#exboyfriend

[houseoftulips]

Unfortunate Benefits | T. Kuroo ~ when he realized way too late

➤ ft: ex boyfriend!kuroo testuro x f!reader

➤ content warning: angst, alcohol

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After six years of not seeing each other with no contact in any shape or form - you two are now standing in the same restaurant at a small reunion.

You’d been living in Singapore all this time after graduating college and leaving your old life behind. You were in Japan to visit your family but when your old high school friends find out that you were, they just had to invite you.

Bokuto was especially insistent on you meeting up with them for dinner but his same emo mode appeared through the facetime call just like the old days. You were only there at the restaurant for him and Kenma but you knew that your 18 year old self was relieved to see Kuroo Tesuro again.

Your ex boyfriend/high school sweetheart was one of the reasons for you leaving the country after your rocky break up. Long story short, after all those years from high school towards the end of college was nothing but a lie and a joke to Kuroo.

From what you were told, Kuroo had asked you out during your first year of high school to get his elementary school crush to notice him. When he realized that he was never gonna get that attention he was just contempt on getting it from you. Not in the lovey-dovey way though. More like the I’m settling here because there’s no where else to go. Then he finally got that attention again after reuniting with his crush at one of MSBY’s volleyball game and left you soon after the encounter.

He spilled all his dirty secrets in you and practically admitted that he was cheating on you emotionally and using you as a comfort rag rather than his girlfriend. So you left while he was at his internship job during the day. Everything that was yours was erased from your shared apartment. He didn’t even try to contact you either so you knew that he never loved you over the course of your years together.

Bokuto and everyone else begged you to remain in Japan when you told them that you were leaving a few weeks after the breakup. But they knew that the once in a lifetime experience was offered to you for your career, there was no reason for you to remain in the same place.

But right now, that bed-head looking asshole was looking at you like you meant everything to him. His piercing gold eyes were dancing all over your features that he once cherished during your time together.

“Y/n,” his voice faltered a bit as he shook his thoughts away, “H-hey… When did you get back?”

“I’m not back,” you said simply, “M’visiting family for a bit.”

“Oh,” he sheepishly said as he looked away from the awkwardness creeping in. “Well um, it’s good to see you,” he cleared his throat.

You shifted uncomfortably in your standing position as you remained silent. Your wounded and repaired heart is slowly tearing apart once again hearing his useless words. But your younger self is yelling at you to say something back but you still remained silent.

Kursk cleared his throat again to gain your attention back, “Would you like drink?”

Wanting to drink you sorrows away you said yes on the spot. You definitely scolded yourself for accepting a drink from him but he’s paying for it so you looked the other way. You ordered wine like always but more on the stronger side. One with a more bitter taste than the sweet one that you craved.

The both of you sat in silence for what felt like eternity but you kept taking your occasional sips and so was Kuroo till he opened his mouth. “How is Singapore?” he asked as he glanced at you.

You cleared your throat as you set your glass down, “Good. A little more on the humid side than it is here.”

Kuroo hummed in response and let you guys sit in silence once again. For about thirty minutes you guys had an on and off conversation. Letting you both drown in silence then suddenly talk about scattered things that’s happened to you two over the last few years. Then finally the bitter ice breaker came into tow.

“Me and Sachie broke up,” Kuroo said quietly but enough for you to hear.

You sighed out loud hearing her name again. You didn’t even dare say it in your head because you were still so jealous of her getting the real attention from Kuroo.

“So?” you questioned as you watched your old friends drunkenly laugh together.

“So,” he sighed, “I want to say that I’m sorry for leaving you like that when I should’ve done it a lot sooner.”

You laughed immediately. Not so much as a bitter one but more on the side where you thought it was genuinely funny of what he said. “You’re sorry that you used me to gain attention of another woman?” you rephrased.

“Y/n,” Kuroo said but you beat him from finishing.

“No, no,” you laughed letting the alcohol settle in a bit, “I’m right though. You dated me all those years - not only wasted my time but also yours. And then when you lost her for a bit you settled with me, right?”

Kuroo looked away in guilt because now being a full grown man he has regrets. And one of them is of him using you emotionally. Using your kindness, the tender kisses, the soft words of encouragement, and your love was what he regrets and has been regretting for years. You were in front of him this whole time but he turned a blind eye and chose someone who wasn’t looking his way much like what he did to you. It haunts him, honestly. Your tear stained face was what woke him up from the mask he was hiding his true intentions from behind.

He knew better than to reach you again but he thought he was going to be happier being with the woman he’s been chasing after for years. Lo-and-behold, she grew tired of him or in other words-grew tired of using him. They dated for a year but it was toxic. So much so that when he was finally rid of her, he didn’t cry. He had a breath of relief slip past his lips when she left with her bags.

“Y/n… I know I should’ve done better back then but I was blinded,” he sighed as he ran his fingers through his mess of black hair, “It was too late for me to reach you by the time I realized how much I missed you.”

“How much you missed me?” you repeated with a scoff, “You wanted the benefits from being with me, not the commitment. You were looking for that somewhere else all while I loved you.”

And there was another wake up call for Kuroo. He watched you slide out of your seat and leave the restaurant without giving him another chance. He respects you for that though because in the long run, he doesn’t deserve what you can give/offer him.

So he masks his sulks and aching heart because he knows he has no right to feel the heaviness in his chest. But it’s hard to ignore as more guilt washes through him like a tsunami.

He’s lost you for good.

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#anime characters #haikyuu angst #kuroo tetsuro x you #haikyuu kuroo tetsuro #kuroo tetsurou #kuroo angst #heavy heart #regrets #exboyfriend #kuroo x y/n #kuroo tetsurō #tetsurou x reader #haikyuu bokuto #angst with no happy ending #i can relate #haikyuu headers #haikyuu characters #kuroo hcs #kuroo imagine

[imzsuzsis-blog]

"I hate him, what the hell was wrong with him yesterday?" I looked angrily at Max and Cheko, who also learned about everything from the news. "Fuck me, I'm sorry that Oscar was such a bastard yesterday and gossiped about the whole thing." Max looked at me sadly and shook his head. Osc recognized him as a kind and cute boy, just as I am not such a dick. "This hurt me too when I read it, especially that it became a forced situation, if I were in your place I don't even know. I would have screamed and said, damn it, you're right." Sergio caressed my back the whole time, I knew he was the one to tell everyone the truth, just so he wouldn't be in the middle of it. "I understand... Anyway, thank you Sergio, you're in a good position." I leaned back, spread my legs and started shaking them. I could only swallow, I grabbed my water bottle to see if I was thirsty, but I didn't feel like billions of eyes were staring at me and just as many index fingers were pointing at me and just as many mouths were snickering at me, I was doing all this behind my back. "It won't work, I'm sorry, I have to hide this weekend!!!! Coming Out I can't take it!!!!!" I started sobbing, shouted and ran away from them.

"You should apologize to your teammate, Oscar, because you were a mess yesterday, I was an asshole." I saw that Loki was very, very angry with me, I think he should have come out to Lando when he was a love mess in nineteen and twenty. He also started dating a model and also dated a sexy back dancer once, and he openly exchanged it. "Are you in the picture, what's your Lando doing at nineteen and twenty?" "Yes, many people said, but yes, he was a dick and he shouldn't have, especially when he found out when he wanted a threesome, but where Fedrik protested, where Connie protested, and when they found out, they both threw him away with such a short-haired English nobody. They won't start again." He sat down next to me and gave me a faint smile. "I know it happened in his twenties, I read that he was the one who did it"

"Hello, I'm looking for you Lando, can't you see me? I'm Connie Joops. I haven't seen him since 2020” I scratched the back of my neck and sucked on my lips. "He can come back from the press conference now. Third, would you be Connie?” He nodded, the guy looks very sexy to us, but unfortunately engaged. "Yes, my friend Fedrick is also here. Lando will accidentally bring me and my partner together." I lowered my eyes and felt that there was something wrong, but I just wanted to chat with him, "Nothing, thanks for the information." We didn't tell him, but he was right behind him and almost to him... ,,Excuse me... Connie? You?" Yes, we are looking for you and Fedrick, it would be important. When will you be able to have tea with us?",, Now is also a good time. I guess I'll leave you guys alone or something." "No matter where you're thinking, we'd just tell you, look, they're engaged, thanks to you, we can even adopt a baby, just for your signature." I looked at him, those weren't his tears of joy, he was sobbing on my shoulder. "When will I get there? Yes, I am now pregnant with twins, but when will I be engaged? Now I have someone again for a while, but with that fucking bridegroom, I'm the unlucky one who will die alone among cats!!!!"

I chatted with Charles over there, I yelled at him to see if you could see him wrong, but it's not Lando who's crying because he's pregnant, he's crying all the time for no reason. "You're not crying again for no reason, Charles, can you read lips?" "I don't know, you're so stupid, I just said that drunk at a party." "You're an idiot drunk monkey." "You've become a sane know-it-all bastard since you've been my teammate." "Lando!!!!" "And again?" I was caressing Lando's hair while I didn't even notice that Charles was pointing out that I'm an idiot again, so instead I'm dealing with my best friend in the world. "Yes, my two exes, with whom I dated at the end of 2019 and until the middle of 2020, are getting married!!!!!" There he was writhing and almost hysterical, and the newborn Leah came out of her again. ,,No problem and how are you again Leah? You promised you're done fucking with this forever Lando, you're not Leah Norris, you're Lando Norris.” "Leave me alone Carlos!!!!! I'm tired of everyone looking down on me because of my pregnancy and thinking that only girls can be pregnant, you know what, anyone can say anything." I held my face, I couldn't believe what he was saying, this is going to be the top of a scandal, now I'll try to form a good union with him. "What if..." "I say I can't do it, but if the nest piles up on me, I'll need the worms." "That way you don't need a little union!!!" I slapped him, he knows I'm right, he's just too stubborn to see it now.

#fanfic #lando norris #gay #f1 #osc #loki #f1 fanfic #biseuxal #lgbtq #pregnant #pregnancy #transgender #intersex #gay couple #cutie pie #max verstappen #sergio perez #mclaren #carlando #suzuka gp 2024 #scandal #gayboy #conrad fisher #exboyfriend #so hot and sexy

[trying4real]

This is for the you who's had a rough day, week, month, or even a year. The you who feels lonely, empty, powerless, or even totally broken.

I want you to know that within you, there's a force that's waiting to be unleashed. Even in your darkest moments, there's a flicker of hope that refuses to be extinguished. Hold on to that spark, because it has the power to illuminate your path forward.

As you journey through these challenges, remember...

Your brighter days are ahead.

So please hang in there.

#sad thoughts #mental health #thoughts #deep thoughts #personal #positive mental attitude #drown in my mind #get motivated #motivating quotes #you broke my heart #exboyfriend #motivation #depressing shit #loneliest #alone with my thoughts #quotes #life quotes #writing

[itachiskarasu]

Tengo una duda muy grande...

¿Cuando te sueño... es porque también piensas en mí o te acuerdas de mí?

#love quotes #citas de amor #citas de desamor #life quotes #quotes #ex boyfriend #bye bye #boyfriend #por las dudas #dudas existenciales #duda #missing you #exboyfriend #existential #notas de dolor #notas en español #notas de desamor #notas de amor #notas

[lolitalucia]

I miss his ultraviolence

#exboyfriend #tumblr grunge #ultraviolence #lana del rey

[facetsofthejewel]

Selections From My Ex-Boyfriend Series: A work in progress...

shannonhedges.com

#shannon hedges #pop art #illustration #street style #queer artist #gay art #character design #portraits #valentine #valentines day #exboyfriend #lgbtq

[culk1n5]

I can't get over him.

It has been 41 weeks since we broke up and he is still all I think about. I am in an almost month-long relationship with my partner but I still miss HIM (ex). I feel bad and ashamed but he made me feel so alive and when he would touch me and hug me I felt like I deserved to live and be free. know that makes me a bad person but I can't help it. i fucked it all up when we were on a break... it is all my fault.

#exboyfriend #actually mentally ill #mentally fucked #midwest emo

[kelpseahorse]

I just realized the reason why my ex-boyfriend still wears my hoodie even though he hates me. It's the same reason why I dress nicely when I know he's going to be somewhere I'm going. I dress nicely because I want him to feel bad for losing someone as good looking as me. He wears my hoodie because he wants me to be reminded of our relationship and what I "lost" (which was nothing of value).

I can't believe it took me this long to realize. It's been over a year of this.

#exboyfriend #petty #funnyshit #funny

[ujrakezdesnelkuled]

A legnagyobb csalótól kapni egy csókot a homlokodra.

#magyar tumblr #magyar gondolat #magyar tumblisok #magyartumblr #szeretlek #hianyzol #fajdalom #homlokcsók #puszi #exboyfriend #baratok #szerető #szeretők #titkos

[mostly-potato]

(1) Last night I dreamt I reunited with Thomas. He was talking about his life for the past few years: still contracting at Google, dreaming about travelling and eating like a carnival attendee. My auntie walked by and remarked on how close we were sitting to each other.

(2) This morning I dreamt Grace and I were at the Obey warehouse sale, except it was actually a very small section of a store. The time limit was 5 minutes to shop. People were lined up outside.

Dark Seas and adultswim.com also had booths at the sale. Grace bought a purse that looked like Brobee from Yo Gabba Gabba!

#dream #best friend #exboyfriend #obey #yo gabba gabba

[elinainai]

—texts from my ex

#love #quote #imessage #love quote #lost love #missinyou #exgirlfriend #exboyfriend #ex love back #drunk texting #heart break #breakup #love text #memories #late night #europe #love poem #ex lovers #love message #messages #make it work #love of my life

[eunciia]

If you can't see me - I can see you (on Wattpad): College was supposed to be a fresh start for Ollie, leaving everything she knew behind. She'd finally gotten the courage to leave an abusive relationship, no one around her knowing anything about her upbringing, and she was determined to keep it that way. Someone had followed her from her past, though, and suspicious activity on the campus causes classes to be cancelled before they can even begin.

I haven’t been in the mood to write on this blog, but write the first chapter of like a murder story, I guess? I would love if a few people would read it and give me feed back!! Thank you :) 

#abuse #college #disappearing #exboyfriend #murder #romance #tw #mystery-thriller #books #wattpad #amreading #❛ 🍃 ┊ ⊰ out of character ⊱

[freelovebunny]

I can't stay up with you and your bottle

I can't stay here with you if I wanted to

I can't hate you enough not to haunt you 

I can't wait up for you to show your face tomorrow

I can't be in love with your anger and sorrow

#break up #alcoholism #toxic relationship #fuck you #i cant do it anymore #its been 6 months since i left and i still can't fucking stand you #spilled poetry #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #slam poetry #poetry #poems on tumblr #love poems #poemsbyme #poetic meanderings of a lost soul #love #exboyfriend #evil ex

[sierrzasonfire]

In 2015 my ex boyfriend deleted my tumblr

Made me lose thousands of followers

Why did I give him my password

I have tried to go to the doctor but they can't do an operation to fix my strained and depressed body.

I have been staring at walls for eight years.

I have never had an idea of what he would do

The fucker is facing life in prison

They say he did the same thing to another guy in prison

url irl lol

That's not funny

Neither is my taste in men

I mean I love when guys are funny

But they are evil I need everyone to know that

#blog #writing #words #me #mine #poetry #poems #slampoems #exboyfriend #shitpost #slay #not #tn #girlthings #im just a girl

[myexgirlfriendsit]

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[lu-in-the-sky-w-diamonds]

honestly, I've never been closer to texting my ex-boyfriend, re-read Anna Karenina, continue writing my novel, watch The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, take my cat and disappear to South Italy and buy a Chamberlain Coffee tote bag

#greek tumblr #greektumblr #γκρικ ποστ #greek #greek aesthetic #anna karenina #alexei vronsky #literature #exboyfriend #Novel #Writing #Writer #Italy #Southitaly #chamberlain coffee #emma chamberlain #Cat #eternal sunshine of the spotless mind #aeshetic #autumn #Fall #γκρικ #ελληνικό tumblr #Ελληνικότουιτερ #Ελληνικοταμπλρ #Ελληνικό tumblr #love #γρεεκ #greece