyway... I hope you enjoy this because i sure did
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Billy approach’s Steve at his locker with both the bravado of a man on a mission and the nervousness of a twelve year old asking his crush to dance.
Billy had learned a very interesting rumor about his boyfriend from the pitcher for the baseball team. After several attempts of the guy trying to get into Steve’s pants, Billy was unleashed to put the kid into his proper place. Billy refrained from anything too physical, knowing if he left any marks on Saunders he would definitely be receiving the cold shoulder from Steve. And it’s not like he could blame the guy. If he had been on the receiving end of one of Steve’s magical blow jobs and had that taken away, he might have done the same thing.
Billy just shoves him around a bit. Makes a few veiled threats that he doesn’t need to know have zero merit. Steve has truly made him soft. But still, Billy’s reputation preceded him. Dixon Saunders easily submitted.
But before Billy could walk away he had to open his big mouth.
“Word of advice. Let Harrington in the backdoor. You’ll be fuckin’ seein’ stars I tell you. Doesn’t even have to touch.”
Billy allows himself to walk away. Manages to fight the urge to probe him with all his questions. But those words they fucking bore a hole into his brain and he’s gotta know. He’s gotta experience that first hand for himself.
“You free after school? I wanna test out a rumor.” He says, leant up against the locker in an attempt to seduce, while also masking the scared little kid inside him as he beats around the bush.
Steve and him have not progressed past hand jobs and blowjobs. Billy’s only ever had actual, back breaking, sex once. And he wasn’t on the receiving end. So this was uncharted territory for him. But his dick twitched every time those words echoed in his skull.
“Doesn’t even have to touch.”
“And what rumor would that be?” Steve asks as he shoves the remainder of his books into his locker.
And Billy can’t bring himself to ask for it. Not here where people can see Steve laugh in his face. No, he’d rather lose his dignity in private.
And it’s not that Billy thinks Steve will laugh at him for wanting it, but laugh at him for the clear desperation he has for it.
“I’ll tell you when we get to your place. Wouldn’t want it to spread around school.”
Steve just laughs it off and nudges Billy’s shoulder, but Billy’s already looking him up and down with a bit lip and hungry eyes. Because Steve is looking like an entire meal right now. Wrinkles next to his eyes and shiny white teeth exposed with his smile. Long fingers brushing through his hair.
He wants.
He needs.
He doesn’t know how he intends to make it through the last hour of the school day without popping a boner in history class. Having to come up with a reason why the assasination of Franz Ferdinand has him so aroused.
When they’ve finally made it to Steve’s house Steve is begging Billy to tell him the rumor, and billy is begging for something else entirely. Billy pushes Steve down onto the couch and gets into Steve’s lap. Facing towards him with a knee on either side of Steve’s legs. Steve wraps his arms around Billy’s back as Billy leans down to kiss him. Steve’s neck craning upwards to meet Billy’s lips.
“A little birdie told me you can make a boy come untouched. That true?”
And Billy was correct to assume Steve would laugh. But it isn’t a mocking laugh. More delighted and intrigued.
“Well if you want me to do that we’re gonna have to get you in another position.”
And suddenly Billy is flying off his lap and Steve is dragging Billy up the stairs and into his room. Bending Billy over against the bed, propped up by his hands until Steve knocks him down to his elbows. Billy let’s out a quiet chuckle at this amount of aggression and heat he’s not used to seeing out of Steve.
Steve reaches for his bedside table and pulls out a bottle of lube from one of the drawers, sparing no time at all before yanking Billy’s pants downs to his knees and squirting a bit of lube onto two fingers.
“You’re sure you’re ready for this?” He asks, and Billy is already spreading his legs. Bracing himself. Yeah. He’s fucking ready.
“If you don’t start right fucking now I’m going to scream.”
Steve laughs before sliding in one slicked finger. Billy’s fingered himself before, but this right here was an entirely different ball game. When he did it to himself he could never get the angle quite right. And the added fear that his father could walk in on him with fingers up his ass, he’d rather not entertain that.
The one finger felt good. Better than he could achieve himself. But he definitely wasn’t seeing stars.
By the time Steve added in a second finger he started to feel it. Not overwhelming pleasure, but the desperate need to touch himself. He was already leaking pre onto the bed sheets, gripping the cloth tightly and clenching his teeth to fight the urge to stroke his dick. His hard, red, throbbing dick.
Okay maybe he wasn’t entirely ready for that.
Steve’s fingers are now scissoring inside him spreading him apart slowly and teasingly. He’s slow and meticulous and he’s doing all the right things. Billy feels the need so bite down on something. His nails now digging into his palms, sure to leave marks. He’s sputtering nonsensical pleas to speed up. More more more.
Then there’s a third finger and Billy lets out and embarrassing moan.
He needs Steve inside of him. Now.
And apparently Steve agrees as he slowly removes his fingers from Billy’s hole, Billy letting out a deep breath as the pressure is released.
Suddenly Steve is flipping Billy onto his back, ripping his own shirt off, pulling Billy’s jeans the rest of the way down and over his ankles. Pulling Billy’s legs up to where they are now resting on his shoulders. Billy follows Steve’s lead and reveals his own bare chest. Unbuttoning the only two buttons that were ever fastened. His hands are too close to his dick for Steve’s liking. Billy’s so close to wrapping his hand around himself and holding on for dear life.
Steve grabs Billy by the wrists and pins them down to the bed just above Billy’s head.
“Hands off the merchandise. We’re testing the rumor aren’t we?”
And Billy just whimpers underneath the weight of Steve on top of him. He needs Steve inside of him. He wants so badly to come undone at just the feeling of Steve inside him. Tearing him apart. Destroying him until he’s a blubbering mess.
Steve releases one hand from Billy’s wrist hesitantly. Slowly to ensure Billy remains complaint and keeps the hand where it lies. Then he’s using the free hand to position himself, and it all feels like slow motion. Like time stops completely before Steve is complete filling Billy up. Then he’s pumping in and out at an agonizingly slow pace and Billy just wants to scream.
Steve is leaning over him, hands back on Billy’s wrists, kissing, sucking, biting on Billy’s neck and the show is almost over for him. Tears spilling out of his eyes. He’s desperately fighting against Steve’s grip on him.
“Come for me baby.” He whispers in his ear with a breathy moan. “I’m close too.”
It’s the combination of the hot breath against his ear and one final thrust that he feels all the way to his stomach that does it all for him. Almost instantaneously he’s shooting off onto Steve’s chest. He’s not seeing stars. He’s seeing the whole damn galaxy.
And he could easily get hard again at just the sight of Steve on top as he comes inside of him. Mouth agape as he releases a heavy and unsuppressed moan. Hair filling into his face, beads of sweat on his forehead. He looks fucking ethereal. Of course a boy who looked like that would live up to the rumor. But there was never really any doubt in Billy that Steve would deliver. And boy did he ever.
And then Steve’s aggressive performance from just a few minutes ago is flipped on it’s head. Slowly removing himself from inside, Billy feeling as Steve’s come slowly drips from his hole. Steve coming up to his face to gently push a hair out of his face before peppering gentle kisses to the space below his eyes where shedded tears came to rest.
“I would ask you if the rumors are true, but I think that’s kinda obvious don’t you think?” Steve says with a little smirk.
Billy scoffs before gently moving a now freed hand up to grab Steve by the chin. Angling his face to his eyes are locked straight on his own. “Shut up you cocky little bastard.” He says before pulling him down to meet his lips, wrapping his legs around him and locking his ankles together and pulling Steve down until Steve’s chest completely pressed up against his own.
“I’m still stronger than you. Don’t you ever forget it.”
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astralhugs · 4 years
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may I request headcanons for a slow sunday morning in for all the mlqc boys (or those you feel comfortable writing)? are they used to letting themselves rest or do they need Somebody to cling to them for dear life to keep them down? :D welcome back!
MLQC boys on lazy Sunday mornings
VICTOR
* On rare occasions, he would open up souvenier.
* He enjoys cooking and finds it relaxing so even if he doesn’t open the store, maybe he’ll learn new recipes for you!
* But if his workload from LFG gets too heavy, expect him staying up later than usual. You would definitely have to drag him away from his table.
* No matter how busy he is, he would definitely make some time for you.
* Maybe a date in souvenier or some fancy expensive restaurants.
* Later he’ll critique the food once you both are at somewhere private haha
* Enjoys night time because thats when he can have more free time since he feels like he NEEDS to work at day. At night he’s more...free.
* Loves cuddling up with you when you both sleep, he won’t admit it tho.
LUCIEN
* MANS NEVER SLEEP ON THE WEEKDAYS
* I DONT SEE HIM SLEEPING ON WEEKENDS EITHER
* At least he stays home tho and not watch those 24 hour cinema theatre things
* He’d pull out an old black and white CD cassette and you both would watch it together or -he watches it alone while you sleep beside him on the couch-
* In the day, he would still go to his lab if work is starting to pile up but he’d go home at a much more...reasonable hour.
* 10PM latest!
* Sometimes you go with him and watch him work.
* No matter how tired or sleepy he is, he never slips or mess up.
* He has an airbed if he needs to sleep there.
* Sometimes you’d sleep over there with him.
* Yea both of you need to go home
GAVIN
* OMG
* THIS MAN
* WORKAHOLIC ™
* “I’m not tired” he says. a yawn follows up.
* YOU HAVE TO DRAG HIM OFF HIS DESK SO HE WOULD AT LEAST GET AN HOUR OF SHUT EYE
* “GAVIN PLEASE-“
* Eventually gives in and goes to bed.
* But would get up in the morning and wake you up too.
* </3 exercise
* “C’mon we rarely spend time together! Lets jog for a bit!”
* More of a Sunday morning person since he would stay in the station ‘til night time on some Saturdays.
* Hates it when you’re not around while he’s having a day off.
* Like whats he gonna do damn
* Takes you out to the park for more jogging and exercising or just simple cute dates.
* Eating ice cream together, walking around hand in hand, yall both look like the cutest couple istg
KIRO
* HXJSXJJ FIRST OFF KIROS AN IDOL
* he doesn’t have much free time so his options are only the days Savin give him day offs and weekends
* CARNIVALS COTTON CANDY AHHH
* GOES INTO KID MODE
* if you don’t like going to carnivals and such, he’ll stay home with you, maybe eat a bag of chips or two while yall both play video games.
* Its always fun with Kiro on the weekends.
* At night, he’d be more calm and maybe yall both listen to some music while ordering chinese.
* Cuddling with you on couches>>>>sleeping on the bed.
if yall like this, i’ll add shaw and helios :D
i hope everyones having a great day sorry i havent posted in months hhhhh
—astralhugs
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lutbys · 3 years
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Christmas Party
Day 1 of Christmas at Hogwarts:
1st – You and Draco are sworn enemies. Always have, always will. But an evening spent decorating the Slytherin common room has got you both rethinking your choices.
a/n: MY DUMB ASS! I woke up this morning to no notifications for day one and i was lowkey sad bc I thought no one like it but when I checked again, I POSTED IT PRIVATELY UGHHGUGG *biggest facepalm of the century. No, at this point I've smashed my head against the wall* So I guess its on the 2nd of December then hHHHH I’m truly sorry for my dumbmity.
Draco Malfoy x Slytherin reader
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“You want me to do this all by myself!” you gawked at the boxes upon boxes of Christmas decorations Pansy dug up for tonight. “And how do you expect this to look good?”
“That’s where you come in silly! I’ve seen your decorating skills back home and its impressive. That’s why you’re our party decorator” Pansy replied, gleaming at the shiny tinsel and the mountain of fairy lights. Who knew there was enough space in this dungeon to store such cheerful items?
“But I didn’t agree to this stupid party in the first place!”
“Typical of y/n to back out at the last minute. What next? You didn’t plan on getting married so why host a wedding?” you hear Draco scoff as he descended down the stairs that lead to the dorms, his arms tucked into each other and his face disgruntled just like how he would every time he caught sight of you.
“Shut it Malfoy. I don’t see you being of much help either.” To that he only scoffed and turned his back to join in on a conversation with Blaise.
It wasn’t rocket science for anybody to realize you and Draco were never on the same page. Its been like this since the first year, from the awful hair pulling to sabotaging each other’s cauldrons during potions class. You never knew why but when you first caught sight of the boy, you’d knew you’d hate him.
“Now that the venue is all settled, Nott, Zabini and I are going to Hogsmeade for the snacks. Draco you coming?” Pansy ticked off errands from her endless to do list, her eyes racking through the list multiple times like the perfectionist she is.
“Waste my time walking around? No thank you.”
“Then its settled, Draco you can help y/n doll this place up. The faster, the better.” Before he could utter an excuse, the busy girl had pushed the two other boys away and exited the common room.
You stood in awe at the situation your best friend put you in. The two of you stood dumbfoundedly among the boxes as you raked your brain on how you were going to turn this musty dungeon into a welcoming hall.
“I suggest we throw all this shit out and call it a day.” Draco grunted, kicking a box of ornaments till it toppled and you watched as three glittery green globes fall and break into little pieces. “Unlike you, I actually have important things to do.”
“Like what? Being a git? Who do you think is going to clean that up Draco?” You bit back, pointing to the scatter of broken glass that once used to be delicate trinkets. 
“you know what? I’ve had enough of you for today. I’m going to decorate this part of the room” You gestured your hands around the fireplace “And you can decorate all the way over there”
With a dramatic roll of his eyes, Draco agreed and moved over to the tables along with his pick of decorative items.
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You’ve been staring at the fireplace for longer than you wished but your mind is blank. Completely blank. And you dreaded to turn and see how much Draco has done because all you’ve been hearing for the past half hour are the crinkles of the tinsel and his frustrated moans whenever the wrapping paper didn’t fold the way he wanted it to.
Your eyes shifted from box to box as you tried to come up with something creative. Sure, your living room back at home would look extravagant to guests but that was all mom’s doing, all you had to do was help put them up. 
-
It was the absence of the gold chain that once perched itself on top of the dodgy Santa stuffy that caught your attention.
I swear I saw it a moment ago
You were also wondering why the gold star for the tree was missing too! After rummaging through the countless number of boxes, there was only one other person you could think of to have stolen it.
“Oi Malfoy! Next time you take something from my side, ask!” You rolled your eyes at his obliviousness.
“Why would I want things from your side? Mine looks better to begin with.” “Then where did the star for the Christmas tree go?” your confusion grew as he mirrored your expression. What is happening?
Just then, you caught sight of a little dark grey blob running across the room, its little feet making little to no noise against the carpeted floors. You and Draco turned to each other with wide eyes, Care of Magical Creatures taught you well enough to identify it as a Niffler, the little rodent who steals.
“What the hell are we going to do?” you whisper-shouted, eyeing the single seated sofa you last saw it run by.
“Its your problem y/l/n. I’m not touching that thing.” 
“Don’t be daft Malfoy, if we don’t catch it, your stupid watch will be next!” Draco scoffed at your exaggeration, but his reaction quickly dimmed as he fingered his wrist at where his fathers watch used to be.
“My watch! You jinxed it you little minx.” 
“See! If we don’t catch it now who knows what will be nex- Hey!” you watched the sly critter reach out for the string of tinsel on the floor, barely grabbing hold before going back into hiding.
Your feet worked faster than your brain as you lurched towards the sofa, trying to grab hold of its little tail but to no avail, it was faster. “Draco look out! He’s coming your way!” 
Before it could dodge the white-haired boy, Draco had caught it swiftly. The poor creature tried to wriggle himself to escape, but Draco’s grip was stronger. “Hagrid’s right. It does feel funny.” His face grimaced at the sight of the thing, its flat beak and teeny arms was not sitting right for him.
“From what I remember, all you have to do is hold it by its hind legs and shake it.” You watched him follow your instructions and everything instantly fell out of its pocket. From coins to a small piece of confetti, it rained gold. You laughed in bewilderment at the sight in front of you. Sure, you’ve learned anything and everything about these magical creatures but having the opportunity to see one in real life was quite a scene to remember. It seemed Draco too was amused with the sight.
“What a cheeky little rat! Look at all he’s stolen.” Draco said after trapping the Niffler in a nearby crate. “I don’t think this is the only house he visited.” He held out a gold Gryffindor badge that once belonged to a prefect.
“That was pretty impressive. Never seen one in my life!” your hand raked through the lost knick-knacks like it was a treasure chest. “I’m going to put this back, Pansy should be back anytime now and I know she’d freak if she came back to this mess.”
Draco too took the liberty of scooping from the pile and just then, your hands touched. You couldn’t tell if it was the adrenaline of having seen a Niffler or never have had contact with Draco, but it felt different. Almost, nice. 
It was when you looked up when you realized how close you both were to each other, close enough that your breaths mingled, close enough that if your lips were to touch-
“We’re back and we’re ready for the biggest party yet!” Pansy excitement boomed from the picture frame they entered through; her hands filled with bags from Honeydukes. 
Like acid being poured over, you both pulled away instantaneously. “What the hell happened in here!” The once happy girl’s smile went agape when she saw the mess beyond her. The chairs were toppled, the lights that were supposed to be on the walls were scattered on the floor, and a suspicious looking crate was moving on its own.
“We had a bit of a Niffler situation” you scratched the back of your neck guiltily, you had failed the one task you were given, and miserably at that. “But it’s okay! I promise you I will fix all of it.” Your words seemed to encourage her, knowing her trust on you was strong.
“You have an hour and an HOUR only.”
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“The most memorable party of the year!”
“This beats Gryffindor’s for sure” 
You rolled your eyes at the cocky compliments thrown around, knowing well enough it all came from your group of friends. You didn’t know how, but you miraculously made this place lively with the time given. Having your friends entertain you whilst at it added bonus points. Now, you awed at how the lights made the room glow and the green, black and white banners hung proudly by the fireplace.
But one thing kept running through your mind as the party went on in full swing.
Draco.
You couldn’t get this afternoons incident out of your head. You never noticed how his eyes were so mesmerizing and his scent so intoxicating that you would have all your clothes doused to smell like it. 
And he couldn’t get you out of his head too.
Draco stood lonely near the staircases, having no mood to mingle as he was knackered from the days events. But it was also an excuse to think over things when it came to you. He rewinded the scene over and over again, wondering what would happen it the moment never stopped, if Pansy wouldn’t have opened her loud mouth and disturbed them.
You both parted -quickly at that- as soon as the group came back, not daring to look into each others eyes for the rest of the evening.
But here you were, searching through the crowds for the one pair of eyes that had made your heart stop.
And you found them.
Staring straight back.
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knivesandwives · 3 years
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Can you give an excerpt (is that the word?) or a pic from the book about Hannibal and Clarice's little date thing? I'm intrigued lol
Oh lol I'm honestly still reading it! Thank you for facilitating my venting though, and I will gladly share my incomplete knowledge. I haven't even finished this scene, which continues into another chapter. I had to take a break and cool my head because it makes me want to gag like I was a 5 year old with an aversion to kissing scenes (which is not usual for me. I just. I don't know about this). I could take the time to finish reading it in the time I'm writing this buuuut I'm too heated to do so atm, even though it would spare me the embarrassment of having very incomplete context. I don't even know whether Thomas Harris intends for the reader to want them together, but his treatment of Hannibal Lecter has generally verged on salivating over him, imo, so. I'm gonna take it as implied that I should like this a bit more than I do. I could be very wrong. Under the cut because it is a Rant
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I’ve got the fun wacky stuff first because this book is Wild. Bonkers. Then I have semi serious stuff and Thoughts thoughts in the second half 
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WACKY FUN STUFF PART
it is So over the top corny. Highlights so far:
-Hannibal is playing the harpsichord when Clarice walks out. In other scenes he’s played his theremin. He is insufferable
- the piece he's playing is called ‘If True Love Reigned’ and was composed by Henry VIII, which is a red flag if ever I heard one
-he dresses up in white tie for her and spends FOREVER decorating the house *just so* and inspecting the dinner table from various angles to check whether the Aesthetic is right, because the house he's rented out is only so-so and he's gotta make up for it:
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I mean. He decides to add a shit ton of flowers to make it intimate and create a hanging gardens effect, realizes that this looks bad, and decides that the solution is More flowers. Maybe he’s right, but I think with the rest of the decorations this is probably looking like a mess right now.
-Uhhh if I remember correctly from the Freudian Daddy Issues chapter (hhhhh I want to have a word with Thomas Harris), the reason he makes the peonies in the flower arrangement “white as SNO BALLS” is because she has some sort of (dad-related) childhood memories about these fucking Hostess twinkie-level snacks. There are Levels to his floral arrangements
-Similarly, the cocktails he prepares for them have orange slices on the side because it’ll remind her of her father slicing oranges and Hannibal wants to be daddy
-The landlord he’s renting the house from (where he’s keeping Clarice and holding Date Night) has a fixation on Leda and the Swan, to the point that he has four statues of it and eight paintings of it in that one house alone. Hannibal likes the horniest one with the best “anatomical articulation.” Make of that what you will. There was indeed a reason for Bryan Fuller including such a pussy out painting in the set for Hannibal’s dining room. Hannibal covers the other Leda statues and paintings that don’t live up to his standards
- He brings her clothes to wear?? Special Fancy clothes for Date Night. Ugh. And I thought it was pushy and anal in SOTL when he gave her tips on how to improve her fashion
- Hannibal wears an ascot over a white shirt. No jacket. I don't know if I trust the taste level of this man. I like Freddy from scooby doo but his look seems like a stretch in this context
-he uses candelabra like he's the phantom of the opera and has this incredibly fucking extra mirror in his rented house:
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-he tells her his goals for the evening in one of the trademark Long Confusing Hannibal Monologues we’re so used to seeing in the show, then asks Clarice if she understands, and her response is: no I don’t so I hope your food is good at least
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Actual Serious Thoughts about it  (content warning: some vaguely psychosexual things involving characters’ family, drugging and non-sexual consent issues)
I think my reaction is definitely influenced by the context that's been presented so far for their relationship in this book, which includes (briefly):
--Hannibal has a fixation on Clarice as a potential replacement for/idealized version of Mischa, his dead sister. The moment he lays eyes upon her again in this book he starts having uncontrollable flashbacks that directly associate Clarice with Mischa and overlays their meanings and iconography. So... that's something. It shows up constantly whenever we get a glimpse into his POV. I have thoughts about what Hannibal finds appealing about Clarice RE as an idealized version/teacup reversal of Mischa; the book tells us he admires her courage and her spirit as a warrior despite having been victimized, and so Clarice is in some ways a version of Mischa that was capable of surviving despite the odds. That was (crudely) my working theory, anyway. Might have to reevaluate that now because I'm less certain now about Hannibal's intentions and how much his appreciation for Clarice is really *respectful* of her potential, versus how much he sees her as some sort of vehicle to replace Mischa and be some sort of walking talking idealized doll that he crafts into his dead sister. I wanted it to not be *as* weird and psychosexual as I thought it would end up being, but this book definitely leans into some weird sexualized Freudian shit, and I'm concerned that Mischa and Clarice are part of that despite my best efforts to rationalize it in a way that I would have preferred. Really, who fantasies about their lover being a reminder of their sister?
--Freudian hell part 2: Hannibal has rescued Clarice from the Verger farm (after she rescued him, which was quite dramatic) and has her drugged at his house and undergoing the type of hypnosis we see suggested with Will and Miriam Lass in NBC!Hannibal. Hannibal suggests things, she follows those suggestions with apparently little agency of her own. He probes into her history and traumas and causes her to see things. Among his goals here is to have her make peace with her dead father in some way (in a scene which strongly resembles Abigail's therapy with GJH's corpse as seen in the s3 flashbacks), and to give her some form of control over her memory of him. This is accompanied by some very squicky speculation from Hannibal about Clarice having taboo sexual associations with her father, which she projects (among other things) onto other father figures in her life like Jack Crawford or her fallen FBI partner. I didn't know before I got into this book whether it was going to legitimize the Electra complex angle on Clarice this much, and maybe I'm wrong to accept Hannibal's viewpoint as sacred, but. So far, that seems to be the take.
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So that's the context for the leadup to this romantic dinner scene. Hannibal has decorated his house specially for this date night type thing and given her a slinky, fancy dress to wear in his fancy house. Clarice has been heavily under the influence of drugs so far, and this night is no exception. This chapter so far has been a treasure trove of the more romantic dialogue repurposed for NBC!Hannibal, but I kind of can't stand it here in this book as anything remotely romantic. It's almost entirely him talking *at* her and it seems like this is more about him and his idealized fantasy of her than it is actually about her. The text does refer to him as "the monster" more frequently in this chapter, and it calls him out directly for his vanity and self congratulation, so I'm not entirely sure if I'm even supposed to like it, but. Anyway. You asked for excerpts! This particular scene is probably the densest part of a very dense chapter (the highlights are a mess rn):
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There's a lot of interesting stuff in here, some of which really raises my hackles in ways I wasn't anticipating. Clarice has just emerged in the outfit he chose for her to join him. Clarice's first question to him is to ask about how much he's invaded her privacy without her knowledge, and he has a very bullshit answer where he pretends that this situation he's manufactured, in which he drugs her and creates a fantasy world for them, is okay because it exists outside of reality. It doesn't. It's an interesting idea but it's bullshit. This is not his memory palace, this is reality and it does exist as a part of time that Clarice has had to experience (or not, as the case may be for her level of consciousness throughout this). And he turns around from this question about him being intrusive to reiterate his attraction to her. Squick at that. Her plain (possibly curt?) answer to his compliment, even though it's a thank you, causes him annoyance. This is where I really, Really start to have, like, flashbacks to Jessica Jones and the playing house plotline. Real strong flashbacks to that. Clarice's (apparently unintentional) failure to meet his standards and reciprocate in the exact way he wants her to makes him Annoyed. Clarice identifies this and holds her ground, interestingly enough, and Hannibal has a moment of awe at her stubborn individuality, but immediately falls back on self congratulatory wanking at his choice of woman. Then, there's more talking at her, to which she eventually says that she basically doesn't know what the fuck he means but she hopes he plans to make dinner worth her while. I appreciate Clarice holding her ground so well here, especially given the circumstances, and I don't know quite where this is headed, but I guess the gist of it is that in this context I just really want to slap Hannibal about and see him burn
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An Innocent Sin & the good gay flashback ft. my descent into madness
I wasn’t sure if I should post this but I mostly want it archived so here we go. This is from like,, September?
So. “An Innocent Sin” is a dumpster fire unlike anything I’ve ever seen. I don’t remember why I decided to read it. maybe I was crazy. Either way... I read it. It soon started to touch upon (very very outlandish) sexual abuse which I thought was interesting. (the angst, not so much some of the wack circumstances surrounding it)
ANYWAY. at some point... we have a flashback. And not just that. It has a gay character.
And it turns rly gay. which mind you, is still in a het smut manwha (that has a “gay” side couple, but still!)
And it destroyed me.
For those who want to read it because I genuinely think the flashback is a decent bit, it’s all the bonus chapters between chapter 77 and 78 I think. There’s a part before that too, but idk where exactly anymore. (It’s on lezhin! or your platform of choosing)
I don’t THINK you’ll need any other knowledge to get the flashback bit? but it’s been a while.
Below the cut (rip mobile users), you can read all of my amazing reactions (all of these were text messages, for context - but I took most of the replies and convos about other things out). Post is also tagged as long post. :))
(i’m serious, this is fucking long)
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Here I am. Liking the gay flashback character. Feck. Main dude is still straight but idk it's cute pff
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This is a mess. The girl white hair likes, likes black hair, maybe, but thinks white hair is attractive
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What just happened is sth I'd like to know too pff He's so cute tho omg. Watch me melt Can we stay in this flashback before everything got perverted af and before white hair gets assaulted all the time I would send an eyebrow emote if I could Context: he's asking he says it again
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Ik it's not mutual but loookkk he's so sweet. He's kinda rude in present time, can't we stay in this flashback forever
I never asked for gay, never expected gay but I got gay
This story is trash why am I still reading it shdhhd
He caught his mom cheating. And now she's forcing him to watch??? What is thissss Well adoptive mom But still sudhdidu what Bitch how dare YOU exist
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Save my babyyyy
Yay sister that's not yet a rapist to the rescueee
This flashback is actually just nicer in every way let's just stay here This is a super long flashback btw Idek anymore what triggered it
Okay I think I'm gonna make the sensible decision and let this dumpster fire rest and just go sleep
It was very wild. I kinda wanna see white hair get therapy but it has 90 chapters and I'm at like 30... So I'm very concerned this is gonna be very dragged out. Idek if it's even finished ahahsududi - but I do kinda wanna see where it goes and see more cute Noah (white hair) so. Here we are.
yeahhh like i was down for the sexual abuse angst but then the mother killed the adoptive son's mother bc the dad had a thing for her?? and it was someone a person studying with white hair knew and so he's investigating and I'm like how did this turn into a crime organisation kind of plot
hhhhhhh i... i appreciate these horny things also tackling abuse but it always kind of gives me weird vibes to have both, especially when its very horny. And when people are horny to people who've been abused. Idk but I'd assume... you might try NOT to tie them up if they're frequently bondaged during their assaults. I'm just.... disjdksdj hello?? am i weird?? why are they fine with it???
also this manwha is so wild, theres this murder mystery investigation thing and then theres just a couple doing honry stuff sprinkled in between and i'm like OKAY
they rescued a guy in their basement and he's understandably very traumatized and they're trying to question him cut to our main couple trying bondage which i still dont understand bECAUSE HE'S A RAPE VICITM WHY ARE YOU OKAY WITH THIS the ones questioning arent the main couple of course but idshkjds
like im glad he's somehow okay with all this horny stuff despite his trauma and im glad he can be happy and have a nice relationship but DO WE NEED THIS MUCH OF IT he's very cute tho
i like that even when i try other stuff lezhin recommends me it still has large amount of gay in it
[mei: i mean... that's pretty great, if you ask me]
I mean I agree, I'm enjoying the gay eheheh these tonal whiplashes there's not even that much white space between the panels fhjd nvm it just turned horny goddamn it can there be 1 chapter without fucking? okay, there were the flashbacks
WE ARE BACK IN FLASHBACKS but im not getting the gay relationship, sad
OH WAIT AM I GETTING GAY COMFORT bc thats very good too
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OH NNOOO this turned sad very quickly
I'M SORRY IM SPAMMING BUT THIS IS JUST ANGSTY
I'M :((((
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different species confirmed
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I rly like them :((( I like the current girl too but it's just..... very horny with her. the flashbacks are nice [current tori edit: she’s very unloyal idk why i said I liked her] im weird HHHHH RIPPP 
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someone help him he looks so saddddd
not sure if thats the most healthy relationship but I'LL TAKE IT
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AWWW black hair's mom cooks mild food for them bc Noah can't eat spicy food :((( im soft
PFFF
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I LOVE THE FLASHBACKS :(((
awww
i feel like theyve done much more bonding than noah's current relationship. I mean yes I think its cute when she comforts him, too, but they rarely do anything besides be horny together
OH OH THEY'RE KISSING
best buildup, honestly
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the position is hornier than I'd like later here goes hope it stays cute
D-did someone just respect the word "stop"??? I am amazed
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i think you might uh. have some trauma stuff too so yknow
Dohye is a little dramatic in his reassurance but it's all rly cute so I'm :(( I like them a lot pls stay like this getting invested in flashbacks is always like: ik it wont stay but pls stay like this
hELP
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chapters ending in "i wanna touch him" is never good. I'm scared. Oh okay he didnt do anything. PHEW. He's already better than the girl, can't they just end up together lmao
[Noah was jealous]
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w-why do you look so evil dohye haukdhjs
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oh. oh no. the horny is starting. pls dont... just be cute forever
DOHYE NO YOU WERE SO DECENT WHY ARE YOU LYING ABOUT KOREAN TRADITIONS TO GET HIM TO DO STUFF HORNY STUFF TOO NO PLS STOP I JUST- WHEEE TvT the manwha is actually less visually horny in the flashbacks but im not sure if its bc its BL which isnt rly the genre of the manwha or if its bc they're still kids basically, which... I'd respect the latter, tho I'd prefer it to be like this constantly haha
okay. he's not respecting stop anymore, but it's also more of embarrassed nature more than "no i dont want this stop" so maybe i can forgive it. Still losing points, but he hugged him and it was sweet so HHHHHHHHHHH NOT SURE HOW I SHOULD JUDGE THIS SITUATION
They [Noah’s family] forbid him to visit his friends house I AM DEVASTATED
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understandable they're a rapist, a fucked up murderer mother and a father with a thing for younger women so
tho he dont know any of that but yknow he's so pretty just fucking end me on the spot
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hooo
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they are boyfriends and ik from the future that his sister is gonna ruin it allll she has those drugs that make visual imaginations feel like they rly happened to the person (dont know if thats real but holy fuck its terrifying) and she's used it before to say that Noah assualted her. and im pretty sure shes gonna use it again bc there was a panel of Noah remembering Dohye being uhhhh intimate with her and thats why Noah began to hate him and im so sad im not ready for it. bc he's denied it in the future and i honestly couldnt see it happening even before that or she drugged Dohye, i guess thats a possibility too
[current tori: oh girl, it’s neither and it’s wack]
which if, btich you gonna die even more enough rambling, more reading. this makes me so sad but also spicy
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on the manwha note, he thinks Noah doesnt like his family bc he's adopted and doesnt feel comfy which....... fair enough i suppose. and he's so cute im gonna melt just looK AT THIS 
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SHUt UP, IM GONNA CRY
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OH MY GODDDD he ate like ice and gum and all that, and Dohye assumed it was bc of the more spicy food and got rl worried, but he was just trying to get the smell out of his breath bc he wanted to kiss him ukhsdjs HOW CAN YOU BE SO CUTE HELLLOOOOOOOOO
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look at them. LOOK AT mY BABIESSSS
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how am i ever gonna care about the main couple again aww he-he wanted to go to the same highschool as him :((( im sad bc i know its not gonna happennnnnn
[mei: also at this point, you're literally never gonna care about them. i don't even know the main couple that well and i honestly don't care about them whatsoever.]
WAIT NO they're actually going to the same school awww ik it wont take long until sister fucks it up for them but for now theyre so sweet ohmygodddd
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cant he move in with them, fuck his family honestly
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dohye he's not a fucking pokemon iukhsdjs
oh. its. turning horny i am displeased with this development but i guess its natural for their relationship however COULD YOU DO IT AT HOME AND NOT IN SOME DUSTY SMALL ROOM how do ppl do this i like that the comments too are just "... is anyone still carng about the other girl?" sakjds
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this is the best 3 panels in existence.
h-he just took your hand dohye idk what to tell you
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[mei: "you blush at everything i do" god if that isn't me, idk what is]
awww its cute dohye is getting bonus points bc he invited Noah over while his mom wasnt home, they watched some sexual stuff and he DIDNT try to do anything what is this where can i get more of this
"well im not okay"
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MY BABIESSSS 
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they still didnt do much btw they're just kinda exploring and its honestly nice TvT I dont want this to ever endddd
[Dohye sees Noah’s sister and approaches her] N O
N OOOO
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this is the starttttt of something.......... TERRIBLEEEE 
:((( babyyyy
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I AM EMO
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Noah was drugged im sure. hes having dreams and waking up in pain and the sister is asking doyhe over I DONT LIKE THISSSSSSS OH HE DECLINED
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OKAY OKAY he saw him with her again but it was from behind and im not sure if it rly happened??? oh no this is terrible. Noah :((( poor child
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i am so emo about this
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[reminder he’s been abused TvT]
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[the sister: “Don’t you want to know why?”]
i will. murder someone he called to ask her to delete his number btw what is this manwha but this is just gonna make it that more tragic when whatever happens that breaks them apart :(((
he's such a good bf but Noah just wont TELL him his side I'M SO SAD
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I AM SO SAD
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No
NO
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It cant end im actually tearing up nooo you were so cuteeee and happpyyy
[*sister is telling dohye to come to the gym hall*]
what else is she gonna do she already teared [current tori: ahem... T O R E] them apart THAT'S NOT DOYhE. THATS NEVER HIM. OH MY GOD. is it a look alike??? damn, she's dedicated to just. ruining it, huh
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I’M
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I’M SO SAD
now he's switching SCHOOLS NO NOOOOO how will i ever find happiness againnnn NO they're misunderstanding further they're not talking properly i mean i get it but oh my god
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I'M :((( 
NO NOOOO pls make up in the future at least omg he tried to clear it up tooo ahhh i dont even have hopes for them getting back together but i just i want them to clear it up im crying first manwha to make me cry and it's this dumpster fire ahaha maybe a little too bc it kinda hit a little close to home i guess but goddamnn ittttt they were so cuteee and so happy and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
OH NO. Noahs getting drugged and assaulted. And he's realizing it happened before, he just forgot. I am. so sad it's not horny drawn either which i appreciate but MY HEART NO
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N O DONT YOU DARE MAKE THIS WORSE
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Im. gonna cry more 
Doyhe kept an eye on him im so emo :(( but he thought he was doing well enough and gave up.... Im im so sad no i want you to make up and get back together its all just a stupid........... MEHHHH will i ever find sth like this flashback again
[mei: p-probably not, no]
i am so devasted i dont even wanna go back to the main couple just fucking. i want this relationship back :(((( but i guess the investigation might end up somewhere so hhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhh the baker manwha had a similar flashback feeling so. i just gotta find more of that haha
BUT THIS WAS SO SAD??? im so emo
[Dohye got kidnapped // the flashback commentary stops here but I think my descend into madness is pretty funny too]
OH YEAH THAT HAPPENED. THE FLASHBACK WAS SO LONG I FORGOT. NOOOO SAVE HIM. JESUS CHRIST PLS JUST ONE GOOD THING
its. actually rly smart to have another, more focused on them flashback, before the arc where he gets kidnapped by the rapist murder household so. good job. from a meta perspective but also NO but also. maybe theres hope for them making up at least after all :(((
[main couple kissing] this is. very weird now. but im glad he has someone, he deserves it but dohyeeeee
and switching to sex, YET AGAIN now i wanna see this EVEN LESS THAN I DID BEFOREEEE it's even.... a threesome now with one of the other characters why are you like this why can't you be. like in the flashback i am so upset HAHHHHH WHEEEZEEEE
I am just stop fucking jesus christ PLEASE I DONT WANNA SEE IT ANYMOREEEEE
im just stop the horny pls just tell me who that new guy is and why doyhe likes him so much
[mei: this manwha is a fucking mess but at least we got your lovely commentary out of it]
dhsuksj thanks i feel honored at least i got cute BL out of it before everything went [back] to shit
[mei: THAT TOO]
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tbh im getting kinda mad about doyhe... i dont... feel like he'd just fall instantly for a guy who looks like Noah... but eh not my character
i just want closure for dohye at this point, fuck everything else ... not literally pls theres already too much of that
pls get it together for like 1 chapter is the investigation even still happening i am so confused save dohye plEASE wait what i have less than 10 episodes left Dont tell me this shit isnt even wrapped up yet
[Dohye is having a breakdown over the Noah double not coming to see him anymore]
yeah i this... doesnt feel like Dohye... at all... Even when Noah was rejecting him he was just kind of... taking it with some humor and maybe he was a little desperate and risky sometimes but... oh well... i do want him to get better but... im having a hard time believeing this development??? he never seemed overly anxious or anything. but who knows what else they did to him. Sister can still go fuck off tho
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i mean. i liked the flashbacks a lot honestly??? it stayed simple and focused on the dynamics and less trying to balance smut with murder plots
[dm partner: NO THAT'S WHAT I MEAN LIKE CLEARLY THE AUTHOR CAN MAKE A GOOD STORY SO I'M JUST... CONFUSED AS TO WHY THEY DIDN'T STICK WITH SOME SOFT, FLUFFY BL ROMANCE MANWHA AND DECIDED TO MAKE WHATEVER THIS IS INSTEAD ]
okay i dont care bc dohye is currently getting assaulted nobody asked for this why i just. this is terrible. he was... so sweet. he doesnt deserve this. nobody does of course but jesus christ pls someone save him at least its not horny visually, one saving grace
ah... the assult is back to being depicted horny-ly thank you for nothing
[... removed some general confusion about the plot]
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YES. SOME SHIP FOOD.
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i am. suffering i mean i cant stop but GOD
okay so apparantly. the sister. has just an arsenal of people who look like other people Dohye, then Noah... and even Noah's GF??? this is ridiculous??
one good message 
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why 
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did you feel the need to add that [actual tired rage]
im gonna die this manwha is gonna kill me im laughing but im suffering oh hes arrested great and thats the end and the last update was in january of this year
why AS IN NOAH IS ARRESTED nobody who actually did anything is arrested What is this why is this AHHH I at least wanted the complete-ness of finishing this but now I'M JUST SUFFERING
[ mei: I MEAN TO BE FAIR I'D BE SUFFERING TOO BC JUST... WHAT THE FUCK I HAVE?? MANY QUESTIONS?? AND MANY CONCERNS BC THIS MANWHA IS JUST... AN EXPERIENCE ]
its an experience allright WELL
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yup that’s it.
in my head, in a twist of events Dohye and Noah make up and are actual endgame. Something like that must exist out there but I won’t ask because it’d destroy the surprise and ruin the point.
That’s it.
Have a nice day.
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kusunogatari · 4 years
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[ ObiRyū October | Day Fifteen: The Other Children ] [ @abyssaldespair ] [ Uchiha Obito, Suigin Ryū, Suigin Reiji ] [ Verse: White Hands of Healing ] [ Previous || Next ]
There’s a noticeable tension in the house this morning. Lying awake in bed long before he needs to be, Reiji stares up at the ceiling, brows wilted and greys flickering as he thinks. He’s never been so nervous in his entire life.
Granted, his life has only lasted about six years so far, but...well, up until this point, nothing has ever had him quite so rattled. It’s this morning that Reiji is to attend his first day of school at the Academy.
At first, it wasn’t even a certainty that he would go. While a bit of a mixture of his parents in appearance, he took an early shine to his mother’s side of things when it came to chakra. Given his age of course, neither Ryū nor Obito had yet to give him any real training in either of their fields. Both, admittedly, had assumed he would follow their path. But as his introductory year loomed closer, they finally sat and had a talk about it.
“What do you think, Reiji?” Ryū had asked, giving her son a smile. “You can do whatever you want to do. You can learn to be a medic, or a shinobi...or anything else! Would you want to go to the Academy?”
Reiji, only five at the time, had glanced between them nervously. While neither of them gave any sign of bias, just looking to him curiously, he still felt a pinch in his gut. If he chose one...would the other be disappointed?
“Can...can I still learn to heal if I go?”
“Of course you can! But we don’t want you to put too much on your plate at once,” Obito advised. “You might wear out.”
“But...I can…?”
“If that’s what you want,” Ryū confirmed with a smile. “We just want you to be happy.”
He’d agonized over it for days, weighing his options. Even at that age, Reiji knew of the scarcity of his bloodlines. There were only two other Uchiha besides his father...that being his uncle Sasuke and his child. And his mother was the very last of her clan, though they had always been rare. If he only learned to be like one...then the other might be lost forever…!
In truth, he wasn’t sure if he was suited to be a shinobi. Like his mother, he was a bit meek, shying from the idea of hurting someone. But...Obito had told of how shinobi weren’t just fighters. They were protectors. And Reiji certainly wanted to protect his family.
So, after nearly a week of thinking, he decided he would go.
Now that the day is here, however...he’s been doing nothing but thinking over his decision again. What if he’s making a mistake?
“Reiji…?”
Broken from his thoughts, he looks to his door, seeing his mother peering through. “Kāchan…?”
“I had a feeling you might be awake.” Stepping into the room, Ryū crosses until she can perch on the edge of his bed. “...nervous?”
He gives a shy nod.
“It’s okay to be nervous. This is something brand new, that you’ve never experienced before. But I promise everything will be just fine. You’ll get to make some new friends, learn new things...it’s going to be great!”
“Really…?”
“Really. And you know your father and I will do all we can to help you.”
That takes a slight edge off of Reiji’s nerves. “...what if I mess up?”
“Messing up is part of life, dear. Everyone makes mistakes, even the best of us. Did you know your father missed the entrance ceremony when he was your age?”
“W-what?!”
Ryū nods, unable to help a smile. “But he still made it into class just fine. And he graduated, and became a shinobi despite making mistakes. He didn’t become a chūnin his first try, either. And...well…” Something falters in her expression, Reiji tilting his head in curiosity. “...your father, as we’ve told you, followed a bad path for a while. But in the end, he chose to make things right. So, as long as you keep trying, and do your best...things will turn out all right in the end. I’m sure of it.”
“So...if I don’t become a shinobi, or...or a medic...will you and tōchan be...angry?”
Ryū’s eyes widen in shock. “Of course not! Reiji, the only thing that matters to us is that you live a happy and healthy life. Maybe you wouldn’t like being a medic, or a shinobi. But that’s just how things are. Everyone is different. You just give it a try, and see how you feel. If you don’t think it’s the right path for you, well...we’ll keep looking until we find it. Okay?”
“...o-okay…”
“Now...it’s about time to get up, so you get dressed, and I’ll go start breakfast. Your father is already up, too.”
“Will you…both come with me?”
“Of course we will.” Gently ruffling his hair, Ryū gives Reiji a smile. “Everything’s going to be fine. No matter what happens, your father and I will always support and protect you.”
A few more of his doubts settled, Reiji nods and rises as his mother takes her leave. A light jacket is pulled on over his shirt and trousers, making his way into the belly of the house.
Obito, seated at the table, immediately notices his son’s entrance. “There he is! Are you excited?”
“I guess so…”
“Ah, don’t worry. It’s okay to be nervous. All the other kids will be, too - it’s the first day for everybody!”
Moving to sit, that gets Reiji to pause. “...yeah…” He hadn’t considered that.
Ryū then brings over their plates, and the little family has their breakfast together.
“Will we have a test the first day?”
“I don’t think your sensei will be that evil,” Obito laughs. “It will probably be mostly getting to know everybody, and asking what you know. You won’t start any real work until tomorrow. And your first year will be easy!”
“And I’m sure you’ll make lots of friends,” Ryū adds with a smile.
“What if nobody likes me…?”
“Impossible,” Obito counters. “You’re too nice not to make friends.”
“Just be yourself, and people will make up their own minds. You’re a very sweet boy, Reiji. You won’t have any trouble, I’m sure.”
Once the meal is done and dishes cleaned up, Reiji’s parents help him pack up his bag and start the trek to the Academy. Ryū takes one hand while Obito takes the other, the three of them leaving the house behind. All the while, butterflies continue to hatch out in Reiji’s stomach. Like his father told him, he tries to remember that everyone else will be nervous, too.
The yard outside the building is filled with both old and new students and their parents, many standing in groups and chatting as they await the sensei for each class. Reiji doesn’t really recognize anyone...he hasn’t had much chance to meet anyone his age yet. Any kids in their neighborhood are a few years older than him.
And it doesn’t take long to notice something...odd.
Though no one directly stares at them, there’s a strange sort of...separation between his family, and everyone else. None of the other children make to approach, or any of the adults, either. Glancing up to his parents, Reiji tries to understand. Ryū’s expression is neutral, eyes scanning the yard. Obito, on the other hand...looks a little tense.
“...tōchan…?”
His father glances down, and then manages a flicker of a smile.
“First year students, this way please!”
Hearing the call, Reiji tenses. But at the same moment, he feels tightening grips on both his hands.
“You’ll be just fine,” Ryū assures him.
“And we’ll be here to pick you up once your classes are done.” Obito takes a knee. “...just remember, no matter what anyone else says...you’re a good boy, Reiji. And we love you.”
Though meant to be reassuring, his father’s words only bring a small spark of worry to his gut. But there’s no time to discuss it as the other first years gather around their new sensei. Slowly slipping from his parents’ grip, Reiji gives them a nod, jaw clenched and chin trembling.
Obito slips an arm around Ryū, the pair of them watching as the children are led into the Academy.
“...do you think this was the right choice? What if someone -?”
“It’s going to happen sooner or later,” Obito murmurs. “We’ve tried to be open at the proper pace. I think he’ll be fine. He knows enough to make that call for himself.”
Brow wilted, Ryū leans against him with a sigh. “...I hope so. I just don’t want someone giving him trouble on our account.”
“You mean my account.”
“You know what I mean.”
“We can’t hide the past from him forever.”
“And I don’t want to! I just...want to tell him when the time’s right. Having him here, around the other children...it might be out of our hands.”
“If he has questions, we’ll answer them. We knew this would happen eventually. Someday, he has to know what I did. And then...he can make up his own mind.”
Ryū glances to her husband, seeing the conflicting emotions in his eyes. “...you’re right. He loves you. You’re his father, and you’ve changed. I’m sure he’ll understand. Just like I did.”
“...I hope so.”
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     Hhhhh, I'm...not sure I like this one OTL For some reason I just could NOT get into this one. I left and came back several times, and just...phhht. Maybe I'll revisit it later, since I wanted to add a scene IN the classroom, I just...don't feel it today, I guess. Admittedly I've got some burnout going on between irl stuff, and two daily challenges for the month. But I WANNA do these, so...darn it, I'ma do them. Today's just a blegh day.      But yes, for now that's all for this one. I'll try and come back to it another time and give it a bit more substance. Thanks for reading~
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Flufftober Day 3 - Photography - Buck/Caveira
Alright so I was conflicted when writing this, because I’ve wrote two ships where they are dating or they started dating, but this one is different. It’s based off of one of my favorite artists (Peri-Pericote), who draws Buck/Cav but its a relationship where Buck constantly tries to get affection from Caveira, but she always ends up either punching or biting him lmao and when he has band-aids on the wounds, she kisses them to make them better and make him smile.
In this Buck is slightly closer in that he can kiss her cheek without her trying to punch him, but she’s still mean in an affectionate way c: Just wanted to clear that up, enjoy the read c:
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Buck huffed quietly as he sat in the snowy woods, messing with a camera he loved photographing nature with. He froze when he heard a crunch sound, half-expecting a deer or bear to walk out, but instead got a shadow jumping at him with a knife to his throat. It took everything in his power not to cry out as he was very used to this treatment from Caveira. The Brazilian smiled down at him triumphantly, withdrawing her blade from his throat as she bit back a laugh but failed.
Click!
She stopped laughing and looked down at him with a glare as Buck had the camera pointed at her, his eyes full of wonder like a child.
"What did you do? Did you take a picture of me? DELETE IT!", she hissed, pointing the tip of her knife straight at his throat again in a stabbing stance.
"No, I can't, you look way too beautiful for me to delete it! The lighting is perfect and your smile is just... It's rare and amazing to witness..", he spoke softly, a loving glisten in his eyes.
"......Shut up..", she growled but it was softer, she avoided eye contact and held her hand out to help him up.
He gladly took it, his eyes wide as she pulled him up and grabbed his collar to drag his face to hers, only separated by an inch of space.
"If I see that anywhere outside of your camera, I will slit your throat while you sleep, understood?", she hissed menacingly.
"Alright, alright, I got it, jeez..",he held his hands up in mock defense, but he still smiled like an idiot.
"Good.", she let go of his collar and crossed her arms, side-eyeing him.
He walked over and put a gentle kiss on her cheek, getting white and black face-paint on his lips.
"You're beautiful, you know that right?", he asked softly.
"And you're stupid, what else is new?", she smirked and bit back another laugh.
"If that's the closest thing I'm gonna get to a compliment from you, then I'll take it.", he laughed heartily.
Shortly after their meeting in the woods, Buck printed out the photograph of Caveira and hung it on his wall proudly. It truly was a beautiful sight, how she contrasted with the snow. It was his favorite photo with his favorite, albeit deadly, muse.
She was his favorite subject.
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Holy heck I thought I was gonna go this whole month like a day behind, but I caught up XD let’s see if I can keep up hhhhh
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hhhhh I still want to talk about voltron but I don’t have anything in particular to say other than ???screaming???
ok except I’ll put down a few random things I do  remember, putting them all under a cut cause it’ll be messy and spoilery
ngl when they kept saying ‘special prisoner’ towards the beginning my first thought was “lmao oh man are we finally gonna get Real Shiro and operation kuron is gonna cRUMBLE” but then I thought “wait we saw Romelle (?) in a promo, I bet it’s her- surprise Allura guess what your altean cousin is still alive!” but then they revealed it was pidge’s dad and I was like “oh right, him lol”
tbh I was kinda surprised they brought him in. Finding her dad was like... kinda the only thing that was driving Pidge? I mean yeah ofc she’s on team voltron/focused on saving the universe, but finding her dad has always been #1 priority. Now that he’s back and safe and headed back to earth, I guess it’s no more distractions for Pidge? aka I’m p sure that’s the writers saying her arc is over lmao. 
oh yeah, so I’ve been reading a bunch of pidge!whump lately, and just. the painful scenes when pidge was mourning her dad was just. (’:
hnnNN I still don’t trust lotor. I mean compared to last season fine I trust him like... 90% more.... but still not 100%. >:U I don’t like how he’s kinda... using allura... to further his/their plans for peace. It’s sketchy.
I CAN’T TELL IF THEY’RE TRYING TO MAKE LOTOR/ALLURA (lallura?) A THING BUT I REALLY DON’T LIKE IT. EXTREME SIDE EYE. NO.
lol I totally thought they were going a “lotor is redeemed and now a newly recognized white lion paladin” thing w the last episode, glad I was wrong 
also w his altean heritage “oh didn’t you know I am a special kind of altean aka one of the Chosen Ones” like wtf mate we thought you were a bad guy until only Super recently so you can’t do this??
at first I thought he was saying he was The chosen one bcause of his new glowy marks, and I was about to throw a huge fit until I saw allura’s marks were glowy too. don’t worry coran, we still love you.
I adored lance this whole time??? he’s such a good boy. I loved how he was so Super Sketched Out by lotor  every time they were in a scene together (same). I love him taking responsibility and taking charge and voicing his opinions and !!! idk how I feel about blacklion!lance, but I love that he’s maturing and he’s definitely a great leader type. 
also when lance was shakey leggy the entirety of the white lion thing. adhd lance is canon and I am living.
also??? whenever hunk raised his hand to ask for clarification on stuff? hunk u are such a good egg and I love you
ok usually I’m wary of ~comedy episodes~ or the like, but oh man the garrison trio hacking the robot was the best thing ever. hands down 10/10. what a blessing.
and while I absolutely loved the pidge/hunk nerd fight, I couldn’t tell if that was the show like? testing the waters for ship potential or what? like it was great until her dad was like “ah yes that’s how your mom and I met” [beat where pidge/hunk stare awkwardly at each other] and I was like uhhh. I like hidge (or I guess it’s punk now?) but let’s keep it platonic pls. 
I hate that I’m automatically suspicious of any m/f onscreen interaction cause it always feels like it has possible shipping undertones and I hate that. is that an aroace thing or just me being weird and paranoid?
speaking of, before I realized that krolia was keith’s mom I was convinced that she was supposed to be a love interest?? smh@me but like when the guy was all “don’t let your feelings get in the way” I was like ‘great, keith’s gonna see her and get all doki doki on her and mess up the plan’ (keith is aroace and u can fight me on that) but then when she said “I left you once, I won’t leave you again” I was like OH
also I keep seeing everyone thinks acza is related to keith/ is his sister? idk man I’m not fully on board. I have no other explanation as to why she constantly spares/stares at keith, but idk. doesn’t feel right. I’ll prolly be wrong, but /shrug. I’m open to any other interpretation.
OH ok jumping back a couple episodes, but I’m so glad pidge’s dad kept calling her Katie, but it RLY weirded me out like the (1) time he called her Pidge. like... that’s a whole nother rant for another time, but we still don’t know the ~meaning~/reason behind the nickname other than matt prolly came up w it and she initially hated it for some reason? idk we still don’t know where the nickname came from (I know nicknames don’t always make sense, but pidge is a weird nickname and to get that from Katie uhh) but anyways it makes sense for matt to call her pidge, but for her dad to call her Pidge at the end? idk that was weird
NOW AS FOR OPERATION KURON OH BOY
(finally we get confirmation??? sorta not rly but???)
shiro/kuron was SHADY AF this season and I’m MAJOR SIDE EYE
like seriously every moment he spoke??? he was on opposing sides of the rest of the team and just??? (screams)
I think it was when he was fighting lance and he pulled the “I’m the leader of this team, what I says goes” like wtf dude ?? real shiro never acted that way once is nobody else on the team seeing this
AND WHEN HE WENT ALL “I’m sorry to hear that” I SCREAMED
#NOT MY SHIRO
and that weird mindspace thing?? I still don’t get what went on in there but when shiro didn’t appear at first?? I was like ‘oh man finally a legit confirmation’ (sorta not rly) but yeah that was entirely sketch
and later when ‘shiro’ didn’t remember it I kinda wish Lance got a second opinion from the others about it? like “ok so you remember the white mindspace place like I do right, so then that means shiro’s the only one who saw it as a weird black voidy unconscious thing? along w the fact that he’s been acting noticeably weird lately hmMMM” but no they didn’t go that route :(
alas I’m flipping out now that Operation Kuron is finally(??) a thing all along, since they just kinda... ignored it... last season, and everyone on the voltron crew was all “cmon can’t shiro get a different haircut w/o everyone freaking out? nothing’s going on cmon” like we’re onto you...
aha I have no idea what this means for ‘real’ shiro tho... like where is Real Shiro?? has he just been trapped somewhere the whole time?? and/or what if it’s actually Real Shiro all along but he’s obviously being mind controlled or something? will we get 2 shiros together?? panic ensues??
I feel like I‘m back in the black butler fandom aaaa
(jumping back to the first episode whoops) ok I haven’t seen anyone talk about it but ??? what tf happened with the whole prison break thing?? 
like ok lotor proves that his info is reliable and they can trust him on that (nothing’s been a trap so far), but then he says ‘oh btw you guys might wanna know there’s this “special prisoner” held at this place that you might wanna check out’ but then the second they get there it’s like a trap from the start??
first they pass thru a field thing that deactivates the cloaking (they didn’t detect that first??) and they immediately get ambushed (like someone was waiting for them hmMMM) and tHEN matt’s parachute doesn’t deploy??? (SUSPICIOUS AF, WHO DID THAT.....) like seriously that doesn’t just “happen” and nobody talked about it wtf
then ofc the guards are already taken down and their dad is taken away before they got there, but like.... none of that was brought up to lotor afterwards.... I’d be like “wtf what happened there, u sold us out??” unless zarkon just... decided to get their dad out ahead of time bcause he got a feeling they’d be coming or?? 
like.... everything went wrong compared to a normal spontaneous mission, but like... it wasn’t ever addressed and I’m so confused over that??
/end rant
another thing I don’t get is lance’s new bayard scene. while I totally appreciate it and it’s super cool!! but?? at the same time why?? like we never saw him use his cool new sword other than that One scene so what was the point. they better be showing it a Lot next season. 
also idgi why it was red?? it’s basically a red sword, just like keith’s red sword. is it bcause he’s red lion now and essentially took keith’s place? all his other bayard guns are still blue, so I don’t get the switch. 
ok I’mma need a side by side comparison between keith’s red sword bayard and lance’s new red sword bayard. Like I’m sure they’re different, but allura made a big deal over ~I haven’t seen that in 10,000 years~ and at first glance..... they look almost exactly the same....
again just. what was the point idk. 
I’m glad we got to see more of keith ;u; I’ve been starting to miss him? like it bothers me so much that he used to be one of the Main 5 and now sometimes we get two seconds of him onscreen but no speaking. anyways I think he comes back as a paladin next season so?? hallelujah
ANYWAYS I THINK I’M DONE /marks calendar for June 15th
(oh man that’s the day Incredibles 2 comes out hhhh)
(2 new earth/universe-saving-team things coming out at the same time? coincidence? I think not)
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Confront Yourself Ch. 2
Chapter 2 We arrived at the hospital and I was rushed inside. I only caught a few images of what was going on because my eyes were still very strained and sore. My head was also still trying to work up the strength to make sense of all of this. Daya stayec at my side. She was alwats there for me. I even saw Spitz there. Daya threw him out. Apparently there was a bit more to the story. Daya woukd later on confide in me that Spitz originally was gonna bring me to the hospital in his car and as he was "helping" me in he got rather "handsy". Daya had been looking for me and checked if I was smoking, which was the go to spot if I'm not waitressing. She saw Spitz and called the police and 911. I was completely unconcious the whole time and dont remember the assault or the fainting. It had to be from lack of sleep. Once the nicotine hit my sytem combined with Spitz's rage, I guess it was too much and I collapsed. I cant belive, well actually I can, but still. How could you take advantage of your employmee? Who am I kidding, its Connor Spitzman were talking about. Scoundrel extrordinare. After sometime in the ICU, I was aloud to go home and told to get rest and take a week off work. Daya stressed to the nurse that she would make sure I made a full recovery. She definitely would hold hold up her end of the bargin. She took me home and tucked me into bed. Very little was said. We both knew that I needed to just rest. What was there to talk sbout anyway, it had been a traumatic day for us both. She needed rest just like I did. When I suggested she stay the night she about cried. Daya was one of the few who knew that extending an invitation like that wasnt common for me. She thanked me and got the couch ready for her to sleep later. After a wonderful dinner of chicken cordon bleu and golden potatoes we both headed to bed. I fell back into my deep space sleep. It felt good to let go and finally recharge. As I lay there, I Kofeel tears roll down my cheeks. Why am I crying?  I thought to myself. I wiped them away and fell again into my comatose sleep. Numb. Black. Perfect. Serene. Gone too quick. Before I knew it Daya had brought me breakfast in bed. Waffles, eeggs, bacon, mixed berries, orange juice, even a side of cinnamon butter, and finally a little vase with wildflowers. The works. "Wow, thanks D." I was so grateful to gave someone who cared about me so much. She smiled and headed out of the room. Returning with my Firefly mug filled with rich Columbine coffee. "Three packs of sugar and just enough cream to coat your throught so you can drink more, right?" Daya chuckled I smiled. She knew me so well. Now before you getbthe wrong idea. No, she is not my girlfriend. She is however my best friend and I would literally die without her. She keeps me grounded and I do my best to do the same for her. After breakfast, coffee, and a morning smoke I wanna get out and go for a walk. If I'm gonna be on sick leave then I atleast wanna get some fresh air and get outside. That's the best way to feel better if youre system is upset. I tried to go for walks whenever I need to clear my head or just feel better in general. As I was getting ready Daya was in my ear telling me about how what if I fainted again and that I needed to be careful, I assured her I would be and she finally relented and let me go on my walk. I walked up the street and around a few corners. I passed pretty neighborhoods and not so pretty ones. I finally came upon a small strip mall. I wondered along the siewalk gazing st the colorful and vast stores that were included by one another. Matress store. Carribean dining. Hat repair place. Subway. I kept walking and then I saw a shop worth looking into, it was called Miss Lovely Lovely's Curio Cabinet. From the outside it looked like a vintage bookstore. I opened the door and it triggered a little bell. A lady emerged from a chair and greeted me warming then the sun after a long frost, "Hello traveler, may I offer you some Egyptian cinnamon tea?" She was a very sweet old lady. She had long almost transparent white hair and her eyes were an emerald green. Very shiny and flawless. "No thank you." I repiled. I looked around the shop in amazement. There were so many things. Clothes, books, toys, trinkets galore, and so much more. "Look around dear and let me know if you need anything." She said sitting back down. I did just that. This place was fasicinating. Vintage and modern stuff mingled together. It was beautiful and kept blinking thinking it was a dream. How have I not been here before? I ask myself. After looking at the jewlery and clothes, I gravitate to the books. After looking throught many titles I was compelled to ask her if she had a book that could help me sleep. That space sleep was temporary and I know it. "Ma'am, do have anything about insomnia?" She smiledcat my request. She disappered to the back and reappeared with a small brown leather bound book without a name. "I was hoping you would have come sooner, Reylnn Yorfath." Shd said my name, How did she know my name? I pondered in horror "Wwww-ho arrrrre you?" I stuttered "Miss Lovely Lovely of course." She chuckled "I go by many names, but that isnt important, you need this book to fix what you have broken." I didnt know what to do, so I accepted the book with no name and looked it over. It was rather tiny snd the pages were stained from the years. It also had a vintage air about it. Flipping through I saw that many of the paragraphs had multiple sentences underlined. It was very intriguing. I still didnt understsnd how she knew my name, but I wanted that book. "Hhhhh-ow much?" I asked, sounding like an idiot "No dear, this is a gift, before you can be at peace you must confront yourself." She said lovingly "Thank you." I said quietly tucking the book into my purse, I slowly made my way out of the store still amazed and looking around. Once outside I immediately light a cigarette. What just happened? I asked myself I began to make my way back to the house before Daya got worried. When I got to the front door, I looked in the window and saw Daya was sitting on the couch reading a book. I love the way her hair shimmers in the sun. To be honest I might have a slight crush on Daya, but I would never tell her. It woukd ruin our friendship. Anyway, I make my way inside and greeted her. She immediately started into how far I walkdd and if I took breaks as to not get too tired and pass out again. "Yes, Mom, I made sure to be careful." I teased her, she got a little frustrated but eventually laughed it off. I set my things down and told her about the little shop. She had never hesrd of it before. Weirdly, she checked the internet for it but there was nothing as if it didnt even exsist. Then Daya became a litte worried and asked me, "Are you sure you went there? Maybe your head is messing with you. I told you, you needed more rest." Daya huffed and looked at me concerned. I had left out the part about the book thinking she would freak out, I was even happier now I hadnt. I knew what I saw. It was real. Everything happened just like that. But then I began to question. Had I really gone there? Theres nominternet listing and my mind has been being weird lately. I swore it really happened thought. It seemed so real. Thoughts swirled around my head and I knew I had to see if I had the book. But I didnt want Daya to see and ask me about it. She woukd think I was crazy. I said rather shyly, "Well, I'm gonna go get some rest then. I guess my head is just still messed up. Anyway thanks Daya." Then I slipped away to my room with my purse. Once insixe inside I closed the door and locked it. I put the purse on the bed and stuck my hand inside. I felt my wallet, perfume, sunglasses, smokes, lighter, and other odds and ends. Where was the book? Had I really imagined all of that? I began to think to myself. Suddenly I panicked and thought once more, Am I going crazy? Did I hit my head harder then I thought? Is this insomnia eating away at my memory and thought patterns? I started to shake a bit, but I looked once more in my purse. Wallet, keys, sunglasses, BOOK! It was there. How had I skipped it the first time? Or was my mind just playing tricks on me again? I didnt know. All I knew was that I had the book and now I could finally cure my insomnia. I sat on the bed and began to read. I was shocked by how accurate and headon this stuff was. Before I knew it Daya was knocking on my door for dinner. I stashed the book under my pillow. Because for whatever reason I didnt wanna spark her curiosity. I wanted this treasure all to myself. I unlocked the door and met Daya in the living room. Waiting for me was shrimp and rigatoni. It smelled amazing. I couldnt wait to dive in. Daya gave me the pills the doctor perscribed and we ate. After a great meal and equally great converstaion we both agreed it was time for bed. "You need anything?" Daya asked as I was brushing my teeth. I shook my head. We echanged goodnights and she shut of the lights. I slid into my room, anxious to see what else the book said. Already it had me addicted. I was somewhat experiencing withdrawl when at dinner. Which I thin was more guilt then anything. I wanted to tell Daya, I really did, but I knew she wouldnt understand. So I would keep it to myself until I knew for sure it cured me of this insanity which I was desperately on the brink of. I read to myself, "Life is defined as the state or quality that distinguishes living beings from dead ones and from inorganic matter, characterized chiefly by metabolism, growth, and the ability to reproduce and respond to stimuli. The period between birth and death. But to Live means something else entirely. Live is defined as to remain alive, be alive, to exsist in a specified way. We all are given Life, but seldom do any of us Live. We need to live. Be alive and go out and enjoy the world. Get out of our comfort zones. Aid our fellow man and conquer the earth the way The Creator intended. For out Creator is Life and we only Live through Him. For the wages of sin are death, but the Gift of our Creator is Eternal Life through His Son. All you must do is believe." I shut the book and rolled my eyes, "Great, a religious book, but still how did she know I was gonna come in there, I mean Im sure she gives everyone the same book but how did she know my name?" I wondered to myself, I didnt know how to explain all of it, so I decided to try an sleep. I place the book on my nightstand, roll over, and pull the blanket up. Maybe I'd give the book another chance tomorrow, even for being a religious book it wasnt bad. I fade into a deep sleep and I'm standing in a meadow. The breeze is light and airy. I gaze around at the cloud filled blue sky and the crisp green grass benath me. Out of nowhere I hear a voice say, "Do not be afraid, whom I have chosen. For I will pour water on the thirsty land, and streams on the dry ground; I will pour out My Spirit on your offspring, and My blessing on your descendants. They will spring upnlike grass in a meadow, like poplar trees by flowing streams. I am the First and the Last. Apart from Me there is nothing. All who make idolsare nothing, and the things they treasure are worthless. Those who would speak up for them are blind; they are ignorant, to their own shame. No one stops to think, 'Is not this thing in my hand a lie?' Such a person feeds on ashes, a deluded heart misleads him, he cannot save himself. I have made you,  you are My servant. I have swept away your offenses lime a cloud, your sins like the morning mist. Return to Me, for I have redeemed you. Sing for joy, you heavens, for the Creator has done this. Shout aloud, you earth beneath. Burst into song, you mountains, you forests and all you trees, for the Creator has redeemed you, He displays His Glory before you. Be gratious and humble becore your Creator!" While the voice spoke everything around me was changing constantly. Before I knew it I was no long err in the meadow but up in space looking at earth from above. Just floating along in space with no problems. Then suddenly I was in the mountains looking down on the majesticness of the world down below. Then suddenly I was deep in the woods and the wind wooshed about creating a harmonious rhythm through the branches and the leaves. I was amazed by everything I saw. Out of nowhere there was a flash of lightning and booming of thunder. I instinctively dropped down out of fright. I heard the same voice one more and it spoked louder now, "I am the Alpha and Omega, The beginning and the end, there is nothing without Me. Nothing! Bow before your Creator you miserable creation." I got down on my knees and bowed, and in the blink of an eye I was back in my apartment in my bed like nothin happened. What just happened? I thought to myself. I fell back asleep after much tossing and turning, no crazy dreams this time. Just a deep deep deep sleep.
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