#god i hope this isn't so bad

[bigboobyhalo]

literally tubbo was INFINITELY scarier than BBH in purgatory . tubbo is better at PVP than bad, he got more kills overall than bad, he's better at strategizing than bad, he's more optimistic and determined than bad... when bad had completely given up on winning one day (the day that bounties were introduced), it was tubbo joining and coming up with a strategy that boosted soulfire's morale and lead them to victory !! bad's still a GREAT player, obviously, it's just that purgatory played more to tubbo's strengths than it did bad's, in my opinion, and people don't really acknowledge it

I think the difference is that bad was way more openly bloodthirsty than tubbo was and also willing to play a lot dirtier ... so bad was the one who got the reputation for being violent, and for spawncamping, and for just generally being a menace...

people just tend to be more afraid of a dog than of the owner holding onto it's leash, I guess

#hope this post doesn't sound like I'm putting bad down ToT #THIS IS A BBH BLOG . I WOULD NEVER #I just think people are hyping him up so much and are gonna be disappointed when he isn't like . some PVP god in purg2 #or maybe purg2 will actually play to ALL of bad's strengths instead and he'll just absolutely dominate. that would be awesome too #qsmp

[rotisseries]

tired of people who want pjo movie references in the disney+ show. "logan lerman should've been-" i don’t care. "poker face in the casino-" actually i hope ms. gaga keeps her entire discography miles away from it. i don't care move on

#peace and love🫶 #this isn't even to say I didn't like those parts of the movies or that I can't see the appeal in having references in the show #I'm just tired of HEARING about it oh my god #the pjo movies are getting all of the loving looking back they could need #just in the fact that people's opinions of them are clearly shifting #like people look back on them more fondly now they were VERY bad adaptations but fun movies overall with some good scenes #I think the shift in public opinion is also due to the d+ show btw I think the fact we have a good adaptation now #means people no longer feel the need to spend energy publicly and viscerally disavowing the movies anymore #but we still don't really need references to it!! especially when it's shit you're so clearly not getting I'm sorry #they're not putting logan lerman anywhere in there you know this look inside yourself #and they're DEFINITELY not putting poker face in the lotus hotel scene COME ON NOW THAT WOULD JUST BE STUPID #the lotus hotel scene is already going to undeniably get compared to the pjo movie version #and they. kind of have a lot to beat. the lotus hotel scene was so much fun #there's already going to be a bunch of “which was better?” discourse about it #using poker face would honestly probably not help. also then it's not gonna be a fun scene in it's own right #it's gonna be a fun and good scene to people just cause it references some bad movies #anyway I hope they pick a different song I saw some people say hotel room- #pjo #pjo tv #pjo disney+

[gildeddlily]

my honest reaction when blue lock

#he's talking ab kaiser and ness! too bad i'm alr in love with them #at first i was afraid bc someone in a fic called kaiser a nazi and I was like UH??? but now i'm reading the manga and he isn't!!! #at least i hope (please jesus don't do this to me i may be your toughest soldier but i'll break all the same) #i have so many screenshots #im gonna post a miles long thing with every one of them i swear to god #I FUCKING HATE SOCCER #blue lock #bachira meguru #michael kaiser #isagi yoichi #alexis ness #he's so pretty omfg i need to eat him

[slavhew]

Hello!

If you're not too busy, would you mind listing some of the things you think count as death flags for Mr. Spender?

There's the obvious fact that he's the "old" mentor to group of young protagonists, but what else do you think would count?

OHH BOY ok so I'd think I'm a crackpot for this but since we're talking about Zack "Foreshadowing" Morrison. I have some thoughts

No harm in leading with the (chronologically) first thing that jumped out at me:

This one IMMEDIATELY made me antsy whenever I came back to it after my initial read, and considering Zack has referred to it on twitter in the past as one of their favorite jokes it's definitely not been forgotten about.

Second, the sheer amounts of near-misses, jokey or not, of Spender narrowly avoiding specifically lightning

Again, not much, but it's weird that it happened thrice, latter two of which had real gravitas rather than an one-off joke.

And third, Spender himself. He's repeatedly shown himself to be kind of a self sacrificing idiot, as well as prideful to a fault. Granted, it's both him and Mina trying to take on all the responsibility of saving Mayview and its inhabitants from their fate.. But Spender is exactly that right measure of doesn't-value-himself-enough (chest footprint aftercare or lack thereof), having an obscene amount of power (enables his loner act + pride) and poor judgement that has the capacity to put him at great risk. And it has!

Spender has not only shown low enough self-esteem to view himself as the de-facto scapegoat for the safety of the town, but also prideful enough to make very bad calls that end up in people, often himself, hurt (COUGH FORGE INCIDENT COUGH)

This is all conjecture, but it's definitely enough to make me worried about him :') Even if all this doesn't mean he'll necessarily die he's definitely getting (even more) seriously injured at some point. I love the guy but he's so far doing a horrible job of convincing me he wants to live bad enough to circumvent at least that

#not art #admin answers #paranatural #pnat #richard spender #pts-fic-notes-and-blog #before i continue on with tag ramble i just want to say tysm for leaving an ask! #none of my friends read this so ive been stewing on these thoughts for some months and i loved finally sharing them #this isn't exactly proof but the hijack possession seemingly being the final nail in the coffin for his and isabel's relationship. #idk it feels significant to me. thats one more tether to support kinda gone. someone who knows him well enough to know he's unwell #he seems not exactly content but fr incapable of not burning bridges as he is now. and considering how rashly he acts he REALLY needs those #to not do stupid shit all the god damn time with no buffer other than Lucifer. who for his measured approach to rick's hotheadedness #has honestly shown himself to be pretty lenient and kinda bad at controlling spender's more (self) destructive tendencies? so he dont count #to be clear i love spender to bits but he is dumb as rocks and has all the self preservation of a fruit fly. it needs to be said #also the lightning man... idk its WEIRD like especially on the reread its the thing that most consistently threatens him! it repeats #sure he gets chewed by a bat and banged up by forge but?? he somehow always comes back to lightning. catnine has it out for him #its something i didnt even really put together until i continued reading the flashback chapter AFTER getting this ask and went OHHHGNHF #which the only reason lightning is such a non issue is lucifer's powers. which belong to his sunglasses and not to the spirit in him #so its not like they can't be taken away he's just got a really good excuse for having those on all the time #TAGS GETTING SO LONG. ANYWAYS. i hope this is comprehensible lol

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

will you shut the fuck up? what if the shit doesn't hit the fan? what if we do make it? what if you don't die? can you have a little hope? just have a little hope

#stop dooming your own narrative and living under that shadow. ffs #this isn't actually vagueing at anyone here this is vagueing at my grandpa bc I've been mildly annoyed all week #that he's SO fatalistic about EVERYTHING. like yeah the world sucks. so what? stop being cynical about it #which is hilarious bc he's the SOFTEST guy ever. he just occasionally goes off on these deeply cynical rambles #in the softest friendliest tone of voice and I'm like. wow. can you maybe have a little hope please??? #anyway I'm gonna say this in the tags here bc I have a weird mental block about making a Real Post: #please pray for my grandpa bc his heart surgery went great but he's been diagnosed with a pretty bad form of cancer #so... yeah #prayers for him and our whole family and all of their relationships with God to grow instead of getting worse and etc etc etc #I'm at the OTHER grandparents' house rn and need prayer for OTHER things here but. yeh #Lu rambles #soz for the language I just needed to say this

[lesbiansforboromir]

oh OH hO spicey ohhh having a spicey little tantrum about the boromir tag don't listen to me at all do NOT listen I mean it I mean it this is so petty

#text post #Gonna go ffffucking crazy- people have to bend so far over backwards to make Boromir bad that they just full out ignore his entire characte #and bend even further over backwards to make the elves all better than him too like jesus christ #oh is it BOROMIR who would be bitter about dying in the defense of Rohan??? whose despair is just so self serving and requires legolas to #slap him out of it yes uhuh that seems reasonable seems like BOROMIR would just hate the idea of dying for allies he so clearly loved #when in the full actual canonical scene of his death he dies for two random guys he met five months ago and all he has to say about it is #he failed he is sorry he has paid #BOROMIR definitely doesn't deal well with his own looming death and would definitely snap at other people about it ignoring all the decades #he has been under the looming shadow of death and has been known as not-grim and loved by many and has done his duty almost like #that is literally all his life has been up until this point #and of course of course it's ARAGORN who he's supposed to be fighting for because he's SOO impactful on Boromir's psyche he meant so much t #him apparently ggrsfsfgrrffffggfrgr #everyone wants to hit boromir oh yeah he's so annoying his hopelessness is such a burden and everyone else has to deal with him #if ANY of you go looking for what I'm talking about and do anything about it I'll slaughter you myself these are such inside thoughts the #comic is good #I shouldn't even be angry it's the natural conclusion from a story that tells you Boromir is bad but does not spell out that it's because h #isn't 'faithful' to god #they just tell you he is 'too despairing' and he 'desires power' and he 'doesn't have hope' (hope being a proxy for faith and Boromir not #believing in Aragorn means he doesn't believe in Eru's chosen leaders and his 'grand plan') #despair being a sin because it means you are selfishly giving into your own desires for a good life for you and the people you love #rather than accepting that all is God's plan and this life is only meaningful if you are defending Eru's right to the throne of the world #But that isn't spelled out so for despair to be treated as evil in the story people apply a secular understanding of 'bad despair' #already a TERRIBLE idea btw genuinely awful to percieve hopelessness as a personal moral failing #I suppose thats it actually the major reason it gets to me cus hopelessness and despair is a base aspect of my existence like #I am in despair pretty much constantly and I know a lot of other disabled people with similar sentiments #and the urging from people to 'have hope' is at this point sickening and infuriating and maddening to me it is disconnected from my reality #WHICH is demonstrably why I care about Boromir and Denethor so much no one meets them where they are no one sits in their reality with them #they are deeply relatable in their dealing with dispair namely; they just live and accomplish and strive along with their sarcasm and #black humour through their dark grueling lives and do what duty demands and try to hold onto their crumbling family relationships #and then they each have uniquely cathartic ends to those lives

[avpdpossum]

reading studies of avpd and social anxiety make me want to punch through some drywall, i feel like i'm losing my mind.

"social phobia researchers have proposed that SP and APD should be amalgamated into social anxiety disorder with what is currently labeled APD treated as a severe variant of this condition...one justification for this proposition is that clinicians in practice will then be more likely to use the pharmaceutical and CBT empirically validated regimens developed for social phobia to treat severe social avoidance (i.e., APD)."

translation: "we want to eliminate your specific diagnosis and just call it this less scary-sounding thing because then more professionals will agree to stuff you full of drugs and use our favorite method of professional gaslighting on you until you act normal."

and don't get me wrong, i'm not against medication by any means (i've spent the last 6 years fighting to get some for my adhd, i'd be a massive hypocrite if i said i was against it) and i know there are people who genuinely benefit from cbt, but you can't deny this statement is just dripping with ulterior motives.

really makes you question the reliability of how the data itself is being presented, doesn't it?

#not to mention the studies are all on people with social anxiety #like it's always social anxiety alone vs social anxiety + avpd #never social anxiety alone vs avpd alone #even though most studies acknowledge that the comorbidity rate isn't 100% so they know there are people with just avpd out there #high comorbidity doesn't mean the minority doesn't exist folks! find a decent sample if you're gonna do research for gods sake #hope people aren't getting tired of me talking about the absolute mess that is avpd + social anxiety research #bc i absolutely will not be shutting the fuck up about it anytime soon it frustrates me so much #it's all so clearly based on bad science and misguided pseudo-objectivity more than any real evidence #poss.speaks #research #comorbidities #avpd #actually avpd #actually avoidant #avoidant pd #avoidant personality disorder #cluster c

[barbieaiden]

i can't really get over this shot of kas tbh it doesn't help that my computer keeps showing it in the photo tab when i press the windows button in the corner

#i think kas's peak in life is all the years between starting the cult until he gets infected #during that time he's you know. obviously a bad person he kills people and stuff #but he's very. idk expressive and theatrical and treats all of it like a play and he's the star #he's very charismatic is what i'm trying to say but then later on he's just #very numb to all of it killing isn't fun anymore obviously life becomes pretty mundane in a zombie apocalypse #even when you have a cult to run like #he does briefly remember what life used to be like but has lived in the apocalypse for the majority of his life #and i imagine it's kind of at a point where there's no hope for humanity the people who still live just get by #eventually everyone's going to be eradicated and kas has lost the joy of the only purpose he had #not to mention he's you know. slowly turning into a zombie so his future is neither bright nor long lmao #the only time he really expresses any emotion at all is when preaching about him becoming a god or whatever but deep down #he knows that isn't the case it's all just a fantasy to him #he doesn't stop being a terrible person though if anything he gets worse because he's seeking out the thrill it used to give him #and when it doesn't he gets angry and tries even harder and it becomes this cycle. you know #until tristan kills him

[sleepy-bear-tm]

Dimitri in Three Hopes watching Edelgard and Claude radically change their countries in Fodlan while his hands are tied with having to protect the church

#the long standing consequences of being a part of the HOLY kingdom of faerghus #when Edelgard is like “just hand over the bishop” and he's like “i rly don't think you understand doing that would cause ANOTHER civil war. #And Claude reiterating that his issue isn't with the kingdom at all but with the church still stings but i appreciate his honesty #playing GW hurt so much cause the whole time i was like PLEASE DON'T DIE FOR CHIVARLY MY LOVES COME HEEEERE #outside of the miklan decision (which I hc was more Matthias's doing) i genuinely don't know what else Dimitri could've done in AG #and then at the end when he's faced with his amnesiac childhood friend who only THEN remembers him but is basically his mortal enemy now? #god AG ruins me #plus the first half was so solid and then it just fell apart when they went: evil empire bad destroy then >:( #ugh my sweet blue lions #don't get me started on the dedue and ingrid paralogue. #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #dimitri #claude #claude von reigen #edelgard von hresvelg #fewth #three hopes #fire emblem warriors three hopes

[topaztimes]

Hi this is a vent post! Continue scrolling if you'd rather not see that

#Giving time... #Still more time... #Wouldn't want to plague any previews #Maybe another filler. Just for some fun #Is this enough? #It certainly is now #Alright start: #I'm so bored. I am so incredibly; intrinsically; entirely bored. I have been taught the same thing for four years straight #'It's only four years!' that's literally a quarter of my lifetime right there. My formative years are being spent stressed and in a state / #/of constant self-loathing #I was watching a YT video and the phrase 'attention-starved STEM major' came up and I was like. Yea #What am I even working towards? The hope that my version of capitalist hell isn't as bad as everyone else's? I'm just so sick of not / #/having a stable future what with politics and normal working people becoming more and more oppressed #I don't want to work and that's not because I'm lazy. It's because my brain is recognising that there is no reward anymore #I used to have such a little spark in Yr7. I remember having things to say and wanting to share everything I've done #I still do that now; sure I do. I don't enjoy it though #I thought I liked drawing but I'm realising that all I really like is the attention. I COULD draw things I like drawing... but then I / #/ don't get attention which my mind then classifies as zero reward #I'm very tired of doing things for no credit; reward; or validation. This is becoming a theme #Then I wonder what I'm doing wrong. What part of the algorithm am I not hitting. Then I realise that I'm just not marketable in a way #God. I'm seriously breaking rn. It's not even only because of GCSEs #It's just a culmination of doing all these things to be told that I am unworthy of Having as a result. It doesn't matter if I'm smart; my / #/ parents still don't own their house and can't afford to pay for heating most days #Literally what am I doing this for #And then I realise that all of this is ALSO attention-seeking behaviour! I'm my own worst problem; I recognise exactly what's wrong with / #/ myself but the body wants what it wants. And what it wants is validation that I'm not going to get in this life #Hi guys! Maybe don't interact. That could fix me #Wean me off of needing virtual numbers just to feel something. Jesus #I can't even be happy with the things that I make for myself. Because I make nothing for myself anymore #It's just a whole sad existence of an expected 12hr+ of school every day until I get a job I guess. Then it's 12hr+ of job every day until

[saph-yells-into-the-void]

the amount of DISDAIN I get from some ppl saying that blue flag is written for the straights.

girl I did not stay up til 6am reading this manga, tearing up and crying bc of how much I saw myself in characters like touma and masumi and how painfully relatable their pain/struggles were just for you to say that blue flag is for the straights

be so fr rn

#the usage of queer pain in blue flag was done so so SO fucking tastefully and with care towards ppl who experience similar struggles #there were so many very well done nuanced discussions not only relating to queerness but also towards other topics such as heteronormativit #and societal standards and choices and change #hell I even thought that the whole discussion on homophobia towards the end was done with care- there I said it #bc it isn't just like: HOMOPHOBIC PPL BAD!! #there's layers and different sides shown that some ppl may not agree with but Jesus Christ ITS PART OF THE FUCKING DISCUSSION #yall NEED to hear these other sides and stop closing your eyes to everything that isn't just like- homophobia bad >:( #bc god forbid we have nuanced talks about touchy subjects #sorry I'm just so annoyed that this is a fandom-wide agreement that the homophobia talk was handled badly #bc imo I don't think it was it was just trying to shine the topic in a different light #anyways this manga is brilliant and amazing and I need more ppl to read this #I'm even hoping for an anime adaptation idc if itll most likely be mediocre I just need more ppl to find this story #this manga resonated with me on such a deeply personal level as a queer person that I didn't even know was possible #'blue flag utilizes queer pain as a tool for the straights-' stfu speak for your fucking self #this manga wasn't written for the straights it was written for ME actually #blue flag

[running-in-the-dark]

watching episode 11:

nooo why.

#bad mirror! #hey everyone stop taking control of Jenkins' body. so rude! #and OOH MY GOD. #don't like it don't like it don't like it #I hope this isn't going to be a leverage finale situation (I know it'll be alright in the end but that doesn't mean I won't cry.) #I am going to try not to keep posting about it while watching because I get distracted. buuut obviously it's already not working so... #the librarians

[discocactusblogs]

🕯️

#how to keep hopeful when you feel like God's not going to give you the one thing youre hoping for #how to keep from being angry at God because you just don't see movement in your life in this one area #yet when you pray for God's will #He assures you you're where He wants you #I have never wanted this thing before and now that I'm older I find myself longing for it #It's hard to listen to my parents when their only answer to everything is “pray about it” as if I havent been doing so for years #It's hard to take their whole “be patient” speech seriously when my mom married at 21 #My dad only slightly understands but I feel like its different at the same time #I was perfectly fine in church until the Pastor told a story about a married couple and the whole church was laughing while I nearly cried #I am the only single lady in my church on top of the only single person in my age group #I'm not even sure why God gave me this desire for marriage and a family #I feel like “God why would you give me this burning desire to have a family and marriage that glorifies and honors you if you weren't going #to give me said thing?“ #I'm asking God to help me enjoy being single but at the same time I feel myself starting to grow bitter and thats something I dont want. #I know not everyone is called to be married and thats what's got me messed up and angry because if I'm not called to marriage #why did He give me the desire for it? I feel like that's just cruel and I know God isn't mean or cruel #also sorry Narni for stealing the way you rant lol #I feel bad everytime I post a rant and using tags seems to work better so I don't feel so bad

[fart-poop-daily]

got a 50 on my mock exam

#original #please god i hope statics isn't as mind numbing as physics c #idk why I'm so bad at rotational motion I'm good at everything else 😭😭😭

[illprotectyou-hearteyes]

Okay ONE more Loki post. I liked Sylvie in s1, genuinely! She was dynamic and interesting, the banter between her and Loki was on point, etc.

But then they toned down the makeup and the hairspray so she's a little less polished and gave her a small life she loves with nice coworkers and a favorite record shop. and I LOVE her

#loki spoilers #i mean yeah i think they should have let her look wrinklier and odder <3 #but i can admit i'm the one watching a marvel show #if that's what i want i have come to the wrong place #anyway listen i keep seeing people say she's so selfish and she's not growing #i think that she IS selfish and she IS growing and i LOVE her #yeah it looks like she'll probably get pulled into needing to save the world one more time #(she *might* not but that's another essay i'm not gonna get into) #but i hope so bad that she gets to return to the life she loves after that #loki has been building a life with his friends and that's lovely #but the tva persecuted sylvie her entire life #*loki's friends* did that #and yes they've changed!! yes sylvie is plenty flawed too!! #but a life with them isn't the way forward that she wants #and that's okay #after all #what's so terrible about wanting something? #loki is allowed #and so is she #plus i just. god with cosmic powers who just wants to be allowed a normal life in freedom. without wielding power over anyone. #it GETS to me!! #also if Loki does end up being part of leading the TVA #so that you have one of them learning how to wield power well #and the other learning to give it up #that makes for a two sides of the same coin that i find very satisfying #(granted i for various reasons would prefer burning the TVA to the ground and loki also relinquishing power #but my guess at this point is that they won't go that way with it #which i suppose isn't surprising since it's a good tool to have in their back pocket for the films) #anyway #i love sylvie <3

[gwydionae]

Rewatching through the old X-Men cartoon has reminded me that if Nightcrawler is onscreen for more than 30 seconds and hasn't yet jumped into a sermon, it must be an imposter.

#marvel #x-men tas #seriously #guy has convinced wolverine and rogue and jubilee AND mystique to all at least take his belief as more than just words #and that's in just two episodes #i had forgotten exactly how much legit talk about God there was from him #gotta be like half his dialogue if not more #i had hoped 97 might keep his faith in tact but yeah no not a chance this version of nightcrawler cuts it by todays standards #which is a bit sad to me because back then we went from one episode with nightcrawler preaching #to the very next episode xavier commenting on the story of adam and eve and basically agreeing with what eve did #stating that gaining knowledge can't be a bad thing and dismissing the story #so like yeah the show had a christian character but it also had ones that very clearly were not christians #and not just side characters but the leader of the x-men himself (and gambit had been against it too) #so like you can have both in the same show #that is a thing #because surprise surprise everyone is unique with their own ideas on the world so showing different opinions isn't a bad thing #wish media today still understood that