#ex moose

[shiloh-dynasty99]

This is a question to other ex Muslims, as someone who's an ex muslim but shaky in their lack of faith.

As an ex muslim, there're moments where I find my religious brainwashing come over me and I suddenly find myself panicking out of fear and think, what if islaam is real after all? What if I do end up going to hell?

What are some things that you use to ground yourself when this happens? What are some things I islaam that are undoubtedly incorrect, that gauruntee that islaam is fake? How can I be secure in my atheism and lack of belief in islaam?

#im posting this here because i have no followers and this is a sideblog #ex muslim #ex moose #apostasy #leaving islam #atheist #agnostic #ex religious #kaffir

[sweet-nothing26]

This past month i lost two of my closest friends which i have considered to be so close to my heart and for the first time in my life, i have truly understood the heartbreak that comes from ending a relationship with another human being whether it's platonic or romantic. As taylor swift has emphasized before, friendship breakups can be just as intense as romantic ones and it was until this month that i truly understood what she meant.

My friends or shall i say ex friends, challenged me amid a silly misunderstanding to bring out something that i bring into our friendship since they have to endure the looks of judgements and the outcast treatment for their association with me. An atheist, someone who doesn't believe in the abrahamic god (how dare she), someone who doesn't have a religion to guide them in this life, someone who lacks a moral compass, as they claim. In 2024 i made a pact with myself to STOP over explaining my stance. This includes but not limited to, my morals, my values, my beliefs or lack thereof, my identity, my whims, dreams...etc especially to someone who will never ever open their mind to accept a perspective or pov other the one their communities feed them regularly. Trying to humanize myself in a society that will forever paint atheists and non believers in a bad light since its beginning is a mistake and a waste of time, energy and my mental sanity.

For me, i thought friendship was about accepting the beautiful and ugly parts of your friends and seeing their imperfections as little quirks that just makes them who they are. I was wrong. I think this was a lesson for me to continue being a loner and never establish any deep relationship with muslims knowing they will drop you the moment they know who you truly are.

This is one of the many many beautiful things islam took away from me. The ability to make friends and connect with people. Because no matter what i do, i'm seen as a bad person who you shouldn't associate yourself with if you're a believer. I could lead you to the path of sin and disobedience. A path where you hypothetically question the absurdities that your community has fed u. A path where reason is put before faith.

Some people might say that i should stop victimizing myself and being a victim in every scenario since life is unfair for everyone and i should just stop bitching and moaning non stop. But aren't I a victim in a society where i know there are a hundred thousand people who would want me dead? Aren't I a victim in a society where the law prosecutes blasphemers for using our ''god'' given right to speak freely about the things that hurt us? Aren't I a victim for being named an abomination, a disgrace, a heathen? Aren't i a victim for facing hate crime? Aren't I a victim as a liberal ex muslim woman in a conservative islamic state?

Honestly, i rest my case. I no longer resist the loneliness the atheist path has brought me, not that it's my fault. But befriending muslims is a waste of time regardless of how open or liberal they say they are. Conservative societies are about maintaining status no matter how miserable everyone within these societies is. They shall all paint themselves as obedient straight godly people and can never stray away from that image. Any minor inconveniences that they commit can break that illusion even the ones that don't involve them at all like associating themselves with the supposed heathens. That association in itself takes away that fake status quo and ''god'' knows they can't live with that.

#ex muslim #anti religion #agnostic #atheism #anti theism #anti islam #life is unfair #religious trauma #secular humanism #ex moose #leaving islam

[guylet-456]

I fuckint hate ramadaan and being a student so much dude. My concentration is completely gone and my brain cannot focus because of the fatigue and lack of nutrition and now I have to sit here and make an elaborate study plan where I have to study at 5am and 8pm onwards

#because my brain only focuses properly after iftaar or after suhoor #i did some coding and i managed to get some of it done but i cant lie. my brain capacity is gone now #ex muslim #ex moose #apostate

[lesorus]

My parents are pushing me to be in a hallal relationship with this one guy and I just wanna kill myself. I'm serious.

#ex muslim #terfblr #radblr #radfem safe #radfems do touch #radfems please interact #radical feminism #ex moose #i feel emotionally violated

[asinvisibleasmillard]

So I’ve been questing my faith a lot more now that it’s Ramadan, before this I was practicing regularly and talking about it with friends. But lately, I’ve been feeling confused, maybe God has left me because I haven’t been doing enough for Him, maybe He hates me. I feel like everything is working against me.

I know this dunya is supposed to be a prison for believers but why does having faith make me feel even more trapped, I’ve been feeling depressed because of it.

I haven’t been able to fast yet, so maybe once I do things will change? I have so much grief and guilt about questioning and I can’t even talk to any of my friends about it because I don’t want them to see me differently. But ever since I’ve come to terms with idea that God may very well not exist, I’ve felt such relief and peace, the guilt I had for being alive stopped bothering me.

But I also feel angry, like I’ve been lied to. I know if I brought this up to my parent it would probably be daqan ceelis (forced overseas) for me in hopes I come back better. But staying here isn’t any better, instead i continue to be robbed of my money by my family and unable to form any kind of independence. I don’t want to spend the rest of my life faking, I want to leave this family but as a Somali, it’s extremely difficult.

Can anyone else relate or am I screaming into the void?

#questioning Islam #religious trauma #ex moose #somali ex muslim

[dreamlogic]

so my mom has a new puppy, she's a 3 mo old anatolian shepherd/irish wolf hound mix. get a load of the fucken paws on this beaft, she's like a bobcat

#cc #doge #also met her dad (the anatolian) and his shoulders were about hip height on me. apparently he was the runt of his litter #this puppy is going to grow up to be a tan moose #to those in the tags asking various flavors of WHY and WHO DID THIS #uuuhhhh my mom's partner and his ex never fixed their dogs and were somehow surprised when Puppies Happened #so the answer is happy backyard accidents! yayyyy!!

[m0ose-idiot]

Shout out to Sex Lives of College Girls for joining Crazy Ex-Girlfriend, Sex Education, and Jane the Virgin in the pantheon of shows I have classified under "shows I initially didn't bother watching cos their names made them sound like some bullshit but then they turned out to be fricken rad and tres feminist" *chef's kiss* *muah*

#sex lives of college girls #crazy ex girlfriend #sex education #jane the virgin #moose idiot watches tv

[shiloh-dynasty99]

I wonder how people cope with having friendships with people, knowing that they'd not like them if they found out theyre ex muslim and queer? I always feel like there's no point in me keeping those friendships around, since if they can't like u for who u r then u shouldn't even be friends, yk? Its just kind of a shame ill have to drop those people in the future because we actually have decent friendships, it's just the religious brainwashing that comes in the way of it.

#apostasy #ex moose #ex muslim #ex religious #atheism

[mooseonahunt]

Oh so it’s okay for you (Dante) to write fanfiction (The Divine Comedy), but when I (some rando) write fanfiction (porn with no plot), I get A Look™️

#thinking about an interaction I had today #an ex fic writer told me what fandom they wrote for so I thought this was a safe space #it was not #moose rambles #moose posting

[draculagerard]

like be SOO serious. what was this about

#LITERALLY BREAK UP. old men be divorcing #i didnt even add the clips with their exes energy during their divorce up era #also if anyone brings up the quality of the video im fighting them. i fought tooth and nail to be able to upload this on tumblr godbless #moose blabber #destiel

[daydadahlias]

No, but I can see any pairing of the OT4 stealong backthe kitty cat ❤️

in my MIND, in my BRAIN (bc im me), it's Ashton stealing back Duke for Calum <3

#pigeon #angie #and that's how they meet <3 #i dont think an ex boyfriend could steal petunia simply bc she's too big to drag out of the house #and if it was michael how would they pick between south and moose and ashton cant sneak out with two dogs under his arm #and obvi no one is stealing from ashton i mean what would they steal his lemon tree?? #that leaves grumpy man duke to be kidnapped unfortunately

[miniimoose]

I just checked ry*n r*ynolds Tumblr in light of his goncharov posting

These tags are giving me mad Cole Sprouse flashbacks!! Ryan... We've been burned before... You cannot yet be trusted...

#tumblrs collective abusive ex boyfriend... #Cole Sprouse #moose talk #Goncharov #unreality