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azulock · 4 months
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Hi, could you write nsfw headcanons for Kaiser and Ness?
I most certainly can, nonnie!!! Tho, Ness gonna get some slander cause he's the second (out of three) character I have beef with for shits and giggles. Can't help it, I gotta bully that Yandere generator motherfucker. There'll be more Kaiser later, cause I got a fem reader specific request so, soon enough that's out.
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Michael Kaiser
⟳ The emperor himself, talks big game, and he can back it up, but I'm sure if he feels safe enough to display it, he's actually a switch. He likes being a dom and he sure is a one most of the time, won't ever sub if he's just having a one night stand. But sometimes, if he's in a relationship, and if he's too tired or stressed from his work, he'd probably like to sub. He won't bring this up and might resist if you try to, but give him time and he'll warm up to the idea.
⟳ As a sub he's needy and whiny far more than bratty, but he sure can be a brat at times, especially if you try to make him beg. Likes to be pampered and praised, you can get him to do anything with the right words - tho, stay away from any demeaning kink, that will just shut him down.
⟳ As a dom he is a major tease, likes to see you beg for what you want, big on making you use your words to ask him for anything. And just like with himself, he won't be big on demeaning or humiliating you tho, even if he uses a mean pet name, it'll be as praise or just teasing.
⟳ The bastard loves the sight of his own image so he's big on fucking in front of mirrors. If you are shy he likes it even more cause he gets to tease you. Also if he's on a place that's too far high to be visible, or that has those tinted windows that you can see from the outside, he loves fucking against the window.
⟳ Dirty talking in German, so much dirty talking in German, even if you don't understand it. He makes that angry ass language sound sexy. He really just refuses to speak in any other language during sex, so if you don't speak it, that's one way to learn I guess.
⟳ Big on body worship and praise kink, both for him and for his partner. He's the best thing on god's green earth so he only wants the best for himself too, that I cludes his partner. But he's gonna do that while calling you somewhat demeaning pet names and teasing you all the way, it's not gonna come easy.
⟳ Likes to tie you up and have you at his mercy, he gets a kick out of seeing you all vulnerable for him. Will edge you while you're tied up and make you beg him for what you want. He'll have you drooling and whimpering with your hands behind your back while blindfolded and still tell you to use your words. Will also tease you for drooling on his pillow.
⟳ Loves getting his hair pulled and receiving marks, like scratches and hickeys. Tho, he likes leaving you marked too, bruises from where he grabs and manhandled you, hickeys and bite marks all over your body too. The bastard doesn't want marks anywhere too visible on himself but he sure will leave some visible ones on you.
⟳ Handsome man, handsome dick, no wonder he starts the day looking at himself naked in the mirror. That cock is long, but not too thick, just enough to feel good. It's pretty veiny, with a pronounced curve upwards. As for hair, he keeps himself trimmed low rather than shaved clean.
Alexis Ness
⟳ Mr Yandere simulator is a switch, but you don't wanna see what he's like as a dom, better keep him as a sub. He'll pretty much let you do anything to him if he's subbing, he'll be a big mess, whimpering, begging, crying, letting you humiliate him to hell and back. Now, as a dom, he can be a bit scary, controlling, prone to just try and take what he wants without much regard to anything else. Yeah, better to keep him as a sub.
⟳ He's so very vocal, and at times loud. He has no shame for making noises, be it moans, grunts, cries or whimpers. Will beg you for anything if he has to and praise you for anything and nothing at all. You could gag him to try and shut him up, but he'd be just grunting and groaning under the gag.
⟳ Best way to shut him up is to put that mouth to some good use. And he sure loves it, has something of an oral fixation, likes sucking your fingers, your toes, anything really. For this reason he likes giving oral more than receiving it too. You could make him suck you until he ran out of air and he would thank you for that.
⟳ Actually likes getting humiliated, gets off to it easy. For him it's only natural, after all you are so perfect and he is nothing compared, you can say the most demeaning things and he's just going to agree. You can step on him while you do it too, he likes that. Might cum on his pants from all that actually, which will probably only lead to more humiliation and keep the cycle going.
⟳ You can tie him up, gag him, put him on a leash and walk him on all fours, he'll like all of those. Just don't put a blindfold on him tho, he wants to see you, he needs to see you, the blindfold makes him kind of angry. Also don't ignore him for too long, a little is ok, but if you keep that up for long he can get pissed off.
⟳ Loooves getting marked, he's yours after all, you can bite him, give him hickeys, scratch him, he really likes it. But he will do the very same, regardless of what you say, you are his after all, so why hide it? Expect a lot of bites from him, and for him to want to cum over your body as well as inside you, especially on your face.
⟳ If you let him dom, he's gonna very much lean into free use, cause he wants you all the time. Tho, as a sub he'll just shamelessly beg to fuck you at any point you two can be alone. He fucks like a desperate man, doesn't take very long to cum but can go again pretty fast and go for multiple rounds, so not really an issue.
⟳ I've written about this on another post so I won't stay too long on this, but if you can get pregnant, oh boy he sure has a breeding kink. Like actually wants to knock you up kind of kink. If you can't get pregnant, well that's lucky for you, but he'll still be obsessed with cumming inside you.
⟳ Ness is a bit above average, but not by much, and not very thick. He's kind veiny too, not too much but has some thick veins. He also likes to keep clean shaven, he thinks it looks nicer that way.
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xsatoru · 8 months
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count ⭒ kento nanami
TW: smut (minors dni), edging, denied orgasm, biting, lil tiny bit of pain kink, reader is kinda fucked dumb, and some wee degradation mixed w/ "punishment", you know kento's just sweetly mean and ultimately puthy drunk sjskkaks
A/N: bajsksks this is my debut on this blog and in the jjk fandom i'm saur nervous lol 🫣 but i had this thought n couldn't get it out my head...
nanami kento is the type to make you count — out loud — each and every one of his thrusts.
he's so mean, finding a sick satisfaction in the way you struggle to keep track. but of course, it's expected to be much too hard on focusing how many times his thick cock deliciously bullies the soft, gummy walls of your cunt.
kento isn't faring too much better himself, pussy drunk as always when you're just so tight and warm and wet. his dick slips in and out with ease, sweet hole molded perfectly for the hefty girth with how long he's worked to split you open. he loves to switch up his technique for shits and giggles, keep your cunt guessing, and that pretty little head of yours thinking despite the way it's utterly melting.
"f-fifteen!" you squeal out at the particularly hard but slow thrust that drags the swollen in and up, up, and up until the tip of his cock can relentlessly massage that bundle of nerves you never truly are able to reach on your own.
your lover keeps his hips flexed, pressed snug against yours and brushes back sweaty, disheveled bangs from all the exertion. he can feel how he twitches repeatedly in tandem with the spasms of your squishy pussy, desperate to milk him for all he's worth and drain him dry.
he snarls, "what a greedy lil cunt," and braces his muscles. looming over your prone figure sprawled on the bed and calculates his next move.
"sixt-teen! seven-seven...teen!! eight... eight... eight...!"
oh, kento's brutal. he laughs without humor, hips only continuing to pick up their onslaught of a pace. aggressive thrusts that cause your cunt to pitifully weep and squelch in delirium. the rate at which he slams into you would almost hurt if he thankfully wasn't cushioned between your plush thighs, a crazed smile growing on the depraved man's handsome face at the way your tits jiggle in time with the sound of skin smacking harshly against skin.
"silly thing, fucked too dumb to count properly." then he coos, sarcastic words laced in faux saccharine. "are two-digit numbers too hard for you?"
you whimper, tears pooling in your eyes and cling to his broad shoulders. "ken, kento... ah, please!"
"let me help you, precious," he whispers reassuringly and your legs squeeze around his waist in appreciation and anticipation.
your darling, lovely, wonderful kento. surely, he'll let you finally cum...!
the weight of his strong body pushes your back deep down into the mattress, pelvis flush against yours. happy trail tickles at your sensitive, puffy clit. he doesn't pull back no matter how much you whine and writhe beneath him, pussy clenching uncontrollably at another ruined orgasm.
curse his damn stamina and sadistic attitude!
"kento, no...!"
"and how many was that?"
"f-four," you sniffle pitifully.
"smart baby, what a lucky guess. so you do know how to count!
he rewards you with a nip to your tender breast, slightly taking away the pain of edging with a sting elsewhere. with it comes a muddled clarity that will help clear your brain.
it's all part of the game. and nanami kento is a man that never loses.
"shall we try double-digits again?" he teases, adoring the way your eyebrows scrunch and your lower lip juts out in a pout. even more in love with the scratches of honor from your nails digging into his back when he begins to grind against you. "something tells me you just might finally get it right this time, sweetheart."
xsatoru: August 2023 ©
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dias-writing-corner · 7 months
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I keep thinking abt yandere ticci Toby that started off as childhood friends.
You meet him through his sister as the 2 of you were good friends long before you meet her brother. And sure you’ve heard Lyra mention how her brother is being bullied and about his  Tourette’s through the school grapevine but you’ve never actually met the kid or even really seen him outside of pics or from afar.
Anyways when you meet him he’s this shy and awkward kid who’s a year or so under you and Lyra. But you don’t judge him for his Tourette’s or anything, you’ve always been a kind person like that. As you hang out with the two of them he starts getting this silly little puppy crush on you and Lyra teases both of you - separately - about it. But you blow her off as you just see him as a little brother.
Soon Lyra gets into her accident and dies. Leaving a hole in both yours and Toby’s lives and hearts. You spend more time with each other trying to remember her, you bring him homework he missed from staying home after her death and start to notice he’s more erratic with his behavior. Prone to outbursts or even aggressive behavior towards you. You can’t stand his self harm - even if he doesn’t feel what he’s doing to his hands - and he snaps at you when you press the issue too much. After you leave each time he lashes out at you Toby feels bad and beats himself up, after all he’s lost his sister, he doesn’t want to lose you as well.
But he eventually becomes so overcome with grief and anger he goes through with the murder of his step dad and burning the house down. And Slenderman wipes his memory of everything before his moment of retribution.
You notice the flames on your way to give him the latest bit of homework. Pressing harder on the gas until you stop your car in front of the building house, leaving the car you run up to the caution tape set up by police and the fire department. Falling to your knees in grief as you sob and scream his name, one arm covering your face as the other holds onto your opposite shoulder in a desperate attempt to comfort yourself.
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Years have passed yet you still hold onto the 2 Polaroids of your dearly departed friends. One was yours originally, the second was Lyra’s and the third that was Toby’s was assumed to have burned in the fire. The Polaroids were of a day you all went out and got ice cream and had fun like kids, one of the last times that happened before Lyra’s death.
Anyways you’d be well into college, perhaps junior or senior year? Focusing on studies has been hard for the past few months due to feeling like you’re being watched constantly. And quite honestly it’s starting to affect your grades. So you go out to the woods, to a part where the hiking path leads to a small clearing with one or two picnic tables. Settling down at one with your books and notes you try to let the sounds of the woods envelope you in peace and quiet to focus. Only for it to get a little too quiet and set off that feeling of being watched once more.
After a while you realize you’re not going to get much of anything done like this. You try to leave but as you get to the start of the path that leads home you find yourself stuck to a tree. Back digging into the harsh bark of the tree, a strange man with orange tinted goggles over the eyes and a strange mask covering the lower part of the face. You can hear the man breathe heavy, only one arm of his presses into you and holds you still.
Something in you tells you to keep quiet, an almost primal urge to make yourself as small as possible. You try to shrink into the tree behind you. Noticing the 2 deadly weapons fastened onto his hips, a small whimper escapes you as tears form in your eyes. He reaches down into his pocket and brings out a folded piece of film, unfolding it and showing you it. It’s crumpled around the edges and worn but you can still make out the smiling faces of a young Lyra Toby and you.
“H-how do you have that? It should’ve burned…” you ask in astonishment as tears threaten to fall from your eyes at the memories of your deceased friends.
The man’s neck twitches so hard you worry it’d snap, he doesn’t say anything and just points at young you in the picture. You nod your head and say “ye-yes that’s me..” assuming that’s what the man was asking. Using his free hand he tugs the goggles off his face and lets them rest in the messy brown hair atop his head.
Eyes crinkled in a sort of joy or maybe excitement as he finally speaks up. “F-f-found yo-ou”
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nyaagolor · 11 months
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Team Star Headcanons
This got dummy long so it's under the cut but I am rotating them all in my brain
Giacomo
Despite having the most stereotypical "delinquent" appearance of all the members, Giacomo is actually the closest thing to a model student that Team Star has. He's extremely organized, motivated, and actually pretty staunchly against breaking the rules unless he has to, so he's a straight A student and has never missed a class
However, he still has a little bit of apprehension about appearing to be like the uptight student council president he used to be, so he purposefully does things to make people think he's more of a slacker than he actually is. He turns in assignments after the deadline and shows up to class late so the teachers don't start getting expectations of him, but they quickly realize he's doing it on purpose when all assignments are turned in exactly 24 hours late and he shows up exactly 5 minutes after the bell with obvious consistency
He was student council president during much of the bullying of Team Star, and still beats himself up about not noticing it sooner or putting a stop to it until the consequences were right in front of him
He was and is the most uptight member of Team Star despite his seemingly relaxed demeanor. He's prone to over-planning, panicking when plans don't work out, and overall is pretty bad at improvising. He's far more high-strung than he lets on. Team Star has done a lot to mellow him out and give him the freedom to express himself, screw up without consequence, and just chill for a few. He's much happier now without the pressure
He loves bass-boosted, ear-splitting music and flashing DJ lights, but is also aware that many people have issues with those (including his buddy Atticus). Bc of that he always has a grunt check with any new members or would-be foes to make sure they don't have overstimulation or photosensitivity issues. Someone getting hurt during a rave would, in his words, "kill the vibe"
He's trying SO HARD to be lofi girl
Mela
She's naturally very cute: she has strawberry blond hair, wide blue eyes, freckles, a dainty stature, a high-pitched voice, and isn't very good at most school subjects. It makes her instantly endearing to basically everyone who meets her, but it also means many people find her annoying / frustrating off the bat and/or don't take her seriously, which really bothered her and lead to her very carefully curated Bad Girl appearance
Mela is very easily frustrated and has a hair trigger temper, which her bullies often used to antagonize her. They purposefully riled her up and caused her to lash out, so Mela gained a reputation as a troublemaker from the teachers. This caused her to fall further behind in school and exacerbated the previous issues
To get people to leave her alone, Mela created a very curated, if inauthentic, "bad girl" persona where she made herself look and act immediately aggressive and rude to everyone. If she didn't let anyone know anything about her, they couldn't find things to set her off anymore, and she'd avoid all the bullying. It did actually work, and people left her alone, but she ended up becoming so feared that she had no friends and no one wanted to be around her. She ended up hanging out with all the academy pokemon instead and developing a close bond with each of them.
Even after she comes back to the Academy she struggles the most out of all the students to fit back into things-- she comes across as a "problem child" which gives the teachers expectations that eventually become a self-fulfilling prophecy. It's only after a long, heated discussion with Clavell that they can start to work past her snippy exterior and get to the heart of the matter. When the teachers give her more patience and extra help, however, they grow to realize she actually does care about learning and is quite sweet
She loves making art. She is also not very good at making art. At the start, she's pretty defensive about it, but is shocked to find the students in art club are extremely welcoming and compliment her work, which makes her beyond happy and extremely motivated to keep trying. Those art club members end up becoming her first non-team-star friends in a long time, and she always brings them out to the courtyard so that her pokemon friends can pose and model for them to draw
She gets really really red when she's embarrassed. Her old, derogatory nickname was "the red-hot girl" because of her temper, but Team Star only ever uses it to joke about how she flushes now
Atticus
Low-hanging fruit here but this man has autism. He cannot read the mood of a room to save his life, and has been known to make extended, sometimes uncomfortable eye contact with whoever he happens to be talking to. He once infodumped to Giacomo about Phoenician Purple for three hours
His speech patterns are partially because of his extreme interest in history and partially because he finds older prose to be more precise in meaning than modern day slang. He is very clear about saying exactly what he means and being extremely specific, so he finds modern day slang with all its double meanings to be hard to follow and hard to articulate his thoughts with. Older prose has these same issues, but no one tell him that
He struggles to pay attention to things unless his hands are busy. Teachers often wondered if he was paying attention in class while sketching designs or sewing things, but it actually helps him focus better
His three greatest skills are his fashion design, his flexibility, and his skill as a nail artist. He can make you the most dazzling star of the school prom and then do a standing backflip when he's done
Atticus cares very little about social conventions or expectations. It worries people like Penny, who fears it makes him a target for bullying because he is so outwardly strange, but it's honestly fine by him. Despite receiving some pretty horrible treatment at the hands of his bullies in the past, he's bothered very little by it, and cares even less about what people think of him now. He has good friends all around him, so if people think he's weird that's on them; he's gonna keep doing what he wants whether or not it gives him a reputation
Atticus is easily the most mentally stable of anyone in the group. Nothing bothers this man whatsoever; he is thriving and in his lane. Despite this, however, he is never asked for advice because he only gives it in Shakespearean riddles
Ortega
He is an exceptional mechanic, and with the help of Atticus has actually made far more impressive vehicles than even the Starmobiles. His pride and joy is a pastel pink bedazzled motorcycle with a sidecar for his Dacsbund. He can't actually drive it because he's 12 and doesn't have a license, but still
All his mechanic tools are covered in rhinestones and his jumpsuit is pastel pink. He is also a straight, cis man, he just personally beat gender roles unconscious with his gold-encrusted staff. He would have kicked it too, but that would ruin his dress shoes and he's too classy for that
He's sassy and snarky, but it's not a defense mechanism like Mela or a consequence of social isolation like Penny, he's just kind of a brat. Team Star has done a lot to humble him and get him to understand the ~value of friendship~ but he was and still kind of is a spoiled little demon
In terms of raw intelligence, Ortega might be the smartest person in Team Star. He's skipped a few grades, excels at basically everything he sets his mind to, and couples it with pretty high emotional intelligence too. If anyone needs help with homework and is willing to swallow their pride enough to ask, he'll easily be able to help
Ortega has excellent dexterity, which makes him a fantastic piano player and quite good at working with very fine machinery. He also got really into baton twirling at one point because he thought it looked cool, so he can do lots of really neat tricks with his staff and pens and whatnot. He loves to bask in the attention that the grunts give him whenever he shows off (which is often. He LOVES showing off)
He has no patience for anything whatsoever. Eri has to hold him back like a rabid chihuahua every time they go somewhere because he is very used to being waited on constantly. Rich boy rehabilitation
Eri
Every one and their mother hcs this but [points at Carmen] Lesbians. Carmen and Eri are genuinely THE power couple; they’re both smart and gorgeous and well-liked by everyone. Carmen is still shocked Eri didn’t snap her like a toothpick bc it would have been deserved but Eri is just that nice. Stop bullies by kissing them so good they realize they like girls
Everyone else in team star stays up until ungodly hours for assorted reasons but Eri is up at like 5 so she can work out for two hours before class. She’s a little disappointed no one wants to join in her workouts but that’s ok! They need their rest. The benefit of Eri’s workouts is that she can carry a team star member on each arm like one of those muscle dudes on the beach, and she does, bc it’s cool
She’s a luchadora! She plays a heel named La Princesa in Paldean wrestling tournaments but it’s an open secret that she’s super sweet out of the ring and always treats her opponents to ice cream afterwards. Genuine treat to be suplexed by her. Despite being able to, she would NEVER hurt someone for real
Atticus had to tailor her outfits bc they didn’t fit. She’s like 6’, curvy, and built like a tractor trailer, so she cannot wear unisex shirts without ripping the damn sleeves off. She’s very kyaa about it. Very >o< about it
Cries during kid’s movies. And ASPCA commercials. And most things actually. The power of friendship does and has moved her to tears. She is mesmerized by the beauty of the world
She gives the best hugs
Penny
Another popular hc but (gestures vaguely at Penny's everything) transfemme. She has the dysphoria hoodie, the six cats, the cybercrime, the depression nest, whatever is going on with her hair, etc. She got sent to "study abroad" and went on HRT I will stand by this until the end of time. She washes down her progesterone with monster energy. Gamer girl. I bet she even plays Bloodborne
Has severe social anxiety / trauma that stemmed from the bullying and just got significantly worse over time. She orders all her groceries online and has them delivered, so she never has to leave her room and does most of her stuff remotely. If / when she does go outside, it's always at weird hours so she doesn't run into anyone. The mere prospect of going into the cafeteria around lunchtime is mortifying to her. wayyyyy too many people. Her anxiety is significantly worse in the academy, and she's able to function better outside of it
She has support systems for days. Aside from her new friends Nemona / Arven / the protag, she has Team Star, Clavell, an actual therapist, a xanax prescription, and six emotional support veevees. Team Star especially does a lot to help reintroduce her to classes and get over the worst of her anxiety so she can go back to school-- and it works! She becomes much more open, less stressed, and happier postgame as she and her friends help each other out
Penny's dad is super supportive but also super embarrassing about it. He is the ultimate trans rights guy but also wears neon rainbow shirts that say "ALLY" in big letters. Penny kept the worst of the bullying a secret from him because there is zero doubt in my mind he would just roll up to the bullies' houses and beat the crap out of them. He WILL throw hands with a 13 year old if they upset his little girl and he is not afraid to admit that. I'm hyping up this man so bad
Penny is an only child (or younger sibling if u hc Peony to be her dad) but has so, SO many cousins who are constantly doting on her. She is quick to try and retreat to her room during reunions and whatnot because she's easily overwhelmed by the attention, but it all gets better postgame. She ends up dragging Arven to her house for the holidays because he doesn't have a proper family and the cousins are completely enamored with him. He's polite, he's happy to help with the cooking, he has a cute dog... Penny's family is absolutely delighted she has such a good friend and Arven is more than happy to soak up all that familial attention. It's a good exchange
She is an insanely picky eater. Arven is taking this as a challenge, and is always trying to make new sandwiches that she likes. Seeing as Nemona and the protagonist would probably eat salami off the floor if given the opportunity, getting a good review from Penny in particular always boosts his ego. He's also made it his mission to sneak in new ingredients in the hopes of expanding her absolutely atrocious palette. It's not going well, but damn if he isn't trying
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l1tw1ck · 8 months
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pt 2 of Yandere Al haitham 🙏🏽
(idk much about al haitham and Kavehs backstory so they’re dormmates in this)
kaveh, al haitham’s friend. Both having similar aspects and one of them being their ambitions and intelligence, anybody would expect them to get along but their personality’s being so different they bump heads.. Alhaitham is cold and rational while Kaveh is dramatic and prone to acting on his feelings of righteousness even at the cost of himself. They fight so much and with how much they interact and think of the other u would expect them to know about their secret “relationships” with reader
Reader is a bully to al haitham and how obsessed he is with them and how smart he is he should’ve figured it out that, with the specific student kaveh tutors, always coming back with a hazy look and marks all over him, And even having a cigarette burn that starts with the same letter as reader…
kaveh on the floor of the secluded library, his tie being used as a gag to cover his almost purposely loud squeals and whimpers (maybe to know who’s fucking him..) letting out another squirt of cum as he arches his back, hot tears dried on his cheeks and nose thinking he’ll get a break but he gets slapped on his cunt and starts to get fingered to orgasm for the 8th time…he wants a break but when reader gives him one he begs for another guiltripping them for more.
Kavehs tutoring is probably a way for him to make money but once he saw reader he instead of money gets a certain amount of orgasms from how much he should be getting paid for tutoring reader
when reader was threatened to getting expelled from the akademiya instead of taking notice of his roommates moans and squeals of his darlings name he goes to comfort reader (perhaps a bit more..)
and archons he wish he took more notice as now he’s in this situation..hips stuttering as he rides readers face watching his friend get fucked silly by readers dick, taking notice to a bulge forming in al haitham’s tummy from how much reader came in him:(( fat sobs coming from him wanting it to be him and from the humiliation oh he can’t take this or another orgasm! No it’s not because he likes it he swears but him squirting when Al haitham cums again with his clit being overstimulated doesn’t help.
(can I be an anon too?:3 maybe 🐉anon if it isn’t taken)
aaaaahhh i love thisssss
yes u can!
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lakesbian · 5 months
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okay so 2.8. overall thoughts on rachel's introduction.
rachel not wanting a fifth person to join the team is ostensibly about the money she would lose from it, but it's more importantly about the fact that, as a disabled girl deeply unwanted by society, she has absolutely no trust in people. she can tolerate brian, lisa, and alec for the sake of the security and stability, but she doesn't trust them beyond the bare minimum. a strange person being brought into her house is deeply scary. she's used to every single new person she meets being a threat, someone with motives she can't read expecting her to operate based on arbitrary rules she can't understand. and because she has been taught that the only way to keep herself safe is to hurt people before they can hurt her (everyone will always want to hurt her), her immediate reaction to taylor Being There is to sic her dogs on taylor with hopes of scaring her off & securing her environment again. rachel autism lindt <3
brian is the second person we see breaking out the not-so-repressed violence and anger in this scene. he clocks rachel in the face, he says
“I fucking hate it,” Brian growled at the girl, putting emphasis on the swear, “When you make me do that.”
and he does some yelling about God Fucking Dammit. i think the crux of brian is that he consciously fervently does not want to be like his abusive stepfather, but the only alternative he's been taught was by his father...who is, unbeknownst to brian, also abusive. he's been taught that masculinity = good + mandatory and strength = masculine. his vision for himself as a Good Man who Takes The Lead and Cares For People involves stifling his 'weak' emotions and running himself ragged. he's not even very good at repressing himself compared to the other undersiders, so he's prone to outbursts like this sometimes--where, regardless of whether or not the violence he's engaging in is rationally justifiable, it's immensely charged w/ undertones of reminding him of exactly who he wants to avoid being.
it is Fully Understandable why, as a 17yo w/ zero training in conflict deescalation, the only way he can think to solve the matter of rachel violently siccing her dogs on someone is socking her. but "i fucking hate it when you make me do that" is still eerily reminiscent of some things his abusive stepfather has likely said to him before. he doesn't Want to be like that, but he doesn't know how to let himself be anything other than that.
(this situation w/ rachel and taylor sucks for him, ftr. he was so genuinely elated that he'd Acted Normal Enough to snap up this cool addition to the team, a girl with a good power who actively thinks along the exact same rational lines as him. which is important, because he needs the undersiders to succeed so that he can care for aisha like he feels he needs to. and then rachel busts in ruins what he's viewing as this great success by attacking taylor to drive her off. brian laborns bad day. rachel lindts bad day. tayor heberts bad day. lisa wilbourns deeply stressful day. alec vasils depression slump day.)
AND we get to watch taylor be violent and angry as well. that one is very simple there's not much to say about it. she's full of violent repressed anger (it's why she imagines beating the shit out of emma & co when she's being bullied in the halls prior to meeting the undersiders again), she usually holds it back because she recognizes that it would just cause the system to fuck her over more in the long-run, and here she realizes that there's no consequence of fighting back and proceeds to whale on rachel.
(i think that the reason she's primarily violent with her own human body here instead of w/ the bugs is because her usage of the bugs is frequently a form of dissociation--and here, rather than having to dissociate her way thru a violent situation, she's finally allowed to confront it head on and fight back w/ hands and feet As Herself. sucks and traumatizing to be attacked by dogs, but cathartic to be able to fight back.)
meanwhile: lisa is presumably vividly imagining slamming her own head into a brick wall and alec (badly depressed, seen far worse) doesnt even care with all the shit he's got going on
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bwabbitv3s · 8 months
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Good Godfather Vlad AU - Part 4
Link to Part 1 Link to Part 2 Link to Part 3
This took way longer than I expected, but it is done!
@kaitouhime @krzys2000 @moobloomrights @spooky-fm @undead-essence @theblackcatscratchpost
Concerns and Realizations
The next day passes in a bit of a blur up to the evening dance in the old high school gym. He almost does not know what to do with his plans all crushed and swept away with the revelation earlier in the week. Vlad feels himself being tugged along as if in a dream he had long ago thrown away. It is almost like when they all first meet and Vlad found some of the first people to take his racing mind and sharp tongue as interesting not off putting. 
He does notice that the Fenton’s son seems to be a little jumpy today. Glancing off at the ceiling, windows, and floor for some time before nervously going on with his time. Jack tells him aside away from prying eyes that Danny has been having some anxiety issues. Grades are dropping and he has become more accident prone to the point they bought an entire set of plastic plates and glasses. He has not been sleeping well with reports from teachers about him sleeping in class. 
He and Maddie are trying to be very thoughtful about approaching him as he had issues in the past with bullies. It has not been going well as the boy keeps dodging the topic every time they try to talk to him about it. They want him to know he can talk to them about anything and they will support him. It is why they brought him and Jasmine to the reunion. A chance at a break from school and seemed just the thing to help. 
Whenever he spots the boy it appears to get worse as the day goes on. What was easy to brush off as a nervous tick has become a real concern. By the evening Danny looks like he is expecting something to jump out and try to murder him. Vlad decides to try approaching Danny about it even if it is just to give him an excuse to get out of the Fenton’s smothering.
“How are you Danny? I can hardly imagine what you and the other children are very interested in watching all of us go about things from before you were born.”
The boy practically jumps, hands twitching towards something not there at his waist. 
“Uh, yeah. This is pretty boring you would think after a few days everyone would be caught up by now.” Danny nervously answers. 
“It has been quite a long time since many have seen each other. Not everyone can sum up a decade of time quickly.” Vlad says. Allowing the deflection to stand. Danny seems to be calming down a little. 
“Say, do your parents still go on ghost hunting trips or did they stop after graduating?” Vlad asks in curiosity. Ghosts and the portal had become a taboo topic since the revelation earlier in the week. As soon as Vlad finishes asking Danny gets a long stare as if seeing something in the distance.
“Not too often anymore. I mean they don’t need to go someplace to hunt ghosts anymore. Now with Amity being so haunted since the portal opened.” Danny bitterly says. 
“They actually got the portal to work!” Vlad exclaims in surprise. 
“Yes, have they not gone over their greatest scientific breakthrough with you yet?” Danny answers with a surprised look.
“I don’t think they want to talk about it as it is close to the accident.” Vlad responds mind racing. 
How did they get it to work? He had tried over the years to get a version of the portal to work himself. Tried different locations of thin spot to connect to it. After his powers started to manifest in a bid to get answers. It never worked. Not so much as a spark. Let alone something stable if it is causing an entire town to be haunted. His latest project to work was a short range tracker of sorts to locate the echos a natural portal left behind. It is how he was able to find the ghosts he had initially hired. Shaking away from that though he looks back at Danny. 
“That is surprisingly emotionally intelligent of them.” Danny says. 
“Did they ever get through the stabilization issue?” Vlad asked in curiosity.
“It just sort of stays open. They had to build a blast door to keep it sealed off. I am not sure how it stays open.” Danny responds.
“Fascinating.” Vlad says. 
"I just wish it would keep the ghosts from coming through. Been weeks since I got to sleep without the alarm going off that something has come through." Danny sighs out.
"Ghosts have been coming through that regularly?" Vlad asks in curiosity.
Most of the natural portals he had gotten to study rarely let things through even the ones that stayed open for a week.
"It is like nearly every other day. Sometimes every day something even just an ectopus comes out. I just want to not have to deal with them so much " Danny says.
"Deal with them? I am surprised your mother has not caught enough to cataloged them in a scientific paper yet. It was always her dream to get tangable proof of ghosts." Vlad says.
"Yeah by ripping them apart molecule by molecule. I am sure eventually they will if they could keep them from escaping. Kinda hard to catch something that can slip through solid objects." Danny says turning away a bit.
Vlad nearly flinches at this. One hand going to grip his wrist as memories of the hospital surface. A slow bubbling horror of what his newly renewed friends would do if they found out he was part ghost. It would not even be on purpose. Just can you do this test Vlad? Only a little blood to look at under the scope. The panic spiral screeches to a halt when he sees the self soothing gesture that Danny is making.
Stepping closer to him in concern while shoving down his own fear to process latter he feels it. That flush of warmth that signals a ghost is nearby. Tensing he scans the room stepping closer to Danny. There should be no ghosts here. Had one of the ghosts he hired decided they were not happy with payment? It increases as he steps closer again to Danny. As the boy shivers and breaths out and a cloud of frost despite the warm room. That is the final missing puzzle piece that clicks into place for Vlad.
~ Sorry for the abrupt end to part four. I just needed to update it now despite the end not being quite where I wanted it to be. Better done than perfect~
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sugar-fiend · 1 month
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TAGfic: History Repeats - Ch 1
Author's Note: Feels so weird to churn out another fic after such a long hiatus, and yet, here it is! This was based on a very old Tumblr prompt for "Push me. One. More. Time. I fucking dare you." Giving a heads up / warning for high school bullying and also for bad language words. You can read the fic on AO3 and FF.Net, or click to expand below: Hope you like it so far!
F.A.B. 💙
Fourteen-year-old Virgil Tracy hit the tarmac with a broken yelp.
"You gonna cry, Tracy?"
He could already feel the throb of his cheek as he gritted his teeth and glanced up towards the source of that mocking voice.
"Well?"
'Don't react,' John's voice seemed to echo in the back of his slightly-dazed mind. 'Don't give them the satisfaction.'
He grunted as a sneaker-ed foot collided with his stomach.
"Too good for us, are ya, Tracy?!" Jake sneered as he kicked the prone teenager again.
Behind him, another boy with scruffy blond hair scooped up the canvas Virgil had been working on from the ground, sneering at the artwork. "What's this? Another one of your pansy paintings? When are you going to man the hell up, Tracy?"
His words were followed by a crunch.
Something tearing and splintering.
It was a hideous sound that made the raven-haired boy cringe; a choked sound emitting from the back of his throat.
He had spent so much time on his latest work...
And now it was utterly ruined.
He could feel good vision blurring; eyes feeling almost too hot with the signs of oncoming tears. In a futile attempt to stop the inevitable flood of emotions, Virgil bit his lower lip hard enough to draw blood.
Suddenly, one of the boys - the one that had grabbed the precious canvas, something in the back of Virgil's mind supplied - yelped in pain before being thrown to the ground in a heap.
"The hell do you think you're doing?"
Oh no.
Virgil knew that voice without even glancing up. It filled him with both a sense of relief and dread.
Out of all of his siblings that could have happened upon what was going on...
"Back off!" Jake sneered, how body language immediately on the offensive. "This ain't any of your business!"
A pair of sneaker-ed feet moved in front of Virgil's line of sight, shielding the raven-haired teen.
"It's my business when a piece of crap like you decides to pick on my brother."
Virgil cringed at the venom behind his older brother's voice.
"What are you gonna do? Get your rich daddy to sue me?" Jake let out a short bark of a laugh, throwing the remains of Virgil's artwork to one side. "Rumour has it, your dad ain't ever around for you sorry lot in the first place."
Scott's hands balled into fists. "Don't bring our father into this."
"Or what?" Jake closed the distance between himself and Scott in a couple of steps, squaring up to him. "You think I'm scared of you, pretty boy?"
Scott's reply was quick and sharp. "You think I'm scared of a bully so cowardly that he only picks on those smaller than him?"
"You want to fight, Tracy?" Jake snarled, shooting a hand out and shoving the brunette roughly. "I'll fucking snap you like a twig!"
A gentle hand was suddenly on Virgil's shoulder, making him jump.
"Hey, easy..." John was suddenly there, helping him up and moving him away from the two older boys. "You OK?"
Virgil did not answer; still too shaken up over what had happened, and too concerned with what was about to occur. He allowed himself to be guided away and under the shade of a nearby tree.
He glanced over just in time to see Jake shove his older brother again, closing the distance between them yet again.
In response, the brunette silently dumped his backpack on the ground, followed closely by his leather jacket.
"Push me…" Scott's voice was low, and Virgil could feel all the muscles in his body tensing up from the underlying threat that emanated from his older brother as the brunette turned and stalked towards the other three boys.
"One…"
Blue eyes were narrowed in an unforgiving, arctic glare; locking on to their target.
"More…"
Virgil could feel his heart thudding in his chest, his chocolate-brown eyes wide as he felt his entire body stiffen in anticipation.
"Time."
A final step forward had Jake and Scott practically chest-to-chest as they squared up to each other.
"I fucking dare you."
An uncomfortable silence followed, and Virgil was so sure he could feel the sheer tension emanating within the surrounding atmosphere. It was as if the air was becoming supercharged with some unseen energy; like lightning about to strike in a storm.
And then it did.
Virgil could not quite recall exactly what happened next - almost as if his brain refuses to let him register the scent that had seemingly exploded before him. He heard shouts and grunts - sounds of a scuffle - and John's voice yelling to stop.
Something solid hit the ground with a thud and a pained whimper a couple of feet away from them, snapping the raven-haired teen out of his stupor.
He glanced over to see one of Jake's friends - the one who had grabbed his canvas - laying in a crumpled heap. 
Part of Virgil's addled brain felt at least a little triumphant to see the state of the seedy blond as the latter struggled into a sitting position; trying to stem the flow from his bleeding nose.
"You little shit...!"
Suddenly, John was moving; scrambling to his feet and darting towards the fray.
"Just what in the blazes is going on out here?!"
Oh no...
Virgil recognised that voice.
Principal Dooley's booming voice was enough to both halt the scuffle and abruptly silence all of the onlookers in unison.
The crowd of students parted to reveal a stocky, balding man in his mid-forties.
Virgil grimaced.
Principal Dooley was a man not to be trifled with.
"Brady. O'Reilly. Tracy. My office. Now."
"Me, sir?" John enquired.
"Yes you," Principal Dooley's tone was curt. "Your brother's will join you after they see the campus nurse. That goes for you as well, Banks."
There was a collective mumble of 'Yes, Sir' from the boys.
"Oh, and Brady?"
Jake glanced up from trying to dust himself off. "Sir?"
"Don't think I didn't see what you tossed into the bushes," Principal Dooley remarked gruffly. "I think the authorities will have something to say about a knife being brought onto school premises."
Virgil seemed to freeze at those words.
A ... What?
Before he could continue to piece things together, gentle arms were helping him up and to his feet.
"C'mon, Virg..." Scott's voice was quiet. "Let's get you checked over."T
he raven-haired teen could only nod his head quietly as he was guided towards the medical room.
Behind them, there were whispers and low murmurs from the other students as the crowd started to slowly disperse, leaving nothing but the tattered remains of a painting canvas and a small trail of blood behind.
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just-mint-to-be · 1 year
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Omg can you do one where Octane, Revnant, and Hound’s darling easy cries? Like maybe cries under pressure or at scenes in movies? ❤️
I cry so easily at movies/books/video games so I feel this
Octane
- Octavio thinks it’s adorable. He loves how sensitive you are; how easily you become excited, riled up or saddened just so he has an excuse to coddle you.
- Definitely uses it to his advantage. Arguing with him? Trying to do something he doesn’t want you doing? He’ll find a way to have you soft and with cute little glossy eyes devoid of any rebellious sparks washed away.
- Will cup your cheeks and lick or kiss away your tears, not letting you squirm away no matter how much you protest.
- Eventually, he hopes, you’ll start to learn that only he’s capable of adequately soothing you. Ironic considering his nature and the manner of your ‘meeting’, but he always thrives on delivering the unexpected.
- Think of him as rash? A bully? He’ll devote the rest of his life to proving you wrong.
Bloodhound
- Though they love you regardless of what emotion you may be feeling, they’re concerned most with stopping your tears before they fall.
- In Bloodhound’s eyes, the allfather would never let such a perfect being like you feel distress without outside influence.
- You may insist that you simply are softer, more prone to the weight of emotion but it’s an answer that never satisfies them.
- They’re determined to find who or what caused it and destroy it. Should you say something bold, like their protective ways being the cause of your unhappiness?
- Then it’s simple, they’ll simply devote themselves to you further in the hopes that you never as much as frown in their presence.
Revenant
- He has to try really hard not to satiate his darker, crueler tendencies via your little quirk.
- It’s convenient in a way; you’re the one person he ever gets a chance to feel human with. Revenant would never admit it, but half of his reason for taking you is how he adores the feeling of emotion still giving him the upper hand.
- So he simply utilises a stern look, or perhaps, a gruff. It’s all it takes to have you meek and bleary eyed before him.
- A weird part of him finds fascination in your tears and quivering lips. He’s not felt such emotion himself in many many years and you wear it so well.
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Xarmir: Professional Disaster. Accidentally taught these ways to his nieces. Big bro is not impressed.
I got very excited when I saw @bareee opening up @tav-dex and had to jump head first in :B
I have.. arguably collected a lot of Tavs that are all connected to one another, but Xarmir is the main doofus <:
Ramblings and full ref under cut <:
Xarmir's build is very story focused rather than optimal for combat. Despite the loss of his parents in childhood, he grew up a happy kid being raised by his older brother. Wild Magic runs in the family (his brother being a Wild Path Barbarian), so already from smol he played a lot with magic and had random side effects to it. Despite a sorcerer. his heart was with music and he trained to be a Bard.
Time went on, and then shit happened. Taken away from life and family, he was forced to become an Assassin for the Zhentarim and first decades later managed to escape. During this time the magic was ""beaten out of him"" because the people he worked under did not like most of the random side effects that came with them.
After escape and reuniting with his family, they have tried to get him back in touch with his magic, though the most magic he uses is to release the magic that builds up inside him before an unwanted magic release, and only happens in the confine of safety at home. No doing it outside oh no no...
An abduction, a tadpole, and getting together with a bunch of weirdos to traverse a lot of shit later, well... they may just teach him to get comfortable with his magic again.
Other random facts :D
He does not have heterochromia, he was just stupid enough to let Volo poke his eye out.
He has a complicated relationship with taking care of himself. He'll recognize others want to do him harm just for funs and won't let it happen, but the amount of shit he submits himself to for the sake of "to protect the others" or "taking one for the team" hooh boi
If he sees a cat he must pet the cat
Preferred pastime activities is reading, whittling, and playing his lute... when he isn't out exploring every inch of the area surrounding their camp
Has known Halsin and the rest of the Druids at Emerald Grove for decades. Nettie is concerned for him 24/7, and it's normal he butts heads with Kagha.
While everyone helped out in getting Xarmir to be comfortable with his magic again, especially Gale helped him a lot
Sleeps very little, because almost constantly having the feeling of "having to sleep with one eye open". Somehow still vibrates with energy. Is he really energetic? Or is he permanently overtired? No one knows.
Would much rather crash in someone else's tent than sleep alone in his own.
Has two nieces and a nephew, all three adults. Two have been taught in the ways of chaos, one is just existentially exhausted.
Exaggeratedly perceptive of his surroundings. Uses it to bully Astarion, when he most often notices a trap long before he does.... it's okay, Astarion bullies him in return because he's far better at lock-picking and disarming traps than Xarmir is, despite his attempt.
The rest of the party has contemplated needing to separate Xarmir and Astarion, or at least keep them on leashes, because they are a lot more prone to getting into stupid shit together.
May or may not have re-classed back into Bard/Sorcerer at the epilogue of the game <:
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venusoracle · 4 months
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hii could i request real versus shadow self for nct mark? thank you 🫶
please let me know if this reading resonates, if there's anything aligns,i there's anything that can be improved or anything you found interesting from this.
nct mark's real versus shadow self
real - conscious existence and personal identity
mark is a very forgiving and wise person, someone who won’t hold grudges over past fights. i think he’s worked a lot on this - he used to be the type of person who would replay moments that he felt hurt in, in his head and feel upset about it. he would constantly question why he didn't stand up for himself but he’s really worked on that aspect of forgiving others so that he can be loving and making meaningful connections with more people. he truly enjoys being supportive, the hype man that will always cheer on his friends.
his mindset is also good - he’s like the one guy who’s always prepared for anything because he’s constantly working on himself. i wouldn’t be surprised if he believes in “manifesting” because he’s always open to new opportunities. i believe he’s also deeply religious and tries to connect with his faith because his religion helps him feel grounded, he might find it really healing and comforting to pray. yeah, i definitely wouldn’t be surprised if he’s spiritual/religious.
he’s goal driven and has a lot of self-discipline, he’s not afraid to go after things that he wants. he’s also charitable and generous, if someone needs help then he would be the person to reach out and help them. i think he enjoys donating to charity because he sees it as a way to celebrate his success.
his shadow self - the parts of one's personality that society might disapprove of
he can be prone to jealousy and letting his jealousy make him burn iinside. e.g if he’s in a relationship, he might be insecure and believe his partner to be receiving a lot of attention and advances. so when he sees his partner with like just a friend and laughing, he might feel a little disillusioned? and then he might not communicate that which makes the other person feel confused as to why mark is acting that way.
he might be more "lost" than his image shows, he might feel apathetic about learning new skills like he probably finds dancing kinda boring lol i don't think he'd learn dancing if he wasn't an idol. overall, he might feel tired of the idol life. he’s done so much that he might go through burnouts regularly. he might question why he's really doing this job and wonder if this is truly the right path for him.
now i'm not sure if i should add this part because i know fans might find this offensive and tarot is simply tarot and isn't "fact". but perhaps in the past, he might have unconsciously engaged in "bullying" behaviours because of immaturity. the vibe i'm getting is like a classmate who's poking fun at another classmate but doesn't realise the other classmate is actually hurt by it, because he thinks it's all light-hearted. not with malicious intent! he might have had a huge change in his mindset because maybe he faced the consequences of his actions as he also grew up. this led to a new beginning in which he became more compassionate.
disclaimer: take with a grain of salt and i don't take responsibility if my readings start rumours, hurt delusional people, etc. any hate, aggressive comments or spam will be blocked. dove medicine, squirrel medicine, candle magic, knight of swords, six of pentacles, four of swords, queen of wands, 3 of pentacles reversed, five of swords, tower, ace of cups
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decent0distraction · 8 months
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Oof, ok
I just did a deep dive analysis regarding the What If of Marinette had the Cat Miraculous and Adrien had the Ladybug Miraculous
And oh my god is it tragic
But first, a breakdown:
Marinette fits best with the Ladybug Miraculous because being Ladybug made her confident of her choices; her leadership; her own desires and dreams
Ladybug opened the door but Marinette walked through it. The girl at the beginning (Origins) versus the girl we see now (most recent episodes) are two very different people.
I’m not trying to say that Marinette isn’t an anxious, insecure person anymore; it doesn’t work that way. But I think being Ladybug has proven to her that she’s stronger than she thinks.
As for Adrien, who has had no freedom or basic autonomy, suddenly has a way to be what he could never be as himself. I truly believe that becoming Chat Noir saved his life.
He was already pretty brave and outspoken beforehand (going to school without permission; standing up for what he believes in) but the common denominator in crushing that spirit was his father and his desire to be what his parents wanted him to be.
But I think Chat Noir showed him that he could be so much more; he could be his own person.
Adrien needed Chat Noir - more than Marinette needed Ladybug.
So when they’re switched from the beginning (as if they were given the other Miraculous instead of accidentally switching them in Reflekdoll), the results are less than ideal.
But let’s slow it down.
First up, Marinette as Lady Noire.
Origins!Marinette in this universe would be, as I imagine, prone to bad luck but somehow always manages her way out of it. “The luckiest unlucky girl in town” kind of thing. She’s clumsy but lands on her feet (quite literally) and catches what she knocks over. She’s agile and quick but she’s very nervous and jumpy.
She still saves Fu from the oncoming traffic, but while rushing to school to avoid being late, never once letting up on her speed and dexterity, impressing Fu with her skill but also her attention to detail, checking to be sure the old man was alright before leaving him.
In this universe, her clumsy luck provides a humble, hesitant confidence; the type of confidence that keeps you quiet until you have a reason to speak up.
So when she’s bullied or intimidated, she doesn’t accept it. Instead, she ignores it, enraging Lila
(Lila in this universe being the bully will make sense when I talk about how Chloe and Hawkmoth are different in this universe)
Anyway, Lady Noire is everything Marinette is but amplified. Plagg sees both her confidence and her intelligence and finds it incredibly impressive. So the gift he gives her (instead of gifting Adrien the freedom to be something he isn’t) is the freedom to be something she’s always been but couldn’t see
She’s funny and cunning; witty and quick. She can also be aloof and deceitful; cautious and manipulative.
Next; Adrien as Mister Bug
The holder of the Ladybug Miraculous is creative, caring, and careful.
This version of Adrien is more than his parents could have ever hoped for and this concerns Gabriel very much.
He sees his son make his schedule; handle meetings and difficult clients; all so Gabriel has less on his already too full plate.
They have many arguments about this; how the father should be the father and the child should be-
-But the father works too hard and makes himself sick-
-So that warrants the son making himself sick too?
No, but what good is a father if he dies just like Maman-!
You get the idea.
Adrien in this universe wears each responsibility and burden wonderfully well.
He wants to go to school - of course he would love it, but he’s needed at home.
But when his father insists, to try to give him an inch of normal, he goes anyway.
He meets his childhood friend Chloe again for the first time in years; since before his mom got sick.
She looks different now; older. She looks more a lonesome queen rather than a student.
They share tired smiles, vaguely aware of what the other one is going through, but aware enough.
He meets Nino and a girl named Marinette and her friend Alya.
And it isn’t until he has to leave early due to his schedule that he sees Fu fall outside the school.
He rushes to his aid, ignoring his busy life to help someone else’s.
Fu sees the leadership and thoughtfulness this boy has and knows what to do with this observation.
Like Marinette in canon, he isn’t nearly as eager to accept being a superhero as his counterpart.
But Tikki offers him an outlet; a calling.
And Adrien, ever helpful and kind, accepts.
Mister Bug is calculated and thinks before acting; a trait that Lady Noire finds incredibly boring.
But no one has ever made him laugh as much as she does.
Now onto Chloe.
Since Adrien was never the sheltered, overprotected model like he is in canon, Chloe didn’t have the access to such a carefree life as she did in canon.
Instead, her mother uses her to show off her designs; demanding what outfits she wears and what events and dinners she presents herself to. All the while, Chloe cares for her ailing father, who is making all the wrong decisions as mayor.
Her parents’ actions alone create enough turmoil and chaos for Hawkmoth to akumatize people.
Fu, knowing a hero needs to be found and that the Cat and Ladybug Miraculous are not ready to have holders again, he searches for a holder for the Bee Miraculous.
Spotting Chloe outside a local bakery, he watches her give her fresh purchase to a homeless man.
He doesn’t test her right away, as he has to be sure.
But on his way to leave without her noticing, he trips and falls, injuring his knee.
Chloe notices and insists on calling for help, respectfully shooting down his claims that he was fine enough to walk. (He wasn’t.)
And as he’s taken to the hospital, Pollen sneaks into Chloe’s bag.
Almost a year later, a full year after Emilie’s passing, Chloe is secretly Queen Bee.
She knows Fu is choosing two new holders, but she can’t know who.
She doesn’t say anything, but she secretly hopes it isn’t Adrien. He doesn’t deserve anything more to worry about; certainly not the safety of an entire city.
In this universe, Chloe is kind but isn’t afraid to sting. When Adrien arrives to class, the other students swarm him, overwhelming him with their shouting and excitement.
She sees her friend drowning and commands that everyone return to their seats and wait for class to begin.
Everyone obeys her, her regality hard to ignore.
And… Lila.
Ugh. Ok.
So this one goes hand in hand with Hawkmoth. Er, Gabriel. Both.
Anyway, Gabriel loses his wife. His son becomes a depressed and anxious mess desperately to keep his father alive so he picks up half the work load. Gabriel becomes desperate too; desperate for things to be as they were before.
But he needs turmoil and hatred for his butterflies to stir up chaos. So he hires Lila, a young, ambitious aspiring actress.
The twist? She blames Queen Bee and all and any other superheroes for everything and anything. Why? Who knows? Maybe she doesn’t even know. Like when you press on a bruise knowing it’ll hurt, only to do it again.
She bullies just to hurt; she loves just to hurt; she does her job and she does it well.
And that’s all I have for right now.
But here’s a snippet of this AU that I wrote:
Adrien woke up to his alarm blaring, one hand emerging out from under the covers to turn it off.
He sighed into his pillow, wanting desperately to sleep in. However, he knew that it was better to get up, as it was the closest he’d probably either get to the same routine as anyone else his age, all of them getting up to prepare for their school day.
But for Adrien, he was homeschooled by his father’s personal assistant Nathalie, kept on a tight schedule to ensure his safety.
His father refused to tell him why he was so protective, insisting that as his father, he knew what was best.
The only time he did leave their mansion was when his bodyguard and driver took him to photo shoots as a model for his father’s fashion company.
Despite his father’s insistence on the security and overprotection that’s turned Adrien’s house into his tomb, he refused to lose hope.
“Today will be the day,” he told his reflection.
Clean and dressed, he went downstairs for breakfast. He had hoped his father would be there, but he wasn’t surprised to see the only other chair in the dining room empty.
“Is my father still working,” he asked Nathalie.
“No, Adrien. I’m afraid most of your father’s time was kept by meetings about his upcoming collection. And by the time he returned home, he still needed to piece together his plans for the finishing touches on this weekend’s photoshoot. He didn’t get to retire for the night until after midnight, so he’s still asleep.”
“I understand. Will you make sure he doesn’t overwork himself today for me, please, Nathalie?”
“Yes, Adrien. I’ll do everything I can.”
He smiled at her. “Thank you. Is there anything I need to know about the photoshoot now or do we have some time before the weekend?”
She checked her calendar. “Hmm, well, it’s only Wednesday, so I see no reason as to why we can’t hold off until Friday. The magazine editor is superstitious. He’s requested that none of the models involved wear blue the day before or of the shoot.”
“Then I’ll have to be sure he’s comfortable enough to allow the shoot to proceed as planned. My father doesn’t need to worry about a reschedule or any other upsets. I’ll be taking advantage of social media to provide proof that the shoot’s main model is respectful of the editor’s concerns.”
She made a note on her tablet. “Very well. Would you like me to inform your father?”
“Only when he isn’t distracted, Nathalie. And it can definitely wait until after he’s eaten.”
Adrien finished his own breakfast before standing. “I’ll be preparing the music room for my piano lesson myself today. After that, I’ll arrange the sitting room for my Mandarin lessons. This is very important, Nathalie. Unless my father tells you otherwise or it’s entirely necessary, I need you to stay with him. I know he’s capable of taking care of himself, but we both know he neglects a lot of it when he gets as busy as he’s been.”
“Of course. I’ll tend to him however I can.”
“Have you mentioned to him what we discussed?”
“I have. And he isn’t entirely pleased with the idea of you having to worry about his responsibilities for him.”
He sighed. “I’m going to worry either way. At least with a little less off of his shoulders, we can all sleep easier.”
“I understand, Adrien. I really do. But you’re only 14. You should be attending school; spending time with other children-“
He hugged her, catching her off guard. “I appreciate your concern, Nathalie. But if this is how I’ll be spending my time, I’ll be spending it helping my father. I can’t lose him too.”
She hugged him back. “I know.”
“I miss her.”
She smiled at me. “She’s with you. She’s all around you, even though you can’t see her. She’s this very house. That’s why your father cherishes it, and why you must too.”
He took terrible comfort in that. “Thank you.”
-
About an hour after his Mandarin teacher left, his father called him into his study.
“Is everything okay, Father,” he asked calmly, despite his concern.
“Yes, of course, Adrien. Why would anything be the matter?”
He got closer to his father, who sat at his desk. “I know about last night. Are you trying to get sick?”
“Adrien-“
“-You’re always so concerned about me, but you never stop to think about yourself. Do you have any idea what that does to me? To always be worried about you? My father; my parent?”
“I know. And I’m truly sorry for concerning you.”
Adrien calmed himself down almost immediately. “No, I’m sorry for getting upset. I know you’re doing your best. Did Nathalie inform you that I’ve already worked out how to handle the editor?”
“Yes. And I’m proud of you; you show so much initiative. However, you’ve seem to forgotten your youth. I’ve been thinking that given your old friend Chloe will be attending the local high school, that you might attend as well.”
Adrien felt sick; he wanted this for so long but it couldn’t have come at a worse time.
“I’m needed here,” he said firmly.
“No, Adrien. You need to think of yourself. It will only be for 6 hours 3 days a week, as you won’t be attending a Physical Education class nor a study program during school hours. And given your current schedule that only be slightly adjusted despite Nathalie’s best efforts, the 3 days you’ll be attending will be in the middle of the week. Doesn’t that sound acceptable?”
He looked his father in the eyes. “And you’re sure you’ll be alright without here to take on the press or your portfolios? I’ll still be having my piano and Mandarin lessons so even on those two days that I’ll be here, I won’t have much time. Hmm, and we’ll have to reserve the weekends for photoshoots. Maybe Chloe’s mom can pull a few strings to let us stack shoots.”
“Adrien!” His father held his shoulders. “Do you hear yourself? You don’t have to worry about any of that. Nathalie has already rearranged your schedules. If you truly don’t want to attend school, you don’t have to. But you’ll have to attend some sort of consistent event with your peers.”
He made his father sit back down. “Of course I want to attend school. But not if it means neglecting my responsibilities.” He turned to Nathalie. “Show me the update agenda for the next three weeks.”
She didn’t exactly that.
“Very well,” he decided. “I’ll do it.”
-
Marinette woke up to her alarm having reset itself, her mother calling for her to wake up or she’ll be late.
Rushing down the stairs, she began to prepare her breakfast, distracted by her nerves.
In the process, she started a chain reaction in which everything started to knock over, catching things and setting them upright before anything could break or end up on the floor.
On her way out, her father showed her the box of macarons she intended to bring to her class, adorned with the design she drew as her parents’ bakery’s logo. She tripped over her own feet and knocked into him, the macarons having gone flying if she hadn’t caught them.
As she caught them, she spun around, walking backwards as she waved goodbye and out the door.
She knew herself as the most self sustaining klutz in the world, always tripping or falling but always catching herself or landing on her feet, like an unlucky cat.
While waiting to cross the street, she saw an old man walking into oncoming traffic. Whilst still holding the box of macarons, she darted across the street and dodged the moving cars, getting the man safely across.
“Thank you very much, young lady,” he said.
She smiled at him. “You’re welcome, sir. Are you alright?”
“Yes, thank you.”
She offered him a macaron, which he complimented.
She startled when she realized the time. “Oh! I have to go or I’ll be late! Excuse me, sir!” She bowed to him before running away, dodging another set of cars and jumping stairs and railings until she just barely made it to her seat on time.
She didn’t much time to catch her breath however before Chloe Bougeious approached her.
“I’m very sorry, Marinette, but I’m afraid you’ll have to sit somewhere else,” she said firmly.
Marinette sat up. “Really? Why?”
Chloe glanced at the door, unsure of herself for a second and a second only before that monarch like confidence came back. “A new student, a friend of mine, is starting today and while it’s not entirely my information to share, I will tell you that he’s my responsibility.”
She stood up. “Oh, I understand. But um, where am I supposed to…?”
Chloe hummed in thought, looking around for a fair and decent spot. Her friend Sabrina tapped her shoulder and pointed at the seat next to a girl none of them recognized. Chloe smiled. “How about her? She’s new too. And it’s right up front, even better than this one.”
Marinette thanked her and sat down next to the girl, who introduced herself as Alya.
“Nice to meet you. I’m Marinette.”
“Hello, Marinette. I am sorry if I sound strange. I am still learning French.”
Marinette understood. “American?”
Alya nodded.
“I can help you, if you want.”
She agreed and they worked on it together until the bell.
Watching them, Chloe smiled knowingly. She was distracted when the teacher told Nino, always wearing headphones, to sit up front instead this year.
Chloe watched him, wondering something while she listened to Sabrina talk about her new favorite book.
-
I had a panic attack this morning. I haven’t had a panic attack since I was little.
Why am I acting like this? I’ve wanted this for so long.
“Adrien?” Nathalie has been trying to get my attention.
“Yes, sorry, Nathalie. What is it?”
“We’re here.”
I stared out the window at the school.
“Thank you,” I said to my driver, who looked as worried as Nathalie.
She got out with me. “Adrien, are you sure you want to do this?”
I faced her. “I am. Why? Do you think I shouldn’t?”
“It’s not that.” She cleared her throat, looking uncomfortable.
I heard something behind me and turned to see an old man had fallen down.
“Are you alright,” I asked as I ran to help him up.
“Oh, yes. Just an old man uneasy on his feet.”
I glanced back at the car. “Would you like my driver to take you somewhere? We could call someone for you.”
He patted my hand. “Oh, no, that’s quite alright. I’ve just seemed to have lost my cane.”
I looked around for him and found it had slide a few feet away from him. I retrieved it. “Is this it, sir?”
“Yes! Thank you, young man.”
I watched him leave, still concerned for him.
I returned to Nathalie. “I’m sorry, Nathalie. You were saying?”
She smiled. “Just to wish you a good day at school.”
I smiled back, not fully convinced but not about to pressure her. “Thank you. I’ll see you later.”
Once they were gone, I took a few deep breaths before finally entering the school.
-
I had been up since about 4 when my alarm went off. I turned it off quickly, but Pollen was already stirred awake by the sound.
“Sorry, Pollen,” I said. She yawned.
“Good morning, my queen.”
“Are you ready for today? We have to meet Master Wu before school.”
“Why do you even have to go to school,” she complained.
I rolled my eyes but smiled at her. “Because it’s just what’s done. And besides, my childhood friend Adrien is attending school for the first time and his father is worried for his safety. So I’ve been asked to look after him.”
I placed Wu’s letter in my bag. “And in case you’ve forgotten, Pollen, the chosen ones for Plagg and Tikki attend the same school as me and Adrien. Wu will be giving you their names today so I can help you give them their Miraculous.”
She flew around me nervously. “What about Hawk Moth?”
I sat down to address her fears. “If he tries anything, I’ll use the situation to excuse myself to safety and we can transform. But only if the Ladybug and Cat holders need the help.” I picked up her gently but addressed her firmly. “Now, Pollen, it’s very important that you do not tell me the identities of the holders. It’s what’s best for everyone’s safety.”
“Yes, my queen,” she said, bowing.
I tickled her, causing her to let out of the respectful but stiff position.
Pollen had to hide behind me when my mother let herself in.
“I brought you today’s selections. It is vital that you wear the entire piece or it’ll be for nothing,” she fussed.
“Okay, Mom,” I said, examining to the two sets of outfits and accessories that would later be on sale for the rest of the world. In the meantime, I would be her walking mannequin.
I chose the jacket and pants option over the skirt and sweater, both in a mix of yellow, gold, white, and black, my mother’s signature color scheme.
Despite her coldness towards me, I still had a much better situation than Adrien. If I could, I had him live with me. At least he wouldn’t have to model and spend all of his time worrying about his father and the family name.
But he would never leave that house or his father; it’s all he has left of his late mother.
“Your father has a state dinner tonight so either be here on time properly dressed in my latest design or don’t return until after 9.”
“I’ll make sure to call if I’ll be home late,” I promised, pretending she was concerned about my curfew like a normal parent.
She smiled and gave me a chased kiss on the forehead before leaving.
Once she was gone, Pollen checked on me. “Are you okay, my queen?”
I smiled at her, even though I was exhausted by my mother’s antics. “Of course, Pollen. Let’s get going.”
-
When I opened the classroom door, for two seconds, I was normal. But then everyone turned and stared, recognizing me almost immediately.
Almost all of them swarmed me, talking over each other.
I tried to be polite but I couldn’t make out what any of them were saying. The panic started swirling in my throat again.
“That is enough. Everyone, back off immediately.” I watched Chloe, my oldest and only friend, order everyone back to their seats.
She approached me. “Are you okay, Adrien? Take a deep breath,” she whispered.
I did as she said and it helped me calm down.
“You were almost late,” she said causally. “The teacher is still on her morning break so we have a little time. But she’ll be back shortly. You should sit down.”
“Where should I go?”
She gestured to the empty seat next to a boy with headphones on. “I’ll be in the seat directly behind you. If you need any help and you don’t feel comfortable asking Nino there, you can always come to me.”
All of our lives. “Thank you, Chloe. I really appreciate everything you’re doing for me.”
She nodded. “Anytime.”
As soon as I was sitting, Nino introduced himself.
“Hi,” I said back, still a little nervous. “I’m Adrien.”
I expected him to tell me that he already knew who I was. “Nice to meet you, Adrien.”
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joannerowling · 5 months
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On the issue with James, I do think this is one area where the books aren’t ageless and have to be read in the context of an English school in the 70s written by an author in the 90s. Because by today’s standards, James is less of your garden variety ‘boys will be boys’ type bully and more of an actual sociopath well past the age of criminal responsibility who by 16 had committed one public sexual assault and was an accessory to attempted murder who backed out last second. But I don’t think that’s at all what Jo meant to convey.
Let me guess. Snape fan? :P
Look, my issue with this discourse has always been that only James seems to get so much flack for his most morally ambiguous actions. I mean, Hermione disfigured a girl her age with zits spelling "sneak" because she'd given the DA members out to Umbridge. Harry nearly gored Malfoy to death by using an unknown spell he knew was meant "for enemies". Yet, i've never seen anyone hating on James that would go as hard against these other characters.
On your first point: James wasn't an accessory to attempted murder who backed out last second. Sirius was the one who tricked Snape and nearly got him killed (which would have made Lupin an accessory to murder). James acted to stop it as soon as he realised what Sirius had done. His reasons for doing so remain obscure - Snape thinks he wanted to save his own skin because he would have been blamed alongside Sirius, but that's Snape's interpretation, not exactly the most unbiased source.
Next: i ressent people misusing the term "sexual assault" to describe what James does in Snape's worst memory (a take that, btw, i've only seen upheld as if it were common knowledge by Americans, or very "Americanised" fans). The definition of sexual assault is "unwanted sexual contact", and in the UK especially it pretty much means "rape without penetration". I do think Jo meant for it to be taken seriously (its parallel with the Muggles's treatment by Death Eaters in GoF is clear), only people didn't really at the time. Still. James humiliated Snape, i'd say what he did qualifies as sexual harrassment, and he's rightfully painted as the bad guy in that episode, but he didn't sexually assault Snape.
Also, because we only have that one scene to work with, everyone seems to forget the larger context, namely: Snape created that spell. Judging by the way Death Eaters were still using it 15+ years later, i imagine James wasn't the first nor the last in his generation to use it against another student. I always saw it as a bit analogous to those dangerous/humiliating games that suddenly become trendy with high schoolers until someone gets hurt enough for adults to intervene. I'm comforted in that interpretation by the fact that Snape implies James didn't even know HE was the one to invent the spell, suggesting it started as a thing Snape showed to other Slytherins to gain some social cred, which then spread to the whole school.
Anyways, if that makes James a sociopath, then Hogwarts must have been chock-full of them in the 70s, starting with Snape himself. Maybe the point isn't that Snape or James (or Sirius) are sociopaths, but that imminent war tends to turn people more prone to violence and less likely to abide by moral principles, or consider their designated enemies's humanity. I have no doubt that James morally justified himself and his actions by the fact that Snape belonged to the "bad crowd" of Voldemort's future recruits. Even though we readers know enough about Snape to be able to tell that he was never seriously convinced by Pure Blood superiority.
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nerves-nebula · 1 year
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oo I was wondering if maybe the brothers in your AU would have different levels of food anxiety? Honestly I was thinking mostly Raph, considering he's the oldest, largest (at least body weight wise it seems?) and probably expends the most energy taking care of his brothers and doing most of the chores when he was younger.
Probably especially bad that Leo could bully food from any one else and get away with it, and sounds like he might've picked on Raph most in that regard, or if Leo took Donnie or Mikey's food Raph was more willing to split or even give his portions away.
That's assuming Splinter even fed them, which considering the "timeout corner" they might have had to forage for food more than once.
Because like I was thinking about the dynamic between Raph and Casey and how Raph's food anxiety could be what helped drive him to make sure Casey had at least some food (he knows how much it sucks and doesn't want someone else to be stuck like that) and how Casey could have a big impact on Raph if he helped Raph to have a more stable source of food/ate enough.
<- also kinda related thoughts. Raph might be smaller in your version because he didn't get all the nutrition he needed growing up so his height/size is stunted? Also maybe why Leo is the tallest (favourite child privileges?). Hunger might have also helped drive Raph to try running away?
<- I could definitely see Mikey and/or Donnie having food anxiety too, with either food hoarding or getting aggressive when they think someone will steal their food? Or fast eating.
<- Basically I am ROTATING THEM IN MY HEAD!!
OHHHH this is an ask i have so much personal investment in because here’s a Not Super Secret fact about me, I’ve got Avoidant restrictive food intake disorder! And (partially because of that) I starved a lot as a kid! BASICALLY me and all my siblings have weird relationships to food so I am FULLY committed to making these guys relationships with food weird as well.
Splinter DOES feed them, in that there is FOOD in the HOUSE which is EDIBLE. He doesn’t really cook for them, though. Raph’s been cooking for them since he was old enough to take on that job, though he mostly made easy stuff at first like sandwiches/soup/noodles/uncooked vegetables.
So lets go through each turtle and look at how things turned out, why dont we?
Leo: Leo has the least food issues of them all. To him, it’s more like a status thing. If he wants something, he’ll take it. It doesn’t matter if there’s only enough soup for them to each have one bowl, he’ll have two if he feels like it. He does it because he knows he can get away with it, and because it’s been normalized. It doesn’t feel like a huge issue/violation to him.
Mikey: Mikey binges/eats food as fast as possible. He doesn’t wanna give anyone the chance to take it from him. He’s the least discerning and will eat stuff even if it’s kind of rotten/stale. He doesn’t have the self restraint to hoard food, he’d just eat it all immediately. Mikey gets reasonably aggressive about his food, but wouldn’t actually hurt his brothers (except maybe Leo) to get it back. then again his brothers (except leo) typically wouldn't take it from him anyway.
Donnie: Donnie has a ton of texture issues and because of that he’s a picky eater, he’s starved the most second only to Raph, because even when there IS food he can’t always get himself to eat it. he’s more used to the pain of starvation than the disgust of eating something with a Bad Texture
(shoutout to MYSELF. I was really out here dying as a 12 year old, huh? Fully eating 1 sandwich a day and crying about it cause the bread felt gross and dry in my mouth.)
Donnie is prone to hoarding food, but keeps it hidden in various places because if Leo thought Donnie had more food than him, he’d try to steal it. So Donnie keeps his stashes secret, but will share food if he thinks the others REALLY need it. Because Donnie can only eat specific kinds of food, he’s very aggressive about protecting his food from others. But he can’t beat Leo in a fight, so he usually resorts to hiding the food.
Donnie has slight cannibalistic urges because of all that (and cause he’s a softshell lol), but it’s not a huge issue and he’d never act on them cause the idea/texture of eating another PERSON is repulsive. He’ll often just chew on something (even himself) to tide himself over. 
Raph: poor, beautiful Raph. Raphael, my darling boy. SO FIRST OF ALL Raph starved the most. If Leo took more than his fair share, Raph would split his portion for his little brothers, because to him taking care of them is his whole reason for being alive.
he has cannibalistic urges too, cause he starves the most (and cause he's a snapping turtle). and that makes him feel like a terrible person. Donnie and Mikey get these urges too, but they never starved quite as bad as Raph did because he’d always split his food with them.
I like the idea that Raph is stunted because of nutritional issues, so yknow what? I'm adopting that. it's canon now.
as for Raph and Casey,,, I think they would definitely share food. In fact, I think Raph would leave Casey food/snacks as gifts when he was trying to befriend him. Casey eventually bringing along food from above ground would be a GAME CHANGER for the turtles, too.
one correction: Donnie is actually the tallest! He just slouches a lot (and I've mostly drawn them as kids, before his growth spurt)
Man, sidenote, but writing this really got me thinking about my childhood more. If we didn't get enough to eat, mom would get mad at us like “why didn’t you eat??” IDK I’m 11 and you’ve been gone all day!! She’d check in with the older kids and ask them (and eventually me, cause at a certain point I was the oldest one home) if the other kids had eaten. And sometimes i’d say i did just to get her off my back. God what a shithole. Anyway, this was a fun ask hah.
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littledarlingone · 10 months
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Steddie and Byler are so closely tied in my mind.
Somebody plz tell me if I’m completely late to the party here but like…
As much as Mike hates the guy, him and Steve are fundamentally the same. Of course, Mike is much nerdier and prone to bullying than Steve ever was, but at their core, they’re both just rich kids who don’t know how to be their own person. They’re both following in their parents footsteps—the polos, the button ups, the khakis…the American dream with a house and kids—and a girl. A nice girl.
And honestly Mike’s distain for Steve is even more compelling to me. Mike sees himself in Steve and he hates it.
Will and Eddie are of course different too, as far as mannerisms and interests go. BUT they share the same core character archetype—the freak. Not to mention the creative streak and the DND and the queer coding (or in Wills case, just blatant queerness.)
I also feel it’s important to point out just how similar Will and Eddie’s disappearances actually are, and the way the public talks about them when they’re gone. Think about it.
So. They’re alike, so what?
Well, let’s break down what happened in S4.
Mike reunites with El and Will in Lenora, and tries to patch things up with El, but ends up spending all of his time with Will and reconciling their relationship instead.
And all the while? El is spending her time in the memories of the lab with 001.
THEN. ALLLLL the way back in Hawkins, Steve is unraveling Vecna’s curse with Nancy and Eddie, and shows signs of wanting Nancy back (which is completely out of the blue, right? How weird!) Except he ends up spending alllll of his time!!!! With!!! Eddie!!! TALKING about Nancy!! The SAME way that Mike and Will are talking about El! And it serves to reconcile each of their misconceptions of who the other was in high school, under a safety blanket of heteronormativity. It’s a direct parallel to the van scene!
(And don’t even get me started on the failures to say I love you in both Mileven and Stancy!!)
Also what else do we remember happening in Hawkins? Nancy being pulled by Henry (001) into the memories of the lab…where Eleven has been the entire season. El and Nancy are the only two people to walk in Vecna’s mindscape without being under his curse…and why? Why connect them? And not just now.
Why dress El up in Nancy’s old clothes?
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Why make them both the girl that no one believes?
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They are inherently tied (and tied with Joyce, but I seriously can’t get into that too this is getting so long) the way that Steve and Mike are, and Eddie and Will. It’s the love triangles, not just Steddie and Byler.
So now we’ve come to the last bit of this ramble, which is Eddie’s death.
There’s a lot of anxiety and controversy about what will happen between El, Mike and Will in S5, but we’ve already seen what is (supposedly) the older trios end—Eddie dies, and it ends because it cannot continue. There is no closure.
Wouldn’t it follow, then, that Will would die?
It’s scary, right? Eddie, much as we love him, was a fast-tracked version of what we have with Will. He was only a fraction and we got that upset. Imagine what losing Will would be like!
But here’s what I think. I think that Eddie dying—whether he remains dead or not—served as almost an extreme hypothetical. An ‘if your friends jumped off a cliff, would you do it too?’ Because Eddie jumped. Eddie chose his friends over himself. Eddie saw himself as a selfish coward, and decided that the only thing he was good for was helping others along. And it killed him.
And Will? He gave all of his love and work over to make El happy. Because he sees himself as a selfish coward, and decided that the only thing he’s good for is helping others along. Will jumped.
So yeah, Will could die. The self-sacrificing tendencies are there.
Except. Mike jumped off the cliff, too. Literally.
So. When two people are willing to die for each other, is it a weakness or a strength?
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I think it's noteworthy how Sn*ly is all about Sn*p* changing for/because of Lily and how a lot of Jily fans don't like the idea of James changing only for/because of Lily. [I just saw your post talking about James and Lily in sixth year]
Hello! This is something I've thought about a lot.
As I said in the post (here it is), there is a substantial difference between changing for yourself and changing for someone else.
Now, there's nothing wrong with someone inspiring you to change for the better: people can and should be a positive influence on you, especially the ones closest to you. This is not Snape's case in my opinion. Lily tried to stop him from pursuing the dark arts, she showed there was an alternative, but he refused to listen. When she made the choice to cut him out of her life, he didn't accept it and kept harassing her. When he found out Voldemort wanted to kill the Potters, he asked him to spare Lily, and only Lily.
Did he behave differently after she died? You'd think he'd learn a thing or two from the love of his life, like compassion and kindness. Like being good without an ulterior motive. But no, he heavily bullied kids - and not just any kids, we're talking about his students - and was incredibly biased towards Harry because he was his enemy's son. He criticised James' bullying but he did the same thing even as an adult. Sounds a bit hypocritical to me.
It can be argued that Snape was just pretending to be horrible because he couldn't let his cover be blown. And it can also be argued that he grew fond of Harry but never showed it. Let's assume all of this is true... Am I right in thinking that being so hideous came way too easily to him? And what's more important, are we sure he didn't want Voldemort dead purely because he had killed Lily? After all, we have plenty of evidence that he's extremely prone to holding grudges. It makes sense that he'd want to get revenge against the man who didn't spare Lily's life.
We do not know if he had other reasons, but even the memories that Harry sees in the pensieve reinforce my theory. I'll play devil's advocate and not take into account the things he said or did as a Hogwarts student because many people think that he was just being an immature teenager. So let's see what we have:
“If she means so much to you,” said Dumbledore, “surely Lord Voldemort will spare her? Could you not ask for mercy for the mother, in exchange for the son?” “I have—I have asked him—” “You disgust me,” said Dumbledore, and Harry had never heard so much contempt in his voice. Snape seemed to shrink a little, “You do not care, then, about the deaths of her husband and child? They can die, as long as you have what you want?” Snape said nothing, but merely looked up at Dumbledore.
And then:
“The Dark Lord will return, and Harry Potter will be in terrible danger when he does.” There was a long pause, and slowly Snape regained control of himself, mastered his own breathing. At last he said, “Very well. Very well. But never—never tell, Dumbledore! This must be between us! Swear it! I cannot bear... especially Potter’s son... I want your word!”
But this is when the pain is still fresh, right? Maybe he wasn't thinking clearly. Let's see another passage, ten years later, during Harry's first year, where Snape is 31:
“—mediocre, arrogant as his father, a determined rulebreaker, delighted to find himself famous, attention-seeking and impertinent—”
This is how Snape describes Harry to Dumbledore, the one person he didn't need to lie to, the only person who knew he was a double agent. But then again, this is just at the beginning, he didn't know Harry that well. Maybe he'll change his mind in the future? Let's take a look at the scene where Dumbledore asks him to kill him:
“If you don’t mind dying,” said Snape roughly, “why not let Draco do it?” “That boy’s soul is not yet so damaged,” said Dumbledore. “I would not have it ripped apart on my account.” “And my soul, Dumbledore? Mine?”
Sounds like he doesn't want to be the cause of yet another person's death. Understandable. Snape isn't being selfish at all, no. He's worried about his poor soul, who cares about the soul of 16 year old Draco, am I right? Maybe this next passage will redeem him:
“Why? You aren’t trying to give him more detentions, Severus? The boy will soon have spent more time in detention than out.” “He is his father over again—” “In looks, perhaps, but his deepest nature is much more like his mother’s. I spend time with Harry because I have things to discuss with him, information I must give him before it is too late.” “Information,” repeated Snape. “You trust him... you do not trust me.” “It is not a question of trust. I have, as we both know, limited time. It is essential that I give the boy enough information for him to do what he needs to do.” “And why may I not have the same information?” “I prefer not to put all of my secrets in one basket, particularly not a basket that spends so much time dangling on the arm of Lord Voldemort.” “Which I do on your orders!” “And you do it extremely well. Do not think that I underestimate the constant danger in which you place yourself, Severus. To give Voldemort what appears to be valuable information while withholding the essentials is a job I would entrust to nobody but you.” “Yet you confide much more in a boy who is incapable of Occlumency, whose magic is mediocre, and who has a direct connection into the Dark Lord’s mind!” [...] “You refuse to tell me everything, yet you expect that small service of me!” snarled Snape, and real anger flared in the thin face now. “You take a great deal for granted, Dumbledore! Perhaps I have changed my mind!”
Let's see... He's comparing Harry to James again, calls him mediocre and he's jealous because Dumbledore trusts Harry more than Snape. Oh, and he threatens to turn to the dark side if he doesn't get what he wants. This is a 37 year old man. Perhaps he's just upset because Dumbledore is dying? Yeah, that's it. Let's give him another chance:
Another long silence. Then Snape said, “I thought... all those years... that we were protecting him for her. For Lily.”
[...] “You have used me.” “Meaning?” “I have spied for you and lied for you, put myself in mortal danger for you. Everything was supposed to be to keep Lily Potter’s son safe. Now you tell me you have been raising him like a pig for slaughter—” “But this is touching, Severus,” said Dumbledore seriously. “Have you grown to care for the boy, after all?” “For him?” shouted Snape. “Expecto Patronum!” From the tip of his wand burst the silver doe. She landed on the office floor, bounded once across the office, and soared out of the window. Dumbledore watched her fly away, and as her silvery glow faded he turned back to Snape, and his eyes were full of tears. “After all this time?” “Always,” said Snape.
I don't know, maybe they should protect Harry simply because he's a kid and he doesn't deserve to die? Isn't that enough? He doesn't have to be Lily's son to be worthy of staying alive. And when Dumbledore insinuates that he cares about Harry, Snape makes it clear that no, it's not for him, and after all these years... It's still for Lily. Because he's asking for her forgiveness. Noble, right? It's not as if you should do good things because it's the right thing to do.
Snape took the page bearing Lily’s signature, and her love, and tucked it inside his robes. Then he ripped in two the photograph he was also holding, so that he kept the part from which Lily laughed, throwing the portion showing James and Harry back onto the floor, under the chest of drawers...
Oh look! He's stealing a letter that wasn't addressed to him! And he's stealing the photograph as well! Well, not all of it, why would he care about James and Harry? Totally normal and justified behaviour from a man who's nearing his forties. Not possessive at all. He definitely deserves to keep that photograph of Lily more than Harry does.
... Sarcasm aside, Snape didn't change his ways. He didn't change his morals.
(Also, in the book Snape never says 'You have your mother's eyes', which, along with Alan Rickman's wonderful perfomance, greatly contributed to Snape being considered a good man. He does ask Harry to look at him, though, implying he wanted to see Lily's eyes one last time. Which makes me think that even up until the end he only saw Harry as an extension of Lily, and not as his own person.)
Unfortunately we don't have nearly enough information about James, but we do know that he saved Snape when he went after Remus to the Shrieking Shack when they were in school, while Snape was perfectly happy to let Lily's husband and son die if it meant she could live. James wasn't a saint when he was younger, and Lily reminded him all the time how much she despised his behaviour. But as I said in the other post, the incident at the lake was eye-opening for both Lily and James. It's clear that he hadn't realised that his actions could have hurt her prior to that. He was a sheltered and ignorant kid, but we know from canon that he grew up. He became responsible enough to be appointed Head Boy without any previous experience as a prefect, and then he joined the Order. Sounds to me like he proved he could grow. Personally I think that Lily wouldn't have let James into her life if she didn't truly think he had changed. Saying that she was brainwashed into marrying James is an insult to her intelligence. It's as if she has no will of her own, no choice, no autonomy. Which is simply no true. This is the same woman who refused to join Voldemort after being offered to, who refused to step aside when Voldemort arrived at Godric's Hollow.
Snape's love - if you want to call it that - for Lily is conditional; James' love for her is selfless. He could have lived a long life but chose to fight and die for the cause. And he made this choice long before they were together, by befriending people like Sirius (a traitor), Remus (a monster) and Peter (an outcast). And after Snape stops poisoning Lily's mind - insulting and judging James and his friends - Lily is free. When he is removed from the equation, Lily is allowed to grow.
In conclusion: Snape did not change and become a better person, and even if he did, it was for selfish reasons.
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