#herself.

[srcepiksla]

kate bush save me (wip) also yes im tracing the dogs

#making my life easier by having semi realistic hounds and a heavily stylized ms bush... #i gotta fix her pose a bit and make her look more like well. #herself. #and then we will get to painting >:3 #sketches

[shadowedvales-a]

it took days for jane to get over and recover from the strain it required closing the gate. sealing the demogorgan away was one thing, it knocked her out for at least an hour, and left her incredibly weak and frail. the only reason she was able to fight for herself and escape the upside down was the sheer adrenaline of it all. knowing mike was out there somewhere, knowing the bad men were after her. but in closing the gate, she knew, for the moment, that she would be able to find some peace in herself, that she wasn’t required for the time being. although i think the series itself seriously underestimated and downplayed the affect of closing the gate actually had on her (bc of their goddamn ‘one month later’ bullshit. like it works sometimes. but noT ALL THE TIME!! it’s getting real old now imo). jane was very woozy after the events, and hopper had to carry her out of the lab because she couldn’t walk. on the drive back home she fell into a very deep sleep that was rather concerning at first. not only was the power extreme and draining, but it was terrifying, too. she lifted off the ground, her sheer anger was enough to lock this great beast away; the mental capacity this took on her was also enough to lull into that deep sleep.

the following days after closing the gate, she mainly sleeps, only waking for a few minutes over scattered times, waking to find someone (usually hopper) sitting at her bedside. it’s blurry and disorienting, and she’s not awake for more than three minutes at a time. her body temperature goes nuts over these few days, from boiling hot to freezing cold, and hopper is constantly opening and closing the windows, taking her bed sheets on and off, to accomodate to her temperature best he can. she thrashes about in her sleep, though never wakes up from the horrible things plaguing her mind. a few times in her brief moments of consciousness, she also vomits, mainly liquid goo because she hasn’t been eating, and has nothing to throw up. the sick itself is extremely hot; assumed aftermath of the heat she endured when closing the gate. when she does come to properly, and finds some semblance of balance and familiarity, she is slow on her feet, luggy and dazed. she spends another two days practically in bed, only getting up to go to the bathroom, and not allowed any visitors. eating gets her strength back up, but at first she can’t hold it down properly. she drinks a lot of water though, which gets her body working again, and she slowly but surely begins to function normally. those veins on her face take nine days to fade completely; there are also scattered veins up her arms, and on her hands. they begin in the centre of her palms, swirl around her fingers, and trail off in the front of her hands. they all fade in unison, and vanish after said nine days. however the veins on her left hand remain; they do fade, but for some reason never leave completely. jane often clenches that fist in and out, hating the marring lines, thinking it ugly and monstrous. it came from the upside down, and she feels like she’s stuck with a piece of it now. it is a process to get back to normal, but as we see by the time the snowball arrives, she’s back to some version of herself.

jane still dreams about closing the gate, the heat that burst in her belly, feeling her feet rise from the ground, feeling the blood pouring from her ears, the sweat on her face. all these feelings and more prickle at her skin sometimes, without warning, and can either vanish as quickly as they came, or linger without a timeframe. depending on the extremities, they can make her immobile, feeling like her body is seizing up, and she can’t move. it feels like her spine has been frozen, and her mind and body are completely disconnected from one another. it’s a scary, horrible feeling; feeling like she’s trapped in her own body. it does pass, and the longest it’s ever occurred was sixteen minutes. when she begins seeing cathleen ( her therapist in season four ), she is given ways to overcome when this occurs, mental and physical exercises to break free from the clasps of the upside down. this follows her way into adulthood though, never as bad when as a child, but still prominent. after she learns some ways to control it, it tends to occur just as she wakes up in the morning, waking to find her body betraying her. although being in bed, on her own, gives her time to work through it slowly, without feeling pressured or worried that anyone around her is scared for her. she doesn’t need to deal with prying (albeit caring) eyes, and can focus on herself.

#STUDY. #RE. THE UPSIDE DOWN. #random meta but!!! #duffer idiots were fooling themselves if they think that jane could close the gate easy peasy and not have any repercussions. #i swear when i first saw that ep i thought she was gonna die in that scene. #she was using so much of herself. #not just her POWERS. #HERSELF. #she gave everything she had. #that rot was breaking out. #it would physically and mentally stain her. #forever. #that experience was like none other and it’s not realistic to think she’d come out without a mark. #also no one is allowed to see her mainly bc they don’t know if she’s contagious at all. #she’s physically sick and still sweating. #for everyone else’s safety they keep out. #although hopper wouldn’t leave her ofc.

[shadowedvales]

it took weeks for jane to get over and recover from the strain it required closing the gate. sealing the demogorgan away was one thing, it knocked her out for at least an hour, and left her incredibly weak and frail. the only reason she was able to fight for herself and escape the upside down was the sheer adrenaline of it all. knowing mike was out there somewhere, knowing the bad men were after her. but in closing the gate, she knew, for the moment, that she would be able to find some peace in herself, that she wasn’t required for the time being. although i think the series itself seriously underestimated and downplayed the affect of closing the gate actually had on her (bc of their goddamn ‘one month later’ bullshit. like it works sometimes. but noT ALL THE TIME!! it’s getting real old now imo). jane was very woozy after the events, and hopper had to carry her out of the lab because she couldn’t walk. on the drive back home she fell into a very deep sleep that was rather concerning at first. not only was the power extreme and draining, but it was terrifying, too. she lifted off the ground, her sheer anger was enough to lock this great beast away; the mental capacity this took on her was also enough to lull into that deep sleep.

the following sixteen days after closing the gate, she mainly sleeps, only waking for a few minutes over scattered times, waking to find someone (usually hopper or owens) sitting at her bedside. it’s blurry and disorienting, and she’s not awake for more than three minutes at a time. her body temperature goes nuts over these days, from boiling hot to freezing cold, and hopper is constantly opening and closing the windows, taking her bed sheets on and off, to accomodate to her temperature best he can. she thrashes about in her sleep, though never wakes up from the horrible things plaguing her mind. a few times in her brief moments of consciousness, she also vomits, mainly liquid goo because she hasn’t been eating, and has nothing to throw up. the sick itself is extremely hot; assumed aftermath of the heat she endured when closing the gate. when she does come to properly, and finds some semblance of balance and familiarity, she is slow on her feet, luggy and dazed.

when she gathers some of her strength back, she spends another four days in bed, only getting up to go to the bathroom, and not allowed any visitors. eating gets her strength back up, but at first she can’t hold it down properly. she drinks a lot of water though, which gets her body working again, and she slowly but surely begins to function normally. those veins on her face took nine days to fade completely; there are also scattered veins up her arms, and on her hands. they begin in the centre of her palms, swirl around her fingers, and trail off in the front of her hands. they all fade in unison, and vanish after said nine days. however the veins on her left hand remain; they do fade, but for some reason never leave completely. jane often clenches that fist in and out, hating the marring lines, thinking it ugly and monstrous. it came from the upside down, and she feels like she’s stuck with a piece of it now. it is a process to get back to normal, but as we see by the time the snowball arrives, she’s back to some version of herself.

jane still dreams about closing the gate, the heat that burst in her belly, feeling her feet rise from the ground, feeling the blood pouring from her ears, the sweat on her face. all these feelings and more prickle at her skin sometimes, without warning, and can either vanish as quickly as they came, or linger without a timeframe. depending on the extremities, they can make her immobile, feeling like her body is seizing up, and she can’t move. it feels like her spine has been frozen, and her mind and body are completely disconnected from one another. it’s a scary, horrible feeling; feeling like she’s trapped in her own body. it does pass, and the longest it’s ever occurred was sixteen minutes. when she begins seeing cathleen (her therapist in season four), she is given ways to overcome when this occurs, mental and physical exercises to break free from the clasps of the upside down. this follows her way into adulthood though, never as bad when as a child, but still prominent. after she learns some ways to control it, it tends to occur just as she wakes up in the morning, waking to find her body betraying her. although being in bed, on her own, gives her time to work through it slowly, without feeling pressured or worried that anyone around her is scared for her. she doesn’t need to deal with prying (albeit caring) eyes, and can focus on herself.

#study. #long post / #duffer idiots were fooling themselves if they think that jane could close the gate easy peasy and not have any repercussions. #i swear when i first saw that ep i thought she was gonna die in that scene. #she was using so much of herself. #not just her POWERS. #HERSELF. #she gave everything she had. #that rot was breaking out. #it would physically and mentally stain her. #forever. #that experience was like none other and it’s not realistic to think she’d come out without a mark. #and due to her inconsistent and unstable body chemistry it makes recovering from this a hell of a lot harder. #she’s physically sick and still sweating. #for everyone else’s safety they keep out. #not sure if it could be contagious. not knowing what her sickness truly comes from. if it’s purely aftermath or something else. #although hopper wouldn’t leave her ofc. #thinking sam would also be there at some points. #because he becomes an important figure in jane's life in terms of him actually helping her have a life. #(s4 owen is NOT canon on this blog uh uh.) #and he might be able to actually help her. hook her up to fluids and transform her room in the cabin into a little makeshift hospital room.

[jihyolesbian]

realllllly hate this whole “almond mom” phenomenon and how it’s become so normal for people to post videos making fun of their moms for their disordered eating habits. like obviously your mom is really struggling with her relationship with food and u think it’s funny and okay to post her struggle publicly to places like tiktok where millions of other people can shame and degrade her for her food and lifestyle choices (that are not really her “choices” bc she has a disorder!!!) it’s sickening bc obviously ur mom needs help healing her relationship with food and u think it’s just some silly little trendy phrase and are so eager to subject ur own mother to that type of public humiliation!!!!!! in what world would this make things for u and/or her any better, like it could only make her feel more insecure to know how many random people are judging how she eats and lives

#and an ‘almond mom’ is supposed to mean a mom that pushes her disordered habits onto her own children NOT mom with an ed or mom on a die #*diet #btw this is coming from someone with an almond mom #ive watched her struggle my whole life and she did push those habits onto me growing up and she STILL does to this day #literally today we went to the beach and she made several disorded comments to me #but i would never think to post her and what she eats/says bc it’s a very real problem for her and it would only make her feel worse about #herself. #wheres the humanity anymore #sorry fhis topic just gets me really heated i get sick to my stomach seeing like ‘what my almond mom eats in a day’ esp when the mom is #acting like she doesnt want to be recorded/is uninterested/unaware #like if people want to share their experiences with their almond moms to heal from their trauma like thats fine thats great but dont post ur #literal mother and her disorder for the entire world to see like wtf idk just grates me

[xx-hail2theking-xx]

yeah. i thought as much, as well. it's part of why i linked armaros to lucifer. why i turned michael. but i don't even know if that's enough. -jester

Honestly?

It might make him worse.

#I haven't known him long. Not compared to Maimai and his Duke. #But... she's always been... #Herself. #I don't think it would go well. #chrono #it's a porcelain tomb - reguel

[envelopandkissme]

this fucks

#i wish i could turn off the replies of this post now 😭 #men are so insecure #you’d think barbie herself called to kill all the kens #barbie movie #barbie #barbie review #1k #10k #20k #30k #40k #50k #60k #70k #80k

[celestialalpacaron]

A pretty much self indulgent Husk Overlord AU where he gambled against Val, Husk wins and in exchange, he keeps his casino and Angel's contract is transferred to Husk ;) Oh yeah and they get RINGS!!!

#huskerdust #hazbin hotel husk #hazbin angel dust #hazbin hotel #overlord husk au #IM SCREAMING AT THE FACT THAT VIVZIE HERSELF LIKES THIS SO IM SHARING THIS HERE TOO AAAAAA

[lgbtlunaverse]

Obsessed with characters who portray themselves as worse than they are. Who are lying to everyone including themselves about it. People generally assume if someone's lying about themselves they're trying to look better but sometimes they're trying to look worse. They attribute agency to where they had none, add intend to accidents, try to convince everyone that this is something they did instead of something that happened to them.

#this is about tenko bnha #but it is also about dahlia ace attorney #watch the nezumiVA videos on ace attorney trilogy they're great #anyway dahlia saying she (at like. 6 years old) apparently convinced her father to abandon her sister. hmmm #also everyone including herself thinking of her as the manipulator in control with terry when she was 14 dating a 20 y/o #anyway these characters both did do terrible things but feel the need to pile on more and remove nuance from where it exists #to convince themselves that this is what they really want. that they chose this. #it's about the loss of control it's about being a victim feeling worse than being a villain #at least if you were the bad guy you had autonomy #shimura tenko #shigaraki tomura #dahlia hawthorne

[thesinglesock]

my mom walked upstairs in her seal skin boots. Fjonka (my rabbit) came running to greet them (her seal skin boots). she sniffed them for a second. nuzzled them, before realizing they weren't breathing. horror dawned on her. she begun to understand she was dealing with something she couldn't comprehend. she backed off, without letting them out of her sight. she STOMPED to let them (the seal skin boots) know that she did NOT like this situation. my mom stomped back. Fjonka stomped harder, exhibiting a bravery and assertedness I had no idea she possessed. mom turned and went back down the stairs. Good job, Fjonk. You sure showed those undead vampire rabbits who's boss.

#old lady rabbit vs. eldritch abomination (seal skin boots) #she was so disturbed by them #not the fact that they were fur. when I wear my fur lined jacket (a hand-me-down. I do not buy new fur) she buries herself in it #as if I were a very large rabbit. #but these boots! they were moving on their own! scary!! #vitpost #rabbitblr

[astearisms]

catalysts, protectors

#man those episodes #so many things put into perspective #like Simon’s role as a protector and his kindness and empathy and compassion and existence being the catalyst for the rest of ooo to #flourish #and Betty is a protector of Simon #I wonder if the last two episodes will explore more of her character? there’s so much to be explored about her giving so much of herself #to Simon but not thinking about what she wants for herself #do we get to explore her feelings or see her at all? will she have changed or learned to let go #I think there will be some sort of closure for the both of them #but at what cost #I am still crying over that scene with Simon’s memory of Betty and their song #my art #fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #simon petrikov #betty grof #petrigrof #golbetty

[thevoiceofthepeople]

I think in a modern AU, Seda would be one of those girlies that are always taking pictures of things she’s eating, doing, or seeing.

But she’d be horrible at taking pictures. Pure dad level pictures. Thumbs over the camera, out of focused, accidentally chin selfies because she used the wrong camera.

No she does not check before she posts. All of the texts are nonsense.

Photo that might as well be Bigfoot it’s so blurry.

Caption: Weather man said it would be hot out. But check this fella.

Her travel blog engagement would just be people in the comments trying to “Where in the World is Carmen San Diego” her from sparse clues provided.

#letters from the author #she’s too busy living in the moment to check back #she tries really hard tho and can’t delete her old posts cause she’s an archivist at heart lol she’ll get better next time she promises #herself. #and every day is a new chin selfie next to some 8th wonder of the world

[wisebeth]

One thing which genuinely bothers me is Annabeth's perception in the fandom. How she's seen as this cold, stoic, emotionless, reserved and intimidating girl. When in reality, she's a character full of love.

Annabeth, who immediately cried and felt attached to Cerberus after playing with him for a few minutes because she wouldn't get to play with him again.

Annabeth, whose deepest desire, which the Sirens lured her with, is saving Luke and having a good relationship with both her parents.

Annabeth, who believed in Luke's goodness, even after all the countless terrible things he did simply because she had faith in his humanity.

Annabeth, who cried in Percy's arms before entering the labyrinth and refused to reveal the last line of the prophecy because it said to lose a love worse than death and the idea of losing any of her friends is too painful, heartbreaking and worse than dying.

Annabeth, who kissed Percy before parting with him in St. Helens because if he's going to die, she at least wants him to die knowing she loved him.

Annabeth, who took a poisoned knife for Percy during the war because she'd rather die herself than let him die.

Annabeth, who convinced Luke to switch sides by reminding him of the promise of family he gave her. Which in turn, influenced Luke's decision to end himself to destroy Kronos. Hello, she saved the world with the power of love.

Annabeth, who spent months after months losing sleep and searching desperately for Percy when he went missing.

Annabeth, who kissed Percy to eternity in public at their reunion, not caring what anyone is going to say or think. An asteroid could've hit the earth, and she wouldn't have cared.

Annabeth, who told Percy “I love you” when falling in Tartarus because if she was going to die, she wanted them to be her last words.

Annabeth Chase is a sweetheart, who has always felt things deeply and she's so full of love. And I think it's time we let go of the “cold-hearted annabeth” headcanon because it's not true, that's not her.

#LISTEN #MY GIRL IS A SOFTIE AT HEART OKAY #her ‘cold exterior’ is just a facade she puts up to guard herself bc of everything she went through #percy jackson #pjo #pjo live adaptation #percy jackson and the olympians #hoo #heroes of olympus #mark of athena #house of hades #pjotv #pjo disney+ #annabeth chase #percabeth

[fairycosmos]

local woman who claimed she will "cross that bridge when she comes to it" arrives at said bridge

#then kills herself forever

[rubikor]

they were her people

#genshin impact #furina #lumine #paimon #i don't think i'll ever stop being sad for her #i just want her to be loved omygod pls give her real friends #they really isolated her even now that she's free to be herself #she just has her job and that's it plese give her good friends

[wineonmytshirt]

the people who get to hang out irl with my mutuals are sooo lucky they don't even know. they don't know how lucky they are.

#jen talking to herself

[xx-hail2theking-xx]

No, not at all. Fi's been very charming, honestly.

...

Extremely... charming...

I'm. Not complaining. More, curious?

hm.

i... can't remember how long it's been since she joined the court. i guess fi's just always been here. maybe fi were created by sabael?

fi are... charming, yeah. fi have this aura that's-

it's hard to describe. it's just. good.

fi feel good.

#...fi don't really talk about firself. fi just- exist. #and be. #herself. #i like fir. #fi's one of my best earls. #chrono #the firstborn - paimak