#gotta focus on possibilities !

[goldenageofwireless]

so crazy that sleeping makes u feel better

#had a 'never trust your own thoughts after 9 pm' moment last night lmaooo #im vibing now. listening to my tunes #gotta finish up my creative writing draft today wooo #gonna focus on the ending mostly i need to make it as sad as possible bc i am evil #its gonna b one of those gut punch endings yknow . the ones that make u feel hollow inside for hours afterwards #dunno how im gonna pull it off but im gonna do my damn best #🎸

[ev1lmorty]

weird weekend

#set up my sketchbook n tools etc to do some trad sketches bc it usually helps me feel better but im grr #i keep just opening pocket mortys n then getting annoyed bc nobody will battle me n the ones that do keep #oneshotting me or if i manage to kill one of their mortys just poofing #which is making my mood Worse zzz #kindve wanna doodle the last outfit reqs but i think i just wanna draw soft rnm stuff rn #> all my sfw wips are like dead srs edgy comics n i cant keep drawing edgy rnm art #anyways im rewatching it once again im on s3e1 again #i keep trying to watch other stuff but i cant focus + its keeping me sane #gotta speedrun a bunch of he tomorrow i got uhh #first pass of a 5 sec animation n a 3 page essay on the theory of magick #this is the easiest semester possible but i am for real going insane rn lol #bday officially in 4 weeks now #pisces season incoming babyyy

[tkbrokkoli]

just had the worst hair cut experience :(

#not fandom related #personal log stardate #was rly dysphoric abt my hair so i booked an appointment online where you can basically get your hair cut immediately #booked a men's haircut. tried to be as masculine as possible when i went there. i did Not pass as a guy. they thought i was a woman #the whole time. when i wanted to pay the hairdresser was like 'you booked an appointment for a men's cut but you're a woman right?' #she asked that bc for woman the haircuts are more expensive and for men they're cheaper. like. #for a women's haircut you have to pay 20 € more lol. anyway i felt... not much tbh. i looked her in the eye and shook my head #to indicate no im not a woman and she rang me up for a men's cut #i don't feel all that much rn either it's just. looks like i don't pass. there's not much i can do. #i cant dress any more masculine my hair is short i use mens shampoo and deodorant #its probably my high voice. also im small. it might just be my ~vibe~ im a shy kinda person idk #guess i just have to wait for T to work its magic. so far nothing has rly happened #i actually had a cold and not a voice drop but i think ever since i /can/ speak a tiny bit deeper if i try #idk if my levels are good. my next appointment is in april so i just gotta be patient and wait #what's actually most bothersome abt today is that i couldn't play it cool. if this had happened to a cis guy and he would've been asked if #he's a woman he would've laughed it off or been offended and it would've been ridiculous to him. for me it was the worst come true and it #made me extremely insecure and i feel if i had just the confidence that a cis guy has it wouldn't have made me that uncomfortable and i #could've just brushed it off #anyway i gotta focus on my exams now anyway so ill just try to brush this experience off #the hairdresser wasnt even transphobic when i shook my head no im not a woman her eyes were sort of soft but calculating like she accepted #me i think but just the fact that it happened that i do Not pass that i Do have to out myself and can't just be myself w/o being questioned #hurts #also to my mutuals ive read your comments and messages i just havent had the energy to answer yet. i love you guys <3

[reinabeestudio]

OFF has this effect on me that makes me obsess over it for days like some sorta drug. Like a bookmark between other interests

#yomiel speaks #I barely did any s/i content for it when i was into it ages ago #So its like all the ideas are crashing back to me and jamming my brain gears #Kinda funnie that my focus back then was zacharie/my sona and now its batter/cee #Something bout the possible dynamic between them calls out to me. Wrong devotion n such idk #I thought of giving her a face veil of sorts for that bride vibes #But its annoying as hell to draw so i might just stick to the usual blindfold and call it a day. Gotta cover zir eyes somehow

[mythvoiced]

-. Finished The B-ear, not here to talk about that because I will never stop and no coherence will accompany me on this journey anyway, BUT- now more than ever I want to bring my SAD SAD writer back that I had for... a few weeks back in 2016 I believe, so I shall be doing THAT.

BUT BEFORE THAT, I'll be MIA for a few days because I've been kind of tired as shit for no reason, so I can't get my brain to work on drafts or have the proper energy for chatting~ SO, I'LL SEE YOU SOON, just giving a heads up that I'm not ignoring anyone ♥

#;ooc #;psa #reason i'm associating the b.ear with bringing back Liz is bc same faceclaim lmao BUT #my neurodermatitis is acting up violently again for the first time in a good few years and it's #it's very itchy very uncomfortable i feel gross and my clothes all make it worse PLUS #because it's this bad again my skin's all raw and it hurts SO #i need to focus on 1. seeing if maybe i'm dehydrated and that did it #2. if that's the reason i've been sleeping poorly bc if it ain't gotta fix that too #3. no more alc for at least a week or two to see if that's got anything to do with it #and then... well idk whatever else comes to mind as possible solution WAHOO #BUT ANYWAYS YES I'LL CATCH Y'ALL SOON SORRY FOR PUTTING A PAUSE HERE

[miodiodavinci]

(lays down in a field of soft cotton) i accept my fate. but begrudgingly.

#i have been. pouring as much of my free time as possible into this project. #and yet i am continuously confounded by my incredibly slow work flow and my university hounding me for documents #in addition to what i can. only assume is burnout creeping in on my psyche hhh #which is to say that my focus is abysmal #it takes me hours to work up the nerve to work #and it feels mind-numbing once i actually start to push through #(and the entire time i am craving games and chatting with friends on such a visceral level it makes me ill hgasdkjsdfkj) #i want to say 'ahhh i'll take a break to just hang out with friends once i get this step done' #but i know this break will last several days and i am also internally screaming over how quickly my internship is rushing up on me #and how i know that in A Very Short Period Of Time my free time will be reduced to -100 #it is. a very sucky place to be. #need a break . . . . . but gotta get this done before the deadline . . . . . waughh ; ; ;

[summer-fire]

Once again thinking about pursuing a museum studies degree

#focus on repatriation if possible…. reading up on some of the Nepalese religious statues that have been returned in recent years #this article mentions how some of these things are found in wealthy homes and I just feel my skin crawl. #and thinking about all the stone we sell to these people to put in their floors. or in their shower installs where they’ll probably be torn #out in a few years and tossed in the garbage. #tens of thousands of dollars on shit that was mined in bad conditions. but man I gotta feed myself right. fuck this.

[cannibalisticskittles]

grousing about my research paper when my sister came home, stressing about how i really need to be working on it and spending a lot of time on it and I'm anxious to get it done.

she asks me when it's due

october 18th, i say

i'll fucking kill you, she says

#YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND THO #i NEED it to be done #and I need it done as soon as possible #I will not stop panicking until it's turned in #I think about it constantly #I can't turn off the worry #even though I have lots of time. and it even though my grade is high enough that even if I got a zero in this assignment #i would still fucking pass #it doesn't matter though. my brain says this is something I need to be panicking about. so I wake up feeling sick to my stomach #doesn't matter how many reminders I give myself. so! gotta focus on it till it's done

[ever-winter]

Like/Comment for a short starter! Please let me know which muse you'd like it from - or it'll be whoever happens to be loudest (Usually Seiko/Scara or Dottore) :)

#starter call ~ #//Gonna throw myself at drafts in the meantime #//I have 50 atm on this blog and honestly wanna clear them out this week if possible #//Other than Abra and I's main thread I won't be posting and just letting the queue run #//I will post starter calls and memes now and then but yeah #//*cracks fingers* I'm up to 600 drafts on canon...I really gotta get the two smaller blogs under control so I can focus there lmfao #//Send me help /o/

[avidlylivid]

so many swag epic awesome tmnt iterations (/gen /pos) and then I realise I Have Not Solidified Mine

anyways need to actually make the au premise other than random fun facts about them and their dynamics then come up with a name and then :3 the guys !!!

#i rant about them often but only occasionally realise that Ah. no one can hear the thoughts. i gotta actually make them #theyre in my head interacting constantly why do i never tell anyone about them #anyways so little bit about the iteration (if anyone's interested) #love when the turtles can just do mystic stuff for whatever reason (big plot in rise but also in 12. heard that 03 has magic stuff too) #so there's some magic/potions/light witchcraft/alchemy #but also a lot of crappy old tech frankensteined together. because i couldnt decide on a specific time that it's set in #because i love 90s/00s/10s stuff (victim to nostalgia. i am not ashamed) and my don is messy as hell #some of tbe characters will focus on specific pop culture from certain eras (mondo the y2k king) #but mostly you just need to know that the iteration is messy as hell. and i love it for that :]] #i have a secret little thing that ive planned on using in like a game someday but will beta with this iteration #not in full though because you know. games are interactive and making the iteration interactive in the same would isnt possible #i guess i could make a small 'choose your own adventure' site but that may be too much #who knows. just need to make sure im not overzealous. again. cant have too many big undertakings or burnout for things i love will happen :[ #viv.txt

[lionblaze03-2]

Just wanted to let everybody know: ancient ties has tools now

want to comprehend this post? tags. Why did I write it all in tags

#What is ancient ties? WELL FINALLY #See uhhh ancient ties is my main warrior cats oc universe. With fanclans entirely populated with full lineups #And stories planned out through two arcs. #The first arc consists of two comics and a short epilogue converging the two and setting up arc 2 #Well. It SHOULD. It doesn’t YET but it WILL I’m. Working on things #We originally got 2 chapters out I believe but. An artist left the team and that would significantly change the style #Because I let them sketch and line after my paper boards! So I’m gonna just. Remake the whole thing from my boards #My book of eligible scripts #I can read them and I’m the only one that needs tooooo #Then the second arc is just one gigantic comic plan. Oof #Prequel also possible. If I let myself think too much there WILL be a third arc so. #Gotta try and focus my brain so I can just get one thing done. Just one comic would be good. #The first planned one is Twisted Bonds (the subtitle. It’s under ancient ties still) and it shooouldnt be too more than ten chapters #I THINK. Which is like 30-70 pages each give or take. Avg 50 #POSSIBLE. Very possible for a creature that only works weekends and fridays #I need a passion and I will make it. I demand you all begin to get invested in my universe I promise I’ll make stuff #I’m doing concept art for real I prommy #warriors #warrior cats #shameless advertising #for a series that doesn’t exist nonetheless! But it will so get excited and stay tuned please. I want to share them so much #warrior cats oc #warrior cats fanclan #wc fanclan #upcoming #upcoming comic #OH YEAH I NEVER TALKED ABOUT THE FUCKING POST. Uhhh #Yeah there’s tools now! Each clan gets unique ones. I’m gonna give them unique jewelry and some jobs too I think #Have some more fun. Less close to canon more silly and individually unique #Like. For example cavernclan (where tb takes place) is allowed gemstone names and. Probably gemstone stuff

[sleepyselkiesketches]

I think Naida is probably my biggest OC glow up thus far

(as a follow up to my main 3)

#sleepy chibis #I thought I'd hate drawing those braids a lot more than I actually did #those are staying no matter what other updates I add now #I do kinda miss that og root coloration tho #sleepyselkiesketches #Naida #I always wanna add More to her #like there are so many cool details aaaa #but no I gotta remind mysef her whole point is fading into the background #as little to stand out as possible #she shouldn't even have the cats tbh #also #GOOD GODS ABOVE MY SLEEPY CHIBI STYLE #like!! it's a STYLE for real #.....so much for quick and easy thing so I'll focus on outfits and colors XD

[adammilligan]

i do think supernatural is one of those shows where you can't really properly analyze it as a whole until you've seen all fifteen seasons but that being said. you only need to watch one episode to know it's bad

#i've SEEN the newer fans that formed in the wake of 15x18 who refuse to watch any episodes that aren't dean and cas centric #and there are some who haven't watched the show at all in any capacity and it's like. girl you gotta experience the cringe #how are you a fan of the media if you've never even see the media....... #it just confuses me mostly! i don't get it. like love for whatever characters aside you can't really get around the fact that #this show has always been about dean and sam. always! like that's just because of the dudebros sitting in that writing room #going uehehehehehe codependent brothers #but like. regardless. it's why 15x20 made sense for them to come up with as an ending even though it sucked so much ass #because the focus of the show was still dean and sam. and they accomplished that in the worst way possible but still #though really the show eventually shifted from the dean and sam show to the dean show. but i digress #quite frankly if you refuse to watch entire parts of the show you ARE kind of missing. the point of it all #but also it's not really that deep. it's just a bad show lmao #kate rambles

[guideaus]

SK8 shouldve been the gay sports anime

#personal #that anime at least had more of a focus on their sport i think #and the characters felt real. i remember thinking it was unique and a nice choice that the protag wasnt like mr. prodigy for skating #it also had anime tropes but not in an annoying way (though that antagonist was lol) #just how people on hear spoke abt yoi was really weird bc they praised them being canon but like. they have no flavor #they barely feel real and within 3 eps had a whole lot of weird scenes #its like the nicest possible version of a show for fujoshis maybe lol. definitely not a sports show #i can see how fans of yoi would also like banana fish #i gotta rewatch that scene in death parade maybe or reread real

[murderousewpecspredator]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: モブサイコ100 | Mob Psycho 100 Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Dimple & Hanazawa Teruki Characters: Dimple (Mob Psycho 100), Hanazawa Teruki Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Mob Psycho 100 Spoilers, Divine Tree Arc (Mob Psycho 100), pretty much 2.5k of talking, listen there are so many interesting character dynamics we never got to explore ok, dimple stops pretending he isn't attached and adopts another kid, yet another impulsively-written oneshot that I finished at like 1 in the morning, I shouldn't even be surprised anymore tbh Summary:

Hanazawa Teruki remembers.

hello mob psycho side of tumblr, the obsession with mp100 is still going strong so have an impulsively written fic

#ser writes stuff #my posts #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #mp100 fanfic #mp100 spoilers #ao3 #listen I feel the possible implications from the divine-tree arc are very interesting okay #honestly I feel like this one was kinda aimless and didn't actually focus that much on the divine tree arc itself #but eh whatever #haven't finished a fic in a while gotta get that sweet sweet dopamine

[ofgentleresolve]

midnight thought, but shockingly, writing smut for patrick actually?? helped me learn something new about him in general ( and in his thg verse too though )

so i guess that means i'll be posting hcs for him on sunday :'D

#that would be truly wonderful ( ooc. ) #hahahaha i never thought the n*sfw tag would be used for him :'D #but also messaging with lena about the possibilities for the thg verse is giving me ALL THE INSPO..... #perhaps i will have to make a starter call for that verse soon #even though i have....SO MANY DRAFTS </3 #that and DID YOU KNOW THAT WHEN I SEE ALEX ON DASH I GET LIKE 482903482038 BOOSTS OF ENERGY <3 <3 <3 #I LOVE ALEX AND LENA SO MUCH THEY ENABLE ME TO WRITE DEPRESSO THINGS AND I AM NOT SORRY ABOUT IT FJSLDKJFKLSDJ :3 #but in the meanwhile hello!! i know i haven't done drafts in a hot second #but i am thinking about them!!....work's been a lot & also i have a outside writing project i've been working thru #it's something i technically studied to pull off so....gotta focus on that during the week #but i will!! get to everyone sooner or later I SWEAR :'D