#god i miss season one so much

[kingofanemptyworld]

Rin, identity issues, and the complications of being an isolated, alienated teenager

It feels sort of weird to say but I generally don’t head canon characters as having particular sexualities. Whatever people go for in fics is usually fine with me - gay, lesbian, bi, pan, something more general like queer. As long as it makes sense for the story they’ve built and the character they’ve shaped to fit it, I’m good. Unless you’re ignoring a canon LGBTQ+ sexuality, in which case, yeah, I’ll take issue with that.

But anyway. Rin.

I’ve got my personal ship for him (BonRin my beloved), but regardless of the pairing I see him as bisexual. He’s so open with his infatuation with Shiemi, and okay, sure, fandom likes to ignore the love interest in shounen for the most part because we’ve got gay ships to peddle. But I don’t see the point in that unless it really reads like it’s a front, or a result of a character suppressing themselves for one reason or another. And with Rin, I think it’s pretty clear his affection for Shiemi is sincere. You technically have the in-universe evidence of the demon that brought out his true desires to back that up, but even without it, Rin likes her. It’s complicated because of Yukio and Shiemi’s own inexperience with romance, and yet I never once doubt he really likes her.

That being said… he’s very appreciative of the guys in his life, too. (Peddling my gay ship here) Bon in particular, considering he’s often admiring how cool he thinks Bon is, that his haircut suits him whether it’s the blonde rooster look or the undercut. If you don’t want to see it as romantic interest, that’s your prerogative, but to me Rin comes across as seeing cool and cute as different traits he finds attractive (in Bon and Shiemi respectively).

I also think his bisexuality would fit neatly into his narrative struggles to “pass” throughout the early parts of the series. Rin has grown up as the neighborhood problem child, ostracized for being violent, and eventually he decides he’s fine with just his brother and his father — and the rest of the monastery, presumably — for company. (Except that’s absolutely not true and clearly he’s starved for friendship and support.) People looked at him and saw a monster, even before his demonic heritage made an appearance; why would he bother giving them even more ammunition when it comes to reasons to hate him? So no matter when he figured out his attraction to guys, he’s not going to lean into it, because he also likes girls, right? (Ignoring for a moment that bisexuality is a lot more nuanced than that.)

Rin likes girls, Rin is human — that’s what’s going to get people to like him, or at the very least tolerate him. That he likes guys, that he’s half demon, he can shove that shit down and pretend it doesn’t exist. Lock up any stray thoughts and keep the sword sheathed around anyone who doesn’t already know.

(Excuse me for being amused by Rin wielding his humanity and supposed heterosexuality as a sword and shield.)

The problem, of course, is that he can’t keep up the facade forever. The narrative won’t let him. Rin has to embrace his demonic side, because it’s the only way to move forward and to continue to help his loved ones. And once he’s moved past the issue of his friends being upset over the deception, when they understand he’s still Rin despite what he’d hidden from them, Rin is finally allowed to be himself. He uses his flames, he lets his tail move freely in the open around the Cram School kids. Rin still doesn’t like this side of himself — it’s inextricably tied to every moment of pain and isolation he’s dealt with his entire life, including the death of Father Fujimoto (and, y’know, his mom). But he is moving forward, he’s trying to adapt.

And isn’t that some great fucking subtext for his bisexuality, too?

#king’s court #blue exorcist #ao no exorcist #okumura rin #rin okumura #bonrin #because I love them #anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk #I probably made more sense in my head than I did writing everything out #but oh well #there’s a similar conversation to be had about yukio and his suppression/obsession that develops #but I am not qualified for that one #also I promised myself when I made this blog that I’d try to be engaged with the fandoms I got into #because the one I’d sunk a lot of time and effort into on my main no long brings me much joy and I miss interacting with people #so. uh. here I am I guess #god this is probably less compelling than my season 2 analysis of bnha seven years after it aired

[scoopstomyahoy]

thinking about a no upside down au steddie fic where steve and eddie run into each other years after moving away from hawkins, and eddie remembers steve and his fall from grace as king, and is kind of intrigued to see what kind of person he is now

and steve doesn’t remember him at all at first, because, look, eddie changed his hair again, and steve’s had a few head injuries (no upside down but i imagine he still went thru some shit with the party and with robin), and he didn’t really think about eddie in high school anyway, and he’s trying to forget about hawkins as much as possible (besides the kiddos, but they’re all moved out for college now, anyway) (obviously he lives with robin)

but steve is different now, happier, more open, flirts with guys, flirts with EDDIE, and eddie….. well, he wants to know more! and he tells steve he knows him from hawkins, and steve’s sunny little smile flickers a little, but he just apologizes for not remembering him and mentions he has some memory problems

and they get to know each other, and eventually as eddie tells him more (and maybe with the help of some yearbooks) steve remembers eddie. and. well. they like getting to know each other. and they like each other. and then they get together

eventually they’ve been together for a while, and eddie thinks he wants to maybe introduce steve to wayne, and he mentions he’s going to go back to hawkins for a long weekend (as he’s done a couple times) and this time he’d like steve to join him

and again steve’s sunny smile flickers a bit, but he says he’d love to meet eddie’s uncle, and… they go to hawkins. and it goes well— meeting wayne, at least, but steve seems a little on edge the whole time they’re there, tense when they drive in, fidgety when they go to the grocery store, et cetera. eddie thinks maybe steve is nervous about staying with the man who raised eddie, which is ridiculous, because wayne LOVES steve.

it’s not til they leave the town altogether that steve relaxes, and eddie realizes it wasn’t “meeting the parents” but rather going back to hawkins. and speaking of meeting the parents, steve didn’t ever bring his own up, even though eddie knew they still lived in hawkins. and the way steve glanced around whenever they went in public, like he was scared of getting recognized

and he asks about it, and steve doesn’t really want to talk about it, but he gives eddie snippets of it. people he wanted to leave behind in hawkins, memories that resurfaced, things he wants to forget

eddie goes back to see wayne sometimes, and the first time he doesn’t know whether to ask steve to come, so he just mentions he’s thinking about going to hawkins for some weekend and steve immediately starts making plans with him as if the invite is implicit. they go back to hawkins several more times, steve still tense and pent up the whole time they’re there

over time steve reveals more and more to eddie. everything that made hawkins hell for him, from the things he himself did in high school to the things people did to him. stuff tommy and carol and billy said to him. some of it is just typical high school bullshit (and oh, the nancy thing.) some of it is the tragedies steve went through, the horrors he had to protect his kids from. the injuries he sustained. more generally the homophobia that permeated the whole town, keeping steve from being himself. the lack of support in the indiana public school system for a high school senior who’s had two concussions and gone through incredible trauma.

his parents. the reason why steve’s mail is addressed to ‘steve buckley’ now, not ‘steve harrington’.

(that doesn’t come out until much, much later, and eddie is kicking himself for ever suggesting steve come back to hawkins.)

eddie, who hardly had an easy time of it in hawkins, is absolutely blown away by what steve had gone through in the same town, right under his nose. the entire persona that steve was trying to leave behind — the cool as a cucumber, unaffected, douchey mask he wore to hide all that he had endured. the head injuries. the emotional tragedies he had gone through. the way he had to be the rock for the kids even as he went through the same things as them.

he tries to tell steve they never have to go back to hawkins again, and steve is having none of it. he tells steve wayne can come visit them in their new city, and steve thinks that’s completely unfair to the man who had raised eddie, seriously, you’re going to make him come all the way up here?

and well i don’t know exactly what the ending is but steve is so stubborn about trying to love hawkins because it was eddie’s home and he wants to be able to go see wayne because wayne deserves to see his kid and eddie deserves to see his uncle and steve doesn’t want to be the problem :(

#steddie #stranger things #this isn’t very fleshed out but just. hawkins as an incredibly scarring place for steve #something built up in his mind as a very dangerous place for him not just because of what happened there but who he had to be there #i think ultimately it would culminate in them going back to hawkins and running into steve’s parents when they least expect it #and steve gets to yell at them in public and tell them they suck and ruin their image and eddie is being his little guard dog next to him #baring his teeth #for the no upside down part of the au i think it would have to be like. nebulous tragedy of season 1 struck them #barb still died (sorry barb) so that his relationship with nancy falls apart. will and el are twins and they disappear the same night #steve knows the kids earlier in the timeline in this one and has already basically adopted them when will and el go missing #eddie was never the victim of a massive witch hunt but jason still harasses him during his third senior year and gets ppl to gang up on him #so he was never like Wanted by all of hawkins and can never return but he sure doesn’t feel welcome there besides w wayne #oh i also think it would be important that one of the trips steve snaps at eddie bc he’s so strung out and immediately regrets it #and takes it as proof that when in hawkins Steve Is A Bad Person and tries to explain this to eddie #eddie meanwhile is trying to convince steve that he’s not a bad person and that he was being mean because he’s completely stressed out #and he wouldn’t be so stressed out if he didn’t make himself come back to hawkins #anyway ultimately. steve realized hawkins is just a place where bad things happened. it is not a place that makes people (including himself) #bad. it’s just. a place. and steve did not grow and change for the better bc he got out of hawkins. he got better bc he put the effort in #god i just. love steve so much and the version of him in my mind is so much better developed than what the duffers are doing

[gar-trek]

tumblr allows you 5 minutes so I really had to choose carefully and edit it all down, but here is the O'brien and Bashir annoyed coworkers to best freinds evolution through the first 4 seasons

#:)))))))))))))))))))) #IT REALLY MAKES ME HAPPY OKAY #AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW THIS WAS 11 MINUTES BEFORE I REALIZED I COULD ONLY POST 5 #SO WE ARE MISSING SO MUCH UGH #BUT YEAH #THEY WERE REALLY FUNNY SEASON ONE AND GOD #JULIAN WAS JUST INNSUFFERABLE #LIKE HONESTLY #WHY WAS HE SUCH A ASSHOLE #anyway #its just so good #like so good #julian bashir #miles obrien #watch it all people

[emberdune]

this man has been naming patrons for TEN minutes

#congrats on the success i remember when it wasnt this way in season one #i missed this show so much #literally hearing Ava bitch brings me so much joy #she will literally gang up on you with another weirdo to give you unasked for therapy out of the blue #also thank god they stopped the betterhelp sponsorships jesus christ #midnight burger

[citrusflowerss]

i miss them

#twdg #clementine twdg #violet twdg #violentine missing hours #twdg season 4 #i wish the sapphic community cared about them more #they’re such a good representation of sapphic love even in the apocalypse #like as much it bums me out a little that we never hear louis or clem refer to each other as the others bf/gf its just so ???? #having to communicate more about what your relationship is and what you mean to each other is SUCH a queer thing and im glad they did that #GOD i need them back #just one timeskip dlc i beg #getting to see all the grown up ericsons kids would make me sob violently

[chokopoppo]

Okay so if s14 onward are all simulations that Epsilon was running, what was up with s17. Like. Does Church have a crush on Grif or what

#rvb #dexter grif #leonard church #like... here's an alternate version of Myself who was so in love with an alternate version of Grif that I tried to kill all our friends #also grif is soooooo funny and we all love him and miss him soooooo much when he's not here #god i hope that was actually s17 and not a different season number or i'm about to get eviscerated for not remembering which one is which #haven't watched this show in like... hm. Some Time. #lotta people bringing up the fact that epsilon made a simulation where grimmons was Real Kind Of but honestly that WHOLE SEASON is bonkers #if it's fanfiction that church is writing

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

this goes out to my fellow girlies who missed out on enjoying the spooky season to the fullest because of work responsibilities (it's me I'm the girlie) 🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️

original image under the cut >>>

#anyways howdy y'all we back SDKJFSNDFS #I've been trapped in some perpetual work for the past two weeks (that I Couldn't skimp on due to contractual obligations :'D) #but I'm finally free to draw and relax between working days again !!! Thank Arceus 😩😩😩💫💫💫 #I still have my freelance job to attend to but! I'll have more chances to work on my own personal projects and be more active as a whole :} #and you know what that means for Destiny Bond............... heheheheheeeee.................................. #I'll make a proper teaser post for that within the week once I get a good forecast on my schedule 💃💃💃 #for now please enjoy my excuse to doodle fall Morty because I love him so........ I missed him so much y'all have no idea.......... 😭🤲💕 #I planned a full piece with him and Eusine together but oh my god that one gig I had completely shattered those earlier plans SKJDFSKNDFS #but in my eyes . spooky season never ends . so I'll come to do it anyways sometime after the next DB update simply because I Can 🫵 #gym leader morty #morty pokemon #fall morty #pokemon #pokemon masters #pokemon masters ex #pmex #pokemon gsc #pokemon hgss #pokemon art #fluff draws !!! #doodle

[mangotelevision]

katelyn the fire-fist you will always be cool

#aphmau #minecraft diaries #mcd #mcd rewrite #katelyn the firefist #im in love with her #i havent drawn her in so long #i missed her sm #season two #season one #i love drawing her meifwa ears from season two #gods i love women #big buff lady #she gives me so much gender envy #she so feminine in a masculine way #like when those pretty boys have tiny holdable waists

[drbtinglecannon]

Oh no.

Oh god there was a timeskip look at everyone's designs, their hair. Luz, Amity, & Willow all have significantly longer hair, Hunter got a haircut, Camila has a gray streak in her hair, oh god

They've been stuck in the human realm for a while.

Oh god I'm gonna cry

#toh #the owl house #toh spoilers #toh season three #toh s3 #the owl house season 3 #luz noceda #camila noceda #vee noceda #amity blight #willow park #gus porter #toh hunter #i cant handle it its had to have been at least a year for that much change ;______; #also IT COMES BACK IN ONLY A MONTH OH GOD OH NO I THOUGHT ID HAVE MORE TIME TO MAKE MY BLORBO POSTS #at least we know they all have their palisman ;___; also rip hunters hair noodle. i do think this cut is kinda cut but i miss the old one #luzs hair tho is stupid cute i love it so much #i forgot to mention BUT this poster is so cool i do love the lay out & shading & expressions but also AHHHHHHHHHHH #tc posts

[devotedlystrangewizard]

being an o14 believer pre confirmation was like. the constant "subtle" hints ("shut up" "make me", "if i broke time to save my knight in shining armor, id want them to stop fooling around and climb my tower" did i mention osiris literally breaking time to bring saint back to life) being written off as platonic. having to listen to people tell you youre just delusional because how could our big hero saint be a homosexual?????? how dare you insinuate that???? hes so manly man!!! ("i will show you how to hold bird :D") "saint called osiris brother once so its incest" THEYRE SOLDIERS. BROTHERS IN ARMS. GET OUT

#i dont play destiny anymore but god. season of dawn was something #i had already quit by the time osiris woke up & i still cried seeing them kiss in an actual cutscene ingame #like theyre actually. canonically. ingame. partners. in the romantic sense of the word. not just hidden in lore. #whenever they talk about each other during missions and its something so painfully romantic it hurts???? yeah #im all for extremely intimate platonic relationships but with how much pushback they got and probably still get #you bet your ass i supported the romantic reading #finding out i was right was one of the happiest moments of my life #godddd i miss them #im not going back to destiny for my 2 favorite little guys but aough #ramblings #osiris is my favorite destiny character actually. & saint is still a comfort character #they (and mara/sjur & uldren/jol) are very important to me even now #and ikora/eris how could i forget them

[samgirard]

WTF. (the near-death by pesto sandwich story)

well my friend, during the 2017 global series games in stockholm--which the avs both lost against the sens and matt duchene, who had just been traded midgame the night before they left and immediately had to get on a plane and play them, despite the best efforts of stockholm native gabe landeskog--alexander kerfoot (now of the leafs pour one out) was a new member of team and lived in rookie house with josty (😔) jt, and chris bigras (pour one out for all this as well) and was known primarily to the fans for his harvard economics education.

the way he tells it, the morning they got to sweden they had a free day, and his iphone wasn't working so he left the team hotel to go by himself to an apple store, where they took his phone and left him to entertain himself in a foreign country. so he found a little sandwich shop, and with some difficulty ordered a pesto sandwich from the swedish proprietors, without knowing that pesto contains pine nuts, to which kerfy is extremely allergic.

since he didn't have a phone or anyone from the team with him, he managed to get himself to the hospital and back to the apple store, still by himself, and ended up just buying an entire new phone before he told anyone from the team, and then went to blog about it for nhl.com.

#kerf #avs lore #god i miss this season so much #tw food allergies #this isn't really drama it's just one of the funniest hockey stories i can think of

[thefirsthogokage]

John Rogers on Twitter: July 18th, 2022

(link to that first one)

#leverage redemption season 2 #leverage: redemption #leverage redemption #john rogers #i probably missed some of his leverage tweets #but a lot of his tweets kind of make me depressed about the state of everything #so i tend do dismiss the notifications #but at least i came across this on my timeline #i really hope S2 is much better that LR S1 #because honestly the first season didnt do it for me and i dont ever want to watch it again #which is sad because i could keep rewatching the OG #but god i either dont like or hate all but like one or two episodes in the first season

[helpmyinterestsareverywhere]

oh,,, oh my god

i'm floored - genuinely floored - I think I'm going to explode, IM GOING TO EXPLODE SO HARD RAAAHAGAHRHAGAHAGA

i don't know what to do after watching that

(also HELLO?? Cinder's voice is kinda...)

#GENUINELY WHAT DO I DO NOW #genuinely reeling from what i just watched #i just... hgnnnnn #im not gonna say anything because i dont want to spoil #but just oh my god #the fight scenes??? had me on the edge of my seat what the hell #i have so many thoughts and emotions but i literally have no idea how to put them into words #just... my poor babies - every single one of them #they're also all just big old nerds /pos #i love them so much i've missed seeing them <333 #dragons rising season 2 #ninjago dragons rising #hmiae rambles

[jancysmixtape]

The way Nancy looks at Jonathan is something so special to me. She’s so in love with him, I’m going to cry.

#stranger things #stranger things season two #stranger things season one #stranger things season four #stranger things season three #jonathan byers #nancy wheeler #Jancy #my babies #she loves him so much #oh my god #the cuteness #I can’t handle it #I miss them #so much #she adores him #ahhhh #😭 #i love them 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

[thegirlwholied]

Charmed (1998) rewatch but only seasons 1-3 and then treating the season 4 premiere as an open-ended finale 🤷🏻‍♀️

#charmed #charmed 1998 #charmed wb #i remember what comes next all too well #honestly I am sorry to miss out on some of the phoebe/cole scenes of early s4 when they were still fun #but i don't think i can take the s4 plotlines again let alone the reminder of s5 looming #going back as an adult is fascinating though #1 - so much of the fashion is back in #season one especially #also wow preteen/early teen me was really oblivious to fashion though i did wind up thinking leather pants = cool from what i absorbed then #2 - i can absolutely see the change from the original showrunner and really wish i knew what constance m burge intended next #3 - the inconsistencies. the inconsistencies #not just the mythology they were making up on the fly #(how long are you a ghost v moving on to next life since past lives are a thing but also visitors from the afterlife etc etc) #but the timeline #how old was phoebe when victor left (thank god they recast victor absolute glow-up) #why did leo have a past life in the 20s when he should have been already growing up #cole refers to 'mornings waking up next to you' about his ADA apartment when it's very pointed that he & phoebe only hook up there once #4- fascinating how sex is treated in the early seasons v the latter #(it went over my head back in the day but) they very much make clear which boyfriends they're sleeping with v which they *aren't* #(i.e. they spell out that prue only sleeps with andy once & never with jack & that piper never sleeps with Josh etc) #5 - biggest mistake the reboot made was doing the half-sister storyline in episode 1 #it gave them no wiggle room when a sister DID leave the show but #more importantly you lose the original grew-up-together-push-each-others-buttons dynamic that is so good #not many siblings shows on that level (supernatural is the only comparison coming to mind) #6 - I'm so Team Cole still #talk about dropping the ball on character - his half-demon backstory motivated by saving his father's soul is great actually AND DROPPED #still about phoebe/cole but the prue and cole dynamic makes more sense knowing they were dating IRL #and shoehorning in paige out of the blue distrusting cole mid s4 as replacement for that dynamic just will never work for me #anyway as my sister is now my roommate in the old house we rent Charmed (early seasons) hits different and holds up better than i expected!

[mitzidraws]

STRANGER THINGS VOLUME 2 SPOILERS!!!

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what really gets me is that eddie’s death was so preventable. he could’ve gone up that rope. he could’ve kept running and found shelter. he didn’t need to be a hero for the town that literally hated him. the demobats were incapacitated within minutes of him running from the trailer. and the town still thinks he’s a murderer. the duffers really said “well we need at least one death” and fucking chose eddie and gave him a basically meaningless sacrifice. fuck not running and fuck being a hero, dustin and mike looked up to him so much and idolized him (and will would’ve too if he got to meet him). the duffers gave us such a lovable and relatable character that everybody adored, only to rip him away within one season because god forbid they go without a death.

i am bitter. and not well.

#he became one of my comfort characters within the first 10 minutes of his screen time #and the duffer bros just ripped that away #yeah it was basically inevitable and u could see it from a mile away #but they didn’t have to :( #i will be sending them my therapy bill #like honest to god why is there this precedent that people HAVE to die #i would be perfectly happy and content if everyone lived even if it’s fucking corny #maybe that’s just because i myself am corny #i miss him so much already #AND HE FUCKING MISLEAD ALL OF US IN THAT OEN INTERVIEW WHERE HE SAID HE AND CHARLIE WERE PUSHING FOR MORE SCENES TOGETHER IN S5 #or the interviewers skewed it #anyways it’s pain #eddie #eddie munson #stranger things #stranger things volume 2 #stranger things season 4 #stranger things season 4 volume 2 #stranger things vol 2 #stranger things vol 2 spoilers #stranger things spoilers #dustin henderson #mike wheeler #will byers