ESOEMOEHOED by leanna firestone makes me sob so hard even tho I've never met the people in my life that have the familial addiction bc they abandoned my mom at a doorstep when she was a baby but dang does that song make me feel. things.
You need to be weirder. Wear clothes that don't match. Wear two different shoes. Put sparkly makeup all over your face. Listen to music with eccentric beats. Do not conform. Do not be normal. Do not give in.
As aforementioned, I'm collecting bfs at study abroad and here's the one from tonight (my favorite so far):
I'm at the d*scoteca with my classmates and I am seeing no cute guys. I was definitely dress WAY less slutty than the other girls so I def felt a little insecure but oh well, right. Finally! I see this really cute guy with bleached hair and an eyebrow piercing! And he doesn't have that ugly (imo) haircut that it seems every European guy has. We make eye contact a few times for like 30 minutes or so. Then my girls say it's time to leave :( tragic. I haven't fulfilled my plan yet (I don't have a plan. I don't know how to flirt.) And so as we walk by him- I am being dragged by one of the girls by the hand- I nod and him AND HE NODS BACK! I pass him and turn my head around to see that he's still maintaining eye contact with me. And then. we. left