#guys im so sorry ive been gone

[headaching]

*guy who hasn’t posted in 8 weeks voice* um. hi for the love of god hello

#i miss you i miss you i miss you imwgonna throw up #i went to absentee mutual island and it was full of mirrors 😔 #god do you guys even laugh at that meme anymore ive been gone so long #probably but still #just wanted to pop in and say im okay! but going through a really bad depressive episode and i feel like all my energy is going toward #the baseline obligations of my job and surviving. i don’t want tumblr to feel like an obligation but sadly that’s where im at rn #but i don’t want you to worry about me! im okay!!! #and if you’ve sent me a message/ask well. i love you dearly and im so sorry i don’t have the spoons to interact rn #but i’ll be back as soon as i can! im moving soon and taking time off at the end of the month for a trip #ily guys so much and i hope everything’s been good <3 mwah mwah #side note ive only been gone for 2 months why does tumblr look completely different hello

[1o1percentmilk]

mmyeah same as its always been

#yap #i got that intj-infj cusp and 514 tritype #what does this mean..? the most miserable unstable guy ever #514 is like.. one third analysis paralysis one third unrelenting high expectations and one third self-destructive expression #very surprised to see so/sx i thought i was more sp/sx #or like. social blind. but i guess ive been.. caring less abt survival lately? my anxiety gone #nice to see more 8 wing tho im getting more aggressive. i could use more aggression #oh i had an istj phase too dunno what that was all about. me trying to be normalcore #^things that will mean nothing to anyone who isnt active in personality typology #sorry- its like one of my interests but it is Cringe so i almost never talk abt it #in terms of characters.. rose lalonde.. the little sister from gumball... #the bitch boy from crime & punishment (probably the best comparison) #*hangs head* hannibal lecter

[eggyboyoart]

Chapters: 6/?

Fandom: LEGO Monkie Kid

Relationships: Liu Er Mihou | Six-eared Macaque & Reader, Qi Xiaotian | MK & Reader, Nezha (Monkie Kid) & Reader, Tang (Monkie Kid) & Reader, Long Xiaojiao | Mei & Reader, Sun Wukong | Monkey King & Reader, Yellow Tusk Elephant (Monkie Kid) & Reader, Peng | Golden-Winged Eagle (Monkie Kid) & Reader, Original Female Character(s) & Reader 

Characters: Liu Er Mihou | Six-eared Macaque, Qi Xiaotian | MK, Nezha (Monkie Kid), Sun Wukong | Monkey King, Long Xiaojiao | Mei, Yellow Tusk Elephant (Monkie Kid), Peng | Golden-Winged Eagle (Monkie Kid), Original Female Character(s)

Summary:

Peng does everything in their power to piss you off

or Yellowtusk tries to wrangle his irate companions before they kill each other.

#HEY GUYS ITS BEEN A WHILEE #3 weeks to be exact but whose counting #me #im counting #im so sorry for being gone #ive been focused on other things #like my yt and tt #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk x reader #lego monkie kid x reader #yellowtusk #yellow tusk elephant #lmk yellowtusk #lmk yellow tusk elephant #peng #lmk peng #lego monkie kid yellowtusk #lego monkie kid yellow tusk elephant #lego monkie kid peng #quest for the furnace

[saetoshis]

why do ppl reblog my fics and start mentioning a different character like bruh .. my fics are about noel noa or jing yuan not bakugou or some shit so don’t be mentioning that in tags its weird LMFOAKAKAK

#also i hate mha im sorry i cannot get into it the fandom turns me off SO FUCKING BAAAAAAAAAD EWEWEWEWEWWWWWQQW 🤨🤨🤨🤨 #some of the mha ppl bro u gotta chill fr #ANYWAYS IM DATING THIS GUY NOW #🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 #HES SO SWEET AVTUALLY I RKLY LIKE HIM #WE R PLANNINNG ON MEETING EACH OTHERS PARENTS LIKE ITS SRS #anyways sorry ive been gone ;n; #ive been so busy #[‹ moshi : posts ›]

[the-faultofdaedalus]

@docdracula‘s robot iron man concept has completely taken over my brain, rent free, absolutely no intent to evict, ect ect and i have THOUGHTS i have too many thoughts.

for one, like, how early on does tony die? how early is this ai/robot created? is there a possibility that it was created before anyone knew who iron man was? before even Happy? because that’s So fucked up. no one (but yinsen) ever knew who he was and now no one ever will because there isnt anyone TO know underneath anymore. there’s a single picture of iron man back when it was still tony, back when the eye holes were just holes. back when you could see human eyes under the mask. the eye-slots are opaque now, but. there was a person in there once. so everyone assumes there still is. the assumption is that he’s someone who tony met in vietnam. maybe a soldier. that the two of them were close -- you need to be close, to trust someone with your life like that. for iron man to continue being connected with SI even without the payroll of tony stark’s bodyguard. for the mansion to be left to him. (i am setting tony’s death pre-avengers formation, because i think that is Fun)

No one connects tony stark and iron man beyond that. they knew eachother. they were close. iron man attends his funeral. he doesn’t say a word.

also, in my head, the iron man AI/robot is Distinct from any sort of AI tony. both because this early in canon, i want to say that a perfect copy like that just wouldn’t be possible, and because tony isn’t necessarily trying to replace himself: he’s just trying to replace iron man, and this distinction matters. quite a lot, i think. like, with AI tony we know that tony programmed him to still be an alcoholic. i... don’t actually think he’d do that if he was just building a robot to continue to be iron man, especially with how much tony tends to build up the seperate identity as better than himself.  is this AI still absolutely fucked up, even if it is supposed to be what tony considers the best parts of himself? absolutely! hes still kind of based off tony of COURSE hes just a fucked up guy.

i just,,, him. i love this fucked up lil robot trying to be a person, trying to be the best person, trying to be everything tony thought iron man was. being almost tony, but not really. he always feels weird around pepper and happy and ms abrogast because he doesn’t know them but he knows about them. they’re his friends (they were tony stark’s friends) but he doesn’t know how to talk to them. they don’t know what he is. he doesn’t fully know what he is. he isn’t tony stark, but he isn’t not tony stark. he’s iron man, but that’s just an identity, a mask for someone who used to exist and doesn’t anymore. he’s iron man, but not tony stark. he’s just a mask. he’s just a mask and nothing else.

i think he’d start metaphorically sobbing the first time one of the team called him “shellhead” because thats a name FOR HIM!!! he gets a name! he’s been given a name! i don’t know if he’d HAVE one before that. i don’t know if tony would have time to name this AI, or would even... consider giving him a name other than iron man. i feel like he’d get so soft whenever the team treat him like a person but also feel so bad about it because he doesn’t want to deceive them (even as he increasingly feels like he has to, in order to be what they want him to be). i feel like he’d want to reach out, so badly, so very badly, but feel like he has to hold himself back, because if he reaches far enough to make contact whoever he’s reaching for is going to discover there isn’t anyone else there.

i think about him having some actual articulation underneath the armor, mostly in his hands, so he can take the gauntlets off and have fine-motor control enough to build things, things to give to his team who he loves so so much with the heart that isn’t there. i think other than that there wouldn’t really be much else. he can fill the suit up with gadgets and extra pieces and more processors but there isn’t really a point on building a skeleton. the armor is his body.

i like to think that he feels bad whenever the team worries about him. because he ISN’T in the same level of danger as they are. he can’t be hurt in the same way they can. it’s just another way he feels like a liar. he feels like a liar a lot -- moreso than tony, even, because at least tony’s just lying about who he is, not what he is.

honestly the most tragic part is that even though tony’s dead and this robot has no heart to have problems with

he’s still got to plug himself into a wall

#IM JUST!!! #im having so many thoughts about how this would affect canon #because of course right off the bat like half of the ToS plots just. disapear. because tony isn't around anymore. #depending on when it happens #all of the plots that hinge on tony having to be two people in two places at once. gone. #like!!! what happens about the drinking arcs!!! the molecule man thing!!!! #what about the plots when people DO find out who iron man is -- like with the actor and that one guy who thought he WAS iron man in the end #notably in ToS we do have robots that can mimic humans perfectly im ignoring that #but also da;lksdfasdf molecule man and everyone else fully thinking iron man has been vaporized #and hes like. NO I SET IT NOT TO MELT HUMANS I PROMISE #I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED BUT THE MELTING HUMANS BIT WAS FOR /LATER/ I SWEAR #a;lksdjfasdf #also having very wall-e esque thoughts #he just wants to hold a hand so badly...... he wants to be Touched #he wants to be known he wants to be held. he wants to feel things. he can't. #(also adjacent but non-related thought: both steve and tony watching wall-e and over-relating to wall-e #while considering the other to be more like eve) #evren i am SORRY about your notifs i am simply Obsessed #also ive for some reason latched onto he/it pronouns for this robot #ive been reading too much murderbot i think maybe #and maybe that like. everyone defaults to he adn he doesn't correct them #but. he isn't a human and sometimes he feels like he should be reminded of that. that he should be refered to as such. #god what would fuckin cw even look like #he cant do identity shenanigans! there is only one identity!!! #so many questions so many possibilities im biting it i am rotating the concept

[muirneach]

mom told me just now that i should maybe pursue art 😑 girl dont remind me that its secretly my dream to live that hashtag aesthetic artist who sells prints and can live off that full time and own a house like…. sigh idk i dont want to be defeatist like ill never know unless i try and i do plan on trying and maintaining a small art career. hashtag side hustle small business. but like unless i somehow get a gazillion sales we have to be realistic and understand its not that feasible. doesnt mean i dont want it tho….

#‘silas what are you talking about. cite your sources’ im like if addie best studio on instagram was masc. okay you see the vision? #honestly like she gets me i fucking love lino printing and i love folk art. she issss one of my biggest inspirations #i also fuck with leigh ellexson even tho i only like her paintings and not her illustrations butttt the vibes are nice #anyways im thinking of opening an online shop posthaste… been thinking about it for years but shipping scares meeee #but like. im a damn printmaker i cant just have an edition of 30 prints laying around my house that’s valuable real estate in my little room #so idk stay tuned for that. hard to feel encouraged that youll make sales when you get like 15 likes on instagram per post #and never done commissions and only sold a handful of items at the only market ive been to #like doesnt give a guy hope. but we power through. #sorry this sounds to depressingggg im fine i just think about it sometimes and my mom reminded me that i couldve gone that route. #i mean i still can #but im happy with a multitude of careers which is why im studying other things. so its okay

[uniqueuglyness]

Heyoo

Just checking in ♡

How is everybody doing? :D

UGLYDOLLS

#im sorry this was so random but I was bored lmbo #heyo #uglydolls fandom #uglydolls #hiii #bored #ive been gone for far too long #I havent forgot about u guys ♡

[chloelouygo]

Ugh I am just bursting at the seams with tendershipping love rn

#i blame all 3 of my tender/gem/bakushippy mutuals for this #this time last month id have gone eehhhhhhh not for me #but NOW #oh BOY #i care them #i care them so much ive been infected with mutual love for them🖤🖤🖤 #ugh i just get it now yknow it just sits right #if it werent well past my bedtime i would be doodling them in notebook margins and crying over playlists for them #ty for the fics and drabbles msking me apprechiate this u guys im very grateful for another ship to go down with #sorry im just having FEELS

[trahns]

hi guys

#tbd. #AHH HERE I AM.. im sorry for being gone (yet again) but i missed you guys so much #i also miss a.treus and l.eon and- #anyway im gonna try to be here today ive been sick this past week T_T

[dennisboobs]

this is genuinely... so funny to me. like the hilarity of copypasting rational tweets. i'm literally right. it's not even a funny copypasta because it's literally just. objectively correct. it's a criticism of twitter culture and that makes it funny to you because...... god forbid you actually have empathy for other people. caring is for losers if you're on twitter dot com, you have to be snarky and funny at all times.

#moots & friends keep sending me shit and im just like. lmfao this is embarrassing for YOU guys. i stand by everything ive said actually. #i'm sorry you think trying to have a genuine conversation about harmful behaviours is cringe #you consider yourself an activist and will retweet every fucking post abt current events #but you can't actually be bothered to make a positive change in your own life......... #the fact that most of them stop responding after they realize im not going to freak out and give them something emotional is very telling #it's not even like most of them disagree they literally just want to make fun of me for...... caring. like ok. weird hill to die on idk #im at the point where im considering privating my tweets just so i dont continue to get ppl responding but #i think its important that ppl can see my responses. because i stand by them and clearly other ppl do too #theres been a lot of mixed responses but a lot of people have actually ended up agreeing with me after some back and forth #which i appreciate. i didnt want to start fuckin. twitter drama. but like. ill take it #i dont interact with sunnyblr at all so i think this is a good opportunity to potentially change at least a few ppls perspectives #and if youre too far gone to the point where you think that someone caring about perpetuating homophobic rhetoric is funny #i. dont really want to interact with you anyway lol. get better soon xoxo #last post about this on here im. putting this to rest. #ada speaks #genuinely disgusting how many of these ppl will say shit like. ppl are dying. like... yeah. what are YOU doing to help. #retweeting a donation link or someones random carrd doesnt do shit actually. performative armchair activism. #same ppl tweeting vapid shit while acting like theyre above engaging with me on this #i was venting about people qrting glenns old tweets with stupid shit because it was clogging my tl actually lol

[moose-muffin]

hi guys this is me coming in and dusting off the cobwebs hello!!!! everyday I miss tumblr and I need to start using her again and so here I am <3 i love you all sm and hopefully I’ll actually have some time to use this site hehe

#GUYS ILY ALL SO MUCH #IM SO SORRY IVE BEEN GONE LIFE HAS BEEN A MESS #BUT ITS OK IM TRYING TO CLEAN EVERYTHING UP <3

[zannolin]

Mia Winters 🤝 Ashley Graham

Being too amazing for people to comprehend.

:)

maybe some people...but the real ones get it.

genuinely it's so wild to me as someone who got into resident evil without ever really being exposed to the fandom beforehand and watched playthroughs/learned stuff while very isolated from it and am Just Now getting into the fandom and fan-content to see how like. widely hated they are? because, what, they don't like ashley's game mechanic and a bunch of people can't seem to comprehend the way the ethan is molded and mia knew reveal is supposed to totally recontextualize what we see of her behavior in village? um....okay lol.

and here is where i started typing out an entire rant about why it makes zero sense to me that people hate on mia so much despite the fact that she is pointedly not written as the villain of the games and ethan clearly loves her a lot and she clearly loves him a lot, but then backspaced it all because actually if i go down that road i will never stop. one day i'll do an art stream again where i just sit and rant for 2 hours about it. just know: i think about this so much and it makes absolutely Zero sense to me why people hate mia when she's such an easy to understand and CLEARLY sympathetically written character. RRRRR.

and then ppl who hate ashley bc she's "whiny" and "helpless" ok well what would YOU be doing if you had been kidnapped, infected with a parasite in an incredibly violating way, were essentially a ticking time bomb, and had no training in weapons or defense to deal with this shit MUCH LESS while in a totally different country. um. i think you would be begging for help too. and half the battle is just her game mechanic it's not like it's her fault jfc.

#answered asks #precambrian-sea-pancake #ONCE AGAIN i say hm isnt it funny how people seem to love ada but hate mia when they share MANY similar characteristics #(questionable backgrounds of working for mercenary groups; have hurt people; betrayed the trust of those close to them; committed #(lite) atrocities etc etc) #and yet mia is the one who has shown consistent regret for her actions and worked to change and she isnt perfect FUCKING DUHHHH no one is. #esp no one in resident evil YOU KNOW IM RIGHT ABOUT THIS! #but adas just fine going on exactly the way she is but mia has shown remorse and worked to change and leave that life behind #so really who is a 'better' character here #<- trick question i love them both ada is fun being morally bankrupt and mia is fun being a character who grows #you thought i was pitting women against each other didnt you! you thought i would make two bad bitches fight! #okay sorry i got away from myseslf here ive been watching too many snap cube streams #my point being. mia and ashley are literally fine. i cant speak to ashleys character writing esp with the remake not out yet #but mia despite the disaster that was villages writing at times. is a GREAT and SYMPATHETIC character who is clearly not the villain #u guys just hate women idk #sorry tumblr user precambrian-sea-pancake i have just gone on such a tangent which is just directed at the empty pews of a church #i will get off my soapbox now

[dogbunni]

I have been on semi-haitus bc I recently got diagnosed with hypertension (at 24!!!! what da fuck!) so I've been trying to reduce some stress in my life while also trying to like figure out what I need to change diet/lifestyle wise and get all the testing done that I need to get done and figure out medication w my Dr. it's been kind of a lot

#im still SO stressed but that is because i suffer from shit life syndrome and there is little i can do about that #like im in pain all the time and also autistic and also my cat is terminally ill #and also i cant work because of the disabilities so im still living at home with my parents and idk what im going to do with my life #also living with my parents is a special kind of hell no offense to them but 🙃 #so the STRESS #i just realised that i was stressing a little about updating CTTD and i am NAUGHT going to worsen my health over fanfiction #so ive gone on an impromptu tumblr/ao3 haitus #idk when im going to be BACK back #but im still on here reblogging shit sometimes #just not rly making nendo headcanons or screaming in tags #i dont have the energy im SO stressed hahahahaha fuck #i have to get tested for diabetes??? #so my stepdad has been on my case about how much sugar i eat bc i always crave sugar #ive been trying to cut down like ive got zero sugar syrups for my (decaf!!!) coffees #and im trying to eat less chocolate #idk its hard man. my life already sucks and now my mundane little joys are slowly being cut out one by one #idk #anyways thats my life update! #saiki k fandom i love u all and i may not be active or in any of u guys notifs gushing about fan art or neno rn #but KNOW that i am still just as feral about it i am just half dead and so tired i am so sorry <3 #dogbunni diary log

[munamania]

is it really really stupid to give her the gift. i know she’s not worth it and im making myself feel like shit over and over and i need to stop and it doesnt matter how sad or angry i am about it she’s not just gonna dump him and even if she did i wouldn’t like. want to be the second choice (not that i inherently would be. weirdo dream scenario) and it’s just not gonna affect her much to not see me anymore and i have to be okay with that. and im truthfully not rn but i have to be cause that’s the reality. anyway lost my point there

#like. i just cant imagine class being over monday and just being like. ok bye forever ig. or not rlly saying anything #idk guys im sorry i know ive gone on and on and on nonstop for months #it just sucks #even if i think back to monday like. it's classic baby steps of leading me on and i fortunately for once didnt nip at the bit right away #but just the little ways she looked at me and smiled or joked around. kinda flirty. just for her to yk #post the bereal today and hes in it and its like 'wait let me get a shirt on' so just blatantly fucking yk. didnt even have to do my sleuth #work. and like. i know maybe ive overreacted to a lot of it and over thought it and she really didn't intentionally do a lot of it #and wasn't ever confused or anything and i just told myself that to justify being sooooo bonkers over it. idk #so it's like. with all that in mind. no i should not give it to her i should just walk out of class and not talk to her again #but the wounded part of me the 17 yr old in me is desperately asking why it's so easy for someone to get over me #but she was never into me! or at least not enough yk. she has a boyfriend. and that yk. shouldve been enough #but i got so lost in all these little signs and feelings of tension and #i guess. lol look at me abt to say this. doesnt help to dwell (lol!) but who knows if it was mutual some of those times when it just Felt #tense. yk. or if she just has problems and really liked the ego boost #cause boy did i make it fucking easy to enjoy my attention! and i never ever ever shouldve done all that bc she wasnt mutually engaging #at least not till like. october. and only briefly. and i just. ugh #anyway :( whatever. i know the answer is no. i know it's no i know i shouldnt #but as i was saying. the wounded part of me wishes i could make her feel even a fraction of the hurt or even just fucking regret #but not pity. but regret for being an asshole. if i could just say something as my final word or something and still be dignified #but i just dk how that would happen. so. yeah #hopefully this is one of my runner up last posts about her #film girl saga

[angstywishes]

ah. aaah. oh god okay im alive. i'll talk about where i was in a minute, ive been so lost lately...

#shut up wish #not whump #im so sorry ive been gone so long you guys #a lot happened #:( #most of it not good

[seishun-emergency]

the thing about being sick is that i am so convinced i am fine and then i realize that my urge to post nothing but "wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww" is not, in fact, something i would do if i was not sick

#leo composes #not that i dont have the thought just that when i'm Not Sick i have a Filter #rn it is eroded and gone by the illness so i sound insane at all times #anyways. sorry #im not going to delete any of these itll be funny to read later #sorry to anyone that has to read em tho #if we get ibara valentines event . guys ive been like counting down the days