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BAEK JAEYOON is the MAIN DANCER AND LEAD VOCAL of QUICKSILVER under GOLD STAR MEDIA. He was born on OCTOBER 30, 1997. He looks a little like LEE MINHO (LEE KNOW) OF STRAY KIDS.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: lee minho (lee know), stray kids
legal name: baek jaeyoon
stage name: -
pronouns: he/him
birth date: october 30, 1997
hometown: seoul, south korea
position: main dancer & lead vocal of quicksilver
claims: n/a
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: depression, self harm, self image struggles.
baek seulki found out she was pregnant a week before she turned twenty-three. with no actual relationship to support her – the father of her child being a casual hook up she’d been with once or twice – and her parents quick to disown her for getting a baby before she got a husband, the woman had no other option but to do it all on her own. it was difficult at first having to coincide being very pregnant with her job as a seamstress for a theatre company, but she pulled through, being seen around the theatre using her belly as support for her sewing kit. what was originally just an extended part of her became a baby boy who she carried around with her, being fed while the woman attempted to fix someone’s costume.
jaeyoon was raised around actors. most of them were good people, always willing to take the burden of looking after him off his mother’s shoulders whenever she was busier with something else. tiny toddler feet hitting the stage excitedly would echo around the theatre together with the laughter of the troupe that found oh so much amusement at the sight of the child who seemed to be interested in everything he could look at and touch. wherever his mother went, the boy was literally carried on her back – be that the fabric store or the house of the few ladies around the neighborhood who hired his mother to do minor fixes in their clothes, providing her with the extra money she needed in order to take care of herself and her baby.
one thing about being around the theatre most of the time was that it made one fall in love with it. it couldn’t have been different for jaeyoon. from the moment he could recall, he had been enchanted by what the theatre could offer. he would watch plays and musicals that happened at the place his mother worked for – as well as a couple of ballets through the years – and even as young as he was, the boy had known he belonged on stage. he felt the pull from an early age, that desperate need to be up there, entertaining an audience, playing the part of someone else and being able to create and offer people a reality they could fall into for a couple of hours.
while seulki could not afford to put jaeyoon in drama classes, when she expressed his interest, the people she worked with insisted on financing them for him. that was, until his mother remarried, and his step-father had a job that made it possible for them to afford things they couldn’t in the past, such as living in an apartment with more than a single bedroom, or buying new clothes instead of seulki having to sew them ones from scratch with leftover fabric from work.
but jaeyoon found, from the start, that he didn’t like his step-father much. not that he was a bad guy, for jaeyoon, even as young as aged ten, could tell that the man treated his mother well and tried to do his best to care for jaeyoon too. yet, he couldn’t do it. his moods swung hard and often whenever he was around the older man, and their relationship wasn’t made better when jaeyoon was punished for his behavior by being forbidden to attend classes.
as a teenager, jaeyoon found that his mood changes grew increasingly harder to deal with. seulki wrote it off as teenage angst and, with a younger child to look after, she didn’t have the time nor the patience to deal with jaeyoon’s struggles. meanwhile, jaeyoon and his step-father started butting heads even more, to the point where jaeyoon would leave the house and not go back for days, camping at a different friend’s place each time, until he felt the anger leave him. each time he’d get back to a worried mother and even more worried step-father, who would just tell jaeyoon not to do it again.
but it was just rinse and repeat. the more the time passed, jaeyoon’s temper only got worse. he tried, very desperately, not to have such intense reactions each time, and the only way jaeyoon found to control it was to turn all the hatred he carried around inward. for the entirety of high school, jaeyoon went from a visible extrovert to a massive introvert. wallowing in thoughts of self-hatred, each time he minimally had an argument with someone, jaeyoon was convinced that the person would hate him, and he found no other way to deal with that other than punishing himself.
yet jaeyoon found himself further pushed into the arts than away from them. with a better source of income, he was able to start taking both dance and singing lessons, which were always the highlight of his days. everything was set up for him to go to university for drama as soon as he finished high school yet, in the very last months of school, jaeyoon’s step-father lost his job. the economic situation made it so that it was almost impossible for him to find a new job in a timely fashion, and that sent the man into a spiralling depression that his family couldn’t drag him out of.
with no practical skills and no degree, the only thing jaeyoon could think of to do to help his parents was to enlist. through the one year and a half he was in the army, most of the meager salary he got was sent home to his parents. being in the military only further pushed jaeyoon into intense self-hatred, especially being forced to deal with authorities that wouldn’t hesitate to punish him whenever he wasn’t able to control his temper.
by the time his service ended, jaeyoon’s step-father had been able to find a job working as a stagehand. while their lives weren’t as comfortable as before, things were much steadier and when seulki saw a pamphlet announcing auditions for gold star’s acting division, she insisted on jaeyoon auditioning. he wasn’t expecting to pass, but they were fairly impressed with his skills and when they found out about his background with dancing and singing, they asked him why he had never auditioned for a company before.
jaeyoon never thought about going down the idol route. yet, after assessing his skills, he was offered the opportunity of singing a contract as an idol trainee. his parents encouraged him, reminding jaeyoon that he was already at an age limit for this sort of thing, and might as well take this chance.
if jaeyoon struggled with his perception of self, it was nothing compared to what happened to him as a trainee. after the military, it was harder for him to lash out, with jaeyoon growing used to internalizing every single bad feeling he would have instead. but the trainers were demanding and sometimes even stricter than his superiors in the army, to the point where jaeyoon considered quitting entirely at least once a week for the better part of the four years he spent as a trainee.
it was only seulki’s encouragement that kept him going, and now the hunger he had deep down for the life on stage. the stubborn part of him pushed jaeyoon towards sticking around even after gold star announced the debut of vive, a boy group that jaeyoon wasn’t even given a chance to compete to be a part of. as long as i’m not kicked out, jaeyoon thought, it means they still have some interest. not long after, jaeyoon was told about him making the cut for quicksilver. the conditions of debut were not as he was expecting, what with quicksilver being an attempt at saving half of a dead group, but jaeyoon was glad to finally have an opportunity at all.
jaeyoon was not unaware that if life as a trainee was hard, life as an idol would be harder, especially for someone like him, but now he was unwilling to give up.
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HAN SOOHYUN is the MAIN DANCER, VOCAL, AND RAPPER of MARIGOLD under GOLD STAR MEDIA. She was born on JULY 26, 1996. She looks a little like JUNG HAERIM (ELLY) OF WEKI MEKI.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: jung haerim (elly), weki meki
legal name: han soohyun
stage name: n/a
pronouns: she/her
birth date: july 26,1996
hometown: busan, sk
position: main dancer, vocal, rapper
claims: female lead in origin’s “boy in luv” music video
BIOGRAPHY
trigger warning: eating disorders, traumatic head injury, hospitalization, depression, anxiety
as a child, soohyun had been extremely energetic, in a way that her parents didn’t know how to deal with her. much like parents often don’t. so, there was an attempt to figure out what to do with the young girl. they’d thought about several options, and eventually settled on gymnastics. soohyun excelled, she loved it – but what had started as a way to get rid of the boundless energy soohyun had became what soohyun seemed to eat, drink, and breathe. while in her younger years it was nothing of the sort, she slowly grew more competitive with the sport – as did the other girls. soohyun was involved in competitions as she excelled in the field. the beam was especially her friend, she had impeccable balance and control over her body, so it was where she shined most. while her mother was no helicopter parent, she cared very much about soohyun doing well and took care that the young girl would always be at the top of her gain.
unfortunately, this lead to monitoring soohyun’s food intake to ensure she wasn’t gaining too much weight. she did what she could to keep soohyun ‘healthy,’ but tried to ensure she wouldn’t develop and lose her girlish figure while she went through puberty. but soohyun’s goal became the olympics, so she didn’t mind. she followed what guidelines she was given, and life seemed decent.
the chance never came, however. when she was fourteen, soohyun was a tthe top of the world. then, one day, she woke up in the hospital with her head swimming after she slipped and lost herself in the air when doing a flip, and smacked her head off the beam. most of the time she spent in the hospital was completely lost on her, and suffers mild amnesia from the time surrounding the fall. some nice stitches in the back of her head were kept as the only proof it even happened in her mind (and a video that soohyun will never watch from her mother’s need to record soohyun’s every performance.)
once she was released from the hospital, part of soohyun’s rehabilitation included dancing. once cleared for exercise, albeit not intense, soohyun wanted to be active again. while she wasn’t allowed to go back to gymnastics yet, soohyun figure out something, that something being dancing. every once in a while she would suffer from dizzy spells, but was told she was probably just over-exerting herself. it would take some time before she would be used to activity again, so she was probably fine. usually, it wouldn’t last long before soohyun could get back on her feet.
returning to gymnastics proved her wrong.
a diagnosis of vertigo and advisement not to return to gymnastics meant that everything she’d worked for was gone. no matter how hard she tried to return, her head would swim and she’d be left laying on the ground for hours after an attempt at a flip. doctors told her there was no real telling if it would be chronic, or if it would eventually go away – there was of course a chance, but the brain was a fickle organ. soohyun knew she couldn’t continue in gymnastics the way she wanted to if she couldn’t continue performing to the skill she had before. her dreams of being a gymnast were dashed.
dance was soohyun’s second choice.
dance change soohyun. she was less on edge, healthier – and she was no longer bothered by her overbearing mother about living out some fantasy of greatness anymore. it made life a lot easier for her; dance was more recreational than her entire life. she was allowed time to continue healing, with far less intense movements so soohyun didn’t suffer from near as many vertigo spells. life was easier.
being casted by a music company was the last thing she was expecting out of everything that had happened. soohyun and her friends had been wandering around the mall after finally escaping from hangwon. they were preparing for upcoming entrance exams when a gold star scout had handed soohyun a card and asked her to audition for the company. at a loss for words, soohyun took the card she was handed and went home.
the decision for her to go to seoul had been a family decision. neither of her parents wanted her to get injured again, not the way she had. they worried the intensity of a trainee’s life, and potentially idol’s life, would be too much for soohyun. while her spells had lessened considerably over the two years of rehab, there was always the chance they could get worse with more activity. but soohyun saw it as another chance. perhaps not in the same field, but another chance to do something she loved in a way that made it a career for her. she was a fantastic dancer, and she’d learn the rest. she was fine with that, she would work hard – but she just wanted the chance to do something she was passionate about instead of live a boring life.
it took some convincing, but her parents allowed her to go on the condition the family moved to be closer to her. thus began her trainee journey.
training under gold star hadn’t been easy. with long hours of training, sleepless nights, and the clear encouragement of competition between trainees, it didn’t take long for soohyun to fall back into bad habits. she was praised for her dance prowess and flexibility – something that was more of a focus than her vocals or rap skills, which took a clear backseat. her weight loss from the time she signed was clear and praised by coaches who stressed visuals on the women in the company. soohyun wasn’t sure how many nights she spent lying on the practice room floor with her head spinning, whether from the vertigo or her poor eating habits.
but she worked hard, she waited – and eventually, she was put into a debut group. to soohyun, it looked like a recipe for disaster – and as it happened, it turned out to be just that. element had pre-debut hype, excitement around a take on the co-ed groups that failed miserably before them. but surely that wouldn’t happen for a gold star group, right?
soohyun knew their group had been doomed from the beginning. personally, she’d been plagued by rumors and criticism since pre-debut. according to many, she was 'useless’ and 'less talented’ than the other members of the group, and her pre-debut appearance in one of origin’s music videos only seemed to make things worse. an image of being 'easy’ as rumors of in-group dating seemed to plague the group altogether made criticism heavy on soohyun’s shoulders. while it was nothing more than whispers, soohyun struggled with them nonetheless. disbandment was inevitable, but still painful and bittersweet. soohyun thought heavily about leaving the company altogether after things fell apart – she’d be free of the rumors and a lifestyle that was making her ill. not to mention, how many people successfully re-debuted after their first attempt ended so quickly? soohyun wasn’t sure.
convinced by coaches, staff, and her former members, soohyun decided to stay with gold star – but she hadn’t been enthused about it. training lost its luster and it wasn’t long before she found herself sitting across from a therapist she was referred to by gold star. she worried too much about what she could’ve done better, how she should’ve worked harder, how if she were somehow more then this wouldn’t have happened. this time, it wasn’t physical injury that seemingly ended her career, but something that seemed like it was her fault. where her life felt out of control, she took control where she could – once again, she began restricting and monitoring food intake, her anxiety heightened dramatically, and soohyun couldn’t find much to care for. she doesn’t even know how to handle her therapist, who soohyun wonders is there to just 'fix her’ to ensure she’ll continue to debut under gold star yet again.
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YOO GYURI, better known as HUI, is the MAKNAE AND MAIN VOCAL of SILHOUETTE under GOLD STAR MEDIA. She was born on JANUARY 1, 1994. She looks a little like PARK SOOYOUNG (JOY) OF RED VELVET.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: park sooyoung (joy), member of red velvet
legal name: yoo gyuri
stage name: hui
pronouns: she/her
birth date: 1 january 1994
hometown: seoul, south korea
position: maknae, main vocal of silhouette
claims:
2012 supporting role as seol hanna in to the beautiful you (drama)
2015 lead role as ma ilyoung in coin locker girl (film)
2017 lead role as choi aera in fight for my way (drama)
ost for fight for my way (drama) - ryu jihyun’s night is gone again
ost for because this is my first life (drama) - ryu jihyun’s tomorrow
ost for wednesday 3:30 pm (drama) - an yeseul’s i just want to
2019 lead role as go haeri in vagabond (drama)
ost for vagabond (drama) - baek a yeon’s hello my lover
2020 ost for 18 again (drama) - sohyang’s hello
ost for true beauty (drama) - yuju’s i’m in the mood for dancing
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: -
her career is an accident, every single bit of it.
rewind.
press > play.
yoo gyuri is born in seoul. her home is modest and warm, it’s quiet and soft. her mother sings and it sounds like butterflies and a summer breeze. her father sings and it sounds like going to yangjae stream to catch fireflies, butterflies, and grasshoppers. she grows up with a song in her heart, she lives without fear. she’s round cheeks and strangely mysterious eyes, an intent and curious stare that unsettles those she focuses in on. they laugh nervously, little tittering sounds as they tell her she’s such a precocious little thing. so insightful.
when she was born she was everything her parents wanted: beautiful since a young age, talented, and sickening sweet. the long awaited birth of their only daughter brought a happiness that shed a small speck of light in what otherwise would have been a consuming darkness. tireless effort and patience were the tools of her parent’s trade and they applied this to yoo gyuri as well. born to two singers - artists, they preferred to be called - it was no surprise when the small girl began singing before she could speak. figuratively, of course. they are gentle, but firm, and poured their expectations into the young girl relentlessly. they did not mean to fill her to the point of bursting, but this is what happened, regardless.
what was a natural gift is quickly turned into a power when her parents trade the extra math lessons for vocal ones, the arts for dance. even as a child, the pressure is insurmountable. her voice continues to improve, her range growing, her appearance matching the soft and soulful nature of her music.
fastforward.
yoo gyuri is thirteen the first time a vocal trainer tells her parents, specifically, what makes her special. what makes her voice better. it’s not technique or precision. it’s not even her range, really. it’s the power that comes out of such a small girl. it’s the emotion. “she sings like she’s lived a thousand years,” her trainer told her parents one day. “like she’s lived a thousand heartbreaks.”
when yoo gyuri auditions for a small company, she’s a slight thing, in stature and in age. thirteen years old but her voice soars powerful and pure, a heart wrenching quality to it that covers for breathiness, for unsupported notes, for the roughened lack of polish that comes with years of singing in her bedroom without any proper training.
fastforward.
even if the company is small, a little run down, often time is asking for money from their own trainees because they aren’t able to rake it in themselves - still she sings. and in the blink of an eye, two years pass. with not a debut in sight, with the small company still five feet under ground in debt, her contract expires and her parents small speck of light in the darkness is shut out. there is no giving up, that much is clear. there will be more auditions, there will be other companies.
her big break comes in the form of a training contract with gold star media. a new company, but one that screams of promise, founded by one of the most famous women in south korea. her parents knuckles turn white when they hold onto her the day of her audition, begging her to make it. she vows to herself that this time it’ll work out, she’ll debut.
fastforward.
pressure tells her she shouldn’t bother with being an idol. she’s not skinny enough, her dancing is mediocre at best. they probably have better singers. prettier girls, more typical looks. she’s self defeating. her boss brings her along to lessons, she’s in the shadowing phase of her program, learning through experience. the woman seems to be particularly smug today, a secretive smile in the corner of her lips. she wonders why.
she finds out.
opening her mouth to sing in front of the girls is intimidating - they’re idol trainees, after all. but gyuri is confident only, perhaps, in her voice.
fastforward.
it goes to her head. she takes to the idol life like a fish returned to water. she lives and breathes it. she likes their songs, the choreography is easier and easier as she’s pushed to practicing until she’s worn to the bone. a strict diet takes care of the baby fat.
and then -
pause.
they put her in a drama. a stupid, silly, role that means nothing. she’s good enough though, and people like her face. that’s most of what matters these days. she gets another offer, and now she’s got a taste for it. she’s alright with it, at least. she wants to sing, sure. she wants the stage, true. but she’s no dancer, and she’s got a shelf life. she knows how it goes for women in this industry.
of course, there is the typical criticism that always flocks in when an idol attempts to color themself as an actress. yoo gyuri might think herself special enough to escape the same treatment, but she isn’t. it is second nature to hear, read, comb through thousands of comments that speak on her voice, her looks, and now her acting. idols should know their place. she should know her place. she’s a good singer but what business does she have in trying to act? she bites her tongue, holds back wanting to scream.
perhaps it’s selfish, to want to be praised in both fields and yet she continues. there are year, or years, gaps in between, of course. she might think herself an actress but she will always be an idol first. silhouette is top priority and if she ever forgets it, the troll comments will remind her. as the years pass, she continues to do both jobs with high regards to each one.
fastforward.
she wants more. she wants roles that speak to her, she wants something serious. she wants a solo, more, she wants to make music. and she’s made a name for herself in acting, so they say maybe. maybe we’ll bring it out later. focus on what’s selling, for right now. and she does. she doesn’t know how long she’ll be spread thin, like this. she doesn’t know even if her opinion will matter in the end, or if it will, as it so often does, come down to what the public sees and knows of her, what the company presents to them.
like she’s learned from a young age, she tightens her grasp and holds on.
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NAM CHUNHWA, better known as BOM, is the MAIN VOCAL AND LEAD DANCER of LUCID under DIMENSIONS ENTERTAINMENT. She was born on NOVEMBER 9, 1997. She looks a little like YOO JIMIN (KARINA) OF AESPA.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: Yoo Jimin (Karina), member of aespa
legal name: Nam Chunhwa
stage name: Bom
pronouns: She/Her
birth date: November 9, 1997
hometown: Busan, South Korea
position: Main vocal & lead dancer of Lucid
claims: None
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: death, car accident
I.
Nam Chunhwa is born at the height of Argentinian spring, which is exactly what has her parents naming her Chun Hwa, spring flower. From day one, she’s a fussy baby, crying more often than not and driving her parents crazy. A complete contrast to her sister, Chunhui, who’s born four years later, also in spring, who’s all smiles and easy laughter from the moment she leaves the maternity ward. Their parents adore them both and even with the age difference, they are fast friends. Chunhwa has very little recollections of those days but when she’s there, happiness is a given.
Chunhwa is seven when the phone rings in the middle of the night. Old enough to understand, she leaves her room to find her grandmother answering it. She remembers her parents leaving for a date night, remembers her grandmother coming over to look after her and Chunhui while they are out, and, more than anything, she remembers the ear piercing scream her grandmother lets out at whatever the other person in the phone call tells her.
(She learns what it was eventually, but it takes a couple of weeks for her to drill the information out of her family. It’s one of her cousins who explains to Chunhwa how her parents passed, how there was an armed robbery, how the person didn’t hesitate to press the trigger not once, but four times on each of her parents. Her grandmother yells at her cousin for telling Chunhwa about it, but she believes she’s better off knowing.)
Both Chunhwa and Chunhui move in with their grandmother, but less than two months after the funeral they are being shipped off to a new country. Chunhwa heard the argument her grandmother had over the phone as well, which concluded on both her grandmothers agreeing that it would be better for her and Chunhui to be raised somewhere else. Chunhwa doesn’t want to go. She throws a tantrum in the house, another in the car, and an extra one in the airport for good measure, but it’s all in vain as their aunt drags them both into the plane. When they arrive in Busan, South Korea, her aunt sticks around for a couple of days to help Chunhwa and Chunhui get settled, but then she’s also gone, and any proper reminder of their life in Argentina is also gone with her.
II.
Chunhwa makes her grandparents’ lives difficult from the moment she moves in. She goes through phases. First, she will throw tantrums about any and everything. She will refuse to eat what they expect her to, refuse to go to bed, refuse to wear the right clothes. She will misbehave in school, will act as if she doesn’t understand Korean, will get punished over and over again and none of that is enough to make her stop. That is, until her grandparents no longer show any reaction to her actions.
That’s when Chunhwa shuts down. For weeks, she won’t say a word to anyone but Chunhui. The school suggests her grandparents look into getting her some professional help and they dismiss it as her acting up. Things only improve when her grandmother arranges for Chunhwa to start ballet classes at the dance studio she runs. She argues Chunhwa is too old to be starting but that she can maybe learn how to behave if she does.
Chunhwa loves it. Not only ballet, but every other class she’s allowed to take. It’s like a switch is flipped ‒ she goes from dismissive of any and everything to completely enthusiastic about all the dance classes. Whatever time isn’t spent in school, Chunhwa spends it at the studio, even if it’s just so she can watch other classes she’s not yet old enough to join.
She turns out to be much better at it than her grandmother expected her to be. By the time she’s a pre-teen, Chunhwa is participating in dance competitions all across the country and winning them as well. A future as a dancer is pretty much the only thing she can think about doing.
III.
Chunhwa’s relationship with her grandmother never improves. A tipping point is when her grandmother decides to sell the studio in Busan and move to Seoul to run another studio there. She claims it’s a better city, more attractive for people looking into the arts, and although Chunhwa knows that’s true, she’s fifteen and honestly believes her life is perfect as it is, without her grandmother having to ruin it like this.
To make matters worse, Chunhwa and Chunhui get into a car accident one day when their uncle is driving them to school. It’s nothing extremely serious. Chunhui gets out of it completely unscathed, but Chunhwa breaks her leg in three different spots and the recovery time means she’s not allowed to dance at all for six months. Chunhwa blames her grandmother for it, claiming if they had never moved to Seoul, this would’ve never happened. In response, her grandmother forbids her from going to the dance studio at all, even to watch classes, until she’s fully recovered.
At one point, the boredom gets to her. Her grandmother tells Chunhwa to use this opportunity to put in more effort into school, but instead she spends more time at the music school where Chunhwa takes piano classes. It sounds like too much effort to start learning a completely new instrument, but Chunhwa starts taking vocal lessons to fill in her schedule.
She enjoys it enough that she sticks around after her leg gets better, even if it means sacrificing one of the many dance classes she would take in a week. Chunhwa also joins the school choir and when she graduates middle school and enrolls in SOPA, she decides that she spends enough time at the dance studio not to need to go down the dance route in school. Instead, she chooses the music track, which allows for her to further practice her singing.
IV.
Chunhwa is scouted for Dimensions in her graduation showcase. She’s given a solo stage, and it’s enough for the scouts to offer her an opportunity to audition for the company. Chunhwa’s plans originally were to either join a dance company and perform as a dancer for idol groups or to take a normal university route, but Chunhui talks her into auditioning, claiming that Chunhwa is the one between the two of them that should be going into the entertainment business.
She’s reluctant but relents, and she gets into Dimensions in early 2016. Almost immediately, Chunhwa wants to quit. It’s not about the treatment as a trainee ‒ she has an ex-ballet dancer for a grandmother, the trainers would have to try harder to faze her ‒, so much as about how obvious it is the company expects her to get along with the other trainees so she can debut with them. In a group, not as a soloist. In her mind, Chunhwa is convinced she’s enough of a good singer and dancer to debut completely solo, and it’s what she expects.
Instead, she’s put in a group. By the time it’s announced they are debuting as a group, Chunhwa can’t back down and she realizes she also doesn’t want to. It’s not the ideal scenario, but she wouldn’t have joined the company in the first place if she didn’t have some desire to become an idol.
When their debut gets scrapped, Chunhwa comes close to a complete tantrum. She’s not supposed to throw them anymore, not as an adult and she knows it, but she’s never grown out of the habit of wanting to yell at people when things don’t go the way she expected them to. Chunhwa had already settled for what she had considered was beneath her, and she refused to experience this once more.
Sticking around is fueled by the one thing worse than her stubbornness ‒ spite. Bitterness pushes her forward, pushes her into improving even further in the months between the scraping of their debut and the announcement of the new lineup. She thinks another member is unnecessary and it means sharing the spotlight with yet another person, someone she’s not at all used to or necessarily likes, but the decision is out of her hands and she eventually accepts it.
V.
When they debut, Chunhwa is given a stage name. Bom. Spring, just like her name. Dimensions expect her to offer an innocent but charming image. Think Nation’s First Love, is what her manager tells her when Chunhwa asks what the fuck does that mean, the company just thinks with your looks you need to play up your charming side. Chunhwa doesn’t have the heart to tell her there’s very little charming about her.
Chunhwa is ambivalent about Lucid’s concept. From day one, she thinks it’s interesting that they are offering something different with the rock concept, but when it’s not taken well at all by the overall public, she’s neither surprised nor too bothered by it. A complete contrast to her reaction when their more innocent concept is immediately eaten up by the public. Chunhwa can’t help feeling uncomfortable by the outfits they have to wear, the way men will talk about them in public forums, and the knowledge that all of them see Lucid as pieces of meat for them to fantasize about.
Things do not improve for her when years go by after their debut and Dimensions puts no effort into pushing her solo career at all. Not for music, not for brand ambassadorships, not for acting, nothing. At this point Chunhwa is convinced Dimensions sees her as a filler member, in spite of being the group’s main vocalist, and the lack of perspective often causes her to be more lazy on stage than she knows she should be. If fans have noticed, they are yet to comment, but Chunhwa knows that her attitude is bound to get her in trouble eventually. She’s just at a point where she can no longer bring herself to care.
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KANG MINHYUK, better known as MAX, is the MAIN DANCER AND RAPPER of ORIGIN under GOLD STAR MEDIA. He was born on FEBRUARY 16, 1996. He looks a little like MARK LEE OF NCT.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: lee minhyung (mark), member of nct
legal name: kang minhyuk (maximilian)
stage name: Max
pronouns: he/him
birth date: 19th February 1996
hometown: Frankfurt, Germany.
position: main dancer and rapper of origin
claims:none
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: negative self-image, inferior complex, underaged use of drugs (I’m bad with triggers omg I hope this is okay)
there wasn’t much to say about the lanky boy kang minhyuk. he grew up in a normal neighbourhood, being raised in a normal family while living a normal life. the one peculiar (exciting) thing to tell was perhaps the fact he was born and grew up in frankfurt, germany and picked up the name maximilian (short max) during his youth there.
but that was about it. he wasn’t the standout son of the family. the younger of two brothers max had normal grades, normal friends and normal troubles as any teenboy would have. it was his brother who excelled in about everything he did, naturally leading to his parents focusing their hopes and expectations onto his shoulders while little max was just… there. never not loved but also never the center of attention in the family he was left to do whatever he wanted (as long as it was legal of course) and the boy had no trouble following that.
(no, he did not count the one time his teachers almost caught them smoking weed behind the gym in 8th grade and if anyone asked him, he’d deny it vigorously.)
all in all max was the kind of guy who solely got out of being bullied because he looked good and carried himself with a casual friendliness that made anyone instantly want to be his friend instead.
who would have thought that it was exactly that next-door nice guy aura what got him street-casted as he was visiting his grandparents during his annual summer vacation in seoul? faced with a rather ground breaking decision to make that would turn his whole life upside down, the 15 year old male decided to take the leap when it looked like for once he got recognized for something his brother didn’t surpass him in. always finding solace in dancing and performing, max saw no harm in trying to reach for the stars in his own way, happy to be given this kind of opportunity and determined to work hard and make the most out of this experience.
always the happy go lucky kind of guy he fell on his face more than once when the struggle to adjust to the korean school system wasn’t as easy as he expected, especially not while attempting to juggle fitting his life style to that of a trainee. quickly his circle of friends decimated, contact to his family grew spare and hunched over in between other male trainees he shed tears about missing home and missing his freedom. but he was an idealist above everything else and saw that only as another challenge necessary to be overcome on his path to growing up and growing into a successful artist.
thus he was enthralled when he made it into origin, torn between relief to finally be outstanding and good enough for something while feeling bad for all those left behind. especially during the first months he was plagued with thinking that they deserved his spot so much more than he himself did but it only left him fueled to give additional +50% to his already tireless efforts.
his mentally stretched itself throughout his career, always eager to place the others first and let them have majority of the spotlight while max was solely grateful to even be a part of this amazing journey. thankful to each and every single of his fans and supporters, he more often than not felt overwhelmed when they along with his members attempted to give him more room to shine and only tentatively accepted the one or other opportunity to take the spotlight for himself.
he’s always been a paradox in itself; shining so brilliantly but never comfortable to claim the center of attention, made to be an ace but content to only focus on the things he was interested and already skilled in. max was ambitious in everything he did but never eager to get praised or receive recognition for his efforts. he solely loved to push himself for the sake of growing and the fact he got to do that with 6 amazing boys by his side, who grew to be almost more of a family than his own flesh and blood, is something he couldn’t feel more grateful for.
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HAN JIHAE, better know as JIHAN, is the MAKNAE, MAIN VOCAL, AND LEAD DANCER of ORIGIN under GOLD STAR MEDIA. He was born on OCTOBER 28, 1997. He looks a little like NA JAEMIN OF NCT.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: Na Jaemin, member of NCT
legal name: Han Jihae
stage name: Jihan
pronouns: he/they
birth date: October 28, 1997
hometown: Zurich, Switzerland
position: maknae, main vocal & lead dancer of Origin
claims:
ACTING
– Seok Hansung in Hwarang (2016-2017)
– Hwang Woojoo in SKY Castle (2018-2019)
– Jung Seyeon in True Beauty (2020-2021)
OST
– It’s Definitely You, Hwarang (2016-2017)
– How Do You Do, True Beauty (2020-2021)
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: injury (i.) , bullying, eating disorder / bulimia (vi.)
i.
The story starts with scraped knees and a sprained ankle. Han Jihae is seven and this is the fifth time in the last five months their mother has to bring them to the doctor’s office.
An injury is a temporary thing. Their hunger for the world, however, is not and no amount of split lips and aching bones, no pattern of bruises is enough to signal them that it is time to stop. It’s not like they beg for trouble, trouble just happens to be the natural consequence of wandering off the beaten path in the woods, trouble comes when you poke the proverbial hornet’s nest to see what happens. Trouble finds you when you refuse to step back without an answer when the world tells you no.
Jiyong waits back home perched on the windowsill, swaddled in blankets—at six, they share the same face and the same voice and the same charming smile, even if Jiyong is weak and tired where Jihae isn’t.
“I’ll bring you the world,” Jihae vows and presses their newest finding, a smooth, speckled pebble into the palm of Jiyong’s hand. “Just you wait.”
ii.
There is only so much a worried parent can take, watching their offspring run from one pitfall into the next. “Too much energy and no direction,” that’s what their kindergarten teacher says. “He means well, he just doesn’t know how to go about things.”
It’s a kind way to put the forceful ways they learn to stand up for others.
The road to hell is paved by good intentions, after all.
“Maybe it’s time we find you two a hobby,” Mama suggests, her voice cheerily saccharine.
“Maybe,” Jiyong amends.
“Try me,” Jihae challenges.
They last six months, until a dance studio opens two streets away and all of the neighbourhood kids are starting classes. Jiyong can’t go, Jiyong is sick and shivering and sleeping his fever off on Papa’s lap.
“Go anyway, Jihae,” Mama tells them softly and pets their hair. “He’d be upset if you missed out on the fun.”
“It’s not going to be fun,” they push back vehemently. “It’s never going to be real fun without Jiyong.”
They go. And they dance. And they fall in love.
iii.
Summers in Seoul have always been sweltering and humid, the air heavy and thick with smog. They’re worse in the shoddy dance studio where Jihae’s older cousin Sunhee practices with her dance crew, but right now it’s summer break they’re one member short and Jiyong’s gentle assurance that Jihae can dance, that they’re good still rings in their ears when they shuffle a little closer to the rest.
Jihae feels lonely in the room, a skinny child just shy of twelve standing between a pack of teens. It lasts until they start practice and things fall into place. No one at home ever listens to K-pop, Mama and Papa both grew up abroad themselves already and Swiss radio rarely ever plays anything without English lyrics.
The songs they dance to this afternoon are different, come with choreography and bright and flashy music videos and Jihae and Jiyong stay up late that night, Sunhee squished between them and going through her favourite songs.
“We’re not seriously busking,” Sunhee tells the man with the business card. “We’re just playing around.” Her body feels warm and firm when Jihae hides behind it.
“That’s okay,” the man says and crouches down in an attempt to get a better look at them.
“How old are you?”
“He doesn’t speak Korean–”
“Eleven.” Jihae doesn’t mean to disobey Sunhee. But they’ve been asked a question and it’d be rude not to answer, wouldn’t it?
“Eleven is a good age,” the man says and hands them a card.
“Have you ever wanted to be a star, kid?”
Even Mama knows who Bang Sunyoung is. Papa looks less impressed.
“It’d be just to try it out!” Jihae repeats what the man in Hongdae told them.
“You’re starting sixth grade back home in two weeks,” Papa points out.
“Honey, I didn’t even know Bang Sunyoung has her own company–”
“Can we do this later, dear?”
“– Sorry.”
Jihae frowns up at their father.
“Sunhee says it’s because I did well,” they add.
“I have no doubt you did. But it’s not this as easy as that, Jihae.”
They throw the business card in the bin that evening, frustrated and angry and humiliated.
Come morning, they find it on their clothes from the day before, dog-eared and a little creased.
“Try again,” Jiyong’s handwriting tells them.
iv.
It takes the better part of a semester and the promise to bring back top grades and not to fight their teachers for Jihae’s parents to start looking into Gold Star auditions and schools in Seoul. Sunhee’s mother, auntie Hyunjoo, offers them her guest bedroom for Jihae to stay in.
“And if things go bad you come back home right away, yes?” Mama tells them. Worry looks strange on her face. Jihae doesn’t like it.
“Yes, mama,” they tell her, watching the lines in her face fade hesitantly.
Things won’t go bad, they think to themselves, I won’t let them.
v.
Things first go really well and then they go really bad.
Han Jihae is thirteen when they start training under Gold Star Media, all knobby elbows and bruised legs, slowly starting to grow in what one day will be their adult body. Training is excruciating. The coaches don’t care about how much homework they have. Their Korean is more bare bones than they thought it would be. The dorms are cramped and true privacy is a rare luxury. They miss their parents, they miss Jiyong, they miss their youngest sibling, little Jiyeon who is still just six and might forget about them before they even get to debut.
They want to give up.
“But isn’t this what you worked so hard for?” Jiyong asks through the phone. Jihae can’t recall ever hearing their twin brother so heartbroken.
“Well, I want to give up,” they tell him with so much fake bravado, they almost buy it themselves. “Doesn’t mean I’m going to.”
Singing, turns out, is nicer than dancing. Singing is something Jihae is naturally good at, something that is comfortable and fun. When dancing takes their breath it’s through singing that they learn to take it back.
Soon, more than a dancer, Han Jihae turns into a singer.
vi.
Being picked on is infuriating. Being picked on knowing that fighting back isn’t an option—not if they want to avoid future bullying scandals—is excruciating. Jihae is used to being othered but up to this point giving his bullies hell in return has always been a possibility.
Instead, they learn to redirect their anger. Eat your frustrations, purge in embarrassment. Brush their teeth lest they want to lose them, hide the traces lest they want to look like you’re asking for pity. Rinse, repeat. Toe the line of breaking, this is a punishment, this is a reminder that they’re still in control. Their justifications start blurring and contradicting themselves.
They pretend not to see, close their eyes and ignore how every time catharsis slips a little faster through the cracks in their armour, leaving them hungry and hollow and ashamed.
Unexpectedly, it’s the trainee selections for Who’s Next that break the cycle. Being on television is stressful in a way different from what they’re used to so far but the attention they receive reignites their excitement. Their former “coping methods” no longer work and put their voice at risk instead and so they’re left in front of a camera, hands wringing behind their back hoping no one can tell how scared they actually are.
And it pays off. Team A wins and Jihae establishes a base level of affection for being the darling youngest, mischievous and radiant. It’s an act, the person Jihae would like to be so desperately, but it’s okay. They can still grow into their wings as they go, right?
vii.
Turns out that it’s not quite that easy. Debuting is stressful and what follows is the weight of knowing that they’re currently underperforming, their concept just a smidge too niche to really catch on. The anger returns, flaring and all-consuming and this time there’s no more room to purge it so instead, they start bottling it up.
The person Jihae crafts into their public persona seems to become more distant with every comeback and they’re tired to the bone when Origin’s success finally finds them. All they can do is to let the wave sweep them along and gasp for half a breath before they throw themselves back into pretending.
Turns out that pretending for a living—actually so, past the faking of an idolsona—is actually a lot of fun. Their first acting gig they’re offered in late 2016, more a matter of making sure Origin remains fresh in everyone’s perception by shoving them down the public’s throat than anything else, really. Jihae is just around the right age for the role and that’s what everyone else assumes too, that Origin’s sudden spike in fame has made the members, specifically, cocky, that they have no place taking trained actors’ spaces, that they have no value to contribute to South Korea’s acting sphere. Hwarang doesn’t return the money it’s supposed to, either, but to Jihae it’s an opportunity to put on a wig and a fancy costume and pretend not to be themselves for a while and as long as the cameras are running the experience is liberating.
They don’t do as badly as expected and even after an underperforming acting debut they’re approached about an audition again later down the line. It’s while on set for SKY Castle that they realize that in their supporting roles, neither Hwarang nor this opportunity really rest much of their success on Jihae’s shoulders specifically. The responsibility they take on feels lighter when the pressure is split amongst a cast so much bigger than Origin and no amount of vile comments can take that budding sense of relief away from them.
When they’re first approached about their appearance in True Beauty they don’t anticipate for it to be their tipping point. It’s pride that ultimately makes them accept the role in spite of the reminders of what it entails and it’s pride that leaves them feeling horribly afterwards. Their performance seemingly hits the mark—Jihae wouldn’t know, they never end up watching the show air. But it becomes an unpleasant reminder that they’re not as well-equipped to cope as they like to pretend they are.
viii.
Han Jihae is twenty-three and the world is at their feet. Maybe not theirs specifically, but close enough. The beginning of the new decade marks a shift in pace, a gentle lean into something that feels a little more manageable at last. Maybe they’ve finally started to grow used to the life they wanted and weren’t prepared for, maybe it’s the beginning of the end because apparently if fame doesn’t breed misery it’s not truly fame—who knows.
Whatever it may be, for the first time in eleven years Jihae can finally turn around to look at the one thing they’ve neglected the most: themselves. They don’t quite know what to make of the jagged edges where things have broken and splintered or how to patch the holes they’ve burnt into themselves but for the first time in a long while they feel ready to learn how to heal.
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YOON SEOLA is the LEADER, MAIN DANCER, AND LEAD VOCAL of 7ROPHY under DIMENSIONS ENTERTAINMENT. She was born on SEPTEMBER 27, 1995. She looks a little like KWON EUNBI, FORMERLY OF IZ*ONE.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: kwon eunbi, former member of iz*one
legal name: yoon seola
stage name: -
pronouns: she/her
birth date: 09/27/1995
hometown: toronto, canada
position: leader, main dancer, lead vocal of 7rophy
claims:
MUSIC VIDEO: MARS (Eternity, 2017 - female lead)
FEATURING: MARS (You’re Mine, 2015 - Minah’s part)
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: injuries? (do they count as a trigger?)
Born and raised in Toronto, Canada, Yoon Seola was expected to be a star from the moment she was born. She had always been an intelligent child, gifted if her parents would dare say so themselves. After all, Seola’s father was a figure skating coach in Canada, while her mother was a former ballerina. Meanwhile, her older sister was also an overachiever of some sort, so it only made sense that Seola was expected to achieve great things as well. As she was old enough to start understanding things, Seola had dabbled in many things such as academics, theater, and the two things she would come to love the most: music and figure skating.
Despite taking lessons with her dad ever since she was four, Seola began skating competitively in 2008 after seeing Kim Yuna on TV. At the time, she wanted to be the second Korean woman to win a medal for the country. She began competing on the domestic scale and a few minor international level competitions. Despite winning a few medals at minor competitions, there were other girls better than she was that she still had yet to represent the country in major competitions.
Seola continued to train and grow, and her dreams grew even bigger after Kim Yuna won the gold medal at the Vancouver Olympics. In August 2011, during the South Korea Trials for Junior Grand Prix, Seola placed 1st in the short program, and things were looking up for her. Unfortunately, she fell badly during the free skate, injuring both her hip and back in the process. Despite persistent hip and back pain, she pushed to compete anyway. When she had her back and hip checked after the competition, she was told that she had to give up skating if she wanted her back to recover properly.
The end of her skating dream had been the end of the world for Seola, until her mother had recommended that she takes up singing and dancing as a new hobby. Without thinking much of it, Seola had agreed. Mostly because she already had prior ballet training as a figure skater. What Seola didn’t expect was to discover that she can actually sing. As she learned to sing and dance, Seola never expected to actually fall in love with performing. It’s almost like a dream for her.
In 2012, Seola and her family had been on vacation in Korea when a Dimensions casting agent approached both Seola and her cousin. While her cousin jumped on it immediately, Seola hadn’t actually considered a showbiz career. After all, Seola had plans of being a lawyer or a broadcaster. However, this is a chance not many people often get, so Seola agreed to give it a go.
To her surprise, Seola actually passed the auditions. Although her cousin didn’t pass this time, they were still genuinely proud and happy for Seola all the same. Seola can only wish it was the same for her parents, who wanted her to enter a high-powered career as an adult. With this opportunity in hand, Seola’s parents had agreed to let her go, on the condition that she finished her education and got a college diploma.
To fulfill the end of her promise to her parents, Seola enrolled at Hanlim Arts High School for her final year of high school and juggled both being a trainee and a student at Sungkyunkwan University. Thankfully, not many people knew who she was, so she didn’t have to entertain too many questions.
Uprooting her whole life from Canada to Korea had been a major life decision for Seola to take, and the difference in culture was something to get used to. Thankfully, Seola’s background as an athlete has somewhat equipped her to be competitive, yet friendly with the other trainees in the company. There was a lot she had to work on, but she wanted to see this through. She braved every challenge, evaluation, and struggle that came her way. Seola was an athlete, so she had expected the trainers to be military sergeants. Regardless, she was determined to be the best there ever was.
Other than hard work and discipline, another skill Seola had taken from her student-athlete days to her student-trainee days was the importance of camaraderie and teamwork. Although competition for a spot in a future Dimensions girl group was intense, Seola went out of her way to be friendly and helpful to those with problems singing and dancing. She was the youngest child at home, so being a supportive younger sister to the older trainees is nothing new to her. However, being the older sister figure to the newer and younger trainees that came after she did was a new and interesting feeling.
To be honest, debut comes as both a relief and newly added pressure to Seola. Especially after her parents have been begging her to quit being an idol and go back to the plans they had before she auditioned. Seola knew what she was good at, but it surprises her that she gets to be the group’s leader as well as the main dancer and lead vocal. However, 7rophy’s lack of immediate success has led to Seola’s parents trying to convince her to leave the group and pursue a proper, better-paying career almost every time she talks to them. Every time they had a spark of hope that they finally struck gold, they ended up moving several steps backward. The girls of 7ROPHY deserve better than this, and Seola couldn’t help but feel that this was her fault. She failed the group as a leader and that she should have done better for them, even if she had no idea what that entailed. Seola wasn’t stupid, and she had heard of those disbandment rumors. Honestly, she couldn’t blame them. After all, they couldn’t produce the results 7ROPHY wanted and deserved. She would never admit it to anyone, but she was beginning to see the merit of her parents’ advice.
Seola’s not a quitter, and thankfully, their effort as members of 7ROPHY have begun to pay off. Thankfully, they finally seemed to be getting their stride after achieving their first win with “Latata”. She also graduated from college in 2019, which is a year or two longer than what her parents would have liked. In her time with Dimensions, Seola hadn’t exactly been pushed into the spotlight compared to the other girls. Honestly, her parents nagged her about this more than the group’s lack of success. No matter what she does, it’s like she’ll never be good enough. Other than a music video role and a song feature with MARS, everything she has expressed interest in doing outside of group activities — acting, musicals, OSTs, and variety shows — have been denied to her for various reasons. She supposed it was mostly to pacify MARS’ angry fangirls who were sick of seeing her face or the company thought she was a liability; she didn’t really know. It was hard staying at home while watching the rest of the group getting to do their individual activities. Honestly, Seola wondered where she went wrong in her life to be denied anything she asked for herself.
Because of this, she has more free time compared to some of the other girls. While she prepares for her moment to shine, Seola is trying to take on a more active role behind the scenes as she learns more about choreography and songwriting. Unfortunately, Seola is being denied opportunities in these endeavors at the moment. She knows she has something left to prove, but she has no clue what that something is.
Even after Queendom, Seola still finds herself struggling to allow the company to give her an identity outside the group. As the leader, Seola is willing to sacrifice her individual glory for the group’s benefit. However, she also wishes for her shining moment to finally come.
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KIANA LEE is the MAIN DANCER AND LEAD VOCAL of FUSE under GOLD STAR MEDIA. She was born on MAY 28, 1994. She looks a little like SOLOIST LEE JIEUN (IU).
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: lee jieun (iu), soloist
legal name: kiana brandy lee
stage name: -
pronouns: she/her
birth date: may 28th, 1994
hometown: seattle, washington, usa
position: main dancer and lead vocal of fuse
claims:
Music Videos
Lead female in Impulse’s “A” (2014)
OSTs
Hwarang (2017) I Can Only See You
Fight For My Way (2017) Good Morning
While You Were Sleeping (2017) Words I Want To Hear
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: unhealthy relationship
kiana had always been convinced that she was fated for a superpower, yet, a sinister shadow attached itself to kiana’s foot from birth. no matter how hard she shook, it’d been sewn on with the strength of wendy’s needle. ever the reminder of her own shadow, seattle’s space needle loomed in the distance, towering over every being around her, yet no one more than herself.
before birth, the lee family settled down in the states for career opportunity mixed into the feeling of community. more than the country’s average, there were people all around her that looked like her. fading into the background wasn’t a choice, but an expectation, when only few could rise to the top. kiana found herself in the majority of the forgotten, where what attention was given, was in family calling her beautiful, a stark contrast to the children who thought the opposite, and chose to pick on her interests.
weird became a word kiana learned to shudder at.
struggling against the strength of a crocodile’s mouth, kiana cried out for the lost boys to find her. and as kiana found herself on the internet, they did. online, she felt more understood than she had her entire life. where they lacked in understanding her family background, a community built up nonetheless through their shared interests. with her own personal band of lost children, kiana, for the first time in her life, didn’t feel weird. conversely, she felt her intense love for things had value, and wasn’t something shameful. day to day life didn’t change, though she finally, finally had a reprieve to comfortably slink into.
the first taste she had of this outside of the internet was presented in brown hair and hands bigger than her face. touching those hands burned, a scalding heat that against expectation, cleared the path. so, this was love.
everything was him, from that point on. every show she watched was to be enjoyed by them both. each meal would be decided upon together. every breath she took belonged to him. and in return, he offered reassurance, and desire. even apart, kiana constantly felt as if he craved each sliver of her, and believed uniqueness lived within her. the lost girl had lost her role, recast as wendy, to a peter pan that whisked her into a world she only ever thought was fantasy.
not everyone was able to see it the same. star crossed lovers, as she had seen it, her parents saw strife. while she hoped her stubbornness to keep his love was a toil that could mend their views, they saw not love, but their girl who had changed, because of him. on their second anniversary, caught in a lie about where she was staying for the night, her parents insisted against consequence that kiana break up with her boyfriend. and so, she did, tear tracks feeling like permanent tattoos.
however, when he showed up at her window the same night, her aching heart couldn’t bear to turn him away. that night, nor the next, nor the next after that. with each passing meeting, the continuance of her parents’ rage became less of a mindset to bury, and more of a growth of her own frustration. to kiana, they were destined to be lovers. he felt the same, she was sure, when laying, limbs tangled as if they were one being, he would whisper into her hair that the grown ups just weren’t allowed in neverland. if it were up to kiana, she might have gone to the second star to the right, and straight on… forever.
for about the next half year, the lovers found every possible opportunity to be together, until, previously unbeknownst to kiana, her parents dropped a shattering truth on her: they were moving to korea. kiana would have said that she could feel part of who she was being ripped out of her. she was hollow, and once again, lost.
that first month in korea overloaded kiana’s brain daily. getting used to a new home, a country she’d only visited on vacation, a language that felt a little awkward, school mates that felt wildly differently about her than they had in seattle, all without her source of confidence, love, and self by her side, she turned to an act she’d rarely known in her life. impulsivity was what had her telling her parents that she wanted to audition for an entertainment company. as time passed, waiting on an answer, waiting on the contract, waiting on the move to trainee dorms, kiana wondered if it really was impulsivity, or a desire she’d been searching for her whole life. if she worked hard enough to debut, the public would yearn for her, and fill the hollowness in her shell. it wouldn’t be the same, but it would be something.
kiana put her best foot forward, straining herself to better her dancing in a way that she hadn’t since she was first put in a class as a toddler. although that lined her up for debut, it was her looks that had her playing a role in impulse’s “a,” moments before fuse’s debut. attention thrust at her from the moment she debuted, not all positive, but a large enough amount that, sometimes, she could forget about who she’d left behind.
gold star arranged for kiana’s first solo opportunity almost three years after debut, a duet for a drama expected to find success. when it did, and so did the song, the company grabbed the moment by the reigns. kiana was pushed onto as many osts as they could manage, and they each found more and more success. but kiana didn’t. she’d thought, through her life, she learned how to navigate being a small fish in a massive sea. she’d thought she could handle it, when she’d handed her beating heart to the company, and they’d smashed it within their palms as they told her that there wasn’t enough interest in her to continue giving her songs.
wendy had to find her own way without peter, but after these years, kiana had to wonder if she had been fooling herself into believing a sweet lie. was she unique? was she worthy of being desired? she was… right?
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KIM KYONGMIN, better known as ALICE, is the MAIN DANCER, VOCAL, AND RAPPER of LUCID under DIMENSIONS ENTERTAINMENT. She was born on JULY 11, 1999. She looks a little like ACTRESS KANG MINA.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: kang mina, actress + ex-gugudan
legal name: kim kyongmin
stage name: alice
pronouns: she/her
birth date: july 11th, 1999
hometown: seoul, south korea
position: main dancer, vocal, rapper of lucid
claims:
mv role: just u by dimensions soloist 2
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: n/a
[+11, -2] alice never talks about her family. i wonder if she’s embarrassed of them.
alice is a sickly thing as a child. her earliest memories are of the orphanage, but she’s adopted at four years old by a family of foreigners who set up to live in seoul. they bring her to a pretty little home and they’re family.
[+47, -14] what a surprise, alice is talking over the members in interviews again.
her father is a calm, methodical man with a dry sense of humor, her brother is a bright, flamboyant boy with heart to spare, and her mother… her mother is unlike anyone she’s ever met. she had a way of taking an entire room by the hand and making it her friend, and always seemed able to get what she was looking for from people. she didn’t seek much unreasonable from alice - in fact, the only thing she really asked of her was manners, good grades, and for her to do all the things she’d been unable to as a child. lessons in dance, piano and singing take up much of her time after school and on weekends, but it feels like an easy trade for mother’s attention. from a young age, nothing made her as happy as praise from the woman.
[+38, -16] alice would fit better under bc than dimensions - isn’t she too pretty not to get paid?
not long after her tenth birthday, the performance lessons lead to auditions. her dance skills are already nothing to scoff at after years of ballet training, but companies are hesitant to take on someone so young. it wasn’t until she was thirteen that she was scouted at a showcase for her dance school. much to her mother’s delight, alice was a trainee under dimensions entertainment shortly thereafter. training was a hard time for her - her best was never good enough, and even when her dancing was good, her vocals were lacking. after being left out of the lineup of 7rophy, the lack of positivity got to her and she doubled down, working even harder. after all, how could mother pay attention if she wasn’t on the stage?
[+19, -8] you don’t notice her too much at first, but alice really ties lucid together. her dancing is so sharp!
alice was delighted to be included in the lineup for shine. she’d always pictured herself in a bubbly, bright sort of concept and felt she fit the group perfectly. in the end it didn’t matter, she knew she was lucky to debut at all.
[+89, -19] alice shines so bright in the new concept. stan lucid, they’re finding themselves.
after debut, alice managed the next two comebacks without much fanfare, but it was when the school trilogy rolled around that she really found her footing, sweet and innocent being a far more natural concept for her personally. she was one of the members who slipped during the incident during me gustas tu era, and while she beat herself up about it, she’s become happy it happened for lucid’s popularity’s sake.
[+62, -24] lucid is full of visuals, but alice really has the monopoly on aegyo.
as an idol, alice has gained a lot of confidence since debut when it comes to performing. she’s something of a variety member, and is praised for her visuals, cutesy demeanor, and sweet personality as well as being a standout dancer in a group of dancers. she’s occasionally put down for seeking attention, being annoying or a bit strange, and being overrated. she’s more popular with lucid’s domestic fanbase than their international one, though she has her devotees outside korea as well.
[+51, -47] alice is so annoying. who’s never hula hooped?! shut up and dance, you’re prettier with your mouth shut.
while being an idol isn’t something she chose for herself, it gives her the opportunity to connect with things in ways she was unable to as a child, which has led to her throwing herself into any and all interests with vigor. she’s still making up for lost time when it comes to things like learning to swim and ride a bike, but being in the public eye leaves her open to criticism. she loves sharing parts of her life with fans, but she’s also extremely sensitive to negativity. in the end, though, it’s all worth it if mother gets to see her darling girl shining brightly… right?
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KITAE KWON, better known as MAVERICK, is MAIN VOCAL 3 of KNIGHT under BC ENTERTAINMENT. He was born on SEPTEMBER 28, 1993. He looks a little like LEE TAEMIN OF SHINEE.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: lee taemin, member of shinee
legal name: kitae kwon
stage name: maverick
pronouns: he/him/they/them
birth date: september 28, 1993
hometown: new york, new york
position: main vocal 3 of knight
claims:
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: none
i. his first and most prized memory was from christmas when he was five years old. he recalled walking down the long staircase at his sisters’ heels and running into the grandly decorated living room to see piles of gifts under the tree and their current nanny, but there was no sign of their parents. he remembered not skipping a beat and taking a seat on the floor with everyone. the only present he remembered was the last one, a long box wrapped in paper with snowmen on it and when unwrapped it revealed that in the box was a small guitar. it was light in color and small enough that he could function and wrap his hands around the neck. “i saw you looking at it a few times at the store,” the nanny began, “i thought i could teach you, if you’d like.”
ii. he loved that guitar more than anything as he continued to grow and move through grades; more than he enjoyed playing sports or being dragged around at his parent’s request to their business events or small modeling gigs he didn’t want. it was the only thing he wanted to dedicate his free time to, the only thing he wanted to use in pursuit of a career. he wanted to be involved in music, whether it was being an actual musician, singer, or just a music teacher.
iii. even if they weren’t around a majority of the time, his parents dictated his life even as a teenager, and they wanted him to follow them and his sisters into the family business, preferably running it one day. his dreams didn’t have space within the carefully constructed plan they had for him. the amount of free time he had to give to playing the now full size guitar had dwindled down significantly to what free time he had between his homework and sports practice.
iv. as he entered high school strumming the guitar had filled the occasional time when he had time to be bored. nothing more than plucking at the six strings for fun. playing for fun had eventually turned into purposeful attempts at creating small melodies, something that sounded nice together that someone else hadn’t created. while maverick loved music he hadn’t ever had any urge to create something of his own, but compared to the drag of his usually well-planned parent-approved schedule, this was one of the few things he found he genuinely enjoyed.
v. the strumming turned genuine attempts at creating melodies slowly developed into challenging himself to create a full song. the habit had been one he kept to himself for months until he worked up the courage to tell his friend what he was doing. part of him expected for the other to laugh at him and his attempts to create music but to his surprise they only asked him if he lyrics to the tune, and if he was able to sing.
vi. at the time his attempts to write words down to go with the songs he was creating on his guitar had remained just that: attempts, something he wasn’t focused on as a teenager. instead maverick found himself wondering if he could honestly pursue music as a career, somehow get around all his parents’ perfectly laid out plans for his future and do something that made him happy, genuinely happy. he could sing, with some help and guidance he might get good at composing a song, and maybe one day he’d take lyric writing seriously.
vii. it took a few years to conjure up but maverick found a way to get around having to ask for permission from his parents, that was how he found himself on an airplane to seoul to stay with his grandparents for the entirety of his summer break before he would be going off to university. if everything worked out in his favor he wouldn’t be returning to new york anytime in the near future, nor would he be attending university in the states. maverick got himself to the bc audition, giving his rendition of “and i am telling you i’m not going” from dreamgirls before the judges, and hoping for the best.
viii. the hard part followed that, the phone call from bc that confirmed he could indeed sing, and that he passed the audition. the argument had been long, heated, spanned over a week, before he convinced his mother, while away from his father, to sign the forms when he suddenly showed up at home once more to get the rest of his things. but once he had returned to seoul, put thousands of miles of distance between himself and his parents, maverick finally felt free.
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MENG GUANTING, better known as TING, is the MAKNAE, LEAD VOCAL, AND LEAD DANCER of UNITY under DIMENSIONS ENTERTAINMENT. He was born on AUGUST 27, 1999. He looks a little like WONG YUKHEI (LUCAS) OF NCT.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: Wong Yukhei (Lucas), member of NCT/WAYV
legal name: Meng Guanting
stage name: Ting
pronouns: He/him
birth date: August 27th, 1999
hometown: Kowloon, Hong Kong
position: Maknae, Lead dancer, Lead vocal of Unity
claims: none
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: Child abuse
Born to two musicians who both failed to make it big in the industry during their youth, Meng Guanting was born with the weight of the world on his shoulders. He was expected to be great at a very young age, and to be successful because his parents never were. Ever since he was a boy, he was told that he would be in the industry, whether he wanted to be apart of it or not. By the time he was seven years old, he knew that there was no other option for him. He didn’t have a say in his life or in his future. His life hadn’t even begun and it was taken away from him.
His parents weren’t the most maternal or the most loving parents a child could ask for. Because of their lust for fame and fortune (or more accurately, their lust to mooch off of his fame and fortune), they treated him more like a pet or a circus act than anything. They fed and clothed him, but he didn’t get much besides that. He was placed in vocal lessons when he was six years old, his parents wanting him to get an early start on his training. He was too young to audition for an actual agency, He didn’t get to experience a real childhood because his parents were so hard on him about his vocal training. They would force him to sing for hours at a time, not only sing but run on a treadmill at the same time. “It builds stamina.” they would tell him, while pressing the button to speed up the pace of the machine, forcing his small legs to run even faster. It was training above all else.
The few friendships he made during his hours at school never went too deep, because they couldn’t grow and develop outside of school. He couldn’t hang out with his friends after school or on the weekends because he was too busy in vocal lessons or dance classes or doing something that would give him connections in the music industry. If he was saying doing anything that wasn’t school work or training related, he would be punished, either physically or by having the few things he enjoyed taken away from him. He had to grow up sooner than he wanted to, and that was something that he began resenting his parents for from a young age.
When his schooling years rolled around his parents, of course, wanted the best education for their future idol son, so they had him audition for a performing arts school, and he was accepted almost immediately. Not just because of his vocal talent, but because his parent. His parents were familiar with the principal of the school. They knew each other from adolescence, and his parents had dirt on the principal that he didn’t want to get out, so they blackmailed him into accepting their son. It wasn’t that he was untalented, or that he wouldn’t have made it on his own, but they wanted to be one hundred percent sure that he would be accepted into the school.
Word got around the school a few weeks into the beginning of the school year that his parents “bought his way in,” something that made him the target of a lot of animosity from his fellow classmates. When he first arrived they saw him as a spoiled brat who only got into the school because his parents paid his way in, and he had to prove himself from the beginning that that was definitely not the case and that he was accepted because he could actually sing and perform. Despite proving himself countless times over and over again, he still hadn’t managed to make a lot of friends, which hurt him a lot more than he wanted to show.
When he was ten years old, his parents pushed him to start auditioning for different labels. He auditioned during their time scouting in China, and Dimensions was the record label who snatched him up first, and he’s been with them ever since. His years as a trainee weren’t as hard or trying as he thought they would be, but that was mostly because his parents had been putting him through hell and back with training since he was really young. Or younger, you could say. There were a lot of times where he felt like dropping out and wiping his hands clean of the industry, but he knew that he couldn’t do that. Not only because of the contract he signed, but because he knew that his parents wouldn’t allow him to do that. So he stuck with it and went through training without complaint.
After nearly six years of training, Guanting was finally put into a group and allowed to debut. He was too young to join Alien when they debuted, as well as MARS, but when Unity came around, he was finally old enough to debut. Much to his relief and his parents appreciation, Unity was almost instantly met with success. He was relieved because he finally made his parents proud, and he could get them off of his back. Being apart of Unity had also finally give him the chance to know what it felt like to be along and to be apart of a family. The other boys in his group quickly become something that resembled a family for him, becoming the brothers he never had and always wanted. He developed very close bonds with them and has become rather attached and dependent on them.
Known for his bright and sunny personality amongst Unity’s fans and the general public, Guanting oftentimes feels the pressure of keeping up that pretense all the time, even when hanging around his friends on his down time. He feels like he can never be anything other than what everyone knows him to be, for fear of people losing interest in him. He thrives on people’s attention and love, mainly because he never received it from his parents as a child.
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KANG SUNGHEE is the LEAD RAPPER of UNITY under DIMENSIONS ENTERTAINMENT. He was born on MARCH 5, 1998. He looks a little like HAN JISUNG (HAN) OF STRAY KIDS.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: han jisung (han), member of stray kids
legal name: kang sunghee
stage name: n/a
pronouns: he/him & they/them
birth date: march 5, 1998
hometown: shanghai, china
position: lead rapper and vocal of unity
claims: feature ; feeling - dimensions soloist 2
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: ableism
i.
kang hyejin moves from busan to seoul with the sole intention of attending one of the countries’ best universities. it’s not just anyone who succeeds at getting a spot in the seoul national university, and she does so with praise and honors. her parents are reluctant to let her go, reluctant to allow their youngest daughter to be far from them for such a long time, but they know it’s the best they can do for her, the best future they can offer her. and so hyejin goes, with goals set in mind, with a big hope for what her career is going to become.
things don’t really go as planned.
for the first year, yes, she manages to keep her track record as clean as possible. her grades are high, her academic accomplishments higher, and, in a majorly male field, she manages to succeed. that is, until she meets kim sungki, on her second year at the university. he’s the very stereotype of the men parents warn their daughters against. older but not at all responsible, she falls for his charms, for his looks and for his words, faster than she thought it’d be possible. from there, her studies go downhill. hyejin starts skipping classes, something she had never done, and accepts recklessness into her life without caring for the consequences. she fights with her parents and gets invited to leave university as she stops bothering to attend anything whatsoever. moving in with sungki, hyejin is forced to take odd jobs here and there, but she’s in love – or at least she believes this is love – and that’s all that matters to her.
getting pregnant was not in her plans, but very little things were and they ended up happening anyway. hyejin is scared but excited – sungki seems happy enough for her not to question the glances he’ll throw her way, his reluctance whenever he’s supposed to follow her somewhere. those are all easy to ignore once she falls in love with her baby boy at the first ultrasound consult. she spends months lost in the bubble of happiness she’s created for herself, one that only grows bigger and stronger as soon as sunghee is brought into the world. he’s so small in her arms, even more so in his father’s arms, and hyejin is nothing but content as she lies down on the hospital bed.
the bubble bursts, eventually. at first, it’s when sunghee’s baek-il arrives and he still hasn’t met his grandparents or either of his uncles. alongside that, she notices the way sungki distances himself. she has to ask for him to give their child the time of day, and his fuse gets shorter and shorter. they fight, sunghee’s piercing scream a match for their loud tones as they shout angry words at each other. the frustration only builds and the moments of reprieve are almost non-existent. the bills are, too, much bigger than either of them can pay with their odd jobs, especially with how hyejin can’t work as much because of sunghee. she goes to sleep with tears in her eyes more often than not, exhausted beyond measure, only to be awoken by a fragile child who doesn’t know any better.
it all comes to an end when hyejin wakes up and sungki is nowhere to be found. she thinks to wait until the end of the day to get worried, hoping it’s because he’s found a well paying job, but those thoughts are erased upon she notices the lack of his clothes. every small belong of his is gone, and there’s not a single note left. the father of her child abandons her on a tuesday morning and it takes her until the evening to muster the courage to call her parents.
hyejin’s father as well as one of her brothers drive up to seoul the next morning. there’s not much they can do other than help her pack all the essentials and shove them into the truck of their respective cars. they can’t hide the shock at meeting sunghee, neither of them even being aware of his existence, but much like hyejin, they fall in love immediately with the blabbering child who’s, at the same time, overjoyed and shy, hiding his face on his mother’s neck as she carries him around.
she doesn’t look back as they leave behind all the dreams she’s ever had and the place where she was forced to let them go.
ii.
for the first three years of his life, sunghee spends most of his time with his grandmother.
his uncle owns a bookstore where his mother starts working at once they move to busan. she takes the most shifts out of anyone who works there, her subtle way of trying to compensate for leaving them behind the way she had. it means she has less time with sunghee, but considering they spend their evenings together, the two of them sharing hyejin’s childhood bedroom, she considers the sacrifice worth it.
at first, sunghee is reluctant to let anyone of the family other than his mom to so much as touch him. he’s fussy, which is not something hyejin had expected, since he had always been such a happy and cuddly baby. eventually he takes to his grandmother, who’s filled with so much patience and care for him that it’s inevitable he’d love her as much as she loves him. and happy he is, a small ball of energy that learns how to speak fast and run faster. he babbles, tries to join conversations even when he doesn’t have the words or the understanding for it. sunghee is their sunshine, the most precious aspect of their lives, and hyejin finds that she doesn’t regret her choices as much, not when she has him.
she doesn’t expect to find love again, but she does. this time, it’s by accident. just another client at the bookstore – one that was, admittedly, pretty handsome, in a way that had her and her sister in law whispering as he walks around. when she goes to help him, he has an accent, one that lets her know he’s not from south korea, but he pronounces his words elegantly. hyejin wouldn’t have to be smarter than she is to know he comes from money. she had expected him to treat her flippantly, or at the very least with some form of disdain, but he’s nothing but charming and sweet. he leaves with a promise of coming back.
and coming back he does. conveniently, whenever hyejin is working. he introduces himself to her as yao jiongmin, indeed a rich business man from shanghai, who’s spending a year in busan working at their local office. the more he visits her, the more she’s charmed by him. inevitably, jiongmin invites her out on a date and hyejin is only a little bit reluctant to accept. she’s been down this road before, she knows, but she’s still a romantic at heart and it’s hard to tell him no when he looks at her the way he does.
they fall in love. he doesn’t seem to mind she has a son, even when sunghee spends most of their first meeting hidden behind his mother’s legs and refusing to say a word to the man.
they get married less than a year later. hyejin’s parents, even more so than her, are at first scared that it’s going to be a repeat of sungki. that she’s going to leave only to have her heart broken by this older man. however, there’s some reassurance to be found at the fact that not only is jiongmin accomplished and successful in a way sungki never was, he’s offering marriage, not just a unstable relationship.
yet again, hyejin moves away from her childhood home to a place where her future lays. a different one, yeah, but one she looks forward to nonetheless.
iii.
after being taken care of by his family until his current age of four, sunghee, going by shengxi, is put in kindergarten within months of their move. it’s not hyejin’s first option, but since jiongmin works and her husband had insisted she went back to studying, she’d rather have her son learning how to socialize than to keep him at home with people looking after him. it’s expected the sunghee would feel reluctant to speak to others at first, especially since he barely knows the language, but jiongmin had assured her they’d find a place where at least one of the carers spoke korean, to make the language learning easier to him.
still, months pass and sunghee retreats further into himself. hyejin’s told about it but is reassured that it’s normal behavior and he’ll feel more comfortable once communicating becomes easier to him. when sunghee’s fifth birthday comes and goes and his behavior doesn’t seem to change, concerns are raised. not only he refuses to socialize with others around him, he takes to playing with himself completely, quickly getting tired of everything he starts, and seems to have lost some of the skills he had already learned by the time they moved to shanghai. at home, he’s impulsive and prone to random bursts of emotions that leave both hyejin and jiongmin confused. after one too many days of sunghee playing silently with one single toy, to the point of crying whenever it’s taken away from him, the caretakers suggest hyejin takes him to see a specialized doctor. with jiongmin busy as he always is during the day, hyejin has no other option but to take her month old daughter with her.
terrified that there’s something wrong with her child, hyejin watches as the doctor speaks to sunghee quietly, having handed him some crayons and papers that he happily draws on. his answers are short hums, as if he’s only half paying attention to the woman, who’s kind to him. it takes a couple of exams and a few more visits to the doctor for a diagnosis to be offered. jiongmin is with her when they are told sunghee most likely has both adhd and asd. they are reassured of their concerns when it comes to whether those are consequences of how he was raised, as well as the best course of treatment. since he’s young, they are told, sunghee can test out the best course of treatment in order to make life as easy for him to deal with as possible, and that he’ll grow up well, especially if his parents try their best to be supportive of him.
as it’s suggested, sunghee tries out several different types of therapies and therapists until they find one that is just right for him, one that helps with the vast majority of the symptoms. slowly, he goes back to speaking, learning mandarin and shanghainese with as much ease as he had learned korean. he regains the basic skills he had started losing, learns mechanisms to better handle his emotions as well as conversations and social interactions. sunghee had surprisingly taken to his sister well and, when his brother is born, their connection comes even faster. he’s deeply attached to both his siblings, working the role of the older brother like it was meant for him. with other kids and strangers, his reluctance to get close is visible and transparent, and he still struggles with making friends, but he learns way to make it easier.
music helps. it’s a suggestion by one of the therapists, that maybe learning an instrument will be good to him. there’s half the chance that sunghee won’t be interested at all and, thus, it would be a pointless pursuit, but they can try. he’s given a handful of options, paths he can follow, instruments to choose. they are surprised when he picks the guzheng, even more so when he takes to it as if he was born to do it. they were warned of the possibility of hyperfixation to a level of it being unhealthy to him, but sunghee practices it because he loves it and stops when he must. it’s added to his square routine, eventually joined by the liuqin as well as the guitar.
iv.
sunghee grows as he’s supposed to, the mechanisms from therapy indeed making life that bit easier to him, to the point where he’s back to being the joyful child he was as a baby. as much support as he’s given, hyejin doesn’t fail to notice when jiongmin grows distant from sunghee. there are two younger children for him to care about – kids he wasn’t even supposed to have, in the first place, but money hadn’t been an issue and there’s a lot you can get away with when you have as much as he does – so hyejin tries not to mind. she knows sunghee is everything jiongmin does not want for an heir, starting from his average grades. every moment he should spend studying is instead spent practicing, or with his siblings. jiongmin tries to forbid sunghee from playing his instruments until his grades are better but hyejin sets her foot down and reminds him that sunghee needs it more than he needs grades.
it’s a given that sunghee is not in the run to be the future owner of the family’s real estate business. even he notices it, at one point, how the expectations slowly go from him to his younger brother, even when the boy is nothing but a small child. having become fiercely protective of both his siblings, sunghee reaches the point of fighting with his step father about it when he’s only ten, which serves to only push them further away from each other. hyejin watches not knowing what to do, refusing to fight her husband or her child over this and knowing she’d have to eventually suffer the consequences of this choice.
the strained relationship with his step father has sunghee finding forms of escapism. he’s already prone to those but he ends up searching for more, ones that go beyond the instruments he plays and the anime he watches relentlessly. it’s how sunghee stumbles upon kpop. inevitably being raised tri-lingual, sunghee easily learns what to search for. decipher’s replay is one of the first music videos he watches and from there he looks further and further, until he’s using his mother’s credit card to buy albums from the most various kpop groups and artists. he goes from kpop to korean hip hop artists and from there to western hip hop. sunghee falls in love with all of those, some more than the others, but all of them in their own way.
v.
up until then, he had been floating, knowing there wasn’t anything in particular he wishes to do with his life eventually other than be around for his siblings and playing his instruments. even though the thought has crossed his mind in the past, auditioning for companies comes as a most definitely impulsive decision.
the summer after sunghee turns fourteen, he sees a few announcements for auditions to the big three companies that would be happening in shanghai. it doesn’t matter that he is perhaps too young for it because he’s already set on going. sunghee can’t walk in without someone responsible and he knows very well that neither of his parents would want to accompany him. instead, sunghee elects the help of an older cousin, someone who understands sunghee’s passion for music better than anyone else. and off he goes, his cousin driving him to and from the auditions, taking the guzheng, the liuqin and the guitar with him because sunghee knows he’d need to have something extra to offer. he tries for bc and gold star first, rapping in both his auditions. even though there is some degree of them being impressed with his skills in all three instruments and his not at all bad rapping, bc doesn’t think his visuals were quite up to their standards and gold star fails at finding any type of star power in him. discouraged, sunghee stills goes to dimensions’ audition. neither of the facts that had stopped him from joining bc and gold star come up, and dimensions seems interested enough in his rapping and his skills with instruments to give him a chance.
sunghee is… surprised, to say the least. as much as he had hoped, he doesn’t expect to actually get in, especially after being easily dismissed by the two companies before dimensions. he’s overjoyed but his happiness simmers when he realizes this mean he’s going to have to tell his parents. it’s inevitable, he had known that, if by some miracle he had gotten in, he’d have to talk to them about it.
hyejin says no, as sunghee knew she would. jiongmin says nothing, as sunghee had also known he would, yet sunghee reckons his step father disapproves of his decision, much like he’d have disapproved of anything that didn’t align exactly with the expectations jiongmin has of him. sunghee cries, sobs, begs, for once letting go of all the restraint he had to learn, and throws the mother of all tempter tantrums. it’s not even purposeful – sunghee is not used to be told no because there’s not much he asks for in the first place, his parents jumping in to give him what he needs before he so much as has to think about it.
there’s only so much of her son crying that hyejin can take and, after an entire day of it, she goes from no to how are we going to do this? if jiongmin disapproves, he doesn’t voice his opinion and sunghee can’t read his expressions or understand the nuances of his tone when he speaks to know the overall idea of what his step father is thinking. hyejin calls sunghee’s doctors – that had since been reduced from a team to only two – and is reassured that, wherever he goes, he can still consult with them through video and phone calls. they also let her know that, if he needs someone in person, there are always people they can recommend who would be happy to treat him.
another concern that arises is who sunghee is going to stay with, as hyejin refuses to let him live in a dorm with people he doesn’t know. it’s already going to be stressful enough as it is, she knows, and if he’s set on doing this, she doesn’t want it to be worse. she calls her brother, the one who had moved to seoul only five years prior, and he’s more than eager to receive sunghee for as long as he needs to stay around.
just like that, the matter is resolved. sunghee cries before he leaves, arms wrapped tightly around his siblings. the love he has for them is not one he understands, and there’s a never ending ache in his heart when he realizes that he’s not going to be able to see them as often as he’d like to. the hug he gets from his step-father doesn’t last long and that on itself manages to break his heart a bit. his mother flies with him to seoul, sticks around for almost two weeks when she originally was only going in order to sign the papers for his contract. sunghee cries the hardest when she leaves as he’s still in the process of getting settled and everything still feels foreign enough that it terrifies him a lot.
vi.
training is… it’s hard. sunghee is thrown completely out of his axis and the only saving grace is that trainee life has a routine even more strict than the one he had in the past. it still takes him a while to adjust to it and, wasn’t for his uncle and aunt, he knows it would’ve been impossible for him to settle properly. within the first month sunghee manages to make three different trainers mad at him, for various reasons, and words are thrown at him that sunghee is glad he doesn’t understand. after the third time, his aunt convinces sunghee to be honest to the company about his diagnosis. the boy is reluctant because he doesn’t want to either be defined by it or have them going easy on him because of it, but she insists that they are going to need to find out eventually.
his aunt goes with him when he tells them and whereas he’s worried they might kick him out because of it, he’s only asked about his treatment. the woman does most of the talking, explaining the details of his diagnosis and insisting that none of them make it impossible for sunghee to be a good trainee, but that there are still things to be taken into consideration with their treatment of him.
notes are taken and given to his trainers. the majority of them change the way they treat him, in subtle ways that sunghee doesn’t even notice beyond his trainee life becoming slightly easier to deal with. whoever doesn’t, at least avoids yelling at him as much as they do everybody else. it helps that sunghee is genuinely dedicated to what he’s doing. on his worst days, he’s not willing to talk much and his attention span is even more out of it than usual, but sunghee still tries. for once he’s allowed himself to have a dream, to hope for something, to want to become better at things he hadn’t even thought about before, and he puts in the necessary effort.
vii.
sunghee doesn’t expect to be offered a spot in unity when he does. he’s barely turned seventeen and he knows there are other trainees who are better than him, especially when it comes to dancing. definitely not one to question a decision that will be beneficial to him, sunghee takes it gladly. he’s even more surprised when they offer for him to contribute with the lyrics for unity’s debut song, the 7th sense. sunghee is thrilled to be able to do something he loves, to be given opportunities when he thought he wouldn’t get them at all.
an introvert at heart, the actual debut is a bigger challenge than what he had expected but one he faces head high. surrounded by members he’s known long enough to feel comfortable, sunghee allows for his excitable personality to shine through whenever unity attends variety shows and he gains a considerable fanbase because of that.
overall, sunghee is content with where unity is. their ever growing fanbase and international appeal terrifies him a bit, as none of them are certain of what can come from it.
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NA MINAH, better known as RUBY, is the LEAD VOCAL of LIPSTICK under BC ENTERTAINMENT. She was born on APRIL 7, 1992. She looks a little like JUNG EUNJI OF APINK.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: jung eunji of apink
legal name: na minah
stage name: ruby
pronouns: she/her
birth date: april 7th 1992
hometown: busan, south korea
position: lead vocal of lipstick
claims: none
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: none
na minah is born the first of four siblings and it immediately places her in some sort of caregiving role. even as a little girl she’s reminded by her parents that as the oldest, they all look up to her. she becomes a role model without even doing anything to insinuate such thing. before she even knows what that term means. all she knows is that she’s their big sister, that it’s her duty to take care of them, to meddle in petty arguments, to step up when someone is picking on them, to set the right example, to guide them in the right way. and even at such a young age, minah accepts that task with a firm nod and a steady hand.
her dad walks out when she’s 9. it’s been coming for a while now, even though minah is too young to really understand that, but over the past few months, she spends increasingly more nights huddling her younger brother and sister close to her as they’re all huddled in her bed while all hell breaks loose downstairs, as the sounds of her mother’s shrill yelling mixes with the shattering of glass and porcelain. sometimes, when she comes downstairs the next morning, her dad isn’t there, sometimes he isn’t there for a few days, but he always comes back. until suddenly he doesn’t anymore. minah is only 9 when she spends her nights petting her mother’s hair as she cries about a love that’s no longer there. her youngest sister is only a few months old when suddenly, it’s not longer the 5 of them but only the 4 of them and minah knows that from that moment on, she needs to step up to keep the household running, especially now her mother is solely in charge of feeding all of them.
when she’s 15, their tiny apartment becomes even more cramped. her maternal grandparents lose their home for the sake of some urban expansions. minah doesn’t know exactly what project it is they lose their house to but she does know that she has to give up her bedroom to share with her two younger sisters. minah doesn’t complain, she never does, she knows her grandparents are too suffering under the loss of their own place but still, losing her small private space in the apartment makes it all that much harder to breathe. studying isn’t half as easy with two younger girls constantly bickering behind her back. yet whenever her mother asks if it’s really not a problem, she’s eager to assure the woman it’s not. her mother has enough to deal with after all.
she’s 18, almost an adult when a man with a business card approaches her, the name bc entertainment brought to her attention on a warm summery afternoon she spends busking in the park near to her home. he offer her an opportunity to escape the chaos of her home, the unsure future plans due to a lack of proper funding for her to pursue university, an opportunity for her to be a star instead of the next nobody struggling to keep her family running and minah, selfless minah, hesitates to accept the offer. she’s never pictured herself as an idol, as someone people naturally feel attracted to, as someone people either want to be or want to be with. her mother insists she should do it though, her oldest sister, the one a mere 3 years below her urges that if minah doesn’t take the opportunity she’ll never talk to her again and it’s that that convinces minah to move from busan to seoul to chase a dream she doesn’t even know she has.
it’s 2 years later and she’s 20 when she debuts in lipstick and even though this should be the epitome of all her dreams coming true, it’s a rough time. she debuts as the lead vocal and while one of her vocal coaches tells her she only misses the main vocal spot narrowly, it’s the least of her concerns. she may not be the leader of the group but as one of the oldest members, she still finds a pressing responsibility resting on her shoulders, the need to have it all together for her girls in the same way she did for her siblings, to be a reliant and comforting presence even if that means to erase her own problems and with being on the wrong side of bc’s ceo’s favoritism, it isn’t easy. on top of that, her mother ends up out of work due to a grave back injury a few months after minah’s debut, leaving her with barely enough strength to keep the household running leave alone to bring money in and it makes minah ache to abandon the industry and go home to take care of her family instead, no matter how much it would ache to give up the feeling of being on stage she’s grown to adore. but she can’t go home, not with a contract wrapped around her neck like a leash, strangling her whenever she’s pulled in the direction of busan. all she can do is to sit still and do nothing as one of her siblings shares stories about their rapidly worsening home situation and minah hates it, she hates herself. she was supposed to protect her family, take care of them, she was so selfish for becoming an idol.
minah is 25, nearing 26 when the news of goeun’s departure hits the group like an oncoming train and the position of main vocal is more or less, while unofficially, dumped upon her. she never asked for the responsibility, never asked for anyone to compare her performances to goeun’s, to be constantly reminded she’s not goeun, that she can’t measure up, that without a powerful main vocal, lipstick just isn’t the same. yet minah swallows down all the comments and keeps up a brave face, it’s what she’s expected to do after all as one of the more mature and resilient members of the group, it’s what she’s expected to do as one of the most important vocalists of lipstick and their subunit lipgloss who are used as a distraction from the whole scandal. minah shoulders all those burdens, she doesn’t know how long she’ll last doing so, but until then she has to, for the sake of the rest of the group.
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JAEYEOL JEON is MAIN VOCAL 2 of UNITY under DIMENSIONS ENTERTAINMENT. He was born on JUNE 30, 1997. He looks a little like LEE DONGHYUCK (HAECHAN) OF NCT.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: lee donghyuck (haechan), member of nct
legal name: jaeyeol jeon
stage name: jaeyeol
pronouns: he/him/his
birth date: june 30, 1997
hometown: hillcrest, south australia, australia
position: main vocal 2 of unity
claims: none
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: abusive parents, verbal abuse, physical abuse, misogyny
i. jaeyeol jeon was set to succeed in life from the day he was born, he would be strong, charming, intelligent; everything that a man should be, everything that would make his family proud, at least in his father’s eyes. his son could never grow up to be anything less than a perfect man. Afterall he would be raised by the perfect family: a lawyer father, a stay-at-home mother, and a big brother to look up to. nothing could go wrong, surely.
ii. life was far from perfect, just like jaeyeol was. his early memories consisted of his parents fighting, though it was mostly his father screaming while his mother cowarded away while attempting to rectify whatever had upset her husband this time. there were times when his father would go to storm out of the home, passing his youngest son who had been sitting in the next room crying because the yelling had upset him, only for his father to pause and approach jaeyeol to scold him, yell at him as well, because boys don’t cry. jaeyeol never did learn that lesson. other times his father would bypass him, allowing the young boy to make his way to where he heard his mother at. sometimes she had bruises forming on her face, and sometimes not, but they both had tear-strain cheeks, and she would comfort him, wipe away the tears, tell him that everything was going to be okay.
iii. everything didn’t seem okay when one day when he was four, his mother took him up to his room while his grandmother did the same with his older brother,, telling him how they were going to go live with his grandparents for a while as she started to pack his clothes and toys away. later on when the car was packed jaeyeol saw his father there, he had been in the house the entire time, though he hadn’t seemed to have packed anything and wasn’t following them into the car. He remembered his brother asking it along with his grandmother answering that their father would not be coming.
iv. things were okay for a while after his parents divorced. his father had moved back to his hometown in south korea and eventually got remarried, she was young and jaeyeol never really liked her. jaeyeol and his brother occasionally made the trip to visit their father, when he called and demanded their school breaks be spent with him, he had to make sure his sons were being raised right and that they weren’t going to turn into sad excuses for men when they were older. that was the time when jaeyeol had found himself on the other end of his father’s constantly yelling because he had done something wrong. once he tried to argue back, defend himself, only to be the one to end up with bruises. he stopped arguing after that.
normally they lived with their grandparents, until their mother remarried as well a few years later. after they moved once again, it felt like life hadn’t changed even if the occupants in the house were different. their step-father was similar to their father, he remembered them fighting as well, how he would walk down for breakfast in the morning and still see his mother’s bruises sometimes.
v. jaeyeol continued to grow of course, moving from adolescents to teenagedom. life never did change, his parents and step-parents stayed the same and he did his best to conform to their beliefs, but he wasn’t happy. he didn’t want to go off to university and get a business degree like his father demanded, a man’s job as he had heard a hundred times. He didn’t know what he wanted otherwise, but that wasn’t it.
one day when he was 16 during the break from school for summer and the holidays, he and his friend were approached by a woman he would later learn was from an entertainment company in south korea. jaeyeol mostly ignored what the woman was saying to them. this wouldn’t be something that his family would approve of, but his friend had listened. a few days later jaeyeol found himself being dragged along to an audition he didn’t want to go to all because his friend couldn’t bare to go through the auditions alone. so jaeyeol auditioned for some company he had never heard of, not expecting anything to come of it. he knew he could sing decently after being forced to take a choir course in school for the credits, but surely he wasn’t good enough to do anything with it. which was why the phone call that came the next day saying he passed was a shock.
the bigger shock was that jaeyeol was honestly considering moving from his home to another country he’d been to a few times over the years all to maybe end up a singer. he thought about how angry his father would have been knowing he even went to the audition, but then he thought about how what his father wanted wasn’t what he wanted. maybe this was some shining beacon in his life, his way out. if nothing worked out, he could always give up, come back home, try to make up for his dumb decisions.
that night he asked his mother to sign the consent forms to let him go, not truly telling her what the extended trip entailed, , not that she would have said no to her son. a few weeks later, just after new years, jaeyeol was on a plane to seoul.
vi. jaeyeol jeon was set to succeed in life from the day he was born, but not in the way anyone had expected.
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OON SAMSOO, better known as SOO, is MAIN VOCAL 1 of UNITY under DIMENSIONS ENTERTAINMENT. He was born on JANUARY 2, 1994. He looks a little like KIM SEOKWOO (ROWOON) OF SF9.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: kim seokwoo (rowoon), member of sf9
legal name: oon samsoo
stage name: soo
pronouns: he/him
birth date: january 2nd, 1994
hometown: seoul, south korea
position: main vocal 1 of unity
claims: none
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: bullying
silence. that was all samsoo had ever really known. he wasn’t one for making much noise, even when he was a baby. his mother swore that even when he was born, he didn’t make a sound, which he thought was a little bit of an exaggeration, but she stood by her claim so full heartedly that he had no choice but to believe her. not that it was really that unbelievable in the first place. saying that he was the silent type was an understatement. it wasn’t that he couldn’t talk, he just made the choice not to. he liked being quiet, he liked staying to himself. despite his silence, he had developed mentally at a fast pace. not that anyone would know that, because he refused to actually speak. his parents took him to psychologists and doctors, but they couldn’t find anything wrong with him because there wasn’t anything wrong with him. it was just how he was, but his parents didn’t like that.
his parents didn’t want a son that was “broken”. they wanted him to be like his older brothers, someone strong and outgoing and likable. everyone wanted to be around the older two. they loved they and always compared samsoo to them. why can’t you be more like your brothers? why can’t you be outgoing like them? why don’t you have friends like your brothers do? at first the comparisons used to upset him and make him think he wasn’t good enough, but he slowly learned to accept it. by the time he was nine years old, he knew that his parents wouldn’t love him like they loved his brothers, and he was okay with that. he grew to accept the looks of contempt and annoyance he got from his parents, and the looks of sympathy he received from his brothers.
that changed with the arrival of his sister. she, of course, was given even more attention than he was, being the only girl and the youngest. but she was different. instead of pushing samsoo away, he became her favorite sibling. from the moment she could crawl, she would always follow him around and want to be around him, and that didn’t bother him all that much. he loved her just as much as she loved him, and he was more than happy to have her around whenever he could. they became very close to one another, and they’ve only strengthened their sibling bond over the years.
going through school wasn’t easy for him. he was bullied a lot for being smaller and quieter than everyone else. he was the perfect target because he was the one person who wouldn’t squeal and tell on them. they could get away with pushing him around and beating him up. it wasn’t fair, but that was just the way that things were. like the treatment he received from his parents, it was something that he accepted without much trouble.
at the age of nine, samsoo discovered the art of music and quickly fell in love with it. singing was comforting for him in more ways than one. it helped put him at ease. people began asking him to sing for them, something that he hated. he hated the attention gave him because of his voice. now they wanted to like him and treat him nice? just because he could sing? he didn’t appreciate it in the slightest.
when samsoo was twelve years old, his parents sent him and his older brothers to the states to separate boarding schools. it was there that he started taking singing more seriously and joined the choir at his school. Samsoo believes that this time of his life is the most crucial period because without it, he wouldn’t have become the person and idol that he is today.
he stayed overseas until he was sixteen, then moved back to south korea for one reason - to pursue music. his parents weren’t particularly happy with what he wanted to do with his life, his father wanting him to go down one of the more traditional career paths, but he was adamant about what he wanted. for the first time in his life, he put his foot down against his parents, and they actually listened to him. they allowed him to start auditioning for companies, and when he found one that accepted him - dimensions, his parents signed off on it.
it was during his time as a trainee with dimensions that he started to build up his confidence from the ground up. it was hard in the beginning, and he had to fake it quite a few times, but eventually his confidence became more and more genuine. instead of just telling himself that he was a great singer that deserved success, he started to actually believe it as well.
unfortunately, and much to samsoo’s surprise, his great singing and newfound confidence weren’t enough to get him added to alien’s lineup. he was irritated by the news that he hadn’t made the cut, but he decided to let it go. he just assumed dimensions must have thought he needed more training time. he had only been a trainee for about a year and a half at that point, he needed more time. that was what he kept telling himself.
then mars debuted, much like alien, without him. the irritation he felt before returned full force, and this time it was joined by aggravation and anger. he’d been a trainee for four years at that point, arguably one of the best vocal trainees dimensions had. why were they refusing to debut him? it just didn’t make any sense to him. as much as he tried to voice his complaints, he was always shut down or flat out ignored.
he was growing restless as a trainee. he wanted to debut so badly that he was considering departing from dimensions and finding another company. the only thing holding him back was the fact that he was scared that if he went to another company, he would be stuck in their trainee basement just like he was at dimensions. his fears eventually proved to be all for naught, because in december of 2015, he was told that he would be debuting in just a few months’ time. from then up until april of the following year, everything moved like a blur. samsoo could barely remember all of the long hours of recording their debut songs and practicing in the dance studio they had endured. which he didn’t think was a bad thing. in fact, he kind of preferred it that way.
samsoo can say without any hesitation that he’s happy today. unity are only getting bigger and bigger with more opportunities on the horizon, and with those opportunities come opportunities for samsoo to pursue his own solo career, which has been his end goal since the beginning.
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YOON JIYOO, better known as JYNX, is the MAIN DANCER AND LEAD VOCAL of ARIA under GOLD STAR MEDIA. She was born on JULY 1, 1995. She looks a little like PARK JIHYO OF TWICE.
CHARACTER INFORMATION
faceclaim: park jihyo ( twice )
legal name: yoon jiyoo
stage name: jynx
pronouns: she/her
birth date: july 1st, 1995
hometown: seoul, south korea
position: main dancer, lead vocal - aria
claims:
It’s A Dream - Park Boram - Prison Playbook OST ( 2018 )
We All Lie - Ha Jin - Sky Castle OST ( 2018 - 2019 )
BIOGRAPHY
triggers: n/a
she couldn’t remember life much before she fully lived with her father.
she remembered asking her mother where he was, when would he come home and stay for good. and she remembered her mother waving it off, telling her to just wait.
but she was loud and curios and she couldn’t wait, not without asking at least.
but he finally came and for a while, life was good. they didn’t have a lot but they did have enough and jiyoo was happy.
happy.
it didn’t last for long. while jiyoo lived her life, her family had started to crack. it wasn’t until her mom left that it hit her in face, the woman was really gone. only a note left behind and it was short. so short.
i can’t do this anymore.
jiyoo knew what her mother meant. they had almost nothing. her mother wanted a fine life, a life full of money. ( something she learned later on in life was that her father had promised her this. ) but they didn’t have it and she didn’t want it. not while she still had her youth and that the ability to find the life she wanted. jiyoo just wished it didn’t hurt so much. she couldn’t think of leaving her father but she would’ve thought it over if mother asked.
but she didn’t and she was left alone. left wondering how she could’ve been a better daughter. ( and if her mother would’ve waited, she could’ve had it all. ) but her father finally hit big, moved on up on the chain and became the head of his own branch.
so it shouldn’t have been shocking that her father re-married.
and he married up. way up. suddenly she had more money that she thought she would’ve. but there were rules. learn how to be a classy lady, don’t speak out. don’t ask for more and the biggest one. one that came from her father funny enough.
remember what they came from.
suddenly, she was boxed in. everything had been set and it made her miss her old life because in her old life, she was nothing more but jiyoo. she had nothing attached to her and nothing to hold her back. but she still had her dreams, it was always her dream to be famous. ( a dream that came after her mother left, if she did become famous than the woman would come back. )
jiyoo just wasn’t sure how. at that point, she wasn’t sure of any real talent she had. she didn’t know how to start and a part of her was scared to ask.
until a friend told her to audition to become an idol. she had a nice singing voice, she was the top in the dance club they had at her school and right away jiyoo dismissed it. her family wouldn’t allow it. well, she had been sure her family wouldn’t allow it. it just didn’t seem like something they would support. just as quickly as the idea was brought forward, jiyoo put it down herself.
so maybe it was fate.
they were at some event, she couldn’t really care. these events had become normal. too normal. people who pretended to be friends, people who had to move in a sly way because being yourself was seen as a weakness.
but she was given an offer.
it was just to model, the rep had friendship with the family and they liked her as a model. she had a good enough face to push products as a child and surprisingly her new family took it up. with most of the encouragement coming from her step-mother.
goldstar entertainment.
it seemed like this company was good enough for her family, they didn’t make a face at the time. ( and why would they? there was a rep here. )
but it didn’t take long for that to change. not long at all. at first it was just hanging out with the idol trainee’s, practicing with them once their official practice was over. it started with someone noticing her dancing skills, something she hadn’t really put out there. then noticing she could sing. and then the offer came, to be an official idol trainee.
to debut.
it was tempting but it was the thought of her family that held her back. if they would support it and if it would be worth the headache. to her shock ( really, it was beyond shocking in the moment. ) they arrived and jiyoo was sure something happened behind the scenes. something had to happen behind the scenes for them to be okay with it. ( all her assumptions because she had never asked if they would be okay with it. jiyoo thought the worst. )
the next day she walked into the company, she was an idol trainee. her schedule changed, they worked her in her two main skills. just like that, this had become her life.
it was long and hard but it finally came. a concept that she felt like she was able to fit in. a concept that would match a girl that came from a family with money. it couldn’t be wild or sexy, someone would trace back her family soon enough. articles would come out when she went to family event. image was important and this image was something they could accept. ( once again, something she thought. never asked about. )
but it came and it came quick.
the day of their debut showcase, jynx was born. and it felt surreal. she wasn’t the most-stand out member. arguably one of the more unknown ones to the public for such a small group. but jiyoo was one to take everything in stride, quickly winning over a small niche of fans. offering charms that other member’s might not of have. a true girl crush, a departure from her family’s image. a member that fans could make clips of and laugh at. laugh with. she might not have been the star but jiyoo knew she had fans.
that made it easier.
and soon enough, she had quickly carved out a niche for herself in the media good or bad. aria didn’t have many scandals, they bounced back from a member leaving. they were the picture perfect girl group for the most part. but jiyoo? she wore her heart on her sleeve and that caused trouble sometimes. comments about her blunt nature, calling things out in the moment even if it meant talking to a senior ( but it was an accident, she forgot to hold herself back. ) , an expression that slipped. and while some called her rude, other’s thought she was refreshing, friendly and open. ( or if you asked the people in the background. they knew her character while the media only thought about the title. )
but there was nothing too scandalous, nothing too bad. just comments that didn’t hold from people who found a reason not to like her. all in all, jiyoo was happy. things could be better but she was happy and now? she’s ready to tackle the next part of her life. so far, she had been happy as just being a member of aria. but she had come to realize that she didn’t do enough to crave out her own path. they groups were debuting and soon enough they were would be phased out. ( as if they already weren’t. )
but’s a challenge she looks forward to, what almost felt like a new start in her life.
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