#he’s just not confident anymore

[koriand3r]

Willow | Spike - Clothing

“Why are you still in costume?” “Okay, still having to explain wherein this is just my outfit.”

#I call this 'costume motif' my beloved #I feel like both characters wear their hearts on their sleeves #So let’s take a look on their actual sleeves #Obviously everyone’s clothes tell a story and their character growth but I feel like these two are hyper aware of it #Its costume its armor I think they rely on it almost weaponize it #Spike i feel is relatively up on the times for a vampire yet he hasn't changed his style in 20 years #He's found his bad boy rebel image and he's gonna cling to it dammit #And Willow needs her clothes to showcase her pride/rebellion/growth as a lesbian wicca #Their clothing means to them hey look at me I'm not a loser nerd/fool anymore I got power and confidence in spades #But its just a front - superficial but clothes equal security blanket #I think they put too much power in their clothes because they're convinced it can control how people see them #But more importantly so it can control how they see themselves #btvs #mygifs #ok i made the nonsense gifset now will my brain stop this random buffy obsession or is this just a phenomenon that will hit me every decade #buffy the vampire slayer #myfaveposts

[crustyfloor]

I've gotta say, before round 6 I was dull enough to believe Ivan was the most normal out of the cast. After round 6 it really dawned on me just how many times I've been given hints about his true nature. I never really took into account how much alien stage fucked up these kids until I got bitch slapped with Ivan in round 6 showing just how cracked in the head he is, and the most surprising? is that it was totally in character for him and so understandable. We all know some good and bads that we were taught since childhood, but Alnst cast? they were only taught how to behave how the aliens want them to and how to sing. Generally speaking, their way of thinking is abnormal to most. Inhuman, even. And that was a fact skipped over by some people, including myself. Now i'm hyper aware that alnst cast aren't super human and too not be so rash with theories like I was with Ivantill round so that I don't get my soul shattered thinking Hyuna and Mizi could actually duo against a facility already on high-alert and full of guards on the ready.

#never again never again never again #does this mean i wont reach anymore? no but thats just the magic of theorizing #now i just wont take myself as seriously anymore unless if im super confident #alien stage #qmeng #vivinos #alnst till #alnst ivan #ivantill #Ivan is still my all-time starboy the fact that he's almost on the same level as Luka doesn't change a thing #just a ramble really cause i have theorizer guilt #like even though Ivan knew it was bad a stupid kiss wasnt gonna be worse than seeing his beloved get sniped through the skull #he'd rather it be the other way around

[shannonsketches]

Why is the anime so weird, it's not even the same series dude?? It's like,

Anime:

GOKU: I have a great idea to bring peace to the universe, and my leadership and compassion alone will unite us all. I have No Flaws and am A True Relatable Everyman :)

VEGETA: NO! I AM THE BEST AND I WILL CAUSE PROBLEMS UNTIL I AM RECOGNIZED AS SUCH!!!!

Manga:

GOKU: Vegeta what's cornmeal made of? I know it's what the corn eats, but what's it made of? VEGETA: Hey Kakarot let's play the quiet game until one of us dies.

#silly hours #I do not understand this writing it's so bad aklsdlkasjd #Toei wants Goku to be Clark Kent SO bad and he SO isn't lmao #they're so good and dumb and rounded and complex in the manga what is the anime so afraid of #Toriyama said 'no no this man is a detached faux-immortal who has a dear pure heart but he's childlike and selfish even though he's kind' #and toei went 'got it goku's never done anything wrong ever in his life' #toriyama said 'Vegeta's gone through a lot and he's finally settling into his more mature leadership role with the confidence he's earned' #and toei said 'got it vegeta has the confidence of a high school bully except now he can interact with his family as a comedy bit' #girl hWHAT #Toei trying to group Goku and Vegeta as two people who would rather train than be with their families and Toriyama said NO Vegeta wants #to be HOME this is the first time in years that he's HAD ONE and it makes him HAPPY to be with his wife and children!! #Vegeta trains so that he can protect the things he doesn't want to lose again and Goku trains because it's the thing that makes him happies #They are NOT the same lmao And yeah Vegeta still wants to beat Goku but he also knows that Gohan could dogwalk both of them if he wanted #He also knows Trunks and Goten are going to surpass them it's not about being the best anymore he's past that he just wants to Not Need Gok #He just doesn't want to have to rely on Goku to save the day he wants to be Enough on his own he just wants to know he can be #because every time it's mattered he WASN'T and people he loved were lost to his inability to protect them and he carries that #Like Whis diagnosed him with anxiety and cptsd out in the open and Beerus said he was self-centered for feeling guilt #+ he lowkey enjoys the rivalry it keeps him goal-oriented so he can't get complacent and lazy which is what triggered his Buu Saga breakdow #realized how Fucked Up it was that having a home and loving family made him feel like he was failing and went 'wait no I won actually??' #now he's chill as fuck in the manga. cool confident leader. #and sometimes he is childish and dumb with Goku as a treat #you know what rocks about his rivalry with Goku in Super though is that it's Playful. Vegeta is learning how to Play. #You ever seen a shelter dog get introduced to a really playful dog and it takes a minute for the shelter dog to understand it's safe here #And then they're both running around the backyard playing hot potato with one braincell?? That's Goku and Vegeta's relationship #and the way the anime sleeps on that dynamic is so fucking criminal especially when it's literally canon it's in print it's out there #you had the playbook how'd you fumble it this bad #anyway that's my 25+ year blorbo thoughts I love Geets a lot okay #And I love Goku in the manga a lot I'd forgotten that he's actually a great character when Toei's not fucking up his whole vibe

[demonbarberofbeepbeep]

morning toddheads

#look he did have fun #he liked it #*walter white voice* he liked it. he was good at it #you know what i do think he loved her a little bit too #final scene is so sad #everything faaaaalllllsss apaaaart #i guess when i say i don't think sweenett is love #i do think they love each other in their ways #but the lie about lucy is so enormous #so central #to have lucy still alive and badly needing help #and have nellie continuously hide that from a man who is GRIEVING HIS WIFE #and trying to avenge her #it bothers me a lot #so i think the betrayal at her lying to him is multifold #it's not just you LIED to me #it's YOU lied to me #i thought you were on my side #all our confidences and tender moments had this lie beneath it #who are you #even #idk. i'm writing my fanfic and im in my feelings #their relatinoship is so complicated #what is love anyway #WHAT IS IS LOVE #baby don't throw me in the oven #in the oven #anymore #text post meme #sweenett

[ilovefredjones]

i’m always thinking about how dal never knew his parents and the only mother figure he had sold him into slavery as a child and then it turns out he never even had parents, he was just a failed experiment. and then his next mother figure is simply a hologram of a famous admiral who then deceives him before ‘dying’. but the real janeway cares for him so much, and defends and advocates for him in court and wants him to join her crew

#this is not anti holo janeway btw i love her it’s just. as soon as they gain a parent they immediately lose her #sometimes i think about how they modified holo janeway so they could hug her. someone get these kids some parental figures STAT #just. dal having to sleep in the engine and literally being SOLD INTO SLAVERY #after never knowing who he even was #feeling so worthless his entire life #yet finally finding his purpose among his crew on the protostar #and being taken under THE admiral janeways wing #he justtttt. does such a good job at being captain #he cares for his crew so much #bc he knows what it’s like to be forgotten and cast aside!! they all do!! #and cares for them and protects them and just loves them more than anything in the world #and he’s no longer a failed experiment but a confident leader! who’s not alone anymore! #ohhhhh i love him #star trek #star trek prodigy #dal r'el

[raiiny-bay]

he's a fashionable man

#ts4 #simblr #ts4 edit #ts4 render #sims 4 #myedits #dhestyn #kelly #sarnai by simspurgatory #aka dhes' bestie lmao #i just want you all to know that if i had the skills to make shit #dhes would have the wildest wardrobe #the man has the most headache-inducing fashion sense honestly #like it requires some confidence to leave the house looking like he does #these outfits barely scratch the surface of his fashion sense & that's only bc i'm limited by what cc items i can find #& eventually i just could not be bothered to keep looking for stuff #i lost motivation for this edit at least a billion times over the course of the last month #the fact that i finished it at all is a miracle #idk if i even like it anymore honestly. tired of lookin at dhes' smug ass face. i could fight him #i WOULD fight him actually #find me & him in the denny's parking lot at 2 am duking it out #i would absolutely lose but i would at least feel better after he yeeted me into the side of the building #there would be a rai-sized dent in the bricks

[i-spilled-my-soup]

doing close reading of the titans curse to study for a time travel au and augh. auguuuagh

#bianca wanted it all along #is it strength? is it assurance? #and given that she jumped into an assistant role maybe she wants to have purpose? to be useful? to contribute to something greater? #and nico had always wanted to go after her himself he was just too weak to #he thought percy had the capability to impact fate #and bianca always had her hair obscuring her face #thats the origin of the nico emo hair #oh bianca was never smiling when she was with nico #she didn't smile when talking about him or when she was thinking about him #but with the hunters she was beaming #she was stronger and more confident #more assertive and more courageous #willing to lead a quest for a cause she'd joined one day prior #auguuuah #the feeling of incompetence when you can't do anything to make your loved ones happy #no wonder nico considered trading his life for hers #to him it probably seemed like it wouldn't matter if he was dead or alive #maybe even good riddance #no one annoying bianca anymore and nothing for her to stress about #just auguguahuhh #he's really justified in his conclusion #ttc #time travel au #soup thoughts

[phoenixcatch7]

Remembering my first time playing oot as a kid and hearing about the heroes of legend, those who had used the master sword before. And because I wasn't part of the larger community, no internet etc, I didn't know I was supposed to think of the other zelda games.

My theory was that every zelda game took place simultaneously across an infinite sea of parallel worlds, and each link could reach out and witness the other adventures alongside their own. I thought of them as different facets of the same soul, which turned out to be true enough, I suppose XD.

But I also thought the master sword was too simple a name and design, too overarching to not, similarly, be a culmination of different aspects, referencing different swords from real world myth and legend.

I remember I believed past heroes referred to people like King Authur, like Odin, like Hercules and Theseus and Achillies, like legendary samurai and kings under hills and travelling swordsmen and ladies lost to time.

And now, this small child, this little backwater kid my age was going to take up that mantle, join the ranks of heroes unsung, perform great feats in forgotten temples and save the suffering kingdom, here and gone, to slip back to home and safety upon journey's end, the kid with a hero's story and a precious, gleeful secret. That was how a lot of stories go, when they're targeted at little kids. Save the fairy kingdom from the bad pixie and run back to your parents before they wonder too long where you've been.

The direction Nintendo ended up going with making a canon timeline and destroying the mystery of how it all began (tho SS is amazing) takes a lot of the fable, the secrecy, the hushed gleam in the eye of it. But I still love it. For older players, it's another turn of the cycle, the new and old mixing into something unrecognisable and yet so familiar.

For new players, for children, the creator truly captured that feeling of stepping into another world behind your own, shifting ivy aside with your dirt scuffed hand, the feeling of wonder welling up inside as you step into the sunbeams of a brand new horizon where everything they told you about magic is true. The feeling of becoming something greater than the sum of your parts, of hearing a thousand silent voices at your back, of meeting equal with the legend, of being good for the sake of it and being rewarded with making a thousand memories, a thousand experiences beyond your wildest dreams.

Of, at the end of it all, being rewarded with the privacy and peace you really wanted, not being forced to perform nice for rude adults and go on stage to accept your little trophies. Something to cradle in your heart and smile secretive smiles, to be true to yourself, to always have that little something extra, something adults will never notice but you know. You know, and you will never breathe a word of that beautiful, magical world, because it's just. For. You.

I suppose that's always why I've liked the epilogue of a zelda game, the Links all choosing to close the loop, to return the master sword and return to their peaceful lives. To fulfil your purpose. To become everything they said you'd be and more. To go home, and your enemies don't follow.

The adults doubt your magic, but you don't. Not anymore.

#legend of zelda #loz #tloz #the legend of zelda #loz link #link loz #Loz timeline #ocarina of time #loz oot #long post #Oot was a formative memory and not just for the terrifying flesh zombie monsters #I don't know. I guess there's just something about the fact that link is always able to return to secrecy and they always choose it. #Even in totk link was utterly unrecognisable except to his close friends and he never made any attempt to change that. #I guess that's a part of the mythos. Link isn't stuck in his role. He chooses it. He isn't forced into anything because of his journey. #He never loses his free will. He could be anyone. There's a sort of empathy in that. A sort of unruffled self confidence. #It's total freedom. Even if his home is changed or destroyed. He's only grown. A thousand people will help him. He's not alone anymore. #Is it any wonder it's a kid's greatest fantasy?

[momotonescreaming]

How do you think Steve felt the first time he realised that Tommy was going to be celebrating his birthday without him. He didn't have to go shopping for a present, didn't have to help plan his party. They weren't best friends anymore. Steve likes the person he is now, it was a good decision to cut Tommy off, but fuck it hurts.

#stranger things #steve harrington #tommy hagan #momo.txt #they were best friends! #they cared about each other! #it must have hurt so fucking bad to have this series of horrible realisations #of things he couldn't do anymore #having a knee jerk reaction that “he needs to tell tommy about this” #and then realising that he cant #when his parents empty house becomes too much he cant just go have a sleepover with tommy #he isnt going to celebrate his birthday with him for the first time since they were little kids #he cant whisper jokes to him in class #cant confide in him #people who say that steve and tommy werent really friends are missing out #theyre also missing the point #steve cutting them off bc he didnt like the person he was #wouldn't have had the same impact it did if they were just acquaintances #they! were! best! friends!

[worstloki]

Cannot stress enough that Thor 1 era is Loki’s only physically twink-descriptive era. This is because of baby factor and that he is younger and smaller than everyone in his surroundings (Asgard, mainly)

#to be clear you can’t call him a twink henceforth because he gains confidence #this is not problematic take at all #I just need to point out that Thor’s arc as a narrative foil goes the opposite direction #gg #Sif @ Thor in TDW: oh hi Thor how come you don’t bang wenches anymore is it because you’re in love with that mortal now #Thor: no actually I’ve inherited the family’s twink title heirloom #Sif: oh rip. get better soon? #Thor choking up from compressed emotions: thanks

[jamiethebeeart]

Sketches

#shuichi iguchi #shigaraki tomura #spinaraki #these were 2 unrelated sletches but then my brain starting brewing some thoughts #mainly an au where spinner is sent in as a spy (for???? not the heroes lmao) to get into Shigaraki's confidence which of course means #wink wonk bedroom activities ANYWAY spinner catches feelings and doesnt really want to inform on Shigaraki anymore and is feeling conflicted #about what he should do and shigaraki knows something is up with his maybe boyfriend but not what and just :))) angst and split loyalties #amd feeling torn in two directions #(i sya not heroes but the only group with enough prescence is the mla but thats not really their m.o. either so???? idk what group would #have the reach/influence to feel threatened by some upstart kid in the villain world and manipulate a member into taking this espionage job) #anyways ive got so many au ideas and not enough time to write a fic or 12 lmao #like the research + planning + plot points + writing + editing + energy to pull it off.... im tempted to dabble in it all again tbh #im a year behind the manga tho and still havent watched the last season so idk where characters have ended up #and id rather not write anything until i catch up (idk maybe horikoshi has revealed some fun/character specific info?) #here i am talking on + on in the tags. anywho if anyone wants to write a fic based on any of my posts feel free bc i probably never will

[psyceliums]

morty’s true greatest fear ended up being the thing rick says to him constantly, or more specifically, the fear of not knowing whether rick was being honest when he said it or not :(

#rick and morty #rick and morty meta #that just bummed me out but now he’s not so afraid of it #so maybe he’ll become more like ‘evil’ morty because he isn’t desparate for rick’s approval anymore #or more like summer or just more confident in himself and not defined by his relationship to rick #but also that fear seemed unfounded because rick obviously is attached to him #not jumping in the hole was just morty’s perception of it #we already know that rick IS irrationally attached to morty but views it as unhealthy / illogical #and the picture in the wallet 🥹 #so cute

[magentagalaxies]

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#i should've just gatekept scott thompson from my college bc the way my college is treating me right now is bullshit #like i don't even want to do the scott event anymore bc of how they're treating me but i kind of have to #and i know i should be grateful they're even letting me be one of the interviewers but i hate being a student so much #i hate how nobody respects my opinion or input or experience even tho i'm literally the reason scott's even doing this event #(and ESPECIALLY the reason he's willing to do it for free!!) #and it especially stings bc scott has never made me feel like my insights were worth less because i'm a student #like he's always been one of the few people who consistently treat me like we're equals even tho he doesn't have to #and the way my college is treating me. it's like they don't trust me to not be an annoying little kid #like they're just assuming scott doesn't respect me so they don't have to respect me either #i mean on the plus side i'm supposed to have another phone call with scott either today or tomorrow so i can probably explain the situation #like i don't want to make him feel negatively about my college i want him to have a good time #but this treatment is genuinely fucking with my self confidence #and also maybe i can harness scott's power to hear ''don't talk about this thing'' and immediately make the interview all about this thing #(except in this case it would be him treating me like an equal instead of a random student) #and there's a bunch of bullshit currently going on with the class i have right after the event #so even tho originally i was like ''awesome i have the perfect schedule to bring scott to all of my classes!!'' #i might just ask scott if he wants to skip class together and hang out. like i never promised that class anything #the only thing i *have* to do is the interview. the class we'd be skipping is already being like #''oh are you sure scott wants to visit the class i don't want to take him away from a better use of his time'' #and scott was genuinely excited to see what my classes were like!! even if y'all didn't treat him like a big celebrity!! #but y'know what i'm sure scott does have a better use of his time. and i do too. #i'm gonna do the interview event bc i have to (we're in too deep at this point) #and i might ask scott if he wants to talk to that freshman film class about the buddy cole doc #bc 1. they offered to pay scott for that (they can't legally pay me but that's why i made the joke about money laundering) #2. since it's about the doc it's the one class where i get to be treated like an actual person #but other than that. damn it i was excited to share this part of my life with scott but fuck that this part of my life sucks #i'm gonna have a good time with scott in boston and my college is only going to be as much a part of is as they have to be #because we ARE friends (scott said so!) and i AM a brilliant filmmaker (bruce said so!) and i DO have potential (bellini said so!) #even tho it is hard to internalize those things after how much yesterday fucked me up. but that's ok scott will call again soon

[tracfone]

Glados, watching chell knock on the door of the wheat field shack: oh thank god, finally someone who appreciates my interests--

#portal #glados #chell #i just watched a video with all the lines in poker night 2 #where claptrap and glados have a veeeery brief relationship #and she dumps him because he doesn't approve of the testing lol #it was....very....well it happened that's all i can say #testing is just code for dating for glados anyways (see: the deleted lines from ch4-5) #chelldos kind of sort of #i think chell would only agree to test again for glados if she felt confident about the fact that she wouldn't try killing her anymore #which she already says she does not want to kill her but still #edit: poker night 2 may or may not even be considered canon but i like to think it takes place during the #cooperative testing initiative because she does mention having human test subjects #glados's entire week: dating a weird little robot and burning through 10000 test subjects then dumping her boyfriend #portal 2 spoilers / kinda

[salmondragonart-archive]

Happy asexual awareness week!! :D Part of the reason I first got into the series was because I heard Maya was asexual, and when I found out Zer0 was too I was so happy!

#borderlands #maya the siren #zer0 the assassin #bl2 #asexual #i didnt even start this piece with the intention of posting it during ace awareness week it just sort of happened #i heard it was going on (i dont usually keep up with ace events anymore) and went oh my god i need to finish this piece NOW #i've been identifying as asexual off and on for literal years now. i think i started id'ing as ace at... 13 or 14? im 22 now #and i stopped id'ing as it for a while because of aphobia but i have recently picked up the label again with the help of a dear friend #he helped me grow way more confident in identifying as asexual again and i owe him the world #also this should go without saying if anyones weird about asexuality on this post youre getting blocked

[teadocs]

emote practice

#major shoutout to internet user magicalpouch bc this sheet really helped me get more confident #also @ the chars y'all haven't seen before on either side of daniel!! 1 is his sibling esther who has been mentioned briefly #and 2 is angel who he was supposed to end up with before we even started s1. idk if that's still the case tho we'll see!!! #i feel like adding her is trying to jump in to double dutch. i just never see a good spot for a full intro. BUT she's been hinted at 2x #not sure they're the best match anymore but i love her so just in case i'll give her a tag too! #by theo #moss macleod #bambi moore #chloe valentine #libby lane #lola lal #esther park #daniel park #angel reyes #matthew smith #vic campbell #chrystyna mclean #more esther posting coming soon btw