#fucking the fact that after dean has his gay little dream he watches garth dancing with his wife like ok we get it you want to live in

[butch-cas]

its actually so easy to watch spn blind and not be spoiled for shit just bc everything that happens in the show is so batshit insane its basically impossible to follow without actually watching, and even then..

#like yeah I know the end I know how cas dies but like that's not what I'm talking about #like I'm watching s15 for the first time and I had no real idea how the plot went outside of 'god is the main villain' #like actually watching it I understand what's going on and I'm gaining my own understanding slowly #It's just kinda fun #it IS good to have warnings about shit that happens like.... the fucking homophobic hate crimes in one of the s15 episodes????? #so I'll be watching out for that but like what I mean isn't who dies and who lives #(BC I REALLY WOULD HAVE LIKED TO HAVE KNOWN HOW MARY DIED A HEAD OF TIME THAT MADE ME SO UPSET) #but like what actually goes on and how the plot develope #also the fucking lamp scene..... like ???? when I watched that too I was like THAT WAS THE CONTEXT ??? #fucking the fact that after dean has his gay little dream he watches garth dancing with his wife like ok we get it you want to live in #domestic bliss with your sexy lamp angel husband WE GET IT #ok but also genuinely what does the lamp symbolize for real tho #like if its not a longing that dean has what does it mean ?? like . #if we want to take it at face value its like a lamp is a light so a guiding light a warmth . #u know ?? #but then you have the rest of the context of the dream #and its kinda funny bc when i had seen gifs of him dancing with the lamp I always thought it was somewhere within the micheal arc #bc of the suit! bc dean's body dressed in an old fashioned suit like some 30s b&w movie star was associated with micheal as far as i knew #so like you can think about that... #but then also the fact that he was dancing with garth whose life dean has wanted and envies and at the end of the episode he says 'i always #Thought I could be a good dancer' basically meaning I always thought I might be good at a life like that #he wants to dance that dance ! #and then all this is happening while garth is trying to help him with a problem he's never had to acknowledge before.... #the layers lads..... #Anyway.... #c #spnlb