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What Even Is My Life At This Point
TW/ ED/ ADHD/ Depression/ C-PTSD / Panic Disorder / Neurodivergent. I AM NOT PROMOTING ANYTHING / I am Struggling / Relapsing and need to just let it all out in this post. If I lose followers so be it.
Holy shit it’s 1 o’clock.
Damn.
But I’m proud of myself.
I only had three cups of black coffee and I’m not even hungry! Because of the crippling sadness, anxiety, and guilt that comes with studying for my exams. Fuck me sideways because math is hard- chemistry math is the worst and my prof didn’t even have good resources or knew how to properly teach us. Like I could tell it didn’t occur to him that some people cannot put together basic mathematics without a through step by step guide with pictures.
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I mean, I’ve been studying my ass off over here, I’m doing more than my fair share of being my own advocate, being tough & no nonsense. Ugh it’s stupid and pathetic to cry over this shit. But all I know is that I derealized/disassociated from 8:30 in the morning.
Hello mental illness breakdown, long time no see! Time to play a bunch of acnh and burn my inscense I ordered and try to ignore the screaming in my head.
Like what the fuck is:
C x V = C1 x V1 which somehow is equal to (C2) x (V2) = C1 x V1 which also equals (ca x va) + (cb x vb) = C2 x V2
What the fuck is that what- even:
128 ounces equals a gallon which is the total volumes but each bottle has a 16oz and it’s ideal sterilization is 2-3% strength?
Oh BuT OnLy aDdInG oN ThE ArTerIAL FlUiD iS AllOWeD tO bE AdDed tO thE OVeRaLL EqUATiOn
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Seriously my ADHD is bad. It is so severe I was diagnosed at age 6 because all the nursery staff and my step mother went over to my mom and said: you need to get your daughter checked out she might be autistic.
Because I a) have a fear of loud noises, I will cry and scream at the drop of a hat. b) sometimes my brain goes quicker than my head and the voices get loud so I don’t understand what’s going on thus I need to clean, listen to music, or distract myself. c) I have the comorbidity jackpot of c-ptsd, panic disorder, major depressive disorder, anorexia, and worst of all when it comes to learning and school I have Dyscalculia. Even the simplest of adding equations, or counting backwards has me stumbling- make fun of me all you want but I couldn’t count backwards from 30 until I reached the end of second grade going into third. Not to mention I had a stutter due to my confusion on how to pronounce words (growing up with my grandparents and their French and my mom with her English I was lost) and also I have developed this facial/neck twitch when I get overstimulated.
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I’m trying so hard to be normal.
But it feels like I can’t be, because I do something the same as others but I always get something mixed up or wrong. I feel like life is just dangling my hopes and dreams in front me while laughing their ass off because they know how much I desire to have happiness and a good job and stability but they won’t let me have it AFTER ALL THE HOOPS I JUMPED THROUGH GOD DAMN!
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bananaapplewaffle · 2 years
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Chapter 3: The Merchant from the Depths
I'm turning auto-play off from now on, so thing's will be a little more organized lol. [UTC as per usual]
Chapter 3-1: Cramming Session
Let's go under the sea laddies
An intense storm?
WHERE IS THE LAND I COME FROM
WHO LIVES WHERE I WAS BORN
WHY DO MY MEMORIES START WITH A STORM
Oooooo my room is all nice and put together
No, Grim. It's if everything's coming up C, then there's tricks a foot.
Damn, exams... Good luck, Grim.
Since obviously that ain't got shit to do with me.
Don't have to worry about me, Grim! Imma just sit here and look pretty.
but if you need some answers, I gotchu.
Crewel... please stop calling me a dog.
You may be pretty, but you don't get a pass
Oop my boys are yellin'
OOP GOT YELLED AT
Oh we actually get a winter break?
I wonder if they'll be able to leave campus...
Grim, I told you most the answers.
GALAXY BRAIN ACTIVATE
Everyone should go play NEO: The World Ends With You
Ya, Deuce you'll definitely out score us.
Ace I don't believe you.
Grim, you still don't have proper manners, please stop lying.
Opp girl not the Mostro Lounge having a little café bar.
Once this is all over, we're sliding through.
Awww... who's in deep water?
Ah no one important.
?????
!!!!!!
JADE WHAT THE FUCK
...Jade, I'm staying the fuck away from you and your Unique Magic.
OH NO
NOT FLOYD
OMG
...
...so how did you have him pay it back just now...?
Grim you keep me away from them or I swear.
Chapter 3 - 2: Average Question
...
The music says it all.
Nevermind. Just my boys being idiots.
Ace, this ain't got nothing to do with me.
Maybe you should have ate it before Grim ate it, Ace?
Aw baby, if it was left on the table it was up for grabs.
Ace left that donut cold and alone.
Grim gave it a new home.
Moment of truth y'all
ooo Ace with the 92
Deuce with an 88 (which shocked the shit out of him)
And Grim with a
AN 85
YES BITCH
All of my replies to them will for now on be snarky
...oh no
WHICH ONE OF Y'ALL FUCKERS
FUCKED WITH THE TEST
Y'ALL GETTING ME INVOLVED WITH SHIT I DON'T WANT TO BE A PART OF
Crewel is like: "I know I'm a professional at training dogs, but some of you are a lost cost. It's not adding up."
GIRL WHO FUCKED WITH THE TESTS???
Not Crewel saying all of that and then being like "oh well"
Chapter 3-3: Results Stacked
Grim you got an 85, ain't no way you're in the top 50.
It's okay baby. Next year you'll be in the top 100.
...
WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY SCORED ABSOULELY PERFECT
SOME FIRST YEARS??
I THINK THE FUCK NOT
I ONLY TRUST RIDDLE WITH SOMETHING AS BONKERS AS THAT
...
Grim.
I no longer associate with the three of you.
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YALL ALL THREE CHEATED DEUCE
WHY COULDN'T YALL DO IT THE OLD FASHION WAY
DO Y'ALL NOT HAVE A QUIZLET EQIUALIVET
Jack!
Do it look like he made a contract, Deuce?
?????????
Jack, I'll be needing you to escort to wherever the fuck they're going.
I'm not fitting in well, Jack. I am simply an agent of Chaos.
Jack: "I couldn't care less about those guys."
He said like a liar.
Chapter 3-4: Press-Gang Contract
Omg they got so many of y'all
3RD YEARS???
That kinda makes sense tho... y'all are ready to gon and get outta there.
GIRL HELP WE'RE UNDER DA SEA
...wait who let the music hit like that
Jack you can show your excitement
ooo this lounge music is kickin
Ion wanna listen to you, so I simply won't.
WHY THE FUCK WOULD FIRST YEARS AGREE TO SOME SHIT LIKE THAT
WHY DID Y'ALL GO TO AZUL WHEN RIDDLE IS RIGHT THERE
NOT SOMEONE PUTTING THE UNIQUE MAGIC ON THE TABLE
Grim's contract should be void. He can't even read.
nor can I, built like Jared, 19.
Ah, seems like Jack does not like Academic Dishonesty.
Chapter 3-5: A Group Counterattack
Shut the fuck up Grim. I am not here. Do not perceive me.
Y'all are so dumb.
OH
NOT THEM
GIRL NOT JUST SOME PEOPLE ENJOYING THE SHOW IN THE BACKGROUND
DAMAGE IMMUNITY
WHO'S MANS IS THIS
THE FUCKEN CONTRACT
I'm finna act outta character
Cuz you can catch these hands, Azul.
GRIM??
Okay, so if magic can't harm it...
I can just rip it with my bare hands, dummy.
Don't perceive me.
Chapter 3-6: A Contractual Setback
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
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WHAT THE FUCK CROWLEY
HEADMAGE JUMPSCARE
Mang if you don't just expel his ass
Girl what?
...so because it wasn't actually cheating per say, it's all fair play.
"kindly" is a strong word to use there, Crowley.
Damn this is big fucked.
Shite, Leona and me want nothing to do with him and yet here I am.
10%???
THAT AINT SHIT
Listen, Crowley, the only way I can persuade him to stop is to beat his ass.
Bitch, I'll leave.
I'm losing it at Jack's little :3
Chapter 3-7: Observing a Foe
ooo Jack's skipping class~
my choirial ass listening to him
"Don't be mean, don't be mean, don't be mean"
GIRL AIN'T NO WAY HE CAN JUST SPEAK CAT
Thick thighs are fine, Azul.
Not as perfect as Riddle tho
Which is probs one of the reasons why he's the way he is
Nah, Jack let's dip.
Those are called twins, Grim.
Chapter 3-8: A Baiting Duo
And here's comes the thing with Floyd
I don't like that you've obviously done your research Jade.
Step the fuck back.
Ah, so he's a bit of a bitch. Got it.
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...the look in Floyd's eyes I swear...
HERE Y'ALL GO AGAIN WITH THIS SHIT
LET'S NOT CALL THE ONE WITH ANIMAL TRAITS (AND BROWN SKINNED) BELLIGERENT
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I hate y'all, I really do.
Damn, they bout to be waiting forever
IF I DO WHAT? I AIN'T DOING SHIT
No the fuck I am not, Jack.
These choices are wack.
Grim I will yeet you across this room- don't try me.
Chapter 3-9: Lounge Shorthanded
I do not care for the idle chit-chat. Take me to the Octopus.
Girl I will wait outside. I'm not about to order shit in here.
Damn not abuse in the workplace
They're definitely not getting paid either
In the wise words of Vanitas Kingdom Hearts: Suffer.
Take your applause somewhere else, Ashengrotto.
Chapter 3-10: Collateral Demanded
225 people... what a shame
Grim can't read. His at least should be void.
Damn not him stealing someone voice...
Grim what the hell.
Girl not the to be continued right on the contract terms.
Chapter 3-11: A Contract Signed
Oh you're asking me to steal?
Ya done fucked up buddy.
Prince Rielé? Ah Princess Ariel.
Let's go! Let's drown!
I don't want that.
Why did I let them in my house?
How about I beat y'all up instead?
Chapter 3-12: A Housing Bind
Girl where are we sleeping for the night?
My boys! and Jack (who is not an official boy yet)!
LETS GO I WANNA SEE LEONA MY BELOVED
>:3c
Or, and hear me out Ace, you and Deuce share a bed.
WAIT A MINUTE
ACE
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ACE???
Sure you were kidding, Ace.
Chapter 3-13: A Dorm Suite
Not a chance, my ass. I'm staying here whether yo like it or not, Leona.
Ah damn, guess you gotta go, Grim.
LETS GO
I WILL BUNK WITH LEONA MY BELOVED
NOT THE YIP
Grim, mind your manners!
Oh wait... you still don't have any.
And that's everything!
For now.
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