#gods why

[fortheloveofkonig]

Also fuck I want to draw a M! Reader that's around the same height as me compared to König and Ghost

Because I simp for them

And they are fucking huge

And I was CURSED BY THE FUCKING GODSSSSSS

#mw2 x male reader #simon riley x reader #ghost #simon ghost riley #könig #ghost x male reader #könig x male reader #male y/n #im short as fuck #gods why

[larsgoingtomars]

I am shorter than I thought

#GODS WHY

[randomnameless]

I don't understand why Bernadetta fans feel entitled enough to claim she was robbed from CYL. It's not like she was an important character, her dad has more plot relevance than she does. I'm not crying "Robbed!" because my favourite secondary character hasn't won.

Eh,

Were you around during the A!Tiki redshiter who cried and ranted and made a general fuss everytime Y!Tiki received an alt?

Let's say the feh redshit is full of people who love their favourite characters, and some are prone to throw a tantrum whenever their fave isn't released.

Something Jugdral fans came to learn and accept during the past 20 years lol, that's why there's less outcries at "when the fuck is oldvis going to be released".

also, I'm not here to say whether Bernie's blazing performance in her base game has anything to do with how ardently some people rally behind her, but given the prevalence of 3H characters in the CYL picks, crying for Bernie is like pouring oil on a bonfire.

However, I'm also genuinely pissed at "Boobs'n'snakes" getting the first place, or how someone who appeared for 5 seconds and was only revealed to have assets and to simp for the self-insert, with hints of a "tragik backstory" is apparently the most popular female character of the franchise.

My fwend @crushednugget made an OC prediction and I hate how right it was ; I remember a time where the FE series weren't just a glorified dating sim, and as of February 2023, Gullveig winning CYL just hammered the fact that now, FEH at least, fully embraced the dating sim aspect.

#anon #replies #heroes salt #i just don't care about cyl by now but #i'm still pissed about the first pick #who wouldn't lol #yay this year it's an avatar fest + gullveig #and soren #gods why #but you're right anon #Bernie's dad is more plot important and relevant than his daughter #and yet #Bernie kept the fire meme jokes going it's a tradition #something Disengage doesn't have??

[lynnaquinn]

It's been a while, honestly the move was harder than I thought it would be and my health has gotten worse.

But all that said, kinda just want to return to here...partially just to vent and relax at the same time.

As mentioned, my issues have been getting worse, I've knocked over my energy drink multiple times this week alone because of me losing control of my hands. But honestly strangely that isn't what I'm here to talk about.

I've been grinding away at making my game as well as recording (though I haven't edited them yet) multiple YouTube videos as well as kept what kind of stream schedule my data cap allows me.

And now I have a new idea I want to do where in I make some STL files for those of us who want shape forms for under our clothing that have more...monster themed...textures.

Another project I will be working on.

So now we have Streaming, Game Design, YouTube, and then adult "shaping" STLs...and possibly other fun stuff once I learn Blendr

As things get worse and worse for me physically, it seems I just add more and more :(

#ideas #game dev #lynnaquinn #vtuber #lgbtqia #disability #actually adhd #adhd #adhd problems #why #gods why #i need to stop adding stuff to my plate

[dmcoffee]

Shhhhh I’m no longer a person. I am a cryptid.  I’m a little boring as a cryptid, I just take wifi until you acknowledge my existence. Once acknowledged I grow awkward and timid and GTFO so I don’t have to have a conversation or chit chatter. No party wants this. I have no idea what words will come out of my mouth. It could be cosmic truths or unmigrated nonsense. Just let me vibe in peace. I also accept Coffee Bribes.

#gods why #please #I just want to be at home #with my cat and my wifi #fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck this

[cannibalizedyke]

tbh i’m not even sure i want a relationship anymore. what i want is to be completely, irrevocably, and passionately in love with someone, and i feel like i couldn’t actually get that from real life.

#wanna write someone poetry #and i want them to write me poetry #wanna whisper pretty metaphors about how much i love them right into their ear #want them to hold me forever #gods why #txt

[pathsofpassion]

It's just.

It's just so fucking frustrating.

Mid April of 2021, I made a med change (going off birth control) that took me from 60-70% functionality to 90-95% functionality.

I was working full time or over, I was walking the dog and doing the dishes and it was easy, easy, easy. I just did what I needed to do, without hurting, without struggling, for the first time in my adult life without one fucking thing being hard.

If that's what the neurotypical experience is, guys, then - fuck. Fuck do they not have any fucking excuse to call us lazy, because they have no idea what it's like to fight your brain on every task just to survive.

For six weeks, it was beautiful.

And then I got some medical news (that I'd tipped over from pre-diabetes to diabetic) that sent me into the hardest three-day depression spiral I'd ever experienced up to that point, and I'm pretty sure it changed my actual brain chemistry, because I have never gotten back to those six weeks of easy.

Hell, for most of the 17 months since, I've barely been at 60% functional, on the same damn meds as before. This last spring and early summer, when I was working with a doctor and trying a variety of different med combinations in a desperate attempt to find a better one, I went down to 30% sometimes, and had more than a little suicidal ideation too, for the first time in my life.

I'm back on the old meds, and back to 60-70% functionality on the good days, and it makes me want to scream.

Six weeks is long enough, in my view, to not be a fluke or circumstantial or whatever else you want to excuse it as - to be doing that well that long, that consistently, says to me that I'd found my brain chemistry nirvana.

And then it changed.

And to know, completely and utterly know, that these issues are solely a product of bad brain chemistry - that it's not me, I'm not lazy, I'm not bad, I just have a shitty fucking brain - is. Frustrating beyond words, and devastating if I think about it too long.

Because I tried, earlier this year, I tried every med change recommended and it all just made things worse. Granted, I've since switched doctors and I like this one a lot better, and maybe I'll get brave enough to see if she has different ideas, but I can't do this spring over again.

And I just. Fuck. Why.

I almost wish I hadn't had those six weeks of nearly being normal, so that I wouldn't know what I'm missing.

#mental health #adhd #bipolar II #suicidal ideation #personal #gods why #just #why #okay to reblog

[tealime9]

You took: Psychic Damage, mental damage, spiritual damage +2

oh god the horrors of life when you spend time near your family

#gods why #this weekend at my parents house and near sister being awful #im trying to think of my niece but im very overwhelmed #vent #rant

[epicsauce]

learning that self deprecation isnt cool and just makes the people around you uncomfortable unironically improved my mental health a lot. like if you just stop saying negative shit about yourself you will genuinely like yourself more and other people wont be repulsed by your attitude and you will have more friends. it's true.

#people will fr go ''god im such an ugly loser LOL i suck at everything i do and i should just kms“ #and then go “why does no one want to be around me” #maybe because your attitude sucks. maybe because i said 'those mean things you say about yourself arent true' #and you spent five minutes arguing with me about how im wrong. #00

[theminecraftbee]

you ever accidentally create a recurring theme in your writing. you start putting together an outline for something you’ve never written before and get partway through planning, rearrange the pieces, and go “GODDAMMIT THIS IS ABOUT GRIEF AGAIN”? because let me tell you,

#I swear to god I don’t know why I keep doing this

[lilislegacy]

imagine being someone at new rome university and not knowing percy is the same guy as “percy jackson, son of poseidon, two-time hero of olympus, former praetor” because the thought doesn’t even cross your mind. like… he’s percy. he’s a total frat boy. on a normal night, he walks into a party, refers to everyone as bro or dude, socializes with every living (and not-living) person in the room, makes at least 50 sarcastic comments, plays 12 rounds of beer pong, drinks way too much, and then skates around campus on his skateboard yelling “I LOVE NEW YORK” (which makes no sense, because they’re in california) until someone calls his girlfriend to come get him.

and then one day there’s an attack, and frat boy percy is all of a sudden a fighting machine. he’s yelling battle cries alongside the praetors frank zhang and hazel levesque as they lead everyone into battle. (why is he with the praetors? and why…. why in the world do the praetors seem to be following his lead?) his sword slashes through armies of monsters faster than you’ve ever seen. he’s controlling the entire river surrounding the camp, creating huge waves as tall as skyscrapers that crash down all around him, wiping out monsters and causing mass destruction to his enemies’ ranks. the sky is suddenly dark above you, ice-cold water droplets are slashing through the air, and the wind is blowing so aggressively that it’s making it hard to stand up steadily. because he’s somehow created a hurricane.

and he looks terrifying. you can feel the power radiating off of him. he’s like a god. or maybe a monster. it’s hard to tell. you’re a little scared of him, to be honest. but also in total awe, because it’s extraordinary. he’s extraordinary.

frat boy percy is not who you thought he was.

#but at least it makes sense why annabeth chase is dating him lol #I AM NOT SAYING PERCY IS A BIG DRINKER #if he even drinks at all #it’s just the frat boy concept #it’s just for the sake of the post #anyway #i love how fast his mood changes #he’s so terrifying #but in a cute way #frat boy percy #percy jackson #annabeth chase #percabeth #trials of apollo #chalice of the gods #heroes of olympus #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo

[stil-lindigo]

frankly, the people whose kneejerk reaction to bisan asking for a global strike form the 21st-28th is to say that it takes years to organize a general strike are really unhelpful! no one is saying otherwise, but palestine will be a smoking crater if we all wait for years to do anything - bisan is asking us to do something now. Like are we only supposed to do something if we can do it perfectly??? At some point it’s a valid critique about the work that goes into social movement, and at another point I feel like some people are just trying to absolve themselves from not putting any effort into observing a week of economic inaction.

like idk! I get it, okay! People have bills to pay that don’t magically go away for a strike, we don’t have nearly enough social infrastructure in place to support people to fully stop going to work for a week. But fuck, dude! Stop immediately responding in such a defeatist way! Cut out unnecessary purchases! Try to shop local! Put more effort into promoting Palestinian voices online! Attend a protest, call a local rep, do something!

#like am I going insane #why did I see a post with thousands of notes on it talking about how it doesn’t make sense to be asking for this sort of action #it doesn’t make SENSE? #like god! I hope you’re taking other more sensible courses of action then! #fucks sake man #bisan is living through a waking nightmare and some of you are so pedantic and miserly #palestine #free Palestine

[not-foxy-knowledge-seeker]

I hate strong winds I hate them I hate them I HATE them

#why is it so windy. it wasn't this windy when I was a kid #I've been so paranoid about tornadoes after sophmore year ended with a surprise tornado but gods GODS WHY #TWO YEARS AGO A TREE FELL ON MY HOUSE AND THEN ON MY CAR BECAUSE OF HOW STRONG THE WINDS WERE. #GODS WHY #I hate it here I want my home to go back to normal #no more strong winds please can we uninstall this update

[corvuserpens]

For the 18468th time

why did I decide to enroll in a Masters degree course

#who the HELL thought this was a good idea #Gods WHY #this thesis is gonna make me hate dinosaurs #I won't be able to look at a dinosaur again for tlike twenty years #ok no that's not true bUT I'M STILL EXTREMELY TIRED AND STRESSED #a Crow's rants

[oars]

#i feel like tge fact im apprehensive about posting this is kinda proving my point #the way everyone talks about both weight gain and weight loss is just horrendous #like idek if i could fit all i wanna say in here especially while im at work but #i so badly wish people could be normal about weight gain and talking about it #its like if youre not in some constant state of wanting to lose weight people want to kill you #god forbid you want to put on weight to feel more comfortable in your body outside of muscles and a butt #fatphobia is a given thats a whole other few paragraphs #im grateful i have mutuals and friends who are normal but ill have or hear these convos and go #ok i feel sick. why do i feel this way why do you feel that way. #anyways i think fatphobia is one of the worst things to ever happen

[arundolyn]

everybody shut up this post is exiga nail now. get nailed idiot

#muting it forever why did people have to start reblogging it help me god im tired of my notes being held hostage #if youre thinking about reblogging this then dont #forgot the hell that is posts getting traction on this godforsaken platform fr