#first dmt experience

[anotherpapercut]

Ayo, as someone whose only hallucinogenic experiences have been in the following, what are your thoughts on/have you tried DMT and/or salvia (divinorum)? I tried both in the one night a couple of years ago and it was an incredibly enjoyable experience but I've not tried other hallucinogens, I wouldn't mind knowing how you compare it to other hallucinogens! (if you can)

I've not tried salvia but I have tried dmt a couple times and funnily enough I fucking HATED it. like I've tried maybe 2.5 times and I remember the whole time (for context for those who don't know, dmt lasts like 15 minutes max lmao) being like "holy shit I need this to be over NOW holy fuck I'm gonna DIE" bc for me it honestly felt like insanely intense sensory overload. like everything was loud and bright and assaulting my brain. a poster of some kittens saved my fucking life one of the times ajhdkabdjd I stared at them and they gently lifted me back to reality

so I think if you started with DMT and salvia ur fuckin GOOD bro like ur ready lol. acid is pretty similar feeling to DMT except imo a lot less intense, and it lasts all fucking day so you can do a lot of Fun Activities. shrooms are pretty similar, usually a lot easier to tailor ur dose ime and they last like 5-7ish hrs usually as opposed to the like 8-15 you get with acid. so w those two I think if you liked DMT and salvia you'll probably like them, bc they're very similar just less intense and longer acting! from what I've experienced the visuals and stuff are slightly different on all of these but it's the same kind of experience. so most people I know have 1 favorite that for whatever reason meshes best w their brain (I'm an acid guy, most people I know find shrooms to be gentler tho!)

MDMA is probably my personal favorite in the psychedelic class because that shit is straight happiness to your brain. music is great on most drugs but on molly oh my god. like. you need to dance bc all of your cells are dancing. and you LOVE. just so much LOVE. I recommend doing a candy flip (acid and molly) or a hippie flip (shrooms and molly) bc the effects play off each other and make for an extremely pleasant experience (provided you're being safe of course!!!!). I would NOT do this ur first time for clarification, because you always wanna see how you do on stuff alone first but if you end up liking them keep it in the back of ur mind for someday when ur favorite band releases a new album or smth :)

#so funny to me that u fuckin started with the crazy intense ones i love that for u anon #ur stronger than i an dmt absolutely killed my brain lmao. most of what i remember is intense buzzing and paranoia #like i said i just stared at this kitten on a poster i have and he spoke to me and kept me calm #and him and the other kittens guided me safely back to earth lmfaooooo #and ive not tried it since ajhdkabsns. sometimes i swear i can taste it in my weed and im like OH GOD NOOO but its not that kfnajdb #imo it smells like fucking burning plastic. haunts me jdhdjsn #drug ed #for molly safety see what i posted yesterday! #ilso if like me u are a music guy i cannot recommend acid enough for listening to albums #i prefer to listen to new albums the first time on acid because it makes for a really beautiful experience usually #and then when you listen to it again youll feel the acid afterglow and get all warm and fuzzy

[iamthat-iam]

Silence is the key to everything 🤫

Katie discovered Non Dualism through Yourhigherself (RIP to their channel), Sunny Sharma (also on YouTube) and a few Tumblr accounts.

They have all described a feeling of oneness with everything, and no longer feeling seperation. To Katie, this sounds like something she'd experience during a psychedelic trip. It sounds cool!

All she has to do is "Just Be and Go Within." Sounds easy enough?

Everyday, Katie would take some time to just sit, let the thoughts pass and rest in the silence between. After a few minutes, this became boring. Where's this oneness feeling everyone has been talking about? Where's the omnipotence?

She went to a blogger and asked "Hey, so I tried just being and going within like you guys have told us to do, but the only thing that happens is silence. Which gets boring after a while if I'm being honest. Am I doing something wrong? Why don't I feel the oneness or omnipotence you always talk about?"

The blogger responded with "What exactly are you expecting to happen? Think about it like this, if your true nature was always omnipotence and oneness, wouldn't it feel natural for you? The way it feels 'natural' to think of yourself as a seperate person? Of course it may feel 'boring' or 'mundane', this is not a DMT trip or big transformation. The point of "going within" is to see that you have always been THAT. Silence is oneness, it's where you're not labelling appearances and thinking yourself to be separate from everything."

The answer gave Katie some clarity. I guess it wouldn't make sense for there to be a "transformitive self-realization experience" if she has always been THAT or " " in the first place. She decided to send a follow up ask.

"That makes sense. This also applies to omnipotence as well? I kinda expected it to feel like I'm aware of several different POVs at once."

"Your omnipotence is your ability to appear as anything. You are the phone you typed into, the chair you are sitting in, the surrounding furniture, the moon, the ocean, the stars, and the sky. As I said before, you have always been this," the blogger replied.

It finally clicked. This whole time, Katie was searching for something outside herself. She was seeking for a grand experience, when in reality she was just looking for herself.

#non dualism #nondualism #consciousness #awareness #self #self realization #advaita vendata #advaita vedanta

[lotusmi]

I healed my void journey with this

I was not going to post this sub but... I healed my void journey with it!! 💗

I had firstly made this sub only for me to use, but I am now sharing it with you! I hope this sub makes the same effect on you. I hope you feel completely freed from everything that was making you feel like you could not make it. You can. Everyone can. We can. Okay?

I used the base of affirmations from The Mirage, but without dmt frequency and alpha waves instead, the same alpha waves @gorgeouslypink recommended in her first post. I also added last sub afffirmations (I already entered in the void one), morse, morphic fields and binary codes! 🍨 you can use this for wake up in the void, to tap, to only 'fix' your void concept, to sleep and suddenly wake up in the void or in any way you want! <3 🍓 headphones are recommended ;) 💬my experience:

Well, as mostly of you know. I had been having this "weird feeling" about the void for so long. Even tho I wanted to tap, I did not had an "deep down" desire, and I could not understand why. It's been 5 months since I started feeling like this about the void. Even tho I wanted to enter, I did not entirely felt like doing it. It was like I was fighting myself. I had no fear and no doubts, the problem was not the void, it was me. I tried to fix this for so long but I ended up giving up and I thought "well, some day I will tap". I did not wanted to be obsess with it. So I let it go of forcing myself to do or feel things.

Back to yesterday night, I put the sub on and layed, I tried to relax and just let it be. But something weird happened. It was like I was back at october, before my birthday. By that time I wanted so bad to tap into the void, my birthday was coming soon and I had some things happening in my life that were making my days really tiring. As you can tell, I did not entered. Looking by it now, I understand why: I could not relax and let my body calm, I would think in a million of things like "Why I am not feelin anything? Why it is taking me this long? Am I ever entering?" I focused in symptoms and time. So yesterday, It clicked to me why I lost my 'interest' in void. I was thinking I had not the desire, but it was not it. I had the desire. But it was blocked, it was blocked since when I failed I got super stressed and sad. Everyone was entering by that time and I felt like an exception. Then as a self defense, I tried to make myself believe I did not wanted to enter or it was not my time. By doing that, I would not have the desire to even try, and not trying, I would not fail.

This was the only way I found to protect myself from the fear 'what if i really never enter'? If it was so, then I would have to prepare myself. And the way I found was to act as if I did not wanted to do it. "But I still wanted to enter, I told you. Well the thing I discovered is that I always wanted, but somehow I created this shield to 'protect me' feeling like it was 'not that important', when deep down I just tried to make the void look less interesting because I did not wanted to feel sad because I failed"

Today is the first time in months that I feel like I REALLY, like really can do it. I feel so much freed. This was a HUGE weight in my back for months. I literally cried so bad because I could not understand for all this time why I felt like that. And I finally understand myself. Finally. It's like all my soul is now cleaned and I finally can take my next step.

#law of assumption #living in the end #loatumblr #loa blog #neville goddard #void state #manifesting #subliminals #Youtube #law of abundance #loa tumblr #States #wish fulfillment #Dream life #I am #I am god #healing #motivation

[shifterbee]

WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD

My Relationship With Reality Shifting

What I'm going to be talking about:

How I found out about shifting

My initial thoughts/ feelings about shifting

What led me to believe in shifting

Why I don't doubt that shifting is real

What doubts I do have (let's be honest, not everyone can be completely free of doubts)

My approach to shifting when I first started

My current approach to shifting

I didn't want this post to be too long so if you want/need me to explain anything further then let me know <3

Any trigger warnings will be in place wherever may be necessary <3

How it all started:

Like many people in this community, I first found out about shifting through TikTok in 2020. In my case, it was around mid-September when I was scrolling through my FYP and saw the video that changed my life forever.

OK, that was a bit dramatic, but you get the point. The video that I saw was this girl acting out something that she claimed happened in her DR. The scene went something like this (my memory is really blurry, so bear with me):

She had just shifted back to her DR, and It was during the battle at Hogwarts. there were a bunch of people coming up to her saying things like "Where did you go?" and "We missed you so much"(your typical 2020 misinformation). the battle was starting, and she looked at everyone and said, "I know what will help us. everyone close your eyes, trust me." IDK, I think she was trying to group shift everyone out of her DR???? either way it didn't work but when they opened their eyes the portals from Avengers Endgame(I think) started opening up and the Avengers stepped out of them. Her reaction to that was like "Well I guess that also works".

There might have been more to it, but that's all I can remember right now. Also PLEASE tell me if you also saw that video and/or remember who posted it. I wonder what they're doing now.

At first, I was a little confused, but then I looked at the tags and saw one that said: "reality shifting." at this time, my FYP was filled with a bunch of fanfic-related stuff, So I guess because of that, I just assumed that reality shifting was just a weird fanfic tope used in crossover fics. I was also sort of on DracoTok, so I wasn't really confused about why I would be seeing Harry Potter fanfic on my FYP.

I scrolled away from the video and didn't think much of it until a few days later when I looked up the tag and saw a bunch of videos with advice and methods on how to shift. at this point I was very confused and I was just thinking "Wait, are these people being fr". After scrolling through the tag for a bit I found a video explaining what it was.

I don't know who made that video. But one thing I do know is that I have never doubted the existence of shifting since.

Why I started believing:

I'm just going to use bullet points for this section. but if you want me to go into more detail about anything, let me know.

my prior knowledge/belief of out-of-body experiences (i.e. astral projection)

my belief that humans are always more powerful than what we usually think/believe.

Also, potential TW: brief mention of drugs

probably the biggest reason was a story I heard from a YouTuber about one of his friends who, after taking DMT, claimed to have lived in a forest with elves for 3 years and was able to give a detailed description of what happened in those 3 years. The story I'm talking about is about 10 minutes into this video I immediately thought of this story when I saw videos of people talking about their experiences in their DRs. And since this drug is something that can be naturally produced by the brain, it didn't seem like much of a stretch to suggest that you could trigger its production without taking any drugs.

I want to make it very clear that I am not promoting or encouraging the use of drugs/illegal substances in order to shift.

My approach to shifting then vs. now:

I have always treated shifting like a skill. At first, I thought that if I practiced the methods/techniques I learned from Shifttok enough, I would eventually have to shift.

Now, I treat shifting as something you allow yourself to do rather than force. It's kind of like sleeping. The more you try to force it, the less likely it's going to happen.

More recently, I have been focusing more on improving my confidence when it comes to my abilities. In my opinion, it is not enough to intend to do something you also have to have the confidence to be able to do it.

I think that is why most people aren't shifting. There are only so many times a person can fail at something and not lose their confidence.

End Notes:

I think that this is all I wanted to say. But, once again, if you want me to explain something, let me know what it is.

#shiftblr #shifting #reality shifting #desired reality #shifters #shifter #shifting antis dni #shifting realities #reality shifter #shifting community

[henrysglock]

High Existence and ZeroSpace: The First Shadow and NINA May Be Massive, Immersive Drug Trips

The blurb in last Friday's video from TFS sounded familiar, but I couldn't place it. I found a lot of sites quoting The Alchemist about the universe conspiring to give you what you truly want (which is similar and it's probably what I was thinking of when this blurb registered as familiar), but I couldn't find this exact quote:

Well...not at first, anyway. I decided to stick every word I could make out here ^ into my search bar...and I found where the blurb comes from:

This blog post is quite literally the only source I could find for it, and the whole damn thing is directly lifted.

Right off the bat, the site fucking jump-scared me:

And it doesn't end there. Let's dive in, because this rabbit hole is a trip unto itself...no MDMA​ ​required.

1. The Fucking Website...#1 (HighExistence.com)

High Existence is a sort of drug-induced-spiritual-trip centered self-help site.

It's got blog posts and podcasts and all that jazz. Here are some of the highlights:

Wow! That was...a lot. A lot of words from the word show, too:

Wholeness, heroes, ancient aliens, prisons of politeness, and the fucking Shire, too, I guess. Why not?

(An Aside: I've included the VR in here too because of the sheer similarities between Henry's experience with the Shadow in VR, El's experience in NINA, and The First Shadow in general.)

Like fuck it, why not keep going, these posts date back to at least 2017:

And don't let me start in on that Creel boy and Faust...

[Jason voice] "[Eddie] made a deal with the devil and now he has his powers!" (Also we get it, one of them is neurotic and the other is psychotic. I've been saying this since like...forever)

Of course, all that insanity aside, the Russian base arc has just...an insane amount of ST4 and TFS stuff packed into it in general:

(And this isn't even all of it. I know others [cough] Stav Heroesbyler [cough] have covered it even more...but bro it is THERE)

But most importantly for the NINA arc:

Three things: Dialogue doubling (there's the one I showed, plus a) Robin yelling "Wipeout!" at Steve which has the pipeline -> "Wipeout!" at Rink-O-Mania -> 002-005 bullying El in a very similar manner and b) Steve's "that's amazing" line about the water fountain -> "This is amazing!" not only from Alice irt the Creel house but also from Mike irt Will's painting on their way to save El from NINA. Again, these are just a few of MANY instances), makeup doubling with the bloodshot eyes, and my beloved: set/prop doubling.

I love that beautiful framing on the nearly-identical square clocks. I have so much to say about that clock, but specifically:

The clocks being set 9 minutes apart, which happens to be the exact length of time from the end of Vecna's voiceover in 4.07 to the start of the fight sequence in 4.07 (aka the length of One's frozen-clock monologue).

Not only that, but the clock isn't even right. It says it's 3:55, but it's definitely not 3:55 AM (see: movie theater scene) but it's also not 3:55 PM:

(And why do we have a clock in an elevator anyway? That's the real question. That thang only exists to deliver subtext, baby! It exists to connect the two scenes further!)

Anyway, as you all likely noticed, this site mostly deals in psychedelics, stimulants, and empathogens.

link

Hell, you could even pull One's bit on the ecosystem into it, since he's describing connections between beings that are being disturbed/destroyed by humanity.

Anyway, the site tends to center specifically on DMT and MDMA...so let's talk about those:

MDMA & DMT An aside: Interesting to me that psychosis here can be counteracted with sedatives. Makes me wonder if whatever happened in 1979 could have been halted if they'd just tranq'd One. Hm.

First off: Did I read that right? Piggy-backing? Damn, son. 4.09, The Piggyback, is pictured in that paragraph. So is Brenner's candy bit with the children -> "candy flipping" vs LSD use in Brenner's lab.

Second: Ah, how nice. Intravenous/injectable. Just like how El is constantly being shot up with...something...to enter NINA.

Now, nearly all psychedelics can induce psychosis, but especially so if they're combined with other psychoactive substances and/or if the user has a history of psychosis (either themselves or in their family).

However, MDMA specifically has been posited as a treatment for PTSD and retrograde/traumagenic amnesia:

link Like...wow. Okay, I guess!

tl;dr: One seems to have been tripping fucking balls during the monologue. Literally every fucking version of him. El likely is as well. Funny how that works. Was any of that real? [smash cut to the way blood pours down the walls and the dead children dance around in the VR version of NINA] And either way, Henry in TFS isn't far behind with his hallucinogenic moments.

The connection? Whatever the hell is going on in Hawkins Labs...and symptoms of drug use.

I was not expecting to get this much out of a single rabbit hole. But...that's life with this show, isn't it? And this is only Part 1.

2. The Fucking Website...#2 (Futurism.com)

The guy who made that original post that TFS lifted the blurb from (Jordan Lejuwaan) runs a couple different websites. The most interesting one is Futurism, which is basically an online version of the Weekly Watcher:

It won't let me filter by date, but it seems to have been founded in 2017, stemming from an infographic subreddit. (Now, it says it's a trustworthy news source, and maybe it is, but... Do your own assessment of that. I'm not your mother, yknow?)

Jordan Lejuwaan was also involved in something far more interesting irt Stranger Things...

3. Zero Space

Jordan co-founded an immersive, interactive theater experience called ZeroSpace back in 2018. As we all know, TFS was just in the beginning phase of its creation around this time.

So...This was like a brick to the skull:

"Alice in Wonderland" (don't get me started: rabbit fuckery, DRUGS!!!!!, clocks/being later, Alice Creel, Fringe connections (Through The Looking Glass and What Walter Found There being the episode about the pocket universe where 20 years passed in 5 days...and also wherein we find out about him hiding away an Observer child that he will later time travel with to save the world from the Observer takeover...erasing himself from time/the timeline by doing so...there is SO much) not to mention the "one pill makes you larger/smaller" vs teen El and baby El...it's too much to try and fit in this post), "ALIENS AND LASERS", "stretch the perceived reality of the sense", "art, actors and your own mind converge to prompt MORE QUESTIONS THAN ANSWERS" (which was a common complaint about TFS: it leaves people with more questions than answers).

("See you on the other side" being an in-show line from Henry in the lab to Patty in the void, but this image is ripped directly from the same promo video that the High Existence blurb appears in.)

Here's a little taste of what ZeroSpace is like, but I suggest going to the actual page to see it in action:

It's heavily heavily reminiscent of TFS, even just in the content warnings...

Not to mention the actual show content SFX:

However, the goal of TFS isn't to stretch our senses. We're just watching. We are not the volunteer seeing the other side.

For most of the show, that person is Henry (except the first 5 mins, when it's Cptn. Brenner and his crew literally experiencing the other side). Henry is doing the experiencing. He's the one breaking the fourth wall by picking at/breaking the sets, the one running through the audience and leaving out the theater doors (only to end up right back on stage just like El in the Rainbow Room in 4.05).

With each bit of info I find out adjacent to the play, the more convinced I am that this is some secret third boy's experience in a NINA-like simulation.

Overall—

a) TFS most likely isn't wholly real, and it seems very likely that it's the same kind of simulation as NINA.

b) El was probably drugged up with some kind of empathogenic psychedelic going into NINA, likely with the goal of setting her up to form emotional connections quickly and deeply only to rip that deep connection away in order to bolster her abilities.

c) NINA is not, then, wholly based in truth. Parts of NINA (staring at the bullying from 002-005) may have been generated from El's memories of the outside world.

d) With NINA and TFS seeming so similar, I wouldn't be shocked if parts of it are just one massive empathogen trip (staring at how quickly Henry and Patty bond, similarly to how quickly Henry and El bond in NINA).

e) Whoever is in NIA with teen El is also tripping balls, most likely, and may have gone off the rails in that regard. However, that's in a simulation...hard to assign guilt or blame for things done in a fictional/unreal world.

f) Whoever was with baby El in 1979 may have been in a similar situation "moving chess pieces"-style instead. Read: drugged in order to put him in a situation where he would bolster El's latent abilities...and it went wrong (see also: Walter Bishop's orchestrated/fake massacre meant to bolster Olivia's latent abilities.)

g) Richard Brenner having been the head of narcotics makes me question which Brenner we're seeing at any given time: Martin, or Richard?

#st nina project #st: tfs #henry creel #el hopper #non-consensual drug use #medical malpractice #ZeroSpace #High Existence

[blubushie]

i hear there’s a spooky story to be told?

CLAPS HANDS TOGETHER. It's time for the actual scariest thing I've seen in the bush!

A TALE OF LSD

Warning: DO NOT FUCKING READ THIS if it's night time where you are, or monsters/paranormal/supernatural/ghost shit freaks you out. If you read it anyway it is NOT MY PROBLEM.

About a year ago, I decided to try LSD.

I had never done LSD before! I do however have a lot of experience with mushrooms and DMT. Mushrooms are on the low end of the psychedelic experience and DMT is on the high end, so I figured that LSD's intensity would be somewhere between both of these, like a heroic dose of shrooms or something. So I buy some acid tabs off a bloke I know, go bush, and it's a Friday arvo when I make camp and feed Misty. I have a quick sleep and four hours later I figure yeah, ok, let's do this.

(Little-known fact about me: I don't like tripping during the day and I actually prefer tripping at night. One, I adore how the stars look during a trip, and two, night time is preferred because there's little interference from the outside world. It feels "calmer," if that makes sense, and so I feel safer.)

I chew the tab (it's a little jelly thing), chase it with some water, then lie back in bed and wait for a bit. Eventually I got bored and started reading through one of my firearms catalogues cuz that works out best for me--it's easy to tell when a trip's starting. The LSD kicked in within 15 minutes of starting to read, so maybe 45 minutes after taking it.

At first it's fine, I'm chill, everything's cool. It's pretty funky and I'm enjoying it. Misty's on the bed with me. I'm reading and petting her and giggling at how silly she looks, and realising how silly I must look, and then I'm giggling at my own silliness. LSD is a mild stimulant (I did not know this when I took it) so at one point I was out of bed and dancing around the cabin while looking for a packet of chips to munch on. I was having a really good time. I knew that I shouldn't leave the cabin at night, so I stayed inside, but I really wanted to go outside and run around for a bit. I felt warm (literally--my skin was flushed) and I was generally vibing and having a good time while I watched the tracers while waving my hands in front of my face, watching colours shift, watching the walls and everything around me trip-melt.

Lots of giggles were had and it was a good time.

(Something that needs to be noted is that in my culture, psychedelics are considered less "makes you see things" and more "lets you see things". There's a belief that everything that you see when you're on psychedelics, whether it's wattle or mushrooms or what have you, is actually real. You're seeing the Dreaming without the veil. You're seeing the world as it really is through the eyes of spirits instead of your human ones. This is important later.)

I'm about three hours into the trip (back in bed now) and I'm doing good. I'm giggling with Misty and talking to her. I do this sober but I'm much more chatty when I'm high. I'm getting weird geometrical shit, I'm seeing after-images and the wood texture of my cupboards are imprinting onto the walls when I look away, if I stare at Misty too long and look somewhere else my walls look furry. It's funny and I'm enjoying it.

And then I hear someone say my name.

This doesn't bother me at first. It happens when I'm sober too--I get frequent audio hallucinations and, rarely, visual ones. This is normal for me and isn't a cause for concern.

What's NOT normal is Misty reacting to the shit I'm hearing in my own head.

I hear someone say my name, and Misty's head starts whipping around because she heard it too. Keep in mind, I camp in the bush FAR away from people specifically to avoid shit like this. But the voice came from outside, so I scoot closer to Misty, and I wait.

And wait. And wait. And wait.

I hear it again. It's further away this time, but it's louder. It's being said like a question. The way people's voices lilt at the end when they're looking for you. And the voice is accented--whoever this is doesn't speak much English, and that's a native accent. I start wondering if maybe I'm on some land I shouldn't be on--I thought it was crown land, I checked the signs, but I might've fucked up somewhere and I don't want to upset any traditional owners, so I'm about to go to my door to see who needs me enough (and knows who I am) that they'd chase me all the way out here and call for me by name, but then Misty starts growling.

Now, Misty barks. God, does Misty bark. Misty barks so much. But Misty doesn't fucking growl.

Misty is growling.

It feels like there's a cold draft in the cabin, but it's only on the back of my neck. My hair starts standing on end--the back of my neck and on my shoulders and down my arms. I get out of bed but I don't go to the door this time. I grab Winnie, I kinda wish I still had Jacko's shotgun that he'd leant me for a week, and I aim at the door and wait.

I'm parked next to a billabong because I like the sound of frogs at night. They're soothing. I like the crickets. My first thought is maybe it's a crocodile or something, because I've only ever heard Misty growl at crocodiles at Cahill's Crossing, or maybe it's dingos cuz she growls at those too. But there's no crocs this far south--I'm in southeast NSW--so it's probably the dingos cuz this is one of the few regions in NSW where dingos are found within the Dingo Fence.

And while dingos can open doors, I don't reckon they can pick deadlocks. Hopefully.

So I'm waiting still. The walls are warping around me. For a minute or two it seems like there's nothing in front of me but my door. I have tunnel vision, except instead of a tunnel all I see is my bathroom door and my wardrobe and the roof vent above me repeated infinitely on all sides until it reaches my door.

I blink, shake my head, and the tunnelling is gone. I see movement off to my right, outside my window, so I get closer to it and look through my blinds. I'm not sure how to describe what I saw.

Picture a man, right. Now peel him. Drape his hide across a crocodile's body. Stretch the face and the proportions to fit a croc's body perfectly. That's what I saw. A stretched human face, a mop of brown hair atop the head just past the eyes, eyes set on top like a crocodile's and tilted sideways, no eyebrows, but a bulbous nose on the end of its snout and its jaws stretched to be identical to a crocodile's. Little stubby legs and fingers, scutes down a fleshy back, and a fat, fleshy tail. If you've ever wondered by the RainWorld slugcats unsettle me, it's because the tails look almost identical to the tail of whatever the fuck this Thing was.

And it's just lying there in the button grass, maybe four metres from Matilda. I see its jaws open, see multiple rows of sharp crocodile teeth and some fucking molars toward the back, and I shut my blinds faster than I think I've ever shut them before. I get that tunnel vision again. It's disorienting. Everything feels like it's spinning. I can hear my heart thudding in my ears.

It calls my name again. It sounds far in the distance, like someone's screaming it from across a valley, but it's so loud it feels like it makes the cabin shake.

And I'm thinking, yeah, ok, fuck THAT. Fuck all this! I've got half a mind to open my blinds and shoot at it, but Misty's doing that nervous whine-scream thing she does, so I'm heading back to bed to calm her down before she pisses on my mattress.

It stops saying my name and it starts saying hello. But it's completely devoid of any emotion whatsoever. The most monotone thing you've ever heard. It's like an alien being taught to speak English, as in how to pronounce the letters but not understanding what the word means. "Hello. Hello. Hello." It's so loud. It's scaring me shitless.

(It's also scaring Misty but fuck her, I'm in front of her and this thing's gonna get me before it gets my dog.)

"Hello. Hello. Hello. Blu? Hello. Hello."

This continues for maybe five minutes. Constantly asking for me and greeting me. I'm staying stone silent but my heart is racing. I'm wobbling on my feet and the world around me is twisting from the acid. Misty's crying behind me, so I'm pushing back into her to smoosh her so she's quiet.

And then it stops.

I look out my window. There's nothing but a fucking empty skin. One, it's about two metres closer to Matilda than where the Thing originally was. Two, it's bloody. Three, it's an empty skin. This thing peeled out of its skin it's somewhere around here where the fuck IS IT?

My fucking doorhandle jiggles. I jump.

The voice isn't loud anymore, but I can hear it right outside my door. "Hello." Jiggle. "Blu? Hello. Hello. Hello." Jiggle. "Blu? Blu? Hello." Jiggle. In hindsight, I find it hilarious that the wayarra was defeated by a door of all things. But it's still chattering. "Hello. Blu? Hello. Hello. Open."

Ok, that's fucking terrifying! This Thing knows what "open" means!

It starts repeating that too. Over and over and over. "Blu? Hello. Open. Open. Hello. Open. Blu? Blu? Open. Hello. Blu?"

Occasionally jiggling the handle of my door.

This goes on for almost three hours.

Around three-quarters of the way through that timespan I just start weeping. I don't know if it's because of the anxiety, or the fear, or the autism deciding this is absolutely the BEST time for me to get overwhelmed because of the noise of the lock and the voice and the visuals, or what have you, but I just start weeping.

I've crawled back into bed by this point, and I start begging god to make it go away. I've got my face smooshed into Misty's fur, and she's growling and shaking just as much as I am, and her hackles are up, but she's licking my ears and I've got my rifle leant up against the ladder, and I'm begging god to make it go away.

At some point, around hour four, the voice starts sounding like it's getting closer. Like it's passing through the walls of the cabin and is standing directly behind me. Like it's leaning down and whispering in my ear. "Blu? Hello. Hello. Blu? Blu? Hello. Blu? Hello. Hello. Blu? Blu? Blu? Blu? Blu? Blu?"

And then it stops.

All at once, it stops. The lock stops jiggling, the voice goes quiet, after maybe twenty minutes of being certain that I'm gonna turn around and see this thing behind me, I finally pull my face out of Misty's fur and look and it's not there.

I move to the window and peek through the blinds. My hands are trembling. The skin is gone.

I crawl back in bed and pull the wagga back up over my shoulders and tuck my face into Misty's fur and sob. It's better than punching my cupboards, so I sob. Loud and desperate and relieved and terrified until no more tears are coming out and my throat is scratchy. At some point I fall asleep.

Come morning I go outside and there's a long path leading up from the billabong where something dragged itself from the water up alongside Matilda. There's footsteps in the dirt leading up to my back door. They're the same size as mine. I got the fuck out of dodge that arvo and drove to the nearest town and stayed there for a few days.

It's still not the scariest thing I've ever seen--that goes to the dingo because it implies these creatures can't be fucking killed--but it's defo up there as a close second and it scared me far more at the time.

I still have no idea what it was. The fact it seemingly came from the billabong makes me wonder if it was a fucking bunyip, but I've never heard of a bunyip matching the description of what I saw (though the region it occurred in does lend credence to the bunyip theory). It might also have been a yawkyawk, which is a creature from my culture, but those are (as far as I'm aware) a strictly Arnhem Land thing and the only similarity they have to what I saw is "comes from billabongs" and "can shapeshift into a crocodile."

What scares me most, however, is the fact that this thing knew my name. Names are deeply important and sacred in my culture. Names have power. What name you use for someone is reflective of your relationship with them and how intimate you two are.

This Thing chose Blu. Not Joseph. Not Mr Surname. Not Joey. Not Jet. It chose Blu. The name Australia gave me. The name I give my friends.

If I was Initiated at the time, I reckon it would've used my bush name. That is infinitely more terrifying to me. That is equivalent to a stranger walking up to you and addressing you by your TFN/SSN and reciting back to you the exact date and time you were born and who all was there and the name of the person who delivered you. That is equivalent to someone addressing you by the nickname only your deceased grandfather used for you when you were a young child and no one else has ever heard. It was that level of intimacy. The level of someone who knows you, and everything about you, and exactly what you are and addressing you as such.

That fucking scares me, and I've never done LSD since.

#blu whos #bushman #true blu #🍄 #🍄🍄🍄

[talonabraxas]

Terence Mckenna on DMT/Harmala and Icaros

So we explored this in the 1970s fairly thoroughly. In 1971, in 1972, again in 1976, and again in 1981. And different things are going on. First of all, the people down there who take this drug are into what they call icaros. Icaros are magical songs. And the accomplishment of a shaman is judged by how many of these magical songs he has. And they’re taught to you by the spirits, they say. But the interesting thing is that the icaro, within the culture, is criticized as a work of visual art. It is not thought of as a song. It is not listened to, it is looked at. And when people criticize it, they criticize its form and its color. And in taking this drug we discovered that there is something about it—it seems to dissolve a cultural barrier between the synesthesia of sound and light so that you can make a tone, like nnnnnnnnnnn, and it emerges as a streak of cyan blue that just stands there in space as long as you—and clearly, this stripe is related to the sound: when you stop the sound, the stripe disappears. Well, then you discover that when you modulate the sound, the color is modulated. Well then, you begin breaking it up, and you discover that voices become transformed into an instrument for manipulating light. And again, it has to do with these drugs which are very close to neurotransmitters, just one gene away from being actually produced. It’s as though this is the biochemical place where what we experience as the evolution of language and our cognitive abilities to integrate and express language are happening... T.M

Magdalena Wnuk piece finally was reunited with her owner and will be flying to Ecuador

[sygol]

re dmt: i fully appreciate and respect that perspective on it-- im definitely resistant to the whole "everybody must trip once" kind of idea, but based on the 10 or so years I've been reading about and talking to others about it have made me feel that dmt may be one of the few things most if not all human beings should give a go at least once (and this is of course just speaking as a secondary/tertiary witness to dmt and what it does to ppl). im just a pussy and even though i know death isn't really a whole lot to worry about (and truly it'd be impressive if I managed to die off that), I still worry about how it could potentially serve to further loosen my already tenuous grip on reality. I also just keep getting panic attacks right before im supposed to take any psych though so maybe I just need to make my peace with whatever my hangup is and take the jump. cheers sy ty as always for your thoughts

if you are the kind of schizophrenic who has gotten worse over time, then i would be careful with psychs especially in potency. if you have the kind of psychosis that doesnt get worse, but just kinda comes and goes, then its probably fine, and ive known many schizos who have found greater peace after taking DMT.

no one has ever died from consuming dmt, if you have a hard time approaching psychs, you probably have to work on your desires for control over your perspective/surroundings, i dont really know your life, and it may even be important for you to have this grip on deciding what is real and what isnt, but generally i think if something like that puts you into a state of panic, then you already know where you have to start on your path to finding harmony, do some things you find uncomfortable or make you feel out of control, and live with it. accept it and your place in the world around you.. it doesnt need to be you diving head first into psychs, it could he any experience, i could be totally off base in my words here, and im not trying to assume anything about who you are, but i say them incase they are helpful <3

#asks

[niuniente]

Wanted to ask you something related to NDE's: I've seen waaaay too many scientific skeptics attempting to write them off as caused by a gland in the brain, or a result of the drug DMT, or a mix of drugs in the brain trying to calm you before death... But. there is not only not ACTUALLY substantial evidence that ALL of the NDE is caused by so (specially in patients who's brain already is basically dead) but I've seen waay to many people shrug off the specific VERIDICAL cases where people learn of either things that will happen or are happening around them that they should have NO WAY OF KNOWING. They just /casually/ shrug it off. Cast it aside. Ignore it.

Why do you think they do so? Because they know that veridical NDEs break their hypotheses? Because they cannot reasonably explain HOW people can do this and it makes them uncomfortable?

Science is, at its worst, just another religion. If the study methods, the subject or people's experiences don't match the current scientific dogmas of the said field, then it must be a hoax. I mean, even with evidence, we have so many old cases where some scientist says "Hey there's this new evidence, I think this is valid" and others are "No, that's bullshit, just a delusion".

I personally try to think that we're scientifically always living some "dark ages", and while we have information and understanding, we should remember that we don't know it all yet. Technology evolves and gives us more and more access to something which was inaccessible before. Scientific hard facts in the past were that the Earth is the central of the universe, asbestos is fine, arsenic is not dangerous, women have hysteria, being a gay is a mental disease, and uterus is an organ which travels all around the body. Heck, even such a new thing than black holes were just a theory when I was young and now they're been proven to be real! What are such "dark age" scientific facts of our own time which will be proven wrong, or even harmful, in the past decades or centuries?

Scientists (and doctors) want to keep their jobs. Get labelled as one of these "nut cases" and you lose your job. Behind the hidden doors, doctors, nurses and surgeons admit to their patients that many have had an NDE. There's a good case about that with Anita Moorjani, who had an NDE and she recovered miraculously from a cancer. Her doctor agreed with everything which she said but when media interviewed her doctor, he brushed it all off as nonsense to keep his job and credibility. Who wants to be the first to be taken on a stake and burned as a modern witch for their scientific heresies?

Quantum biology is something which is being studied and one of its topics is consciousness. What is it, where is it, what happens to it? I think many quantum level studies have lots of similarities to spiritual topics, like quantum particles being connected and "aware" of each other, no matter what the distance.

Eben Alexander's case is scientifically one of the best NDEs, simply because his brain was in such condition that no activity was supposed to occur, not even on a subconscious level. I think Anita Moorjani is scientifically one of the best cases, too, and widely medically documented.

And yet, if you have made your mind that this is not science but some nonsense, no evidence will not change your mind.

And it's OK, in this case.

#my two cents #ask niu #NDE

[myhauntedsalem]

Near Death Experiences

The sensation of leaving your own body, a tunnel of light, visions of passed-on loved ones, a review of your life, a feeling of peace and well-being.

Many people have reported these feelings and sensations when lingering on death’s door. Is it a glimpse of the afterlife or just hallucinations as the brain slowly shuts down?

Many people who have been on the brink of death, and more importantly, those who have been clinically dead, have reported various strange experiences.

Reports range from out-of-body experiences (some people having seen their own dead bodies), to a tunnel of light, a sense of well-being and relief from pain to visions of loved ones who have already passed. These experiences, along with many others, are collectively referred to as ‘near-death experiences’ or NDE’s.

Although there have been many historical reports of similar experiences, it is with the advent of medical technology's ability to resuscitate people after much longer periods of ceased bodily function, that NDE’s have become more common.

NDE’s have become so common that Kenneth Ring, Professor of Psychology at the University of Connecticut, has subdivided people’s experiences into five separate stages: peace, body separation, entering darkness, seeing the light and finally entering the light.

More people experience the first stages of NDE, than the later stages.

There have been many theories of what is taking place during an NDE. Common amongst more spiritual people is that it is the transition from life to the afterlife. Many cite it as proof positive that the human consciousness can survive the death of the physical body.

Skeptics of the spiritual outlook claim that the symptoms of the NDE are caused by the brain releasing large amounts of DMT (Dimethyltryptamine, a naturally occurring psychedelic) into the system in order to prevent its host and itself suffering further trauma and shock.

It is also noted that many of the NDE ‘symptoms’ are felt by those that have not suffered life threatening events, or people in deep meditation and those lucidly dreaming. These facts are also said to prove that NDE experiences have no link to an existence, or proof of the afterlife.

However, it should be understood that many people utilize meditation, lucid dreaming and the use of DMT for spiritual practices. These practices have been used for many, many years by those seeking to better experience and commune with the spirit realms.

Even if the brain itself is causing these events, could it be priming the experiences consciousness for the afterlife?

#Near Death Experiences #ghost and hauntings #paranormal #ghost and spirits #haunted locations #haunted salem #myhauntedsalem #paranormal phenomena #spirits #hauntings #ghosts #supernatural

[l3rking]

New Light Guide to Scout Rifles

I’m posting deranged scout stuff again.  

The loot pool in D2 is so nonsensical rn that it’s impossible to tell what comes from where without someone spelling it out. So I’m gonna do that. These are all the currently accessible best in slot legendary scouts that you can go out and get RIGHT NOW* if you wanted. 

OVERVIEW: 

I will only be going over scouts that CAN STILL BE REALISTICALLY OBTAINED. No Eternal Blazons from a random lost sector. There is a section for world drops at the end but if it doesn’t have an Origin Trait, it didn’t make the list.

Barrel, sight, mag, and masterwork options are all personal preference. Even on MnK I like to go for recoil direction first, followed by stability, handling, and then range and reload. Your mileage may vary based on personal aim skill, preference, control scheme, etc, etc. so just experiment with everything until you find what you’re comfortable with.   

THE LIST:

Night Watch (not pictured): Lightweight Kinetic. Shaw Han gives you a god roll (overflow, explosive rounds) for free just for doing the New Light quest. This is a great scout and will serve new players flawlessly. For most this will be enough. 

Trustee (not pictured): Solar Rapid Fire from the Deep Stone Crypt raid. Probably the strongest energy legendary scout in the game. I have been really unlucky with my drops and don’t have a good roll or crafted version yet. Go for Incandescent and Reconstruction and watch the world burn. 

Randy’s Throwing Knife (not pictured): Kinetic Rapid Fire. Random reward this season (S21) from crucible matches and engrams. Will be focusable next season. A previous pinnacle weapon brought back with random rolls. Look for things like Zen Moment, Rapid Hit, Kill Clip, Box Breathing, Discord, Perpetual Motion, Cascade Point, and Kinetic Tremors. 

Servant Leader: Kinetic Rapid Fire. Found from decrypting Gambit engrams with Drifter. Monstrous 2.6x zoom. Even more monstrous loot pool. Alternative to Randy’s if Gambit is more your speed. Watch for Frenzy, Kill Clip, Adrenaline Junkie, Rapid Hit, One for All, Shoot to Loot, and Subsistence. 

Doom of Chelchis: Void 180 from the King’s Fall raid. Craftable. Perks to look for: One for All, Explosive Rounds, Frenzy, Repulsor Brace. Rare Dragonfly+Firefly combo.  

Hung Jury: Kinetic 180. Nightfall drop. Best in slot Kinetic scout right now. Adept is not mandatory but recommended. Perks to look for: No Distractions, Rapid Hit, Box Breathing, Firefly, Kinetic Tremors.

Long Arm: Arc 120. Legendary version of DMT from the Spire of the Watcher dungeon. 120s aren’t the strongest rn especially with big brother DMT around. Nut it’s farmable on certain weeks and has good perks so I’d say it’s worth it. Recommended perks: Rapid Hit, Hip Fire, Explosive Rounds, Adrenaline Junkie, Opening Shot. 

Nameless Midnight: Kinetic 180. Drops from Vanguard Ops. Will be focusable next season (S23) at Zavala. Reliable workhorse. Monstrous perk pool. Luckily it means you can get pretty much whatever you want on it. Some to watch for would be Kill Clip, Keep Away, Kinetic Tremors, Slideways, Rampage, Zen Moment, Explosive Rounds, and Perpetual Motion. 

Vision of Confluence: Solar 180. Drops from Vault of Glass raid. A personal favorite. This is low on the list due to rumors about the raid getting refreshed i.e. Last Wish style. It’s been a little left behind but is still technically farmable. Small perkpool with good options. I recommend Killing, Wind, Kill Clip, Firefly, Frenzy, and Zen Moment.

Last Rite: Kinetic 120. Ritual weapon for this season. Can be earned at Rank 16 with Zavala, Shaxx, or Drifter. It’s an OK scout. Nothing stellar but it is guaranteed and I’d be lying If I’d say Reconstruction and Focused Fury were’t a ton of fun to play with. You’ll earn this naturally as you play but I wouldn’t seek it out over the other on this list.

Pointed Inquiry: Void High Impact. Found in Savathun’s Throne World. Craftable. Frankly, the sights on this scout are terrible and its stats are mediocre at best. It can get Genesis+Disruption Break but your time is better spent going after something else. 

Transfiguration: Kinetic High Impact. Drops from the Last Wish raid. Newly refreshed. A very strong scout and contender for best in slot next to Hung Jury. Watch out for the stellar Kill Clip + Rampage combo. Can also get Explosive Rounds, Kinetic Tremors, Discord, Keep Away, Demolitionist, Rapid Hit, or Rewind Rounds.   

WORLD DROP SECTION:

World drops are rare nowadays but there’s a handful of useful scouts you can get from the random purple engram you found on patrol. Good luck!

Jararaca SR3: Stasis rapid fire. You will need to get lucky for this one but Banshee and Xur sell it from time to time and it still drops in the world loot pool (i think). Perks to look for: Kill Clip, Rapid Hit, No Distractions, Tunnel Vision, Headstone.

Contingency Plan: Arc Rapid Fire. Same deal as Jararaca. Just lightning flavored. Perks to look for: Kill Clip, Rapid Hit, No Distractions, Tunnel Vision, Elemental Capacitor. 

Perses-D: Stasis High Impact. The only stasis High Impact in the game. Very strong if you’re lucky enough to get one. Stats-For-All or Rapid Hit combined with either One-For-All or Headstone is the play here. (Getting multikills with the headstone crystal can proc Stats-For-All FYI)

Glissando-47: Strand 180. New this season. Is pretty much outclassed by every other scout in this slot. Still has some valuable perks if you’re new and is sold at Banshee VERY frequently. Watch for Hatchling, Reconstruction, Overflow, Box Breathing, and Discord. 

Honorable mention to Vouchsafe which can still be earned in the Dreaming City via Blind Well and Bounties. It’s outpaced by DoC in nearly every category so I’d say go for that if you need a purple flavored scout for whatever reason. 

There are also all the exotic options. Polaris Lance (my baby), Symmetry, MIDA, DMT, Jade Rabbit, Wicked Implement, and Skyburners Oath. Implement is available this season via the Deep Dive quest and the others can be retrieved from the Lost Light Monument in the tower. Touch of Malice is a fascinating but not very useful exotic scout from Kings Fall. It is getting an unknown buff soon so if you’re doing KF for Doom of Chelchis, keep your fingers crossed for that one too. 

Hope this helps! 

*some of these are on weekly rotators so pay attention to what is available at the weekly reset!

Here is my full non-sunset-but-not-necessarily-obtainable legendary collection if you want to compare to your own vaults to see if you have any hidden treasures. I recommend everything here. Complete w/notes. 

#destiny #destiny 2 #destiny guides #psa #scout rifle #destiny weapons #new light guide #this is just a fraction of my collection #literally insane how much time i've put into this silly game #edit: added Randy's and Servant Leader. forgot you could still get Servant and just forgot Randy's even existed. #guide #scout rifle enthusiast club

[magnoliamyrrh]

like..... so many of the horror stories ive heard of ppls first handful of trips could be reduced with proper education, understanding, and those who gave it to them being responsible (in those cases). and thing is, ive had reaaaly bad trips - mainly later on though. i cant imagine what that would be like as a first experience; i cant imagine how i would have managed to get through it without prior understanding and some idea of how to hang on. i can definitely understand why some people feel they remain traumatized for life, or never touch them again. i dont regret them because they still taught me something, but that's largely bc prior good experiences taught me how to hang on and still get something out of it

its an absolute pity, and in so many cases avoidable. you dont do hard psychadelics (ayahuasca/dmt) the first times. you dont take high af doses "to see what happens" "to have a crazy trip" "to see some crazy shit" or to boast about it - its not about that. you dont take whatever thinking youll just be able to handle it. you dont do it without proper research. you dont do it in a party setting, you dont do it while taking it lightly - its not light. its one of the most profound and deep experiences someone can have, and sometimes very, very old and very sacred. you dont do it without respecting that, or else they're going to give you such a bad time that youll be forced to respect it. you dont do it going into it with arrogance and ego. you dont do it without proper preparation for it. and as far as im concerned, even if you dont believe in it, you dont do it without clensing the place youre doing it and using some sort of spiritual protection, be it some chant, prayer, talisman, symbol, meditation or whatever else

and you dont.... you dont do it with someone who pushes you to do it, but doesnt give you a serious rundown of what to possibly expect, how to handle it, makes you feel safe and like they'll be there for you and protect you through it, or makes it seem like its just some sort of light or unserious thing, because. it really. isnt.

everyone reacts differently, everyone handles it differently, everyone needs different things....... those who give psychadelics to others, without preparing them, figuring out if they seem ready or not, and being willing to take on the full responsibility of introducing someone to this are...... ugh. irresponsibile to say the least

[psychedelicstrains]

THE PSYCHEDELIC TAPESTRY

Weaving the Effects of Mind-Altering Substances, These aren’t just any effects - they’re a vibrant tapestry that can stitch together new perspectives and experiences, threading through the fabric of your consciousness. When you take a psychedelic, it’s like flipping the switch on a mind-bending carnival ride.

Psychedelic Trip Hallucinogens LSD Magic Mushrooms Psilocybin Ayahuasca DMT Mescaline Peyote Entheogen Acid Shrooms Altered States Consciousness Mind Expansion Visuals Set and Setting Timothy Leary Terence McKenna Microdosing Synesthesia Surrealism Hippie Psychedelic Art Trance Spirituality Psychedelic Therapy Integration Trip Sitter

"Visual effects" are the first to pop up, greeting you with a spectrum of colors and patterns that would make a kaleidoscope jealous. The world around you might morph and breathe, as if it’s alive and kicking.

Then comes the "emotional effects," where feelings intensify like a love song on repeat. You might feel a profound sense of connection to the universe, or like you’re the main character in a cosmic narrative where every emotion is the climax. Don’t forget the

The "spiritual effects" can be a game-changer, too. You might feel a sense of oneness with all things, or have experiences that dance on the edge of the mystical. It’s a bit like meeting the universe and shaking hands with infinity. But hey, it’s not all sunshine and rainbows. Psychedelics can also bring challenging experiences, where you come face-to-face with your fears or shadows. It’s like attending a masquerade ball where all the masks are versions of yourself.

"cognitive effects," where thoughts swirl and dive like dolphins in an ocean of ideas. Your usual mental filters might take a backseat, letting you ponder life’s big questions without the usual chatterboxing of your brain’s default mode network.

Psychedelics Consciousness Spirituality MentalCarnival Visual Effects

#anxiety disorder #mushrooms #mental health #psilocybe cubensis #weedstagram

[sammysshadowself]

Y’all I’m tweaking I went to school today and I was tripping I think someone slipped something into my drink or something because I had a fucked uo drug trip. I remember I was thinking about that Igor dream (please give me answers if you have any,) I remember walking into school and everyone fading away. My vision went foggy and I was alone in the massive hallways. Everything was the same, thought it seemed a bit green in tint. I stumbled to the principals office while yelling for help. It was very, very quiet. I think the only reason I found the principals office in particular is because of the low hum it was emitting.

Like my phone screen, this door had a large foggy wall over it. I couldn’t quite get through it. When I touched the wall, the wall itself asked me for a password, or rather, said “password?”

I was actually about to start tweaking so I retraced my steps outside. The moment I stepped back outside, closed my eyes for a moment, and started walking, everything was normal. The first person I saw was Axel, who was glaring at me. He asked me something like “how did you do that?”

I remember asking him to stay close to me as I walked back into the school, my mind still racing about what just happened. Once again I was back in the school, all of the students, teachers, and Axel disappearing.

But THIS TIME, I wasn’t alone. There was one other person there, a version of myself. I had bright yellow eyes that were almost hogging out of my sockets. When I made eye contact with them, I froze up.

“I am Thou, thou art I.”

I remember being shocked at the sight of this person, this hallucination speaking with someone else’s voice. For a second, I didn’t feel like I was on acid or whatever else I could be on. I just felt real. And very hopeful. My clone nodded at me and, for some reason, I nodded back. It felt right.

The trip continued, I wandered through the halls and tried the weird glassy door again. I had no password to give it either, so I just watched it for a while. I could hear what sounded like a bog on the other side. I could hear frogs, shallow water being stepped in, and other swamp noises. I tried to record or take pictures but my screen had this smudge that was impossible to remove. For a drug trip or whatever, this is oddly materialistic and real. I could travel the entire school and all of its physical details were down to a T, even new details I had not noticed.

I follow my steps out once again, returning to normalcy once more. This time, it was almost sunset, about 2ish? I remember hearing the final bell right as I returned back to normal.

I asked Axel what happened to me and he told me that I disappeared before his eyes. I still thought I was tripping so I just nodded and walked with him. He asked what was going on and I genuinely couldn’t answer him in any way but the truth. I told him what I experienced and what I thought I saw. He didn’t believe a word and, honestly, I don’t blame him, but that’s what I felt.

We both went home, neither of us sure what was happening. I still kinda don’t know but I’m done with it and I’m moving on. I researched DMT and DMT trips and this almost matches up? Like very closely, only, my experience was less spiritual and psychedelic. That, and no one would have a chance to drug me, unless they secretly injected it into me? I had a bottle of water and some fried rice for breakfast that I made fresh. That is to say, no one should have been able to drug me.

Thoughts?

[planetarybound]

Thorbahn is one of the first in a class of so-called “psychonauts” exploring new frontiers in hallucinogenic research, preparing to use a technology called extended-state DMT. When the drug is smoked, a trip lasts minutes—despite feeling much longer. But with a constant stream of DMT supplied to a user and blood serum levels of the molecule regulated, that trip can last hours or even days—seemingly an eternity.

The method might give Thorbahn and other psychonauts enough time to bring back detailed trip reports of their experience. An intriguing aspect of DMT experiences is a degree of similarity. The landscapes and beings can be recognizable to different users (a mechanical elf is a popular recurring visitor). And for Thorbahn, the trips seem “more real than real,” a quote heard often in DMT-experimenting circles. Advocates of extended-state programs want to know whether these experiences illuminate a new corner of the mind, even another dimension—or whether users are just getting really high.

Thorbahn, who has a background in biology and chemistry and runs an organic soil company in Colorado, was driving a highway late one night while listening to a psychedelics podcast when he first heard about the extended-state DMT program, DMTx, offered by Medicinal Mindfulness. The latter organization, founded in 2012 in Boulder, Colorado, by two psychotherapists, is a psychedelic therapy clinic and provides cannabis and ketamine-assisted sessions, claiming to have helped treat trauma, depression, and “feelings of meaninglessness.” Its website emphasizes that the clinic “fully complies with all local and Colorado State cannabis laws, and all federal regulations.” DMTx is a new offshoot, founded in 2016 with a long-term goal to “develop and implement FDA-approved clinical research” into DMT, according to its website. In the meantime, the website reads, “While we’ll continue to follow stringent safety protocols, working outside some of the cultural constraints of the FDA allows us to explore a model that is congruent with the passionate interests of the psychedelic community. Namely, to explore the important question: What in the world is really going on here?”

#psychedelic trip #DMT #psychedelic therapy

[the-empress-7]

Psilocybin is a naturally occurring psychedelic prodrug compound produced by more than 200 species of fungi.

The most potent are members of the genus Psilocybe, such as P. azurescens, P. semilanceata, and P. cyanescens, but psilocybin has also been isolated from about a dozen other genera.

Psilocybin is itself biologically inactive but is quickly converted by the body to psilocin, which has mind-altering effects similar, in some aspects, to those of LSD, mescaline, and DMT.

In general, the effects include euphoria, visual and mental hallucinations, changes in perception, a distorted sense of time, and perceived spiritual experiences. It can also cause adverse reactions such as nausea and panic attacks.

In Mesoamerica, the mushrooms had long been consumed in spiritual and divinatory ceremonies before Spanish chroniclers first documented their use in the sixteenth century. In 1959, the Swiss chemist Albert Hofmann isolated the active principle psilocybin from the mushroom Psilocybe mexicana.

Hofmann's employer Sandoz marketed and sold pure psilocybin to physicians and clinicians worldwide for use in psychedelic psychotherapy. Although the increasingly restrictive drug laws of the late 1960s curbed scientific research into the effects of psilocybin and other hallucinogens, its popularity as an entheogen (spirituality-enhancing agent) grew in the next decade, owing largely to the increased availability of information on how to cultivate psilocybin mushrooms.

The intensity and duration of the effects of psilocybin are variable, depending on species or cultivar of mushrooms, dosage, individual physiology, and set and setting, as was shown in experiments led by Timothy Leary at Harvard University in the early 1960s. Once ingested, psilocybin is rapidly metabolized to psilocin, which then acts on serotonin receptors in the brain. The mind-altering effects of psilocybin typically last from two to six hours, although to individuals under the influence of psilocybin, the effects may seem to last much longer, since the drug can distort the perception of time. Possession of psilocybin-containing mushrooms has been outlawed in most countries, and it has been classified as a scheduled drug by many national drug laws.

Leary and colleagues proposed that psilocybin heightens suggestibility, making an individual more receptive to interpersonal interactions and environmental stimuli. After ingesting psilocybin, a wide range of subjective effects may be experienced: feelings of disorientation, lethargy, giddiness, euphoria, joy, and depression. Volunteers given a high dose reported feelings of significant fear and 17% experienced transient paranoia. A 2011 prospective study by Roland R. Griffiths and colleagues suggests that a single high dosage of psilocybin can cause long-term changes in the personality of its users.

Common responses include pupil dilation (93%); changes in heart rate (100%), including increases (56%), decreases (13%), and variable responses (31%); changes in blood pressure (84%), including hypotension (34%), hypertension (28%), and general instability (22%); changes in stretch reflex (86%), including increases (80%) and decreases (6%); nausea (44%); tremor (25%); and dysmetria (16%) (inability to properly direct or limit motions).

Most of the comparatively few fatal incidents reported in the literature that are associated with psychedelic mushroom usage involve the simultaneous use of other drugs, especially alcohol. Probably the most common cause of hospital admissions resulting from psychedelic mushroom usage involve "bad trips" or panic reactions, in which affected individuals become extremely anxious, confused, agitated, or disoriented. Accidents, self-injury, or suicide attempts can result from serious cases of acute psychotic episodes. Although no studies have linked psilocybin with birth defects, it is recommended that pregnant women avoid its usage.

Panic reactions can occur after consumption of psilocybin-containing mushrooms, especially if the ingestion is accidental or otherwise unexpected. Reactions characterized by violent behavior, suicidal thoughts, schizophrenia-like psychosis, and convulsions have been reported in the literature. A 2005 survey conducted in the United Kingdom found that almost a quarter of those who had used psilocybin mushrooms in the past year had experienced a panic attack. Other adverse effects less frequently reported include paranoia, confusion, prolonged derealization (disconnection from reality), and mania. Psilocybin usage can temporarily induce a state of depersonalization disorder. Usage by those with schizophrenia can induce acute psychotic states requiring hospitalization.

Well, this certainly explains a few things. Paranoia you say?