Our world is becoming increasingly filled with distraction. Information moves faster, louder, and brighter than ever before. Entertainment, social media, and marketing have never been so prevalent. They beg for our attention and our focus. In so doing, our minds are diverted from more important work.
However, these distractions are easy to notice. After all, the battle plays out in front of us each day.
Far more detrimental to our lives are the subtle distractions that quietly surround us. They are not announced with blinking lights or beeping sounds. In fact, they have become so commonplace and ever-present, we hardly even notice their existence. But these distractions take residence in our mind and wreak havoc on our pursuits. And in the end, it keeps us from living our lives to its greatest potential.
Hey, if you’re chronically ill/disabled, and especially if your illness is invisible, don’t forget: you’re fighting for you. Your priority is taking care of yourself. It’s hard when people don’t believe you, or don’t understand your symptoms. It’s tempting to focus on convincing them that your suffering is real. But you have limited energy, and if you spend it all on other peoples’ needs you’ll run out before you can take care of yourself. Their lack of understanding or empathy is their own problem. Sometimes convincing people is part of taking care of yourself - you need to convince your doctor that you’re sick, your work/school you need accommodations, sometimes your guardian to take you to appointments, etc. But please, remember that convincing people you need support is not your goal, it’s a step towards reaching your goal. Your goal is to make sure that you’re ok. When people don’t believe you, it’s frustrating, unfair, hurtful. But if you focus on that you will never get to where you need to be. Focus on what you need, and how to get it. You only need people to believe you if they hold authority over the resources you need. At the end of the day, you know what you feel is real, and you know what you need. That is your focus. Don’t let anyone take your focus away from you.
Positive affirmations to help with this:
People can only meet you as deeply as they’ve met themselves.
I am at peace because I know I’m on the right path.
My body is my responsibility, and I do what’s best for me.
I know where my energy needs to go and I put it there.
I am learning the beauty that comes with taking care of myself.
Growth is not equated to situations that bring conflict or stress, I can drop things that aren’t serving me.
The world doesn’t shrink to their size just because they lack the depth to understand it.
I don’t expect peace from people who are at war with themselves.
I respect my own needs.
I am winning my battles even if not everyone can see my scars.
Workout was on my lunch break. 5 min warm up. 3 % incline. 1 min dumbells hold, 1 min walk 3 mph, 1 min jog 5 mph, 1 min walk 3 mph. At about 20 min, I cut the interval on the other things to 45 sec, kept the jog at 1 min. My only complaint was I should have worn a better bra.
Got stressed in the afternoon, pivoted per my last post. Tried to do relaxing things in the evening because my mind was askew.
Made a nice dinner of cube steak in gravy, radishes & potatoes, & roasted broccoli.
Continued reading the Jenanette McCurdy book. It is a good read for me as it touches on alot of stuff that I have dealt with:
Enmeshed relationships
Dysfunctional parenting
Hoarderism
People pleasing
Alcoholism
Disordered eating
Excessive dieting
I skipped the bar and went to bed instead. I got up around 5.
So! I am awake, & working early which means I will be off early.
Happy Halloween! I feel like I mentally skipped Halloween because of the snow. I am having trouble wanting to leave, especially after crap days at work.
My fav new morning tea is apparently not available at walmart. I guess Amazon for the win, but I hate sending more money to them. Ugg.