#feeling a little sad honestly Rn

[felizusnavidad]

unpopular opinion but i really miss those days when it was all about the music in taylor swift fandom

#time for a little rant because i feel like i need to get it off my chest rn #i feel so disconnected from this fandom lately #mostly because literally everything is about travis these days #like don't get me wrong i'm really happy that she's happy but #i just don't feel the need to talk about her relationship 24/7 like some of the swifties #and honestly it's all just too much #everything is about taylor and i'm not even excited anymore when i see new pictures of her #because it's just too much??? #i truly love her with all my heart and i always will but even i am tired and i've been a swiftie for literally half of my life #why do people have to discuss every single detail about her love life #and who cares if she's going to be at the game again #let her live maybe #i'm sorry but it's just so annoying lately #this fandom is being too fucking loud and i'm tired and it's not even fun anymore #remember when the eras tour started? amazing times #we were talking about it all the time and discussing every single detail of the tour and the songs and all #now it's all about her new relationship guys it's not... like... WHY. #it makes me so sad because it used to be different #ugh #i might get hate for that but i don't care i just really needed to say that #taylor swift #ts #talking shit for the hell of it*

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

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#hi back for now bc it's fall break and I'm stuck on campus #trying not to complain about it but I've been having stomach issues for at least the past couple of weeks #it's been acting up since I got here but the past few weeks and specifically the past few days it's become a lot more intense #I made an appointment with the medical clinic here on campus and they're treating me with something for a possible stomach ulcer right now #I have a follow-up in a couple of weeks #I'm struggling to keep on top of all my thoughts and feelings and emotions right now too #which may be causing or compounding the stomach issues. honestly who knows. #all I know for sure rn is that I feel very tired and worn out despite it being fall break #and I wish I didn't feel this way #kinda sad and very tired #it's a perfect opportunity to catch up on school work that I've fallen behind on. and yet I feel completely unable to even think #about school. hhhhh. 🙃 #it's been such a hard year guys. and I don't want to complain or wallow but I wish I could just break down have a good cry #or a screaming fit if needed #just get it all out #and then maybe I'd be able to cope a little better #unfortunately I'm not sure that's how it works. so I guess I'm stuck feeling like this for now.

[ohitslen]

Hm. Uncanny valley Vash. Thoughts.

#have I been drawing for the uni au? yea. did I loose the files in an unfortunate incident I won’t elaborate on? also yea #it made me really sad because it was a funny bit. and I could recreate it but mm I don’t feel like it rn #so it’ll take some time. however ☝️ #I do feel like drawing. and I have! but for myself like I always do. sharing some stuff here is a courtesy 🤨 #OQNENWK JK well. half kidding. I entirely draw for myself and I’m happy it reaches ppl who like it too! and now #I’m hoping to reach cryptic Vash enjoyers because my god YES. #it’s the best thing ever because honestly. same I also am an uncanny creature (idk what is socially okay sometimes without being too weird #about it. I know you get it. you’re in tumblr) #and actually wouldn’t it be funny if at some point the people who know Vash just brush it off eventually as #“oh is Vash just staring into the void and suddenly went walking away?? haha oh yeah typical Vash’’ #like it’s the most normal thing ever. but it still puts people a little off #I love me some weird Vash :) #trigun #vash the stampede #trigun stampede #vash #lenssi rambles

[whimsyprinx]

a fun realization I had last night is that I have neither an actual family nor a found family

#whimsy whispers #this isn’t said to discredit the friends who do love me and make me feel wanted I love and cherish y’all #but like one or maybe two people isn’t a family or a support group it’s jsut a few people who happen to care for me somehow #and while I do feel like I have a secure place in yalls lives (mainly because again some of y’all are so damn persistent) it’s not the same #as feeling like entirely secure of my place in everyone’s lives #o can count on one hand the amount of people I genuinely feel like I’m wanted by and secure with which is just abdnfnt mega sad for me #idk how to cope with the fact that irl and online no relationship I have i secure no situation I’m in is secure #as I’ve said before it’s so easy for people to toss me aside without a second thought it’s happened before it’ll happen again it’s happening #rn and there’s very little to be done about it and I’m honestly too tired to keep trying to do anything about it anymore

[the-kipsabian]

im gonna complain sorry i need to get this out of my brain since ive been thinking about it recently. leaving it in the tags so you can ignore it or whatever

#i just. feel like im missing out on everything recently #everyone else is having fun with each other and their friends and im just. here for no reason #timezones fuck me over so intensely on like a daily basis and its so fucking sad like #the society is demanding me to be a responsible human being which means sleeping - and while i do that everyone else has fun #yall get to watch things together. yall get to chat about things together. yall get to do shit in real time #like im not blaming anyone for having fun good for you im glad youre enjoying yourselves and everything!! #but also i just. feel left out. and its very stupid but im stupid and so is having to sleep and i never get to do anything fun cause of it #i never get to watch stuff live. i never get to participate in anything. and when i maybe do its an anxiety situation so i have to pass #i think thats why wrestling is rn a very sore spot for me. i havent really watched anything in a while cause i feel so left out #like im always behind. and i know it shouldnt matter but when i see everyone interacting with live blogs and such and i know i cant do that #and theres no point doing that afterwards #and the only things i can reasonably live blog are things that nobody else watches or cares about and im just #mostly anyways i only put my time and effort into something that only i care about #and im not gonna lie it kinda hurts. like ofc i cant ask anyone else to care but i just feel so fucking lonely sometimes #sorry im just. not in a good spot. honestly i probably never will be cause none of this is going to change cause i cant change it #and i cant and wont ask anyone to change it cause thats not good or fair or anything to anyone #i shouldnt even post this this is so stupid and im such a stupid little baby but im just... #im so fucking lonely sometimes and i see everyone else being able to do things and have fun and enjoy themselves. without me #im so lonely and im so jealous and it just fucking sucks okay #im gonna go now. im sorry #night is an absolute mess on main

[toastsnaffler]

this new sufjan album is going to fully rearrange my brain chemistry I can already feel it

#noticed the new single this morning but saved it for later cuz i didnt want to risk the psychic damage of listening to a track called- #'will anybody ever love me' right before a job interview 💀 #but damn its good. going to the local early listening party next week hehe #also just discovered film school everyone say thank u last.fm for actually generating good music recs 😳😳😳😳 #the recs i get suggested based off my listening to so much bdrmm are always >>>>>>> #bdrmm were INSANELY good live. genuinely think a lot of ppl who act disdainful of shoegaze would change their minds if they went to a gig #the richness and texture of the sound cant be summed up in an audio recording u have to be there and feel ur whole body thrum with it #its like floating in a wall of sound.. but the spotify versions sound soooo tame. not that i dont like them but its not the same #god im so fucking excited for slowdive. only a month and a half to go!!!!!! #listened to the new mitski album as well but honestly its not doing much for me rn #but usually when she releases new stuff it takes a little while to grow on me. i need to at least read the lyrics first.. #I think esp w folk inspired artists u have to let the song approach u at the right time. ive def had eras when diff mitski albums appealed #but in my heart im a retired from sad girlie. actually at the risk of sounding like a fake fan ive never been able to get into puberty 2 #or be the cowboy. i like a couple tracks but thematically theyve never spoken to me #makeout creek/laurel hell are in the middle theres a couple on them that have me by the throat. lush is my 2nd fave i think #but yeah i dont think ill ever be able to extricate myself emotionally from retired from sad that was my first breakup album!!!! #.diaries #anyway back 2 translation state..

[likelylarks]

xx

#there’s like suddenly so much maxiel angst/break up fic and also an acceptance that daniel won’t be on the grid next year #AND WHERE DID BOTH OF THESE THINGS COME FROM #why is the general vibe sad and angsty and resigned???? #when did we (the general you) all decide to feel like that?? #i don’t wanna feel like that!? #honestly!! i just #feel very lonely in my faith in daniel tbh #and feel very weird about wanting to write and read nice equally supportive maxiel #idk i’m just!! it’s very weird vibes to me rn/for the last little while and it feels like they came out of nowhere

[galmiahthepigeon]

Oh I'm so embarrassed about the reaction I'm having to The News

#my friends Robin and Leo started dating recently. which would be wonderful if not for the fact that i like Leo. a lot #and it's stupid for me to be upset about this bc i was not going to get into anything with Leo anyways #I don't think they like me like that and i was content with things being platonic between us #but thinking that they like another person over me is making me feel bad. WHICH AGAIN IS SO DUMB #LIKE. I GET IT. I'M NOT LEO'S TYPE AND ROBIN IS. SIMPLE AS THAT. THAT DOESN'T REFLECT ON OUR VALUE IN LEO'S LIFE OR OUR VALUE IN GENERAL #I KNOW #BUT IT'S STILL UPSETTING ME LIKE CRAZY #I'M SO EMBARRASSED I CAN'T BE THINKING ''what does he have that i don't'' THAT'S SO LAMEEE AND IT'S A FLAWED WAY TO LOOK AT IT. #but wait the story is even funnier #bc one time we went out clubbing and Leo was doing this thing where he tries to make out with as many ppl as possible #he had gotten to 7 so i sad wanna make it 8? and they said yea and we kissed for a bit #AND APPARENTLY. I NOW FIND OUT. THAT ROBIN STOLE MY PICKUP LINE THAT LITTLE GREMLIN #AND THAT'S THE WAY HE ASKED LEO OUT #I'M GOING TO EXPLODE #even more embarassing #is the fact that my first immediate reaction to finding this all out was to think ''oh now i REALLY need to get into something with Draxx'' #Draxx is a friend that I'm kinda into. Leo introduced me to him at a party recently. #Leo does not have any sort of attraction towards him. so why did my brain plot it as some sort of poetic revenge? no fucking clue honestly #I'm upset and none of my thoughts are rational rn #don't even know why my brain wanted any revenge in the first plane it's all so absurd #big stupid feelings that I'm obviously not sharing with anyone involved #jealous and for what

[ronithesnail]

My list of things to draw keeps growing but my will is dried up like a raisin

#Yknow when you just- forget how to draw #Like your hand just doesnt work anymore #Ik it’s temporary but its honestly so distressing and frustrating #Plus i just dont get a lot of time with school and everything #Its exhausting #How little time i have and then when i do get the time i just dont feel like drawing #I hate that #its sad and frustrating #Trying to draw something for my friends rn since thats less pressure but #Suddenly cant draw faces anymore #sigh #i have so many brinky ideas #So little energy

[magdalenas]

wish you were here by pink floyd is really a song to me personally

#it feels a little worse listening to it rn with all of the everything that's happening rn #esp bc pink floyd is one of his faves :/ #but it also feels good to listen to it from that standpoint in a way #idk we never bonded over it he wasnt like that but the closest we ever got to it was talking about the music #honestly our last good conversation was probably when i was laying on the couch in the porch room listening to while my guitar gently weeps #i dont even remember why but kait and i were there for the night #and he came in and we talked about it and george harrison for a minute #and we both agreed that he was our fave beatle #i had to have been like 15 or 16 #our last meaningful convo was 7 years ago and it was about the beatles wow that's really sad lmao #it wasn't even meaningful it was just so completely about nothing #but we both liked george and i didnt know that was a thing we could experience together i guess #im still going to miss him for the rest of my life

[matterdecay]

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#honestly it's really sad that the only thing making me happy rn is a stupid game #i don't even feel alive for anything else #so i guess im glad its a little comfort

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #maybe I'm too angry at things. #do you think I'm too angry at things? #I think I have a lot to be angry about. #I had a lot to be angry about when I was five years old and I've just been collecting since then #I think children should be allowed to be angry. and I never was. I wasn't even angry. I didn't have anger issues #or. well.. I suppose not being angry at all ever is in fact an issue. so therefore it's an anger issue. #just making up for lost time I guess. healing starts with crying and screaming and being sad and being mad #wanting to kill your parents is perhaps a healthy part of growing up I think. yeah. let's keep telling ourselves that. seems reasonable #honestly though I'm glad I never actually died because I don't wanna imagine the shit my parents would have said at my christian funeral #I need to outlive them so no one is ever tempted to pray over my fucking casket. #I wish ghosts were real cause imagine a pastor preaching at my funeral and then his head just fuckin explodes from my ghost powers #dog could you imagine? shear chaos. pure vindictive spite. Anyway I'm just Hannah Baker-ing this now huh. #shouldn't use death as an emotional weapon. sui is a heavy personal choice not a malicious little jab at people you don't like. #if you leave an argument you shouldn't stick your head back in the room to get the partying shot. leave and never think about them again #except that you can escape in real life. it's not next life or bust. there's other options. remember that. it's not just one way of escape #oh I just realized why I feel this way. my dad's coming over with furniture shit. that's why I'm mad as hell rn. hhhh this too will pass. #unpleasantly. but it'll pass nonetheless.

[shoejin]

IM SO SHOCKED IM SO HEARTBROKEN...... TOKYOREV'S ENDING

#i am a fighter for koko/inui #THEIR...??@&@(@ #THEIR RELATIONSHIP THE FOUNDATION THE TRAUMA??@* #IT WAS JUST SO WOW I WANT TO DISSECT IT LIKE A SILLY LITTLE WORM OR SOMETHING #tldr: made me not normal its something i dont think abt often but when i do i wake up in a cold sweat wanting to understand it better #but yeah everything i enjoyed about their story in my interpretation of the ending was basically retcon'ed 😱😱😱😱😱😱 #cause like they basically alluded to everyone's trauma being gone 💀 #plus inui's scar from the house fire is gone in the final chapter 😱😱💀😱💀 so like????? is his sister okay???? #cause like if thats the case then wtf is going on #im so sad i love drama in my pairings #i love when they are complicated and messy #now its all gone booooo #if anyone got a happier explanation for kokoinu i am 100% open to literally anything #i honestly feel like wakui forgot abt inui's sister tbh LMAO #but yeah going crazy rn i needed an outlet #yun.thoughts

[another-emotional-wreck]

i cant wait to leave this house lmao

#it's honestly not even that bad compared to some people I know #shit some of my friends have way worse situations that mine #but im so tired of having to take care of everything all the time #and being so sad and anxious and stressed #i just wanna be able to be a teenager and enjoy what little time I have left in high school #its not fair cause everyone around me gets to just be normal #even my own fucking siblings #whole time this seasonal depression is kicking my black ass and it feels like I cant even fully explain it to anyone #and i wanna cry about it but the tears literally wont come out lmao #so im listening to buttercup by hippo campus instead #which kinda helps ngl #but everything thats happened lately #idk ive been tryna stay okay for the past few years and between the depression and (likely) autism it's taking such a huge toll #i feel like my brain needs to throw up or something #even my best friend doesnt seem to get it and ik its not her job to provide me with therapy or anything and that shes trying #but i feel so fucking lonely lmao #and my moms birthday was this past Saturday so that was a thing #idk #i just wanna sleep for a really long time i think #cause rn i feel like my mental state is close to how it was freshman year and i actually don't think ill make it if i end up back there #lolz #anywhoo #im totally being dramatic its all good #lee rants #lee rambles

[pizzapizzadickz]

Mn. I had somewhat of a nightmare I suppose.

#oh. yeah i guess that really is unresolved childhod trauma... #man id like to be on my own #diary #personal #mn. it was about my mom and her controlling behaviour. #...it sorta suprised me bc i didnt expect to have something like this rn? #mn. it just made me feel like #its not like its anything big or whatnot. just. its startled me a bit. and sorta pointed out just how little i truely trust my mom #and honestly others as well. in the end. i just. really cant depend on others. bc everyone has just sorta let me down. #so i have two thoights in a way that dominate my unconsious thoughts #1. why bother talking to ppl to shit when rly they cant help you. nothing productive comes of venting so why bother? #i still do complain about cetain things i suppose... #and 2. you just. cant trust others. you dont know their reactions you dont know if theyll hurt you. so dont bother. #...im sorta. unhappy i suppose that ive had a dream like this. #....things like these often change my world perception quite a bit for a while. #and bc its my birthday soon i just. wanted to not have that. not that its a bad thing. it was a fun dream too in a way. #i got to stand up and yell at my mom in a safe space. #but. its just a bit sad too. bc none of it went well. and it makes me thing #...it also makes me wonder if id be more independent if stuff way back when hadnt happened when i was a child. #well either way nother can be done. #the problems with dreams like these is more and more theyre just sorta. taking over my reality it feels? #like. everything here feels fake. when i look at it. it seems hyper-realistic in a way. and it disturbs me if i dwell on it too long. #and my dream? they feel like memories. the truth. real. #haaah. either way i just woke up so imma go do shit n have fun. i actually have been in a good mood lately. #im not sure whats changed (probably that ive been drinking coffee?) #so ive had more energy giving me the opportunity to plan things out more and just sorta exist #i think i may move somewhere or do something next year or so. idk. just. alfie wants to go. #haha. of course this depends on being able to do shit and not feel like crap. working is hard. and alfie has a lot of trouble with it. #haaah. either way. ill go do stuff now. it feels odd to exist this way. #sometimes i wonder if anyone really cares. like. if they just will sit from a distance and watch over me. but not interfer.

[writingoddess1125]

You Give them Face Mask! 🧼

Luffy, Sanji, Zoro, Usopp, Buggy, Mihawk

Fluffy Fluff

Just felt like more Fluff Fluff rn 😌 Enjoy!

Luffy

Trying to get this man into a face mask is like trying to wash a puppy- A happy struggle and pain in the ass.

"Luffy please" You say with a sad eyes- He will fold after this and let you. However he doesn't sit still so you use a sheet mask that simply helps with oily skin.

"This smells nice" He will say as you have to bribe him with snacks to keep it on for 15 minutes.

"It's rose scented" You say and wear one yourself to keep him still with some gummy candies. Will have trouble sitting still and will start chatting and walking in circles as he waits.

Once it's over he rubs his shiny face and talks about how squeaky he sounds. Utterly destroying your work-

Sanji

Sanji is more then willing to indulge you. Picking out some mild scents and you do a peel off mask since he has deep pores.

"Wanna do the charcoal mask?" You offer which he accepts after finding the scent pleasant enough.

"Do people do these often?" He will flirt and talk about the curiosities in your self care. Once the mask is done he will complain about the tightness.

"That means it's ready to peel!!"

"AHHH! OW!!?" He yelps in surprise as you pull the mask off his face. His face bright red and raw from this so you add some water based moisturizer to his face. You show him the mask.

"That was in my face!?"

Will both be disgusted and fascinated by the amount of gunk pulled from his skin.

Zoro

His skin is fairly flawless which is honestly frustrating since he cares so little for his skin.

You offer the face mask anyway and he refuses for a while bit does eventually fold. You use a snail slime mask on him since it will keep him skin looking flawless.

"This smells funny..." He grumbles as he will lay there listening to you talk, Half asleep and waiting. Will open his eye occasionally and ask a few questions about your interest in this stuff.

You wipe it off and help him rince his face. Skin is pretty much glowing at this point and You stare in awe. "So pretty!"

"I'm going to go train now-" You scream at him in protest in trying to ruin his pretty face.

Usopp

Usopp is willing of course, since the ocean air drys his skin quite a lot. So you use a shea butter face mask and tap his skin with your fingers to help it soak in his rough skin.

"You know I once got a spa treatment from Mermaids like this-' He will spin his tales as You work. When you do rince off the mask you add some nice skin oils afterwards to his skin.

You rub a lot of oil in his skin and he will pause his stories as he judt enjoys the time. Will smell the jar you're using and a softness will run over his face in fondness.

"This smells like the stuff my mother used to use-" He will say with a smile. His skin looks shiny and golden by the time your done, making him look sexy- in his own words.

Will come back regularly to have you treat his skin and will even talk about stories with his mother from time to time.

Buggy

Grease paint wrecks havoc on one's skin Buggys especially since he wears it so much. Needs some detoxing clay mask then a aloe moisture one to replenish. If you're doing his face might as well deep condition his hair as well.

He does enjoy the attention and doing them since his face feels better. Secretly he actually has acne marks from his youth and some scars from before he ate a devil fruit.

"What was this one from?" You ask pointing to a light scar on his cheek.

"Hmm 10- Me and Shanks were trying to figure out blades better. Let's say I learned knives can bounce back at you-" He says amused and letting you work.

"The skin around your nose is dry" Buggy will frown, thinking you're about to insult him since even though he trust you the most his insecurities will win- till you carefully paint the mask on those areas and smile proudly.

"There we go, all better" You say and kiss his hand to go apply your own.

Will sit and listen to you read outloud or talk with him about show ideas as he lays there with the face mask.

"Can we do this every night?"

Mihawk

"No-" He will protest, his eyes narrowing as you offer the mask to him. However after enough begging and ever Perona joining in at pestering him he will fold.

Mihawk gets treated to a full spa day when this happens- A hydrating honey facemask on his skin, cucumbers on his eyes and even a hair mask in his hair to make it softer.

Perona is overjoyed as well as she cleans his nails and applies clear polish to make them shiny and nice! Grumbles the whole time silently and ends up Downing a bottle of wine.

"Do not get used to this-" He grumbles as he takes his wine and drinks from it as you and Perona work. He kinda looks like a spa mom-

Once done this man looks runway ready- His hair is much softer so sets lower, his skin flawless and even his beard looks nicer. Stares at you and Perona deadpanned and sighs-

"Thank you both for the nice gesture..."

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