#getting together ish

[princessamericachavez]

like yes yes eddie needs to choose and buck needs to be chosen but also 

Eddie needs to get over the very big trauma of losing his wife. Last time he dated someone he had literal panic attacks at the thought of her being mistaken for Chris’s mother and as much as we saw him work through in therapy we never?? really?? talked?? about?? that?? So, yeah, Eddie needs to realize that he’s at a point where he’s ready to risk his heart and give love a second chance 

(and maybe realize he already did becase there already is a partner in his life who gets consistently confused for Chris’s guardian and it feels natural to him?? but he still needs to realize he’s ready for love)

And Buck needs to be ready to be in a relationship where he’s loved for who he is, where he doesn’t bend and twist to fit someone else’s expectations. And for that Buck needed to die, and needed to come back, and now he needs to process that trauma and steady himself. 

(and Buck loves so quickly, so openly, so loudly, and he gives so much of himself and he wants to be loved that way, and maybe he’ll realize that he already?? is?? loved?? but he needs to let himself accept it)

so basically, it’s not only a matter of choice... eddie needs to be ready to love and buck needs to accept that he is loved if they are ever going to find each other properly together

and that, my funny little friends, is the point of their arcs were we are at right now

#buddie #911 fox #evan buck buckley #eddie diaz #i'm not going to lose hope over this because i remember a million shows where this had been the path #how many relationships this castle and becket have before they finally were at the point where they could be together?? #hey remember when chenford were in two fairly stable long term relationships because they needed to open up to love again #AND they needed to be in the /wrong/ relationships to finally realize WHAT they wanted??? #eddie deciding he's ready to date/love again is a NECESSARY step for buddie and what they needed right ow #just like buck processing his trauma and maybe having a potential relationship in which he gets to say 'no this isn't right for me i deserve #more' is what he needs to realize he HAS that love #anyway the couch isn't a theory it's a laimotif and its a proper literal metaphor in the show #and we know where that's been popping up lately #so like unless they suck at their job i can't see this being the end #CHILL #911 spoilers #ish

[pennielane]

GET BACK, PART III — Ringo doesn't talk much, but when he says he's not going abroad, they are not going abroad. And when he says "I wanna go on the roof", they're going on the roof. (x)

#the psychology of this scene is unparalleled #the way george closes his eyes in the first picture like 'oh fucking christ not this again' #the way paul's head is litchreally about to explode from trying to keep everyone happy #the way ringo holds george's 'et tu brute?' glare in the 5th gif #and his smug nod to paul in the 6th #ringo knew he was the most powerful beatle. he just knew #john also coming to paul's rescue (but only after ringo does lol </3) #paul's panic-rocking #and to think they still stayed together another year-ish after this lmfao #btw yes paul DID say let's' that many times in the first gif. that is not an epic typo on my part #the beatles #mine #get back #beatles #paul mccartney #ringo starr #george harrison #john lennon

[daily-property-police]

Day 133- Damn they really just noped out huh. *cries*

#I am so sorry this was my first time trying to make a gif I did NOT crop the images in the same place forgive me #I’m never getting over how they literally ran away together from the watcher-ish beings #solidaritygaming #martyn inthelittlewood #inthelittlewood #daily-pp #empires smp #jimmy solidarity

[honeyhotteoks]

hi everyone ♡ a little about where i've been and why i'm not posting....

so... it's no secret that i fell off the face of the earth when it comes to writing, and for that i just want to apologize. i know a lot of you have been waiting for the next chapter of tnt, further aurora updates, or just looking forward to some smutty kinktober one-shots...... but to be completely honest i haven't written in a little while.

i've been trying to but i keep coming up short, and i've been avoiding this blog ever since because i just feel bad for not being able to give you guys the stories you're waiting for. for that reason, i essentially took a creative break and decided not to respond to any messages about writing. i know that kind of sucks, but i know myself and i didn't want to promise "soon" when i knew that wasn't true.

i'm starting slowly to work on things again, and i really hope i'll be able to share some of that work with you soon, but genuinely i just needed space from working on fic and to be honest..... from the fandom. i love being an atiny, but there was a swell of negativity on twitter for a while and i've been feeling a little uninspired with the past year of content and endless touring and it all combined into me putting things off.

i'm also................................ much more of a multi now.... which i really never thought would happen but here we are. i have no idea if i'll actually start writing for any of those groups, but if i do, i hope some of you also enjoy those groups and you stick with me. a little blurb about my new biases and the groups i'm now following, etc. is at the bottom of this post.

as far as what's going on with my ateez work? here's a quick recap:

this night together: still in progress, i have ~4 chapters finished, but chap ten and some of the time skips have me a little stuck. once i iron that out and finish out the last 2-3 chapters after the arc that's written, i'll get back to posting. at this point i'd like to have it done so i can release it confidently and as a complete story. into the aurora: i have about half of book one edited, which will include some new scenes / cleaned up scenes, but nothing crazy. i'd like to start updating old chapters once everything is finalized. book two is.... slow going. i'm hoping a breath of fresh air will help, but it's still my goal to come back to these characters. one-shots: i have about 4-5 ateez one-shots that are half written. my plan is to finish these and release them as inspiration strikes to wrap them up.

thank you all for your patience, and all of your kind messages. so many people have checked in on me both anon and not, and even if i haven't responded it's meant so much as i work on coming back to writing. i may not be able to respond to all the messages since so many of them are in my inbox, but slowly i may chip away at them

i'll see you all very soon~

(so chai multi era.... in a whirlwind of discovering other kpop groups..... i've ended up a carat, a stay, a moa, and a hidden kard. again, no idea if i'll ever write for any of these groups, but.... my biases are below so who knows)

seventeen - s.coups (regularly wrecked by hip hop line + dino) stray kids - lee know + hyunjin txt - soobin (are we surprised tho) kard - bm + jiwoo (but also like basically ot4 let's be real here)

♡

#honeyhotteoks updates #i love you all i hope i can get my ish together soon #also if you see me start to reblog non ateez fic recs...... #we're in the chai multi era #surprise???????

[goldensunset]

i really do think terra would be the final boss for therapists. yeah i know everyone in kh has low self esteem and scrambled memories and repressed ptsd and guilt etc etc don't get me wrong they all need serious help. but there's that and then there's getting your very being split into three parts remaining separate for over a decade. mere fragments of his being trying to hold onto themselves. he was torn apart mind body and soul. and this is BEFORE you factor in the problems he already had and the strong anger and grief etc etc. he walks into the therapist's office and they're completely baffled within the first five minutes of listening to him talk because literally what is he even saying? how do you even begin to dissect that

#it is genuinely incredible to me that he exists to this day as himself #xion is the other one where it's like wow i can't believe anyone found a way to bring you back #but such is the power of the heart! #terra it's like ok so yeah we gathered up all the pieces they were all right there close-ish to each other #but like i can't believe you could really just slap them back together and have it work out cleanly #there's no way he doesn't have severe and lasting mental damage from all that #:( #get that man some help. nomura please expand upon the lasting trauma everyone has #(i know he won't but like) #(it would be the perfect time for the other characters who aren't currently doing anything in the story) #kingdom hearts #terra #kh terra #kh #mine: kh

[artiststarme]

Win Some, Lose Some

Based on a prompt from @mysticcrownshipper. Thank you and I hope it meets your expectations! Please leave your thoughts in the comments.

~*~*~*~

Steve was pretty sure he was unlovable. It was the only reason that made sense as to why everyone always treated him like this. What about him made people feel the need to put him down in every conversation or ignore him completely? Neglect wasn’t a new feeling to Steve. No, he was all too used to being uncared for and left alone. He had been since his parents started leaving him for weeks at a time to go on business trips and vacations when he was nine. Neglect wasn’t new to him nor was the underappreciation and ignorance that was constantly present in the Party. Every person he talked to made him feel like an inconvenience and he was sick of it.

Robin was supposed to be his best friend, his platonic soulmate with a capital P, his ride or die. So why was she belittling him and downplaying his feelings every chance she could? Any time Steve wanted to vent about Eddie or talk about his feelings, she would shut it down. She’d tell him that Eddie was just new to relationships and that his feelings were misplaced. She made him feel the worst out of everyone in the Party because she was the one he expected to be on his side the most. Steve ignored it mostly because what else could he do? Call her on it and risk losing her completely? No, it was best to push down his ‘misplaced feelings’ and pretend to laugh when she put him down. It’s not like he didn’t have the practice.

The kids were just as awful as they always were, completely taking him for granted. They expected Steve to give up everything without giving anything back. He has a date with Eddie that night? They want him to drop it and give them a ride to the pool. He has a headache and doesn’t feel like doing anything? Who cares, they need him to watch their DnD campaign. Oh, he doesn’t have enough money for groceries that week? He has to have enough to give them some for the arcade though, right?

Eddie certainly wasn’t helping either. He was constantly neglecting their relationship and placing it as his lowest priority. Steve would go out of his way to make plans with him only for him to cancel last minute or neglect to show at all. He’d go without calling Steve for days, blow him off when he did something nice for him, and poke fun at Steve’s expense to make the others laugh. It was to the point where it wasn’t making just Steve uncomfortable but the Corroded Coffin boys as well. 

He thought he was hiding his hurt feelings pretty well but when Eddie said a comment that hit a little too close to home for him, Steve ducked out of his own dining room to smoke a cigarette he definitely didn’t need. When he heard his sliding door inch open, he hoped that it would be Eddie coming to apologize but it turned out to be a worried Jeff instead. 

“Hey man, you alright?” He asked him, his eyes glimmering in concern. 

“Yeah, man,” Steve nodded before taking a long drag. “It’s fine, he does that all the time. It’s cool.”

Jeff didn’t look convinced and narrowed his eyes at the half-burnt cigarette. “It’s not cool at all. Why are you smoking, I thought you quit?”

Steve sighed, “yeah well, I couldn’t kick it completely. It makes a good excuse for when I need a break. Plus, Wayne is a really bad role model and keeps buying an extra pack for me when he gets his. I don’t have the heart to tell him I’m thinking of quitting, he’d be crushed.”

“I get it.”

There was a moment of silence between the two of them when Jeff spoke again. “Hey, you want to hang out at band practice with the guys and I on Monday? Eddie won’t be there but you could just hang with us.”

“You want to hang out with me without Eddie? You guys don’t even like me.” Steve told him deadpan. 

“What? Yes we do! We think you’re cool and if you ever want to swing by, we’d love to have you. We need an unbiased judge for our music.”

Steve hummed, “okay, what time on Monday?”

“Um, I think eleven. AM, not PM. Just come and hang out with us in Gareth’s garage. His mom is making tuna salad for us,” Jeff added. 

“Well how could I ever resist tuna salad?” Steve laughed, it felt like a long time since he’s done that. 

Jeff pointed at him, “that’s what I’m saying! And ditch the cigarettes, you won’t need a break with us. We won’t treat you like that.”

Steve nodded as Jeff went back inside. It was nice to be invited somewhere without an ulterior motive. Steve found himself looking forward to Monday so he could just relax without having to fake a part. He was excited and he couldn’t remember the last time he’d felt that way.

~*~*~*~

Word must have spread after that because suddenly, everyone outside of the main Party members wanted to hang out. The Corroded Coffin boys were teaching him how to play guitar and making him sing choruses alongside Jeff. Nancy was inviting Steve over for girl’s night to talk shit about Eddie and Robin. Murray was luring Steve to his bunker with promises of authentic Russian vodka and “sticking it to the man”, Steve didn’t accept that offer but he did appreciate it. Even Hopper and Joyce were inviting him out for milkshakes and basketball practice. 

Steve was having the most fun though with Phil and his new boyfriend Dio. Dio was a goth, twenty something with a sarcastic personality and a stupid sense of humor that complemented Phil’s. Just looking at him, Steve could tell that he and Phil shared a type (a fact often laughed at by Dio). It seemed they both went for alternative guys with shitty tastes in music. When Phil had first introduced the two, they had both been wary of one another; Steve because the guy looked like the type to stab his enemies and Dio because this preppy jock could out him and ruin his life. They soon found common ground however over their love of horror movies and Queen music. Now, Steve saw Dio as another older brother of sorts and couldn’t picture Phil with anyone else. 

 They invited him over biweekly for dinner and movie nights with horror films that left Steve itching with anxiety. But he was finally having fun. With all of the unexpected invites, he didn’t have any time to spend with the Party. Soon, he found out that that was intentional.  

He made a comment to Phil and Dio at one of their dinners that he hadn’t seen any of the Party in a while and that it almost seemed like he was avoiding them to hang out with other people. They both just looked at him blankly and Phil told him deadpan, “Well, duh. We made a plan to keep them away from you, we’re not going to make it easy on them. Now eat your green beans before they go cold.”

Steve just blinked at him. “What do you mean you made a plan? I’m confused.”

Dio gave Phil the side-eye and smiled a strained smile at Steve. “Alright look, we heard from your band friend that your other friends were being dumbasses and decided that they needed a time out. But you didn’t deserve to suffer so we made plans with you to keep you busy and to keep them away. Got it?”

No, Steve did not ‘get it’. 

“Why would you do that? That’s just how they are.”

Phil whipped his head up and almost knocked over his glass of chocolate milk in his haste to point a finger at Steve. “Excuse me?! They’ve been this way the whole time? Then why the hell are you friends with them?”

Steve blinked. “Because they want to be friends with me. It’s not like many people want to.”

Both Phil and Dio stared at him in sadness. They clearly didn’t see that coming. They looked at each other, back at Steve, then back at each other before Dio spoke. 

“We have to step it up then and really make them suffer. Here’s what we’re going to do, we’re going to make them jealous. If they haven’t realized that we’re trying to steal you already, they will soon enough. I’ll make the calls and we can really escalate things.”

“What the hell, um no. Let’s not do that? I just- what?” Steve stammered. 

“No, just trust me. We can make them really jealous with this plan. I’ve done it before, I’m a pro at getting revenge,” Dio smirked at him. 

Steve just stared at him and Phil nodded in agreement. 

“That’s true,” he said through a mouthful of green beans. “He’s gay and vengeful, that’s the worst kind. But remember, I’m an officer of the law so you have to keep it legal this time.”

“This time?!”

~*~*~*~

Dio wasn’t kidding about his revenge plan. He started coming around to Family Video on his lunch breaks in an attempt to confuse Eddie. He had the Corroded Coffin boys inviting Steve over almost daily and even Uncle Wayne taking him out for coffee and donuts. It was all Steve had ever wanted and deep down, he was a little sad that it had to be an act. 

Three weeks in though, the Party started to notice and it was all worth it. The kids came in to glare at the random goth weirdo that was monopolizing his time at work and complained to each other that their calls to the Harrington house were going unanswered. 

Robin was stuck working with Keith when Steve switched his shifts and her attempts to brag about Vickie went unanswered on the walkie. She couldn’t help but wonder where her best friend had gone or what had caused his absence. 

Eddie kept seeing Steve leave Gareth’s garage right as he got there and whenever he asked the guys, he got a disinterested, “yeah, we’re teaching him how to play the guitar. He was just stopping by.”

He reached a breaking point when he walked into Family Video to see a goth standing shoulder to shoulder with Steve in the horror section. Steve was smiling and nodding along to whatever the guy was saying and Eddie had had enough. 

“Hey! Who are you? Why are you standing so close to him huh? He’s taken!”

Steve just looked at him unimpressed. “Oh, are we still dating? I wasn’t sure considering you haven’t talked to me in three weeks.”

“What, three weeks? It hasn’t been that long. Even still, you’re going to go after a goth? What the fuck, Steve?” Eddie shook his head at him like Steve was in the wrong. 

“This is my brother’s boyfriend, Dio. We’re trying to pick out a movie that’s going to scare Phil. Not that it’s any of your business.”

“Oh, um. Can we talk?” Eddie murmured, chagrined. 

“No, I don’t think we should. There’s literally nothing you could say to make me forgive any of you. You, Robin, and the kids have ignored me for weeks and I didn’t even do anything wrong. And now you’re jealous because I’m talking to a guy that’s not you? No.”

Eddie’s face dropped. “Are you, are you breaking up with me?”

Steve’s mouth twisted, this hadn’t been part of the original plan but it did feel right. “Yeah, I am.”

“Um, okay. I’m gonna, I'm gonna go,” Eddie whispered before darting out of the store. 

Steve sadly watched him leave as Dio just looked between him and the door. “Well goddamn, you broke up with him? The whole plan was for everyone to make him jealous so he treated you better. I didn’t know that you wanted to dump him.”

“I didn’t either. But these past few weeks have taught me that the Party really aren’t great friends to have. And Eddie isn’t really a good boyfriend. I don’t want to go back to how it was,” Steve murmured. His chest felt heavy with loss and he could feel a tension headache creeping in. 

“Hey, look at me,” Dio met his eyes and laid a comforting hand on his shoulder. “You have to do what’s right for you and if that means cutting ties with toxic people, that’s what you have to do. There’s no shame in that.”

Steve nodded at him and broke away from his hold to get back to work. It was going to take some adjusting to losing the Party but it was the best thing for now. He’d been put down and mistreated too much by them to let them so easily off the hook once again. It was about time he put himself first, even if it meant losing the friends he’d thought he’d never lose.

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#Steve gets back together with Eddie after a few months because sharing Uncle Wayne like a divorced couple is too difficult #he forgives the Party eventually but things will never go back to how they were #Nancy takes Robin's spot as Steve's best friend and she never finds another platonic soulmate #hopefully this doesn't seem too rushed #stranger things #steddie #ish #steve harrington #eddie munson #fanfic #robin buckley #dustin henderson #phil callahan #Phil Callahan is Steve's brother

[softerpixels]

fallen cas soldiers (aka sims i made and then proceeded to immediately get overwhelmed at the concept of playing with)

#ts4 #ts4 portrait #sims 4 portrait #the sims 4 #simblr #ts4 edit #*my sims #anyway maybe i'll get my ish together and set up their saves #or maybe they'll just feature in later gens of whimsy stories #whose to say lol #anyway i'm finally kind of out of my same face syndrome rut #also new legacy starts tmrrw yay!!!!

[mauvearts]

Míriel showing her son how Vardas stars lit the birth of the Quendi.

no no no don’t tell me Míriel passed away basically right after she gave birth to Feanor! dont take this away from me 😭

#Miriel #Feanor #silmarillion #the silmarillion #silm #tolkien #i just wanted to give them some sweet moments of family bliss together #a little quality time before everything went downhill #T_T #this is based on an extreeeemly old draft - like 2016-ish or so #i redrew basically everything but i wanted to get it out of my system #finally

[cleo-serotonin]

rikma screenshots to brighten your day ☀️

#i love them #the way they were just leaning on the railing together??!! literally gfs #this ep is good bc it’s the only one where they get along(ish) with charlotte #like the power stuff is ehhh but when they play volleyball <333 #funfact i played volleyball for 4 years #cleo-serotonin lore #rikma #h2o just add water #rikki chadwick #emma gilbert

[orcelito]

OK MORE ANALYSIS

towards the start of trimax, we get this little bit here. aka Meryl's birthday, & ALSO when there are official sightings of Vash reappearing. so we can assume that Wolfwood finds Vash again in February (ish) of 0113

this. the beginning of the end. happens on July 21st of 0114, the exact ten year anniversary of the July Incident (July 21st of 0104)

and Vash & Knives' birthday.

which that's a whole big can of worms that's gonna have me needing to run through my fic again for dates bc i didnt realize it was Literally exactly 10 years passed between then and now.

but MORE IMPORTANTLY...

when you think about the dates. between february 0113 and july 0114, that's 17 months. Vash spent 7 ish months on the arc (maybe 8, sometimes they say 8)

this means that Vash and Wolfwood traveled together for a total of about 10 months, give or take.

ten months, largely just the two of them.

i think i need to sit down lmao

#speculation nation #i say as if i am not already sitting #fanny reads trigun #fanny's trigun analysis #trigun #vashwood #TANGENTIALLY... #trigun spoilers/ #JUST... #the time they spend together is so indefinitely defined in trimax. we just dont get that much detail. #but this? this is a definite spread of dates. could be a little longer & could be a little shorter. Depending. #but approximately 10 months of traveling together. god. #sometimes you spend 10 months with someone and they completely rewrite your perceptions of life #your moral systems even! the way you LOVE!!!! #oh this was a very good thing for me to actually register lmfao bc Man this is some very good food here #i was running under the vague assumption that July Incident to start of manga was 6 years. then 2 years between jeneora & trimax start #then 8 ish months Plus a little to 9 years. but obviously that was imperfect. there are a few more months in there to get it to 10. #which jeneora happened in october of 0110. so if we assume a perfect 6 years passed then the manga starts july 0110. #that's 3 months then spent traveling with meryl and milly. give or take a little. #hmmmhmhmhm this is VERY good for fic timeline reasons. very very good. i have made some very important discoveries today. #also for any1 seeing this in the tag im mostly doing research for my own fanfic writing lol but i wanted to share it generally #bc these r good details for anyone to know. & not everyone has the patience to go looking for them. #SO here U go. some more details analysis. this time with Dates. yup.

[darehearts]

me signing on after 48 hrs of radio silence  :  does anyone.......  remember me  ?!  hEWWO....... ?!?1  🤧

#obviously i'm exaggerating and being silly but yes hello 💛 #after 2 days of contemplation and trying to get my marbles #together-- i'm here ish. i am resuming my queue and after #nearly a month? i will be getting back to my ooc msgs today #tbh? on top of all that happened i learned 2 days ago that #the company that acquired the previous company that i #worked as a contractor for is firing basically all contractors #and i may lose my job any moment from now... and my #project will get terminated for sure end of the year and as #you all know my car is basically totaled... and i am the only #person who has a job in our house rn lmao so like!! i am not #well ;' ))) my personal life is on fire too but i HAVE to get it #together. and i will fight through my discomfort writing Jim #after taking 3 weeks long of a break. idk anymore beloveds! #i will chill out with my vent posts. thanks for sticking around~ #tbd #vent tw

[crybaby-bkg]

Incubus Dabi who is so used to being so charming and easy to slide inside the comfort of anyone’s bed, only to be brought to his knees by you—a succubus so old and grand and divine that he can’t even tell that you’re other. that you’re higher and greater than him in every way, shape, and form. that pins him so easily and makes him scream your name, gets him drunk enough on your scent and power that he forgets who, and what, he even is.

#wow that’s a lot of italicizations #but u get the point #I’m literally 9 weeks late but I finally got to the episode where he reveals that he’s touya #and HELLO I’m bouncing off the walls for him #had to pin myself down to keep from pulling my computer out and write something for him #only bc I have somewhere to be in the morning 😔 #but I wuv him and wanna write a million stories about him #I feel like he’s a character that you can do so differently ya know??? #like I can write him so cold and standoff-ish and so vulnerable and emotional and angry and even a lil sensitive #I just #am not normal about him sorry #he’s my bsf’s fav and she goes bonkers over him #but do you think she’d block me if I got fanart of us together 🫣 #the answer is actually yes and I’m so disappointed ☹️ #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #dabi treats! 🍬

[alastyr-not-alastair]

Rainbow Steve deserves to have 5-7 dads

#okay listen #we didn’t get to see any of the people who merged to make him in Steve saga #and he was made of crystals in rainbow quest #so he deserves to either be able to see all of his dads that worked together to make him #or be able to talk to the crystals and have them be his dads #OR straight up just have every crystal be a different person and have each of them be his dads #my point is he needs father-ish figures and he’s only ever going to have five or more of them #steve saga #favremysabre #rainbow steve #sins of the forefathers

[irn-bru]

i want to see how fourteen copes with having to do the weekly food shop in big tescos on a Saturday afternoon

#he can sonic money out the hole in the wall but he cant sonic that cheese any closer to him when theres five trolleys in the way #he would be acc bouncing with frustration lmao #omg ive just had a thought #if he and donna go together he goes on his walkies and gets lost in the aisles so donna forces him to hold onto the trolley At All Times #(this happened to me as a bairn) #i can see it so clearly #fourteen #fourteenth doctor #doctor who #dw spoilers #ish #beth.txt

[blorbologist]

I was just listening to A Dark Balance, episode 38 of Campaign 3, and was reminded of an observation I made a long time ago to some friends:

Isn't it interesting that Vex not only has participated in the most resurrection rituals, but has always gone first in those she took part in? (Bar one, which I'll get to).

It holds true to for Grog, Percy, Vax, and Velora's rituals - Vex goes first. She sets a pretty high bar with her offerings.

I'd wondered if it was just a Laura thing, potentially not tied to the character, but other resurrections dispute that: Lieve'tel's (Vex goes second), Molly/Kingsley's (Jester is second) and Laudna's, where Laura has Imogen go last.

I'm a bit groggy from the last few days, but I can’t help but wonder why the trend is as it is. Maybe because all of these happened after Vex's first death, so she knew acutely how much a heartfelt offering and time were of the essence? Or just... Vex, herself, being the barterer and one of the main faces of the party, struggling to keep them together, to keep this family of hers together? I wonder if it might be some responsibility, or a tiny selfish part of her that can't lose anyone else. Or fear, that if she waits even a moment her loved one will be lost.

Of course Lieve'tel's is the exception. Vex doesn’t care about her - hell, she's completely off-put by this representative of the Raven Queen occupying the space her brother did. And only days after she lost him. This is the only ritual she hesitates on, the only one - and it's fitting that she fails here.

(You could probably dig into Imogen, by complete contrast, going dead last in the ritual to bring back her best friend. How her heartfelt plea falls on deaf ears, no matter the love she holds... while Vex seized each ritual by the throat and offered all she could with no hesitation.)

(And Vex was watching that, bow drawn. Was she thinking back to those moments? To her pleas, in this same city, by the magic of this same cleric, to save her love from a power consuming his soul? So resounding her offering that Percy heard her beyond and knew? Did she pity Imogen, for waiting too long, for going unheard as a result? I'd love to know.)

#I'm fresh out a 6h drive so forgive me if the braincells are few and far between #part of me wishes the Nein had more res rituals so they could get this sort of meta but also WAILS FUCK THOSE MOMENTS HURT #maybe the Hells will! hopefully once they're back together! #critical role #campagin 1 #vox machina #vex'ahlia #cr vex #imogen temult #perc'ahlia #kinda ish sorta vjvjvk #laura bailey #cr meta #critical role meta