This is what I mean when I say I have soooo many goal weights....
So my BMI at 272lb was 46.3! So my goal is to get my BMI to 39.9 so I drop a bracket and I am not morbidly obese anymore. The of course keep going to 146lb - normal highest which is the heaviest I can be with a healthy BMI...but I ideally want to get to 109, which is just 1lb underweight but if it is possible then 99lb - cos under 100lb makes me feel happy in my head - but I am going to have a good 8-10lb of loose skin I reckon by comparing myself to other people who's lost similar with similar body types, so I might stick to 109 depending on how I feel at the time.
But yes, I have lots of mini goals. First been just to get under 250 ... then 234..then 225 and then under 200, then 175, then 150..then 146...125...120...115...110...109...105...100...99
Lots of little celebrations along the way - which helps keep me binge free and my eyes on the prize!
I'm in need of some m3@nsp0! I've been attempting to restrict however have had some food and I feel like I'm about to binge.
The photo of me in the red top is at my lighted which is 75kg. Unfortunately, after highschool I started gaining weight (turquoise sports bra, 2018) and then I went through ED recovery in 2020/2021 and it only got worse. I've had a relapse with my ED so I'm hoping 1 day I'll look like the 1st photo again 🤞
Today's food so far apple pure (approx. 50 cal) and a muesli bar (180 cal) and some chocolate milk (160 cal).
It’s been a couple of days since I’ve blogged, I just started school and it’s been like hell to keep up my diet. My mom always sends me a lunchbox and I always eat everything, I feel so bad with myself all of the time. Any tips?
Can someone just tell me how many calories to eat for each meal and when to space the meals out? I'd really appreciate it. I'd also really appreciate it if I could just wake up pretty but I know that's not gonna happen.
I got too comfortable living like this. I made more progress when I was being bullied and still believed someone would love me. TUHHHHH tired but like it is my fault lol