#everything is so dull

[sixth-light]

so one of the things I was vaguely aware of before reproducing was that people hold a lot of anxiety around the gender of babies and 'wrongly' gendering babies (i.e. failing to guess correctly based on their clothes and appearance what their genital configuration is) and having now had a baby: wow, yes, they really do.

I take an extremely laissez-faire approach to baby clothes because like, they are constantly being thrown up on and grown out of and so on, what matters is that they are clean and easy to put on and I am not spending $$$$$ on them. as long as the colour/design is not directly offensive, it's fine. what this means is that people are quite frequently 'misgendering' the baby and then falling over themselves to apologise about it.

and, like, I haven't even had a chance to dress him in anything pink yet; this is based on rules I didn't expect like 'anything with flowers or sparkly bits on it is for girls only'. equally, I do not care when this happens because it's an irrelevancy, but THEY care to make sure I am not offended. so I have started telling them "look, he's only [x] months old; his gender is baby."

and you know what? you'd be surprised how many otherwise average heterosexual people process this and go "huh, yeah, I guess it is." there is a tiny amount of hope for the future after all.

#baby stuff #gender #I started by buying 'unisex' bundles of clothes #but that just means everything is grey and beige and dull #so now I get some 'girls' and some 'boys' and mix and match #and just leave out the aggressively gendered nonsense #(i.e. clothes with text on them announcing A Gender)

[fortunatelev]

Everyday feels the same.

Wake up, be depressed for several hours and drown in despair from chronic loneliness, go to sleep. Rinse and repeat.

When is my life going to get better? There is nothing exciting about it. It's just boring.

#my life sucks #lonely #loneliness #sigh #i want a better life #everything is so dull

[puppyeared]

adhd is when you shoot for the moon but you forgot the rocket fuel and by the time you realize it everyones already on the moon and then you panic and crash into the sun and it explodes

#my meds stopped working and i didnt know thats something that can fucking happen apparently??? #like i knew eventually my body can get used to medicine that the effect kind of dulls but for some reason this time around i thought #that my body just decided to become lazier since the meds were already working anyway. cuz thats the thing as soon as smth is made #easier for me even if its the thing thats supposed to make the disability less disabling i get too relaxed and end up fucking up anyway #so i assumed my fucking cells worked the same way LMAO. they still technically work like i can feel my energy spike when it kicks in #but everything else like focus and memory went down and i thought oh so its just a me problem then. my habits are getting worse #even though ive been doing everything the same like setting reminders checking my schedule. hell ive been setting MORE reminders #to make up for the memory thing and i didnt even realize i just knew i had to compensate since it feels like my memory is getting #worse again. and i only figured this out bc my brother showed me an icecreamsandwich video with him talking about the EXACT FUCKING #THING IM GOING THRU WORD FOR WORD #i have to bring this up with my doctor next week so maybe i have to take different meds. i wonder if this will be a recurring thing #i guess one thing that hasnt changed is that im still slow as hell and stuff only comes to me 5 hours after the fact #its 6 in the morning and i only JUST realized that the word froyo is probably short for frozen yogurt #yapping #adhd

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

doodle for all you mikalight fans

#death note #light yagami #mikami teru #mikami #mikalight #my art #hoping the colors are okay my eyes are bein funny again and everything but neons looks so dull #i don't feel like finishing this so i colored it for u all and now u get the doodle. enjoy #anyways i think they should like. kiss or whatever

[thebirdandhersong]

ladies and lads I would deeply appreciate prayer for a conversation I have to have in about 4 hours……. I have prepared well for it and thinking too deeply about it makes me sick to my stomach and sick at heart, but it is a conversation that must be had and I would love to approach it with wisdom and gentleness and sincerity, and not fear and anxiety and self-absorption.

#glory be to Christ in all things...... even in this pain in the neck of a conversation the idea of which brought tears to my eyes yesterday #i KNOW everything will eventually turn out fine but i am tired of this heartsickness! and this constant dull ache! #which means i have to take my medicine. #so i'm taking my medicine. God help me

[apollo-cackling]

the thing they don't tell you about playing piano is that when it's good nothing in the world could make you as happy as it does. but watch out

#my rambles #piano #genuinely idk if anything else has ever made me feel the sheer incandescent joy the june performancd had #I love it I hate it practicing can be so miserable sometimes but everything's so dull and grey without it and agh #10n #20n #50n

[homosexualslug]

give it up for natural brunettes!!!

#the makeup team must've gotten a huge budget increase because everyone looks so good #and by that I mean bad like they finally look like they've been living in the woods for six months #their hair is dull and crusty their faces are dirty and bruised their clothes are worn and everything is right in the world #anyways if natalie doesn't leave this island with completely brown hair what's the point #yellowjackets #natalie scatorccio #.txt

[ot3]

every screenshot or gif i've seen of jujutsu kaisen looks like it's being viewed through a film of mop bucket water why is that show so GRAY

#im not saying everything in the world needs bright colors #but if youre gonna be working with something so dull and muted #at least put your pussy into the value distribution

[kiruamon]

Grey World - Change of heart

Third comic part of the Grey World AU. Officer Sun is back. And things are taking a new direction. Wish you fun with this one.

#grey world au #fnaf au #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #fnaf y/n #dca #fnaf dca #daycare attendant #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf #fnaf comic #traditional drawing mixed with digital coloring #sketches #my art #do not reupload #This was so much work... #But I also love this part of the story so much. #Y/N already brought most of the flowers and plants to their home. But looks like they can bring them back to the shop now! #No wonder Sun wasn't faced by the pretty colors last time he was in the shop. #Stupid sun glasses made everything look way more dull to him. #Officer Sun(ny) took a liking to his new friend. #Sun falling into old habits again. #Moon isn't sure how to handle Sun's odd decisions or behavior. #Also Sun ignoring Moon's warnings. Could that lead to a future problem? As if I didn't know the answer to that.

[partoftheairforce]

i miss him so bad

#i miss the direct contact we used to have with him #everything seems so dull now #the 1975 #matty healy

[karda]

🐞🐞>_<

#more doods #my art #doodles #I'm having such a hard time enjoying thigns. ive barely played totk. my cousin got me it for my birthday anf ive been waiting for it 4ever #and ive barely touched it :/ #everything is dull and overwhelming .if my sketchbook starts to look like that i want to throw up so i found my colored pencils and paint #and itsss betterrr i think it makes it better

[toxins-very-gay-thoughts]

Luz's Penstagram! Accurate Version & Flare Version

#by accurate i mean to how the social media would look #but the sides felt dull so i added some things :) #while i was picking the pictures i thought about the captions for everything so now each of those are in my head ;-; #plz dont be mean to me bc of her follower count ;( #i dont think she would have that many because she doesnt post a lot #and when she does post its azura video games or her fam #penstagram #luz is gnc #toh #the owl house #luz noceda #luz the human #luz the owl house #bisexual characters #luz toh #bisexual #bisexual representation #lgbt #lgbt characters #lumity #canon bisexual characters #toxins tumblr edits

[yioh]

why are like 95% of genshin mlm ships so boring and cliche😭

#idk they feel so dull lol #the only mlm ships i like are the scara ships (kazuscara and chiscara) i feel like that’s because scara has such a fun personality and #character design also his colour palette looks so nice with any character #i like kaebedo ofc but they don’t count because they’re not rly popular and have like 0.5 in game material lol #but everything else is so dull #like zhongli/childe kaveh/al haitham ayato/thoma the fontaine guys idk their names #SOOOOO BORING … #wait but i did have a ayato/itto phase they are actually super cute 😭😭😭 i love their dynamic it’s so adorable i would love for more ayaitto #i love how ayaitto compliment eachother it makes so much sense and thoma rly does just feel like a sweet friend honestly i love him for tha #lowkey miss inazuma now lol #WHEREAS most of the wlw ships are soooo fun #idk man like beiguang eimiko while not my favourite ever they are still super fun and cute and i like seeing them #they don’t feel boring lol #i think it’s because i already like their characters individually #plus shenjin and guiping #they’re all so cute #the women of genshin impact are so nicely written now that i think abt it #there’s also lumine/heat and ayalumi #*JEHT NOT HEAT WTF #KOKOSARA beloveds #dehya and dunyazard #not rly a fan of the fontaine girls tho they look kinda basic lol #don’t take this post too seriously i’m just rambling lol

[oncie]

UMM— you still doing Vampire Clive btw?? 🥺👉👈

oh you got it!! here's my beloved vampire clive AU, he's set in a crossover with the world of darkness (vampire: the masquerade) and he's clan lasombra !! he was embraced as a journalist by a vampire dimitri while investigating the mystery behind his parents' suspicious deaths and stumbling on a major government conspiracy (it involves vampires. it's unwound future but with vampires 🧛) anyway even though he's dead now he's even MORE pissed off and still plotting to destroy everything and everyone so watch out!!

#professor layton #clive dove #my art #vampire the masquerade #SORRY anon i know u asked this like months ago but i only just got around to drawing him #this is very self indulgent and caters specifically to myself but hopefully u can get something out of it too lolol #he smokes because due to being dead his emotions r kinda dulled so the smoke reminds him of the smell of the worst day of his life </3 #aka his purpose for going on... his purpose for his PLOTS #also fun to note that underground london serves as his and dimitri's haven and keeps them both safe from sunlight lol #very fun to imagine a vampire society living underground #for vtm players his sect is anarch (obviously) and he's a big fat camarilla hater because they were responsible for everything #sooooo they gotta be destroyed !! along with the whole city maybe ! ! !idk if clive would blow up so many people at once tho because #well that is his food source. HAHAHAA

[fluentisonus]

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#I just feel so like. idk how to even describe my state of mind. #it's like I've gone from depressed in a dull helpless way to depressed in a hysterical way but sometimes for a #little bit I'm also normal. i feel like the most boring person in the world & also like I'm losing my mind. #i genuinely never thought i would actually really get to this point in my life ever. not in that i thought I'd die per se it was just never #real to me it never felt like something i could feasibly accomplish & now I'm there i feel like i just stepped off into the deep end of #some alternate universe world i shouldn't even exist in like i don't belong here. #like when i pictured my life as a kid reality just ended here & everything else was fantasy I realistically knew I never could do #& I'm Trying so hard to get myself a job so i can do smth with my life beyond sort of stewing in boredom & existential terror mixed but #i do not feel like a real person who could feasibly do that. like i just thought I'd disappear or something I don't know what I thought. #like someone would just close the picture book of my life because I'm not someone whose capable of living a normal life. #like I've failed the test (just like I always expected to!!!) but I'm still stuck here they forgot to take me out of the experiment. #<- sorry I'm okay mostly I'm just. really going through it w the transitional stage of life thing

[lordbettany]

Sorry, Buttercup, you should've guessed that he was evil from the way he was slaying those outfits.

#i dont like the Princess Bride. it's so dull. it has everything i love and is even a kissing movie but it's so damn boring #Prince Humperdinck is the only reason i decided to finish watching it. His costumes are 😚👌 #especially the blue one. i'd kill for it. #the princess bride #period costumes #historical costuming #chris sarandon