#fear in her life

[agnes-come-back-challenge]

I love that everyone in TMA is just. Unremarkable. Jon isnt a heroic character; he's self-loathing and depressed and he exhibits the same self-pity as I do when I'm self-loathing and depressed. He doesn't stand out for his strength of will or quick-thinking or virtue. He's a good person but he stops trying to stay human when it gets uncomfortable. He's everything that a regular person is when theyre trapped in a horrible situation and it's ugly and insufferable and Real.

#and dont even get me started on the rest of them #martin is jealous and petty and manipulative #and look at his life— look at his mother— of course he is! #basira would never do the things daisy does but she's perfectly content to look the other way and ignore it #and she does the same thing in the archives— the world is ending and she hides away with her books and pretends it's none of her business #and oh god MELANIE #like #it really drives home tim's point that all you need for the fears to ruin your life is just bad luck #tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #jon sims

[natjennie]

something about "your anger isn't scary to me" is making me so emotional. something about as above so below, cassandra as a mirror of kristen. something about "I've been dropping the ball a lot lately" and kristen's struggles with adhd. something about teenage girls and rage and fury and justice. something about adaine's vision of ruining fallinel and the sylvaire looking for revenge. something about sadness and doubt and anger and love. something about "I choose to understand" being the absolute core theme of d20 in general. something something.

#something about kristen's adhd making her fuck things up and being mad at herself and that manifesting #as her deity being overcome with rage #something about fear and anger and shame and the inability to do better even when you're trying so hard #and something about people loving you anyway #something about 'your anger isnt scary to me' #as someone who had undiagnosed pcos in early high school and got so fucking MAD #something about adhd and how you're always failing and you have no one to blame but yourself #and how heart breaking it is to watch your life fall apart around you KNOWING you could do something #but being unable to do it right. always forgetting always slipping up #and how mad that makes you. at yourself. #this fight is so much #fhjy #d20 #dimension 20 #fantasy high

[tofixtheshadows]

So I've been thinking lately about how Mithrun is Kabru's dark mirror (more on that another time- it needs its own post), and I thought it interesting that one of their parallels is that they were both cared for by Milsiril, but in opposite directions. She took Kabru in as her foster after he was orphaned and tried to convince him not to become an adventurer. On the flip side, she helped rehabilitate Mithrun specifically so that he could rejoin the Canaries.

And I kept wondering: why?

For Kabru, obviously she loves him a whole lot- despite any other shortcomings in their relationship, I do believe that.

So I get why she tries to convince him not to go dungeoning, and, failing that, at least prepares him as thoroughly as she can.

But why help Mithrun? She used to hate Mithrun, but after realizing what a secretly twisted person he was, she actually thought of him more positively (oh, Milsiril). So it wasn't as if she held the kind of grudge that might motivate her to make his already-depleted life even more miserable by sending him back to the dungeons. And it wasn't that she felt bad for him either, since she didn't visit Mithrun for the first ~20 years of his recovery.

The Adventurer's Bible says that Utaya was the impetus for Mithrun returning to the Canaries, but Milsiril is the one who made the trip to see him and tell him about it.

Why would Milsiril work so hard to get her old coworker back into fighting fit? Why encourage him to return to such a dangerous lifestyle, when she was the one who chose not to mercy-kill him?

That last panel is such a crazy thing to hint at and then never elaborate on. Without it we could have just thought that Milsiril wanted the Canaries' work to continue without her, even if it seemed out of character. I think some people even assume she's just a natural caretaker as a foster mom and handwave it to include nursing Mithrun too. What could Milsiril's suspicious motives be? What does she gain from Mithrun joining the Canaries that isn't an altruistic desire to see dungeons safely sealed? Feeling a sense of responsibility for the work she left behind isn't an ulterior motive.

My theory is: Milsiril, knowing that Mithrun was empty save for the burning desire to face the demon again, wound him up like a clockwork doll and pointed him back at the dungeons.

Hoping that he'd eliminate the biggest threat to Kabru's life, before it was too late for him.

Milsiril the puppetmaster.

#Dungeon Meshi #Dungeon Meshi meta #Mithrun #Milsiril #Kabru #btw I'm working with the only translations I could find sorry #so keep that in mind #like it just seemed WEIRD to me #that gloomy introverted Milsiril #who left the life of a Canary behind #decided to do this Canary-adjacent work of helping this guy #maybe the queen made her do it because so many people died and they needed more Canaries idk! #but why would anyone pick Milsiril as a life coach? I really think it was her own choice #it's so interesting how we get these hints of a downright sinster Milsiril #I really like the complicated relationship she and Kabru have #struggling to fully humanize him from her elven perspective #but still taking him seriously wrt: his fears over being a monster or his desire to go to a party! #crazy stuff there #everything about Kabru and adjacent to Kabru is insane what a character #musings with Dea

[kagoutiss]

the newly vassaled gerudo king is inexplicably handed a baby

#tloz #legend of zelda #ocarina of time #oot #zelda #ganondorf #i actually think he would’ve been a teenager or so around the time zelda was born but. this is just for sillies so #and no idea when he actually swore fealty to the king. i actually feel like it might’ve been a bit before the events of the game #in my head it’s like. the war just ended and impa hasn’t been assigned as zelda’s attendent yet #and newborn baby zelda is somewhat of an afterthought atm and whoever was holding her before suddenly had urgent business to take care of #and ganondorf is like the most visible person in the vicinity and also everyone is treating him like shit because he Just Lost The War #and no one takes him seriously anymore despite Everything so it’s like haha oh ok so i’m just demoted to Giant Babysitter huh #for the next 5-10 minutes or so. i’m not apoplectic or anything rn #already having one of the most humiliating depressing weeks of my entire life what’s one more humiliating thing #meanwhile baby zelda is like *has no object permanence or sense of fear yet* Holy Shit Its Boar From My Visions

[crybaby-bkg]

new dad Bakugou who’s going back to work full time almost a full year after his daughter his born and he now has to grapple with the fact that….goddamn, he’s spoiled the shit outta her.

well, he doesn’t think it was spoiling her. in actuality, he just created a routine with her, gave her every bit of his attention, held her when she cried, scolded her (yes just at eight months) whenever she’d babble for more puffs even though she’s had enough already. it wasn’t spoiling, it wasn’t. he vowed to never be that dad, to raise a snot nosed brat, one similar to himself.

but here he is, on a Tuesday morning three weeks after her first birthday. he’s standing halfway between the front door and the living room in full uniform, with his still sleepy baby and her even sleepier mama. she’s gripping his neck like he promised to abandon her, wailing and crying so loud and dramatically, that you can’t help but chuckle at her antics and how he wavers ever so slightly.

“You promised you’d go back to work,” you scold him gently, rubbing at your daughters quivering back when she whines again the moment he acts like he’s gonna pull her off. Bakugou frowns at you, and you shrug, smoothing her unruly blond curls away from her sticky forehead.

“But you guys need me.” He pouts, eyebrows downturned as he pulls her away enough to wipe at her wet face. she blubbers again, whimpering out a small dadaaaa noooo, that absolutely breaks his heart.

“And so does the world.” You smile at him, gently pulling your daughter away from the matching glassy red eyes who watch her go. “We’ll be fine, my love. Promise.”

Bakugou looks unconvinced, especially since your daughter reaches for him with another cry of his name. you don’t say anything when he sniffles discreetly, quickly reaching down to the coffee table to snatch up his utility belt that he dropped when she waddled out of her room in tears. he snaps it on wordlessly, and you go to turn to the kitchen when he wraps you both up in his arms.

“Love you,” he whispers against your forehead before pecking it, leaning down to kiss your lips next, and then your daughter’s fat little cheeks. He whispers another love you to her, and wipes away at her rosy cheeks when she pouts at him.

“Rub you.” your daughter pouts, the both of you freezing in shock.

“Oh my god,” you whisper, grinning. “She said I love you back!” Bakugou matches your grin, laughing under his breath as he presses another torrent of kisses all of her face. for the first time since she’s opened her eyes today, she laughs, loud and joyous and familiar. he thinks that maybe going back in today won’t be so bad after all. not if this is what he’ll be coming home to.

#I have been tormented with dad bkg thoughts again I fear #he’s too loveable for his own good #but also the thought of bkg becoming a dad and vowing he’d be this certain way #but then his kid comes out and he’s like. yes. values. parenting skills. life lessons. discipline and love. #and then all of it goes out the window when they just look at him #and they look so much like him and they’re just so cute and annoying and. now he’s brought them everything they’ve ever wanted LOL #also I love toddlers who speak like non conventionally/stereotypically #like my youngest niece turns all of her consonants to ‘h’ for 2 syllable words #and it’s so funny bc everything sounds like ‘huh hah huhh’ #but she’s also VERY clear when she wants to be lol she just gets excited sometimes and forgets to enunciate #okay rambling sorry but I love babies LOL #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #bakugou treats! 🍬 #dad bkg

[waitineedaname]

the spectrum of fma characters' takes on fighting women, with the endpoints being Greed's "I won't fight women because it goes against the gentlemanly rules I learned in the 1700s" and Ed's "I will fight girls to PROVE I'm not sexist"

#fma #the panel in the manga when he's about to chase after paninya #and he goes I'M NOT SEXIST!! #it's my favorite #most other men in the series fall in the middle #which is 'there is an important woman in my life who could absolutely kick my ass so i have a healthy amount of respect/fear for her' #the examples that pop to mind are ling mustang and armstrong

[forgetmenautical]

be nice to her RIGHT NOW

#I have no opinions on her but it is breaking my heart to see everyone being so fucking mean to her so I am. #Stepping up and becoming her fan. I fear for her life #totk #totk yona #tears of the kingdom

[tomatoart]

to stay the same sad, sorry mother

#resident evil 7 #resident evil 8 #mia winters #rosemary winters #eveline re7 #rose winters #resident evil #resident evil fanart #blood #do u guys ever think abt how insane the mia development is in such a good way. like being an alone single(ish) mother w a bioweapon baby #who just wants a family. then they kill that kid and they escape just to be doomed to the same life again. i dont think shed EVER view her #life w rose as punishment dont take it like that. but more so her life is a punishment to pay for her sins via the cycle of being given #everything back. just to end up with the same isolating issues she had in re7 #her motherhood is so interesting!!! i think shed have a lot of complexities w it.. a balance of unconditional love out of fear of how badly #she messed up the first time. oh my goddd #i love herrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr shes my fav re chara ever and like. all time top faves in general. i love her so much GRRRRRRRRRR #idc if this looks kinda ass n rushed but i had to put it down ^.^ #a childs loving grip too LOL *goes insane*

[mari-monsta]

New adrinette au where adrien is the ( surpriscingly hot) driving instructor and marinette is the still-hasent-gotten-her-liscence-yet 24 year old who is a horrible horrible driver

#cue antics of marinette being the worst driver adrien has ever seen #and marinette being even WORSE at driving than she normally is #because she was expecting some balding guy or snarky old lady to teach her driving not this adorable kind and patient young dude #anyway its just a lot of marinette being an absolute menace on the road and adrien trying to pretend like hes not fearing for his life #bye anyway im so tired and im sick of working please let ke go home

[jeeaark]

I will never be able to do the sunset scene justice. I will never be able to recreate the most beautiful, romantic confession, character growth showing, most heart-pouring-out mushy bits you ever did see in a githyanki. Because I.

Am a fool.

Who really wanted a dialogue option asking if keeping an illithid in the squad was gonna be a deal-breaker with this relationship.

Probably woulda ruined the tender moment pitching the piña colada friendship there.

....100% it would.

#baldur's gate 3 #bg3 spoilers #bg3 #bg3 fanart #bg3 comic #lae'zel #greygold #babe's taking that protective love language very seriously #But seriously every conversation with lae'zel during act 3 felt like I was one wrong dialogue option away with her breaking up with me #The dawning horror when you realize the sole joy of your life is trying to befriend your brain-eating mortal enemy #The dawning horror when you realize you've placed all your joy in an optimistically delusional fool #This is probably validating Lae'zel's fear of sharing her heart #because she placed her heart in Greyg and Greyg is now cowabungaing off a cliff into redeem-the-irredeemable-or-die-trying-ville #I'm so sorry Lae'zel kladjfkdjf #remember when I said relationships can get bumpy~?

[empty-dream]

"Jinshi-sama." "What is it?"

#kusuriya no hitorigoto #the apothecary diaries #theapothecarydiariesedit #maomao #jinshi #jinmao #myedit #mygif #this scene is so sad in hindsight #she is right commoners there die just like that #and for all her snarks and indifference #she does adhere the rankings and formalities #if only to ensure her life safety #and here she is requesting to be killed in a way she prefers #a brazen act for a commoner #for a sec shes comfortable enough to ask that to Jinshi #then quickly withdraws it for fear of stepping the line #then on the other hand Jinshi is like wtf u saying #then he realizes how far the distance between them really is #and how she still views him far above her own place #and NOT the same as her #im anime only so this is only my theory: #based on what Jinshi says in the beginning of 2nd cour #that he does what he does now so that he can make his own choices #her words and that its possible that he would have to execute her #that should feel like a harsh reality slap to his face #AARGH I LOVE COMPLICATED RELATIONSHIP LIKE THIS

[aholefilledwithtwigs]

I have to say, as a full ass adult it is so satisfying to respond with ‘Tumblr’ when asked if I’m on any social media. It’s great. Just a conversation full stop. No ‘what’s your handle/username’ like with instagram or twitter. Absolute roadblock— and usually derails people from the whole goal of getting your socials

(other tumblr users also don’t ask username, but for entirely different reasons)

#people outside tumblr don’t seem to get it #and fear even venturing in #people from tumblr are wary because they DO know what goes on here #and looking at a real life coworker’s tumblr can change how you see them #my old therapist was also on tumblr #and was terrified of crossing paths with her here #though i know we inhabited wildly different circles #(she had never heard of plinko horse when it was at its peak #which seemed impossible)

[bigkickguy]

fear and hunger meme doodle! I want to see Karin be mean to the rest of the cast too! :,)

#fear and hunger #abella fear and hunger #karin fear and hunger #kickdraw #I want more of karin being mean to everyone and not just daan #she probably does i just haven't gotten the dialogue yet! or seen people post it around much hakdjfhgafdg #listen im an abella olivia fan - but there is still room in my life for more gay women #I feel like actually if these 2 get into what they both have going on to start the game - they'd probably end up being good friends #'friends' doing a lot of work here in my mind #I love drawing karin and her huge jacket #i feel like i need to make it even bigger though - goals for next time i guess!

[muchmossymess]

Arthur: I love Camelot more than I can say but, sometimes I feel I can hardly breathe everyone expects so much of me. Being here with you, I can be myself.

Gwen: I like that, you being yourself.

Arthur: Sometimes I dream of leaving Camelot.

Gwen: Really? Where would you go?

Arthur: I don't know. Somewhere where nobody knew who I was. I'd get some land and become a farmer.

Gwen, laughing: I can hardly see you toiling away in the fields all day.

Arthur: Obviously, I'd take Merlin with me. He can do all the hard work.

Gwen: I'm sure he'd love that.

#bro just wants a cottage life with merlin is that so much to ask for #“we could have been friends in another life” #i hope this happens but i fear this will end in tragedy #guinevere #idk her tags 😭 #merlin #merlin bbc #bbc merlin #merthur #merlin x arthur #gwenthur #??? #moss' madness #arwen

[realbeefman]

stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem! #its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome' #instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems! #anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now! #house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

[cool-person-yey]

45% of my brain is like " the puter voices are jmart and jonah magnus!!11!1!1!!;" and 45% are " they know we were going to try make TMA and tmagp have some sort of direct relation and they're using it to trick us" and the other 10% are " these motherfuckers are planning something totally different and completely unexpected"

#I'm fearing for my life #but also rly excited #honestly i for me tmagp is a different universe ( maybe the one from Anny Villette statement or something idk her name ) after the fears— #— were released but since they were reconfigured they're different (insert the fears are now desires theory here) and the puter voices #i think Annabelle mentioned how their voices will live on or smth so. yeah. #or maybe I'm totally wrong #who knows? not me #tmagp #the magnus protocol #tmagp spoilers #can i tag this as tma #i mean i mentioned both so #tma