#hana🤌🏽

[yonkimint]

I may be in the minority too, but i really love your tae, hes kinda dumb at times but arent we all? And that was the biggest bomb you dropped on us, i had thoughts that hes just too in denial with his feelings or just finally gave up prior to meeting hana that he burried his feelings for oc so deep never to resurface again because hes afraid of losing their friendship which is now backfiring😔 the angst is so juicy😩🤌🏽💕

I think a lot of the Tae supporters have been afraid to come forward in the face of all the Tae hate 😂😂😂

I’m glad you’re here! Tae is ridiculous and not making smart decisions in this AU currently and he’s hurting a lot of people but the tide will turn soon, I promise!

#the end is you and i asks

[june-again]

ur not sleeping 😐😐😐 i keep forgetting ur in bc my bad babes

i would be sleeping but kaillei and i are talking about which haikyuu boys we'd marry. But it's still almost 2am lajahsjsj

#we've been talking for 5 hours #oops #it was a good day #will respond to your other ask when have full attention to give #ily wiwhehenbdhevdbbdbd #elk's asks #hana🤌🏽 #hey remember that time with the megamind and shrek quotes thing #that was fun #i forgot what i was typing halfway through #ON THE SPOT -kaillei #she's talking about sakusa #jdjdhdbdb

[june-again]

awh baby it’s not weird at all! ik on your pinned post it says sara, so ive never yk, not said sara? if that makes sense? and! yes you post regularly WHICH IS SUCH AN AMAZING AND HARD THING TO DO. you’re so hard working wow. ur amazing. also?? piano??? and theatre???? pls all y’all are so talented 🙄🥵 makin me act and up and shi

anyways idk what that was. my day was good! it started at 4 pm, so if there wasn’t a lot of “day”. uhhh i finished half of A Thousand Splendid Suns. i put off that book for a while since i heard it was sad, and it is, so yeah. ummm i made chicken! for iftaar (what we call the time where muslims break their fasts) so that was fun, and a bit hard and yeah. now i’m drinking coffee and rewatching season 1 for the good place

hana calling me talented ☝☝ someone call an ambulance s’il vous plait 😳😳

i’m proud of you! imagine, like, reading, and also doing other things within the same day (.. I haven’t... finished a book... in three months......) was A Thousand Splendid Suns worthwhile? should I add it to my list? ahhh The Good Place,, I watched the first season a few months ago and it’s so funny and the acting is great (Kristen Bell is so captivating lkJKALK). I was reading about Ramadan earlier because I was curious and (am I allowed to say this?) it’s actually the coolest thing ever to me that everyone breaks their fast together at the same time at iftaar. food should be enjoyed together, and these days it feels less and less common that people do that.

#elk's asks #hana🤌🏽 #pls hana you make me wanna . exist #it's a really profound effect/nj #how do i explain #u give me life hana <3 #whwoekwjefkl

[june-again]

@daddyjackfrost

i’m crying so hard oh my gosh

#hana🤌🏽 #let me read that again

[june-again]

SARA!!! CONGRATS ON 300+ LOVE THATS AMAZING‼️ AND YOU DESERVE IT YOU ARE SO TALENTED MWAH 💋💓💓💓

1. Asahi! (because i don’t see enough asahi content and i love him so much)

2. okay i’ll be honest, my first fav was Hinata and he still is my favourite. he’s just, my confit character yk? like his character development throughout the seasons is top tier and i really envy the way he thinks and his positivity

2. questions 4! What is your favourite part of writing?

hi hana 😍 Thank you so much for all your support, it literally means the world ugh 😣💜 (you didn’t have to do all three! but I am not complaining 😘)

1. ASAHI ASAHI ASAHI okay!!!! something about him that makes me happy~ IT’S SO AMAZING the way he didn’t want to come back to volleyball, because it had been so painful for him to be defeated over and over again by Date Tech’s iron wall, and he was scared of experiencing the same pain again - but despite all of that, when he did come back, he conquered his fear and moved on even stronger than before like 😭 TALK ABOUT INSPIRATION HE’S 🤩 AHHHH

2. Hinata deserves more love pls :( the character development was top tier and we love to see our boy growing up. And his attitude!??! How does he have that much motivation? can i have some please? I’ve said this before, but I could listen to Hinata talk about his dreams and passion for volleyball forever because it’s just so inspiring.

4: What is your favourite part of writing?

I just answered this but I have more to say ofc.

hmm, I’ll be honest. I’m addicted to the control. I am constantly criticizing and forming opinions on books and TV shows, but I want to see if I can really do better. If I can form a vividly-told, emotional, genuine universe that isn’t filled with plot holes and isn’t created for the publicity or money, etc. I want to create something great - and not just for the feeling of accomplishment afterwards. It’s the creation process that stimulates me - having something out of my mind put into a story at my discretion. 

... yeah I might have a god complex ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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#elk's asks #elek's faves #300 faves #hana🤌🏽 #asahi fluff #asahi headcanons #asahi azumane #hinata fluff #hinata shoyo #hinata headcanons #yes i did just put those on this #deal with it >:) #agh hinata :( #i should post my tiny hinata drabble #just because

[june-again]

@daddyjackfrost hi i’m malfunctioning and yes i’ve seen these but 😓😓 i don’t feel great about posting people’s art without credit so i can’t post this but i am going to continue to keep staring at that top right one because THE TATTOOS WKSHL KE KLWHKHFLwekS KHKEJWELK 

#WREKLJTHU$(P*UROH@${)9rpwiO@>&$@(&*r*(&$RIUEO(REUISJFD #AJWLKKEFSDKLDJKFSDJLKJLKDSLJKFJLKSDJKLFSLDKF #bREATH IS NOT #GUYS I WENT THROUGH LIKE A DAY THAT I FORGOT ABOUT TANAKA #THAT WAS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE #TJKALKJESFDKLJKJSDLJKLSD #elk's trash #hana🤌🏽 #I'MMMMMMMM #EHEEEEEEEEE #THE ONE WHERE HE HAS A SCARF ON #HE'S SO #FUCKING PRETTY #OH MY GOSH I'MTjKFSDKHSFDKLJF #tanaka tanaka tanaka tana #tanaka #i love him #with my whole heart

[june-again]

if it bad if i say that i was thinking of you when i wrote that part

the fic is lowkey dedicated to you, love.

IM SORRY THO I DIDNT MEAN TO MAKE U SAD

(although that was my goal)

JWHWHJWKH WHAT DO YOU MEAN DEDICATED TO ME DSJKFJDKJK

tw gets ✨deep✨ below, mentions of death & suicide, talking about my christian beliefs oopsies

okay but i read your extended author’s note and i started bawling (gurl i cannot go a day without crying anymore guacc) because . you’re so right. i don’t... know what i live for, but i don’t know if i’m afraid of death either. there are a lot of things that i want to do, but as a christian believing in an afterlife, i’m scared that i’ll mess up too many times. i’m scared that maybe i’ve already been my best, and now i’m falling (which is what it feels like now). i’m not saying i want to kill myself but i just feel like if the best is yet to come it’s a long way off because right now i don’t. i don’t know what i’m doing.

i’m partially living for other people, i guess. i live to create, but if no one liked what i created i’d probably find far less joy in it. i love interaction. other people make me feel alive. but the world is frustrating like that, and some people don’t get the same joy from interaction and throw away opportunities because they’re so focused on themselves (idk what that sounds like. i just mean that being friendly and loving is so important. so much is lost by being closed-minded i guess.) but then... if i died tomorrow,

well if i died tomorrow i don’t think i’d make it to heaven. i’m too prideful. i’ve made too many mistakes that i haven’t asked for forgiveness for. obviously i’m going to say this because i’m a christian, but even though i know God will forgive me for anything as long as i ask, i’m too.. prideful. so am i really a Christian? hardly a practicing one. i’ve always been a tryhard at my beliefs but when it comes to actually making things right i always put it off.

thinking about it now makes me want to make a lot of changes

like

immediately.

but then i’m still so caught up in schoolwork and daily things that i suck and i think... oh, i can repent later. and that is the worst. that is the thing i shouldn’t be thinking. as a human, that is the one thing i don’t deserve to think. because i don’t know everything.

i don’t have the answers. none of us do.

right now i just feel like i have a lot of useless thoughts and emotions and i dunno what to do with any of them. because society only wants a handful of them. i don’t know which ones i want. apparently being productive is all my dad wants from me, and i’m struggling with that because i’m too busy thinking and exploring instead of doing homework. i love my parents but ~~~ “they don’t understand me >:(” lol

ummmmmmmmnmnm ok i could keep talking about nothing like this is a journal but like honestly , i don’t have a point. iiiiiiii idkk what i’m doing at this point. my mind is a mess and “i don’t have opinions” (to quote myself).

music. writing. people. discovery. those are the things i live for.

i just don’t know if they’re right.

yahhhhhhhhh okay i want to delete all of this but i’m feeling very adventurous so i’m going to release my inner thoughts for all the world to see and probably lose a few followers but hi this is me i don’t know what i am and i know i’m sort of ugly for not knowing . for not. WKAHKJwjk okay the song ‘JUST LIKE YOU’ by NF sorta summarizes. .. me.

Convincing yourself that you don't really matter's Like feeding a cancer and letting it travel

WHY ARE YOU STILL READING THIS I’M A MESS LMADKSLJKSDAJKSDF

yeah i don’t live for getting a boyfriend or anything. i don’t need a normal life. i don’t care what i do, as long as i get to keep creating and keep loving and keep listening to and making music. so i guess i do have stuff to live for. i just dunno how to healthily live for it.

WUAHJ@KLAW i’m not expecting a response to this plss idk what i’m still doing writing jkahjah;klalkja

i know one thing for sure though. i’m not super courageous or anything but i would definitely do what y/n did, and push my loved one out of the way. i’m a mess but i wouldn’t want to live knowing that i could have saved someone like that. ummmm ehalfs i could go on talking about this for awhile mind go brrr

#elk's asks #hana🤌🏽 #oh boy #i really am too comfortable here now #watch me read this tomorrow and cringe #iiiiiiiiiii #i don't understand myself at all #idk what im doing #yeahhh #this is the kinda stuff i'd usually try to channel into my writing #tw death #tw suicide #tw christianity #pls i don't #the main thing to get from this is I DUNNO WHAT IM DOING #[🕯]

[june-again]

wait i’ll drive this

probably faster.

ALSO YEAH. UR ACROSS CANADA. ur gonna have to wait at least a month babe

YAHHHH LMAOIFD KJLSDFKJL

I'M READY !!!!!!!!!!

#elk's asks #wanderlust b like #no bc i was listening to my japan playlist this morning again 🤩 #i wanna ✨leave✨ #hana🤌🏽

[june-again]

let’s both agree to finish the dumb work we’re doing rn

🤝

                   me🤝hana

procrastinating by being weird on tumblr

#elk's asks #hana🤌🏽 #go #go doit #im already started my notes on 🤢 flatworms

[june-again]

SARA SARA SARA SARA CONGRATS ON 600 LOVE!!!!!! IM SO SORRY IF IM LATE IM KINDA? NOT ON TUMBLR RN BUT THATS AMAZING AND YOU DESERVE IT!!! YOURE SO AMAZING AND I LOVE YOU

YOU’RE NOT LATE HANA HKUSJLAD THANK YOU FOR ALL THE SUPPORT I LOVE YOU (guys stop apologizing for being late . the event lasts until june 6 AWKSLJDA)

#elk's asks #hana🤌🏽 #coolest person of 2021

[june-again]

JSBSJBSJSBSEBSUSHBDJDBDJD I LOVE YOU. SO MUCH. THANK YOU. IM GONAN CRY PLS UR SO CUTE I LIVE FOR YOUR REACTIONS AND VALIDATION

HANA THAT’S GOT TO BE ONE OF MY FAVOURITE THINGS YOU’VE EVER WRITTEN IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL AND FOR ONCE IT HURT WITHOUT MAKING ME WANT TO PUNCH SOMEONE EVEN THOUGH I KINDA DID WANNA CRY BECAUSE IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL AND I’M GOING TO REREAD IT 6 TIMES SO THAT’S WHY I GAVE IT THE MASTERPIECE TAG !!!!!!!!

#elk's asks #hana🤌🏽 #I ALMOST DIDN'T SHIP YOU WITH SAKUSA #AND THEN YOU MIGHT NOT HAVE BEEN INSPIRED TO WRITE THAT AND POST IT TODAY AND I NEVER WOULD HAVE EXPERIENCED WHAT I DID TODAY #JRSLKJWHAHLKHLHKAHLKAHKA #IT'S SO #HE'S SO #I LIVE FOR THAT SHIT WOW #HAAAAAANA #WOW!! #EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT MADE ME MELT AND I #mk brb brainrotting sakusa #a lot

[june-again]

hey!!! if you want to delete them, you can. it’s your work.

personally, isn’t it nice tho? those were some of your first works, and people can see how your writing developed. people can scroll through your works and see improvement. see you finding your element. your confidence. the great thing about first pieces, is that you can only improve as you go on.

ur hot

i always always keep copies of my writing before i bring them to tumblr because i also really appreciate seeing my progress and being able to critique my own old stuff to see what i’ve learned since. but leaving those posts up as my top 3 posts with the most notes ... the only thing i feel like i did to get those notes was include 5 characters in each, but i was going for quantity, not quality, which i’ve since done a 180 on. I write to learn and improve, and although I did work very hard on those I know even at the time I could have done better and now it feels like my writing style is often initially judged by those and I- 👺 no.

#irrelevent but #my feet are cold #i'm thinking about standing outside for no reason still #the urge is strong #it's too late at night #my parents will be confused #m #anyways yeah im taking them out of my masterlist but not deleting them YET #imma rewrite them #might keep them the same but format them right and #put more detail and emotion in #because i'm better at that now #ok #yah #elk's asks #hana🤌🏽

[june-again]

BESTIE THIS NEW THEME??? I LOVE IT

thank you :O i didn't wanna change the color bc i love that blue sm still so i just made it work hehe >:)

#elk's asks #hana🤌🏽

[june-again]

unfunny and uncreative?

lol ily

for once it wasn’t self-depricating. i don’t know what it was.

i don’t even know anymore

i don’t.

don’t.

don't leave me i believe hashiridasu

#elk's asks #ummmlmm should i sleep #yeah #you should too >:O #hana🤌🏽 #why are you so nice though #ilke >:o #pls i just #i just wana #i really wanna #zig a zig ahhh

[june-again]

me omw to pick you up

me waiting as you drive all the way across canada in a tricycle

#elk's asks #hana🤌🏽

[june-again]

JSBSJSJS STOP STOP YOU ALREADY HAVE MY HEART IF I SMILE ANY WIDER MY MOMS GONNA THINK IM TALK TO A BOY AHHHH PLS “IT HURT WITHOUT MAKING ME WANT TO PUNCH SOMEONE” JSBJSJS IS THAT WHAT MY ANGST DOES??? (good. a job well done then.) BUT THANK YOU.

i lowkey just started writing? like it was just instant. i was like ‘me and sakusa? BET’ and ran with it. ugh. i love u.

HALAKLAHLKA MY MOM ALWAYS ASKS ME THAT TOO but i mean she’s gotten used to the fact that i just laugh to myself three hours a day when it’s not even related to my phone and it’s just me finding myself the most hilarious human on earth so 💀 anyways

YES I’M STILL THINKING ABOUT IT . MAYBE IT WAS JUST SUCH A DRASTIC CHANGE BECAUSE I’M USED TO YOUR WRITING BEING ANGST BUT IT JUST HIT SO DIFFERENT AND IM GOING TO REMEMBER IT FOR A LONG TIME !!1

i love it when things just pour out like that. sometimes they’re imperfect but that just makes them even better, yk? AND YOU WROTE THAT SO FAST LIKE BRO

#elk's asks #hana🤌🏽 #here i am smiling again #hehe <3 #UR SO COOL #UR THE COOLEST #WOW