so i might have to finally go to my RA abt my roommate and it makes me feel like such a bitch but like. is it really worse than wanting to throw smth at her
like it’s gotten to the point where i have to wear earbuds to bed because she talks so loud. keep in mind this isn’t even who i share am actual room with, and i can hear her. i’m at my breaking point
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i know it's just how some people are and comes down to personality but god i fucking hate delicate girls. and i don't mean physically weak girls or whatever i mean girls that haven't raised their voice a day in their life and avoid walking on the grass like the plague. and there's nothing inherently wrong with being like that but it infuriates me so much like where's the LIFE in you. and why do you get to be the perfect societal standard for womanhood?? meanwhile i'm over here shoveling dirt into my mouth and sounding like a possessed demon when i get mad at my mom and you're making me look bad!!!
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Fear drove me outside myself
arcing fountains and clotting rivulets.
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Hopelessness caking to the denim of my favorite jeans
the conviction that I will never become, caked to the side of the tub in blackened flakes.
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The thing I couldn't say in front of them
The thing I can barely say in front of anyone.
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You stood in the dark and it pooled around you like water
Stretched and it rippled like a thousand stones falling into a pool
we share the same pool.
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Can some water be wetter than others?
Your surface tension tighter than mine
your hydrogen bonds more electronegative
I could only be solute in your solution.
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I said that I'm behind the curve
you said we are the curve
the water felt a little warmer then
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all right so for anyone who's been following the drama of my coworker who left me alone at a site while I was crying, it's been (mostly?) resolved
we had a nice long conversation with a neutral mediator present and have worked out a lot of things. enough that we'll be able to work together better, esp now that I know she has been avoiding me training her, and more importantly, know why she's been avoiding it so that I can fix what I was doing.
I have to turn the other cheek and take the high road, bc my coworker 100% thinks I'm some spoiled little brat whose anxiety isn't as valid as hers.
I'm a professional, and I'll keep things polite and amicable and make nice and everything, and she seems willing to do the same so. fingers crossed.
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so frustrated because i want to spend christmas with my roommate and his family has again invited me to join them and they'll pay for my flight and everything which i'm incredibly grateful to them!!! but his sister is insisting i come later than everyone else because she doesn't understand why he would invite "just a friend" and "it would be different if you were dating" girl expand your definition of family, it's more than just blood relations and romantic partners!!!
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Venting again lol
How can "I don't think I'm more disabled than you," "I can't handle supporting you when you express symptoms of your disabilities," and "I can't handle you getting a service dog when I'm so disabled that I can't get a job" all be true? Throw in the fact that I didn't think that I could handle a job but had to for the sake of finances.
So I work, despite being so fucking exhausted by it and getting so fucking triggered every single shift I work. But I can't fucking say that! Because that's upsetting and destabilizing! You want me to be honest, but if you react like this to my honesty, how am I supposed to be honest??
I mentioned needing a service dog because I'm thinking about the fact that I'm struggling with my mental health and functioning but can't tell you that and I know that there are guarding and grounding tasks that a service dog can do that will help me do my job. And you know what! I need to get a second job because I give you the majority of my income and you still need more! You haven't asked me to get a second job but jesus christ you've done everything but.
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