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Gavin Reed X F.Reader - Wicked game (Part 1)

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Many thanks to @fangirl-ramblings 🖤 she has been beta reading for me 🌹

Summary: After a long time, Gavin Reed receives a message that evokes many memories in him. Memories that he would prefer to banish! He hates them, detests them! He almost succeeded in forgetting you, but then you try to enter his life again and he doesn't like that at all...

Warning: A little bit spicy, language

Gavin Reed X F.Reader - Wicked game (Part 1)

Gavin glanced at his watch and sighed with relief, knowing that in a few minutes he would finally be able to go home and enjoy a well-deserved rest. The numerous murder cases on his desk were piling up, and by now the detective was simply stressed out. Accordingly, his mood was not exactly the best. A week's vacation, out of Detroit? Yes, that would be just the right thing, but that was probably out of the question at the moment. Sighing, the young detective leaned back in his chair and put his feet up on his desk. He might as well spend the last few minutes relaxing. Picking up his phone, he searched through it for any new emails and messages. As usual, there was nothing interesting, except for one message that caught his attention. Suddenly, he threw the phone carelessly on his desk; he did not even want to open this message that had come to him a few days ago. Gavin was more of a loner; this was probably also due to the fact that he was not too popular among his colleagues, his arrogant nature also playing a big role In this. He was rude, sarcastic and a big asshole. "Fuck..." He yawned, and feeling the tiredness overtaking him, Gavin rose from his seat, grabbing his leather jacket. He walked toward the exit and thought about whether he should really go straight home? Perhaps he should let the evening fade away in a different way? Maybe he would find a nice companion or two with whom he would spend the night? Gavin actually played with this thought, but by the time he had gotten into his car and started the motor, this idea had vanished. For something constantly prevented him from getting involved with a woman, even if it was only for one night. Gavin growled in annoyance as she crept back into his mind. He had to concentrate on something else. ''Some music should work...'' he muttered softly to himself and turned on the radio. At first, Gavin could actually relax, but as quickly as he had pushed it out of his mind, it returned again and that was just because of that damn song which was playing right now. It was an old song, but this very song reminded him of his common past with this woman. ''Fuck...'' Why couldn't he just forget about her? Why wouldn't she leave him alone! Gavin looked at the piece of jewelry, on his left ring finger, and again let a discontented growl slide across his lips. The truth was, he didn't want any other woman. All he wanted was Y/N. Since she had left him, there had been a huge void in his life and no woman had ever managed to fill that void. There had been enough one night stands, but what good did that do him in retrospect? And had he never desired any of those women the way he had desired Y/N.... he still craved her like a madman. The young detective didn't even notice as he pushed the gas pedal harder and harder, driving well over the speed limit through the streets of Detroit. Gavin thought about his shared past with Y/N. They had dreams, had gotten along well, loved each other, and were going to get married! Damn and how he had loved her! And he still loved her. Deep inside, he knew that. He kept trying to tell himself that he hated her for just leaving him;that she had just left without trying to talk to him, without any explanation on her part, but he couldn't... as much as he tried, he failed again and again. After all, he couldn't even manage to get rid of that damn ring on his finger! He should hate her, for God's sake! She had ripped his heart out of his chest and thrown it to the ground. Stomping on it, she had left him behind. Why had she done that? What had he done wrong? Was it up to him? Had he made mistakes without realizing it? Of course, there had been disagreements from time to time, but never had they parted in a loud and dramatic argument with door slamming or the like. To this day, Gavin didn't know if Y/N had betrayed him with another man. Finally arrived at home, he threw the house keys into the small bowl, which stood on the side table in the hallway. The first thing he did before getting rid of his jacket and shoes was to get himself an ice-cold beer. That was exactly what he needed. Gavin's interior was rather plain, but there were rare collectibles in many corners. Among them were golden records of Elvis and some merchandise of movies. He just liked the old classics. Gavin leaned against the kitchen counter as he sipped his iced beer. Y/N was spooking through his mind again... ''Fuck!" That had only caused something to stir in his pants and now he slammed his beer down on the counter in a rather foul mood and ran to the bathroom. So much time had passed and yet this woman still managed to make his head turn crazy. Gavin stripped off his clothes, tossed them carelessly into a corner, and stepped into the shower. First, he ran cold water, gasping a little in shock as the cold water wetted his heated skin, but it was just what he needed. Staring at the blue tiles in front of him, Gavin sighed softly and leaned his arms against them. He couldn't help but think about her. Day and night,it had never been any different. He could still remember how it had been in the beginning of their relationship. Gavin hadn't been able to keep his hands off her...

Three years ago....

It was a hot summer night. Gavin and Y/N had arranged to meet at her place for dinner. She was standing in the kitchen, while Gavin had taken a seat at the dining room, watching her from there and smirking… or rather, he admired her. His gaze slid over her entire body. She was beautiful and desirable. Her tight skirt, emphasized her wonderful butt and her legs were more than seductive. At the sight of her, the young man became quite hot. How long would he have to wait for her? Gavin rose from his seat and walked towards the young woman, with an mischievous smile. Y/N didn't notice him until she felt his strong arms wrapped around her hips. ''Mhm, smells more than seductive...'' Gavin purred into her ear, which made Y/N shiver pleasantly. She really didn't expect this gesture. ''Gavin?'' ''I didn't scare you, did I?" he asked, smirking seductively. But from the looks of it, and he could literally feel it, her heart seemed to be beating wildly against her chest. But also his was beating faster. This woman was the purest temptation. Y/N closed her eyes as he pushed her long hair aside, to caress her delicate neck. Y/N's skin was incredibly soft and Gavin snuggled even closer to her, causing the young woman to support herself against the counter. Gavin took in her delicate, feminine scent and it clouded his senses. ''Ahh... Y/N...'' He gasped hoarsely in her ear, nuzzling his hips against her firm ass, and that made the young woman moan. ''Gavin...'' She seemed caught off guard and made it seem like she didn't know how to handle this situation. But Gavin knew from the way he had met her, she really didn't know. She was so innocent and that made her so damn desirable and that didn't stop Gavin even more from continuing to tease her. ''You're so beautiful... so sexy...'' He gently bit her earlobe and purred like a cat against her ear and Y/N, was completely addicted to him and she couldn't help it. The young woman did not know how to deal with this situation. She felt a bit overwhelmed, since this was the first time that a man was so close to her. Well, Gavin had flirted with her and kissed her time and time again. But this was the first time he had been this close to her. ''You're making me crazy, sweetheart,'' he whispered to her, gently biting her neck, then gently running his tongue over the spot. His left hand found its way to her thigh and he pushed the fabric of her skirt up her skin. ''Gavin!"

The young man gently turned her to face him, lifting her chin as he saw her shy gaze resting on the floor. Looking downwards to where she was looking, he saw her chest rise and fall in a quick beat; her breasts stretching the white fabric of her blouse. Gavin almost choked at the sight. He then looked into her beautiful eyes, which looked at him insecurely, yet full of desire. Gavin caressed her delicate cheeks, which seemed to glow in shame. ''Are you afraid, Y/N?" He asked because if she was unsure, or afraid of this big step, he would not force her to do anything. The worry was clearly written on his face but Y/N smiled at him, as she placed her delicate hands on his strong chest. ''No... I'm just... inexperienced, Gavin,'' she admitted softly, even though it made her a little uncomfortable. After all, she was twenty-five and still a virgin. Gavin, however, just grinned. Yes, he had thought so but that was not a big deal for the detective. ''Don't worry...'' Gavin whispered, lifting her arm to rest it on his shoulder. Then he pressed her hips firmly against his; Y/N could certainly already feel his hard manhood nestling against her. ''I'll be gentle.'' But suddenly, he saw tears shimmering in her eyes. What Gavin didn't know was that she was just happy at the moment and he completely misread her reaction. Was she uncomfortable? Was he pressuring her? That had not been his intention. Gavin gently put his hands to her cheeks. ''Shhh, hey... Look at me.'' Y/N looked at him and blinked away her tears. Gavin looked at her with genuine concern. ''I didn't mean to push you.'' Y/N smiled at him and that relieved the young man immensely. Now he also smiled and gently kissed her tender lips. ''You didn't, Gavin. I like it...your little games. I enjoy it.'' Her voicesuddenly gave off an erotic undertone and when Gavin heard this, he gave her a seductive smile. She had no idea what he was able to do with her. He leaned down, kissed the tears from her cheeks, following the wet trail to her throat. He heard her gasp in pleasure as he kissed her passionately, and at the same time, he opened her white blouse, slowly pulling it over her arms. In doing so, Gavin went very slowly and gently to increase the young woman's pleasure. It hadn't taken two minutes for them both to make their way into her bedroom. Before Y/N knew it, she was lying on her soft sheets with Gavin bent over her. She saw the fire in his eyes that blazed for her. It was an untamed fire and he wanted her to feed his desire. Gavin reached with both hands into her hair, holding onto it gently. At the same time, he slid his tongue over her soft lips until Y/N opened them, returning his kiss. They both gasped in pleasure and Y/N opened her eyes, pausing in what she was doing and that didn't escape Gavin's attention. He opened his eyes, looking at her face. She still seemed unsure. ''Do you want me to stop? But the young woman shook her head. ''No, Gavin. I want to feel you. Deep inside me...''

Present day

Gavin turned off the water and sighed heavily, running his hands through his dark brown hair and brushing back the wet strands. He sighed softly as he ran his hand over his face, preferring to do nothing but make himself comfortable on the sofa, watching a good movie on TV. Maybe that would finally bring him his peace. Gavin stepped out of the shower, grabbing a clean towel and used it to dry off his well-toned body before heading to his bedroom and throwing on a black shirt and a pair of gray sweatpants. Gavin let his gaze slide over his bedroom and it was time to put it in order. He hated disorder. Yes, he really hated it, but due to his work he often didn't get a chance to tidy and clean everything the way he would like. But for nothing in the world would he bring an android home to do the housework for him. He would rather die into his own garbage. While the young detective was bringing his bedroom up to standard, the doorbell rang about twenty minutes later. Sighing heavily, he rolled his eyes. ''Everyone is really getting on my nerves today,'' he grumbled to himself in a bad mood. Whoever that was, he would send them away. With quick steps Gavin made his way to the door and he could hardly wait to see the stupid face of the person, when he would tell him to get the fuck out of here. He literally tore open the door. ''The fuck is wrong...'' He immediately fell silent when he saw who was standing at his door. His eyes just stared at the person and Gavin didn't even manage to get a word past his lips. ''Hey, Gavin...'' Y/N was standing in front of him, and God knows Gavin hadn't expected that. But Gavin managed to find his voice again and he leaned against the door frame, crossing his arms in each other. ''What a surprise. What are you doing here?'' His eyes looked at her icily, while Y/N's eyes were lined with regret. It had not been easy for her to take this step and drive here; back to Detroit and back to Gavin to deliver him an explanation for her disappearance. ''May... may I come in?'' ''No'', Gavin replied coldly. He was so angry with her and actually didn't feel like listening to her either. What else did she want from him? Had she been gripped by a guilty conscience and had come here to soothe it? As if it were that simple! ''Gavin, I want to talk to you. Please...'' ''Oh, you want to talk?" Gavin pushed himself off the door frame and walked towards the young woman. He was quite a bit taller than her and as he stood in front of her, he looked down at her. As Gavin looked into her eyes, he saw that she deeply regretted something, but that would not soften him. Her sweet doe eyes would not bring him to his knees. He wasn't an idiot. She had used him once before, and he wouldn't let herself be used a second time. ''After all these fucking years, you come driving up here, thinking you need to talk to me? What do you want to talk to me about, Y/N? Huh?! Wasn't it enough of an answer for you that I ignored your mails? Are you that slow on the uptake?!' His tone was sharp and Y/N had to swallow. She knew Gavin would react that way. He was still the hothead she had come to know. ''Gavin, I-I'm sorry...'' The detective kept his distance from her and now his anger was unstoppable. He was simply stunned by her impudence! She just come here, thinking she would fix anything? With an apology? ''So, you think you can just come here? Apologize and then expect me to forgive you? After all these years, by just leaving me alone? I didn't even know where you were or who you ran off with!'' ''I didn't run off with anyone, Gavin!'' ''Stop lying!" he snapped at her loudly, causing the young woman to flinch. ''And get off my fucking property! Do you understand? I never want to see you again, Y/N!''

"That's the problem, Gavin! You don't listen to anyone, you don't give anyone a chance to justify themselves!'' she replied a little louder now. ''I know I fucked up, okay? But I'm here to talk about it! I don't want to talk my way out of it, but I want to tell you that I made a big mistake and that you detest me for it, I can understand! But please, listen to me! Even if it's only five minutes! Please!" Gavin, however, just shook his head and went back into his house. He slammed the door loudly behind him and just left the young woman standing outside. He didn't want to hear anything! She should get out of his life! She had already done that once. Gavin was growling deep and swallowing hard, his heart hammering wildly against his chest. Suddenly, he swept the bowl off the table that stood in the hallway and cursed loudly. ''FUCK! Why had she come back into his life? No! He wouldn't listen to her! He would only regret it! ''GO TO HELL, Y/N!" he shouted loudly to her and these words hit the young woman very hard. But could she also completely understand his anger. She had just left, broken up with him via text message and he had every reason to hate her. But Y/N owed him an explanation and she hadn't driven all the way out here to leave now. And she wouldn't. She wouldn't wait until Gavin would be ready to listened to her. She didn't expect him to forgive her, because he certainly wouldn't. Y/N knew Gavin very well, and she knew that it was not in his nature to forgive another person for his mistakes. That was just the way he was.

Gavin saw her standing in his front yard from the living room and he could only scoff at that. ''Is she fucking serious?!''

She wasn't going to soften him up with that. For him, she could to stand out there all night freezing her pretty ass off! The young detective took a sip of his beer, and tried convulsively to keep his eyes on the TV. But his eyes kept wandering to Y/N, who was standing there quietly. Heavily annoyed, the detective rolled his eyes. Finally, not wanting to be able to see her anymore, he turned off the television and left the living room. She's acting like a crazy person! She couldn't be that serious! Y/N had had her chance and she had thrown it away. What had he done wrong? Hadn't he always been there for her? All right, he had put a lot of effort into his career to get to where he was now. But if he was honest, he had never blamed himself. He had only ever been angry with her. It suddenly started thundering and it let out such a loud thud that even Gavin winced. ''Oh, shit...'' The water literally shot down from the sky. The young detective looked out the kitchen window and saw the rain pouring down. ''Well, sorry, sweetheart! I guess you should have stayed home!'' He grinned in amusement, imagining how wet she must be now,but she had probably already gotten into her car and driven away. Thinking how she must have run to her car, he laughed in amusement. ''Serves her right. I would still have let the lightning strike!'' But as he walked back into the living room, his laughter faded. Y/N had not moved from the spot. Gavin sighed heavily, and somehow, in retrospect, he felt sorry for having made fun of her just a few minutes ago. He bit his lower lip and looked down at the floor. He wasn't really getting soft now, was he? ''Fuck..." Gavin walked to the front door and opened it. He just couldn't bring himself to leave her out in the rain. Y/N turned to him when she heard the door open and she cautiously rose from her spot. ''Come on in, Y/N...''

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