#feel free to ignore me

[shadesofdeviant]

Random 9-1-1 Thoughts

Listen, I love Buddie. I've been a Buddie clown since Eddie's very first episode. Buck made a face at Eddie getting dressed, Whatta man played and I went "...well shit" as my fingers took a life of their own and started writing fic.

I also adore BuckTommy, Or TEvan or whatever wierd name we're going with. The chemistry was beautiful, it felt natural and passionate in a way none of Buck's previous relationships have and I am HERE for it.

But if we are going to get Eddie having a sexuality crisis of his own...

Do you know what I'd like to happen? For Eddie to be somewhere on the Ace spectrum. whether sexual or romantic or both.

The man who has only really felt comfortable both romantically and physically with his late wife who was his high school sweetheart.

Who forms strong platonic friendships that to most outsiders might look romantic or flirtatious in nature, but the concept of which never crosses his mind.

Who moves too fast and fails to let that bond develop, or pushes himself into doing what society/family expects of him and then wonders why he ends up having literal panic attacks.

This man says he hates being forced to date, who stresses about performing normally on them. He judges his eligibility with women based on how much time he wants to spend with them, based on the idea of them, how much his kid likes them, not because they're attractive or he feels a connection with them. Who complains that sex complicates things, who gets teased mercilessly by the others for not being good at dating or knowing what to do. Who freaks out at the idea of being set up on dates and then promptly drops said blind date like a hot potato and yet somehow ends up with a new friend.

I'd adore for Buddie to go canon.

I'd adore for BuckTommy to remain canon.

I would go feral for Queer Platonic Buddie (maybe with extra Tommy) where Eddie comes to terms with the fact he's not broken or weird, that he's perfectly fine just the way he is, that he doesn't need to follow societal norms and can get everything he needs from those around him without having to throw himself into something alloromantic/sexual.

I also really feel like I need to write this so...I guess it's on the list haha.

#rintrash #9-1-1 #Eddie Diaz #Evan 'Buck' Buckley #Buddie #Tommy Kinard #BuckTommy #I am an acespectrum!Eddie truther #Whether thats ace or aro or demi or gray etc. #I see so much of myself in him at times #This is just me rambling haha #Feel free to ignore me

[three-drink-amy]

I am like genuinely obsessed with the bodyguard fic I’m writing. I don’t know that I’ve ever felt this way. It’s kind of weird. But, like, all day I’m thinking about what I’m going to write next and sneaking minutes to type in little sentences on the doc. I just constantly want to talk about it or post snippets. To the point that I feel like I’m annoying about it. But I’m just so excited about this fic, maybe more than I ever have been about a fic before.

Maybe it was the year it sat as an unfinished doc, just two chapters chilling, waiting for more. And I still planned out parts of it and actually cracked the plot in a way I know I wouldn’t have if I’d just written it when I started it. I’ve never written anything this fast. Unhinged, a friend called it. And she’s not wrong.

Anyway, sorry in advance for how annoying I’m going to be when I start posting this fic. I’m already proud of it and I have 6 chapters left to write. And a ridiculous amount of words already written.

#feel free to ignore me #I’m just feeling a lot #bodyguard AU

[harritudur]

i know this is a pic from the series Narcos, but... why does it look SO MUCH like a sydcarmy kiss????

#am i going crazy #i see them everywhere lol #sydcarmy #narcos #FEEL FREE TO IGNORE ME

[flowerytale]

I need an advice: I own a little apartment that I rent, but since May the tenants didn't pay and now they owe me almost 4k. I think that I've been understanding... they lost their job, they don't have money... but what I should do? I waited 6 months, I think it's enough. I talked with a lawyer (it's not my lawyer but a family friend) and she told me that I'm absolutely out of my mind for keeping them in my home basically free (I'm also paying some of their bills). I just don't want to ruin people's lives, but they are totally ruining mine... I'm not a rich person, I work hard for everything I have and 4k (+ almost 400€ for the bills) are A LOT of money. I'm a monster if I sue them? I just... I don't know... I can't sleep anymore for this situation, I cry basically every night, I'm so incredibly stressed and I feel so guilty... I don't even know why I'm writing this here... I usually don't share personal things.

#feel free to ignore me #I just needed to talk about this #also my therapist said that FOR ONCE I should think about myself #and that I should stop protecting others #WHY I'M LIKE THIS HELP

[floydsglasses]

Have you guys ever been mistaken for like someone younger?? When I was 14 I was confused for an eight-year-old even though I was developed, I'm 18 and now somebody thinks I'm 12 or 14 it's a never-ending cycle

#feel free to ignore me #its truly a curse

[starrspice]

My brain has cursed me with the concept of A DCA x centaur world AU

#give me enough time I'll make anything #any au imaginable #like #uhhhh #a toy story au #fuck that's actually a great idea #excuse me while i expand my au libraries #starr stuff #nonsense #feel free to ignore me #see

[crazy-walls]

#i am exhausted and bored as hell but i had so much input today that my mind won't come to rest so this happened #feel free to ignore me

[ssreeder]

Ollooooo!

I was tagged by @erisenyo @chiptrillino & maybe someone else? Idk I’m sorry I love you all. For the last line that I’ve written, so here it is -

“I find the different nation’s war strategies interesting, and a ruse like this is precisely what I would have expected from the Southern Water Tribe fleet.”

im supposed to tag some people: @maaaxx @hella1975 @sockfus @chiptrillino (writing please.) @punkjet @y-s-t-v

It’s the last line you’ve written (please all of you feel free to ignore me except one of you don’t you ignore me. Mwahahahaha (seriously don’t befriend me I’m so annoying)

Anyone else feel free to join & tag me so I can see wohoooo!!!

#I’m doing this to playfully bully a friend #& also there ya go some good ol azula pov (not her pov but she’s in it a lot) #thanks everyone who tagged me #it was super nice #& please feel free to join in #honestly I just tagged people I know write and if I forgot you it’s because my brain is mush right now #so my sincerest apologies #also sorry hella I know you’ve only been back on tumblr for five minutes & I’m already tagging you in shit sorry #feel free to ignore me #alright i don’t know what else to say in the tags #except obviously that’s from the next chapter in liab #& it’s another doozy damn it #alright thanks everyone who tagged me #I love the attention #tag game

[wrensflight]

Love that Christian won't even fight his friend himself he has to make Frankenstein's monster do it

#aew #im tipsy #feel free to ignore me #celebrating my uni acceptance by drinking and watching wrestling

[bass-alien]

and today is a great example of why I could never ever date someone who doesn’t understand and isn’t empathetic to my health issues because the reality is shit like this happens when you have a chronic disease

#venting #feel free to ignore me

[lazaruspiss]

making nightwing red, so that the "batfam" would match (from what ive heard about that whole thing) is so incredibly dumb. 1) they technically match already bc they all have the mostly black and edgy thing going on 2) use yellow instead of red you fuckin edgelords. yellow accents, almost all of the immediate "batfam" have done that at some point or another. and maybe i miss discowing. what of it

#feel free to ignore me #im tired and my spine hurts <3 #make nightwing blue and yellow again and the black and blue look can be used for stealth missions or smth

[bigalockwood]

His leaves are fully unfurled now and he’s shed the pith with my help. 🥺🥺 Now he can grow into a big tree 💜💜

#simon the persimmon #feel free to ignore me #I just love my plants a lot #and simon especially #I just unironically told him I love him #talking shit for the hell of it

[sunshinechay]

I’m sure someone way more articulate then me has talked about this and I missed it but

The love triangle….is actually the way I love my love triangles…Sand and Mew represent different paths Ray can choose and right now, he’s choosing the easy path. The path he knows, the path of addiction and the only way he can begin to get better is to choose the other path.

I don’t necessarily mean he needs to end up with Sand. Ray can (at this point I think, likely will) end the series alone and still be choosing the path Sand represents.

None of this is to say Mew is a bad person, a bad character or a bad friend. Rather it is what he represents in terms of Ray’s narrative. He represents the continued path of self destruction that come with addiction. And likewise, Ray represents something very similar to Mew, self destruction and poor choices.

#only friends #only friends the series #only friends meta #ofts #raymew #sandray #ray keeps going back to mew the way an addict keeps going back for their fix #you can’t change my mind #needless to say none of this is healthy for any involved #and yes there is a lot of trauma relating to this as well #again i’m sure someone much more articulate than me has spoken about it #i’m just word vomiting my thoughts #feel free to ignore me #cap watches ofts #cap speaks

[shadesofdeviant]

Can I take a moment between the exaltation of Bi Buck to talk about how happy and giddy Eddie Diaz was in this episode and how much I adore his new friendship with Tommy?

Tommy, who flew helicopters in the Army.

Eddie who's source of his PTSD was a traumatic helicopter crash during his time in the Army.

Eddie who had a breakdown when he found out his platoon were all dead. Eddie who had been trying to reach out to someone who understood his trauma personally but suddenly had noone.

And suddenly finds himself in the back of a helicopter with someone who could have potentially sat in that pilots seat in Afghanistan if the stars had aligned.

Sure they might not have shared the exact same trauma, but they have enough similarities and experiences to be able to understand each other on levels that others just can't.

Of course Eddie's gonna gravitate to that camaradarie for a hot minute.

#9-1-1 #9-1-1 Spoilers #Eddie Diaz #Tommy Kinard #Honestly I adore the potential this has going forward #Noone will ever replace Buck for Eddie #But there's always that part of his trauma that Buck couldn't ever understand no matter how much he tried or wished to #rintrash #sorry for my rambling thoughts #Feel free to ignore me #Bi Buck is very important

[lover-of-skellies]

Realizing that any ship that involves Ink could work with Ibis. Since she's me, but a lot of my personality has been amplified, so she's also like Ink

So like

ErrInk, for example. But it's Ibis instead of Ink. She just annoys the shit out of Error and is around so much that suddenly, it's weird whenever she's gone and things are calm

#not skeleton stuff #rambles #ibis.exe #does this count as self shipping. self insert stuff #maybe?? #I have no idea tbh #feel free to ignore me

[sendpseuds]

Do you still ship obitine or only obikin?

I'm gonna go ahead and assume this question was asked in good faith, and I'm sorry to turn your ask into a soapbox but this is the only way I can answer your question.

There’s a big difference between shipping a couple and writing a couple.

If you’re asking me who do I genuinely ship Obi-Wan with in-universe? Yeah, It’s still Satine.

So why so much Obikin recently?

[WARNING: RANTING BEYOND THIS POINT]

For a lot of reasons I'm not interested in getting into, recently, I've been trying to put as little pressure on myself as possible when it comes to things I simply enjoy doing.

Follow the serotonin, if you will.

All of this is to say, recently the thing that has been giving me that serotonin rush is these short smutty AU one-shots, most of which happen to be Obikin.

Alright, but why?

[Not that I really feel like I have to answer that but it’s an interesting thing to interrogate.]

First of all, I think it’s important to note that I have been [for the most part] writing AUs recently, so it’s not really even a question of Ship necessarily, it’s a question of Dynamic.

Satine and Obi-Wan have a dynamic built on honor and duty and loyalty. Yeah, they have a playful relationship, they bicker and they fight and they disagree [which is one of my favorite things about them], but when it comes down to it, everything between them is about respect.

Now, Anakin and Obi-Wan? Their dynamic is, frankly, unhinged. It’s big and horrible and volatile and genuine and possessive and often toxic as fuck. But you know what? That dynamic can make for a really weird and fun story.

I don’t think Haunted Heart works as Obitine. She would be skeptical. She wouldn’t be open to his love the way Anakin is. She just wouldn’t.

I Need You Right Now absolutely cannot be Obitine, neither can A Very Strange Time in My Life.

But Camp Kalevala doesn’t work as Obikin…

It’s about the dynamic, not the relationship.

So there’s one reason: I’m going through a sort of experimental writing phase and this dynamic is just doing it for me.

Now how about a reason that’s a little harder to justify?

[If you’re still reading, you can have the ugly secrets.]

I like the attention that comes with the Obikin ship.

I feel freer to take risks knowing that there is a baseline amount of exposure a fic will get simply based on that being the ship tag.

Is that a good reason to write for a ship?

No. Probably not.

And I want to be clear, that’s not the reason I’m writing these stories.

But I would be kidding myself if I said it wasn’t a factor. 

So there it is.

Anyway!

Now that I’ve gotten way too carried away…

I really hope you’ve enjoyed the Obitine stories that I have posted, and I hope you continue to look my way because I’d be genuinely surprised if I didn’t write more for that tag, but thank you for understanding that these stories have become a lot more about exploring myself as a writer and a weirdo than it ever was about fandom.

I feel so grateful to have a community to share my stories with, and the support of this community has truly allowed me to give myself a little grace through a lot of hard times.

I write because I have stories in my head.

I write because I love it.

And I love you, too.

Thank you for the ask 🖤

#anon asks #obitine #obikin #rant #soapbox #feel free to ignore me