#fake living wall

[enden-k]

The main room in your teapot looks soo good, lowkey inspiring me to redo mine (i litteraly just threw down furniture in a way that kinda made sense, didn't really know what to do with just a big square room)

ohh thank for thinking so jabcjk tbh they only look nice for pics bc the rooms and islands outside are just way too big for that little we can place without hitting limit

jacskjscbk i want smaller spaces or being able to place more 😩

#its the reason why i started to cut the other rooms in half with fake walls so it doesnt look stupid #i like to clutter spaces for more lived in look instead of too much empty space so it just sucks theres sm space/limit #reply #own

[newfeeling77]

i finallyyyy start therapy tomorrow after FOUR YEARS so i need to make a list of the things i want to work on and im already seeing myself trying to come up with reasons not to discuss the weirdest stuff that causes me the most undue stress because i dont know how to explain my somewhat delusional behavior. like i dont even know what to call it and i feel like when i describe the things i picture in my head that cause so many issues they’ll sound fake. not sure. but if i could figure out why i do it and get it to stop ill be so much more free

#the last time i was in therapy i ran into such a wall #bc i only talked about my struggle with school #like almost nothing else n i have a lot of problems that affect my health n ability to function #that i just didnt want to talk about n now im trying to force myself #idk some of it is embarrassing and the rest of it is just hard to confront because i kind of refuse to believe im a real person living #a real life like everythings fake to me. #which from what i understand isnt good or correct

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

collaborated with @poppies-for-thirteen and made a video of their collage poem

cw for flashing images and glitchy sound and visual effects

#LOVED doing this #was super fun #loved how it was all back and forth the whole way #my favourite parts are #the sequence from 0:03-0:05 #'i wish i never told anyone' under 13 with her watch and yaz with the coin. each with their own secrets bc theyre too much alike <3 #'you cant say your wish out loud' and 13 quietly begging to be given a reason to stay a bit longer #the heartbeat. at some points especially it makes really nice transitions where text fades out on it or the image cuts #or when 13 is on the sofa in 11x1 vs on the floor in 12x10 #the entire sequence after yaz says 'i'd rather not have met her cus' and then it's like a slideshow of their greatest hits/reasons why #0:28-0:33 'can we just live in the present' 13 in yazs apartment looking at rOTTING GARBAGE THAT HASNT BEEN DISPOSED OF PROPERLY #yaz looking at her all hearteyes bc she doesnt mind living in this present for a bit either #'somewhere i can never find it' with 13 being bad at hiding secrets like yaz can see all the secrets in plain sight but she doesnt get to #know what they are. 'somewhere i can never find it' o's hut with all the files. something something hidden in plain sight again #'a life i never knew' with ruth and 13 driving up to fake life lighthouse and then it's yaz in her old job and yaz in her timestorm au #the life they never knew being like. both literally and also roads not taken. what if yaz had never met the doctor. #what if the doctor could have a normal stationary life. lives they havent known #'i want to fix myself' with 13 looking Like That at tesla makes me want to CRY #plus then yaz of course for double points #'i wish this would go on forever' + 13 counting endless days on the wall #'i want to forgive myself' with 13 saying 'im just a traveller' like.... babe <3 im gonna scream #i know i made it. still #that one distorted shot of 13 falling bleeding through the shot from the end of arachnids where theyre about to pull the lever together #and yaz looking up at 'i want to tell you everything' and the letters all wobbling like that #i acknowledge that this is most of the video that is my favourite part #but it's a good video i like it :) #okay im logging off now for real. had to do this video real quick but now im gonna go touch grass. see you later

[jynxlovesluck]

Kim Dokja is autistic, in this essay I will-

#clearly I just have to speed run my trauma to win #obvious #No but fr im right #orv manhwa #orv kim dokja #autism #No because he's clearly been stated not to show a lot of emotions (yes Blah Blah fourth wall. He got hit directly by his HS bully #and then was like ) #He was obsessed with the same novel for ten years straight and has it pretty damn well memorized #(blah blah trauma. Have you considered im also traumatized autistic and have done the same thing with content that has FAR less Material) #Also everyone always comments on how fake he is. Its called masking bro #(i am looking directly at the webtoon NTs for this specific #especially when they start saying at the beginning they dislike Dokja and assume he doesn't care about anyone at all #when really? #Dokja ESPECIALLY when you know his past is going beyond for people he barely knows and he starts treasuring not only their lives #but their ability to survive. Just because it's not (to you) doesn't mean he doesn't care #and just because someone's primary thing for sense of Self is to put their own ambitions and #the ambitions and goals of their loved ones first instead of keeping up a moral high ground #doesn't make them someone who doesn't care nor isn't a reason to say they are incapable of care) #and im right ✌️

[alienboyss]

I miss when houses and trailers and apartments were built with at least a little bit of love

#sinth #ok the walls are white the fake wood tile is grey this place is built like a morgue. 1500 dollar rent. the other one has a black stovetop #instead of white. stove grates used to be made with different patterns. the place i lived in that was built in the 70s had plaster flowers #on the ceiling. the kitchen linoleum was green. this is clean its corporate its perfectly bland and unfeeling and unstimulating #project whatever youd like onto it. it was built in two months. inspection every third. #we'll tear it down and build one that looks exactly the same it its place when its veen five years and you move out. maybe the stovetop will #be black again.

[toastsnaffler]

this new sufjan album is going to fully rearrange my brain chemistry I can already feel it

#noticed the new single this morning but saved it for later cuz i didnt want to risk the psychic damage of listening to a track called- #'will anybody ever love me' right before a job interview 💀 #but damn its good. going to the local early listening party next week hehe #also just discovered film school everyone say thank u last.fm for actually generating good music recs 😳😳😳😳 #the recs i get suggested based off my listening to so much bdrmm are always >>>>>>> #bdrmm were INSANELY good live. genuinely think a lot of ppl who act disdainful of shoegaze would change their minds if they went to a gig #the richness and texture of the sound cant be summed up in an audio recording u have to be there and feel ur whole body thrum with it #its like floating in a wall of sound.. but the spotify versions sound soooo tame. not that i dont like them but its not the same #god im so fucking excited for slowdive. only a month and a half to go!!!!!! #listened to the new mitski album as well but honestly its not doing much for me rn #but usually when she releases new stuff it takes a little while to grow on me. i need to at least read the lyrics first.. #I think esp w folk inspired artists u have to let the song approach u at the right time. ive def had eras when diff mitski albums appealed #but in my heart im a retired from sad girlie. actually at the risk of sounding like a fake fan ive never been able to get into puberty 2 #or be the cowboy. i like a couple tracks but thematically theyve never spoken to me #makeout creek/laurel hell are in the middle theres a couple on them that have me by the throat. lush is my 2nd fave i think #but yeah i dont think ill ever be able to extricate myself emotionally from retired from sad that was my first breakup album!!!! #.diaries #anyway back 2 translation state..

[milo-is-rambling]

Me when I want to be wanted more than anything else

#I think I’d be more normal if I had more friends but every friend I lose makes me isolate more and more and now it’s like I can only trust #people I’ve interacted with for years already #and then every time I try to make friends I either don’t respond (anxiety. not feeling a vibe. whatever) or they stop responding when I #actually like them (someone who talked to me for like four days in an row and then randomly blocked me no explanation) #I think if I made more friends or even talked to more people I’d understand how to do it successfully but I don’t have enough experience and #no one wants to be friends with me (and it’s scary when they do!!!) wahhhhhhhhhh #I need to move somewhere new and talk to strangers I’m good at that #I made more friends a a concert age 14 than I have from me the ages of 16-19 and i think that’s ridiculous #how do I explain to everyone ever that nothing bad happened to me I’m just mentally ill bc my hormones are fucked and it’s let me to spiral #and ruin my own life and then slowly painfully build my life back up and then crush it all again over and over again for years and years #to the point where I’m afraid I’ll never amount to anything so the idea of ever truly having people who find any value for me in their lives #feels like it’s fake and then when I do finally trust people I end up loving too hard and fucking it up and then I isolate for even longer #it’s takes me twice as long to find a new friend and trust them again and then it happens all over again #it feels like I’m destined to be alone bc I can’t tell the difference between platonic shit and flirting so I have a wall between me and #everyone else bc I’m afraid to like someone too much and confuse my brain bc I don’t ever want to like someone who doesn’t like me even if #it’s as friends bc I’ve put more effort in than other ppl always but it’s bc I put too much effort in and expect too much and no one else #is as weirdly obsessive and clingy and dedicated as I am bc I’m not normal and that’s why no one likes me bc I try too hard or not at all #and it makes everyone in my life family friends crushes whatever hate me bc I’m all or nothing forever I can’t just be normal #I think a lifetime of living with my mother has permanently damaged the way I see myself #who are all these normal ideal people in my brain why did my mother put them there and why will I always be worse than a hypothetical person #designed to shame me for struggling which gets louder the more I struggle #spirals cycles etc etc etc #ugh. I want my brain to turn off I’m gonna go take a dab and maybe delete this later

[claire-starsword]

#shining force #ressurection of the dark dragon #sfrodd mawlock #shining series #long post #sfrodd hq dialogue #man this one is such a disappointment #way too bland for mawlock's fun fourth wall breaking shtick and also kind of nonsense #why pretend mage is a fake word for scientist when you'll acknowledge the existence of mages later on #magic exists in this setting bro what the hell are you talking about #also do the cards capture the soul itself or some sorta impression of it? the latter makes more sense #given that we collect cards of living people with powers based on them but not exact clones #either way did the girl consent to any of this as well? i know the writers don't care lol #also mawlock telling the story like a long lost myth kinda annoys me #because he's otherwise the guy that knows the truth behind a lot of ancient stuff #like okay sure a man can't know everything but still. disappointing vibe wise #he shows more knowledge about that teleporting machine than his own weapons of choice apparently #weird #using soul stuff though while being similar to a thing called the soul eater... hmmm #i know he's not too similar to the soul eater but. i still feel it in my heart okay. i'm connecting the dots #oh again i forgot to make more fun of him #'it must be fate that brought us together' my brother in christ you shoved yourself in the narrative on purpose #you busted through the wall like 'this is a remake i'm here to bring the extra content' #and the extra content was narsha so thanks but also shut up

[marklikely]

i always saw people in other slasher tags drawing brahms "the boy" heelshire as like. a very large muscular man with a doll mask and i honestly thought that it was just like. a sexyman-ification of the doll so i was like "well thats extremely weird and funny of them to do"

anyway when i watched the movie and the human man in a mask walked out of the wall i literally screamed

#like OH MY GOD HES REAL? #avpost #movie diary #im so sorry i doubted you slasher fandom... #i literally thought people made like an aged up sexyman version of the fucking porcelain doll so they could ship him w slasher villains. #like the old 2012 'draw any nonhuman character as a guy in a suit' thing. #but i was wrong he literally exists. #anyway this is making me laugh so fucking hard like why is he living in the walls pretending to be a doll.. #you could just live in your house. then your parents wouldnt kill themselves to escape their weird ass life #like i get it you had to fake your death to not get tried for murder (even though like. who was gonna try an 8 year old for murder) #but like... why couldnt you just live in your house asfdgh am i missing something #im gonna like read what other people say about the plot because him living in the walls like. im here for it but also its so dumb

[clownforce99]

packin' em in like sardines. freja honestly doesnt know half the people that hunker down at her place but it doesnt matter because its not like anything ever goes missing, and the landlord doesn’t do anything about noise complaints either.

if you’re a part of torrent, you’re safe; troopers from elsewhere are welcome but it’s at your own risk because not everyone’s CO has social anxiety as bad as rex

#ok stuff does go missing but its food. and her fridge has a false interior wall that she hides the important things behind #she'll gripe about never being able to use her couch but the truth is it's nice to have company after beans is gone #she keeps a large value-pack of toothbrushes in her bathroom as well as some standard issue toothpaste pilfered from who knows where #sometimes she ends up with more furniture than she started with #like she'll go to bed with one side table and wake up with another mismatched table left in the corner of the living room #mystery furniture now in freja's possession include a comically low to the ground lawn chair #a very ugly and possibly haunted painting of a wookie (its eyes appear to follow you around the room) #a botched taxidermy loth cat #and a bowl of fake fruit with bites taken out of them #tfw ur tags are longer than the post

[cospinol]

and also:

double unexpected but it was nice of this show to provide a lightly aste-flavoured chara to go along with him

#‘last second redemption arc for finn’s shitty brother’ was nearly the only enjoyable moment in this deeply deeply dire finale lol #not that it was good in and of itself #but. in an episode of nothing but insanely depressing bs framed as genuinely positive and uplifting good-end stuff #with ‘people in the slum can earn/use love points now’ being by far the most off-the-wall horrifying of the bunch #nonetheless this stupid moment with his stupid brother made me laugh out loud. it feels so grim omg!! #like thank you hack omg<3 the real problem was clearly that ppl living in poverty didn’t have access to predatory social medi fake-currency #without even touching the content moderation stuff omgggggg #gotta say. yurei deco was perhaps not anime of the season #txt #anyways what we were getting at here is I did actually love finn’s backstory ep in and of itself. in a vacuum. that’s my boy

[soigneetcharmant]

some asshole was randomly transphobic like. at me tonight for reasons i can’t explain. i’m (onstensibly?) cis but my friend asked if he knew my name and he was like. “are you a he/she or a they/she or a they/them or a he/him” like. aggressively. and then said “like what’s your she-name?” and just kept up the barrage of questions. like buddy. i don’t have time to unpack everything you just said. and then he was just like “sorry if i offended” maybe just. don’t be an asshole?

#like. gender is fake but for all intents and purposes i present myself as a woman and have not had any sort of gender-related treatment but #and it wasn’t like he was sincerely asking my pronouns like. he was aggressive about it. #it’s just a lot to unpack lmao like i wasn’t dressed super femininely i was wearing track pants and adidas and a denim jacket and my hair #was up but?? anyway. this is what people are talking about when transphobes start policing the appearances of people who are using women’s #bathrooms will backfire on more masc-presenting cis women because i was just living my ducking life as normal. #transphobia / #idk i just. had to write this out to process i’m like. shaken and feeling weird about it but i’m fine msotly just pisssd about transphobia #generally. also he was just an all around asshole and works on wall street so. #but there’s a difference between not assuming someone’s gender (which he did anyway since he used ‘he’ for me earlier in the night but i was #confused abt that) and aggressively asking someone if they’re a ‘he/she’?! #anyway like i said i’m shaken up but obviously this is a one-off thing that i don’t experience regularly

[xenopuslaevis]

god i honestly just fucking hate these cunts. I've dealt with some nasty people in my life so far, but they are really the icing on the cake. They are angry and hate us because they want to. We've literally done nothing except exist. Not our fault your parents marriage failed. God you're fucking adults now, get over yourselves.

#cunts man and i don't use that word unless absolutely warranted and i really mean it #so disrespectful rude #don't respect anyones space #don't respect others in general #literally hate me and my mum and brother because their mom tells them to. #i imagine it must be miserable to be so angry and hateful for no reason #no critical thought #no self reflection #and for 7 years these motherfuckers have hated us #given me rude nasty looks across the dinner table #literally called my mother ugly and never apologized for it #my mother fucking pays for half the house you live half the vacations you take fucking ungrateful greedy evil bitches #i don't even talk to them #i ignore them #they are honestly like a stain on the wall to me #rant #sorry family dramaaaaa teeheee #it just angers me that they are still like this #and given the excuse that they haven't had time to heal from their divorced parents even after 7 years #like no #you choose to heal #they could ignore whatever their slimy mother says to them about the situation but they choose not to #I really never dislike people in life unless i have a reason to #and i can honestly say these 2(and maybe their mom but ive never met her but i hve heard plenty) i definitely dislike with everything in me #complaining assholes #they are so unpleasant and their behaviour is so toxic and fake #when i lived in vancouver i literally forgot they existed and it was glorious \ #and yk what? they complain to their dad that we (me and my mum) don't invite them anywhere or seem like we don't want them there #like exdcuse me:?????????? no i dont #you give me nasty fucking looks and judge me just because i am an extension of my mother or b/c i am different than you

[majoringinsarcasm]

Crying. About. Politics.

I try not to think too hard about anything otherwise I’ll lose my mind. And this is not a hopeless post. This is just me saying. I feel like. A lot of people are gonna vote for Trump. From your hardcore republicans to truly normal people who are like well Biden was bad we can survive Trump again. And I think about the policies and laws and regulations that have been Good that aren’t in the big news. And I think about how RIGHT NOW states are banning books and sex ed and queer people just living period. And I think about how if the state of things is this bad Now? What’s it gonna be like under a presidenr who Actively agrees with or will go along with this shit for votes.

“We survived Trump” says the people who are still here. “We can survive another four years” says the people who won’t be pushed to maybe not stick around for that long.

#big sigh #also idk how to tell ppl that ONE the genocide on Gaza should not LAST ANOTHER FUCKING YEAR #that is not what this is talking about #but the man who wanted Mexico to pay for a wall to keep them out of the US AND MEANT IT #I don’t think he would be rallying to save Gaza yall like #am I happy about our system no am I angry at ALL branches that have hindered a ceasefire yes #but you can’t tell me that Trump would care #this is not a ‘pass’ for Biden but a reminder that ppl in congress NOW were brought in back then #and that checks and balances can help and also hinder #there are many red states right now bc ppl either don’t care or they genuinely think it’ll help them #I don’t think I could come out to my coworkers in a way that would be meaningful despite them liking me already #I cannot explain to them why I don’t bind or don’t LOOK TRANS #or worse id be seen as the Acceptable trans bc I Keep It To Myself and go by she her and ma’am #even tho my team lead who I love referred to me as a woman and it upset me more than I thought it would #I’ve been so resigned to cosplaying as cis in public that she her was just a thing I lived with and thought I was ok with #but it turns out not so much #which is great for affirming that I’m not faking it after a decade of self reflection but bad for every other reason #idk it’s not good times so many people are dead when they shouldn’t be and too many people #are FINE with it under the name of stopping terror #but talk to them about domestic terror and they’ll have no idea what you’re talking about #it’s fucking awful awful awful

[awritersbro]

If I had a nickel for every time I had a wolfboy OC named Peter Andy Wolf I'd have two nickels. Which isn't a lot, and it's a pity that I've only been able to use that name twice.

#Special thanks to my sister who came up with the middle name #They're not the same character one of them craves hugs like nobody's business the other one will only allow his friend to touch him #One of them wants nothing more than to be human again even though he can't while the other one didn't even know he used to be human #And is rather confused when his curse is broken #One of them is hopefully gonna be an allegory for breaking the cycle of abuse the other one is just a boy I'm putting through the wringer #Oh I just heard Henry's Peter snarl at me going all 'you mean you put me through all this for NOTHING?!' #So that's another of my characters who justifiably hates my guts so much that they tried to break the fourth wall to tear my throat out #Jokes on them i live in a more real plane of reality #Oh and Red's Peter is hunched in on himself #and saying in the tiniest voice that was ever not a whisper 'but i don't want to be an allegory for breaking the cycle of abuse' #So that's... something #Can't believe I made a fictional boy cry before giving him a single line of dialogue #Ah and now my girl Dot has decided to jump in to say 'you would have done it to me. But I don't think I remember how.' #And my boy Fire the sentient Fire has helpfully added 'you didn't give me tear ducts!' in the most fake-cheerful voice Ive ever not-heard #Sally is looking at me with the dissaproving eyes of a little girl who's killed a god before and isn't afraid to kill one again #I don't even know WHEN she killed a god much less how #And when I asked her she said 'you'll find out' #So. I guess that's another thing to look forward to then. #Only one that's left to round out the gang is Grin #but when I sought after his thoughts he was like 'don't look at me my only character trait is that I like falcons and other raptors' #It should be noted that he said that while stroking the crest of one of his falcons #So that's one fake child I haven't traumatized at least

[darkheartthicket]

been feeling like I’m drowning in unfinished home improvement projects lately but having new people over gives me some much needed perspective. we haven’t even lived here for a year yet and I’ve done so much already to make it feel like home

#i love watching people walk around and look at all my little objects #i love our collection of mismatched thrift store/hand-me-down furniture #i love our green living room wall and green kitchen cabinets and green bathroom wall (fake) tile #i love having my aunt’s paintings and framed cards on the walls. my grandma’s garden cabinet and antique table #i love the gigantic cozy couch i’ve been schlepping around for a decade #i love!! our little home!! #🌻