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adayinthelifeoferick-blog ยท 7 years
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An unexpected turn of events
Last year, I met a girl who completely took my breath away. In this, I'll call her Belle. In a cheesy setting, we both worked at McDonald's, usually working together on the weekdays. We didn't really start talking until a few months later, where something funny happened. For some odd reason, a bunch of my co-workers were claiming each other as best friends. One of them claimed Belle as their best friend. I don't know what inside of me caused me to say it, but I stood up and claimed her as my best friend. With no arguing, Belle agreed that we were. It made me so happy to think that even though we barely talked, I had a friend at my workplace. From there on, we continued to talk. At one point, after we were done working, we sat down at a booth, me waiting with her for her to get picked up (at this point I could already drive myself to and from work). The only time I really talked to Belle was when we worked together. Out of the blue, she decided to give me her number, but none of us had a scrap piece of paper. She gave me her number on a small piece of a McDonald's bag that she ripped off. Ever since then, I kept that small piece of paper in my wallet, looking at it every now and then and giving me flashbacks of good memories. In my town, there's a carnival that always comes by in May in celebration of Cinco de Mayo. We have three big parades that happen, full with elephant ears, deep fried Oreos, and so many more fun things. May always was my favorite month of the year (besides the fact that my birthday is in May). It was one day after we went to the fair that we decided to go back to my house. Two things to keep in mind: 1). My parents were out of town and 2). I didn't really know what to do. We ended up watching a scary movie, something about aliens abducting a family. At that time, I didn't know much about her (I still don't, but god do I wish I do), but she was already in another relationship, albeit that it was going to end soon because it was a rough one. But we were already sitting really close to each other. It was just me, her, and the movie. But the only thing that I could focus on was her. From the first moment we called each other best friends, I felt something special between us. As if we were meant to be; destiny brought us together. I had fallen hard for Belle, and I absolutely loved her with all that I am. But here I am, the sight of her made me nervous but she also made me feel as if anything was possible if we were together. I slowly reached for her hand, and as soon as I got it, she made things awkward by saying, "What are you doing?" I had no idea, and that's exactly what I told her. But we didn't pull away our hands. I continued to play with her hand, and she seemed to enjoy it. Nothing else really happened after that, and I took her home. But I knew that this was the beginning of something to come. Sure enough, maybe about 5 days later, we talked about "us". We both confessed our love, and on May 25th of 2016, we became a couple. I was the happiest man in the whole entire world, and I didn't care what the world threw at me because I was with the woman that I loved. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to take her to Prom because it was coming very soon, but that didn't stop me from seeing her. The day of Prom, I was getting ready in my white button up shirt. Probably the day before, she asked if I wanted to come over because she was having a bonfire with some of her friends. I said sure, so I went over with my little get up. I looked so stupid, but it made her laugh a little. It was well worth it, because seeing her smile was worth everything to me. Fast forward a few months later, and here comes college. I made my decision to go to a college that was 10 hours away from where I lived, while she stayed home going to a near by college. This posed a problem for us, because we knew long distance relationships are hard to keep. But I had faith in the both of us that we could overcome anything. And so we went on with it. The first semester went by fine, and every break that I got I spent with her. I wouldn't take back any time that I ever spent with her back, because we had amazing moments together that I'll never forget. I thought, "You know what, if I can get by this first semester, then I can definitely make it through the second one." I already made plans on going back to where I lived and going to the same near by college because long distance wasn't a good idea (that and I didn't like the way things were being taught at my college). The first few weeks back were fine. I loved being able to Skype with her and see her beauty even if we were so far away from each other. Then one day, which I remember was a Thursday, she almost completely stopped talking to me. We basically didn't Skype, she barely talked to me, and when she did it was a set of few things which were either "Good morning", "I love you", and "Good night". Of course, I talked to her about it, and she said that it was the long distance getting to her. I said it was fine, but that I wanted to improve things between us and make it like we used to be. But... It never really happened. Here approaches spring break, and we're both excited. I have been waiting for this moment for a long time, and goddamn it I'm gonna spend it all with the girl I love. The first few day were all right. We talked, cuddled, and fell asleep. The next day, some odd things happened. We didn't really talk. We sat there awkwardly, not even being intimate. We literally sat away from each other. I knew something was wrong the whole time, it was whether or not she was going to tell me. Then, she broke down. She told me all about how problems with her parents, her work, and many other things were affecting her. She also told me something that broke my heart, and should of made me realize what was going to happen later: she said, and I quote, "my best friend is leaving and I don't know if he's coming back". But that best friend, it wasn't me. It was someone from where we worked. If pained me inside, but I didn't show it. She told me she didn't want me to feel sorry for her or pity her, and that she didn't want to cuddle me or have any contact with me. Not knowing what to do, I sat there, both of us quiet, for god knows how long. It felt like hours went by before she asked me to leave because she wanted to be alone. And so I left. Then came Wednesday. The middle of the week, so close to Friday. I usually like Wednesdays, but this one had something else in mind for me. I woke up with a mindset of trying to make things better. I thought to myself, "Today, I'm gonna make it a good day no matter what. I'm gonna take my girlfriend to Biggby, and we're gonna watch a movie afterward." I took her to Biggby and we also went to Kohl's, but never got to the movie. The reason for this is because I had a meeting to go to at 3. But ever since we got back from Kohl's, we just sat there. I tried talking to her a few times and got very simplistic answers back, and I also tried massaging her back, just trying to be intimate. But nothing. I had to get going, so I told her that after I got back we could watch a movie. As I was leaving her room, she did something that rarely ever happened between us. We always call each other babe, but this time, she called me by my name. I was scared shitless because I knew exactly what was going to happen. She told me, "I think we should breakup. It's not you, it's me. I'm not ready for a relationship anymore" What the hell was I going to do? I wasn't going to make her be in a one sided relationship, so I had no choice. I took a few of my clothes that I could see, and went upstairs. I went to her grandma, and completely fell apart. I never cried as much as I did on that day. I cried in front of her grandma, I cried in the car right outside of her house, and I accidentally cried in front of my parents while telling them about it. Ever since then, I can't stop thinking about her. Everything happened so fast because I had to go somewhere, but we should have talked about it more. I wanted to spend my entire life with this girl, and now we're not together. I am planning to talk to her about it, but until then, all I can do is think.
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