Mammon + 18 and 2 for the ask prompt thingy plz and thx 🤗😌
yayyy thank you for the mammon prompts ^^ hope you enjoy! :)
2. their emotional/weak spots
ahhh big brother mammon! i always classified as mammon = oldest brother, lucifer = oldest sister, just because they differ on how they act with their brothers. naturally they both care so much for them albeit in way different methods, lucifer is far more strict and wants to shape them to be good and proper, whereas mammon would sell them for three gold coins [and then conduct a convoluted heist to get them back]. so honestly mammon would be always looking out for his brothers, and takes notice when his brothers want or need something. leviathan talking excitedly about a new game? mammon makes fun of him but weirdly enough, pays leviathan back the first time in a hundred years, just enough money to cover the game. mammon loves going out alone but somehow always brings back enough drinks + food for the house of lamentation. he overhears luke wishing he can go to the traveling carnival and mammon is like luke i’ll take you there for that snazzy necklace you got! luke bites him and mammons like just KIDDING lets go buddy! and obviously. mammon would move heaven and hell for the human... he’d let them kill him if it meant his blood would be on their hands for the rest of time...
18. things they'll never admit
ohhh there is literally just SO much he'd never admit due to his self-proclaimed 'tsundere' personality but i'll try and think of something that is kinda out there. lets see... we know he loves the human with everything he’s got, we know he is hurt by his brothers’ insults and ridicule, we know he’s terrified of zombies and ghosts and the like, solely because it’s pretty obvious through his actions. all the while he never admits it to others nor himself. i think something that he can’t even admit to himself, much less anyone else, is that he feels in the end worthless. in my quiz, i wrote for mammon that he feels his worth is only measured by other hands, never his own, that he deludes himself into being such a grand and great demon as a front for how vulnerable and small he feels inside. [sighs] and yes he’ll never admit that he loves when mc orders him around [mc’s like mammon go to the carnival with me RIGHT NOW and hes like yes SIR!]
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You know, I was going to start this differently, but I'll open with that I really appreciate good parents
They don't have to be perfect, but the parents and guardians and people raising kids who really try to do what's right for them, those people are so great and important and do such an important thing in this world
On the other hand there are way too many parents who treat their kids like a possession to be molded into what the parents want. Nothing is ever good enough, they can have the perfect kid who doesn't do drugs or drink or anything at all and they'll act like they're raising a monster
You'd think I was taking about one specific set of parents, and I kind of am but actually I can instantly think of 5 parents like that. It takes me a minute to even remember which friends they belong to, but I instantly know 5 sets of ungrateful parents who don't realize that they lucked out. All they choose to see is mistakes and flaws when they have a fantastic kid
So I love the good parents who really try to support this little human they know is unique and not just an object or a tiny version of them, because... incense me, fill me even beyond anger with a sorrow that... that they could fail the people who depend on them so badly, that they could be so selfish that they put their own needs before the child they're supposed to protect
It bothers me, it bothers me how many bad parents I can think of where I can point to concrete examples of their bad behaviour and I'm only getting a small sample. I just... I don't have enough time or words so I'll leave it at the fact that I'm just filled with profound sorrow at the whole situation
So thank you to the good parents, and even just the decent ones. To those of you who had say... particularly controlling parents, or ones where nothing was ever good enough, or any and everything else... I'm sorry. You didn't deserve that
This is for some specific people, but even if I don't know your situation and it applies... it's for you too
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goth!Sam au: in which Sam runs away, goes to Stanford, and developed a gender nonconforming goth style, which he loves and finds it creative and freeing + john would hate it + it lets him explore all the “bad” things John never let him near.
Maybe Jess is goth! They meet and she’s charmed by all the monster lore he knows and stories he could tell and the seriousness that he told them with, tho he always laughs it off when she asks if he’s ever seen anything himself.
When Sam asks about her style and her beliefs more she knows they’re genuine questions of interest, and she can see that maybe his interest is more personal than he lets on.
Maybe Jess goes to church and Sam goes along with her, and they sit in the back, and she teaches Sam about all the intricacies of her belief and how to pray. Maybe Sam doesn’t know if church is for him but he finds comfort in the idea of a creator who would never think of him as a mistake.
They walk through a graveyard afterwards. Sam’s been to hundreds of graveyards by this point in his life, but as they walk he listens to Jess’s reflections on death and her words put new perspectives in his head.
She believes that the dead shouldn’t be separated from their past life. Body + spirit + soul, coexist together in one being. A person now dead still has a value, has a story, and their body is an extension of their time on earth. Souls depart, ghost linger, and bodies stay.
With Jess, beauty in the transition from life to death had never been clearer. She awakened an appreciation in him.
Jess practices witchcraft and she wants to share that with Sam too. He gets weary and his stomach drops thinking about what john would do to him if he ever caught him listening to this kind of stuff.
When Jess reads his palm, she kisses it, and tells him he’s going to live a long life, and Sam doesn’t know why but he starts crying, and Jess, in all her kindness, just wraps her arms around his waist and holds him. They rock back and forth and maybe she’s crying now too. She never shows him her palm.
Sam starts to feel himself channeling something, maybe a power? he thinks they’ve opened a floodgate now learning about all this stuff, but he feels strong? secure?
The things Jess has taught him makes sense in ways that the things he was raised on never did. It all feels so exciting (if not a little forbidden) to know all the things he knows now. He’s afraid to practice on his own, but just knowing that he could if he wanted to feels liberating.
Sometimes he thinks about dean and wishes he could explain all of this to him. Tell his brother that he’s changed and how he’s so much happier for it, and he thinks maybe there’s a chance dean would be happy for him to, but then he immediately buries the thought.
Dean can’t know. He’d probably hate Sam, like how Sam knows John would hate him if he ever saw what his youngest child has done with his new life. He doesn’t even want to know what John and Dean would say about Jess, He gets defensive just at the thought.
She’s all that’s important to him now. Her and the future Sam wants to make with her. She’s given so much love and patience, and he hopes he’s given just as much back. His chest warms at the thought of her. and he thinks quietly to himself that John Winchester can’t take that away.
Maybe they get Halloween tattoos, and Sam thinks it’s hilarious because this is his first non hunter related tattoo he’s ever had and it’s probably a monster tatt or something equally campy.
When dean shows up to the dorm and sees Sam for the first time in two years, Sam is pinning him down pissed off and disgruntled from being awoken abruptly, he’s still in his sleep smeared eyeliner/eyebrows/and lipstick from yesterday. He’s got a little gay dangly earring hanging down from one ear and a black stud in the other, he looks down at his older brother who looks exactly the same as Sam remembers him and dean lets out a laugh
Before they leave to go find John, dean tells Sam to “not bring any of that girly shit” cause it’d just cause problems, to which Sam ignores him, placing his makeup bag in the rucksack Jess helped him pack. She helps him put on his spiked/patched denim jacket that they had worked on together last fall (it’s got both their signatures on it). She gives him a kiss goodbye and tells him not to miss her too much, and also if he ever see’s any of those monsters he always use to talk about he better be sure to call and tell her all about it.
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