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made new refs for them cause the old ones make my eyes bleed lessgo

#also cause refs are very easy to make theyre just time consuming #gouge.txt #gouge.xcf #i have shit I wanna properly paint and render but my brain was like Ah Yes time for new Refs #pmtok scissors #pmtok colored pencils

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dumbass study i chipped away at for a while, she fuckign thorsty

og is under the readmore

tbh i kinda wanna polish it more but. this is as far as im taking it for now

#i fuckin love the original img wpdksjdk #as soon as i saw it i was like I HAVE to do a study of it…. #and I replaced the girl w ✂️ to make it personalized 😌 #i was gonna change the shirt to black too but i got lazy #gouge.txt #gouge.xcf

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drop & run

#half assed lighting practice on the stupid sun demon boy #he physically cannot own a smartphone he will obliterate its transistors from being within 5ft of it #gouge.txt #gouge.xcf #i need to update his ref too cause I changed his jacket and the old ref ugly asf anyway

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one of my cats got out yesterday morning and im so sad. where is he please come home <//3 also my head has hurt like a mf all day but what else is new

#i hate my chronic migraines so much 💀 #im like 🤏 this close to losing my dinner #the stress over my cat is def not helping 😭 I miss him sm #gouge.txt

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fuck this guy

#he stressed me out so much. Bro was under the house the whole fucking time ‼️‼️ #sorry he looks like shit in this pic cause I gave him a bath cause he was dusty asf #he was mad at me but I gave him catnip and lactose free milk #anyway yeah. cat is back guys 😭 #gouge.txt #gouge.png

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#i made this for myself bc my brain short circuits whenever i try to keep my lighting consistent #gouge.txt #gouge.png

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i am not immune to the give gf your coat to keep her warm trope

#i forgor i drew this ngl #gouge.txt #gouge.xcf #the perspective is a little fucked up but its ok. all my drawings are like that

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french person inside my brain

#wtf i havent posted here in ten billion years (20 days) #just gonna drip feed shit from my drafts so my blog isnt completely dead #gouge.txt #gouge.xcf #had to cut off the barrel or like half the canvas was empty. tfw 1.7 meter gun 💀

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not to be insensitive or whatever cause i do understand where the frustration comes from but like. when ppl complain how art is being increasingly commercialized/commodified/thought of as content when it’s not intended to be etc etc and im like yeah that fucking sucks ofc.

but then they says smth like “why cant art just exist as a hobby anymore :(” and it’s like… it literally can??? just make your art dude who gives a fuck

#other ppl’s/society’s perception of art should have no bearing on your ability or willingness to create #art is the only uniquely human thing and no one can take that from you #yes ai ‘art’ content farms suck. yes some ppl only draw for clout or money (which is totally fine!) #so like… sorry other ppl get more attention than you I guess?? but that shouldn’t matter to whether you make art??? #idk man i know i sound kinda snobby but like. art is one of the few things I actually have a strong opinion about #gouge.txt

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really wish god didnt debuff me with headaches every five seconds 🗿

#can’t have shit in this house #next time i have a head splitting migraine i better just have a fuckin aneurysm or something #gouge.txt

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i forgot abt this site i think its funny that it looks like i had killed myself bc of a cricket in my AC due to my last post though lmao

#honestly i got extremely close to doing that im not even gonna lie #the cricket is gone now though so big W #im also on antidepressants now 🗿 #gouge.txt

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matching tongues 👅📄

#this drawing was in my brain forever I finally spat it out #i don’t know if the visual gag(?) is even comprehensible #the tab on her tongue is supposed to mirror his piercing and the tab on his tongue is supposed to mirror her forked tongue #i do not know if i conveyed this at all 🚶 #gouge.txt #gouge.xcf #also my ass did not shade her brooch whoops 🗿

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also wanted to post this old doodle bc i think its cute :)

#i think its more expressive than my usual drawings and it makes me wanna work on my expressions #cause I wanna draw them better and not just the face but like using the whole body to emote… #gouge.txt #gouge.xcf

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wip but im trying new way to paint hair which is both easier and conveys lighting better lessgo

#still working out the technique and this obv isn’t finished but i like how it looks so far 🤷‍♀️ #gouge.txt #gouge.xcf #also i realized having my last post be abt a vague pain in my side was kinda ominous 😭 so i figured id post smth #the pain was most likely my kidney or pancreas(?) #but it’s gone now and my ass is not going to the doctor so idk my organs can cry abt it

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it’s raid bedroom fumigation part 2 tonight babey

#wearing my trusty n95 mask to keep the fumes out 🤘 #the next bug i see is genuinely gonna be my 13th reason #gouge.txt

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i wish i wasnt so deathly scared of insects bc having a cricket stuck in my wall ac unit is genuinely turning my room into a torture chamber

#i dont know what to do about it and it’s gonna attract more and im just. i hate bugs i hate bugs i hate bugs #i sprayed so much raid in my room the other night and I slept with a mask on under like 3 blankets even though it was hot as fuck #i am sooo mentally stable #gouge.txt