In Dealing with Exomemories, Especially Exotrauma
Cross-posted from my dreamwidth entry. Link directly in the title.
In the time spent in the alterhuman community, in particular to the therian/kin that dealt with exomemories from other lives, I've come to observe something critical--many carried various exotrauma.
My belief is that a part of the reason reincarnation happens is to provide us a chance to seek closure in our other lives or heal the wounds we carry. Perhaps we are tied to this cycle due to unfinished business, whether positive or negative.
I don’t identify as the eastern ocean dragon of my past; thus, it is my kardiatype. However, I have memories, instincts, likes, and dislikes based on that dragon. There are pains I've felt that I'm still trying to determine if they might be connected to that dragon's own loss, but they don’t hurt me as much, as I am able to observe from a distance. However, this comes down to the identification and separation of the part of the self. From the beginning of my realization of being nonhuman, I already identified as who I am: the dream dragon.
Perhaps this can help others as well, in finding that separation and distance. This is also considering that we have people within the community who can interact with their other lives as separate beings. This couples with the Chinese belief in spirits and souls (hun and po)[1] and how transmigration works with each incarnation: you only move on with a part of it, leaving the rest behind. Essentially, one is different from their past or other selves (as time can be seen as non-linear to some).
Another key thing is finding closure. Perhaps the various memories are vying for attention because of unresolved loose ends.
Writing down stories, or making any sort of creation work for each and every one of those lives might help. I believe there is truth and fact in fiction. Many alterhuman that I've observed use writing as a form of interaction with their selves. I do it too, finding temporary joy in worlds where I can be myself, and it serves as an outlet to work through some inner conflicts or other dissent. Memories become somewhat easier to handle once I put them down as something concrete that I can work with. If emotions are causing suffering, mindfulness is a good practice to counter that—acknowledge and accept the emotions, and then learn to lessen their impact on one's being. This deals with more psychological territory, but the same techniques and methods are not restricted to a single subject area. There are numerous resources available, but here's a small excerpt:
Ride out Waves of Emotions--Be Mindful
Normalize Emotions
Observe
Anticipate
Emotions will get bigger/intensify
Visualize
Ride/surf the emotion wave/tide. Ride it out instead of blocking it. Let it flow. Gently let go; it's okay to release the grasp.
Shift focus; practice mindfulness; notice the physical surroundings. Be attentive and curious.
Be Nonjudgemental
Acceptance
Additionally, having something grounding or anchoring is good. Anything, even a stuffed toy, a pet, a place, another sapient being, or even things beyond—that's a bit like speaking of faith, ironic considering I'm discussing grounding in the unseen and forces beyond.
All of these can to be utilized together. Comfort allows room to break down, grounding offers a point to return to should the mind becomes lost in the memories and emotions. While all the other exercises allow confronting the memories, they help in working through emotions by offering a new perspective.
There is also something many East Asians do—they pay homage to their ancestor, a common practice is setting up ancestral tablets or spirit tablets. Offerings and prayers are made to these tablets as a way to connect with and show respect to one's ancestors. For me personally, I have seen this practice extend to one's own other lives.
In the end, the mind is what matter. Manifestation--your will to see your other lives' chapters be closed.
I wish everyone all the best in finding that inner peace.
[1]Reninger, Elizabeth. "Hun & Po Ethereal & Corporeal Soul In Taoism." Learn Religions, Feb. 8, 2021, learnreligions.com/hun-and-po-in-taoism-and-chinese-medicine-3182553.
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one day you’ll truly be gone
no one will remember you
no one will have known you
i’m mourning that death now
no longer mourning your physical one
the one that happened
but this next one
where no one knows your laugh
your words
your person
your love
where no one will know how much it hurt me
when you passed
how for years i still cried
and just when it starts to stop
it happens all over again
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miles away from here
our eyes meet across a crowded room
again, for the very first time
our fingers fit together
palms perfectly aligned
we gaze at the same stars
and your lip still does that thing it does
when you’re trying to subdue a smile
miles away from here, the miles between us
are only ever a minor inconvenience
miles away from here
you whisper my name in a dream
and I wake without tears in my eyes
- Cora Finch
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About a year ago, I attempted a self-directed past life regression meditation, and instead, found myself catapulted that night into my future incarnation as a girl of Igbo and Ibibio heritage in Nigeria. This is an AI-prompted portrait of my future self. Imagine a city to her left, and a kind uncle watching over her. I was confused about my identity, and "my" uncle had to point out to me who I was. I was either of Ibibio or mixed Igbo-Ibibio heritage. (The moment of clairaudience was very slightly garbled, stuttering, as it often does.) I had never heard the term "Ibibio" before. When I looked into it, I found out that there are many documented cases of reincarnation in Ibibio communities. I sometimes wonder whether it was a moment of actual precognition, or something even more mysterious, a kind of meeting of two concurrent minds. Perhaps that little girl is alive in Nigeria right now, imagining me as her past self.
The day after I had the dream, I fell violently ill, and had to go to the hospital. It was almost like I had been shown that deterioration of the body and death was no big deal. So, should I, G-d forbid, pass too soon, come find me by the river, in Nigeria, seven years from the day I die.
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The Signs of (Other)lives
I have known previous lives. I have had questioned future lives, and had inklings that my dreams may sometimes connect to alternative lives that may or may not be parallel to my current timestream.
For the past lives, the a sense of “this is done, I’m looking back at memories as if I were old photographs”. An impression of “I’m who I am today because of them” especially the case with my kardiatype. I’m not certain if that is the beginning of my central essence/soul yet.
For the future ones, I never bothered to think on them more beyond the vaguest sensation of knowing something will come in the future.
Meanwhile, the dream worlds are already too abstract and often time can be overwhelming with a new journey or set up every other time. I rarely had mundane dreams that reflects my everyday life at the present. And half of the time I am not myself, literally. Sometimes I am, but I am neither in my current human body, nor a body of my current dragon self. But in some rare circumstances, I’d know like I would a noema, that it is was a world an alternative universe “me” was living through. Though it may be in a twisted way dreams like to present. Now that I think about it, that is very likely the case—where I may be connected to a alternative reality either of my own or of others, but I was merely interacting with how the dreams were presented instead of the physical reality over there.
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