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kitamars · 8 months

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how can you drop a heavy burden if it's holding you up as well

#im having too many feelings post the very final #NGAHH. im in a hell of my own making #they said a heart’s a heavy burden #and gintama said to live a full life is to carry a heavy burden throughout a long journey #and i said what if i started sobbing #the yorozuya actually mean so much to me. i can never explain it in words #they are THE found family first and foremost. and i really want to convey that in the art i make later on #they’re such a comfort #oh god i might tear up #anyways #sakata gintoki #kagura gintama #shimura shinpachi #yorozuya gin chan #yorozuya #gintama #ok bye

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sophfandoms53 · 2 years

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THE FACT HUNTER ONLY STARTED TO SNAP OUT OF BELOS’ CONTROL AFTER HURTING FLAPJACK I WILL THINK ABOUT THAT FOR THE REST OF TIME

#HE LOVES HIS BIRD SO MUCH #MY BRAIN IS SO FULL AND MY HEART IS SO HEAVY #UGHHHHHHHHHH #IM SORRY I WONT STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS #IM JUST SO ANSDKDKFKKSKA RIGHT NOW #the owl house #toh #the owl house spoilers #toh spoilers

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peaches2217 · 2 months

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Everyone please drop words of endless praise and gratitude towards my gf in the replies, her attempts to troll me have led me to discovering my new favorite perfume and I once more owe her my life

#I've got so many samplers and she's been having fun choosing a new scent for me to try each day! but she also happens to be chaotic neutral #today's choice (cleopatra by tocca) had all the hallmarks of a scent that I would absolutely despise #musky (every musky perfume I've tried so far I've hated)! heavy grapefruit notes (I have a personal vendetta against grapefruit)!#I even brought a trusted backup to work expecting to wash today's choice off within the first hour #I'm. SERIOUSLY considering getting a full bottle. this shit smells delectable #the muskiness actually plays exceedingly well with the heavier notes of patchouli and blackcurrant #(and coincidentally every blackcurrant-adjacent perfume I've tried I've absolutely adored)#and the sweetness of the grapefruit is made lighter with potent but not overpowering green notes #and then the heart notes! juicy peach and gentle tuberose just - MMN #it smells like fresh-brewed green tea. I'm in tears I love it so much #which means she'll pull out all the stops trying to chose one I'll ACTUALLY hate for tomorrow. I love this woman #peaches screams into the void

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 5 months

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I'm piggybacking a bit off of the last ask of asking for writing tips but I have an odd question... Am I the only person that struggles actually PICKING a book? It's the absolute bane of my existence because I feel like I can be so picky... Don't get me wrong, I love being a bookworm, and I'm trying to get back into reading physical books but it's so difficult to find a real taste of what the book is like without being completely spoiled or something... I miss when backs of books had an actual summary and not just NO.1 NEW YORK BESTSELLER!!!! It's so frustrating... I've been trying to get back into it by re-reading fond chapter childhood books read to me (The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane & A Wrinkle In Time). But at the same time I'm also trying to get into more "adult" books that isn't... Well, you try googling "adult books" and see how that goes, I didn't think too hard about what a poor decision THAT was. But I'm working up the courage to read Cat's Cradle right now to start with "Classic Authors" I guess!

Anyway I'm rambling here, I guess my question is... How do you pick out the books you read? I don't really have friends that read many books to recommend to me :')

Thank you in advance, Bog! I hope you get a callback from that interview soon!

no ok actually you've mentioned something that's been bothering me for a while - What The Hell Do Y'all Mea, Books Don't Have Summaries Anymore???? i have not once in my life found a book that didn't have a summary. i was in barnes & noble recently and everything i looked at had a summary. i have literally never seen a book without one in my life of reading & looking at new books on a regular basis

softcovers have theirs on the back. hardcovers are on the inside of the sleeve - lift the cover and it should be printed right there on the inside flap! summaries aren't legally required but both the author and Especially the publisher(s) know that no one's gonna buy a book without a summary. trust me, all books worth reading have a summary. if a book doesn't have one, it's probably not worth your time anyway. you just gotta know where to look!

so my answer to how i choose books... i read the summary lmao. if it seems interesting, ill either write it down to get later or ill get it there and then.

Before the summary though, i look for any titles that jump out at me from the shelf. then i look at the thickness. i like a bit of meat in my literature, so i tend to shy away from thinner books. thicker ones grab my attention more easily. then i look at the cover - if it interests me, then ill read the summary. i don't have specific tastes in title or cover. as long as it makes my brain "hm" thoughtfully, ill take a gander!

and really, if you have access to a bookstore (chain or not, ive found plenty of bangers in tiny used bookshops) or library, the best way to find a book is to physically browse. even if you dont buy anything, you can take pictures of books / write them down to buy online. but going to the store lets you search them out, examine the length, cover, title, summary - and easily put it back on the shelf or keep it. i hate shopping online bc there's ads, you can't examine the product, nothing really stands out since it's all portrayed similarly, there's limited pictures instead of the physical thing, and photos can lie.

plus, everything is (typically) meticulously sorted by genre & age range. when you go into a section with literature aimed at adults, you'll find exactly that instead of smut novels lmao. real life bookstores can be more accurate than online searches. & there's just something so good about walking through shelves, searching for that one book before you know it exists, smelling the paper... yeah...

#like for example i recently bought priory of the orange tree #ive been wanting it for a while and havent read it yet since im finishing something else #BUT! i remember when i first saw it #nothing had gotten my attention for a while #but then i saw the thickest fucking book ive seen in ages - which was automatically very sexy of it #and then the title was unique - priory of the orange tree??? whoah! what the fuck does that mean!!!#so automatically there was the interest of neat title + a new word that i get to learn + the implications of the word now that i understand #and then i picked the book up and it was deliciously heavy - & there was a Dragon on the cover. which. YES PLEASE #then the summary was fascinating!! the book was immediately seared into my brain! im very excited to read it #so thats a highly successful example of my book choosing Process #it checked all of my boxes so it was a win #most books dont check all of my boxes but as long as it hits most of them im down to clown yk yk #but yeah im picky too so! nothing wrong with being picky or having high standards!#rambles from the bog #my shelves are fuckin Full of books ranging from 'it was ok' to 'I WILL RECOMMEND THIS TO ALL WHO WILL LISTEN'#and then i have a drawer filled with books that i just could not care less about / dont like #but dont have the heart to throw away bc. well putting a book in the trash kills a part of my soul #i need to donate them...#but yes! i hope that helps!#and Thank You! i hope i get a callback as well...

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soldier-poet-king · 7 months

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Jesus wept.

#i was reading more of that aids and catholics book over lunch #i am so fuckin angry. and i am weeping with rage and sorrow #yeah yeah i KNEW i didnt get it and I'll never really get what it was like.#i was born in 96 at the final peak of aids deaths before we see a downward trend #ofc i dont understand. not really #but i am full of so much anger and grief and i am sick with it #for the longest time i have thought of the sacred heart inextricable from the hozier lyrics from foreigners god #now my heart is heavy with the hate of another mans belief #and ryan McQuade has a piece like this i adore. the sacred heart framed by the pink triangle #if i wasnt yknow. in thee glass closet. i would buy and frame it #anyway. i have to go cry in the work bathroom for 5 min before i can. get back to work #i picked up the grief of stones again. im going to need it.

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bucketboat · 5 months

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There needs to be more content of heavy with him just by himself because 99% of all heavy fanart is him with medic.

To the tf2 fandom overall heavy just seems to be a side character to medic. He can’t just exist by himself he HAS to be constant thinking about/with medic or his character isn’t worth talking about at all.

I can’t blame anyone really because yeah, medic’s a popular character, but the fandom lessens heavy’s character ALL the time & it makes me so mad.

he doesn’t exist just for others he’s a whole ass guy

#heavy tf2 #he’s more than the sum of his parts #anyways #no one else will make heavy tf2 content so I have to do it myself #anyways heavy tf2 gang rise up #sorry for getting so upset about this but considering he’s like #an actual fat character who has a full backstory & character that isn’t just stereotypes #I hold him near & dear to my heart #yeah he’s not treated great in game/by valve #he still matters #2 me anyways

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graff-aganda · 10 months

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would you all still love me if I entered my tally hall era.

#my friend introduced me to them a few years ago now and ive casually listened to like. 3-5 of their songs since.#but im listening to more now. branching out. their music vids rock. their internet show is funny as hell.#so so obsessed with the WTTH music vid. ive got an idea for something to draw down the line regarding that one #i cant do favourite songs in general bc my heart is full of too much love always changing for music. but my current heavy rotations are-#greener and just apathy. wtth and two wuv also.#im just. ourgh.... musac........!!! 🤘😭#grafftalk #delete later

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eebie · 11 months

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someone play video game with him someone anyone :(

#oh my god . hes so wimpy !#but not the conventional meaning of the word Where it has heavy negative connotations NO i mean my own meaning #where it's awesome and lovely and full of heart and STILL kind of derogatory but in a silly way #my rambles #homestuck

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silversiren1101 · 4 months

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💎💎💎 for tristo from mino?

[Thanks for the ask!! There's something about sad ginger HKs aren't there...]

A melancholic look takes to Minovae's expression. "Oh, Tristo..."

She shakes her head. "I don't often find much love for the Gate. They're strange, even among our kind. If the Rack is most comfortable with mortal tyranny, cozying up with House Thrune, then the Gate is most at risk for the more immortal kind... cavorting too comfortably with infernal forces and more to do the same work one could do with a well placed offer of a free drink and friendly smile. But, Tristo..."

Her lips tighten and twist. "I just feel more sad for him than not."

She then hurriedly clarifies. "Not in a condescending way! He's an adult and made his own decisions, but you also can't deny said decisions were shaped by the horrific childhood he endured. Being raised among nobility in a pro-diabolism household? And as an aasimar at that? Of course I feel for him... and I hate that my actions helping put House Thrune in power are responsible for it."

She sighs through her nose. "There's something to be said about Hellknight flames burning the coldest. For all one would assume him to be warm from the halo and complexion, I wonder sometimes if there's truly any spark of life left in there... any passion or care or love... He makes Regill at his worst seem more truly alive at times. There's a coldness and loneliness to him that feels as vast as the void, and I suppose I can't blame that entirely on the Gate, they just took advantage of a hole that was already there."

"Still", she shrugs. "He's good at his job. Amazing, even. He's dutiful to the point of self-destruction- though I can't say much on that", she snorts dryly in awareness. "His loyalty is unquestionable. He's a fearsome force on the battlefield. Truly, he is the model, modern, Hellknight. She says the one word with clear distaste. "Exactly what Thrune's influence in our modern teachings and practices would hope for. He doesn't ask questions. Doesn't challenge things. Doesn't stir the pot or shake the boat... He tells me everything about just how dire the infection in our ranks has gotten."

She then stares off into the distance, a pensive expression on her face. "If anyone can bring him back, though, it'd be Sosiel... If he can warm that flame and remind him of what it means to be alive... Pull him back from Hell's embrace..."

#oc: minovae arangeir #oc: tristo #ohhhhh does tristo make her heart ache and hurt #a potential enemy should he side with house thrune but she so clearly sees how he became the way he is and cannot fault him for it #but she sure as hell can blame herself given all she did to creature the current political climate that formed his life circumstances #in person I think she'd be quite polite to him and baiting him into having fun - offering him a drink or a game of cards or something #she desperately would want him to find love and life with sosiel #there is a limit to her pity and patience though and full diabolism would be it - it would not be without a heavy heart #ask game #ask meme #diamond ask

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fioletowaroza · 9 months

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honestly out of all of the portraits iris made this one freaks me out the most ngl

even without considering the partial corrosion/corruption from her ghost and years if not decades of decay in the manor, iris portrays herself with sunken hollow eyes (no eyes, really), hollow cheeks and sallow skin, a wilting rose at her feet and those two hooded figures with strange features, who probably are the black cat and the dog's """"human"""" forms hiding and melting in the darkness behind her (this is an enhanced ver, the og has them barely visible, almost blending in the background).

she really turned her greatest talent and passion into something nightmarish to cope with the horrors she was going through.

#out of thorns.#her paintings were so colorful and full of life #full of love #beautiful landscapes and flowers #her beloved smiling at her #the house of her dreams #and then nothing but darkness #a heavy heart to carry. ( headcanons )

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000png · 27 days

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i know i'm 7 years late but i just finished playing night in the woods and damn.... DAMNNNN. what a gem of a game

#easily one of the most well-written games ive ever played. and i tend to struggle with dialogue-heavy games too #the way it just has so many relatable elements really hits home like. every deep conversation just left me head full heart heavy #i definitely missed a couple 'routes' so i'll prob to go back and play it through again #like i didn't get to see bea's backstory at all #0.txt

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latitudesunknown · 9 months

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