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24/SEVEN Dance Convention, Provo, UT: RESULTS

High Scores by Age:

Sidekick Solo

1st: Stella Brinkerhoff-’Fly

2nd: Mila Renae-’Move’

2nd: Sylvie Win Szyndlar-’Rainbow Connection’

3rd: Monaco Gonzales-’B.E.A.T.S’

3rd: Ivy Mcewan-’Dance Like Your Daddy’

3rd: Finley Nielsen-’Make You Feel My Love’

4th: Malia Tuaileva-’Stupid Cupid’

4th: Navie Mees-’Sweet Child’

4th: Melina Blitz-’The Poet Creature’

5th: Avery Van Cott-’Blood, Sweat and Tears’

6th: Brinley Lulloff-’Speaking French’

7th: Naomi Harper-’Speechless’

8th: Penelope Prager-’Here Comes The Sun’

8th: Kai Diaz de Leon-’What A Wonderful World’

9th: Addalyn Daley-’Smallest Light’

10th: Olivia Foote-’It’s Oh So Quiet’

Mini Solo

1st: Ruby Taylor-’I Got It’

2nd: Tiara Sherman-’..And The Things That Remain’

2nd: Ellary Day Szyndlar-’Snow’

3rd: Elsie Sandall-’Almost Gone’

3rd: Tessa Ohran-’Knock 1-2-3′

3rd: Alexis Alvarez-’Welcome Home’

4th: Kylie Lawrence-’Breathe In’

4th: Karyna Majeroni-’Pistolette’

4th: Kendyl Miller-’Stand By Me’

4th: Kalista Greer-’Yesterday’

5th: Reegan Francis-’Just A Girl’

6th: Kate Baker-’I’ll Stand By You’

7th: London Smith-’Feel My Love’

8th: Brielle Maciel-’Lean On Me’

9th: Anistyn Larsen-’Desire’

9th: Addison Price-’We Will Not Give In’

10th: Claire Hansen-’By The Roses’

10th: Esprit Frank-’Grains’

10th: Brooklyn Ward-’Here I Am’

10th: Khloe Douros-’Not About Angels’

10th: Tabitha Nan-’Torn’

10th: Hadlee Heriford-’Unbroken’

10th: Patience Hughes-’Weird People’

Junior Solo

1st: Brooke Toro-’As The Dust Settles’

2nd: Stella Condie-’Go Away’

2nd: Bella Fernandez-’She Was Running’

3rd: Kylie Kaminsky-’Beneath the Surface’

3rd: Mya Tuaileva-’Can’t Unhear’

3rd: Kamri Peterson-’Crawl When You Can’t Walk’

3rd: Colby Rich-’Exhale’

4th: Taylor Harrison-’Dawn Chorus’

4th: Makaia Roux-’Everything I Wanted’

4th: Abbi Francis-’Feel It Still’

5th: Kortlynn Rosenbaugh-’Concentration’

5th: Victoria Johnson-’Genius’

5th: Brooke Dubbs-’I Know’

5th: Seren Carter-’Natural’

5th: Alita Kneeland-’Spine’

6th: Lena Hirsch-’Forsaken’

6th: Bosco Wong-’Malaguana’

6th: Vivienne Mitchell-’Metamorphosis’

6th: Blakely Bell-’Shifting’

7th: Caroline McGowan-’Everything Evaporates’

7th: Amaya Llewellyn-’Must’

7th: Kanon Greer-’To The Sky’

8th: Mia Olson-’Marionette Mischief’

8th: Stella Paxton-’Punching In A Dream’

8th: Taytym Ruckle-’Ultraviolet’

9th: Anna Hendershot-’Human’

10th: Reese Kringlen-’Enough’

10th: Aida Nielsen-’Heart of Glass’

10th: Reese Newmarker-’Small World’

Teen Solo

1st: Brady Farrar-’And You’ll See Me’

2nd: Beth Anne McGowan-’Informally Cool’

2nd: Izzy Howard-’Labryinth’

2nd: Hailey Bills-’You’

3rd: Allie Andrew-’Coiled’

3rd: Addison Middleton-’Dark Dissonance’

3rd: Jordan Lassiter-’Joyful Girl’

3rd: Sabine Nehls-’No Regrets’

3rd: Oana Barber-’Tenderness’

4th: Alexis Adair-’A.M.’

4th: Zoe Ridge-’A Thousand Eyes’

4th: Ceilidh McSeveney-’Harm Me’

4th: Gabriella Jensen-’Lost In Your Lies’

5th: Luke Barrett-’Eden’

5th: Emersyn Dickson-’Plans We Made’

5th: Jordynn Christianson-’Sideshow’

5th: Indy Benson-’Soundscape’

6th: Olivia Pinon-’Les Mots Bleus’

6th: Rylee Arnold-’Dirty Diana’

6th: Kya Story-’Gimme All Your Love’

6th: Cydney Heard-’I Dream of You Again’

6th: Hailey Nieva-’I Forgot’

6th: Cassandra Wagstaff-’Zucht 2′

7th: Mia Ibach-’Koladi Ola’

7th: Jaylynn Lindley-’Wisdom Cries’

7th: London Ludwig-’Work’

7th: Ella DeVore-’Zeita’

8th: Emma Martin-’Problem’

8th: Tessa Horsley-’Reflections’

9th: Tiffany Robinson-’Touch’

10th: Madison Goulding-’Mad World’

10th: Ava Allred-’Promises’

10th: London Williamson-’Slow Decent’

Senior Solo

1st: Carter Williams-’20 Years’

1st: Abby Dayton-’Acceptance’

1st: Elijah Hatch-’Escaping Darkness’

2nd: Brooklin Hunsaker-’Godspeed’

2nd: Brooke Melillo-’HIT’

2nd: Amanda Taylor-’I Was Wrong’

2nd: Sicily Redd-’Lamentation’

2nd: Natalia Jensen-’The Last Of Us’

2nd: Paige Wagstaff-’These Days’

3rd: Camry Blackhurst-’Airstrike’

3rd: Ashley Wilcox-’Emigre’

3rd: Taylor Tebbs-’Inertia’

3rd: Chloee Lowrence-’Recall’

4th: Emily Marsh-’Destination’

5th: Ambrie Kirkham-’Blues Run The Game’

5th: Remy Wright-’Moments Passed’

6th: Freddie Linden-’Rescue Me’

7th: Kelsey Tippetts-’Never Grow Old’

7th: Savannah Shaw-’Space Is Only Noise’

7th: Sydni Desmond-’Wild As The Wind’

8th: Abigail Crittenden-’Space’

8th: Charley Osterberg-’Woman’

9th: Rachel McEwan-’I Won’t Hurt You’

9th: Eleni Yannias-’Slow Down’

9th: Lyvia Day-’Tides’

9th: Chloe Baddley-’Volcanic’

10th: Caitlyn Lane-’My Strange Addiction’

Sidekick Duo/Trio

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’No More I Love Yous’

2nd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’I’ve Got Rhythm’

3rd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Hound Dog’

Mini Duo/Trio

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Blue Skies’

2nd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’King’

3rd: Danceology-’Do Something’

Junior Duo/Trio

1st:  Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Size’

2nd: The Winner School-’Million Dollar Secret’

3rd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Weightless’

Teen Duo/Trio

1st: The Rock Center for Dance-’Last Light’

2nd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Not The News’

3rd: Empower Dance-’All My Friends’

Senior Duo/Trio

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’I’ll Never Love Again’

2nd: The Winner School-’In Search Of’

3rd: Artistic Dance Project-’Voodoov’

Sidekick Group

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Bird’

Mini Group

1st: The Winner School-’Big Time’

2nd: The Winner School-’Dance Bug’

3rd: The Winner School-’Stand By Me’

Junior Group

1st: The Winner School-’Icon’

2nd: The Winner School-’Searching Together’

3rd: The Winner School-’You Don’t Know Me’

Teen Group

1st: The Winner School-’Free Hand’

1st: The Winner School-’Moving On’

2nd: The Winner School-’Magnificent’

3rd: The Winner School-’War Song’

Senior Group

1st: Artistic Dance Project-’A Little After The Sun’

2nd: Artistic Dance Project-’Letting Go’

3rd: Artistic Dance Project-’Boombastic’

Sidekick Line

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Let’s Get Loud’

2nd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Scooby Doo’

3rd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’New Girl In Town’

Mini Line

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’The Moon’

2nd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’I Work 2020′

3rd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Uptown Girls’

Junior Line

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Girls’

2nd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Sad Day’

3rd: The Dance Company-’Entropy’

Teen Line

1st: Artistic Dance Project-’Greed’

2nd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Sometimes When It Rains’

3rd: The Winner School-’Feel It Still’

Senior Line

1st: Artistic Dance Project-’Storm’

2nd: Artistic Dance Project-’Mother’

3rd: Artistic Dance Project-’Live Another Life’

Mini Extended Line

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Time’

2nd: Artistic Dance Project-’Super Model’

Junior Extended Line

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’I Love It’

Teen Extended Line

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Could Look Away’

2nd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Aquatic’

3rd: Artistic Dance Project-’Can’t Pretend’

3rd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Pink and Blue’

Senior Extended Line

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Goliath’

2nd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’You’

3rd: Artistic Dance Project-’Knocking On Heavens Door’

Mini Production

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Swagger Jagger’

Junior Production

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Snitches and Rats’

1st: Artistic Dance Project-’Take It’

2nd: Artistic Dance Project-’Swish’

Teen Production

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Diamonds’

1st: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’For Dodo’

2nd: Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Sexy Back’

Senior Production

1st:  Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’No Bystanders’

High Scores by Performance Division:

Sidekick Contemporary

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Bird’

Sidekick Lyrical

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’The Rose’

Sidekick Specialty

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Let’s Get Loud’

Sidekick Musical Theatre

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’New Girl In Town’

Sidekick Hip-Hop

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Scooby Doo’

Mini Musical Theatre

The Winner School-’Big Time’

Mini Jazz

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’I Work 2020′

Mini Lyrical

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’The Moon’

Mini Specialty

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Uptown Girls’

Mini Contemporary

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Time’

Mini Ballroom

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Swagger Jagger’

Junior Contemporary

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Sad Day’

Junior Jazz

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’I Love It’

Artistic Dance Project-’Take It’

Junior Lyrical

Artistic Dance Project-’Bright Horses’

Junior Tap

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Birds’

Junior Ballet

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Going to School’

Junior Ballroom

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Girls’

Junior Hip-Hop

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Snitches and Rats’

Teen Contemporary

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Could Look Away’

Teen Musical Theatre

The Winner School-’Next to You’

Teen Tap

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Softly, Heavy’

Teen Jazz

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Sexy Back’

Teen Lyrical

The Winner School-’Moving On’

Teen Ballet

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Sometimes When It Rains’

Teen Specialty

Artistic Dance Project-’Greed’

Teen Ballroom

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Diamonds’

Teen Hip-Hop

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’For Dodo’

Senior Ballet

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Lost Light’

Senior Contemporary

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’You’

Senior Jazz

Artistic Dance Project-’Boombastic’

Senior Tap

Artistic Dance Project-’I Wanna Dance’

Senior Lyrical

Artistic Dance Project-’Letting Go’

Senior Specialty

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Goliath’

Senior Hip-Hop

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’No Bystanders’

11 O’Clock:

Sidekick

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Let’s Get Loud’

Mini

The Winner School-’Big Time’

The Dance Company-’I Feel For You’

Artistic Dance Project-’Super Model’

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Swagger Jagger’

Junior

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Girls’

The Dance Company-’Entropy’

The Winner School-’Icon’

Artistic Dance Project-’Take It’

Teen

The Winner School-’Moving On’

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Could Look Away’

Artistic Dance Project-’Greed’

Senior

Central Utah Ballet-’Embrace’

Artistic Dance Project-’A Little After The Sun’

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’No Bystanders’

Studio Showcase:

The Winner School-’Moving On’

Center Stage Performing Arts Studio-’Could Look Away’

Artistic Dance Project-’A Little After The Sun’

#24/seven #dance #2021 #utah #provo

[titleknown]

Three Spooky Fictional Knockoff Toylines!

That’s right, as the big writing piece for this spooky time of year, it’s three spooky toylines ripping off bigger properties in a way that do not exist.

These are all public domain/CC0, free to use for whatever you see fit, though crediting me and linking to my Patreon or Ko-Fi would be nice. 

Shoutout to @genustoys, @phelous and @therobotmonster for heavily inspiring these with their work!

Now, LET US BEGIN!

Monsterlords of the Nether Realms- This line is an odd duck in that it was a knockoff of a toyline that wasn't all that popular. Namely, Inhumanoids.

It was seemingly designed to be cross-compatible with the large monsters of that line, yet in all irony it stuck around seemingly far longer, likely due to the lower price points it was was able to get away with due to being a “non-branded” product and the cross-compatibility of play pattern with the larger figures.

And they were shockingly lavish for what was seemingly a “low rent” property, which has lead to suspicions of it and its related properties being a money-laundering scheme, or at least cover for something unsavory, though others say it could simply be good craftsmanship and the evidence in favor of and against such is perhaps a story for another day.

There were five of them that ended up bumping around store shelves, give or take a few “extras,” which we will cover as they come.

The first piece; likely intended as the “mascot” due to its prescence in promotional artwork is the one known as MOLINTHA, or “ANTHILL EVIL” on certain variants, a large figure encased in a roughly mountain shaped “shell” when curled in a specific position; with an ominous “maw” that turned into a torso when the figure was uncurled.

The mountain pieces themselves (Which were free-standing on their own) provided a large amount of play value with platforms seemingly shaped for various 3&¾-inch figures, but the body itself was a gorgeous design, with the “scaffolding” where the mountain clicked on turning into a series of platforms for figures to climb and clamber over,

The articulation was low, but the sculpting was pleasantly gnarly, resembling some dark ancient castle covered in mystic carving given humanoid form, without an articulated head but instead a snarling “maw” in which figures could be placed inside. Though, there has been some speculation that this head was ripped off a similar design from the front of the classic D&D Dungeon Master's Guide, and I would be lying if I did not see the resemblance.

As expected, it did not come with any figures, but did come with a large assortment of commonly-circulated plastic “bugs” molded in a clear rubbery plastic; along with a few of the notorous “Chinasaurs” that ended up as the basis for D&D monsters bizarrely enough.

The second known most commonly as “LEVIATHOIN” was a piece that had a similar yet wildly different gimmick. The main “body” was actually simply an inanimate idol, which one might say resembles a very specific image of Baphomet, but the smaller figures were of real interest.

Four five-inch ones, bearing an odd resemblance to a scaled-down Molhilintta minus the scaffolding and with a few odd tweaks, with a similar simple articulation scheme, but also a feature in which the arms and legs could “click” together tightly, which leads to the real draw of such.

Each figure attached to a socket in the main “idol” and functioned as a crude combiner., forming a huge “creature”. Each figure could function as n arm or a leg on either side, and the color variants (Including a few alledged remolds of these torsoes) could be their own article in and of themselves.

The third known as MECHA-SHAG was an extremely simple design and yet also one of the most bizarre of them all. It was a hairy “core” akin to the Masters of the Universe Grizzlor, but with a strange robotic face; limbs and at least a dozen missile launchers. They were Micronauts-styled “safety” missiles, but still fascinatingly odd all the same. There is evidence for the pieces origin as a possible Shogun Warriors/Jumbo Machinder knockoff, but again that is a detail for another day.

The fourth one was known as RUCIBEDO, and was unusual even for this line. It was a stylized kaiju-esque “pterodactyl” with a flapping action; its oddly “bio-mechanical” look seemingly giving credence to the idea that the enigmatic company behind the linwas making a Shogun Warriors knockoff-series before they decided to switch gears, but those are not the only notable parts.

The most blatant one is the fact that it is sculpted in a bright red; translucnet plastic, and not only that but had electric lights wired to the flapping mechanism in some bizarrely spacious “alcoves” in the back (Possibly for aborted missile-firing features), creating an immensely striking effect. Albeit one that had a tendency to break; though there are repair guides out there.

And the fifth PLUCHUN is an odd duck, because it should by all accounts be considered kind of a “ripoff” due to using far less material for the same price point as the others, but is often the most fondly remembered.

It is a small torso seemingly made of organic “pipes with a “hatch” on the head and a button slightly below. It also came with a small container of “slime” indicating its function. Namely, put it in the back of the head; press the button repeatedly; and the slime drips out of the holes in the creature, with a pumping rubber “heart” completing the effect. Weirdly; while the rubber on most of these has rotted off, there appears to be a fully sculpted (Albeit much cruder) “heart” that still moved in and out when the button was pressed.

The whole thing was capped off by immensely long rubbery bendy-limbs in the same style as the “main body's” pipes. These tended to be very fragile, and while memorable, this has the fewest surviving specimens out of them all.

As said before, there are other specimens that may be covered at a later date; such as the odd hand-puppet and the bizarrely remolded Imperial Dinosaurs linked to the line and the smaller-range figures, but this is running a bit long, so I'll leave it here for now.

Nightmare Gores- Relating to the preponderance of He-Man knockoff figure lines in the 80s, and the popularity of slasher films, it was only a matter of time that the two would be combined, in ways only possible without mass-fundie-protest at least) in small lines like this.

In striking red-and-black packaging with crude art of a horde of ghoulish monsters rseemingly ripping out of the card back, with the bizarrely memorable phrase of “WE WILL KILL YOU” coming out of a word balloon, there's relatively few things like it.

It used a standard barbarian body whose origins predated the line; but from where they predated was a matter of debate (Though it is known that it most certainly was original to that company and not a He-Man or Galaxy Hole bootleg(), all the same across the line with differing headsculpts.

The headsculpts did have consistent names, and one could tell their inspirations relatively well. Joe was obviously a Freddy Kreuger without the hat, the hockey-masked Rod was obviously Jason Voorhees, Mike was very obviously a riff on Michael Jackson's Thriller Werecat (Corroborated with the usual non-caucasian color of his body sculpt) and Gross was blatantly the Toxic Avenger. Mush was a generalized “melting” face, but could be said to be taken from Cropsey of The Burning; and Hexen's gas mask was likely inspired by My Bloody Valentine's main antagonist; albeit with bizarrely added devil horns.

Then there are the oddballs. Clash is a fan-favorite alongsid Hexen due to his pure black-plastic body and strange hood in striking red with a black void for a front and two piercing red pupils, but I like Frank a lot if only for being a big ridiculous Frankenstein head repurposed for this, as was what I would call the “Baltard” of this line Stall-9 with his slighly crossed eyes and almost comical grin negating whatever intimidation factory they might have. Redd caps off the line with the strange combination of bull and horse head designs obviously repurposed from the barbarian toyline this comes from in a way that still sorta works.

Their pack in accessories vary across production, but there are some commonalities. Mike; Rod; Hexen and Clash almost always came with cool red vinyl “jackets” and Tedd and Frank almost always came with bizzarrely realistic handguns molded in bright orange. And Stal-9; Mush and Clash came with a “chainsaw: very clearly remolded from a gun.

The rest were a mushmash of machetes and hammers, and knives; axes and clubs that were clearly re-utilized from the original line. There are other “relatives” like the Killer Beasts and the Murder Lady, but we'll leave it here for now.

ShineFriendz- One of the many Tamagochi-come-latelies in the 90s, this line tried valiantly to differentiate itself from the usual Tamagochi clones by giving itself a backlite, far more extensive interaction within the limits of its mono-colored pixel art and a link function for “playtimes,” All in a model approximately the size of a modern day smartphone, and to be supported with early web tie-ins in lieu of an expensive animated series.

Of course, the fact that it was its parent company's first venture into such things; a battery company to be exact (Hence why they felt so secure in being battery-eaters), there was very little oversight into the programming. And, due to a series of circumstances too stupid to mention, the devices had  far more memory than they anticipated, and far more than they would need for the device's intended functions.

And, what happens when you have bored programmers and lots of time, you get easter eggs. Lots and lots of unsettling easter eggs. To the point where they took up approximately as much space as the “main” games.

So, they were immensely easy to run into during play, but they went unnoticed by corporate during the first three iterations of the pets. The most notorious of them was the possible evolution called only BREATHING which looked like an emaciated and decrepit eyeless version of the brand's canid mascot-species the Buroof that was continually doing what its name implied and had a legion of ominous quirks too long to list here.

Despite rumors, surprisingly none of the glitches involved causing death or injury to any of the pets. Though, that still didn't make them any less fucked up, with such examples as a “pet” known as BRILT that took the form of continual flame graphic that at times would flicker to the outline of another; random pet, to the weird “bird” known as CAUSE whose pleasure meter would go up if you hit the scold button,

There's a full list of “AnomalyFriendz” (the usual fan nickname0 that's too long to list here, but it wasn't limited to them, with such things as a “Game” that involved running from what looked like a crude pair of jaws to a “food” that looked like a wad with what was unmistakably eyes. And the web fiction didn't help, given how the actual text stories were dark , reading more like if Clive Barker wrote Watership Down with it just being barely within what was “appropriate” for kids, with increasingly less subtle allusions to the “AnomalyFriendz”

The minority of parental complaints weren't what got the execs notice however, it was actually the fans of the property, young girls who wrote in asking about those glitches. Not even in disapproving tones either, just asking whether they were intentional, or even asking if playground rumors (Or the rumors circulating across the website's own forums) were true.

This lead to them trying to integrate the macabre bits into the actual marketing for the toys, with the fourth iteration “FreakyFriendz,” with a cleverly altered shell with an ominously warped corner and more integration of the “anomalous” and “regular” Friends. And that is what sunk the line.

Because, parents actually noticed and; since this was the 90s; they bitched up a storm, leading to most of them being removed from shelves. Which is a shame, because enthusiasts say these were the best models yet.

The company left the business shortly thereafter, but there remains a small cult fandom to this day; complete with officially sanctioned web-iterations and even a few (sadly stillborn) attempts at full on revivals. But, maybe someday...

#action figures #toys #fictional toys #public domain #horror #things that need to exist #things that don't exist #macabre #weird #bootlegs #knockoffs

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Audio & Playlist for Transistor Sister Fill-In for the Freeform Pathogen!

When Mike Lupica needs a sub, YOU SUB. Here’s a show I threw together of favorites old and new on a Monday night!

link to downloadable audio Playlist: Freddy "Boom Boom" Cannon - Transistor Sister Silvia Night - Congratulations

-------------------------------------- DJ speaks over X-Ray Spex - Warrior in Woolworth's (demo)

Naked Raygun - Roller Queen *Tommy and the Commies - Impulse Action The Almanac Singers - State of Arkansas Jocelyne - Nitty Gritty Fuck Ups - I Hate You Mano Negra - Hamburger Fields

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The Mamas and the Papas - Twelve Thirty *Tommy McGee - Take Me Home Dee Dee King - The Crusher Huggy Bear - No Sleep Dog Faced Hermans - Balloon Girl *Parnepar - Se Bastijan

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TMA - What's for Dinner The Barracudas - I'll Feel a Whole Lot Better Coming Shortly - Doing the Flail New Model Army - 51st State Leadbelly - When I Was a Cowboy The Kinks - Dead End Street

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The Freeze - Talking Bombs *Parsnip - Treacle Toffee World The Monkees - Circle Sky Mac & Katie Kissoon - Chirpy Chirpy Cheep Cheep Roky Erickson and the Aliens - It's a Cold Night for Alligators Yazoo - Unmarked Bad Brains - Pay to Cum The Sparkles - Hipsville 29 BC (I Need Help)

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Gogi Grant - The Wayward Wind Amos Milburn - Bad Bad Whiskey *Special Interest - Street Pulse Beat Fighter Squadron - Ah La Redd Kross - What They Say

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Brincos - Too Cheap, Cheap The Peppermint Rainbow - Pink Lemonade Stevie Wonder - You Haven't Done Nothin' Kelly Harrell and the Virginia String Band Au Pairs - Kerb Crawler

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Ex Faced Hermans - Lied der Steinklopfer Trader Horne - Here Comes the Rain The Ohio Express - Sausalito (Is the Place to Go) The Fall - Leave the Capitol Blind Lemon Jefferson - Matchbox Blues Clyde McPhatter - Bip Bam Dishrags - I Don't Love You

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The Millenium - It's You *Stiff Richards - Bad Disease London Dri - Life in Your Hand Tuff Darts - (Your Love is Like) Nuclear Waste Tyrades - Let Down The Robins - Wrap It Up Professor Morrison's Lollipop - Oo-Poo-Pah Suzie

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*Alice Bag - Switch Hitter Inmates - Dirty Water Gene Vincent - Lotta Lovin' Tragics - Mommi I'm a Misfit Big Boys - We Got Your Money Crazy Elephant - Gimme Gimme Good Lovin'

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Irma Thomas - It's Raining

#radio #community radio #college radio #wprb #punk #post punk #anarcho punk #hardcore punk #bubblegum pop #folk music #music #playlist #podcast #garage rock #manu chao #new music #bluegrass #doo wop

[fmdxjerome]

 Songs of life;; ft. Marie Seo, the ex.

I remember your smell when I touched you How you used to talk to me It all hurts so much now How could I waste so much time on someone who doesn’t even love me Even though all the time I spent, its just worthless Now I feel like I don’t even wanna live anymore Save me 

( listen )

lyrical breakdown under the cut. 

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GOODBYE. ( russ )

When Jerome first heard Marie cheated on him, he saw red. Everything he so holy believed in crumbled down like brittle stone in those hallways he called home. How could she. How dared she. After everything. After all the painful secrets he whispered in the night, the long talks about how much he wanted to be wanted, how she promised to want him for everything he is, to love him for it. From the eyes he used to be bullied for all the way down deep to the soul that so eagerly awaited the love of his life. He had hit Hugo with such force he almost broke his nose and he was ready to do so much more if he wasn’t pulled off of him. Pathetic. Hugo was pathetic to use her against him, as a trophy he discarded just to one up the offer of a lifetime. ( the detail he went into as to how she moaned his name, oh, Jerome could’ve broken him. ) But he was just complicit in the crime, an accomplice who was deserving of a punishment just not as brutal as reserved for the main culprit. So he walked after getting kicked out. Just deafening silence was there when she ran up to him, her eyes wide after he found out her little secret and removed the sterling necklace from the slender neck he used to whisper sweet nothings to before kissing the sweet skin. His fingers brushed over her skin as he took off the jewelry and he swore she felt cold to the touch but burned like thousand flames then. It was the way he told her she was a worthless whore that left that being worse than the bleeding Hugo had to endure. He said it like she was the ugliest person in the world. He said it like those two years meant nothing. He said it with so much venom lacing his gaze that even a snake wouldn’t come near him. Yet, the words fell so hollow and empty, void of whatever curled around his words usually when talking to her. And he left her then, necklace in hand and back turned to never see her again. 

What’s most painful is that he could’ve seen the warning signs. He remembered her friend Hyuna looking at him in pity, like he was another victim. He remembered her saying he was too cute for this when they were stuck in Marie’s apartment for awhile before running her fingers through his hair. He remembered how confused he was before he heard the door unlock and the familiar voice that was like an angels choir called out a “Hyuna, Romeo, I grabbed lunch on the way!” ( he remembered how fast he stood up from the couch to kiss her when she questioned him if something happened when she was gone all the while a smirk decorated her lips. he missed the way her eyes rolled when he told her he could never and that he loved her. hyuna just sighed. ) but he loved her so much that he was blinded by any voice that told him to stop. 

A few months later he found himself shouting into his phone when Marie called him and he broke. It didn’t help he was drunk ( which freddy warned khaled for but khaled just thought getting drunk with his friend might loosen him up a bit, get him less stressed. ) and so agitated with the voice on the other side not even apologizing. He asked her how many others she fucked. He asked her different things I won’t repeat because they are cruel, but he never asked her “How could you do this to me?” like he wanted to. She never got the chance to answer him for Khaled hit the phone out of his hand and they ended up fighting for a while before he eventually cried against his shoulder.

I believe the original song is really about a woman the singer, Russ, dated and that she was a prostitute, but, I felt the anger and disdain resonated.

Also I can see the “Paul” character resonating with Jerome, like in broad lines he is talking to himself. That he was just a puppy on a leash, that he loved but he was just so engrossed by her allure that he never realized how much of an awful person she was and, in the midst of rage, he would “leave” when he finds more women to have. He’s a loser for falling for her, just like the many others he was blissfully unaware of, and still is.

SOMETHING IN THE WAY. ( jorja smith ) 

After anger comes grief. He thought he could move on. He felt so powerful when he spat the insult in her face but he felt so weak when the car of his teacher brought him home. He still had hope, she was his lover but he left her. He packed his bags and flew to the other side of the world for her. He kicked her out and started a new life as Jerome Gauthier, the roué. Jerome Gauthier, the debauched. Jerome Gauthier, the.. broken. He couldn’t shake her and he hated himself for it. He hated crying in his bed at night, the loneliness of his bed magnified when the body of a beautiful girl grew absent after leaving his apartment. He hated not being able to enjoy his new lifestyle, to get acquainted with the feeling of being wanted solely because his words were smooth like woven silk and his body was like that of a Greek God. He hated missing her, missing the way her head laid upon his chest in the dead of night when he decided to stay over at her place, not noticing the way her nose scrunched up when he mumbled another loving word to her seemingly sleeping frame before falling in a slumber himself. Because he knows she’s living life, he isn’t as confident as he seems to be. He knew she wasn’t mourning the death of their relationship, matter of fact she might have even been under another guy the second he left. 

And he tries to bargain with himself now, good things don’t last. They follow the way of the wind, rush through his hair, tickle his skin, warm him up before the breeze leaves again. 

“’Cause only the sun in the summer lasts. / Even the sun doesn’t seem to last.”

But does he believe himself?

I FALL APART. ( post malone )

This song is one that fits the most with Jerome’s situation seeing as the raw pain feels very reminiscent of how he feels, how he felt. 

“She told me that I’m not enough.” It was never vocalized but to have chosen this particular suitor to deceit him with solidified a lot of his insecurities, not only physical ones, leaving him broken and scared. “She cut too deep, now she left me scarred.” He’s afraid to enter another relationship because of her, never having it hurt this bad. “And now I’m taking these shots like it’s Novocaine.” Drowning himself in alcohol was a coping mechanism, is a coping mechanism. An escape from the painful reminders that he does not have her, that she broke his heart, that another was better; a meaningless better than everything he did for her, gave her, in the two years of their relationship.

I don’t think I have to go into much detail about this one, the lyrics are very self explanatory. But just a fun fact. this was the song that I had on loop during the writings of “Feeling like I sold my soul.” and will continue to loop as I write “Devil in the form of a whore.”

EYES NOSE LIPS. ( tablo, taeyang )

He wants her to leave his life but she keeps returning to him and he knows she’ll never fade. Even when he escaped to Korea she was on his mind and when he finally felt happy for once she came crashing into his life again as he viewed her pretty face on a billboard in the heart of Seoul. He remembered the way his heart dropped all the way to his feet, shattering like fine china, whilst his eyes just stared so intensely out of the window of the car like he witnessed a car crash before the driver passed the ghost of his past. 

He wants to move on so badly but it feels like she keeps cutting the wings of time. The wound never heals, just when it seems like it is she shows up again, prettier than the day before and with more intent behind whatever she would do to him next. Even when the feeling of falling in love slowly coaxes him to sew the pieces back together she comes in with a pair of scissors to cut the threads, telling him “No. You remember me, still. Compare them to me. All of them.” and he does, comparing them all. Except- ah, Tokyo was an interesting time.

FUCK LOVE. ( xxxtentacion ft. trippie redd )

There had been a part of him that wanted her back, a twisted part yearning for the days when he still had her. “I want her to wish she still had me inside of her.” was something he whispered between heavy breathing whilst having sex with one of her friends ( which was a really stupid thing to do, say that. not to mention doing her friend. ah, that wasn’t the smartest decision he has made. ) and every time she popped up at industry events as the beautiful model she was, this tiny voice got him craving her. Yet, heartbreak was so much stronger. It gnawed at him like some kind of starving animal as he watched her laugh so agonizingly beautiful with friends before he dove away to the nearest bathroom just to regain his composure. Just to remain being Yuddy.

One time he cried in a bathroom, silent and lonely in the earlier days of his career. Someone caught him upon exiting, eyes kissed an irritated red as he made a beeline straight to the exit, leaving the event sooner than he had liked. 

BITTER FUCK. ( joji )

He changed because of her, he treats the girls he’s with badly because of her,  he feels lost because of her. People around him see him as what she made him out to be, an asshole behind the scenes. Someone people don’t want to grow close to, that is, if they don’t want to dig for something more. Brush the dirt away, get your hands dirty, scoop out the earth and find someone that loves such simple things like staying indoors or cooking for a loved one. Find someone who is passionate about so much more than just his music, just his craft. But that’s so deep down, who wants to take the effort? One did.

Maybe he shouldn’t blame her entirely, there is always a part of him that could just start over. That part is so small, though, and so terrifying.

EX CALLING. ( 6lack )

After Tokyo she kept pestering him, like she was daring him to do something about it. She played up the rumours of them dating with cryptic instagram posts and sharing songs of Jerome so casually with little hearts attached to it. She even left a message, one that almost made him drop his phone when he checked his twitter dm’s “Romeo, let’s talk again.” let’s talk again. It was in such contrast with the other messages he got from exes that he left behind in France who now wanted to holler at him as he grew famous, because hers had some unknown intent behind it. He doesn’t know why she does it. He doesn’t know why she feels the need to reach out to him in these ways. He knows she doesn’t miss him, she made that clear but what then? He tries to be dismissive, just like the laid back mood of the song, but it’s hard to.

Especially when her presence in his life is so crucial right now.

AYALA. ( xxxtentacion )

Reminiscent of the days, he regrets even meeting her in the first place. He could pinpoint what should’ve happened for him to never have ran into her. Stay back at the apartment as Freddy and Khaled went out to buy food in their hungover state, enroll a year or two later in school to focus on his music or even enroll into a rivaling film academy he’d been eyeing too, maybe never moving to Paris in the first place but staying put in the homely house of his grandfather in Laval, study something else, go somewhere else. All these things to never have to feel what he felt now. There was something toxic about the relationship they had, with him relying too much on her as he drowned her in affection whilst she saw other men during the brief parts they were separated. It was that infatuation that fed it, that building her up like she was a piece of marble and he spend years carving out every feature only to fall in love with it when it was complete. And it was that infatuation that ruined it, too.

DEMONS. ( joji )

Jerome is nearing his breaking point but he tries very hard to keep his cool. He’s behaving himself even though she keeps pushing him and pushing him to do something.  “Please just let me go.” alludes to me that he wants her to allow him the escape of moving on. He’s in love but can’t love because of her ( the demons are taking his heart ) she almost ruined things between Julien and him in an already fragile time. They fought because of her. And he just warns her to stop, to have her stop messing with his life and just have him escape her so he could be lonely but not alone, so he could love from a distance,  just. She needs to let him go, he’s seen enough.

THAT FEELING. ( russ )

“I was ready for you, you weren’t ready for me.” It’s a realization he needs to have. He was on a different level when it came to their relationship, he might have thought about asking her hand after graduating school making him the first to be engaged out of their friendship instead of Khaled, he might have suggested living together if she followed him to Korea to have him pursue his songwriter career, he might have seen a future for them. She might have seen him as security for no one would run around for her like he did, she might have liked the stark contrast between the loving words whispered by the man she promised to love versus the filthy profanities thrown at her by the men she promised to lust, she might have seen a future for them if her charades kept up. 

Drinking himself stupid he tried to numb himself from the pain of loving her, the future he saw before more meaningful due to his situation than just a simple “I love you, I could marry you.”  but as time went on and he met someone new, he started getting drunk for different reasons. “It’s not for you anymore.” Love, she doesn’t own a monopoly on it anymore. He drinks now out of fear ( her fault but not for her. ) it was a strange time when the reasons shifted but he hardly noticed until one fateful day. 

“That feeling, that doesn’t go away just did.” 

CARRY ON. ( xxxtentacion )

Take a trip back to around the ‘13s when she was still a fresh memory of his past, a memory that dug into his chest like sharpened knives, a memory that ruined so many pretty girls for him but a memory nonetheless. He struggled through the days, anger, sadness, desperation, all these emotions consuming the frail man that looked nothing but confident on the outside. The fact that he had to bottle it up was something that ruined him. Nobody could help him, understand him, comfort him - he had no shoulder to cry on. It was himself doing it, but she couldn’t influence his life anymore. If no one knew she could disappear in thin air like a burned up piece of paper as a hedonist formed from the sprawled out ashes that laid on the ground. 

Nights were so cold, but he carried on. Khaled said stupid things like “I saw Marie today, in the supermarket, she said hi to me.” which always granted him an elbow in the ribs from a concerned Freddy who would glance at the way Jerome’s face contort in a grimace on screen, like he just witnessed a death, but he carried on. He always carried on, even in the months when a pretty girl called Heera reminded him just too much of his ex and his mind was way too present in the past. Yoonah helped during that, granting him distractions when bodies felt too frightening to touch. It even prompted Frederic to cryptically try and ask if he was starting to move on, but his words fell silent when Khaled jumped in with a “She’s hotter than Marie, that Yoonah girl, that’s for sure.” and he noticed Jerome’s face fall just upon hearing her name. But he carried on.  

“How did you get here? I’m drunk and confused. I try to be patient with you.”

Return to the present. Or, 2015 till the present. She could’ve gone anywhere in the world, but she ended up in Seoul, South Korea. Never did he hear her wish to become a model even when her friend Hyuna visited and told her she could totally work in the same branch as her. She could’ve been anywhere on October 16th, but she ended up in Tokyo, Japan, lips pressed to an ear as a familiar nickname rolled off her tongue. Never did he think he could keep his resolve, and he almost didn’t, but he tried so hard. His patience ran thin with every word she spoke. And the hotel, ah, he broke. 

But he carried on.

WORLDSTAR MONEY. ( joji )

Self reflection. What he has done to himself isn’t normal. Changing himself to almost a 180 of what he used to be, speaking no words of his past with her, fearing love when opportunities are laid out for him to take. And he knows this. He has had many days were he’s been angry at himself for ruining things, for not letting himself indulge in certain aspects of his life for the sole reason that maybe it would work out, especially now. But he knows the second one would hurt so much more and with who had his affection, he’d loose so much.

“So tenderly you watch me burn.”

Marie seems to enjoy his suffering, and watches from the sidelines as he eats himself up over her. Paparazzi love the drama of BC’s second Casanova chasing down the pretty model and interpret it all wrongly, like a crowd around a fight that started 5 minutes ago. Fans watched him slide off the podium but not before screaming the lyrics that were inspired by her. Others observe nothing but a burning corpse wrapped in a handsome package.

“And I don’t want to die. No, I don’t want to die. I don’t want to die.” Though the original song views it in a more literal sense, I view it metaphorically. Jerome is speaking to his old self, how he used to be. He sees this new persona rise and seep into his regular routine, stomping down the caring and loving soul that resided back in France. But he doesn’t want it to die. Somewhere in the back of his mind he doesn’t want to loose himself even if it looks like he so desperately tries to, even if he tried to back in the day. He can’t kill it. He doesn’t want to kill it. That side still resides here too, in Seoul, sometimes slipping out when around people but never accidental when with Julien. His old self resides with Julien, genuine smiles lacing his pink lips as he handles everything that is him with the care he deserves. He doesn’t want to loose himself, and it scares him that he found someone that made him think like that. But somewhere in the depths of his mind, he baths in it too.

#Record Player. #Chansons de la vie. { Playlists } #Ma putain. Son amour. { Seo 'Marie' Yumi } #ooc. { 130 mood : CRYING } #{ firstly; yes i'm very emo about jerome all of a sudden don't jUDGE ME. } #{ secondly; yes the girl in the picture is Marie's faceclaim in my mind } #{ third; yes. it'll all be unraveled soon as to how much Marie fucks with Jerome. } #{ fourth; yeah she a bitch. /jerome in the back; A WHORE. me; ok romeo pls calm down } #{ fifth; the quote i used is from xxxtentacions song 'teeth'. } #{ the two last lines from it though. ah. dont read too much into it. for me its all metaphorically. }