#have a great day sweetpea!!!! please be safe out there <33

[inkykeiji]

i love your writing and i’m happy you’re here providing quality content thank you so much please have a good day or night wherever you are !!

oh my gosh please this is such a beautiful little message!!!! this brought such a bright smile to my face anon you don’t even know, thank YOU so much for being here and supporting me, and for sending me such kind and sweet words, i appreciate them so very much <333 i can’t even begin to tell you how happy i am to have YOU here, my friend <3 thank you again!!!! i hope you are as well bb ehehe <3

#YOURE SO SWEET I LOVE U SO MUCH I COULD CRYYYY #sorry it took me a few days to get to this!!!! answering asks has been exceptionally slow this week as i finish bmb <333 #but i appreciate this so so so much #so much #words can’t even tell you <3 #i hope your week has been going wonderful so far and that you have a great day tomorrow <33 #please take good care of yourself and stay safe out there sweetpea <333 #sweet anon 🥺 #clari gets mail

[inkykeiji]

Hiya Clari I just read the tomura piece and omg it was so fucking fantastic I loved it sooo much, your writing never fails to just be absolutely perfect <3

Anyways I hope you’re having a great day and I’ll wish you a happy Easter whilst I’m here, sending you all the love and hugs hugs in the world <333-🍯

HONEYYYYYYYYYYY oh my gosh hello!!! SORRY I AM A WEEK LATE WAAAAH happy easter honeybun <333 i’m so so so happy to hear you enjoyed tomura’s birthday fic!!!!!

first of all, please do not apologize!!!! you have absolutely no reason to be apologizing sweet honeybee <3 you come talk to me at your own pace, and whether that’s once every six months or it’s once every two weeks, it doesn’t matter to me; i’m just glad to hear from you!!! <33 do not ever feel pressured to come send me a message, okay? you do it on your own time and your own schedule, i appreciate it regardless of how frequent or infrequent they are <3

i’m sorry you’ve been having a rough time!!! :( but i am very, very proud of you for choosing therapy again!! that is a very brave choice, and i am so happy to hear you’re doing what you feel is best for you, even if it’s scary <3 that’s incredible!!! i hope you give yourself a pat on the back for that choice <3

i’m sorry you’ve been having a rough time!!! :( but i am very, very proud of you for choosing therapy again!! that is a very brave choice, and i am so happy to hear you’re doing what you feel is best for you, even if it’s scary <3 that’s incredible!!! i hope you give yourself a pat on the back for that choice <3

everything has been okay!!! it’s still rocky but i think that’s what recovery + healing are like, right??? i’m being treated for both my mental illness (learning healthy coping mechanisms, skills like time management etc) as well as my raging perfectionism and childhood trauma, which i have never touched in any therapy i’ve ever been in for my twenty something years on this earth, so it’s a lot, but it’s going really well!!! i feel like i’m making progress even if its slow (any progress is good progress, right!?) and i’ve been told by those around me that they see a change as well so that’s super awesome!! it’s really tough and exhausting work, but i am determined to get better and create the life i deserve, and i don’t mind putting in the work for that.

spanish!!!! that’s awesome!! my boyfriend and i have been very slowly learning italian but tbh we aren’t as committed to it as we should be. i really want to pick up japanese again :( but how is the spanish going!? are you enjoying it???

HAHAHAHAHA awww honey bb that makes me giggle so much!!! my boyfriends brother has soooo many so we’re going to make ours mate HAHA but they’re fun!!! they’re so cute too :( i did not have the DS game but i know exactly what you’re talking about!!!! i remember the tama town website, too!!

i have been trying my very best!! some days are better than others, you know how it is haha <3 i’ve actually been doing a lot of cleaning and organizing lately which feels great!!! i have so many plans and goals that i’ve begun working towards and i am extremely excited to see them come to fruition <3 i love you so much and i hope you’re doing absolutely incredible!!! stay safe out there sweetpea and don’t forget to hydrate!!!

ps. thank you for the message regarding the incident on my blog a while ago!!! im not going to post it because i don’t want to open up that can of worms again but i just wanted you to know that i received it and i appreciate it a lot <3

#you’re so sweet honey <333333 #i wish you all the best in the world and i really hope you’re feeling better!!! #i’m so so proud of you <3 #always sending you all my love!!!!! #have a marvellous week bb and stay safe!!! <3 #🍯.anon #clari gets mail

[inkykeiji]

I am super curious about your professor now, do you have any more anecdotes on him?😂

oh my god anon i could go on about him forever you just opened the floodgates

my program was really, reaaaaally tiny, so i became quite close with many of my profs!!! i’m super grateful for it, because they’re all such amazing people, and they really helped shape me into who i am today! i miss them all so much :( i truly loved university and i plan to go back!

so! for the particular prof in question, i didn’t actually get to take one of his classes until second year (bcoz i had to take intro to film first before i could take any of the classes he was teaching) but after that i took—and i kid you not—every single one of his classes until i graduated. mf acted as if he DIDNT know he was my favourite prof (he totally did) and had the audacity to BLUSH when i told him he was (for context: he actually asked me to take his seminar in my final year, because he knew i hated the subject matter but was all ‘i’d really love to hear your thoughts + interpretations’ and i went ‘sir, are you kidding? you know you’re my favourite prof’ and he went ‘ooooh stop’ all bashful n whatever and then i was like !!!!! I TAKE ALL OF YOUR CLASSES FFS LIKE UR VERY CLEARLY MY FAVE)

anyway it was really cool that he started teaching when i started uni because i got to watch him grow as a prof!!!!!! he was a little nervous for the first few classes he taught, but as he became more comfortable he really came out of his shell (as did i, in the program) and that was super cool. we bonded over social anxiety and he gave me some advice and some tips on how to deal with it!

but YEAH he really did say to me ‘i only give one of these (an A+/mark over 90%) out a semester, and YOU keep getting them. publish this fucking paper!!’ and i was like ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ but the student journal only publishes papers under 3500 words :( hahaha but he really did pester me about that in a very endearing way. and he really was a notoriously difficult grader (his ratemyprof can attest to that LMAO) but he was also an incredible teacher and was very fun, so his classes filled up CRAZY quick (just like prof!keigo’s do oops). i’m surprised i made it into each one honestly a fantastic feat idk how i managed that hahaha

he’s seen me cry more than any of my other profs have (tho tbh they’ve all seen me cry at least once yikes) but i had many breakdowns in his office that were met with tough love lmao. but he really eased my anxiety and became almost like ??? a comfort person for me? like i knew i could go talk to him about whatever and he’d be totally honest with me. he also gave me dark chocolate a lot hehehe and he did ‘baby’ me when i needed it (he’d let me make video essays instead of oral presentations and introduced them for me and everything 🥺 i never had to stand in front of any of his classes and speak)

the last time we spoke was right before i graduated. we were talking about it and he told me ‘my office door’s always open for you. come by any time, seriously.’ and i had planned to visit him, just to chat n whatever, but then covid hit RIGHT after i graduated, and the campus closed, and just :( i have to email him soon tho, because he’s one of my references for my masters application!!! hopefully i can visit the campus soon; there’s two other profs i wanna visit as well :(

#annie has witnessed me ramble about this man #annie knows his name and everything LMAO #he also #uh #okay hehehe he would also like gossip??????? about other students #not often!!!! not often but he definitely played favourites #and his gossiping was only ever pertaining to academic stuff; never anything personal etc #he’d just be like ‘oh god their presentation was fucking awful i was so disappointed #AND THE FIRST TIME HE DID THAT HONESTLY IT THREW ME FOR A FUCKIN LOOP #i wasn’t expecting it at ALL #but yeah he played favourites 110% #it kinda sucks when profs do that but he really seemed to value people who 1. were hardworking and 2. went out of their way to interact with #him. like there was this one guy he absolutely loved; they were always hanging out n shit #he was just the type of prof you could go to and chat about anything #and he truly loves film SO much (he works in sound as well—foley mostly) #and it was fun to share that passion with someone academically idk idk i’m a fucking need i LOVE writing essays #fucking NERD*** #anyway there u go anon LMAO i deadass could talk about him forever #i used to come home all giddy and tell my roommate all about him HAHAHAHAHA #have a great day sweetpea!!!! please be safe out there <33 #inky.bb #clari gets mail