#great that es.sek is acknowledging that he has Really Fucked Up but wow!

[widonotts]

haven’t made any progress catching up for over a week but just learned the context for “young man” and wow! i dislike it even more

#negativity #late night thoughts #i already tend to feel pretty ‘meh’ about phrases like ‘young man/woman’ ‘little boy/girl’ etc taken as and/or meant as flirting #(i mean. ‘meh’ is the BEST i could feel about it. usually i feel... notably less pleased.) #but oof! #great that es.sek is acknowledging that he has Really Fucked Up but wow! #that read as so very patronizing to me #and that’s setting aside the ‘young man’ :/ #who’s gonna tell him that he doesn’t know everything (even though he incited a war to try and know more) 💜 #i don’t even know where the story is but one of my greatest hopes is that essek betrays them again in favor of knowledge #LISTEN: i love knowledge-seeking neutral evil characters #i love neutral evil es.sek #AND #i think it would be incredibly powerful for the characters to try and befriend and change someone #and for once for their efforts not to succeed #because ultimately a person has to want to change and make great strides themself #no person can change another’s morality no matter how much they want to help them #and as i understand he’s starting to move in that direction already but... #just based on what i know through 2x130.... it feels like he could still very much be swayed backwarcs #backwards* #and I Would Like To See It. #The Angst It Would Create. The Narrative Intrigue. #i just don’t think it’s fun if ALL the evil npcs with strong ties to the party turn neutral/good!!! #some of em gotta have messy redemption arcs that take a nosedive halfway through!!!! #anti essek #anti shadowgast #hopefully putting the tag at the end will get it out of the main tag? :o