#guess im soloing this group presentation :)

[itsscromp]

HEHHE IM BACKKK!!!

Teen reader completes their first mission as a Lin Kuei! They're young so it's not that difficult, but Kuai Liang and Tomas are proud anyway? Just need some sibling figures in my life, I'm jealous of people with siblings 😭

- 💀 anon

Kuai Liang and Toma Vbrada x Reader

They would be the proudest brothers ever, seeing their sibling complete their first-ever mission. Warnings: Brief descriptions of blood, Word count:797

All your hard work and training as a Lin Kuei has led you to this, Your very first solo mission, Tomas and Kuai were super proud of how far you have come since first joining the clan. You were gearing up before BI-Han stopped you to give some last minute advice.

"Remember y/n, only engage in Kombat when all options are lost" Bi-Han warned.

"Yes grandmaster" You nodded before looking over to the other two, nodding before heading out the door.

Your mission was to infiltrate a rival clan base and steal their prized dagger which previously belonged to the Lin Kuei. and plans for future robberies. You made it to the base, launched your grapple, climbed your way up to the rooftops of the building and began to sneak your way in.

Finding guards and blowing sleep darts on them, instantly knocking them out. You carefully slipped down inside the building and snuck to the room of where the dagger was placed.

"Found it" You whispered and then gently inspected the dagger, Kuai Liang told you that there was a certain dragon mark on it where the start of the blade was. Closely inspecting it and then finding the dragon mark.

But as you did you saw someone in the reflection of the blade and then launched into Kombat. The person launched a fury of attacks and then knocking you over the railing, hitting the ground.

"The dagger. Hand it over now !!!"

"It's not your's, It was handed to generations of Lin Kuei" You then pulled out your dagger, and swung it readying yourself for anything.

"Then you will die just like the rest of them" Other members of the clan then surrounded you, They looked bigger and stronger than you. But to your advantage, you were younger and faster so you knocked over and killed the members before leaving their grandmaster remaining.

"You and the entire Lin Kuei will pay for this !!!" He then pulled his sword out and tried to swing at you.

But once again your extreme training from the three proved your biggest advantage as you easily counted each and every attack with ease. You then pulled out a smoke bomb courtesy of Tomas and threw it on the ground, disappearing right in front of his eyes.

"Where did you go you little prick !!!" He yelled angrily as he looked around for you.

You popped up right behind him and stabbed the dagger deep into his neck, Blood spurting profusely. He gurgled as he then looked around again to find you. Your stealth was all over the place as you stabbed him in multiple places as you launched the final blow and killed him, His blood all over the ground. You did it.

After you left the base, you found a nearby river, washing the blood off yourself and then headed back to the Lin Kuei. Presenting the dagger to Bi-Han and the plans to him.

"Good job y/n, You served the mission well" He respectfully nodded and went on his way.

You then reached your room ready for some sleep, But guess who greeted you first with his arms wrapped around you.

"We're so proud of you y/n !!" Tomas smiled so brightly and congratulated you and hugged you tightly.

"Thank you Tomas" You smiled and hugged him back.

"All the training you did has helped you in every way possible, We cannot be even more proud of you y/n, Well done" Kuai smiled and joined in on the group hug.

"Did you use my smoke bomb ??" Tomas spoke up and asked with such curiosity.

"I did" You smiled and that caused him to smile so much brighter.

The two couldn't stop gushing about how proud they were of you completing your first mission as a Lin Kuei.

"How about tomorrow night we go to Madam Bo's for dinner to celebrate ??" Kuai suggested.

"I'd like that, Thank you, guys" You smiled brightly.

The two didn't want to leave your sight and stayed with you. You gently fell asleep with you in their arms, They were so damn proud of you for how far you have achieved, they could not be even more proud of their sibling. Could never be more proud.

The next day, Kuai and Tomas celebrated the entire day about your victorious mission. They continued to gush about you to the other members of the Lin Kuei and just stayed by your company the whole day. You couldn't be anymore happier with them.

When the night arrived the two headed to Madam Bo's and Kuai said to order whatever they wanted, Ordering the biggest meal. You were so happy, Kuai and Tomas were even happier. You were their sibling. So damn proud of you.

Taglist: @callofdudes @fun-k-board

#platonic #reader insert #Kuai Liang #Tomas Vbrada #Kuai Liang x reader #Tomas Vbrada x reader #Scorpion mk1 #Smoke mk1 #Scorpion x reader #Smoke x reader #mortal kombat x reader #Mortal kombat 1

[ballet-symphonie]

Vaganova Ballet Academy Asks

So there is official information of Koshkareva signing a solo contract with Bolshoi and Nikolay Tsiskaridze's close friend (devilonpointshoes on Telegram) and ballet enthusiasts on ballet forums stating that Koshkareva, Valiullina, and Kuprina going to Bolshoi. How do you feel about all the star students going to Bolshoi instead of Mariinsky like many expected? It isn't unexpected that Valiullina is going to Bolshoi given that she suits that company but with Koshkareva and Kuprina being Mariinsky's trainees for a year, and their dance style suiting Mariinsky more, I really do not understand why they chose Bolshoi (perhaps they were given soloist role straight away)? Anyways I'm also confused if Koshkareva is going to Bolshoi like Kuprina, why is her name not taken down from the trainee name list on the Mariinsky website... Honestly idk how to feel about this and ngl Im pretty disappointed that Koshkareva and Kuprina are not going to Mariinsky :(

The Bolshoi is the fast track. These girls have been promoted as stars and BT has likely made them big promises to keep treating them that way. With how the Bolshoi gives out roles at the speed of light to young prominent grads, plus the benefits that generally come with dancing in Moscow (read: money), the offers are likely very tempting. The corps life is tough, no one wants to do it if they don't have to lmao.

I thought with this reinvented MT and more publicized MT trainee situation that MT management would have managed to keep at least one of Koshkareva and Kuprina but I guess not. I am actually more surprised Valiullina is tagging along as I thought her body type might hold her back. While I agree with many that her dancing fits the broad movement and expressive style of the Bolshoi, that’s unfortunately not exactly what goes on stage all the time nowadays at BT, maybe its about 50/50 now depending which principals are cast.

Hi Ale! Any news on Daria Kulikova? How is she doing at the Academy? I think the 2023 class is a powerful one, and my opinion isn't based on who is better. But there's something about Kulikova??? I don't know... but I like her dancing and I'm rooting for her, there's just something special, artistic I see in her.

The 2023 class has just been everywhere and she hasn’t been one of the most hyped ones for obvious reasons. I don’t think I’ve seen where she’s going but I also haven’t been crawling through the TG channels looking for information about her you know? 

With the ‘big 3’ of this class heading to BT, there’s likely some MT spots available, which is theoretically what she would want after changing schools so late in the games.  

Do you think there will ever be a Kovaleva graduate to top Vishneva off? I honestly don't and it's not because there weren't other talented girls to graduate, but it's just that none of the ones who came after, could even compare to Vishneva, let alone surpass her. Koshkareva for example, is really talented, but it's already being called the 'next Vishneva', so... I will say though, after Vishneva, only Smirnova and Khoreva came a little close and probably Koshkareva will too.

I don’t think she will ever top Vishneva, she’s a once in a 100 years type of a dancer. I also don’t know how much longer she will continue to work. Her talent as a pedagogue is immense, she’s proven that she can train exceptional dancers with different body types, backgrounds and ambitions. Her training and her graduates, quite literally is defining the past, present and future of Russian ballet.  

how do the “classes” at vaganova work?? like if it’s class of kovaleva, does that mean that she’s taught them all 8 years at vaganova orrr 

No, if a ballerina is listed as ‘class of Kovaleva’ that means that she taught their graduate year. Generally, the teachers will change every 1-3 years as some teachers are especially skilled at working with different age groups. 

#ballet #ballerina #vaganova #vaganova ballet academy #russian ballet #ludmilla kovaleva #daria Kulikova #Maria koshkareva #Yaroslavna Kuprina #Sofia Valiullina

[jeonqkooks]

i couldnt agree more with you! i really dont understand why everyone is so hyped over seven. i have to admit it kind of disappointed me with its shallow lyrics. and i dont understand the purpose of the explicit version? i really hate it. and i think its okay not to like every single song they put out, being an army definitely doesnt mean you have to agree with everything they say, do… but i really hope that the rest of the songs in his album wont be so shallow and i really want them to be more unique like the rest of their songs… i feel like with songs like seven you can listen to them a couple of times and then get bored (but maybe thats just my opinion idk). tbh i think jk is just trying to show us something different than what he showed us previously and i dont blame him for that. but im definitely more looking forward to the songs that he will actually write because im sure that he is capable of writing deeper and more meaningful lyrics. and even if the whole album is in english it doesnt necessarilly mean its going to be completely westernized, right? he did say he wants to try new genres… i think he just wants to challenge himself to try something new and i think a fully-english album is a part of that.

either way, i really wish him all the best because i genuinely believe he’s a bit lost and lonely without other members. to me, it seems that the hiatus definitely had the biggest impact on him? but at the end on the day, 2025 is not THAT far away and im excited for when we can see them as a group again💜 jk even said (recently) that after hiatus they will come back even stronger and i think these words are definitely worth lookig forward to💜

p.s. im sorry for such a long message🥲 i just wanted to share my thoughts on here… and i apologize for my poor english😬

if Watt wanted a no brainer song then he succeeded 😂 and yeah i don't like the explicit ver lol someone i follow here said it sounds like they only did it for shock value, which i kinda agree with. the explicit ver cheapened a song that barely had any meaning to begin with (y'all do not come after me for this. you know it's true) but i guess people really wanted to hear him say fuck 😂

true. jk is definitely trying to show a different side of him and good for him, honestly. but i don't think it necessarily reflects in the quality of the songs yk? i think this is more about presenting a new image rather than exploring the sound.

when you say just bc it's in english doesn't mean it's completely westernized, that is also true. but then considering the people he's working with, i'm not holding out much hope for that 😔

the hiatus... yeah :( they raised him, he literally spent half of his life with them and this is the first time he has to be apart from them in like 13 years. also i feel like there's this kinda pressure for them to all release a solo album before enl*sting, so idk if this also plays a part in him not taking the time to focus on His sound himself but yeah just putting this out there

do not apologize for the long message!! i love it i truly truly do. you could send me 50 whole pages of condensed text and i will still be left wanting more. i love that we can have respectful conversations about this :') and what r u talking about, your english is flawless!!

#anon #answered

[misslauwie]

Why hold them to a different bar?

Am a baby army. And honestly I am not sorry to say that Jimin recruited me and hes my ultimate bias within the Group. Hence why I will write this post which I think also applies to the other members as well not just Jimin.

I do wonder sometimes why BTS fans hold BTS to an impossible standard? Been reading in the socmed where some have been criticizing JM for his lack of updates in social media. How then hes perceived and called the laziest member. & im indignant by those comments floating around on the internet. Because if you follow their story, lazy would be the farthest adjective to describe them. Each one of them.

Looking back for the past 10 years, they have produce more albums than Coldplay. Coldplay themselves have admitted it during one of the interview. And their songs broke language barrier by having beats that is so catchy you catch yourself singing along even though you cant speak Korean. And when you dig down to the meaning behind their songs / music, you find a message so profound and good that is much needed in the current time where people like to tear eo down behind anonymity.

So lets become a better human as Jimin always strive and lets learn to love better. They have teach us to love ourselves better and we owe it to them to love them better too. By giving them time and space to breathe and most importantly trust them that they will come back to us when they are ready.

If you are real army, you wont miss how much content they have provided for us for the last decade. Other idols / artists at least western ones dont even operate like BTS do. BTS have given the best 10 years of their youth to army. And even if Im a baby army, I feel sad sometimes coz surely they have their own needs too. Some says its occupational hazard. Is it really? Remember Chris Martin said that he feels protective of BTS coz they dont have the same freedom like other artists do. I agree with Chris.

Need to reiterate that they are more than just idols or comedians during Run eps to lift your moods up. They are brilliant musicians that comes only once in every generation. This is clearly shown by songs that they have produced individually. They love us enough to share their love to music.. dont sour it up and made them apathetic towards music because that will be the tragedy of the century.

Actually as much as I stan them and miss them and wait for new content. Sometimes I wonder if its fair to expect them to immediately come back as a group after their military duty. Even currently they are taking time to produce solo works and go to military one by one so that army can get contents. This is very heart warming. As Jimin said their argument within the group typically stem from how they feel about army. And now please lets pay it back and forward by giving them space and time and freedom to grow more beautifully in their 2nd chapter. A love that is stifling will stunt their growth instead of letting them florish.

Sometimes I wonder why they cant be like US musicians and also live a normal life. Because they are human first just like us. They have their own wants, needs, aspirations, family... Let them breathe and live life..

I really do feel that if more army send their assurances to each members that we will still be there waiting for them and love them and support them.. and they do not need to join the rat race... then they will be able to bloom even more brilliantly and will present us the best of their music that is even more stunning in colors from their rich life experiences. Remember they are musicians, artists.. and good art is not instant or made-to-order.

So lets stop second guessing what they are doing right now, why they are not hanging out w eo so much like previously. They live together for the better part of their teenage years. I do think its healthy that they branch out and have friendships / relationships outside of their group. If life teaches me something, some people that you have bonded especially in your younger days will stay through thick and thin even though you dont spend every waking moments with them. When you meet with them again you just click and bond again. Trust after this period of growth, their bond will continue to be strong. And who are we really to judge just from a glimpse of their lives thats pretty much curated for us to see?

I get it that BTS is inspiring and we love them so much because they are relatable. They are generous in terms of sharing their personal struggles and wins. And we should be grateful that they did. But its not a standard that we should hold them to for the rest of their lives.. They should be allowed their personal space to grow. Namjoon has said that KPoP doesnt allow them time to grow. Lets support them right now by giving them time to flourish individually.

Sorry for the ramblings but my heart just ache when I think that after 2 years of gruelling military duty where im sure its physically draining, mentally challenging.. we expect them to immediately become our personal entertainers by coming out as a group. I love them, i love their content, excited when they drop content but at the same time I dont want their "black swan" song to materialize.

If nothing else, pls realize that a musician or artist like BTS dont come in every generation. So please dont take them for granted and appreciate them.

#bts #btsjimin

[june-of-earth]

12/26-22

1. I’m in a city. A metropolis in what feels like a dystopian present day, kinda has a 70/80s filter to it. Def in the first person. Traveling through the grit of the inner city to the main heart of downtown. I’m with a group of friends at this abandon lot used by skaters and rangers for the space the owner (a thrasher of sorts) allows. We are all just making the day of ourselves when we find out police have been sent by the actual land owner to vacate people out. It’s rush hour for the downtown population, he lose the police in the crowds. Like blood cells the heart of the pumps as we make our way into the heart of the city.

2. I find myself in a shopping center looking at games and playing records. Everything is so cheap it’s cloud nine how this is a steal. I leave and run into this old man, late 60s. Kinda has this “I’ve been or seen some shit” head on his shoulders. We hang out every now and then, I’m guessing we’re friends. We have talks about the way the future is going and have these chats meeting old heads of the music scene. He’s a journalist, or was he says something on the lines of his motto. “Journalism, can take you across the world to find a story that’s end up being about the death of the next Stalin.” Didn’t know what he meant, I enjoy the evening in all its splendor.

3. Im driving around town with these two people. We have to pick up something. A package maybe. We have to travel to the next spot. Later I’m with family I think. We’re discussing something. I’m happy to see their pets again, especially their new one. He somehow knows human speech and which throws me off on how cool he is. The dream ends with people taking care of the dogs, idk if they are leaving and have house sitters. I grab the dogs and say I’m not going anywhere I’ll take care of them. And I wake up.

I hope you had a happy holidays if you celebrated. As for my with everything that’s going on atm. I’ve just stayed in & did a solo journey this holiday and mostly slept in. I’ll keep you up to date. Anywho I’ll talk to y’all soon. Later!

-Rico ✌🏼

#dreams #self

[small-angry-turtle]

W.I.T.C.H. Chinese element analysis

First version of this dissapeared, so Im gonna be salty the whole time. Im finally on my meds and I do what I want. Hogwarts houses are here for better understanding. Also, give this young man some love and protect him at all costs, he came up with the types.

This is just an experiment, take it or leave it.

Metal/Cornelia Hale

Textbook Metal person, if you didn´t guess. 

Has high expectations both on herself and every other person. Gets depressed if she doesn´t meet them.

Someone would argue she belongs to Earth, but her solo player attitute tells me otherwise. Quick and efficient, does her shit very well.

Loves to show off, her paradise is huge wardrobe full of clothes and shoes. Extremely materialistic. Would choose quality over quantity.

She acts cold and tough, but she´s actually soft on the inside and hates, when people bring it up. Occasionally paranoid.

Needs attention.

Slytherin, mix of scholar, bussiness person and stereotype.

Water/Hay Lin

Sensitive and emotional, cannot control herself when she falls in love with Eric. Wouldn´t defend herself when depressed cause who needs to live anyway.

Either happy and carefree or sad all the time.

Cannot cope with stress.

She is that kind of artist that thinks about her creations carefully, remakes it in her mind several times, unlike Fire people who have quick, short outbursts of inspiration.

Values past over present, sentimental, would make chinese food, art or clothing just for the sake of mental comfort (which is fine, don´t get me wrong).  

Support her, pls

Artistic/weirdo Ravenclaw, loves art in any form, would send you handmade amulets against July ghosts.

Wood/Will Vandom

Creatively smart or chaotically dumb, there´s no in between.

She´s the person you always need in group project. 

She leads 4 completely different people, give her a break. She is the glue of everything.

She´s that type of person who either does absolutely nothing or 10 projects at once. Superwoman or burn-out, there´s no other option. 

She cannot learn for life about technical details, but once you teach it to her, she will magically find a solution to some problem, cause she knows people who know people. Values knowledge in her own way.

Gryffindor Leader, some brain cells, mostly intimidating aura.

Fire/Irma Lair

Never shuts up. Save us.

She´s always in trouble, no one believes it was an accident.

Sharp, cares about your feeling only to to some extend. Brace yourselves against her puns. What are social norms.

Being a local celebrity in school radio is textbook Fire antics you´d like Fire people to participate in, otherwise, fear, it always can get worse.

Usually doesn´t get depressed, and if so, it´s only for short time. 

She is that time of student who doesn´t care about school at all, then she practically inhales knowledge in worrying speed. It always works.

Leader skills, to some extent. Don´t let her do it for longer period of time.

Comedian Hufflepuff, prepare for endless fun. Actually cares for her friends.     

Earth/Taranee Cook

Let her chill and she will make even better work. 

Organized, her room is its own aesthetic. I´d let her design my room.

Bugs are chaos, get them out of her room.

Lashes out only when threatened, doesn´t like drama, stop fights, ya´ll.

Good teamworker, essential, but needs to get out more.

Caring and non-judging, doesn´t hold grudges, helps everyone who needs it. Elitism is bullshit.

Bookworm or toned-down Raveclaw stereotype, more bearable, kinda cool.

#witch #w.i.t.c.h. #will vandom #irma lair #taranee cook #cornelia hale #hay lin

[fymonsta-x]

[INTERVIEW] 20 Questions With Monsta X

Monsta X will perform during an epic virtual concert, Live From Seoul with Luv, on Saturday (Aug. 8).

Presented by LiveXLive, the one-of-a-kind livestream will serve as the idols' only live music event for the year, and will feature them performing a combination of tracks from their 2020 English-language LP All About Luv and hits in their native Korean, including "Fantasia," "Follow," "Dramarama" and more.

Ahead of the much-anticipated concert event, (which was postponed to this weekend after originally being scheduled for July 27), the K-pop group chatted with Billboard over email about everything from the first music they ever purchased, the dream concerts they'd want to attend, what's left on their bucket list as a band, their devotion to their fans (known as Monbebe) and more.

1. What’s the first piece of music that you bought for yourselves, and what was the medium (CD, vinyl, digital download, etc.)?

Shownu: I remember buying Kim Bum Soo's album One Day as a CD.

Minhyuk: I bought a full-length (regular) album of Korean idol Sunbaenim.

Kihyun: A CD of SG Wannabe's 1st album, and that was my first CD.

Joohoney: I used to listen to a lot of songs as MP3 files.

IM: What a Wonderful World by Louis Armstrong.

2. What was the first concert you each saw?

Shownu: I don't remember exactly, but it was probably Ne-Yo's concert in Korea.

Minhyuk: Hmm, the solo concert of Kim Junsu. It was amazing.

Kihyun: It was a concert by Kwill Hyung, a singer from the same agency as us.

Hyungwon: I guess it was a concert of YG singers (YG Entertainment).

Joohoney: Bigbang Concert.

IM: Psy Sunbaenim's concert, which is famous for being super high tension, was my first concert.

3. What was your dream job when you were little kid?

Shownu: Swimmer, office worker and singer.

Minhyuk: I’ve always wanted to be a singer.

Kihyun: President, scientist, pastor, etc.. I had so many dream jobs I wanted to be when I was young.

Hyungwon: It may sound very unexpected, but I had a time when I wanted to be a lawyer.

Joohoney: When I was really young, a soccer player was always on the side of my mind.

IM: I thought about becoming a scientist.

4. Who made you realize you could be an artist full-time?

Shownu: I think it can be simple and easy to start what I want right now, but it was the fans who really made me think that I could be an "artist."

Minhyuk: I think I've convinced myself that I've wanted this job so badly.

Kihyun: Friends or people around me helped me dream of having this dream and become a singer.

Hyungwon: I think I came to realize it because my parents supported me a lot.

Joohoney: Since I saw Michael Jackson’s stage. I think that’s the moment I’ve wanted to be an artist full-time.

IM: I liked to sing, and I started to have a dream of becoming a singer.

Read full interview on billboard.com

#monsta x #mx6 #t: interview #200807 #billboard

[winterbl0ss0m]

stealing this utapri game from nana bc bored. im gonna try to Not say ai for most answers but its very likely that i will

1. your best boy?

hmm i dont kn- AI MIKAZE 😋

2. your least favorite boy?

camus and eiichi 🤼‍♂️

3. a character you never thought you would love as much as you do now?

hmm kinda otoya, my love for him grew a lot larger than what it was at first i started the anime for ai so i didnt pay much attention to like everything else but also reiji. i started sl before watching the anime and reiji was kinda just There for me but after watching the anime and reading about his story in the og games i just- *sob* he deserves so much better he’s amazing and i love him

4. a character you relate to in any way?

haruka and i guess cecil? 👁 ill get back to u on the second one but yeah definitely haruka shes one of my highest kins i am cringe but i am free

5. a character you think deserves more love?

CECIL ;_; he’s so sweet he deserves the world

6. a character you would want as your partner/lover?

do you even need to ask WHO DO YOU THINK-

7. a character you would want as your mentor/senpai?

reiji !!

8. your favorite ship?

me x ai JKJK harutomo <3 i also like otoharu, cesshiharu, and masaharu :]

9. a character you want to cosplay/have already cosplayed?

i think cosplaying otoya or syo could be fun but tbh i dont think id pull off a cosplay of any of them

10. favorite side character?

ringo and tomochika

11. favorite solo song?

f f f f f f f f f f f f f f f f f f futari no monogram :vibecheck: BUT ALSO smile magic <3 and true wing <3 and every ai song-

12. your favorite duet song?

FICTION :sob: and justice impulse <3

13. your favorite trio song?

stop theres too many good ones i cant choose just one… but up down up, code t.v.u, beautiful love, and bloody shadows my beloveds

14. your favorite group song?

GODS STAR GODS STAR GODS STAR GO-

15. your least favorite song?

i dont rlly have one i dont think,,, gmgngmgn

16. your favorite singer?

well obviously ai but also natsuki !! his singing is INCREDIBLE

17. your favorite group/trio/duo?

TRIANGLE BEAT AND QN <3

18. your favorite member of starish?

otoya <3

19. your favorite member of quartet night?

*loud sobbing* a a a a a ai mikaze

20. your favorite member of heavens?

shion and yamato are the only ones i care about

21. your favorite seiyuu/voice actor?

*heavy breathing* aoi shouta 🕺

22. favorite drama cd?

BEAUTIFUL LOVE :sob: AND BLOODY SHADOWS

23. your favorite shining live card?

hhhhhim,,,, ❤️👄❤️ i love this whole set so much and this card is just PERFECT the colors and the synth and hes so pretty and he looks so happy and nghh.;nhhhh,,,ggmggg,hhhhbngg;ngn

24. your favorite song beatmap?

(i play on pro) black dejavu, star wish, and pirates of the frontier are SO FUN TO PLAY

25. your least favorite song beatmap?

i love the song but gods star oh my god its so frustrating i played it 48 times and no fc GRRRGSHRGRGRGR

26. black dejavu or white gravity?

bold of you to assume i can decide

27. utapri merch that you own/want?

i have a whole thing of bookmarks of stuff shjfbejf i plan to buy some things whenever i have money for myself next >:)

28. how did you get into utapri?

id discovered it when i followed nana a while back and eventually i was curious as to what it was so i downloaded sl. now it has me by the throat

29. a set theme in shining live that you want to see in the future?

idc i just want pretty ai cards to collect :vibecheck: maybe smth soft tho could be cute

30. why do you love your best boy?

i was immediately drawn to him by the way he presented himself in the intro in SL and when i found out more about him in the anime i was like. sob. i love you what the fuck

not tagging anyone but feel free to do it :]

#girl help im at a family thing for a birthday and im the weird one in the corner bc idk what to do with myself #ash has no braincells #long post #utapri #ei.ji is adorable and ki.ra is swag but i fucking despise eii.chi and van and nagi is just annoying

[lesbiancarat]

Book anon!! Seeing the boys be back feels so wild in a good way like suddenly we have so much happening from pics, video performances, future jun solo stuff again and hoshi solo!?! To speculate, the spider logo gives me Spiderman vibes so is this hoshi saying he is Peter Parker lol? Like I know I said I missed the boys but my gosh they don't have to dump EVERYTHING on us lol

To slightly still talk about the mingyu situation (which I hope its alright!) I found something annoying during all of this that you echoed and some anon's said and it was how QUICK some fans were dismiss OP1 with her experience and feelings, making it seem like mingyu is the one that had it worst. Now by all means, it is upsetting to know that yes this will follow mingyu and the rest of the boys till the end of time. Sadly we cannot change that, all we can do is correct people on the situation so I do kinda feel bad BUT to say mingyu is "completely innocent and not at fault" makes me confused because ??? He isn't, not fully. Do people forget that he ADMITS to saying jokes. Yes not towards OP but he still said such jokes and to me, that doesn't mean he is innocent. He admits his faults and takes accountability to that, I give kudos for ya know? Like yes he is my bias but my gosh I am not going to claim he didn't do wrong when well...he did. It frustrates me that fans suddenly forget that the main cause of chaos (at least internationally for fans) was of that horrible mistranslations. I'm sure kfans were also upset but seeing icarats demand pledis to S word OP1 when that isn't the right mindset. I had some hope fans would be smart, especially after the news we found out about mistranslations and all but looks like this fandom isn't safe from bad apples =/ this makes me confused like how do people just idk, not have their morals i guess, when it comes to their faves?

For me, where i stand with mingyu is im disappointed that mingyu said jokes but I'm willing to give him a chance so to speak, like I'm a bit more ok with say reblogging content a out him. For anons that I saw who said they need time, that is valid! It is ok to take a step back from the member, group or fandom! This fandom space should make you happy and comfy and with what has happened, things are rocky and your feelings are valid! Never doubt yourself for overthinking or saying you're a bad fan bc you are not. If you do decide to leave the fandom, I hope despite the dark cloud with what happened, you can remember the warm sunshine (aka happy moments) from the fandom and boys. Its ok to no longer be a fan, things change and we change as people. It is also ok to not be apart of the fandom while being a fan (how im sort of in with bts). It may seem like you're the only one feeling like this but you are not! Do what makes you comfy to my fellow carats! If you are ready to comeback, I am here with cookies. And if not, I am also here with cookies!

*clears throat* to move on a bit, for the hybe naming, ahh that makes more sense! Thanks for clearing that up, I guess I miss read the article I read. I saw you mentioned pledis might be moving and oof, that kinda hurts. I sort of thought they wouldn't due to it just being an investment but should have seen it coming. I will miss that green room

right? it kind of feels like they went from 0 to 100 with the content dhfkfj

and yeah i agree, it's frustrating that it seems like a lot of people can't see or understand the nuance of the situation. i think maybe some people are trying to overcompensate for the mistranslations which had such serious accusations, and i think others are just uncomfortable with the idea that celebrities can make mistakes and be forgiven (as in, they think the only way celebs can be "forgiven" is if they were completely innocent in the first place. otherwise they must be cancelled and since they don't want to cancel mg he must be 100% innocent!). but i don't think either of those, or any reason really, justifies the lack of compassion for any of the OPs. it's possible to have conflicts where no party is a villain, actually

i do think the correct response for carats as a whole is to start moving on. the conflict between OP1 and mingyu has been resolved between the two of them, and the other claims were proven false. if OP1 is satisfied, there's no need for carats or non carats to call for mg to be punished further. but on the other side of that, which as you mentioned is more of a problem currently, there's no reason to punish (ie sue) any of the OPs. as i said in my other post, the OPs are still victims even if mg wasn't the perpetrator of the other claims. if even an institution whose primary purpose is to make money (ie pledis) can look at the situation and be like 'hey, it wouldn't be right to try to prosecute these people so we're not going to' then i think that's a sign that to sue these people would be unjust

but also to clarify when I say carats as a whole should move on i mean there's no collective action we can or should take that would be helpful. i don't mean that every individual should force themselves to move on before they're ready. as I've said before and as you've said, i think any carat that needs more time to process and isn't ready to go back to doing normal fan stuff, or those who won't ever be and decide to leave the fandom are totally valid! i second everything you said in that regard, everyone should do what makes them most comfortable ^^

also you say it makes more sense but you may have been right in the first place OTL. i mean what i said before about there being 3 different entities is true. before there was Bighit co. ltd, Bighit labels, and bighit entertainment. We know Bighit co. ltd is being renamed to HYBE and we know that bighit entertainment is Not being renamed, but it's the Bighit labels that's where the confusion lies. i /thought/ bh labels wasn't being renamed but i watched their rebranding presentation since i answered your last ask and it sounds like it is being renamed to HYBE labels. they haven't changed the youtube channel name yet though which is kind of what I'm waiting for so i guess we'll see?

yeah people have been talking for ages about how all the artists are gonna be in the new building and i was always kind of skeptical. i thought it was more likely that pledis would just have a few offices in the bh building rather than relocating their Entire Company lmao but it looks like that's what's happening. it is a nice facility, but yeah it's a bit bittersweet to say goodbye to both of the pledis buildings since so many things happened there 😭

#melia.ask #📖 anon #long post

[mysteryofren]

Sleeping Under The Stars

chapter 34 of So Happy Together 

Masterlist

 You weren't sure how much time had passed. Maybe 15 minutes. Maybe an hour. You could only hear the sound of your grandfather, and Gideon snoring. You sat up to see Phasma fast asleep too. Picking up your phone you checked the time. Only an hour had gone by. It was official, Phasma left today. You tried to clear your mind, focusing on the sound of the wildlife outside. The trees moved as a gust of wind ripped through them. The waves on the lake lighting moved against the shore. Little nocturnal creatures played around in the fallen debris from the trees around. You gently got out of your sleeping bag, and made your way outside of the tent.

 A leaf crunches under your foot as you step out. It was dark, yet there was enough light you could see. You grab the extra blanket you had packed, and Gideon perks his head up to look at you. 

“Sorry bud. You have to stay here.” you tell him as you zip the tent up. You stand looking around to make sure nobody else is up. As far as you could tell everyone's tent lights were off. You begin to walk towards the lake while wrapping the blanket around you. There was a breeze hit every now and then. It was cold, but had a humid feel to it. It didn't bother you though. 

 The lake wasn't too far from where you had set up. Your grandfather always liked to have it within view of the site. You sat on a log that faced it. The scene in front of you was stunning. The moon reflected off the rippling water, and made it shine. On one side of the lake you could see some deer drinking from the water as they walked into it. It was calming. So calming that it was hard to think in a few hours you will be an emotional wreck. You had just gotten a group of amazing friends. Now it felt like they were being torn away from you. Phasma would be gone for the summer. Elaine would be in a college in a distant city. Hux would be an ocean away. Even Kylo would be gone. At least you would have them for the summer, and when the school year starts again Phasma will be back.

  You closed your eyes just for a second, and let your mind go where it wanted.

“Darling what are you doing out here by yourself?” you heard your mama say. You were 10 then. You were sitting in the same spot you were now. Your parents had decided to send you with your grandparents for the summer, and they took you camping for your last day.

“Do we have to leave? I'm not ready to go home.” 

“Oh sweetie, of course we have to go.”

“But I won’t get to see you or pop pop until christmas.”

“Well think of it this way. That just makes christmas more special.” she sat down next to you on the log, and looked out towards the lake with you. The sun had shone high, and bright. You felt its rays heating your skin. The water glistened as it reflected the sun.

“Will you guys miss me?” you asked her quietly. She scoffed, and took you in her arms.

“What kind of crazy question is that? Of course we will miss you. You mean everything to us.”

“Mother, and father don't miss me when I'm here.”

“Don't be silly of course they miss you. Here's the thing about your mother, and father. They want to give you the best life they can so they work hard to give you that.” you stayed silent, and she kissed your cheek.

“Besides sweetie. You don't need them when you have the best grandparent in the world.”

“Surely you must be talking about me.” you heard your pop pop say as he came up behind the two of you. He sat between you and mama on the log, and wrapped his arms around you both. 

“I was talking about both of us. Even though you are pretty amazing.” she responded.

“You’re pretty amazing yourself.” he said as he leaned over you to kiss her. You laughed as he squished you down to get to her.

“Pop pop i'm right here!” you said trying to get him to stop. He pulled away from her and smiled down at you.

“Oh I'm sorry, how could I forget my favorite girl?” he grabbed you up, and covered your face in little kisses, as you both fell off the log and onto the ground. A flurry of giggles left your body, as he continued his affectionate assault. You heard your mama laugh as she watched him take you down. The vision of that day left your mind, and you were back in the present. You were crying, and you didn't even notice. The teardrops fell onto your thighs as a breeze hit. Your whole body shivered. 

  You wondered what she would have thought about the first order. Would she have liked them? Who would be her favorite member? Would she love them as much as your pop pop did? Then another question sprang into your mind. If she saw you now. Would she be proud of who you've become?

“What kind of crazy question is that?” you heard her voice say in your mind. Of course she would be proud. You on the other hand were not so proud of yourself. You wanted to be like her so bad. She was so ethereal, and kind. Everyone loved her. You had never met a single person who didn't. You wiped the tears off your cheeks with your blanket. Then another memory came to your mind. It was the 4th of July. You were 13, and were about to start at the republic boarding school. The last day of school you went to Tatooine to live with them until the school year started. They had decided to have a party at the campgrounds to celebrate. 

“So, kid, I heard you're starting school at the republic?” a younger Han Solo had said to you. His hair was a bit long, and he sported a beard at that time. 

“Yeah. I don't want to though.” he laughed at your forwardness, and sat next to you at the small picnic table your grandfather had rented.

“It ain't so bad. Our son goes there. You should keep an eye out for him.” he said. You had stopped listening to him though so you just gave him a small hum in response. You both sat next to each other watching everyone interact. You rarely came to things like this anymore, but you were living with your grandparents now, and they tended to have stuff like this every now and then.

“Hey uh, listen,” he started. “I know theyre not having any fireworks at this thing, but I got some firecrackers in my car if you wanna bring some life to this party.”

“I've never played with firecrackers before.” he stood up, and looked around before whispering to you.

“Well let me show you what you're missing out on kid.” he walked off, and you got up following behind him. Thinking about it now. He didn't have any daughters. Maybe he saw you as a surrogate daughter of some sorts when he saw you at those parties. Man you guys got in a big load of trouble that day. Mostly from Leia, but you could tell your grandparents were a bit upset too. 

Behind you the sound of movement invaded your ears. The memories left your mind, and you were focused on what was happening behind you. You saw a figure walk out of one of the tents. Without a thought you called out to it. Ben turned around, and pointed his flashlight in your eyes blinding you. 

“Dude stop that hurts.” The dumbass turned it towards his face, and blinded himself. He stepped back before falling. You ran over to him to find him laying on the ground groaning and holding the back of his head. 

“Oh my stars are you okay?” you whispered. He groaned again, and you held your hand out towards him. He took it and you helped him up. You had forgotten how much bigger his hands were than yours. 

“This is what I get for trying to be an asshole.” he said as he rubbed his head.

“What were you trying to do?” 

“2 weeks ago I bought an ant farm, and I've been waiting for the perfect time to pour them into Kylo’s shoes.” in that moment you knew he was Han’s son.

“Why did you buy an ant farm when you could just gather ants in a cup and do it?”

“I didn't think of that.” he finally looked at your face.

“Hey you alright? You look like you’ve been crying.” 

“Yeah. just overthinking.” you both stood in silence, before he spoke.

“Hey you wanna help me put ants in Kylo’s shoes?”

“You're still gonna do it?”

“I mean yeah. I didn't spend 20 bucks on an ant farm to back out now.” you thought for a second, and you decided some fun was something you could use right now.

“Ok im in.” 

“Cool, you grab his shoes, I’ll go get the farm.” he ran off, and you slowly opened the tent. You poked your head inside to look for Kylos boots. You spotted them close to the entrance of the tent. Gently you wiggled your arm in, and grabbed them. Ben had gotten back right when you got them out. A laugh left your mouth as you both ran to the spot you were originally sitting in. 

 Ben shook the ant farm a bit to get them to move out of their tunnels. He took one shoe, and put some of their food at the bottom. You grabbed the farm from him, and opened it. He held the top of the shoe open, and you shook the ants in. 

“Hopefully there's enough food that they stay in there all night.” you said as the last ant fell.

“Should we add dirt so they start making a new nest?”

“I think so.” you both started grabbing up dirt with your hands, and shoving it into the toes of his shoes.

“Okay I think that's enough. I'm gonna go put them back.” he grabbed the shoes, and ran back to the tent. You waited for him while looking at the forest surrounding the lake. When he came back he had his sleeping bag, and blankets with him. You gave him a weird look as he set it up. 

“I don't wanna sleep in a tent that might get ant infested.” you laughed at him as he settled into his sleeping bag. You got up, and quickly tip toed over to your tent. You grabbed your sleeping bag as quietly as you could, and joined Ben outside. 

“I haven’t slept under the stars since before my Grandmother died.” 

“Well you are more than welcome to join me.” he patted the spot next to him, and you rolled out your bag. You laid down, and you both stared at the sky. 

“You know. I’ve never seen this many stars in the sky.” he said.

“Really?”

“Yeah. I mean I always see a few, like one or two. This is something different though.”

“I guess I've seen it so much it's hard to believe some people haven't.”

“I'm glad I could experience it with you.” you felt your face get hot, but you didn't want to say anything.

“So why were you crying?” he asked. Part of you didnt want to open up to him, and get close again. The other part of you was hurting badly, and needed to talk.

“I was just thinking about a lot of stuff.”

“Like what?”

“My grandmother. Phasma leaving. Elaine, and Hux leaving. There's just a lot going on.”

“Yeah I feel that. What made you think about your grandmother?”

“I haven't been to this campsite since she died. She taught me how to swim here. She taught me and Elaine how to start a fire here. The last time we camped here with her was a few weeks before we found out she was sick. Everything here makes me think of her. Especially the lake.”  

“I'm sorry. I mean, I’ll never really understand what it's like to go through that. I'm not that close to my grandparents, and they're both alive.” you stayed silent knowing if you said something you would cry. You felt his hand wrap around yours.

“You know i'm always here for you. No matter what. I know I haven't proved that in the past, but it's different now.” you felt more tired as you two spoke. You didn't even bother to take your hand away from his.

“Why did you and Rey break up?” 

“I didn't love her.”

“She's devastated you know.”

“Yeah. She thinks I broke up with her for you.” you looked at him, as he stayed staring at the sky.

“Did you?”

“I don't know. I think a part of me knew you were right. I was hurting her by pretending to love her when I don't. I never loved her. Another part of me still wants you, but I know it's wrong.”

“Me too.”

“I wish I had done things different. Your grandfather was right.”

“About what?”

“That day. Before spring break. I told him about us. I told him about how badly I messed up. He told me he knew who I really loved. He told me the longer it took me to realize it. The more likely I was to lose you. And I did in a way. That very week I did. Matt told me about how you went on a date with that guy. After that we were never the same.”

“You love me.”

“I know.”

“When did you know?” 

“I was with my grandparents, and Rey. They invited us over for lunch, and she wanted me to show her the garden. We kissed. I don't know what I expected, but I felt nothing. Then New Years came to my mind. I remembered how I felt when I kissed you, and it didn't feel the same with her.”

“How did it feel when you kissed me?” you heard him laugh, and he squeezed your hand. You smiled.

“The world finally felt right. Like everything made sense. With her. It was like every other kiss I had before that. Since that day there hasn't been a single night where I don't replay that night with you in my head when I fall asleep.” 

 You both laughed. You felt tears sting your eyes again. When you looked back over to him you saw a tear slide down the side of his face. Once your laughter died down you went back to looking at the sky.

“I think tonight will be the first night I don't think about that night so I can sleep.” he whispered.more to himself than to you.

 You don't know what came over you. Maybe it was his confession. Before he had just told you he wanted you. That he liked you. This confession was different. You knew he loved you. To have him confirm it. To have him tell you how he felt. That was different. You sat up, and leaned over to kiss him. He kissed you back. The thought of Rey crept into your mind, and you pulled away. 

“We can't.” you said as you settled back down into your sleeping bag.

“I know.” he said as he took your hand in his again.

 You both stayed talking. About nothing, and everything all at once. You laughed, and cried with him as you talked about things that you never really spoke about with people. There was something about him that made you feel safe, emotionally. You felt that with him before, and the thought of what happened then made you scared. Something in you felt like this time it was really different. You learned a bit more about him. He learned a bit more about you. Soon your eyes felt heavy. You could tell he was getting tired too. At some point during your conversation you had inched your way closer to his body. Soon you both stopped talking as sleep took over your bodies, and you spent the night sleeping under the stars with Ben Solo.

tags: @wumboho @pylopenpolo @duty-isnt-always-honour

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[vampanic]

okay here’s what i remember from THE CON

i can’t remember if the ticket was cheap or pricey. i don’t know why. i wanna say it was more expensive or of equal value to a bigger con and i justified it to my parents and myself because it was the first one. but i went because i thought the idea of a con that was centered on the various fandoms popular on this site at the time was a genuinely neat idea. i also thought, okay let me just go because it’s another one to attend.

i should note: that have been to a lot conventions in my time. i’ve been to acen twice i think? i’ve been to nebkon twice. sadly i have never been to c2e2 or flashback chicago (which i may never get to go to now whoops) and i’ve been to wizard world chicago i wanna say 4 times?

now at these cons (mostly wizard world) these fandoms aren’t as present. in fact, the main demo of that con was adult to middle age to older visitors as well as families, so usually teens and young adults would find each other at this con (whether planned ahead or by accident there) and freak the fuck out over our cosplays or mutual love of whatever.

so because of this again the idea of a t.umblr con was exciting to me, even though i was already at the end of being interested in those fandoms (as i’m sure most people were at the time)

okay so first, this con was far. wizard world and acen are held at the rosemont convention center which while kind of far from where i live, is accessible by train via downtown or via one of chicago’s big airports. i always got a ride though which with summer traffic, took forever. so much like that this con was a journey away.

the hotel the con choose i remember thinking it seemed new, but it was far from where i lived which inpacted the amount of time i spent at the con and the decision to only go two days (i didn’t return the last day because it was a shit show)

i went to this con by myself because i think at this point i had already had a falling out with my friend who i went to cons in the area with (she did not attend that i know of). i wore two cosplays that i had made already for other things, gwen stacy and america chavez. this would have been the ideal place for me to cosplay something more niche, but i just didn’t care that much about it. maybe i didn’t think it was worth it at the time since it wasn’t going to be a big con.

so i get there and there’s no long line to get my badge in fact i don’t even remember a line at all. which, for me, was bizarre. every con i’ve been to before had huge lines even on off hours to get badges. but whatever. i cant remember if where i got my badge was in the the same room as where the ball pit was or not. but yes, i did go into the ball pit and i was silly in it with some other people because

idk you see a ball pit you go in the ball pit? in hindsight i know it’s not acceptable to have this at a con, but shit i guess i was high on life at the time. someone took a pic of me in the pit, but i have never seen it.

i remember seeing some very impressive cosplays at this con. i also bought some really great art in the dealers room which was small. (here’s the artist. also this was nonfandom art. i don’t remember buying anything else from anyone because i don’t think i saw anything i liked/could afford) there was no unlicensed night vale merch sold here that i remember, but i do remember receiving free unlicsenced night vale like pamphlets from a random vendor and also  there was a vendor who was giving away a large piece of night vale fan art with a purchase of over something dollars i dont remember.

panels: i don’t remember there being many panels or even very interesting panels. panels i remember going to include: bisexuality in media/bisexuality representation (which was put on by the bisexualbooks tumblr), ask an avenger (which was put on by various marvel cosplayers), and a panel that was about female characters in supernatural (i was a spn stan back in the day jsyk).

the bi one was good. i remember it being the most like a panel that you’d go to at a larger convention. they had slides and info and they took questions and had several speakers.

the avengers one was what we’d call today “cringey” but it was cute. it was exactly what it sounds like. avengers cosplayers sat up on a stage answering questions in character. i believe that all the cosplayers had rp and/or ask blogs which is why they were chosen.

the supernatural panel was, like the bi one, complete with slides and various speakers, but from what i remember it was mostly going down the list of female characters in the show. i remember from the fandom that there a good chunk of people who love the characters, but they’re often killed off or abandoned and this is something a lot of fans did have gripes with. this is gonna sound fake when i say it, but this did happen, we got to charlie and someone said “yeah i like charlie she’s cool because she’s a lesbian but she doesn’t act like one like she’s still feminine” and i spoke up and said “well yeah it’s cool she’s a lesbian, but what do you mean she doesn’t act like one. like queer female character shouldn’t have to be feminine to be seen as good rep.” and people clapped. i know that sounds fake, but please believe me because this is a setting where people are inclined to clap when they agree with statements. people clapped at others too.

i also attended the costume contest, the night vale panel, and the meet and greet with doug jones.

the contest was fine. there was one individual at this con who i can’t name because i didnt know their name, but they cosplayed as ed from edd ed and eddy and they were in character the whole time to the point of discomfort. it wasn’t just for the contest i found myself in a cards against humanity game that they were in and it was even there and it was weird.

then the night vale panel happened and ooooooooohhhh boy

this was the most filled room in the whole con. a main reason i went to this con was to see them and im pretty sure this was everyone’s main reason to go. i known someone from other cons who came from florida to see this. (fun fact: we were mutuals on various platforms and had hung out at various cons and i knew their name, but they could not remember mine and i thought that was bogus so i ghosted them. dont know if i was justified in that but whatever)

so here we all were waiting. for over an hour. during this time people talked and i remember someone cosplaying the glow cloud went up and down the isle with a little glow cloud baby in a stroller and we all laughed and cheered. people started playing card games. we kept busy. for me though.

this was one of the most boring cons i’ve been to honestly. i’m having trouble remember a lot of it and that’s because i went solo. i had no friends there. i cosplayed gwen from like the 60s and this was before spidey joined the mcu and before itsv was a thing so spidey was basically an niche fandom (i was active in the tasm and dane deha.an fandoms at this time and the latter became toxic as fuck but that’s a whole other story) or something older comic fans liked.

my other cosplay was america chavez from young avengers which never got that popular either (though kate bishop and kid loki where more recognized, but for their connection to bigger marvel names). so it wasn’t like other cons where my cosplay was an ice breaker and i could join groups. i was alone.

so a lot of the con for that reason was awkward and waiting for night vale was like being the person texting in the corner at a distant relative’s party because they know no one.

so they finally come on stage to say that night vale will not be performing and people went ballistic people were shouting and the person said “we have doug jones in the next hall you should go over to that” and someone yelled “WE DON’T WANT TO SEE HIM”

i went to see doug jones and i was previously unaware of what his name was but i knew who he was. he talked about his work and acting process and did a meet and greet after. mr. jones was a delight and i’m wondering how they even got him there in the first place. he was leagues above this. 

i had to leave the con early that day to go to my brother’s football game, but i believe that was the night they “protested” at the con and i kept seeing on tumblr that it was cancelled. i decided not to go back the next day because i was unsure of what was happening and because it was too far.

and the rest is history. i’m sure i went to other panels, but i can’t remember them. i do remember going into the room where they were watching pacific rim, but it was on a shitty projection screen and i wanted to go to a panel instead.

it’s shitty what happened with the con. and a lot of the unrest came from literal teens who were cheated from money who didn’t know how to act, but all the responsibility goes to the people who organized it poorly. The concept of a tu.mblr con i don’t think should have been inherently bad. i think it would have been cool to have a con that focused on more niche interests. but shouldn’t have been as big as they wanted it to be for the first go.

anyway that’s most of what i can remember. it’s kind of blur because i spent most of it by myself and there wasn’t much to do so i didn’t even spend the whole day there.

quite frankly, i’m glad i wasn’t there when they started singing les mis because i have no idea how i would have acted.

#[out of coffins] #/under a cut because it's long

[wennjunhui]

i miss actor jun, personal opinion but i want to see him act in a drama either a korean or a chinese one i just want to see him act

ME TOOOOOOOOOOOOOO and jun has mentioned multiple times that hes open to start acting again if the opportunity presents itself???? im guessing pledis still sees seventeen as group still going strong, so they haven’t really pushed for any solo activities yet. i wouldnt be surprised once enlistment comes around, pledis will start pushing china line into activities in china

i highly doubt jun would get casted in a kdrama because hes not korean? granted, i dont actually watch kdramas so i dont have any facts to back me up, but it seems like kdrama casters want to see koreans on screen, and foreigners for like those 20 second cameos, if that makes sense. so i’d say his best bet of him acting again would be in china.

#answered #anon #seventeen #jun #junhui #but yes i agree #BRING BACK ACTOR JUN #i would honestly love it if he played a villain #and not like a bad boy but like an actual villain #like OOF he would KILL IT

[hey-hey-chan]

Grincherella - Chan

❀ Comedy/fluff/romance with a dash of angst (Cinderella AU)

❀ Word count: 9, 284 

❀ It is THAT time of year again, yes, Christmas season and y/n seems to hate everything and anyone who talks about it. Once she is forced to attending a Christmas party, she is forced to sing, onstage, with the cute boy in her psych class. But the thing is: he doesn’t recognize her. Will she finally let go of her troubled past and present or will she let her insecurities haunt her forever?

❀ A/N: ummmm a mix between Cinderella and High School Musical ? idk what i was thinking but i felt nostalgic i guess .,,, this is the longest fic i’ve EVER written pLEASE dont let this flop AHAHAHA /sweats/ but i also feel bad for making u sit through 9k words /sweats again/ so do what u want i guess

P.S I LOVE YOU ALL! this is a treat for you guys who have been missing my writing!! now im on break so im back in the game !! 

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“MERRY CHRISTMAS!” I suddenly got a puff of snow to the face, which made me crinkle my red nose in disgust. “Y/N!!” I slammed my book shut and glared at the boy.

“What?” Jisung giggled and sat on the bench next to me. 

“It’s funny.” 

“What’s so funny about throwing wet snow in someone’s face when they’re trying to read.” I pointed at my book exaggeratedly, a signal for him to leave. He didn’t take it. 

Jisung fixed his scarf, making sure it knocked into my face as usual. He then proceeded to scooch closer to me, which was the final line. “Jisung? What’s your deal? What do you want?” I finally caved. The boy only came to me when he is bored, wants him, or is bored; all in that order. Don’t get me wrong, he was my best friend, but sometimes I just wanted to punch him in the face. 

He chuckled and kicked his feet in the snow. I noted they were adorned with new black snow boots. “I don’t know, I’m just in the Christmas spirit I guess.” I crinkled my nose. “Oh c’mon, I still don’t get why you don’t like Christmas so much. That’s like... illegal.” I rolled my eyes at his exaggeration. 

“Just ‘cause everyone else likes it, doesn’t mean I have to.” I slammed my book shut and looked at the boy in the eyes. “So, it would be great if you would stop pestering me about it because you’re not going to change my mind.”

I got up from the bench and started to walk off to my next class, already starting my day off feeling irritated. 

It wasn’t like I hated Christmas, I just hated when people started to be fake because of is. Kids would act nicer to their parents and relatives to get more money and loot for the winter, but return to the devilish children they are when January rolls around. Cuffing season starts and then couples start to pop up, only for the intent of getting gifts and a “cute” Christmas romance for the holidays. Then, their forced relationship ends. Everything about this season was fake, fake, and more fake. 

And I like real. 

I stopped by a coffee shop and ordered my usual drink: black coffee. It tasted bitter, but I liked the harsh taste of it. It woke me up. 

I walked into my early psychology class and took a seat at the back, my usual spot. I immediately was greeted to the group of loud and rambunctious students who sat in the front row. I groaned internally but simply leaned back in my chair and plugged in my earbuds. 

Suddenly, I felt a presence beside me and out of reflex, I took my earbuds out.

“Good morning, y/n.” I immediately smiled at his cheeky voice.

“Morning, Chan.” The light haired boy frowned and gave me the famous dimple that killed all the girls on campus. Besides me of course. 

“Aw, not even a good in front of that? Now how am I supposed to know what kind of morning I should have?” He pouted, tugging off his scarf and beanie since the room we were in was overly heated. 

I scoffed and shook my head. “What’s so good about it, dude? Our final is today and I feel like death himself.” I joked. It was true, our final was today, and yes, I felt horrible, but even I couldn’t help myself from feeling giddy about the end of the year. 

Chan smile and leaned closer to my desk. “Aw c’mon, y/n, it’s almost Chris-” 

I groaned and made a motion to put my earbuds back in. “I swear to God, if I hear one more person talk bout Christmas, I’m going to explode.” I sighed. Chan broke out into cheerful laughter, like he always does, and shook his head at my reaction.

“You know, you’re the only person I’ve ever met who hates Christmas so much. How can you hate it?? Everyone’s in a better mood, everyone’s in a relationship so you don’t have to run away from boys anymore-” He nudged me jokingly while I rolled my eyes. “And plus, you love peppermint.” 

I nodded, affirming he made a good point. “Ok, you’re right, I do love peppermint.” He was about to give me the cheekiest smile but I cut him off. “BUT, I hate that everyone is so happy this season when I swear everyone looked like they were about to cut me in half in the other 11 months. Plus, my devil for step siblings are shitloads nicer in December but once it hits New Years, all of a sudden they’re stealing my stuff again and pretending to be each other, ‘cause you know...”

“Twins.” He finished my sentence. I nodded and fiddled with my necklace. 

I’ll admit, ever since my dad got remarried, it had never been the same. It’s not like I hated my step mom... all the time... but she wasn’t mom. My mom had always treated me like an adult, even when I wasn’t. I had matured faster than all the kids in my grade, and always had felt like an old soul compared to everyone else. 

Mom used to let me have a sip of her eggnog, that had a little bit of burbon in it, and it wasn’t a big deal. But in my stepmom’s house, it wasn’t allowed, neither was running up the stairs or listening to the music while walking because I could “trip”. I had the same rules as her children, and it was irritating at times. Ok all the time. 

“Hm, well I hope that some day a person will change that for you.” Chan said melodramatically. I chuckled comfortingly, but I knew that would never happen. No one could do Christmas like my mom. 

“Just like how Chaeyoung did that for you?” I teased. His pale cheeks turned a soft red color, blending into his red sweated. I laughed even harder. “Oh come on, you cannot still be embarrassed about your girlfriend, you’ve been dating for a month now.”

Chan tsked and slumped back in his chair. “See, you said two completely different things. Chaeyoung is not my girlfriend, but we are dating. Different. People who have dated someone can understand the difference.” He teased. Usually that would offend people, but I let the insult roll off my back. 

“You act like it’s a bad thing I’ve never dated, it’s normal, weirdo. Also, I know you Chan, and I know that you’re a hopeless romantic who just started ‘dating’ someone because it’s cuffing season and you want someone to hold your hand in the snow at night.” I spat back. 

Before he could say anything, the teacher walked in, signaling the start of the final. I got out my number 2 pencils and gave a thumbs up to Chan.

“Good luck.” I whispered.

“Break a leg.” 

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“Finally!!” I screamed into my house when I got home. Finals season was officially over and winter break had commenced. I flung my backpack into my room and plopped down on my bed. My back had ached from carry my backpack around everywhere and from the unneeded stress from school. It was finally time to relax. 

Suddenly, I heard a slight buzz to my left. I groaned and looked at the text message. 

It was from my stepmom, saying ‘will be home late today, theres some shrimp in the fridge, u can make pasta’. 

Well, that was a long vacation. 

I rolled out of bed and threw on a flannel, ready to cook some pasta. It wasn’t hard, but I just hated deshelling shrimp. It was time consuming, even though shrimp was one of my favorite foods, I would rather someone else cook it for me to be honest. 

After I cleaned the shrimp, I got out the pasta, preparing all my ingredients before I had to start actually cooking something. But before I could do that, I heard my phone ring. 

I rolled my eyes at the caller ID: Han Jisung, aka, Han Solo in my phone. 

“What.” I answered. 

“So....” He paused. I rolled my eyes

“Jisung, I’m cooking dinner, just get on with it.” I heard rustling in the back ground, which meant he was laying down in bed. Lucky him.

“Fine, fine, so, you know how I’m going to that holiday party thing tomorrow that’s for like 3 days and 2 nights right?” I nodded, but realized he couldn’t see me.

“Yup, why, you need me to watch Pepper?” 

“Nope, my sister said she can take him for the days I’m gone, but anyways, my friend, he really needs a date and he-” 

“Jisung, no-” 

“Ok, so I already knew you would say no, so I already said ye-” 

“YOU DID WHAT?” I screamed into the phone. 

I could feel my heart beat pick up in panic and I had to set down my phone to calm down. “Ok, ok y/n, I know what you’re thinking and I’m really sorry but-” 

“No you’re not Jisung, you love this don’t you? UGH, why do you always have to set me up with people?” I felt whiny but I couldn’t help myself. I hated when anyone, especially Jisung, tried to set me up on dates. They always ended terribly where either I, or the dude, was awkward or the thing just never clicked. 

Most of the dudes weren’t even friend material for me, it was a terrifying experience. 

“Ok, but look, this time, the dude is really a good guy. He’s funny, talkative, charming, attractive, good at singing-” 

“Oh then why don’t you just date him?” I mocked. Jisung made a whiny noise and said “Y/n, please, you know I’m already going with Naeun, I made a commitment!” 

I stared at the bowl of dead shrimp, wishing I could be that chill for one day. “God Jisung, you know how uncomfortable this makes me, why would you do this?” I finally said after a long time of silence. 

He sighed and I knew he truly felt guilty. “Ok, I swear I’m really, really sorry. But this time, I think this guy is at least a good friend match for you. Plus, he’s my friend, so he’s got to be a good friend for you, right??” 

“Please y/n? I’ll make it up to you I promise!” 

I tapped my foot rapidly, trying to make a decision quickly.

“Jisung, even if I say yes, my stepmom is a whole nother story. I need to watch the twins, remember?” 

Jisung sighed like he had forgot I had siblings. I guess it was even a new thing for me sometimes, even though it had been seven years. 

“Ok, fine, if she says yes, are you game?” 

“Game.” I muttered. He squealed in delight. “But don’t think I’m not mad at you, ok? I’m still mad.” I pouted, even though I couldn’t really be mad at him when I had just finished finals. My world seemed like it was so much calmer now, yet it never got exciting in the first place. 

“Ok, ok, I’ll make it up to you, all of it! It’ll be great, we’ll have so much fun! AAAH!” 

I hung up the phone before he could convince me to do anything else. I sighed, opening the box of pasta.

“What have I gotten myself into?” 

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Once I was done with the pasta, I heard the door unlock, soon followed by rambunctious screaming and yelling.

“Heeyoung!! I can’t believe you asked Jake for his number, I called dibs first!” 

“Oh shut up, he was way into me anyways.” 

Suddenly, I heard some sort of wrestling on the ground. 

“Girls, girls, c’mon now, you both can have Jake! Remember, if you guys behave, then I’ll get you two new phones.” At the mention of a new phone, the girls both shut up immediately. 

The girls were twelve years old now as Hanna, my stepmom, already had them with her previous marriage. At 12, I never remembered being so spoiled and entitled, it was disturbing to say the least. 

“Oh, y/n, is dinner done?” She said like she just noticed my presence. I nodded and flicked off the stove. 

“Yup, just finished cooking, you guys eat first, I’m not hungry.” I lied. I was starving, but I hated eating with them and I knew they would rather eat with my as well. That’s just how things worked in this household. 

“Ok, you go upstairs then.” Hanna’s attention then turned to her girls who were trying their hardest to not tear out each other’s hair. It was hilarious and sad all the same time. 

Before I could go upstairs, I heard the doorbell ring, which meant Jisung was here. 

“It’s Jisung!” I called out to the table and they didn’t really pay me any attention besides the two girls who were giggling. Yes, I knew they had a crush on Jisung. Yes, it was weird. 

I threw the door open and saw the boy all bundled up in his bright white winter jacket. I raised a brow. “You’re really gonna-”

Before I could finish, he walked into the house and went right up to my mom, who adored him, only because Jisung was rich, funny, nice, and good looking. 

“Jisung! You’re here, oh gosh, did you have dinner? I made dinner, go ahead and have some.” I wanted to correct her lie, but it would do nothing except make me feel awkward. Jisung raised a brow at me but said nothing either.

“Oh no thank you, I just had dinner at my house. But, I just came over to ask you a very important question, Hanna.” I could tell my stepmom loved the attention and was already blushing. God, I hate Jisung and love him all at the same time. 

“Of course, darling.” She cooed at him, her botox hindering her from smiling widely. 

Jisung smiled and brushed his hair out of his face. “So, there was this little get-together thing that I wanted to bring y/n to, and it’s only for a couple nights and-” 

Hanna shook her head and set her fork down loudly. “Jisung, honey, you cannot ask for stuff like that. I like you a lot but you know y/n needs to stay home and watch the girls. I work and can’t be tied down all day.” 

Jisung feigned sadness, which I knew hit some pity points for Hanna. “Hanna, please, it’s a holiday party and-” 

Hanna scoffed. “Ok, we both know y/n hates anything Christmas, she’s the grinch in girl form.” 

“Ok, yes, but she promised me she would go because it won’t just be about Christmas, but about meeting new people, and hanging out in a nice lodge. So please, can she go, only for a few nights?” 

I felt my heart thump rapidly, for some reason, hoping she’ll say yes. I shook away the thought as quickly as it came; I hated Christmas and the snow and the mountains, which is what I would be facing if I went to this party.

“Well...” 

Everyone’s ears peaked up to hear her answer.

“Well, y/n shouldn’t make promises she can’t keep.” Hanna continued to down her dinner and Jisung turned his head to shake his head in failure. I smirked and shrugged my shoulders. 

“Sorry Jisung, it’s just that me and the girls are going to this huge Christmas party tomorrow night as well and I need someone to watch the dog. You know how they get.” Hanna lied lamely and took a bite of shrimp, that was her favorite food as well. “But that’s ok, y/n hates Christmas anyways, I’m sure you can make cooler and better friends at the party anyways.” 

Five years ago, those words would’ve hurt me, but now they were just annoying. I couldn’t wait til I finished college and didn’t have to depend on her for college tuition. I wasn’t like the normal girls in the fairytales; I wasn’t exceptionally smart and heading to Princeton or an amazing dancer like Selena Gomez, I was just... me. 

Jisung didn’t stick around to hear her annoying jabber and made up some excuse. “Well, my mom is expecting me home and I need to pack me for my trip. It was nice seeing you guys.” The all waved to him as I just shrugged at him as he left. He looked defeated in the moment, but with the evil glint in his eyes, I could tell this wasn’t over. 

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“Don’t forget to feed Princess!! She needs some real food too so just cook her some fried rice, ok!?” 

“OK!” The door shut loudly, signaling I finally had the house to myself. 

I covered my mouth with a yawn, feeling warm and cozy in my flannel pajamas. My hair was tied loosely into two braids. 

“Thank God I don’t have to go out tonight,” I whispered to myself. I felt bad that Jisung had to go to this event by himself since his girlfriend was going with a group of friends. But I didn’t feel bad enough to go. 

I pulled out my guitar and started to strum lightly on the strings. I never could play and sing when they were home; the twins always complained about my music being too loud when they were studying, even though they never studied. 

“All I hear is raindrops

 Falling on the rooftop 

Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go 

Cause this pain I feel 

It wont go away 

And today I’m officially missing you”

I gently strummed the strings on my guitar, feeling the groove of the music. 

Breaking my magic, I heard my phone buzz. I set my guitar down on my bed and looked at my phone. 

‘open your window’ -jisung

I scoffed and popped open my window and somehow, Jisung jumped inside my room. That’s what I get for not chopping down that humongous tree I guess.

“Jisung... what the hell are you doing here?” I finally asked in confusion. “You’re gonna be late to the party.” I deadpanned slowly. Jisung shrugged off all the snow on his body, leaving my carpet wet. He was dressed with raggedly clothes and a black mask over his face. Of course he would go as a ninja. For some reason, the party planner decided that the ball should be a Christmas costume party... interesting. 

“HEY, asshole, what do you-”

“You know, I love hearing you sing, why don’t you do it in front of-.” My cheeks were now as red as cherries from the anger and compliment. 

“Jisung, what are you doing here?” He shrugged and adjusted his mask.

“Well, um, so we are gonna go to that party.”

I paused at his words and stared at him in silence. 

“No... I’m not going because you couldn’t convince Hanna. Done deal, bye!” I tried to shove him out, but obviously I wasn’t strong enough. 

“Y/n, y/n, listen, listen.” I crossed my arms at the desperation in his voice. “The girls and Hanna are all gone tonight, and probably tomorrow morning-”

“Jisung, they’re coming home at one am, and it takes an hour to just get to the location of your party, and maybe even longer in the snow. I’m not gonna risk it.” I walked away from him, hoping he wouldn’t follow. 

“Y/n, for Pete’s sake, you never do anything bad or even a little rebellious. You stick to rules and you stick to routine, and yes, I know it’s ‘cause of your mom-”

“She’s not my mom.”

“Right, sorry, I mean Hanna, she controls you but she’s finally not here! That’s gotta be a sign, right??” He spoke with such a desperation that I almost felt sorry for him, and myself, but what could I do? I was stuck here until she came back!

“Jisung, really, I can’t just sneak out, what if she catches me? There goes my college tuition and I can’t even finish college and become a choir teacher like I’ve always wanted. It’s just... I don’t wanna risk it.” I said lamely. 

For a few moments, Jisung was silent, which was extremely rare. He sat on my bed, making it creak slightly. I felt like the atmosphere was tense, even though I didn’t know why. 

“I just... you never take chances y/n, the party is gonna be amazing and all I want is my best friend there.” I sighed and patted him on the head. 

“Jisung, I’m not Cinderella, I can’t sneak out of the house and get back before one.” At those words, he shot up and stared at me.

“You know what? If Cinderella can do it, we can! We can just leave the party at midnight and then we’ll make it home before one, I swear on it. It’s not like the road is crowded when it’s that late anyways.”

I laid in bed, the plan not sounding too bad when he said it that way.I tried to protest, but I had little fight left since he was making such a good argument. 

“I don’t even have a costume.” I mumbled lamely. He raised a brow and gave me his signature smirk. “Oh what this time, Jisung?” 

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Before I could comprehend what we were doing, we were sorting through my closet and dug out something I never thought I would be pulling out. 

“Really, my mom’s wedding dress... why.” I spoke, but I was quite breathless. I couldn’t imagine wearing something so beautiful. 

Jisung shook the top off the box and shrugged. “It’s perfect for the winter and perfect for a costume as well. You know your mom, she loved...”

I smiled sadly. “Yeah, she loved winter and Christmas.” I mumbled quietly, but I lost my voice once I saw the dress. I covered my mouth and pulled out the outfit. 

“You’re trying that on now.” Jisung yelped. 

I took my time trying on the dress; as I stared at myself in the mirror, I was astonished by the detailing.

It was a beautiful, pale white dress that was adorned in glitter and sparkles. There were small flowers which resembled snowflakes that fell over the poofy skirt. The cut wasn’t too low, but wasn’t too high either. The sleeves were decked out in glitter, and somehow, it fit me perfectly.

“Y/n, we don’t have all day now!” I hurried up and walked out. As he caught sight of me, he dropped my phone. “Damn, you look so much like your mom.” He whispered. Jisung was one of my only friends who had known me when my mom was still alive and that’s probably why he was still friends with me, because I wasn’t the nicest person after she passed. 

“Ok, hurry up, Grincherella, we’re getting in the car.” 

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This was the most fun I’d ever had. We were jamming out to classics in the car and not caring who were waking up. 

Jisung turned down the music and shouted to tell me something.

“Oh yeah, that guy who I sold you out too? He doesn’t need a date anymore, I felt really bad so I told him you weren’t looking for a serious date and he said he’d rather go alone anyways. So now we get to party together, WOOP!” He shouted turned up the music again. I almost forgot about my so-called date and now I was happy I didn’t have one. I could just hide in the corner and eat all the food they had.

Soon, we arrived at the venue, and I couldn’t even hide that it was beautiful. There was a fountain up front that was decked out in Christmas decor. There was a machine that projected snowflakes on the building that made the snow around us stand out. And also, it was huge. 

“Oh shit.” Jisung suddenly said. I turned to him in surprise.

“What??” 

“I forgot a mask for you.” He mumbled. I shrugged. 

“That’s fine, I don’t really need one.” I noted. He glared at me. 

“That’s a lie, hold on, lemme pull out my party box.” I was about to question what that was until the boy pulled out a box from the back seat and started to rummage through it. “YES!” He said pulling out a black mask that was lacey and probably too beautiful for me to wear. “Ok, it’s not white like I wanted it to be, but... hmhmmh hold on.” 

I groaned as he pulled out a paintbrush and some white paint and glitter. “Hold still.” Before I could question him, he put on my mask and started to draw white swiggle lines from the mask and out. He layered silver glitter on me and brushed some glitter all around my face and neck. 

“I love being friends with an art major.” He let out a chuckle and threw the art stuff in the box. 

“You look hot, I hope you get laid tonight or else this all will be in vain.” I rolled my eyes.

“Please, I’d be lucky to even get someone to stare at me.” Jisung laughed and helped me out of the car. The cold air hit my arms, making them erupt with goosebumps. 

“Oh they’ll be staring all right. Now c’mon!” 

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If the outside was already wild, the inside was even crazier. Music was blaring through the speakers, people were grinding on each other and I’m sure some people were blatantly just making out. This is why I never leave my house.

“C’mon grinch, at least look alive.” I rolled my eyes and tried to hide myself as stares started to come my way. “Don’t look so nervous, they’re looking ‘cause you’re h o t.” I slapped his arm and chuckled, feeling nervous at all the attention.

Before the two of us could get far, I felt Jisung being pulled away from me. 

“JISUNG! Baby!” I looked to my side and saw all of Jisung’s friends. Naeun had pulled him into a deep kiss, one that I felt awkward to look at. 

“Oh hey, y/n, you look so pretty!” Naeun greeted happily, opening her arms for a hug. Honestly, I never liked the girl, but she was a good fake nice I guess. I smiled widely at her and hugged her back. 

“You look stunning as well!” I exclaimed. “All of you guys look really cool.” I complimented to the entire group. 

“You look hot too, y/n, who knew you could dress up so well?” One of the boys exclaimed, making me feel a bit embarrassed. Jisung rolled his eyes.

“Whatever, let’s go get some drinks.” As they all went to get drinks, I pulled Jisung back. 

“No drinks until after you’re back at the party, I am not going to die or kill anybody when sitting in a car with you, got it?” The boy nodded and gulped, knowing I would actually run over him if he drove under the influence. 

The rest of the night moved by slowly, until the party started to pick up at 11. 

“OK GUYS, EVERYBODY ON THE DANCE FLOOR!” A crowd of people started to swarm into the middle of the venue, making me feel restricted and uncomfortable. In the corner of my eye, I saw Naeun pull Jisung into the crowd, leaving me to fend for myself. 

Great, I expected this. 

I immediately stepped back and found a way out of the crowd and ending up in the corner, like I had imagined. 

“Stupid Jisung, forcing me to come out here.” I pulled out my phone that showed I only had 30 minutes left. Suddenly, the DJ stopped played music and another due stepped on the stage. 

“Ok people, so tonight, like usual, it’s our annual karaoke night! Since most people hate singing in front of people, it’s best that we have our costumes on tonight am I right?!” The crowed screamed and whooped. It was a gigantic crowd, probably the most people I’ve seen together in my entire life. Ok that’s a lie but still. 

I drowned out the rest of the yelling and went back to my phone, mindlessly watching food videos online until someone had sat next to me. I tried to ignore the person, but he kept getting closer and closer, and me? I got further and further.

“Hi.” The dude stated. I looked over to him and noticed he was dressed as a mummy. Clever. Not. 

“Um, hi.” I said to not be rude. I shouldn’t assume he was hitting on me, maybe he just wanted to be friends.

“You’re beautiful, what is a girl like you sitting here alone?” Ok scratch that precious thought. I rolled my eyes and scooted away. 

“’Cause I want to?” I spat back. Before the creepy guy could advance even more, the strobe lights started to go crazy. 

“SO PEOPLE! Who wants to sing first?!” Numerous people were screaming and others were shoving their friends forward. I somewhat enjoyed the multiple people becoming targets. 

“ME ME!” I heard being screamed louder than anyone else. I watched as a blonde haired boy jumped onstage. His back was facing my side, but I could tell he was dressed as Prince Charming. 

“Well, Chan, isn’t it time we’ve seen you again?” Chan and the MC hugged.

Wait... Chan ...

My heart raced faster at the realization when the boy turned around. He had a white mask over the top of his face, but I could recognize that face anymore. 

“Oh shit.” 

“For those who don’t know, Chan is the best singer we have here and he’s here every year, what a guy! Without him, most of the girls wouldn’t even show up AHAHAHA” The MC laughed loudly into the mic and I flinched back to cover my ears. 

Suddenly, Chan’s eyes danced across mine, giving me a mini heart attack. I locked eyes with him, unsure of what I wanted him to do. After a few moments, he just looked away, making the whole interaction anti-climatic. 

Wow, he doesn’t recognize me.

I felt part relief that he wouldn’t make me in a wedding dress and attending a holiday party a big deal. But part sadness that a person I considered my friend couldn’t even recognize me when I was dressed as something else. 

“Well, let’s stop the chatter and get this party started! You know how it goes, you start with a duet first to break the ice!” The crowd oohed and awed while I just wanted the clock to hit midnight as soon as possible. 

“So what’s gonna happen is that this light.” The MC pointed to a giant yellow light that seemed quite intimidating. “Is going to land on one of you lucky people who is going to get to sing with Chan, ok? Everyone excited??” Screams erupted even though I knew someone who was probably a crappy singer would get picked. 90% of these people were drunk and the other 10% were drunk AND high.

Suddenly, the light started to wave everywhere, blinding everyone’s eyes. 

“Chan, you get the honor of yelling stop!” Chan took the mic gladly and closed his eyes. Typical Chan. 

Before I could take off running, the light landed right on my face, warming my entire body from head to toe. 

“STOP!” He yelled loudly. I felt my vision blur as everyone in the room turned and looked at me. 

Fuck, shit, fuck.

“Wow, lucky Chan, choosing his Cinderella for a partner! C’mon up here, miss!” I felt my heart throb immensely as I forced myself to stand. Ok, I’m just gonna run it’s fine-

Suddenly, a group of people started to usher me to the stage, which I started to protest, but it was no use. I wobbled up on stage and tried to not look at the looming crowd.

“Well, well, aren’t you two the perfect couple? You even have matching outfits!” I glanced over to Chan shyly, and avoided all eye contact. Still, even standing so close, he couldn’t tell who I was. I guess I had never dressed up or put on makeup, and I had tons of detailing on my face so whatever.

“So, what song do you want to sing?” The MC asked me. I grew nervous, as I hadn’t chosen a song.

I turned to Chan and gestured for him to choose. Chan gave me a small smile. 

“Sorry, the guest has to choose, but whatever you choose is fine with me.” I felt my face blush with his words and I was suddenly thankful I had a mask on. I felt more empowered with it on as no one would know who I was. Except for Jisung and his friends of course. Oh shit, I wonder how Jisung is reacting to this. 

“Um, ok, h-how about... Rewrite the Stars?” 

The MC clapped his hands and suddenly music started to gear up. I felt my palms get sweaty and my dress started to feel too big for my small pride. The lights dimmed and the venue turned dark, probably for dramatic effect. If I knew that this happened at these events, I would have not have gone. But it’s too late now. 

“You can do it!” I heard from the audience. I almost smiled at Jisung’s yell, but I was too nervous for that. 

The spotlight focused on Chan, making him look more ethereal than before. 

“You know I want you. It’s not a secret I try to hide.” I heard Chan’s voice fill the room, melting the heart’s of all the girls around us.

I knew Chan had an amazing voice, but with him staring right at me while he was singing was a little too intense for me. I smiled gently as his singing, but then he sang the next line to the audience, which showed he knew how to own the stage. The embellishments on his shoulders dazzled in the light, making his shoulders look broader than usual. 

“it’s up to you, and it's up to me No one can say what we get to be So why don't we rewrite the stars? Maybe the world could be ours Tonight.”

Shit, shit, it’s my turn real soon. 

My brain turned off and I only reacted on instinct now. My palms drenched the mic and made my grip tighter, but still slippery. I closed my eyes at the light focused on me and opened my mouth.

“You think it’s easy, you think I don’t wanna run to you?” The first note was shaky, yet filled with more composure than I imagined. 

“But there are mountains, and there are doors that we can’t walk through.” Slowly, I opened my eyes and turned, finally gaining confidence. I stared at Chan who was already watching me with steady eyes. 

Soon, it came to the duet, 

“All I want is to fly with you All I want is to fall with you So just give me all of you”

“It’s feels impossible.”

“It’s not impossible”

“Is it impossible?”

“Say that it’s possible?” Our voices blended smoother than expected, making the crowd ooh and ah. I couldn’t deny that I felt the connection too as he made his way over to me, getting into the song. 

I felt him grab my hand,

“No one can say what we get to be Why don't we rewrite the stars? Changing the world to be ours”

I could hear his breathing so closely. His palm was quiet sweaty from holding the mic, but our hands felt so perfect together. 

Finally, I ended the song,

“You know I want you It's not a secret I try to hide”

I let go of his hand for dramatic effect, 

“But I can't have you We're bound to break and My hands are tied”

The lights turned black, and then right back on when cheers and clapping started to erupt. Once the lights turned back on, I felt the anxiety ride in my stomach again. 

We were still about 10 inches apart from each other. Chan’s eyes were stuck on me; the intensity was almost enough to cut right through me. 

He looked stunning in the dim light; his blonde hair was neatly done and his face was shiny from all the sweat, but he still looked beautiful. 

Damn, what am I thinking? I thought. 

Suddenly, he cracked a smile. “Hey, you’re a really amazing singer... but you also sound quite familiar. Have we ever met?” I smelt the alcohol on his breath, making me crinkle my nose in disgust. 

My heart pounded as I thought of answers to say. 

“Uhh, um, no? Not that I remember.” 

I saw his famous dimple splash onto his face, which sent butterflies in my stomach. What the hell am I feeling-

I saw him lick his lips and peer above us. I raised a brow and followed his stare. The crowd started whooping and hollering as our eyes landed at the thing hovering above us.

“Huh, mistletoe.” I felt my heart thump in anticipation as he leaned much closer to me. “Is this ok?” He whispered against my lips. I answered him by finally connecting out lips. 

Suddenly, the rest of the crowd disappeared and it was just us. 

Just me and Chan.

He pressed deeper into me, letting me taste the alcohol on his lips. I tried to not focus on the alcohol, letting myself fall deeply into the kiss. He pulled away slowly, confusing me. 

Gently, he made a move to take off my mask. Hypnotized by how close he was, I couldn’t move until I felt my phone buzz. We both flinched back at the loud alarm. 

It was midnight. 

Meaning it was time to go. 

“Um, I’m so sorry, I have to go!” I ran down the stage, not looking back, even when he yelled “WAIT!” I could NOT be late to getting home.

I ran towards the entrance and saw Jisung already there. His eyes widened.

“We are going to have a long talk, but let’s go!” I turned back, big mistake, and saw Chan looking for me. I pushed Jisung out the door in a hurry and we both started to run towards the car.

“So, uh, wanna tell me what the fuck was that?!” Jisung panted as he got into the car and immediately started the engine.

“Jisung, I wish I could say but I HAVE NO CLUE.” I emphasized. I tossed off my mask as the thing was starting to itch like hell. 

Jisung groaned and started the car. “So are we just gonna ignore how you made out with one of my friends on stage?” I turned to him with wide eyes. 

“Wait, did you just say that Chan was one of your friends?” Jisung rolled his eyes.

“Yes, I did. We’ve known each other for years, he’s Changbin’s older cousin and we hang out like all the time. How the hell do you know Chan? ‘Cause no way would you let a stranger make out with you on stage, even if he was hot.” I gulped and shook my head in disbelief.

“We were in the same psychology class and we sit, sat, next to each other.” I mumbled. I fiddled with my hair nervously, unsure of where our relationship stood now. Oh wait, he doesn’t even know that was you, you’re still just classmates., ex classmates.  “And he didn’t recognize me, so I’m just going to forget this ever happened.” 

Jisung scoffed. “Oh hell no, that was the most intense thing I’ve ever seen you do. You’re an amazing singer, y/n, I don’t know why you hide it all the time. Plus, you had SO much sexual tension on stage.” I slapped his arm as he cackled. “You know why this is so funny?” I shook my head as he continued “it’s hilarious because Chan was the dude I was going to set you up with but cancelled.” 

Suddenly, all the thoughts flooded back to me. 

“Oh my god, that was Chan? Oh shit, wait, that means him and Chaeyoung aren’t seeing each other anymore?” Then I realized, I had kissed Chan, knowing he was dating someone else. But I guess I forgot. But how could I have forgotten that? “Fuck, I didn’t know that Jisung, that means I kissed him and he could have been dating Chaeyoung! I am a terrible person.” I screamed into my dress. Jisung sighed and shoved me slightly to knock some sense into me. 

“Jesus Christ, y/n, it’s fine! They were never serious and Chaeyoung wasn’t that into him anyways, she was dating other people without Chan knowing, that’s why they broke up. You know Chan, hopeless romantic, he was devastated either way.” I closed my eyes in anger. Jisung was terrible at making things better. But I couldn’t focus on whatever their relationship was right now when such an intense thing happened.

“Well, it’s whatever anyways. He didn’t know it was me and in his eyes, that’s the last time he’ll ever see me again. And technically it is the last time I’ll see him because we don’t have a class together anymore. It’s done, over.” I said turning up the radio, but Jisung turned it back down. 

“Y/n, you cannot just ignore this! He was so into you!” I shook my head. 

“He doesn’t even know me! It’s whatever Jisung, he’ll probably forget about it the next day or give up some time over another. This conversation is over.” I made a statement by turning up the radio, the conversation truly ending this time.

-----

The days went by so slowly. My thoughts couldn’t help but constantly be surrounded by Chan, thinking about what he was doing, if he still was pining over me. 

*ding dong*

I heard my doorbell ring unexpectedly, making me jump out of my bed quickly. I pulled a hoodie over my tanktop and walked downstairs. Weird, I wasn’t expecting anybody. 

I pulled open the door, “hello-”

My heart stopped and so did everything else around me as I looked at the person standing at the door.

“Oh my god?? y/n??” Chan exclaimed, going in for that weird dude hand shake. I patted him on the back and pulled away, feigning a happy surprise.

“Wow, um, what are you doing here Chan?” I exclaimed. He was wearing a turtleneck with a long jacket, my favorite outfit on him.

“Jisung sent me here saying that I needed to pick up something?” I rolled my eyes and closed the door, letting him into my house. Weird. 

“Yeah, um, follow me.” I walked to the kitchen with him behind me and picked up the baggie of peppermint bark. I placed it in Chan’s hands while he looked at me with confused eyes. “It’s his dad’s favorite and Jisung asks me to make it every year and on his dad’s birthday because his dad likes mine the most. Of course his dad thinks Jisung makes it, but whatever makes him happy.” I shrugged.

Chan laughed and shook his head. “Wow, that’s so Jisung!” We both chuckled at the joke but then there was a silence. 

“So, uh, I should ask how you know Jisung but he talks a dude named Chan sometimes and I’m assuming that’s you?” I feigned innocence. Chan nodded. 

“Yeah! I’m Changbin’s, his neighbor, cousin, so we see each other a lot.” I nodded as we slowly walked to the door again.

“Well, I guess I should apologize on Jisung’s behalf for making you come here just to pick up peppermint bark. He’s an idiot and tries to set me with random dudes sometimes.” I rolled my eyes as Chan laughed.

“Wow, we both think you need to start dating, hmmm. Time to start searching.” I couldn’t help myself from feeling a bit hurt from him wanting me to date someone else, I guess I shouldn’t expect anything from him anyways.

I forced a chuckled and shook my head. “Nah, not into the whole dating game, sorry.” I waved him goodbye as he opened the door. He turned to leave, but looked back at me.

“You know, you’re fun to talk to. We should hang out sometime.” I raised a brow, knowing that was never going to happen. 

“I guess, yeah.” I noted lamely. Chan squinted his eyes at me and laughed.

“Wow, trying to spare my feelings now?” I blushed, caught in a lie. He just laughed though. “It’s fine, y/n. I know where you live now so you can’t escape me.” He laughed as he playfully punched my shoulder. 

As he stepped out the door, he looked back up at the top of it. “Oh what, is that a mistletoe?” I furrowed my eyebrows in shock and looked up. There was nothing. He broke out into laughter as I turned red in the face. 

“Dude, why I was about to barf.” I joked. 

He chuckled and put his hands in his pockets. “If there was a mistletoe there, would you have kissed me?” He asked abruptly. I leaned back, pretending to look confused. D-does he know? Impossible.

I raised a brow, wondering what his motives were. “I don’t know.” I deadpanned, closing the door in his face. 

I was about to walk away but I heard a knock on the door again. Then again. And again. And again. I let out a low growl and opened the door.

“Jisung told me.” He said before I could let another peep out. 

W-wait

I felt my hands turn numb and my legs go shaky. We stood in silence for a solid minute, which was a long time without saying anything. 

My mind felt numb and I couldn’t think of any lie to save myself. 

“Um... I’m sorry, you need to go.” I started to close the door, but he stopped me gently. 

“Y/n, wait, I’m not mad, and technically I knew before he told me. Look, I feel terrible for not recognizing you earlier but I was really fucking drunk. And I wasn’t in the right mind since I had ended things with Chaeyoung and my mind was just not thinking of anything. But I swear as soon as I got shown a video of us singing the next day, I knew. And I felt terrible, so I’m so sorry.” 

I felt shocked at his apology and I was unable to say anything in response. 

“Please, say something.” He took my hands and pulled me closer to him. 

And I felt terrible when I pulled back. I saw hurt run across his face as I said, “Look I was drunk too and--”

“No you weren’t, you were completely sober, I could tell in the video. Y/n please...” He made an attempt to come closer but stopped. “Look I know it’s bad that I just kissed a random girl and am now making attempts at you but there was something just drawing me to you that night. I mean the alcohol was helping me act on instinct but still. 

I was so happy to find out it was you. I had no idea who the girl was gonna be but when it was you, I couldn’t help but feel so relieved because it’s you, the girl I had a crush on in my psych class who was sarcastic with a weird sense of humor but that’s what was so awesome about you so please, we can just work something out. We don’t have to work fast.” 

A part of me wanted to just say yes and jump into his arms, but these things don’t happen to girls like me: girls who are constantly stuck in the background. He was still in love with that girl who sang confidently at karaoke, not that dull one in his psych class. 

“I’m sorry, Chan but I just can’t.” I spoke softly. I couldn’t bare to look at him as he left, but he said nothing as he walked off my porch.

------

I laid in bed, feeling like the whole world was pressing down on my chest. 

“Y/n! We’re going out to aunt josie’s house! Watch the house for us, we’ll be gone for 5 days! Merry Christmas!” The door slammed shut and I was officially alone on Christmas.

I’d always spent Christmas alone, every single year. 

Jisung had his own family to tend to and I didn’t wanna bother him. I told him that I was fine being alone since I hated Christmas anyways, and he didn’t push thankfully. It was time for me to be alone, to mourn my parents. 

It had been a few days, or maybe a week, since I last saw Chan. Jisung didn’t push the subject, knowing there was a more confusing internal battle in me. 

I felt my phone vibrate, signaling a text. My eyes grew wide when I read the contact name, scared to read the message. 

‘can we meet up right now?’ it read.

My fingers shook, unable to type a message. I hovered my finger over the ‘block’ button, wondering if that was a good idea. But before I could do anything, I got a call from Jisung. .

“Wha-”

“DON’T BLOCK HIM!” I pulled my phone away from my ear. 

“What? How did you know-”

“’Cause I fucking know you, don’t block him. Ok, y/n, let’s be honest right here right now. This isn’t about Chan, this is about you. I guess and Chan but anyways. You’re scared because of these insecurities you have, which you shouldn’t have ‘cause you’re pretty and you’re funny and cool so yeah. But, you have them, so what can you do I guess. But Chan, he’s a great dude; he’s funny, talented, hot, sporty, he’s everything a girl could want and more. Especially what you want. So I know you like him and you should take this chance because even if things don’t work out forever, at least you made the effort.”

I could hear loud music and talking in the background and I knew he was outside of his house where a big party was happening. I went soft knowing he was taking the time out of his Christmas to say this to me.

“Ok... I’ll do it.” 

“Wait what?”

“Call you later.” 

I hung up the phone and returned to texting Chan with Jisung’s confidence in me. 

‘yes... im home right now.’ 

‘are you flirting with me right now?’

I let out a bark of laughter. Chan knew how to get a girl to smile. 

‘no :/’ 

‘well i’ll still be there in 20 mins’ 

‘ok i’ll be here too’

He read my message, didn’t respond. Does that mean he’s on his way over now? 

I ran out of bed and looked at myself. 

“I need a fucking shower.” I took a 5 minute shower and ran out, dried myself and put on a little makeup, just to look not dead. I pulled on a white sweater and leggings, trying to look like I’ve been lounging all day, but cute lounging. 

Before I knew it, I heard my doorbell ring. I groaned in surprise but ran downstairs anyways. I took a deep breath, calming myself.

You can do this.

I threw open the door and saw him standing there, in a white button down shirt with dark fancy pants. His hair was now a dark brown, making him look more mature and casual than his chic blonde look. 

“Hi.” He said with a smile. 

“Hey, um, come in I guess.” I stood back to let him in and closed and locked the door behind him. “Um, merry Christmas.” He looked at me with kind eyes and smiled.

“Merry Christmas to you too.” 

We stood in a peaceful silence, one testing out the waters with the other. 

“What are you doing here instead of spending time with your family?” I asked finally. He shrugged. 

“Well, um, so both my parents died when I was 13.” I held in my gasp and held my head low for condolence.

“I’m sorry for your losses.” He nodded and looked up at me. 

“I’ve heard you have a similar story.” I sighed and sat down next to him as he took a seat on the couch. 

His body heat was radiating off him in waves and it made me feel like home. “Yeah, Jisung probably told you?” Chan nodded and I sighed. “Yeah, um, my mom died when I was pretty young, 8 to be exact. And my dad died just a couple years ago...leaving me with an ass for a stepmom and step sisters so.” I shrugged, not knowing how to go on.

“I’m sorry.” I nodded.

He leaned back in the couch and rolled up his sleeves. I couldn’t help but feel so attracted to him despite our situation being serious. 

“So-” We both started. 

“You go first.” He said. I nodded. 

“So um, I’m just really sorry about what happened the last time I saw you. I guess I was just afraid of commitment and um, feeling loved I guess. To explain it simply, I’ve always felt like I was background music while everyone else is a title track.” I shrugged nonchalantly, but I couldn’t help but feel emotional. His arm immediately went to wrap around my body and pulled me closer. He rubbed my back in circular motions which calmed me down. 

“I’m not blaming you for what happened, I guess we both have our faults.” I shook my head.

“No, you did nothing wrong, it was just me.” I argued as he laughed in surprise.

“Seriously, the first time we kissed, I was drunk as hell. I could tell you noticed ‘cause you made a face.” I blushed and hid my face in my hands. 

“Shut up.” 

As I said that, we returned to our usual banter and relationship. It felt normal again. 

“Hey, I never got to tell you, you’re an amazing singer you know that?” I gave him a small smile and shrugged.

“Thanks, you are too.” 

Then, he glanced up at the ceiling and raised his brows. 

“Mistletoe!” He called out. I grew confused and looked up. “There’s no mistletoe up there.” He gave me a boyish smile and shrugged.

“I know, I just wanna kiss you.” I let out a harsh laugh and slapped his chest.

“Dude, you can’t just say mistletoe whenever you wanna kiss me.” He wiggled his eyes brows and came close to me. My body grew warm since the look on his face was nothing but innocent. “You sure?” I nodded, daring him to go on.

“Mistletoe.” He pecked me on the lips, sending tiggles through my body, but leaving me wanting more.

“Mistletoe.” He leaned in again for half a second then pulled away.

“Mistletoe.” 

“Mistletoe.”

“Mis-” As he leaned in to kiss me for the fifth time, I pulled him closer and he didn’t fight it as he pulled me on his lap. 

He pulled away softly to look up at me. I titled my head at him in curiosity.

“Hm, so how do you like Christmas now, Cinderella?” I gasped and shoved him away playfully. 

“Cinderella? You are not calling me that!” I squealed as he tickled my sides.

“Really? How ‘bout Cindy? Ella? Cinder??” I flicked him on the neck harshly and he gasped in pain. 

“You meanie!” 

He laughed and held me down in his lap. “Ok ok fine! But I’m serious, how do you like Christmas now?” 

I thought about his question for a moment until I leaned down to kiss him gently on the lips, surprising him.

“I could get used to it.”

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[marsworms]

so a few days ago i saw the new star war and i decided to do the most unnecessary and unwanted thing ever: make a post about how i felt about it. below the cut cuz spoilers i guess

right after i left the theater i got a message from a good lovely friend of mine asking how i felt about it. i immediately replied that it was good, mostly just cuz thats pretty much what i always say when asked abt stuff like that unless i felt strongly about it, but after thinking about it for a bit i came to the conclusion that it was just Okay... and honestly, the more i think about it, the only emotion i really feel is Disappointment.

now i really liked the force awakens and especially the last jedi. these two, when put in context with the older films, presented a unique narrative. i think its pretty uncontroversial to say that the villains of the star wars series are based off of nazis (and to a certain extent american imperialists but thats besides the point), with the prequel trilogy telling the story of the failure of a liberal republic and the rise of these space nazis and the original trilogy telling the story of resistance to the militarist empire established in the aftermath of that rise. in this course of events, the first order would thusly be neo-nazis, of a sort, a power hungry group of imperial revivalists. this was how i interpreted it in the first film, and how i continued to interpret it in the latter, furthered by the pathetic characterization of figures like general hux and kylo ren. the resistance then becomes people fighting this attempted revival of the empire by the coalition of old imperialists and new ideologues, yeah? additionally, there would then be the question of what to do after the first order is defeated; the republic failed to stop the rise of these militarist imperialists twice by that point, so surely there would be a question of whether the republic is even, in the end, a good thing.

the last jedi, in my opinion, served these ideas pretty well! it showed a first order emboldened by recently taking over control of the government, a resistance struggling to continue in the face of dwindling numbers and supply, internal power struggle within the first order between kylo ren and general hux, and a focus on a structural critique, with luke skywalker throughout the film decrying the old jedi for being complacent and hypocritical and the canto bight scene in effect turning the eye on industrialists and capitalists for profiting off of human misfortune and suffering. it was different and it fit very well with what i thought the movie series was going for in the force awakens. on top of that, i really appreciated the narrative about rey not having important parents, that she was just the child of people who weren’t very important on the galactic scale, because that felt to me as a good rebuttal to the first order’s fixation on the heritage of kylo ren as a descendant of darth vader (and the general idea of the importance of bloodlines that is so prominent in the modern revivalist movements that surround the old militarist imperialists of the real world). rey didn’t have to be a skywalker to be important or to change the world, she could just do it by being principled and doing what is right and all that. the last jedi challenged the preconceived notions of the in-universe factions of the resistance and the first order, as well as the preconceived notions of star wars fans, and i thought that was a good thing!

the rise of skywalker undoes ALL of this. the structural critique is gone, replaced by the sudden and unexpected return of emperor palpatine and the revelation that he has been guiding everything from behind the scenes, just like he was in the prequels. now, the villain of the series isn’t war, it isn’t the failings of the republic, it isn’t even the space nazis themselves... its just emperor palpatine! the first order melts away and is replaced by the last order (which btw i just think is a dumb name), with a surprise massive fleet made up entirely of ships that have the ability to destroy planets and will be able to take over the whole galaxy. its pretty obvious how just boring this is... they replaced a fledgling government established following a coup with a sith dominated new empire under an immortal palpatine that has the ability to destroy the entire damn universe. gone also is the critique of the fixation on bloodlines, replaced by the sudden realization that rey is a descendant of palpatine, and the relationship between kylo ren and rey is due to some kind of essential deep force relationship between the bloodlines of anakin skywalker and sheev palpatine. i hate that so so soooo much. its dumb, and it serves the exact mentality that was described by the first order in the last jedi. the rise of skywalker was basically just a rehash of return of the jedi, with the exact same set of characters just with new faces, and the stakes massively increased (now its a whole fleet of death stars! now palpatine can shoot down spaceships in the sky using his lightning powers!) also on top of that kylo ren and rey were really the only well written characters, everybody else was either so so one-dimensional or were shunted out of view (rose, the character introduced in the last jedi was incredibly non-present it was shameful).

basically, i wish that the rise of skywalker (or whatever it would be called if the narrative were different) was about the continuing growth of the resistance, reaching out to and gaining allies, all in the buildup to a final confrontation with the first order and, most likely, the ultimate switcharoo of ben solo ceasing in his support for the first order (most likely de facto succeeded by general hux just before the final defeat), and then it ends with hopeful uncertainty about what the galaxy will now look like, with the first order defeated... many people don’t want to bring back the republic, since it had failed to keep the sith from taking over twice at that point, but ultimately people look to the future with hope and all that yaknow... a very different tone from the unequivocal victory against the final cosmic enemy of a revived sith empire under some kind of god-king palpatine.

also i just thought it was funny that kylo and rey basically got together, if even for a moment. i don’t concern myself much with the weird shipping discourse cuz its something im completely uninvolved with, but boy i just thought that that whole discussion would become so intensely hellish with that final change in the movies. it felt forced and strange for sure, but im just so distant from shipping discourse that i only thought it humorous. the fixation on kylo and rey that led to the ultimate relationship between them was part of my problem with it, cuz it was central to why poe, finn, and rose just fell to the wayside and had such little presence in the movie. just disappointing!

#the worms crawl in #star wars #sorry for a long ramble this probably isnt even like #meaningfully coherent #but hey its how i felt about the movie

[jisungshotfirst]

AH! This is so late;; but! I hate presentations so i guess tests it is~~ Hmm random questions!! Hows the weather today? What's the first thing you think of when you hear the word "soft"? Have you/would you go tree top trekking? Do you enjoy scary movies +/or haunted houses? Do you blush easily? + !!!! Omg it seems like there are so many groups coming out soon?? Crazy (・o・) but yayyy new music im excited ^^ - Mich ♡

Don’t stress!! It’s nice to hear from you :)) yay random questions. The weather is COLD AND HORRIBLE I MISS THE WARMTH. Storm Lorenzo is on his way so let’s see what happens. :(( I’m so whipped I thought of Jisung. I have done treetop trekking! I was in a rainforest in Cambodia this summer and I did zip lining through the forest it was so fun, I love being up high. Scary movies, no. Haunted houses, yes. I get too into movies so get scared easily but with haunted houses I’m more aware that it’s actors and they can’t hurt me so I enjoy the jumps but there’s no aftermath,, I also loveeee going with easily scared people, I’m always leader and I go in front and protect hah. I probably do blush easily i don’t know tho,, I can never tell if I’m blushing,, are you supposed to be able to feel it? Coz I jsut don’t lol. And yesss omg so many so like oneus happened, superm tomorrow, stray kids, ateez, ab6ix, Day6, cix, Monsta x, Nu’est (!!!), txt, super junior, onf and then some solos too?? What a month to be a multi stan tho, I’m so excited for new music

#mich

[strayology]

Kpop Q&A~

I was tagged by the one and only loveliest kachu~ @pikachulein

Ultimate bias:

I have quite a few lol

- Kim Yugyeom (GOT7,, he’s my first ever bias and omg I love this big baby with my whole heart)

- Xu Minghao (Seventeen,, I actually knew minghao predebut *not like in person lol i just wanna clarify* I was 9 or something and he said something very inspirational and that really pushed me forward to achieve my dreams )

- Kim Woojin (Stray Kids,, Woojin’s voice really really REALLY got to me. ever since when i first started listening to stray kids I recognized his voice right away and i just love it sososososossoooooooooooo much)

- Qian Kun (NCT/WayV,, i think this one is extremely biased lol, i was looking through NCT kpop profile and when I got to Kun’s I started crying because we are from the same province in China. So i guess it’s just an emotional attachment but Kun is a great vocalist and he’s such a great leader and wow piano boy??????????)

Ultimate bias wrecker:

well if I had a few ult biases of course i got a few bias wreckers

- Choi Youngjae (GOT7,, youngjae was another member’s i kinda didn’t pay much attention to when i first stanned got7. i realized youngjae and i have many similar personalities and i just love his voice?? and i just feel like he’s not getting enough love that he deserves)

- Yang Jeongin (Stray Kids,, ever since i knew about stray kids — so hellavator teasers lol — i have thought jeongin was a baby. at first he’s not my bias or my bias wrecker but i always bring up how he will be jyp’s softest maknae,, i was proven wrong after he got his braces off because this child went wild. but there’s that one selfie he posted where he wore his school uniform i was like,, omg my baby,,,,, and for some reasons you’ll always catch/hear me say something about jeongin,,, but i’m not a jeongin stan)

oh wait theres only two 

Favourite kpop song?

asdfghjkl how can I ever choose?????

Im probably gonna list a few or at least try to name one of my each ult group

- I Like You (GOT7)

- Don’t Wanna Cry (Seventeen)

- M.I.A. (Stray Kids)

- New (LOONA - Yves)

- Egoist (LOONA - Olivia Hye)

- Satellite (LOONA,, THIS IS A NEW ONE AND I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH)

First kpop song?

I dont think this is really kpop because it was the Chinese version of a kpop song, but it was Wolf (Chinese ver.) by EXO

Favourite album/single?

okay i actually have set answers for this one because it takes a lot for an album to me my favorite. usually for an album to be my favorite the concept/aesthetics must appeal to me, and I have to like every song on the album

- <Present: You> & Me (GOT7,, i love all the solos and different collab stages i have never heard of just come together and it’s amazing. also lullaby 4 languages?????????)

- Teen,Age (Seventeen,, THE WHITE VERSION IS THE MOST SUPRIOR VERSION YOU CANT FIGHT ME ON THAT ONE. but yes i love all the song on that album,, i seriously can’t pick a song i didn’t like)

- I Am Who (Stray Kids,, this was the album that got me hooked on to stray kids. like i have always liked them since predebut and i guess i stanned them, but they weren’t like up there for me. I am Not was a concept i loved and i’m pretty sure i cried during their debut. but district 9 was really the only thing i listened to and that was it??? i got into them again because i had a friend irl who liked stray kids and i was like “wow a local stay?????? me too !!!!!” so i kinda crash coursed myself into stray kids by listening to all their other songs and before i knew it,, this entire album was on repeat for it.)

tmi: yumi has 3 I am Who albums 😂

Hard or soft stan?

Tea time with Yumi: I was a hard stan.

well here’s the thing over the 3 years I have been into kpop I became less and less of a had stan? when I ulted GOT7 i was such a hard stan (my last igot7selca day was the prime example of a hard stan) but after I ulted seventeen I was less of a hard stan, then eventually when I ulted Stray Kids im like “nope I can’t do this anymore”

I mean I’m still a hoe but that doesn’t mean im a hard stan lololololol

Favourite kpop company?

I dont look too much kpop companies because they all have their flaws in some way, but if I had to pick one it would be JYP. from what I see JYP artists are treated a lot better than artists in other companies. but also I stan a lot of JYP artists

Backstory?

oh wow my story is probably super stupid and long,,,,,

I kinda already knew about kpop because of EXO being super big in China and I actually really liked EXO songs but never tried to stanned the group.

In 2016 there was a really popular app in my school called musical.ly (and yes I used it) on that I heard some kpop songs (Daddy - PSY and Hate - 4Minute) and I was like hey they are not that bad so i decided to listen to those songs for a while plus with some EXO and Orange Caramel because they were the only two groups I knew. Still I didn’t stan any groups yet

I remember it was around June of 2016, I had the tumblr gadget on my phone and one of the tags that were trending was EXO and I was like “hey I know them” so I clicked into it and see what’s up with them (fyi I knew about Kris, Luhan, and Tao leaving EXO,, I cried so hard when Kris left and I didn’t even stan the group lol) and I saw the teasers for the Monster comeback but I kinda looked at it said “wow” and then that’s it.

Then on June 4th, 2016 I was lying on my bed, I was super bored and I decided “hey why not go on tumblr and look up GOT7″ There were so many factors that led me to search for GOT7:

1. I was watching a couple of Chinese shows with Jackson on it and I kept on hearing them mentioning a group called GOT7

2. Try guys try Kpop,, I saw them watching the Just Right MV and I was like “wow this is colorful” but I never got the song name or group name lmao

And because I looked up GOT7 on tumblr it led me to look them up on Youtube and before i knew it I have jumped into the rabbit hole that was stanning GOT7 and other kpop groups

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because I procrastinated on this for so long i’m not gonna tag anyone, but if you see this and wanna do it you’re welcome to say I tagged you !!

#tagged !! #yumi is a big procratinator