Lemme razzle ur dazzle โจ
Treat me ~ Tip Me ~ More of me
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Vent post ahead that may change your view on me and that may sound dramatic (NOT DIRECTED AT ANYONE, THIS IS JUST IN GENERAL) Mostly just to get out my feelings. I only ask that if you look, to be kind and understanding and patient. Also the tags are silly and id appreciate if you read em. id appreciate if you didnt ask me anything on it
I feel toxic sometimes because i can get so jealous i borderline gatekeep things and I always feel so bad because its never intentional but then I end up hating myself because I know its unhealthy and irrational but I cant help it, and I know im so lucky and have a lot in many senses of the word, but at times it feels like they can be taking everything, because when I like someone or something, they tend to matter a fuck-ton to me. Im sorry to anyone ive lashed out at a bit for them wanting what I have, I really am. Its not coming from a place of hostility, rather a place of trauma responses and hyperfixation that stem from my adhd and autism but like when I try something and it goes great, and then someone else is like "OOH thats awesome I wanna do that too" It feels almost like when Im finally happy or excited or proud to have something, someone comes and takes it. Usually Ill play it off as a joke, but in reality, its complete honesty that im trying to soften so I dont upset anyone, especially when its over fiction or a person, because I do NOT own them and I know that, but it bothers me when someone swoops in to do the exact same things or even one-up especially when its really soon after me, and since my self worth is already abysmal, it just makes me feel worse, like I should be lucky to have what I do to begin with, but I feel the need to hold it close to me and protect it so I dont lose things that make me really happy.
Recently Ive even started reverse gatekeeping in response to others, where ill just tell myself I cant or dont deserve to have anything special because I'm not, and only others can enjoy this. But thats why people making me ship content makes me so happy. Its dumb to get jealous over others selfshipping with a character I like. Its dumb to get upset over someone I know copying or taking heavy inspiration from one of my ideas. Its dumb to get possessive over someone else trying to befriend my new awesome friends or wife/wives. I rarely selfship anymore due to my reverse gatekeeping and instead serve the others who simp or enjoy content. I provide since I feel I cant take. It makes me happy and distracts me. But the moment someone else does something similar to what is my toxic coping mechanism for my toxic coping mechanism, it only hurts worse. Thats why sometimes, for example, I get a bit snappy when someone else provides gummybunny (that and also shipping jealousy sometimes). Thats why I get snappy when I make a friend someone else super cool and then another person comes in and wants to befriend them (No darken, this wasnt directed at you, its happened more than once with more than one person but I know how you tend to assume). I LOVE giving but I hate sharing, because all my life whenever I shared, I lost something.
Introduce a friend to a friend? They leave me behind for eachother. Let someone wear my fitbit because they wanted to feel "rich"? It got stolen. Give money to someone in a "rough spot" who promised to repay me somehow? Never saw them again. I was always so trusting and understanding, and I always made excuses for others. Always so naive and gullible. So much so, in fact, that in elementary I kept letting my bullies pretend to be my friends when they claimed they changed, and let them destroy any ounce of worth I had whatsoever. Things that make me happy I CHERISH because of all the things ive lost and all my experiences. Ive never been hit, not once, but the abuse all my life came emotionally and mentally, and I only recently realized through therapy. Now its hard to trust people in certain situations. Sorry for my probably hard to follow and melodramatic rant.
sorry im dumb haha
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i hope steven lim knows that he almost single-handedly healed my relationship with food
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iโve only had chinzhilla for a day and a half but if anything happened to them i would kill everyone in this room and then myself
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Adoniram silently passes a plate of peanut butter and jelly sandwich to Micah . โก
When Micah was a child , Phoebus would often make peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for them , both in their good and bad days . The plate would usually have a sticky note telling them to have a nice day with a heart that has a smiley face or there'd be a shiny rock for them to hold onto to protect them throughout the day . Micah always thought that it would be their foster parents or siblings doing it , even though they would occasionally wonder over how would some of their families know about their enjoyment in this food when they had never seen them eat one before . After Micah met Adoniram and learnt about his shared love in the peanut butter and jelly sandwiches , they would learn how to make them together and give the food to each other rather than making the sandwiches for themselves . From the gesture that Phoebus would do for Micah , they are the reason why Micah grew to dearly love these kind of sandwiches so much . It has only made them feel safe and happy .
Micah's head perks up in joy at the familiar food given from Adoniram . It is seven o'clock in the morning as the pair is at the Break Beyond Force's Kaileidom Division , getting ready for a new day together . Sitting on bed , legs criss crossed , Micah makes a grabbing hand motion and takes the plate , beaming most brightly . " Thank you so much , Adoni ! " Micah bites onto their sandwich and hums out of delight at the sweetness mixed with the creamy butter . While they chew onto their breakfast , they watch Adoniram sit on a chair and turning on their laptop . Micah grins behind their sandwich at a forming idea and gets off of the bed so they can take a seat on Adoniram's lap , facing the opposite way . " Much better ! " they giggle , taking another happy bite of their food and nuzzling Adoniram's cheek . From the comfort of their food and the position , they find themself feeling smaller and they cling onto Adoniram after they finish their meal . " I love you so much , " they mumble , their face pressed against the crook of his neck , gently held , loved .
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5th Anniversary Diasomnia Crumbs!
OKAYY FIRST OFF THE GROOVY ๐ญ๐ญโจ๐๐๐๐ CROWLEY AT THE CENTER YAAAAASSS!!!! YANA TOBOSO IS VERY YASASHI NO DE FOR DRAWING HIM AS THE FOCAL POINT WUAIDYOAHKH๐ฃ๏ธ๐ฃ๏ธ๐ฃ๏ธโ๐ปโ๐ปโจ๐๐๐๐๐ป๐๐ป๐๐ป
Also WITH THE RAMSHACKLE GHOSTS... I was prepared that they might not be included in this groovy but they're here!! ๐ญ๐โจ They're here and happy with all the faculty members!! I'm!!! I LOVE THIS ARTSTYLY BECAUSE IT MAKES EVERYONE LOOKS SO SOFT,,, Goodbye,,, Yuu found family group picture finally happened,,, I can die in peace ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐ป๐๐ป๐๐๐๐๐
ALSO Vargas trying to strike his best pose that highlights his flexed muscles brilliantly DESPITE being at the corner of the group pic is everything, PEAK CHARACTER COMPOSITION, he looks so content that hes not even aware that Trein is just so done at him, he barely even smiled lol ๐คฃ
Faculty teachers are so silly this is everything I've ever wanted ๐ญ๐๐๐๐๐๐
I'd like to remind that in 4th Anniversary, the feast happened as per Crowley's curtesy ๐ฅบ The fact that the catering of the party is focused on meat and Grim is waving a barbecue is a nod to that ๐ญ๐๐ปโจ
Also love how Crowleywas in charge of the 4th Anniversary because the 4th year is the last year you'll get while studying in NRC!! So it feels like he's sending us off to an unknown realm or whatever because we're out of candidates to guess who'll be the groovy for 5th Anniversary XD (plspslpslsmeleanoranddawnandbaulcmoncomnonnnkahs)
Not these bunch having a group pic again halfkwhdkhsj Their poses are so in character XD Of course Vil is still flawless even at the back and Malleus has the most normal pose because he's not accustomed to cameras ๐ฅบโจโจ
Hopefully I'm wrong, but I really do hope they do an animated pv for 4th Anniversary as well and not just a call back video for the released cards... ๐ญ๐ญ
EYESHADOW FLAWLESS EYELINER ON FLEEK LIP GLOSS STUNNING THAT CLASSIC SMIRK WITH FURROWED EYEBROWS THAT LOOKS LESS LIKE A SMILE AKDHKSHD He is perfection He does no wrong ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐๐
OKAYY NGLL i missed seeing new art of Malleus... I'm so glad he's back ๐ญ๐ญ and beautiful than ever ๐ญ๐๐ป๐๐ป
I love how they drew his lips here!! โจโจ๐๐
I'm so excited for this to be translated actually ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐ปโจโจ I love more silly stuff from TWST lol
Laughing at this cover though,,, NOT EVERYONE BEING GIVEN TUNA CANS FROM GRIM,,, OMG
Are we finally having the tuna can lore and why its Grim's favourite food this year?? OMGONGDKS๐ญ๐ญ
theyve been highlighting that nowadays... I feel like tuna cans will never be the same once Book7 or 8 even leaks something about Grim ๐ญ๐ญ
Babes wake up, new diasomnia family photo just dropped โผ๏ธโผ๏ธ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐๐๐
Lilia is so adorable kahdkhwd Not him holding a can upside down ๐ญ๐๐ป๐๐๐ never stop being silly old man,,, ๐ฅบ๐ฅบ ๐๐
His :3 is my everything,,, ๐๐๐๐ป๐๐ป๐๐โจโจโจ
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Seventeen as your boyfriend | S.Coups
The protective kind, especially in public
Always got his arm around you to keep you close, holds your hand to cross the road, makes you walk on the inner side of the sidewalk
You swear he gets a few inches taller when someone accidentally bumps into you or acts rude toward you, he's in full confrontation mode
Will order you food out of the blue just to make sure you have something to eat
At some point, you start to send him pics of you eating or Facetime during meals to try to make him stop so you don't need to throw away any more food
If you need to take any medications, he will get a reminder on his phone so he can make sure you never forget to take them
Scolds you to get a check-up with a doctor every six months
He's just so soft and completely whipped for you
He's got a little twinkle in his eyes anytime he looks at you
He's so whipped he will cry laugh at your jokes even when they are mid
The boys tease him so much because of it but he low-key doesn't care (will start bickering tho)
His love language is gift-giving, but also playfully fighting
Will sneak behind you and lift you by the waist while you are inattentive
Jumps on top of you in bed to wake you up
Randomly bites you
If you need anything, all you gotta do is ask, his card is READY
He WILL take offense if you don't let him pay
"You don't love me anymore??"
"That's not what I said"
"That's what I heard" and it's all just because of some cheap popsicle you bought because you suddenly craved it.
Date nights are almost always at some expensive place, he loves to dress up for you, and seeing you in the new dress he got you
By the way, boy has some bomb taste for clothes, you just give up and let him choose them for you at some point
He's an absolute baby in private
Loves to get babied by you, like breakfast in bed or just snuggling with him before sleep
Does baby talk but WILL NOT admit to it
POUTING 24/7
Will act cute to get his way with you so be prepared (ur gonna fail so just act hard to get at least u know)
When he's on tour or at some schedule late at night he will take some time to call you so his voice is the last thing you hear before falling asleep
Sometimes he falls asleep first and you just don't have the heart to hang up on him so you just lay there watching the ceiling and hearing him breathe โจ๐ฅบ๐ค
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2023 ยฉ chanswifey โ do not repost or translate
author's note: Yay I'm back! I missed this blog, I definitely need to get the hang of it again so please be kind lol. If you like this it would mean the world to me if you liked and reblogged, I'm also always up to hearing feedback. โค๏ธ
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Sunnyโs letters are horrible sad and cute but they really went:
Phil: This is a serious matter, please follow my instructions laid out below.
Tallulah: just give me one chance please ๐ฅบ๐๐๐๐น i promise i can be a good little sister
Chayanne: HIIIIIIIIIIII I MISSED U!!!!!! COME TO MY PAS PARTY!!!!!! ๐๐ฅฐ๐ MAKE ALL THE FOOD U WANT!!!! โจ๐คฉ
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just wanna say sana all may ka late night talks
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dinner dates ! jjk x reader series pt .1
by @cinnamon-girl-writes
featuring: yuuji, gojo, megumi, inumaki
yuuji itadori:
yuuji would defintely take you to a hibachi grill
youโre wearing a baby pink sundress with cherry blossoms on it and heโs wearing a white button down shirt and black slacks cause he wanted to dress up for his girl !!
he thinks itโs really cool how they cook the food in front of you and he likes the entertainment
definetly orders a bunch of other dishes for you guys to share (boy where tf are you getting that money from???)
actually. he saved up all his money so he can take you out for a really nice dinner ๐ฅบ he loves you so much and he just wants you to feel special and beautiful
he orders pork gyoza and tempura shrimp for you guys to share ๐
if itโs your birthday yuuji would ABSOLUTELY tell the cook and have the restaurant sing you happy birthday
then he records it and posts it on his instagram story because heโs just so proud of his girl ๐
if the restaurant has a koi pond he will absolutely LOVE it
afterwards 90% of his camera roll will be pictures of the fish (the other 10% is you)
would be like โbabe theyโre so pretty ๐โ and yโall would spend like twenty minutes just looking at the fish
not that you mind because you love to see your sunshine boy happy and you like the fish too
he would definetly toss coins in the pond with you and be like โbabe letโs make a wish to be together forever at the same time ๐ฅฐโ
you would do it of course and he would be over the moon
makes you pose by the fountain and takes pictures of you because his girl is just so pretty, how could he not?? :)
afterwards you guys go get dessert at a cute lil cafe and he gushes about how much he loves you <333
gojo satoru:
you know this man would take you to the most fancy expensive restaurant just because he can
he forgot to tell you so one night at six thirty heโs just like get ready ๐ and youโre like wtf
he orders a taxi (read: nanami) because he canโt drive :/
when you get there there he tells the waiter the name and yโall go sit down at a private table in the back of the restaurant with a really pretty view of the city
the waiter brings out a bottle of red wine and pours it for you while you and satoru chat
when i tell you that he orders so much sushi-
the waiters have brought out a platter of (probably) every type of sushi that the restaurant serves
also his favorite type of sushi roll is shrimp tempura roll I donโt make the rules
he sees a plate of onigiri in front of him and heโs like โaww inumaki ๐ฅบโ
please he loves his students so much itโs so sweet
you both eat a bunch of it until youโre feeling super full
then heโs like โokay babe what do you want to order??โ
and youโre like ๐what
heโs like โbaby that was just the hors d'oeuvres ๐ฃโ
he makes you order a main dish because โitโs okay youโll be hungry again ๐โ
you order some miso ramen and he gets a steak
itโs actually really food and youโre glad you had weremโt too full for it
satoru definetly feeds you some of his food from across the table
afterwards, the two of you walk around the streets for a little bit and get some matcha ice cream to finish the night off โจ
megumi fushiguro:
i think that, instead of a restaurant, megumi takes you around the city for street food because youโve never really explored the city before
itโs absolutely lovely; the weather is nice, itโs not too busy, and it distracts the two of you from being jujutsu sorcerers
you find a street vendor that sells korokke so thatโs what you eat first
you see a souvenir shop down the street, so you decide to go in there and get some cute little gifts for your friends ๐
megumi finds a silly pair of tourist sunglasses that he thinks itadori will like and you get nobara a blue scarf decorated with little animals
as you exit the shop, you start to feel hungry again so the two of you decide on yakisoba and itโs delicious ๐
the two of you walk for a while together, hand in hand until you see a stand that sells mochi
you insist to megumi that you have to bring some back for gojo: โcome on megs, he would love it! especially from youโ โhe can buy his own food ๐โ
of course you eventually convince him and gojo loved the sentiment (and the food)
you guys end the night back in his room, cuddling and watching a movie ๐
toge inumaki:
okay so inumaki totally takes you to one of those cute animal restaurants
iโm gonna go with he takes you to a pig cafe <3 and omg theyโre so adorable!!
he bought you guys matching hoodies when you started dating so yโall are wearing those ๐ฅบ
also i headcanon that inumaki has a really cute instagram that he keeps up with so of course heโd take you to a spot where he could take lots of pictures of his girl <3 and baby pigs ofc
you guys order ramen and sushi and the food is really good! :)
the restaurant has a huge glass wall so you get a really pretty view of the mountains
the vibe in the restaurant is also really nice, thereโs chill ambient music playing in the background which reminds you of him ๐ฅบ
he thinks you look so cute (and you do ofc)
he canโt really talk about it with you because of his technique so he has his notes app open to type you messages ๐ฅบ
he gives you so many forehead and palm kisses so that he makes sure you know how much he loves you ๐ฅบ poor boy it absolutely whipped for you
speaking of being whipped, he also tediously makes sure youโve eaten enough and that youโre liking our foodย
heโll 100% share his food with you either way, he loves the feeling that heโs taking care of youย
afterwards you guys go get boba tea before you go back to jujutsu high and he walks you back to your room to kiss you goodnight ๐ฅบ
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