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lgbtlunaverse · 6 months
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I'm a little bit insane about how in novel canon the whole xiyao ending where Jin Guangyao wants to die with Xichen, who accepts, which then makes jgy change his mind and pushes him away at the last second isn't actually explicit. A lot of adaptations chose to make it so but in the novel this is all VERY up for interpretation.
Here's what actually happens in the text: Lan xichen stabs jgy, jgy moves away from lan xichen, xichen follows him, wwx realizes jgy is about to open the coffin and calls "watch out!" to lan xichen. Jgy unseals nmj, pushes xichen away, nmj kills jgy and they are both dragged into the coffin which is sealed again.
Here's what wei wuxian, our narrator, thinks is happening: Jin Guangyao wanted to lead lan xichen to his death out of revenge for stabbing him. Lan Xichen, unaware, simply followed Jin Guangyao to try and stop him from getting away. Wei wuxian's warning came too late, but Jin Guangyao- for an unknown reason- changed his mind at the last second and pushed lan xichen out of danger before lan xichen had any idea of what was going on.
Here's what most fans as well as the teams behind several adpatations think is happening: Jin Guangyao leads Xichen to nmj's coffin to die with him, Xichen accepts, because of this acceptance, proof xichen still cares for him, Jin Guangyao pushes him out of harm's way. Wei Wuxian just doesn't get that gay people who aren't him or Lan Wangji exist.
Here's what ALSO MIGHT BE HAPPENING: Jin guangyao wants to die in a different way than he is currently dying. Maybe he's afraid of what'll happen to his body after his death like he was scared for his mother's, maybe he wants to confront nmj one last time now that there's nothing more for him to lose, maybe - if he can't take her body with him- he'd at least like his final resting place to be where he buried his mother. Lan Xichen thinks he's trying to get away and follows but Jin Guangyao, who despite everything doesn't want him to die, pushes him away. Xichen doesn't know what happened until it's already happened. What he would've wanted if he had known remains up in the air.
Or, alternatively: Jin Guangyao's reasons are as above, but unbeknowst to Wei Wuxian, Xichen DOES know what jgy is about to do and either misinterprets this as an invitation to all die together, or inidividually decides he, too, is done, and wants to join his sworn brothers in the grave. To Jin Guangyao this has nothing to do with Lan Xichen, and he still doesn't want him to die, so he pushes him away against Lan Xichen's wishes.
Every single one of these interpretations is unhinged and they are all supported by the original text. It's like a choose your own adventure of tragic gay endings.
#mdzs#mdzs meta#meng yao#jin guangyao#lan xichen#nie mingjue#3zun#xiyao#rs: i wish it could've been you#honestly which is worse for xichen. Being denied his wish explicitly or only realizing he wanted it after it'd already been denied for him#OR genuinely not wanting to die but being forced to live with the fact that even after he essentially killed him jgy still saved his life#just another way he's in his debt#like no matter what he's not coming out of here okay#i switch between a bunch of these all the time but actually favor the last 2 because they're very underexplored in my opinion#I like it when 'i never even thought about hurting you' remains true to the bitter end. He never even considered it#also I just... have a lot of feelings about that being his mom's coffin#do you remember that in the novel the coffin was so heavy only sect leaders could bear the weight?#so for the burial a group of sect leaders had to be the pallbearers... the SYMBOLISM GUYS!! THE SYMBOLISM!#jgy dies in infamy but despite everything it's the highest of cultivation society who carry the coffin he's buried in#he's in the same coffin as a great sect leader!! As nmj!! After a whole life fighting an uphill battle finally in death they are equal#it's not justice and it's not fair but it's... something#wwx's interpretation is the one i favour the least. sorry bro you remain an unreliable narrator to me.#it feels rather uncharitable towards jgy which makes sense for wwx's pov but makes it not my favorite#there's an alternative version of that intepretation where jgy THINKS he's doing the coffin trio pact and thinks xichen accepts.#and has the same realization of oh no he still cares I don't want him to die and pushes lxc away#meanwhile lan xichen hasn't actually processed any of this because it all happened in about 0.4 seconds#i like that one slightly more but it's still not my favorite#there's tragedy in the misunderstanding but it's a bit convoluted.
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flowercrowngods · 9 months
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i need someone (steve) to take one look at mike wheeler after being told that this kid readily walked off the quarry at twelve years old, and see past his walls and his bullshit and see the kindness and bravery that lies beneath the trauma and depression (and puberty). i need someone to take one look at him and see that he’s not doing fine at all — and hasn’t for a while.
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sysig · 1 month
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Sorry, I can’t, I’m just too cute today 💕 (Patreon)
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aroaessidhe · 2 months
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2024 reads / storygraph
Raven Stratagem + Revenant Gun
books 2 & 3 in a military-political sci-fi trilogy
space empire setting where reality & technology relies on an enforced cultural belief and calendar system
the ghost general taken over Cheris’ body and gone rogue, the rest of the hexarcate is trying to assassinate them while they try to change the oppressive systems of the hexarchate
I don’t know how else to explain things in here without spoilers (if I even could explain..)
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hxhhasmysoul · 7 days
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wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.
#vent#for the last 4 months my life has been in stupid crisis mode#like constantly#from major ones where i had to move out for a while because it was impossible to stay where i lived#to not being able to use my kitchen for over a week#and like other more or less minor house related stuff that made it impossible for me to use something normally#not a single week without something like that or shit at work which is constantly being so fucking chaotic#and now someone died in my family#not someone very close but i liked them#and of course like feeling sad that they are gone can't be the only thing#because it has to come with the headache of i need to travel for their funeral and it's just before easter#so there's no one in this city to leave my dog with#because most of my friends either live abroad or have cats or are busy before easter..#i'd just want a week where nothing happens#and like the writing is weighing heavy on me#because i miss it#also i wish i could finish something#i wish something good would happen that i could feel proud off#also because i'm mentally ill and fucking stupid when i was going crazy with my kitchen not working and work shit#i bought new furniture#because after 15 years i've finally had enough money to buy some that aren't fucking black and inconvenient and ugly#which is like a huge project and a crisis i brought onto myself#just because i was too burnt out to write#and i wanted something nice to happen to me#like a nice living space that doesn't make feel like i have no ownership over it because everything in it was some else's choice#and that old furniture was bought by my mother and my brother ages ago and it's handmedowns#and my fucking horrible mother feels personally slighted that i want to get rid of a bed that is broken#because my brother's kids jumped on it regularly when they used to visit pre covid#yeah it's been broken that long because i lost all my savings during covid and had to change careers to a souless pointless corpo job#long pathetic whine and overshare over
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lunarharp · 5 months
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lazy scribbling of my baldur's gate 3 characters
#*emerges from 430 HOURS of life-changing playtime blearily like a lost and confused kitten*#i lost my interest in drawing bc everything is too sad & horrible right now. it was a luxury and privilege to lose myself in this instead#what follows will be my personal and trivial emotions about that#i'll do better proper drawings later. for me. they are both so very dear to me... deeply dear...unforgettable journeys of fate#truly have played like one possessed for the past few weeks. you have no idea. what do i do now. what do i do.#their personalities are so vivid to me though they mostly made the same choices. both intersex and they/them - canonically <3#i missed out on FOUR PARTY MEMBERS in my first playthrough due to not understanding anything whatsoever.#gloaming ended up with wyll and pavane romanced karlach and astarion. and ended up with the one i did NOT plan on. this wasnt the plan#one of the most fulfilling romance paths i've ever..i cant say more..it all got too immersive and now i have to just.. MOVE ON ??????????#live in THIS world where i can't gut imperialism personally and emerge alive from that?#without Long Resting? without my character requesting a kiss from their beloved after a tough day ??#without preparing my little spells? without channelling divinity from my death god to keep us all alive?#without dyeing my man's clothes fancy colours for him? without him Approving whenever i lie and double-cross our enemies#without sharing clothes with my ex? without choosing to eat the heavy food first so that the weight is easier on her Carrying Capacity?#without orchestrating ways for all of my friends to kill the abusers that ruined their lives for a decade or even 200 years?#without experiencing degrading horrors on a daily basis but in a cathartic way where we always make it back to our rooms at the inn#WITHOUT SPEAK WITH ANIMALS???????????#at least there's music. just like with persona 5 that will always be with me. always#like how p5 melodies take me back to those feelings. those rich and personal feelings.... BUT THIS WAS A WAY MORE NUTS EXPERIENCE#i thought i would hate it. i did at times. thought it would desensitise me to various things. it did. but there was so much more..it was...#Well anyway *continues my life* imagine if dnd was real..something to think about
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orphyd · 6 months
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Made it through another week…
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oooh okay I get it now. trauma response
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clownsuu · 2 years
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ah yes, a ghost bunny and a rampaging gator. My favorite ship
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Hard to think properly when your best friend is haunting you smhhh
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hella1975 · 1 year
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YOU'RE NOT LISTENING TO LUCY DACUS SHE LITERALLY SAID QUIT YOUR JOB CUT YOUR HAIR GET A DOG CHANGE YOUR NAME CHANGE YOUR MIND CHANGE YOUR WAYS GIVE THEM TIME GO BACK TO SCHOOL GO BACK TO SLEEP TELL THE SECRET YOU CANT KEEP BEGIN BE DONE BREAK A VOW MAKE A NEW ONE CALL ME IF YOU NEED A FRIEND OR NEVER TALK TO ME AGAIN BUT PLEASE STAY PLEASE STAY PLEASE STAY PLEASE STAY
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briarhips · 2 months
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tell me something you think about often but seldom talk about
personal/family history. I mean the really nitty gritty memoir worthy reflections and replays that pop up in my head way too often w/o my consent. stuff I’ve never told anyone and never will bc I can’t imagine how it wouldn’t demean me to share it or be used as a weapon against me. maybe not even an active weapon anyone would use but like. one they would have on hand bc I forged it and put it in their hands. it’s a good thing previous attempts to open up to ppl have been met w indifference tbh bc it’s saved my very mouthy when angsty self a lot of complication. it happened. irregularly and not linear and painfully random but I dealt w/ it. I did a beautiful job even if no one else thinks so or notices or cares. and the burden of being more willfully weighed down by this history and these patterns that the family who experienced it too but from different angles choose to dismiss and ridicule me for paying attn to so they can cope better but in exchange never learn better (not that it matters, life treats them all better too so these are not skills they need to have ig) has to pay off. I have to offset the paralysis and stress of that awareness and overseriousness by making the blooming and withering stages of my life grow into polar opposites to what my baby self had to witness and be taught unintentionally to look forward to. If I get married it will be a fairytale/beyond beautiful and blessed and beneficial compared to anything I could dream up now. If I ever work full time to support myself it will be with hefty experience behind me and a strong foundation and enough drive to never regret trying not to betray myself and become somebody else’s problem despite my own capabilities. If I find the kind of companionship that I don’t yearn for but have been told I should, it’s still going to be childless. If I grow up and get to live alone I am going to have real true blue similar in thoughtfulness and synced in social battery IRL friends who don’t stress me and prove to me my best bubbly reliable capable self I haven’t been able to wake up in too long is still in there just being THEMselves. I will never again have to be suffocated by people who dismiss and ridicule me at every turn and feel like I am just putting up with every interaction for a greater good that excludes me. I will not always be made to be the weirdo or the moody one or the uncool lame NPC with nothing to say that anyone can disrespect. etc etc etc. if I don’t have these things I’m still building and I owe this mindset to the despicable truths I was forced to learn as a child at the hands of ppl I could not feel more complicated abt. It made no sense for me to see it and it was fucked but that’s why I’m going to make it make sense and control what I can. I’m rewriting life bc as of now I can’t shake the perception that it’s truly rotten and not worth it. Idk what u would call this paradoxical motivation. It’s not spite it’s smth else. a prolonged last mad dash to a destination that’s mythical in quality but plausible. not impossible
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sysig · 2 months
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A complete lack of catharsis (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Helix#ZEX#Dexter Favin#*tries to make a pun with Car and Catharsis* Anyway#The Sad™ Flavour - here's what was missing#Inspired Directly by conversation like dialogue lifted straight not even a little diverging lol - it made a strong image in my head!#And those are my very favourites ♥ Gotta get 'em Out onto paper haha#ZEX came out to have a nice time and you are Ruining It Dex#Can't blame him for trying :( Anything to bring Max back to him!#I really love the imagery of Dex taking him out somewhere where it's just the two of them being very small together#Cooped up in the summer home by themselves - it's definitely something but it feels so heavy and claustrophobic#Like they're trapped - I mean ZEX literally is - and Dex isn't much better slowly deteriorating with his guilt and lack of rest#So taking a moment to go out together somewhere so huge and impressive - somewhere they can see the stars#Somewhere to feel small in the face of everything - and for ZEX to be closer to home for just a moment#Hhhh <3#And for the moment to feel so singularly beautiful and impactful - and then to be intercut with their shared Nothingness#Would it hurt more for the evening to be beautiful and unbroken - to come so close to touching that impossibly huge Feeling#Or to be shattered in the midst and reaffirmed that neither is what the other is really looking for? I can't decide ♥#I think what gets me the absolute most is that it doesn't matter - nothing they can say to each other will really reach who they want to#Dexter wants Max and ZEX wants DAX and they're both so /close/ but it's just not /right/#I wonder if ZEX is even in his right mind enough to realize what he's asking of Dex is the same that could be asked of him#Dexter can't be DAX for him but he still calls him that :'(#Such an unfair situation#And no matter how much they cry it out and find any sliver of comfort in each other - they just have to keep on living this way#No catharsis - just continuance
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starlooove · 11 days
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I rlly liked red hood the hill bc besides the gift it completely ignored everything else with the batfam which to meeee I’m taking it as the hill has been overlooked by the bats forever (see Orpheus rising) so yeah nobody there gives a fuck about those people and jason knows better than to bring that shit over there
#genuinely tho#I dislike the trend rn of simplifying Jason and Bruce’s issues and making it seem like Bruce was nice and accepting all along and Jason just#needs to get with the program#like the fanficication of that and the Damian Bruce issues or Damian tim issues or even Dick and bruce issues#where everything comes down to the kids being insecure and Bruce being bad at communicating#which has always been PART of the main issues but using that as the crux and lens through which a solution will be acheived is a stretch#a stretch only made in fix it fics that is picked up by ppl who dont read shit and then writers who dont read dont care and get a check#THIS IS MY ISSUE WITH WHERE IT SEEMS BATFAM IS GOING THAT IS NOT AN ISSUE I HAVE WITH RE#NOT ABOUT RED HOOD THE HILL#back to red hood the hill#i DO like them#playing off how jason has always been able to relax there#with a community that has eachothers back#and the flip from#his early red hood days to seeing dana go that path is soooo#what i find interesting tho as that he positions himself as support and backup more than a deterrant#like yes he does try to talk her down a lot but most of the time hes living his life with a worried eye on her#and i think it shows to how he reacted to ppl (bruce) being heavy handed with him#and u know i love the batfam repeating awful cycles shit i think its very interesting that this is one jason didnt repeat#maybe bc hes so close to the feeling or that dana isnt to him what he was to bruce or even that hes just relaxing and thinking clearly and#above all trusts her#most toxic fun future would be for her to break that trust and him to go crazy but thats a diff rant#anyways my entire summary for jasons character is that THAT is what good coochie does to a nigga#carmen thank you for your service another crazy off the street 🙏🏾#red hood and the hill#oh. still no Orpheus mention#no it doesn’t hurt less anytime 💔#Jason Todd
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hueylewisandtheblues · 6 months
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New sword 🔥
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annamaggs16 · 8 months
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I don’t know how to properly say this but I hope at some point Bell’s Hells realize that they literally could’ve been enemies standing on different sides of the same line and the only thing that stopped that/caused this reality to happen instead were the Goddesses of Fate (Raven Queen) and Free Choice (Changebringer) who have such strong ties to campaign 3 and idk if Matt is subtly doing this on purpose but yeah it’s just something to think about.
Chetney being randomly attacked by a shapeshifter instead of an actual wolf takes into consideration what that shapeshifter had to go through in order to get to Chetney and not only attack but bite him, turning Chetney who was given an opportunity to prove himself and a lead to such aid who happened to be in Jrusar. The fact he’s so old allowing him to have more history with a wider spread of characters like Deanna.
Laudna—who is sort of the type of things the Matron tends to avoid existing in the world—had to die in order to be here at all. If Laudna hadn’t gone through the Briarwoods she’d be a 50-something old farmer, probably with a spouse and children and may never explored her powers or because of them could’ve raised higher in Whitestone politics and positions. She honestly wouldn’t have any reason to leave Whitestone. But she did die, she was the ONLY one resurrected, she was chased and chased away until someone welcomed her for the first time in 28 years and happened to end up in Jrusar.
FCG. I mean come on. An aeromaton shut down and lost to time and history only to be rebooted up with no recollection of their purpose yet still having a trace after effect of their clerical powers they continued to use. He was made the healer in Dancer’s group and now we find out they actually have a long history of being not only a healer, but a Faithful Care Giver who was possibly part of the Care and Culling. And now they CHOOSE to find faith in a higher divine power in the Changebringer of all the Gods. They happen to be restored in Marquet by Dancer, they accidentally Culled all their former group leading to Ashton being hired in finding them and choosing to keep them around.
Ashton, the little hishari cult baby who survived. They could’ve been vaporized but no, something protected them from dying that day and shunted them into a desert sand. Sure their soft flesh was turned to hard stone but perhaps that’s what saved them to begin with. Perhaps they would need to have a harder outside because they’re so soft and delicate internally. How else were they going to survive that fall out of Hexum’s window? Out of all the Nobodies, Ashton happened to be the one to open the box and get blasted back to their supposed death. But they survived. They were clutching the one thing that ultimately changed their life again. Now he’s got weird dunamancy powers, probably one of the rarest people in the world right now—probably rarer than Ruidisborn in all honesty. And they were left behind again and again and again to the point when they came across FCG they chose not to leave this little confused tin-can behind in the way they were. And look at all the countless times FCG has been there to heal him.
Orym. Again, death was required. Will had to go. This is personal, this has been very close to Orym’s heart for 6 years because he lost his metronome that kept it beating. He volunteered, he is a soldier, he is carrying out duties and responsibilities, he chooses to follow the threads others leave behind and look at what it’s done. Otohan read his mind and killed Eshteross, but he knew the chain of command to return Laudna. He was used, he was depended on by horrible people to summon his leader like a good little soldier. And now he is her faithful sword. He may not be able to get his love back, but he may be able to bring peace for Keyleth’s.
Fearne never had a choice in her life. It was all pretty much decided for her and she was only let out of the house as a delivery service. But Fearne being left with Morri gave the Hells a great ally while in the Feywild, a safe way home, and trinkets of safe hiding. If it wasn’t for what happened to Fearne she never would’ve been the key to destroying the Fey Key. It still might’ve been in full operation if she was just a little 7 year old girl.
Imogen. All of this is basically happening because of her existence. Liliana ran because she was afraid her fate would become her daughter’s. Imogen was left with a father who really tried his best but didn’t know how to cope with losing a wife and raising a daughter who displayed similar powers he didn’t fully understand. He tried doing what was best and perhaps communication could’ve been better by both parties, but either way Imogen left. She made a choice in helping Laudna and took a chance to following an unknown rather than continuing her life as it was. They chose to stick together against the world and found their way in Jrusar together. They continue time after time to choose each other against all others.
Ludinus and Otohan’s plan brought them together and they don’t even realize it. The furniture coming alive in the middle of the street was thanks to Ira, a plan created to sow chaos all across the city to militarize the Paragon’s Call in time for the Solstice.
But what if reality was different? What if their threads weren’t so carefully sowed together? What if their choices to make in life were different from the start?
What if Liliana took Imogen with her? Imogen would be a child prodigy, encourage by all around her with positive attention to be the best and to never shy away from her powers. She would be force to be wrecked with right beside her mother, likely her most trusted. She would be raised in the heart of a brainwashed cult more than eager to kill the gods just like Bor’dor. Imogen would be Ruby Vanguard.
What if Ollie and Birdie returned to take Fearne? Maybe Nana Morri didn’t stretch her for as long. Maybe Ira allowed them to go so the Unseelie Fey assassins could follow them back. Perhaps Birdie and Ollie die and Fearne is taken. Perhaps she becomes taken in by the Unseelie Court, perhaps she’s a device of communication between the Feywild and the Material Plane. Or maybe Ira takes her as the next experiment. Either way she’s Ruidisborn. Who’s to say if she wasn’t younger she’d have more potential in honing her connection. It’s likely since Thull was the primary connection with the Unseelie and she was basically behind hiring Ira, she’d likely come across Fearne. Fearne would be Paragon’s Call.
What if Will hadn’t died? Sure, plenty of Ashari would be attacked and Will and Orym would still likely want to help but Orym wouldn’t be the one doing majority of the work. After all, it was Will who was part of the Tempest’s security detail. Maybe they would be a battle couple following threads together, fighting side by side. But then Orym would never wield his shield or the blade that would become Seedling. Orym would never be the one to call for Keyleth, so who does? Orym would still be part of the fight of course, especially seeing what happens to Keyleth. Especially if he looses Lita or Will during the Solstice. Orym would be Air Ashari.
What if Ashton hadn’t taken the fall? What if there were never any Nobodies to begin with? What if they were alone for a much longer time? They like to get into fights, and everyone needs a job to get a little coin here and there to survive. What if they impressed a different patron who wasn’t Hexum? They have no affinity for the Gods. They’d make a great mercenary. Maybe even one of the Paragon’s Call. They impressed General Ratanish at the Qurom Ball in one reality, who’s to say they don’t do so countless other time in a dozen different realities? Whether they were flesh: part angel and elf, or stone unbroken. Whether they were untouched by dunamancy, or perhaps turned into something else by a certain Nightmare dwelling in the depths, “bring me a child from the steps.” And with dunamancy in their head, they certainly would’ve been of a particular interest to leaders in charge, perhaps even a slate to be replicated and reproduced, handed out to certain soldiers across both parties. Even if they never got to Jrusar, well…the Paragon’s base of operations does lie in Bassuras. He wants so terribly for someone to pick him, so what if the wrong person did? Let’s trade the broken golden stitches for a pressed golden cloak. Ashton would be Paragon’s Call.
What if FCG never woke up? What if FCG never forgot? What if they never went to sleep? FCG could quite literally be anywhere and easily displaced across time and space. But certainly an aeromaton would be of interest to Ludinus. And deepening on the personality, the knowledge, the history FCG would have, they might make a choice to lean into Da’leth, or drift far away from their path. If they found faith again, whose to say they ever would’ve lost it? FCG would be Against Predathos.
What if Laudna was welcomed by someone else? Surely Ludinus was watching Delilah. Was he not curious in knowing what malicious backdoor plan she was cooking up? He had sent plenty of agents into the Dynasty, sending one into the woods to befriend one girl would be easy enough. But would Laudna know quick enough? Would she have the resources to figure it out? Would Delilah protect her from the deception? Or is there hidden power, a hidden opportunity in letting the girl get closer to Ludinus? To whatever power source he’s strived for a millennia to release? Would Laudna accept such a gentle face of masked darkness to lead her deeper into the fray? She already has in one reality, so what’s one more? With no one by her side to listen to, who else does she have but Delilah? She’s kept her safe for 30 years, why not a little longer to see this opportunity through? Laudna would be Ruby Vanguard. 
What if Chetney was younger? You can’t deny the willingness to risk it all is because the gnome has such little time left on their ticking clock. But what if they still had plenty of life left to live? They may not have an affinity for magic or gods but they used to love someone in a different reality. And she was returned by a God in that one. Perhaps, if Chetney was younger he would meet Deanna still, they would have a go at it with the weight of death and afterlife in their future. They could still wander upon FRIDA and their wonderful friendship. And when the solstice hits, when Deanna is given the Dawnfather’s message, who’s to say if the Gods were to go so won’t all of their blessings and gifts follow in suit. Would Chetney not fight to save a future? Would they really let Deanna fight alone? No. Even if he is still isolated in Wildemount, bitten and turned by a werewolf, would he still not try to understand even if he is a little less sure if he wants to be this for the rest of his life. Would he still consider it a gift and not a curse in this reality? Would he still not wonder to Jrusar looking for answers only met with a fate to that of Gurge’s? Imprisoned, tortured, forced to live in a cage, experimented on by Fey and golden cloaks. Chetney would be Against Paragon’s Call.
Imagine an Apogee Solstice in a different reality. One where the sides are drawn years in advance, standing on one side: Imogen and Laudna in red, Fearne and Ashton doted in gold. Against them, against the taller odds fighting to save the world: Orym, FCG, and Chetney, each with individual purposes of their own accord scattered in the fight. What a reality. Thankfully the Gods decided to intervene, weaving and bending Fate just enough to present them the opportunity to Choose their Destiny instead of it being predetermined for each of them.
#critical role#cr discourse#it’s so fascinating to see that their backstories could make them into any other version of themselves#the primary gods this campaign have been the Matron and Changebringer#yes. this is a very heavy pvp party already but could you imagine#i wonder if any of the characters are going to realize this could’ve been their fate instead#Ashton torturing Chetney. the witches being the ones to murder will in front of Orym.#FCG and Imogen’s mind meld turns into a mental battlefield. possibly willingly activating murder mode to kill her#could you imagine if Imogen is sent to recruit Laudna and Laudna finds out it was all fake and a facade and feels betrayed and used#Laudna could easily been the one to change sides in this AU and kill Imogen for lying to her.#could you imagine if Ashton was part of the party sent to attack Keyleth? if there was an army of Thull-Greymoore warriors#dunamancy shadow warriors against Ashari. the faithful. and the royally fucked over victims.#so many juicy AU fics I hope to read#I’m just saying if Matt ever wants to do a merging of two smaller parties into one he has enough players to do it.#campaign 4 starts with every character getting a solo hour to themselves before narrative partners them up.#then the episodes are by break to each coupling (maybe a guest included to be even)#so it isn’t until like episode 10 or 12 that all the character are finally in the same room together#I’m one of those people who likes when characters go off on their own. look not everything needs to be handled as a group.#some of the best character growth is when characters are off on their own#anyways. now back to this exandrian reality of bells hells#I totally wouldn’t be surprised if half of this party turns on the other half. I’m looking at you witches#honestly. they may just be fated to kill each other and that would be SO interesting to watch the slow drift of division occur#bells hells#chetney pock o'pea#laudna#fcg#fearne calloway#imogen temult#orym of the air ashari#ashton greymoore
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