#have u ever had that temptation or am I just a lesbian

[stilitana]

i was tagged by @scarlok (thanks for making me examine my reading priorities i. have a problem with that): 10 books I plan on reading this year

Subcortical by Lee Conell...This got recommended to me by a prof and the stories sound bonkers so I think it’ll make for great fun reading between longer things.

Our Lady of the Flowers...I nearly finished this but it’s been so long I’ll probably just start over...or just read the thief’s journal again, it’s been long enough to warrant revisiting, see how different things look

The Brothers Karamazov...I started this three years ago and it just didn’t deserve to be read with limited attention so i kept putting off finishing it but i just have to make the time...will not be starting over though lmao...will resist the temptation to just read Demons again instead

Moscow to the End of the Line...I’ll read this or the sequel to life and extraordinary adventures of ivan chonkin if i can find it in english...it will bring me back to happy times :,)

Stone Butch Blues...it’s about time and i have to start somewhere

The Once and Future King...this is the favorite book of my favorite person ever (high school librarian who let me and my gf cut class and loiter at her desk) so this one’s for u miss e

The Swan Book by Alexis Wright...i’ve been wanting to read this for a really long time and i had a hard time with it the first time i tried but now i’m ready

station eleven...this got a lot of press when it first came out and i was like eh whatever but lately i’ve been hearing a resurgence of recommendations so mayhaps. im intrigued by the dual utopia/dystopia i hear is going on.

here we are in paradise...i really like tony earley so far, he’s a lot of what i used to like in other authors without the things that ruined them for me. idk i’m kind of sick of all this macho man southern literature i have a huge backlog of to read thru but at the same time like i do enjoy it but i feel like the things i enjoy in it could be articulated differently by someone else without the parts that are repulsive or limited or designed to keep me out. where can i find the joy i get from his campy wrestling story and all the fishing stories and the silly put-on masculinity without the toxicity. blah

ceremony by leslie marmon selko...another recommendation

this was actually really hard to do because rn i am fighting a strong urge to go back to familiar stories that i love. all i want is to reread o’connor and red cavalry and barthelme and even...eugh...padgett powelll...chuck palahniuk...douglas adams...my really ratty paperbacks that used to go with me everywhere on the bus everyday and on long trips...the stuff that used to feel so fresh and exciting that is now sort of stale but welcoming rn...hrm.

feel free to do this and say i tagged u, i’d like to see your lists:) and i would love recommendations if anyone has any!! i would really like to read some more wlw lit...like lesbian and gender stuff...i just don’t know where to start and I’ve always had a really hard time finding good books to read about this...part of that is the erm hot flash of shame and fear I get when I seek it out but like time to get over that...and if it doesn’t feel right then it’s like. very painful to read. also wacky fiction and fun sci fi. i need to read the third becky chambers still. yup

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[crockettmarcel]

Call the Midwife Thoughts 9x02

Vi!!!! he’s just touched it don’t make him put it back!!!!

Lucille having the only brain cell

Also I love how much time she spends in Val’s room... she loves her girlfriend

is someone stealing their milk I-

oh that woman is Yellow. her poor liver

Fred standing by the memorial omg

damn someone please give Trixie a cigarette

BABE YOUR LIVER

I am: in love with Val

she left the child??

“you’ve grown a whole half an inch” damn no one ever says that to me #5footlife 🤘🏼😔

“he’s my third favourite beatle”

I like to think that Phyllis has that face because she’s jealous that she’s not the one going on the date w Miss Higgins

Val has such nice eyes!!!!

HES HAVING A HEART ATTACK

“put the kettle on” okay Val we get it you’re English :)

wow! two girlfriends going to visit the man that neither of them love because they’re actually in love with each other

damn this is really messed up

Val’s dressed like a TfL seat and I’m living for it

there’s no way that woman’s as young as 58 omg

“I remember that mascara” oh dang my mum’s Old old

everyone’s struggling with lent omg

“I think those who struggle with temptation are far more interesting” okay then trixie

can dr turner not see how yellow she is

I know I say this every episode but Val is just so kind and sweet and I love her

MISS HIGGINS’S NAME IS MILLICENT I-

“the whites of her eyes have gone yellow” yeah and the rest of her face has been yellow since the beginning of the episode does no one else have eyes

pretty sure this girl’s a pathological liar...

Trixie’s hair!!! her whole outfit!!!

Val in that stripy sweater!!!!

bitches be lesbians (I’m bitches)

fruitcake sucks but I must say that sneaking down for cake in the middle of the night is a mood

this feels like an episode of house with Laverne’s mum

his prognosis was far from encouraging?? :((

they can’t kill sergeant woolf :(

he knows what it is!!

THOSE ARE THE MILK THIEF’S KIDS OMG

blood letting?? let’s get some leeches in this bitch

gonorrhea???

damn I wish I had a relationship like that with my mum

Tina reminds me of a girl who used to bully me in school

Sister Frances is baby

Kew or Richmond??? damn that’s near me

I think they should go for a romantic walk in Kew Gardens

yes I’m choosing to ignore the fact that he’s very sick

AH! so he’s breaking up with Miss Higgins and she’s going to be heartbroken and go crying to Phyllis and then they fall in love :)

MISS HIGGINS :(((

why does every husband on call the midwife look exactly the same. I swear Laverne’s mans has been in like 100 episodes

Miss Higgins’ flowers have bloomed :)

PHYLLIS ASKED HER TO GO OUT W HER!!!!!

“I was expecting a cafe... or a tearoom” my mum said the same

the lesbian undertones here *chefs kiss*

goddamn it Tina

how has it taken this long for anyone to notice she’s gone

oh she left out the back

ectopic pregnancy!! I don’t think we’ve had one of those on here before

u know what,, good for Tina for doing what’s best for her kids

sister mj: when I was a novice...

my dad: I think that was when Jesus had just gone back to heaven

I like Trixie’s belt

also!!! sister julienne’s growth!!! bc I remember back when the contraceptive pill was first introduced and she was super against it,, and now she recognises its use and I think that’s good of her

Vi got a card from Reggie!!

Patrick burnt the toast,, nice job pal

it’s the thought that counts I guess

Nurse Crane and Miss Higgins are on a first name basis!!! next episode they’ll be married :)

#call the midwife #call the midwife thoughts #ctm #call the midwife spoilers #season 9