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here4theheartbreak · 2 years

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Sometimes I fall to pieces Just to see what bits of me don't fit 'Cause I when I stand oh those folks will run And tell the tales of what I've become They'll speak of me, oh in whispered tones And say my name like it shakes their bones

For an uneventful few months, I feel like it’s been wildly busy! I’m doing well though - figuring out what fits/what doesn’t, as it were, and pulling myself together into a healthier self.

It’s my spring cleaning weekend, so I decided that now would be a good time to clean up some stuff virtually too, and make some general update posts. Not a whole lot of note is going on; still working, dealing with kiddo at home, etc.

I haven’t been writing much (i.e. at all) for the past few months, so once I finish publishing my current ongoing fic (it’s already finished, just spacing chapter publication) I may end up going on a hiatus from writing. I’m not leaving the fandom or anything, just haven’t been super inspired by any ideas and I have no idea how to push that writing must into action.

But I am doing other forms of art/creation - such as the sculpture things I’ve been posting now and again on my blog. I’ve also gotten into making junk journals, I think that’s super fun and would like to try and make one or two inspired by the groups I like. Who knows. In the next few weeks I’ll post the first one I made, I’m super proud of it. I have an appt in a few weeks to meet with a surgeon for carpal tunnel surgery though - the downside to doing these sculpture related things is that all the fine motor skills needed has served to worsen the condition of my wrists (which were already not great due to excessive computer work/typing and video gaming for hours on end.) But I’m hoping the surgery will resolve it; doing any sort of miniature work/crafting is impossible with a brace (and typing isn’t super easy either).

On a personal transition related front, I have an appointment with a doctor in September to discuss my next transition related surgery (a hysterectomy). I’m excited to move it along, and as of now this’ll be my last surgery unless I decide to go forward with bottom surgery (still researching/undecided for now).

Though a minor surgery compared to top surgery, which changed my outward appearance, it’s still one I’ve been looking forward to for a long time. For the obvious bonus of no more goblin parasite risk (I love my kid, I just never ever want another one 😂) but also just the general benefit of decreasing that warring hormone in my body. Once it’s gone I’ll hopefully be able to decrease my T dosage a smidgen, which should help with some of the negative side effects of T that I’ve had over the years (hair loss, etc). But we’ll see - Consult first, then moving forward.

On a less positive transition note - I learned that a Montana judge put an (albeit temporary) injunction to block the anti-trans law the gop put in place to make it harder for us to change the gender marker on our birth certificates. Unfortunately, even with that blockade in place, the department is proving just how horrifically transphobic and cruel a conservative state can be and now refusing to issue birth certificate gender marker changes to trans folks entirely. They’d honestly rather be held in contempt of court than to give a transgender person any rights 😂 - I will be curious to see if the plaintiff’s legal team comes back and attempts to get the gov’t to comply in some way. I’m upset about it, but not personally; even with the new more anti-trans rules I acknowledge that I had the requirements met, but I’m upset for those that can’t meet those requirements, so I hope that something can be done about it.

Well, I don’t want to end on an upsetting note! So, I’m super excited about Astro’s new comeback; it’s meant to be out in a little over a week and looks like it’ll be such a fun summer album. I pre-ordered all of the versions already 🙈 And then BTS’ new songs, I’m curious to hear what they’ve done - I hope they’ll be good. I’ll end up pre-ordering that album as well when I get paid.

Which reminds me I need to go through all my kpop merch and start culling it down 😅 - get rid of the merch I don’t love/don’t need/want and sell it. So, if anyone is interested, I can post my Mercari page once I get stuff listed.

But. That’s about it going in my life - just a jumble of work and other dull adulting stuff. I hope all of you are doing well and doing your best to enjoy your lives. Remember that you can’t always stop bad things from happening, but you can hold tight to the good when it comes, and even a sliver of joy - no matter how thin - is something to keep going for.

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kelkat9 · 5 years

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Women’s healthcare under the cut

For ladies with vaginas and uterus, please always take care of your gyn needs. If you are in debilitating pain or bleeding profusely do not accept some bs answer that you’ll grow out of it or its normal. It is NOT normal.

As someone who had crappy women’s healthcare in the 80s, and was in a lot of pain, bled so profusely I was on iron pills and couldn’t use standard feminine products, this is a sign of an underlying problem. My doctors at the time told me and my mom it was normal for some girls. My mother thought it odd because she didn’t experience that but she believed the doctors.

Years went by, I got a little better and then worse. I bled for a month and it wasn’t until my mid 20s the words ovarian cyst were mentioned. But that was quickly countered with every woman has cysts. It’s no big deal. They come and go. My concern over bleeding for a month straight was shrugged off. I was given oral contraceptives that allegedly would help.

I was so sick. For about 3 months of nausea on and off, I lived on vanilla frozen yogurt and regular yogurt to settle my stomach. Several times I couldn’t work and had to have someone pick me up from work I was so sick. Yeah it helped the ovarian issue eventually - or so I thought.

Years later those pills stopped working. My cycle went crazy. I was told to wait it out. F that. I quit taking the pills and things got better. Another new dr said she was concerned but she thought I should let my body self regulate for a while. Nobody checed my ovaries. No scans were ordered. Really bad idea.

Down the road another few years, more problems, tried new oral contraceptives. A roller coaster of nausea for 6 months and I said screw this. I can’t live like this. Dr. said I didn’t give it enough time. 6 months. Seriously. Finally after another few years and more problems and consulting with more drs I got an ultra sound. Ovarian cysts and fibroids. Something that should have been discovered long ago.

Another attempt at oral contraceptives and the patch which I was told later wouldn’t work because I was too overweight. Gee thanks.

After moving into a new health care system and getting past the, well you’re fat, that’s your issue, despite having perfectly normal blood work and no other health problems ahem, I got to a gyn (a female gyn) who told me I had a very serious problem and no it wouldn’t just ago away and no oral contraceptives wouldn’t solve this due to the severity. She was pretty horrified at all the crap I’d been told.

One ovarian cancer scare and surgery later, I received confirmation this was an ongoing problem and had been for decades. Oh yes, and I was now firmly on the Ovarian Cancer watch list since it had now reached such a bad stage. The new cysts forming were filled with blood which is not good. I was on a new oral contraceptive that blessedly didn’t make me sick - lowest dose estrogen they could give me - and over time, it helped.

But I still live with repercussions. Menopause visited me early. But that didn’t stop things. I now have bigger fibroids and an enlarged uterus pressing against things in my abdomen. The pain has been pretty bad. It wakes me up at night since it radiates into my back and down my legs as well as across my abdomen. Stress makes it worse. I’m on a different med to help with the other issues this has now caused. I’m doing better but may have to have more surgery. Dr. appt is next week to discuss next step.

The moral here is please make sure you are getting good women’s healthcare advice. If you or your daughter is suffering, don’t just accept the meh it’s normal. Get a second opinion. Don’t be afraid to ask for an ultrasound. Yes, it’s expensive. I’m sorry , it is. I had to make a down payment on mine even with insurance. But do it if you can for your health. PCOS - polycistic ovarian syndrome will not go away and will get worse. It can cause infertility among many other things. Please catch it earlier than I did. You don’t have to live at the whim of your reproductive organs attacking you.

#I hope this helps someone #ladies with reproductive organs #PCOS #ovarian cysts #heath stuff #graphic talk of womanly reproductive cycle #periods #women's health #when your #uterus #attacks you

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