#happens every single fucking day

[prophetofthemuse]

Every day is a

LIVING

FUCKING

NIGHTMARE!

#the emotion of those words is something I cannot put into text #this isn’t just about me. it’s about everything. #every single fucking thing that’s happening in this damned world #it’s not working congregants. IT’S. NOT. WORKING. #mister volkov is having a day #vent

[schnuckiputz]

what if...what if after season 2 the hospital called the harrington's about steve and for once they actually picked up the phone.

what if, hopper, and the kids left him that night, safely tucked away in a hospital bed, and when they came back the next day, steve was just...gone.

at first, they think he just checked himself out of the hospital (because steve definitely is 'that dude'). but no, the staff assured them, his father came and took him home. but when they try to visit him, the only thing they find are a moving company and people packing away the harrington's entire house. the harrington's are just gone.

months later, nancy gets a postcard. it's beat up, the ink so smudged it's nearly illegible. there are just a few words: "they took me. trying to make my way back. steve."

in the end, it'll take nearly two years until they see steve again: when he rolls back in town in a beat-up truck just in time to help them stop the apocalypse. he's lost a lot of hair but apparently gained a sarcastic loudmouth soulmate and a fluffy haired metalhead on the way instead.

because, you see, two years ago, when richard harrington got to the hospital, he didn't care about how steve got injured but only about him getting in another fight. and he finally had enough of this problem child, who seemingly refused to fall in line with what was expected of a harrington. so richard harrington took his drugged up concussed son out of the hospital, loaded up his wife and a few clothes, and drove a few hundred miles to a boot camp in the middle of nowhere to finally get him straightened out.

#it takes steve days to realise what happened and then he proceeds to go apeshit #but he's surrounded by people who don't give a single fuck that he's a obviously traumatised teenager #he tries to run away several times but the camp has a deal with the local police #and every time he tries his stay gets extended #until he just decided to keep a low profile for a while until he can finally way to get the fuck out of there #the way back to hawkins takes months and months and months because he has no money and no car and for a while he loses himself #but he finds himself again when he stumbles across the punk scene and finally gets something like a support system #thats where he first meets robin in a gay bar #and later eddie in an underground tattoo parlor #i dont know where this came from #i blame the behind the basterds podcast and their episodes on the troubled teen industry #stranger things #stranger things hc #steve harrington #eddie munson #robin buckley #steddie #steve harrington x eddie munson #steve x eddie

[kingslionheart]

If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. That's why bad things happen to me. It is about the sins of my father. And my sins.

#I WILL GIF THIS ENTIRE SCENE BECAUSE IT HASN'T LEFT MY MIND SINCE I HAVE WATCHED IT YESTERDAY #david's performance was something else here #no one portrays christian guilt as this man does #he nails it every single time #and the way this character is SO alfred coded is making me cry even more #i will totally make parallels between aaron and alfred some day soon #but for the whole time it almost seemed like he was portraying alfred and it hit me SO FUCKING MUCH #the similiarities are so obvious #i fucking see you david #i saw what you were doing with the body language #and the fact that aaron is canonically queer?? #i already saw alfred TOO MUCH during the scenes and then this one scene happened and GOD #i died a thousand times #anyway the target audience of this gifset is ME #you are welcome #my gifs #the burning girls #aaron marsh #reverend jack brooks #david dawson #samantha morton

[hella1975]

ive never felt more rural than i have in the past few weeks since hanging out with a lad who has only ever lived in cities. what do you MEAN YOU'VE NEVER DONE A MORRIS DANCE

#he didn't even know what morris dancers WERE i said some shit like 'you know it's summer when the morris dancers come out' #and he was like 'the what now' I FEEL LIKE IM GOING CRAZY. HE'S FUCKING WITH ME SURELY #AND THIS HAPPENS SO OFTEN ABOUT THINGS I JUST ASSUMED WERE BASICS #'harvest festival 🤨' PARDON. YOU ARE JOKING #and also the CONCEPT of a village is baffling to him. i said there's probably about 100 people in my entire village #and we don't have a pub or a single shop the closest ones are in the NEXT village over which is a 3 mile walk #and this boy was HORRIFIED. we are both in a constant state of thinking the other is taking the piss #and now every time i think/do something abundantly rural im SO self-aware 😭 #my mum told me the farmers are gonna do a xmas tractor run through our village this year #(they usually miss our village bc even by village standards it's tiny) #and she was like 'shame you'll miss it! i'll send you a video!' and im there already picturing this boy's face when i show it him #like sigh. yeah. yeah okay maybe the rural england is ingrained deeper than i feared. never escaping the allegations etc #had a conversation with him the other day that concluded with me 100% genuinely being like 'you need to touch grass' #i literally said 'i think it would fix you. like actually go and touch some grass what the fuck' #bc at this point he's so far removed from nature that it's INSANE TO ME. i didnt realise how much i took growing up rurally for granted #THESE PEOPLE DONT EVEN GET DRUNK IN FIELDS. THEY HAVE NO FIELDS. I HAD TO EXPLAIN TO HIM WHAT A CAMP OUT WAS

[rohirric-hunter]

If I was queen I would abolish bank holidays.

You will process the payment on the day it was made, regardless of whether it's a weekend or whatever fucking Monday that's been declared a holiday so people with cushy office jobs can go terrorize retail workers and other people with real jobs.

#there would also be a seven hundred thousand dollar fine #for autopay not charging on the same day every month #every time it happened #so if the first month the payment comes out on the 19th #unless the customer specifically requests that day be changed #it better come out on the 19th every single fucking month #or thats 7 hundred thousand a month for that shit company #unless its the banks fault #in which case the bank pays the fine #these things will be properly investigated of course

[skunkes]

was abt to make a silly post about how at this point i barter with the universe for a bf like "please id take care of him and walk him and dress him up", like a child begging for a pet, and then i think abt how as much as i want an actual pet I don't think im fit to ever have one of those either

#talkys #i want a partner i dont think i should have one for equal parts not thinking im worthy and also being too picky #and enjoying my alone time as much as the loneliness and skin hunger hurts me so badly every single day #after hearing with and interacting with others its like is it even worth it if ill still turn to my imagination...! like will it ever be #enough? #or i see ppl post about the Good and its like. id never be lucky enough to find someone who fit my needs and didnt hate me and #wanted to spend time with me it wld be so difficult. i will never be that lucky #but then wagh. ive talked about this before i hate falling into this pit bc ive always been undesirable so convincing myself of all this #feels very like. well yeah. it was never gonna happen anyway but good thing you finally found your Cope! #delete later #i cannot even make friends. the stars will never align. but all i want is my own guy to worship. belongs with me‚ the devotee #being unworthy but also being like. im a catch i can be as picky as i want (forgets hes ugly as fuck and kind of useless with it too) #whatever either way we are not going to make it

[silenthillbunni]

animals deserve so much fkn better than being cursed to live in a world full of humans who only exploit, abuse, rape and kill them :(

#the atrocities commited against animals breaks my heart every single day #and ppl do it so casually too #they dont even react if they themselves kill an animal or witness it #humans are weird as a species bc why is it normal and ok for humans to kill every other species on earth #but killing humans is a sin and smth deeply wrong and bad #humans arent above any other species. in fact humans are the same as ticks and cockroaches #we arent necessary to the eco system. remove us and nothing bad will happen #the earth would thrive without us #remove one animal species and the entire eco system will start falling apart #humans are such fucked up weird creatures. we are the same as animals (but worse) :// #rndz

[kerorowhump]

ive talked in the past about keroro's desire to keep things as they are, static, because it's the only way he can have both keron and earth, but while rewatching ep140b I realized it shows the opposite side of this struggle

that no matter his efforts, it's a futile attempt and nothing is improving because everything is staying exactly the same. he spent a week racking his brain for a solution but the episode ends by showing us that he doesn't find one. could it be because the whole time he was fighting alone?

(his voice breaks in the first screenshot...) this to me feels like the same motivation he would have for invading. wanting to leave a mark, making something of yourself, mattering.

chibikero is in shadow, like the gunpla's shadow. he's not real anymore but he represents all the expectations and lost potential on his shoulders. while the small gunpla is in light like keroro. that's the reality of it. but that's also how he feels. small. he hasn't achieved any of his goals. he hasn't lived up to anything he said he would, everything he based his identity on. he's a "pitiful invader". his desire to matter perfectly encapsulates his abandonment issues too.

this collection will outlive him. it will speak of his greatness when he's gone. it's as much his identity as the invasion. it's also his tomb in the exact same way.

he's so happy for a moment organizing his whole collection on the shelves that he thought were gonna solve everything, enjoying the moment as it was, but in the end nothing changed.

is it because he's expendable? easily replaceable, like by a clone? is it because he doesn't see his own worth, so he has to get some (the keron star, his collection, the invasion)? because if he's not useful, he'll be thrown out? or because he doesn't want to be forgotten and left behind?

and yet

he remains insignificant and his fight is fruitless.

#keroro #musing #i love chewing on keroro meta analysis especially visual and size related. being too small and insignificant or being so big u - #take up too much space and are a weight to everyone #i need to know the meaning of the single red zaku in his terracotta army. i will not believe it's just a char nod #and also what in the fuck is the string chibikero wiggles. please help i wanna know so bad. like that does that MEAN #this episode holds so many misteries still #ep 140b #i rewatched it bc ya gurl spent a lil too much money on keromerch after the dramatic incident so i was like oh he just like me fr #i have been so so busy these days that i cant keep my watch and it's killing me. let me watch keroro in peace pls... i hate studying #i did not mean to make a musing post but it just happened it came outta me on its own #the way keroro's room looks is EVERY TIME a meta thing on its own. it says something of his emotions. thats why he stands on top of- #the boxes at the end when he thinks he has overcome it and solved it. wait no this deserves better than tags i will make a separate post #about this

[brookheimer]

what is it with this past 24 hours and absolutely baffling takes on the last episode

#like y’all think kendall had every right to ignore rome’s wishes to not have the abuse leaked bc roman is living in a dream world where #logan wasn’t abusive and needs to be brought back down to reality???????? y’all think he loses the ability to have a stake in this decision #bc his abuse is so deeply internalized that he excuses logan’s actions for it??????? it’s one thing to say ken made the smart move but it’s #a whooooole other one to act like he didn’t even do anything bad at all. you do realize they explicitly mentioned leaking the physical #abuse right? you do realize rome was the only one (we know at least) to have been phys abused? you think kendall is right to leak that info #to the masses?????? that would literally define roman’s life. like he’d be The Roy That Logan Beat. how the fuck is he supposed to grieve #his very-recently-dead father let ALONE heal from his abuse if roman’s forced to relive it in the public eye 2 days after logan dies #like the experience of having that leaked will be infinitely worse roman than for kendall bc he will be singled out as the only one logan #hated enough to beat and boy do tabloids love physical abuse and kendall is WAY closer to coming to terms w the abuse than roman who #really really needs to work through that shit before idk it becomes public domain #like idk if that’s what WILL happen but it certainly fuckin could. we have no rzn to think it wouldn’t!!!! #this isn’t like a Uniquely Evil Move from ken or anything it’s a pretty classic succession maneuver i’m not saying he’s the devil or smth #like… at all. but it’s still not a Great Thing To Do? especially to roman????? #seen this take multiple diff times now. insane <3 #it’s wrong to act like this is the single worst thing any character haa ever done (a take i have not seen but i digress) but it is also very #wrong to act like it literally wasn’t even bad #seen this take at least four times so i’m not talkin ab any one person or thing in particular just like… dude. cmon #succession #succession spoilers

[tunderilona]

having a bad week and a bad month and a bad year so far everything sucks so much

#and i have to go back to work tomorrow where i will meet no one but my 2 coworkers and then come home #and the next day go to work again and come home and do it forever and ever #idk how much longer i can do it im at the end of my rope #i dont talk to anyone but my 2 coworkers and i also dont go anywhere or meet anyone #also im ugly but like thats completely irrelevant i just feel like im getting reall #y sick of being ugly and looking haggard and like i was 23843839 years old instead of my real age i genuinely feel like i look 65 lately #and that everyone who looks at me (which rarely happens) is disgusted and thinks im the ugliest creature theyve ever seen. #all that AND i also have to go to work and do my fucking boring ass monotonous job which even a well trained cockroach could do #and all while i dont go anywhere ever #and i spend every day in my room alone #bored out of my mind #AND i dont even get paid a livable wage. sick of having to budget every fucking month because i dont make a normal amount of money #no matter what i worked i was never paid a liveable wage every single job ive ever had paid like fucking shit

[darealsaltysam]

one thing that fucks me up a lot is that. every time we meet another member of the black rose pirates it’s so much more harrowing for chip. like gillion gets to see his grandpa again and it’s a joyful reunion, sure. jay gets to meet her uncle and gets to confide in him about being a pirate and a ferin and how difficult it is to balance it all. but. but chip

lizzie, roofus, drey, finn. chip doesn’t get happy reunions, he only gets reminders. reminders of the people who raised him and who were his family and who were taken from him in this tragic way and who are never going to be the same after it. he sees the way they were changed by what happened, how old and withered they look and he’s constantly just imagining the horrible TORTURE they must have gone through.

and arlin. each new black rose pirate found begs the question; where’s arlin? where’s arlin and why hasn’t he found him yet? he’s probably asking himself that every time he even sees the old crew. 

#like. it’s so easy for me to forget what chip went through as a child. #gillion and jay are new characters for this campaign and even tho we’ve uncovered their stories bit by bit we SAW what happened to chip. #he was there and now he’s grown up and every time they speak about the black rose pirates or the hole in the sea he’s brought right back to #to jay and gillion its a story and its something that their family members went through and of course thats awful as well but like #chip was there. chip went through that. chip is still going through that every single day of his life and every time he sees drey or finn #or any1 from his old crew. it fucks me up severely can u tell #just roll with it #just roll with it riptide #jrwi riptide #arlin james #drey ferin #finn tidestrider #jrwi chip #gillion tidestrider #jay ferin #jrwi roofus #elizabeth lafayette

[swagging-back-to]

you can also immediately tell if theyre a faker or an enabler bc they say anything along the lines of "I'd rather 100s of fakers use medical resoirces than even 1 actually diagnosed person not get help" or "fakeclaiming is actually way more harmful than spreading misinformation and taking up resources." this goes for any single disorder but esp Dissociative ones.

they convienently forget that those hundreds of fakers ARE MAKING IT SO HUNDREDS OF ACTUAL VICTIMS GO WITHOUT HELP.

theyre making it so that HUNDREDS OF VICTIMS REFUSE TO SEEK A DIAGNOSIS BECAUSE OF THE MOCKERY YOURE MAKING OF IT.

that they make it so that HUNDREDS OF VICTIMS face even more stigma over a disorder that EVEN MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS DO NOT BELIEVE EXISTS.

****you*** are the reason this stigma exists. ****you**** are the reason resources for dissociation is so horrible and hard to find. ****you**** are the reason medical professionals dont believe we exist.

because of your entilted woe is always me bullshit.

#did fakers #actually dissociative #faking disorders #did #osdd #osdd1a #rant #vent #im so fucking sick of it #every single post abput it on here is so disingenuine and ofc all the other fakers flock to defend its 'validity' #im so fucking tired. #i just want to be normal. #i just want to be able to give people a real reason for why i am the way i am but as soon as i say anything #along the lines of 'i have severe dissociative amnesia' they drop me faster than a dead fucking fly. #do you people u derstand how hard that is? #how actually fucking hard that is #how hard it is to not have any time in the day for myself because THERE IS NO TIME IN THE DAY FOR ME. #im comsciojs for a few minutes at a f #how hard it is to know something horrible happened but having no idea what it is #or who did it . #how hard it is to not have any single person to talk to about any of this besides myself? #i feel so fucking alone. #i dont want to die bc im so scared of what will happen to someone with so mamy fucked up parrs of their brain when they die #but i want to die. #i do not want to be around you people. #i do not want to be lumped in with you people. #i genuinely actually do hate you all #and you people will always be fucking vile to me #to the people who made fun of my diagnosis right after i told you and then tried to say you yourselves all had did; #iremember you every single fucking day and i wish so much harm on you. i hope your lives are as miserable now as they were when we were 14.

[mcyt-builds-contest]

sitting here watching the escalating Pandora Vs Not Pandora argument with glee and also bewilderment. where were the escapists last round when the Everdusk Castle lost. can you not have a poor modded soul's back

I got pop-corn! Can share if you want!

#mcyt base contest #ask #this is probably the last thing i would have expected to happen and im here for eat #*it #fuck you autocorrect #anyway i agrre with that last anon every should kiss and also fuck #the amount of venom in this dumb argument is breaking vontainment every single day

[hella1975]

there's a very specific kind of vibe that comes with living with your friends in final year that it just does not have in first year or even second year. like as a fresher it's usually the first time any of you have lived away from home let alone with SO MANY people your age and it's terrifying and exciting and randomised to boot so it's generally carnage for a whole year in the best and worst ways, and then second year you pick who you're living with and it feels like for the first time you're doing this adult thing PROPERLY. you have a place of your own now. these are the people you've chosen to live with. studying gets serious etc. but it's still fresh. it's still new. you still don't know how to navigate it. but final year? final year is when you actually get it right. you know how to manage your time better. you know what works for you and what doesn't. studying is the main focus and you've been out in the world for three years now and it's not loud and boisterous like it was in first year and you're not exciteable and awkward like you were in second year. you're comfortable. every single one of my flatmates has their own friend group and we mainly keep to our own social circles, but we'll still meet each other back at the house after a night out and sit in the kitchen or my room to do the debrief. sometimes i'll go days not seeing either of them despite sharing a house but every now and then someone will softly call up the stairs that 'the heating's on!' or one of us will sneeze and the other two will yell 'bless you!' through the walls. the lack of interaction isn't interpreted as dislike in ways it would have been even last year, because we're all just old enough to be past that now and settled enough in our friendship not to worry about it. idk. uni is very loud and unsettling a lot of the time so it's been really sweet to see how almost boringly comfortable final year is.

#like my day today was literally drag myself out of bed at 10am to meet my econ friends bc we're in a group together #and i spent two hours with them writing a fucking TRADE REPORT before coming home #and the rest of the day was kinda lost. i showered. i put a wash on. i had a nap. i mainly stayed in my room #which sometimes is the End Of All Things but today was quite nice #and i can hear in their rooms how my flatmates are doing the exact same thing. pottering about and getting on with uni #and we've barely spoken all day but earlier my one flatmate ran into my room all excited to show me her nails #bc she's been teaching herself to do gels and it took her 2 hours but im still one of the first people she wanted to show #and just now we all went to use the bathroom at the same time and it led to one of our Stair Sessions #where we all inexplicably just gather on the stairs and chat for no reason with a cup of tea #idk it's just nice. it's such basic shit but i can't belive in first year i used to spend EVERY DAY with these girls #and we were one single friendship group and that was all we had #and then in second year one girl branched off bc she lived in a studio and got into her societies #but me and the other girl lived together again and it was the same thing of she was a friend before she was someone i lived with #and weirdly that can actually be detrimental to a dynamic. but this year we're all just very solidified and confident in ourselves #and where we stand and yes we all have our own friendship groups outside of the house now #but there's still that love and simple comfortableness around each other that you only get with time and a hell of a lot of proximity #and a sense of being settled that maybe is just what happens as you get older #idk it's just really nice. if i had this exact same day in first year (doing economics and barely leaving my room) #it would've been a really bad depressive day for me so the fact i can find such contentment from it now is really heartening #i love my little life here im very proud of what ive been able to achieve :) #hella goes to uni #feeling nostalgic because SOME BITCH decided to ribs post

[cowardstiel]

the other week a woman in my class said that gay marriage was legalised fifteen or sixteen years ago in australia. it was actually legalised in december 2017. less than six years ago. people forget just how recent this change is and just how significant it is.

#and not just straight people #ive seen a lot of younger lgbt people not grasp the gravity of this #i know this happens with every new generation + isn’t dissimilar to women’s rights activism #we don’t realise how much previous generations have had to fight for what we have now #but fuck if it isn’t frustrating sometimes to see teenagers and young adults taking it for granted #i guess i’m glad they can ??? but idk it’s like. weren’t you there??? how sheltered were you? to not see what was happening around you? #to not live every single day thankful for what we have #it’s just. i’m only 23 and it feels like just yesterday i was watching the tv for the plebiscite result #and crying and crying watching magda szubanski #and we only won by 61% #like FUCK #sorry im just so #a lot of internet kids do not realise how precarious gay rights are and how recent this change is and how people all over the world are #suffering still #anywayyyyy #my post

[zapsoda]

when i was in 6th grade my orthodontist had my braces taken off for a short time, because they all hated me, before putting them back on again. and in that short time i had to wear a retainer. it was the standard oddly shaped bit of plastic shaped to your mouth with little wires that held it to your teeth to keep them in place.

and it was great. i only had to wear it in downtime or when i was sleeping and cleaning it was easy because it was just a flattish chunk of plastic

well my current retainer is just a fucking invisalign which i am supposed to wear at all time except when im eating (whats the fucking point in taking my braces off then??) and it is a bitch to clean because it gets gross not even halfway through the day and its shaped to my teeth so its full of all these ridges for mouth bacteria to live in so i constantly have to brush it and disinfect it like a second set of teeth! this sucks!

#also the stupid cheap plastic case my “retainer” came in broke within a few DAYS of me getting it #the hinge snapped!! #i didnt even fucking do anything. #this never happened with my old one! #it was NOTICABLY higher quality in every single way