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desi2go · 1 month
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Sick days
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pairing: sick!Hyunjin x reader
Warnings: fluf
Summary: You imagined your day off differently. But taking care of your sick boyfriend was even better.
Being with Hyunjin was like a soft breeze that played with your hair and kept the busy thoughts away from you. It was like a sunset at the beach. The bright colours were exciting but calming. Every day was a new adventure, a new story.
As a nurse, you dealt with a busy and hectic schedule and Hyunjin was always there after a long 12 hours shift to bring you comfort. Like a breeze his fingers brushed through your hair as you hid your face in his neck, trying to get the annoying smell of disinfection out of your nose.
He was your safe space. Whenever you felt down or self-conscious, he grounded you and build you up. As an idol, he always worked ambitiously to perform the best for his beloved STAY. Even though he was exhausted, he makes sure that you are okay and looked after you at the end of the day.
He texted you, that today's practice would run late and you shouldn't wait for him. You just came home from your long shift and it was already 11 pm. You hoped that he wouldn't overwork himself and come home quickly. You quickly changed out of your work clothes and jumped under the shower. Then, you cleaned the dishes from the morning due to the missing time because nearly overslept. Luckily, you had managed to get to work in time but without a breakfast.
You figured that your boyfriend would be starving when he will get home, so you ordered takeout.
You yawned and cuddled further into the couch with a blanket draped over your lap as you watched your favourite TV show again. Well, you loved to watch it with him.
Hyunjin came home in the middle of the night. The clock in the hallway said that it was long after midnight and he felt terrible. Today's practice was a pain. It seemed like everything he did was slow and forced. There wasn't the usual easy flow, the balance and the melody didn't took over his body. It didn't guide him and that was frustrating, especially since the comeback season starts soon. He must give everything and more for his friends and STAY.
After he slipped out of his shoes, he walked into the living room just to see you on the couch. Your hair that was once in a neat ponytail was now all over your face and your head leaned against his pillow that you must have stolen from the bed. He chuckled quietly and quickly showered. Then, he kneeled in front of you and brushed some hair strands out of the way. Your nose scrunched and you stirred awake.
"Hello my love. Were you waiting for me" he whispered as your sleep driven eyes blinked at him and a small smile danced over your pretty lips.
"Yeah, I ordered takeout for you" you answered and rose from your snuggly place to stretch out your sore muscles. As much as you loved that couch, that you two bought together after moving in, the bed was way more comfortable. He pecked your forehead and went to heat up the food.
You followed him and cuddled into his side as he ate his food. You were sleepy and just enjoyed the warmth of your personal human heater. From time to time he cleared his throat.
"You ok?" You asked as he did it again. "Yeah, just drank less water while practicing"
You grapped him a bottle of water and a glass. You can imagine that sport made your throat pretty dry especially when you dance for hours.
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The next morning you woke up in an empty bed. Jinnie was already up and probably at the company. It was your day off and on those days even though you were an early riser, you sometimes enjoyed sleeping long. As a nurse, a good sleep was rare.
With a good mood you danced through the apartment and cleaned it. You checked Jinnies schedule that he had sent you in the past so that you always know where he is and can easily visit him.
Maybe you can watch him practice with his group later in the afternoon since it was a rare occasion due to work. He always loved when you support him. It only makes him more ambitious and hyped he had told you. And the other boys adored you. Especially Felix, Hyunjin's best friend or soulmate like they often state, was fascinated by you. Maybe that's because you lived until you were ten in Australia and then moved with your family to Korea.
He was also the first member Jinnie introduced you to. As his best friend, he knew from your relationship from the beginning and when he finally met you, he was even more convinced that you were the perfect match for Hyunjin.
But also Seungmin was like a brother to you. From the first moment you met the younger boy, you liked him with his cheeky attitude and the sweet toothy smile.
You figured that you should buy the whole group something to drink when you went to the studio. On the way, you stopped at a café and ordered drinks. You just sat in your car once again with the drinks on the passenger seat, when Felix called you.
"What's up, Lix?" You asked and started the car. "Are you coming to today's practice?"
"Yeah, on my way right now. Why?"
"I think Hyunjin is sick. He is totally pale and already vomited"
"I'm coming. I'll be there in 10" you answered concerned. You knew Jinnie. Whenever he is sick, he wants to keep going. He just works him to death because he won't admit that he was ill and needs to rest.
Balancing the nine cups in both hands, you managed to go through the security that already knew you and bid you politely hello and and took the elevator to the floor where the studio was. You already knew the way there after walking it hundreds of times.
In the hallway, you could already hear the music and the squeaking of the shoes. With a foot, you pushed the door open and yelled a greeting over the loud music.
Seeing the drinks in your hands, they quickly scrambled to you in no time and helped you. You spread them and you all sat down. Happily, they drank like they lived in a desert with no water at all.
They all were already sweaty and chatted.
Jinnie kneeled beside you with his americano in one hand as he layed his head against your shoulder.
"Hey baby. Is everything ... was that a shudder?"
You asked him. His clothes were wet with sweat but occasionally he shuddered like he was cold.
Concerned, you placed your drink beside you and touched his forehead to feel how warm he was. And he was warm, it felt like his skin was burning under your touch. A shudder jolted through him again.
"Are you feeling bad? Can it be that your sick Jinnie?" You asked and brushed a stray hair strand back out of his face. Your eyes danced over his pretty face. He was indeed pale.
He just shook his head and murmured that he will go to the bathroom quick. The first steps were staggering but then he felt suddenly nauseous and covered his mouth and paced through the room to get to a washroom. You had observed that and jumped up to follow him.
You found him in the bathroom, kneeling in front of the toilet, vomiting. He gagged and emptied the contents of his belly. You sat next to him and rubbed his back while his body tensed up with each gag. You brushed soothingly through his wet hair.
Drained out, he leaned against the bowl, taking shaky breaths.
"It's okay, baby." You cooed.
You helped him up after some time and he got rid of the disgusting taste in his mouth through rinsing it out. Some tears ran down his cheeks as he breathed heavily.
"Everything alright?" Chan asked as you two walked back into the room.
"You look like shit" Seungmin stated and continued sipping on his drink. "I'm okay" he answered with a hoarse voice. You scoffed and rolled your eyes.
"Definitely, you didn't just puked your guts out" you said ironically.
"I told you he was ill!" Felix shouted and rubbed your boyfriends shoulder.
"You should rest. You can't dance when you're ill" Chan told him.
"Come, let's go home and rest" You exclaimed and circled his waist with one arm.
Only after the whole group literally forced him to go home, he followed you quietly to your car. You opened the door for him and went to the driver seat to take your poor boyfriend home.
The whole drive was completely quiet as Jinnie rested his head against the window and tried not to get nauseous. He felt bad for leaving practice. With the new comeback, he didn't want to disappoint his fans, his friends and you. Especially not you. You were the most important person to him and you should be proud of him so when someone asks you about him, you should be proud to say that he was your love. That was all he wants.
As you parked the car, you turned to your boyfriend. He was still pale but the nausea seemed to fade. His eyes were closed and even though he looked exhausted, he was like an angel. So beautiful. Though with his newly red dyed hair he looked more like a devil. Just the sweet horns and the tail were missing.
You rounded the car and opened his door. His eyes fluttered open and you smiled. Like a puppy, he followed you to your apartment while you carried his bag.
Unlocking the door, you let him in and took your shoes off. You leaned his bag against the wall.
"Wanna take a shower first?" You questioned because he was still sweaty due to practise and he shouldn't catch an even worse cold. He nodded and went through the hallway to the bedroom to get some comfy new clothes. Meanwhile, you let some water in the bathtub and searched for the bath oil that helps with colds. Immediately, the bath was filled with the smell of eucalyptus and sage.
You gave your boyfriend a kiss on the cheek.
"I'll cook you something light. If anything happens just say something and I'll come" Patting his hair, you leaved the room and started looking through your refrigerator and the kitchen cabinets to see if you had all the ingredients.
Fortunately, you got everything for a chicken soup. You brew a chicken broth with the meat and in the meantime you chopped leek, carrots and celery. Then, you added them to the pan and brought the noodles to boil.
The soup was nearly finished as Hyunjin returned. He circled your waist with his arms and layed his head on his shoulder.
"What's up, baby? Feeling better?" You asked and stirred the soup another time. "Yeah, a bit. Smells great, honey"
"Thank you" He let you go as you turned around to face him. Gently, you touched his forehead to check if he got a fever. And he was indeed burning up. From a cabinet, you took a thermometer and measured his temperature.
"You have a fever, baby" you stated and send him to bed so that he could rest.
Soon, you filled a bowl with soup for him and brought it him along with some medicine against the cold.
He sat up and slowly ate the food. You hoped that he could keep it in his stomach and he didn't need to vomit from it. And he definitely shouldn't take the medication without some food in his belly.
When he was finished, he took the medicine.
"Thanks, honey" he said and gave you a tired smile.
"Wanna watch our series?" You asked and quickly brought the empty dish in the kitchen. You will clean them later, now you wanted to spend time with your love.
He agreed and you took your laptop with you. You jumped beside him under the warm comforter and placed the laptop next to you. You started your current kdrama and cuddled further into the cushion.
Some time passed and Jinnie still held some distance to you. Usually, he would be all over you by now. Slightly, you turned your head and observed your boyfriend. His entire body was under the comforter with only his head out and concentrated on the screen.
"Everything alright?" You asked and he turned his attention to you.
"Yeah, just a bit cold"
You lifted your arm and signalled him to come to you so that you could function as his personal heater.
He shook his head and murmured. "Don't wanna infect you"
You heart swelled at how he still looked out for you. A loving smile danced over your lips.
"Come honey, can't let you freeze. I'll heat you up" Finally, he came closer and layed his head on your chest while his hands caressed your hips.
You touched his forehead to check if his fever was still high. But the medicine seemed to finally kick in. Then, you let your hands travel to his red dyed hair and combed through the silky strands.
He sighed and closed his eyes, enjoying the physical contact.
"I'm sorry" he mentioned after some time. "What?"
"I'm sorry for ruining your day off. You already have enough patients to care for"
"No! You didn't ruin anything!" You held his head in your hands and caressed his cheeks.
"I love to take care of you. In fact, I love to pamper you"
"I love you" he answered and let his hands run up your sides.
"I love you too" you told him and placed a loving peck on his forehead.
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reallyromealone · 1 month
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Title: slice of life
Fandom: apothecary diaries
Pairing Jinshi x maomao + baby reader
Warnings: child reader, baby reader, fluff, cute, platonic (obviously), slice of life
Notes: none
☁️🐟☁️🐟☁️🐟☁️🐟☁️🐟☁️🐟☁️🐟☁️🐟☁️🐟☁️
(name) gave a big stretch as he was held by his mom, maomao having the babe in her lap as she went over papers, the once commoner now wife of the Emperor's brother was pleased that she could continue doing what she loved though she did have to stop ingesting poisons for her beloved son who loved being helpful in his own way, the Apothecary often gave him little toy versions of her tools so he could learn even if he was only eight months.
"Let's go see your papa, yes?" Maomao said to her son, a warmness she didn't extend to many people-- hell her own husband didn't even get that level of warmness unless it was on special occasion.
It was strange for people to see her dressed as someone of such high class, her old friends bowing at her with a smile as she went to look for her husband. Everyone looked at (name) fondly, recently the boy had learned to wave and decided that everyone needed to be waved at no matter what class, maomao smiling softly at the boys antics "you are just like your father" her words fond as the boy patted her face, he had his smile that was for sure.
Jinshi was absolutely thrilled to see the two "you came to see me~" he teased and maomao kept a passive Expression "no, we were just passing by" a total lie but it was enough to make the other pout in annoyance before gently taking (name) and holding him close, letting the boy hold his finger in his tiny hand and doted on the babe who babbled, maomao would rather die than admit she found the scene absolutely heartwarming. (Name) loved his parents, the two always gave their full attention to him and included him in many things.
"I was thinking of having him visit my father..." Maomao said absentmindedly as the babe tried grabbing his dad's hair "you wanna see your grandpa, little one?" (Name) perked up at the mention of 'grandpa' and began bouncing slightly "eeea!" He squealed and that was their answer "I'll make the necessary preparations, maybe we can visit him on our way to our holiday, yes?"
Jinshi kept his face hidden, the babe confused but didn't cry or anything when seeing his father look strange "dad! We're here" the older man looked up from his grinding stone to see his grandson smack his little hands together and reach from maomao to him "my, you grown" he mused and took the boy "you look just like my maomao" he whispered to the boy as the two parents watched, Jinshi had taken it upon himself to get maomaos adoptive father a better living situation, upgrade some stuff for the apothecary.
"He's been figuring out walking, soon he will be all over the place" jinshi said fondly and the older man chuckled "Maomao was a speedy baby, she would want to see everything"
They stayed for half hour, having tea the Jinshi brought for his father in law as (name) munched on a small tiny portion of a treat, resting on his mother's chest content.
"He's so peaceful when he's eating" jinshi teased his son who barely paid attention, focused on his tiny bit of honey as his mom fixed his hair "he will surely cause chaos when he's older, like his father"
"Hey!"
(Name) paid the adults no mind as he glanced around, the home always warmer when they were always together, the boy sliding down from his mom's hold when he spotted his toys, crawling towards them happily "he's growing fast" the two parents felt their hearts warm at their little one who played so sweetly "he's going to be quite a good man when he's older" (name) turned his little butt around to see his parents before surprising everyone, standing shakily in his two little chunky legs and attempting to walk to maomao with his little "I want food" whine "my, were going to have to lock things away it seems" maomao teased as (name) smacked her chest lightly with a huff "I think this is our queue to leave" jinshi said as maomao hugged her dad, taking little (name) out of the home, a much nicer one as a "thank you for letting me marry your daughter" gift.
"Mama!" (Name) said angrily as they got in the carriage "yesyes, you little brat" she teased as jinshi watched.
He was definitely his father's son.
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sapybara · 1 year
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Dream Team VODs & Videos Masterlist
Hi hello! I noticed there's a lot, and I mean a lot, of new people wanting to know the Dream Team better and join the fandom, so i thought I'd give you a quick tour through some vods and videos that are personally the ones that I enjoyed the most. Of course, this is not everything, but just a little starter, to get to know them better. So, for your enjoyment, here's my masterlist of Dream Team content.
Note: this list will NOT include dsmp lore
DREAM
▪︎ Main YouTube Channel
▪︎ Alt YouTube Channel
▪︎ Music YouTube Channel
▪︎ Main Twitch Channel
▪︎ Alt Twitch channel
Of course, the most iconic Dream Content™ is his Minecraft Manhunt Series, where he tries to speedrun minecraft while his friends try to kill him before he kills the ender dragon. Theres 26 different Manhunts (including the "non canon" ones) that go progressively from 1 Hunter to 5 Hunters, and while watching them in order is fun, these videos can be watched as stand alone in any order! My personal favourites are Speedrunner vs 2 Hunters and Speedrunner vs 3 Hunters Grand Finale, but I highly recommend watching all of them.
Outside of the Manhunts, I really like Death Shuffle and Minecraft But We Can Only See One Chunk but there's lots of other that you can check out.
If you don't feel like watching minecraft and want something more chill, Geoguessr VODS are a good choice. They last 2 hours and he just chill with chat and answers some questions: Here and Here are two of the most recent ones!
And, you might have heard of the Dream Discord Podcast (Drodcasts for short), which are also very chill, sound only that you can have as background noise. This playlist has most of them without silences and here's another playlist with the most recent ones. The must of this are the infamous Are You In Love With Your Best Friend Quiz (The Quiz per se it's in 1:39:13) and when he Took It Again A Year Later (timestamp for this is 1:40:32)
Also here's Dream playing FNAF Security Breach that I'm adding just bc is hilarious and he's a little scared cat
If you want a full list of Dreams VODs here's a playlist
SAPNAP
▪︎ Main YouTube Channel
▪︎ Alt YouTube Channel
▪︎ VODs YouTube Channel
▪︎ Main Twitch Channel
▪︎ Alt Twitch Channel
Sapnap my beloved, his main YouTube Channel is minecraft only, but he likes to stream other games Valorant and Fornite (+ others) on twitch.
As for minecraft, he has his "Minecraft But" series, my personal favourites are Minecraft But We're All Colorblind (a classic) and Mincraft But It's 2D from his main and The Most Chaotic Minecraft Video from his alt. The Shock Stream (where he gets electrocuted if he takes damage) also absolutely hilarious.
For some background noise, the speedrunning minecraft stream is a good choice.
For other than minecraft, the Risk Stream and Pokémon stream
For IRL content, Cooking Stream with Karl and Eating Minecraft Food are good starters.
His vod channel isn't really complete but here's a channel and here's another that have some more of his VODS that include Valorant, Fornite, IRL meet ups, Pokémon, Detroit Becomes Human, and MCC Practices content.
Also he is the co-host of Banter, a podcast with Karl and (recently) George, where they invite different people and ask them questions.
GEORGE
▪︎ Main YouTube Channel
▪︎ Alt YouTube Channel
▪︎ Highlights YouTube Channel
▪︎ Vlog YouTube Channel (Coming Soon™)
▪︎ VODs YouTube Channel
▪︎ Main Twitch Channel
▪︎ Alt Twitch Channel
Just like Sap, George's main is minecraft based. He has a series called Minecraft But My Friend is my Pet where he tries to beat minecraft with Dream (who's a mob) helping him and also a "Minecraft but" series, where Sapnap, Dream and him play minecraft with a twist. Minecraft But You Can't Touch The Floor is hilarious and one of my favourites along with Minecraft But If You Laugh You Lose Finale and his own Shock video. I can't not mention the Minecraft But I'm Not Colorblind Anymore, which is a classic and really cute. The Mincraft Basketball VOD is really entertaining and features Dream, Sapnap, Quackity and Callahan.
I highly recommend his POV for MCC All Stars, where the three of them are teamed together and they crush it.
For some George IRL content, the musts are his First Cooking Stream and his Birthday Cooking Stream. I personally LOVE Tommy's Waterpark vlog ft George too. The Highlights of the Hot Tub stream are super entertaining too.
For some Non-Minecraft content, I recommend his Stray VOD which is kinda long but really relaxing and nice George Solo content. The FNAF Security Breach VOD is also a good option
Here's a playlist of all his streams if you want to check them out
And that would be it! It's not all and I'm leaving a lot of content out but I think this is a good starter if you want to get to know them better. There's a lot of content of them on their friend's channels (Like Karl Jacobs and TommyInnit) that is worth checking out too. Hope this is useful, and welcome to the fandom!
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fatuismooches · 7 months
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Hii Smooches
I've been feeling burnt out a lot lately and thought about comfort from some of harbingers
Like, Dottore's segments all stop their work to comfort you. They bring you food, water and things that they think can make you happier. Original, not knowing about how you're feeling, gets annoyed, but quickly warms up after learning the reason. Also, if your bad mood was caused by someone.. Let's just say you won't be seeing them again
Pantalone's love language is obviously gift giving, so that's what he'd do. But don't think he'll try to just buy your happiness. Pantalone let's you lay on his knees and will listen to whatever you're dealing with right now and you'll chat, while he gently strokes your hair. He has a very calming voice, you might even fall asleep while listening to it. Or he'll order his servants to run a hot bath (I completely support anon who said Pantalone enjoys non-sexual nudity)
Sandrone may look like she doesn't care about anything, aside from her work, but she does. I think she's not very good with emotions or comfort, but Sandrone tries her best to help you and her automatons will gladly help her do that
Ah, Arlecchino, Arlecchino... Her first reaction to you feeling down would asking who was the reason (and if it was indeed a person, then, well, it's pretty much the same as Dottore's). I think she's also not the best at comfort, but also tries her best. Arlie might take you to Heart of Hearth, thinking playing with kids there will help ease your worries or take you to theatre
Ajax cooks your favorite dishes and entertains you with water animals. He seems very touchy-feely, so he won't let you go from his grasp until you feel better
My thoughts are messy and my brain refuses to think properly. No thoughts, only comfort from villains who are soft for one (1) person
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Hi 👾 anon! I'm so sorry you're feeling burnt out, it's really a horrible feeling :( Please make sure to take time to do something fun and comforting and rest too! I hope you feel better soon. And thank you for this comfort... it made me feel better too.
The clones would be telepathically communicating with each other, telling each other what to bring and what to do for you 😭 Do they normally get annoyed by the loud thoughts of others? Yes. But do they care right now? No, because your comfort is their top priority right now. Rarely do the segments see you like this, and they have literally never comforted someone before so... they will be running around themselves trying to figure out what is the best way to comfort you because they have no clue. It's kind of funny because they're dropping stuff in front of you with no explanation in hopes that you'll feel better... Primettore would be annoyed like you said at first, and then he'd ask you why you didn't come to him when you were feeling this way. He would let you sit in his lap as he stroked your hair, allowing you to rant about your problems if you felt comfortable. And yea, if it so happens to be someone... looks like Dottore's next test subject has been found!
Ah Pantalone... he knows gifts and money can make one happy, but you deserve far more than that. You deserve all of him, and all of him he shall give to you, if that makes you happy. Literally everything about him is so comforting... his scent, warmth, touch, voice... you will feel even a bit better by the end of it because of the sheer amount of attention he gives you. Just let him into your worries, he will take his beloved's troubles very seriously. If you don't feel up to taking care of yourself, he will make sure you're well pampered, whether that's taking a bath with you, helping you dress, brushing your hair, and etc.(Pantalone non-sexual nudity REALLLLLL, he's kissing all over your body fr)
Sandrone... this will be a hurdle for her, one she's slowly overcoming though because she really does love you. She's mostly around her robots and Automatons, and they don't really have feelings or emotions... and she herself neglects her emotions so this is new territory for her. She doesn't exactly know how one goes about comforting another, but she bases it on what you do for her. How you try to pull her away from her work when she's clearly tired, how you bring her water and snacks, how you hold her and let her rant about how incompetent her co-workers are... naturally, she doesn't do this as good as you, but she's trying. And her Automatons would definitely carry you two as she takes you for a breath of fresh air.
As you said, Arlie isn't adept with comforting either, her way of helping is more getting to the root of the problem and then solving it for you. Then you won't be as stressed. And she will try her best to help you, and if it's a person... the Knave is the right person! She's not good with words, she's very to the point and won't sugarcoat things, so that's not her expertise... Arlecchino's more action-oriented and will do things for you instead, despite her very busy schedule. (Baby Lyney, Lynette, and Freminet moment) She'll take you to the theater with the best seats and let you hold her hand the whole time :(
If you want physical affection for comfort, Childe's your guy. He will not let you go normally, but when you're like this it just amplifies much more (as long as you're comfortable) Ajax will always have a hand on you - shoulder, chest, thigh, your own hand, etc, as a means of comforting you. That he's here for you, and you're not alone. While he's cooking your comfort foods he will definitely talk the whole time if you don't feel up to it right now... the water fishies get me every time 😭 he's so flipping cute he won't stop until he gets you to smile
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delugguk · 2 years
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eating from each other’s plates & either " you’re lucky that you’re cute. " or "nope, puppy dog eyes aren’t going to work this time! " 💜
request from this post
pair: jungkook x reader
what happens here?: they're in love and tbh this low-key gives me ITS!couple vibes lol :(
word count: 810
note: tagging @jkshandsomegirlfriend since you also requested this <3
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"mm, what do you think about this?" jungkook asks when he's guiding his spoon towards your mouth as you automatically open up.
"oh? what is this?" delighted by the taste of it, your eyes widen at such exquisite flavor.
"something I recently saw on the internet and tried it out.." he shyly murmurs when you instantly state, "of course you did." in a playful tone, only chuckling afterwards.
"do you like it?"
"is that even a serious question? babe, this tastes so good." heart eyes into your eyes and that only makes jungkook's heart jump and his cheekies blush. you found him very endearing despite looking very much fine while cooking but what can you expect, that's how your boyfriend is. hot and amazing. not only in bed but in many other things too, like cooking. - when you open your mouth for him to give you some more, all you are met with is his very salty finger touching your tongue.
"hey!!"
"no-uh, you have to wait till I finish."
"It isn't done already?" swinging his head to its sides, he makes you pout in disappointment. "I want another taste.." when your eyes only glisten turning into those big and pleading puppy eyes but jungkook doesn't buy it as you've used this technique many times, he's almost insensitive about it. almost. It still got him sometimes, but just sometimes.
"nope, puppy dog eyes aren't going to work this time! " he utters once he takes care of some vegetables in front of him.
"that's not fair!" you tramped around him. "It tastes so good already..." fingers toying with the hem of his gigantic hoodie as you sulk.
with your current state, jungkook can't help but let out the nicest laugh you've ever heard. "don't worry babe, it will taste even better once it's finished."
oh, he loved to tease you.
"ugh, don't ever think about me giving you food once my order arrives."
yeah, you've ordered food just a few minutes ago when you thought neither of you were going to cook today, but since jungkook seemed to get creative into tasting his magnificent cooking skills - you don't even know why you said that because now, here you are sharing food with your beloved. if he ever thought of you being a clown, you swear you'll take it because you could never not resist your boyfriend's charms.
seating on the kitchen table, you give him a piece of your food once you had caught him glancing at it. you just know when he wants a piece of something and who are you to deny him from testing the marvellous tastes of the world?
"here," you guide a piece of food on his mouth and as soon as he makes a loud, almost comic-like "mmm!!!" sound followed by his eyebrows furrowing into an angry face, you know he absolutely adores it and that's when you mentally sigh, in defeat.
"okay... you can take it." you voice as you playfully roll your eyes.
"truly?" orbit eyes just taking a glance at the food and your face at the same time.
"truly." you repeat and he looks way too happy.
"don't get too excited though.. you're lucky that you're cute.." you murmur, "I'm only doing it 'cause you're cute.. so take it all if you want."
the big smirk that forms into his face it's not normal but since he's jungkook, of course he has to, "okay, thennn.. I'll exchange this for this," he conveys, giving you a piece of his own cooking. - everything without forgetting to feed you some first, of course. you close your eyes like that one scene in ratatouille once the familiar flavour meets your glorious taste buds and all jungkook does is endearingly smile at you when he cleans the corner of your lips for the mess he low-key made, very delicately.
"Is it that good, baby?" you nod and his smile only widens. "this is my exchange gift." showing you that pretty bunny smile of his.
and the moment he does, you respond with a yes followed by a big gasp that you can't help but make, and you don't know if it's because of him giving you this or him just looking so damn stunning right now even if his hair was messy. but of course you weren't going to tell him that. at least not today. he'll be an absolute demon if you told him today.
"thanks.." you shyly look away when he seems to not stop staring at you.
It only makes him match your energy once he notices his eyes being somehow glued into yours.
"of course," responding, he's already cutting another size when he says, "gotta make sure my pretty girl always gets what she wants." only pausing to end up murmuring with a smug grin, "even if whatever that is, it's me.."
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Hello Heldi! Could I request headcannons on how Loki's family would take care of Sigyn is she gets sick? Smite addition!! 🥺👉👈
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• Loki’s family take care of Sigyn when she gest sick. ⚠️: None, just fluff. 💜 My notes: Ofc mama Thea ^^! This is a very good request, no doubt Loki and the guys would do their best to take care of Sigyn when she has a cold <)
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Without a doubt, Loki would do everything he could to take care of his beloved Sigyn when she was sick, Loki would take good care of Sigyn.
What Loki would do is gently press his hand on Sigyn's forehead and neck, to see if the goddess's temperature is warm or if she is cold, and depending on how Loki feels the temperature that Sigyn has, he would do what is necessary to take care of her.
In case Sigyn's temperature was high, Loki would immediately bring a damp cloth and put it on Sigyn's forehead, hoping that this would make his wife compose herself a little.
“Don't worry, my dear, you will recover… you just have to rest… I will be here to take care of you…” Loki would say to his beloved, staying by her side, sitting on the side of the bed while he gently caresses Sigyn's head, hoping that she will recover soon.
Still, Loki does not want Sigyn to get out of bed, he would instead bring Sigyn whatever she needs, as Loki does not want his wife to make too much effort trying to get out of bed.
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Hel would be very worried about Sigyn being sick, but as a good daughter, she would do what was necessary to make her mother feel much better, like who would say, Hel would be Sigyn's nurse.
Hel would make sure Sigyn is comfortable and calm, so she makes sure to keep Sigyn warm at night so the cold doesn't get worse.
Hel will be sure to give Sigyn some home remedies to lessen her mother's cold symptoms, whether it's making tea or even a warm soup.
“You'll be fine mom, I'm here to take care of you.” Hel would tell her mother, she will make sure that Sigyn is safe and sound, as well as comfortable, she wants her mother to slowly recover and be completely healthy.
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Fenrir would also do his part to take care of Sigyn when she is sick, although he does not consider himself good in these cases, he will do his best.
Fenrir will always remain alert if Sigyn's symptoms become serious.
Fenrir would still help with some basic care while Sigyn feels weak and sick, carrying food to bed so that the goddess does not make an effort to get up and supervising that his mother is safe and sound.
And Fenrir would keep Sigyn company while the goddess is sleeping, like a faithful dog taking care of the person for whom he has a big affection and appreciation, in this case his mother Sigyn.
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Jormungandr does not consider himself the best babysitter in the world, but like Fenrir, he would do his best to take care of Sigyn's health, hoping that the goddess can recover soon.
Being a deity that has a guardian role, Jorm would be quite protective of his mother, as he does not want something or someone to take advantage of Sigyn's vulnerability while she is sick.
And of course… being a snake of colossal size… Jorm may not feel like the one to help in these cases, but at least he always makes sure that Sigyn is safe and sound, protecting her and keeping her protected.
“Don’t worry, you will be safe…” Jormungandr would tell Sigyn, being very sincere and taking it upon himself to protect her while she feels sick and weak, this guy may not care about others, but when it comes to his family, in this case, his mother, Jorm will do what is necessary to get Sigyn back to health and safety.
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Embry Call x Swan FemReader (not use of Y/N)
Summary: You love your sister till your last breath, but never realized how far her lifestyle will ever affect you.
Warnings for the entire fic: Depression, angst, death and it’s a little bit fluffy till it ain’t. Sad ending.
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"Bella still the same, what about you? Are you feeling better?" You asked Embry, lately he had been feeling very strange; He told you that he had hit a sudden growth spurt that his mother always made him notice, spells of very high fever and drastic mood swings, which was completely unnatural for him. It was for those reasons that he wouldn't let you go see him. He forbade you to get close to him in that state, so you only kept in touch via calls.
"Better actually, today mom will take the afternoon and evening shift, so I'll stay all day watching those ridiculous movies that you like"
You had your mouth full of food, but that didn't stop you from replying "Hey! Don't you dare call the Star Wars movies ridiculous, unless you want me to dump you, because in which case you do a good job"
You had forced Embry to watch all the Star Wars movies one weekend when you were staying at his house. He didn't look particularly bored with them, just that it was a no-brainer that he'd rather spend his time on something more interesting; spending the whole night pestering you with neck kisses that soon turned into something else, causing both of you to leave the subject of movies for the following weekend.
You heard Embry's shrill laugh on the other end of the line. "Okay, sorry, I'll stop calling your beloved Jedi movies ridiculous."
"Okay, so you're still in a relationship. HEY! You still haven't told me what you plan to do for your birthday" he had to move the phone away from his ear when he heard your little accusatory cry.
His birthday was coming up soon and you were very excited about the event. You had planned the gift of him weeks in advance and you were already very anxious to give it to him.
"Just a little celebration with Jake, Quil and you, of course, here at home"
"Great, I'll give you my gift and you'll love it" you affirmed with a smile.
There was a rattle across the line as if he was setting something up "If it has to do with food; hand it over to me when Quil's not around, we both know he'll steal everything" You guys laughed at that, Quil always eat all the boys food, and you didn't know if their appetite was due to gluttony or the simple desire to annoy their friends.
You were sitting at the kitchen table with your eyes on the empty bowl before you, when your father peeked through the door and waved for you to go to the living room, you nodded towards him and quickly he walked away "Honey… I have to go now" you said with a little twinge of guilt.
"Will you call me tomorrow?" he asked.
"Of course I do" you said "I call you practically every day"
He laughed "Okay, bye love"
"Goodbye"
You ended the call and walked to the room where your father was waiting for you on the couch. You sat softly next to his as you watched him with his elbows resting on his knees, supporting his chin. These past few months he had been so tired from work and Bella's depressive state that when he found a little moment of rest at night, he was pulled out of it by your sister's screams. He was immersed in a state of excessive and constant worry, depriving him of sleep and other basic necessities during the day.
Your father snapped his fingers as he sat up straighter. "I'll tell Bella to go back to Jacksonville," he snapped, and despite saying it as a statement, his face was more of a question.
"I don't think she wants to do it dad" you said softly. Bella really hoped that Edward or some other Cullen would come back, if she went with your mother there was no way any of them would go looking for her there.
"It's just that… He won't come back, and I don't know what to do anymore" he ran his hands roughly over his face, his dark circles and disheveled hair were a clear indication of the exhaustion, not only mental but also physical that he was going through "Your sister is not improving and she is absorbing you"
"Dad, she's not abs-" you tried to speak but were cut off by him.
"She does it" all his body language changed from him; He sat up facing you, his fists clenched, intense eye contact, a frown and a slight rise in his voice, "You stopped dating everyone you knew, your grades dropped because you focused on Bella and you make the time to shower her when she hasn't showered for days. You just molded your life around hers."
You didn't know what to say, it was completely true but you hadn't even realized that until your father marked it. You made an effort to satisfy Bella in everything and especially in those things that she couldn't do for herself; You didn't want to upset her or do something to add to all the pain she was feeling, even at your own expense.
Your father seemed to realize that it was a bit harsh, so he walked over to you and put his arm around your shoulders "I'm sorry about that… but this is getting too much for everyone, your mother will know how to handle this situation better"
You rested your head on his shoulder "I'll support you in any decision dad, but I honestly think it will get better here and not in Jacksonville. Give her a little more time, let her see for herself that Edward won't be back" your father took your hand "Tell her anyway, listen to what she has to tell you"
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You heard Bella's truck pull up so you hurried down to meet her. When you caught up with her, she stopped you and handed over the keys to her truck.
You took them in your hand with a frown. "Umm, do you want me to park your truck?"
"I'm going shopping with Jessica, I told her to pick me up so you can take the truck and see Embry" Bella tried to smile at you.
"Bella…are you sure? Not really-" she cut you off.
"Go, I'll be fine"
"But…you hate shopping." You made a face at her.
"I'll be fine, I'll buy you some things too" You got so excited that you rushed over to Bella to hug her.
"I love you so much Bella" you kissed her forehead, before running upstairs to put everything you'd need in your bag.
When you got out, you asked your father for permission and ran to the truck as soon as he said yes, throwing the things on the passenger seat. After a long drive, you parked outside Embry's house and grabbed your things before heading out, watching the living room lights on from outside.
The door to his house opened and there he was, looking surprised even as he ran to hug you; lifting you off the ground and spinning with you in his arms.
"What are you doing here?" He asked with his face buried in your neck.
"Bella told me to come see you, she handed me her truck and everything, she said she would be fine for today"
Embry broke away from your embrace and placed both hands on your face. You closed your eyes as you absorbed the sensation of his touch and the scent of wood from him. You had begun to forget these little details about him, things so insignificant that made you feel calm, happy. You didn't want to forget those things anymore.
When you opened your eyes and met his soft gaze, feelings of fear, uncertainty, and anger hit you. With Embry you felt an immense joy that you had set aside due to decisions of others, responsibilities that were not yours… But you feared that you had given your whole heart to Embry just as your sister did with Edward, you feared to share all the good and bad things about you with him, only to be abandoned afterwards. But you also didn't want to deprive yourself of the love he had for you, so you just let all your doubts go.
And that became your favorite day; the scent of him, the way he held you protectively even if there were no dangers around, the sound of his heart as you rested your head on his chest, his lips on yours, his hands on your waist That night they told each other that they loved each other for the first time.
That night, your favorite… was the last you would have in a long time.
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Heart full of love preview
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After losing a beloved person to a war of greed and money.
She never thought a business trip to a small village would lead her to her fate.
She never thought the heart that was once empty will be filled with so much love and adoration for these seven men who she would do anything for.
For first time after the incident her heart was full of love.
They were her family and she will burn anyone who dares to harm them.
Pairing: Hybrid!BTS X Hybrid!reader
Genre: poly, hybrid, mates
Warning: thunderstorms, raining, mistreatment.
Status: on going
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The sound of rain and thunder was echoing around the whole building. Because of the harsh weather the light was cut out, Making it difficult for anyone to see anything.
I was sitting in the corner of a room my small from cowering from the harsh sound of thunder.
The condition of the building was not good, there was water leaking from the roof and molds on the wall.
But it was better than being outside in the thunder storm.
The cold floor of the building and the lack of warm cloths was making me shiver. I wrap my hand around my body in hope to warm myself up a little.
There was not many facilities available in the shelter as no one cared about hybrid enough to provide them some warm clothes or a blanket to keep them warm.
The lighting struck again making me cower in fear as I let out a whimper. I covered my ears, the loud sound being too much for my sensitive hybrid ears.
I deside to lay on the floor legs curled in toward my chest with my hands in the middle.
It has almost been 1 year since I arrived at the facility after being caught while steal some food from a stall. The owner called the management after catching me.
I was almost 6 when I was sent here by the hybrid management organization, the facility was not good but it was better than sleeping on the street with no food. They provide us food one time a day and a roof on our head in this weather.
There were not many people who came to adopt hybrid here, most of them preferred to adopt from a well and expensive shelters.
In the year I have been here I have only seen 3 hybrids get adopted. 2 female rabbit hybrids and a male cat hybrid all of them being around 10 years old.
The hybrid here never talked to each other, for them everyone was a rival they had to fight to be able to have a good life outside the facility with hopefully an owner who would not treat them badly. It was nearly impossible since it was hard to get an owner who would take care of you.
Most of the time adopted hybrids were abused or returned to the shelter by their owner. They were treated like an object to show off the wealth, the more rare hybrid the more rich the person.
I never understood why humans liked to cage everything that they see or find interest in. Why do many of them take pleasure in treating other living begins like an object.
The lightning had stopped soon, the sound of rain made me sleepy. I soon found myself dozing of thinking about if I would ever get adopted in a loving family ,or would I spend all my life here in the shelter laying on the cold floor with nothing or no one to keep me warm.
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Solider, Poet, King
Venti x Reader fluff (fic!)
Venti performs his famous song, Solider, Poet, King at Angels Share !!✨
It’s been a long day for you, full of food and music and commissions. Today marked the end of the Windblume festival in Mondstat, lots of people were gathered in Angel’s share and the Cats Tail for drinks and celebrations. You out of all people rarely go to the tavern, you don’t drink much but it’s nice to see your friends Diluc and Diona. But today was a special day, today your favorite bard had invited you at 9pm sharp to Angel’s share for drinks on him. He had also invited a few of his other friends as well to come hang out with them.. but tonight.. tonight was special, and he kept it a secret from you.
You prepared yourself at 8:30 and left the house at 8:45, you left a bit early assuming they’re would be a crowd at the taverns or a long like to go in possibly. But as you got closer to the tavern there was not a soul outside, voices could be heard from inside yelling and cheering, drinks dropping even. You couldn’t help but to smile at how much fun they sounded like they were having. Your hand went ontop of the door and as you opened it, a strong whiff of beer mixed with old winery kegs hit you like a pan. You didn’t hate it, but you didn’t like it either, you glanced around the room, seeing groups gathered at every table. In front of you, a tall man with a high red ponytail greeted you. “Good evening..~!” It was Diluc, he was behind the bar tonight helping out with the massive flow of people. “May I ask what you will be having?” He sounded so elegant and strong, it almost made you blush. With a quick look at the menu, you ordered your drink before Diluc told you that a certain bard was waiting for you upstairs. “Oh! Venti! Thank you.. I’ll go!” You said to him before running off upstairs. As soon as you made your way up, venti spotted you and stood up to greet you, he did a small playful bow. “Ah, good evening my dearest~” he said with such a confident smile, it made you blush. You bowed back to him, lifting the ends of your skirt a little and bending your legs. “Good evening~!” You replied in a bow. He was happy you played along, his eyes sparking up with joy as he ran over to hug you. “I have something special planned tonight~.. you better stay till later!” Hearing those words you knew it had to be him getting drunk, he had always said this on ‘special’ days. “I’m not dragging you home again tonight, venti.” You whined to him, a small giggle escaping your lips. The bard laughed and shook his head. “Oh no no no! Of course not! It’s something different~!” He cheered. Your mind started to wonder about how ‘different’ tonight was going to be. Venti offered you a seat beside him and you both sat down at an empty table. You ended up chatting the night away with him, everything about poems and music, some even if mondstadt’s past.
Eventually hours passed and it was now almost midnight, you had gotten bored by now and started taking a few drinks of your own. Venti on the other hand had 6 times the amount you had, but he looked perfectly fine. His eyes dazzled by you, he was happy you were here to accompany him on such a wonderful end to the festival. “By the way.. Windblume~” he said, looking up from his drink right at you. ‘Windblume’ was the nickname he had gave you when you both met, you are the beloved of the Anemo archon anyways. Right? Your eyes turned to his, watching his green ones sparkle into yours. “Yes? What is it?” You said, your hands rested on your chin, holding your head up on the table. “My surprise is about to start~!” The bard chuckled and with that he got up suddenly from his seat, taking your hand and running downstairs. You suddenly looked panicked as you were dragged with him, you weren’t sure what this god was going to do with you like this. He dragged you all the way down onto a open seat before he climbed up on the stool, standing on it. “Ahem….. Ahem!!” He called out, grabbing the guest’s attention, even Diluc who looked quite confused. What was this god up to?
The tavern went silent as all eyes were now on Venti. You were about just as confused as everyone else was, but now that venti got everyone’s attention, he jumped off the stool, making you panic once more that he was going to hurt himself. You swear this guy gives you the worst heart attacks sometimes, you sighed and tuned back in to what he had to say. “As your friendly bard, may I offer you all a last song to toast the night with~.. let’s celebrate Windblume together..~!” He cheered, raising his glass in his hand. The tavern lit up once again, cheers amongst the crowd as they all drunk together. You couldn’t help but to smile at the atmosphere, toasting with them and taking a drink of your own. Venti gave you a wink before turning to a small band that was in the corner of the tavern, he had requested a song earlier in the day and told them that it was time. As the bard put his glass down the music started and the cheers from the tavern grows.
*Cue music*
While the band begins to play the first little instrumental part, venti runs over to you and grabs both of your hands, pulling you into an empty space on the floor as he started to sing to the song on his cue. The two of you held hands and did a couple spins at the beginning, soon hearing the crowd shout with him, “Oh lei, oh lai, oh, Lord!!” He gives you the most happiest grin ever, his arm holding yours happily as you both danced to the music. “There will come a poet, who’s weapon is his word~” venti sings as he points to himself, laughing in between his words. Once again the crowd sings with him, “Oh lei, oh lai, oh, Lord!!” You ended up joining in too this time, a few customers from the tavern get up from their seats to join you both on, what is now, the dance floor. Venti’s face looked ecstatic as he saw the crowd chiming in, especially you. His eyes focused on you the entire time, watching you dance beside him made him feel so joyful, this was the happiest he’s ever been right now and he let out a laugh of pure bliss. “There will come a ruler, whose brow is laid in thorn~” He continued again, this time twirling you around himself, tapping his feet to the music as you danced for him. “Smeared with oil like David's boy~ Oh lei, oh lai, oh Lord!” The entire tavern was lit up with song and dance now, everyone gathered in celebrating together, even Diluc was clapping along to the music behind the counter with a smile on his face. “He will tear your city down..” Venti continued, he stopped his movements once the instrumental part came on, making you stop as well, looking at him in curiosity on why he did. He watched you, a big grin on his face, he was getting really excited and let out yet another laugh of joy. He took your hands once more, “Come on, Windblume, let’s go!!” He shouted, grabbing your hands as he suddenly jumped up on the bar, taking you with him, both you and him were the tallest in the room, standing on the counter Diluc used to make the drinks on, he didn’t seem to mind at the moment though. “Here’s to good wine!!” He laughed, holding his drink up once more in a cheer, the crowd did the same, copying the bards movements. The energy in the room felt so intense.. but it wasn’t bad, it was more of a joyous experience for everyone gathered, watching everyone below you enjoy themselves you couldn’t help but to tear up at the sight. Venti noticed and held your hand, suddenly putting it up in the air. “Yahoo!!!” His voice sounded so happy, this is what he’s been waiting for all this time, to have a celebration like this one.. and what better way to share it with the one he loves beside him, you. As the last chants of the song comes, everyone including yourself, Venti, Diluc, and the crowd is now shouting “Oh Lei, Oh Lai, Oh Lei, Oh Lai!!” Cheers broke out again as the song ends, leaving venti a laughing mess at how happy he was, he looked to be tearing up as well. There were smiles and laughs shared amongst everyone, both you and vent ended up in a big hug, he kissed you right there ontop of the bar, the drink still in your and his hands, he couldn’t have been happier in this moment.
Hours pass once again since that performance Venti gave, the crowd eventually calmed down after just a few hours, people went home from being too drunk or worn out but you and venti remained on the stools downstairs by the bar. Venti’s head was buried in his arms, he was exhausted but also very drunk now, he sat up and looked at you with a huge blush on his face. “Wwiinnnddbbluuummeee… can you stay with meeee?” He begged, you laughed from how childish he looked. Your hand patted his head softly, “of course.. would you like to go home now? You look like you’re about to pass out.” You giggled. Venti nodded in exchange, every touch you gave him looked to sober him up, though his eyes started dropping as you said that.. and soon his head. You noticed this and quickly caught him before he had fallen asleep. The bard was now out like a light, a happy look on his face while he rested on your body. Your turned around ever so slowly to carry him on your back, saying your goodbyes to Diluc as you walked out. Smelling the fresh air again, you sighed, it was a long day and the sun was about to shine soon. You knew nobody was going to be getting up anytime soon, especially venti who had partied the night away.
All thanks to you and your arrival, the bard had the best night ever and he now rested in your arms, sound asleep for the rest of the night.
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crysdrawsthings · 11 months
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Comes from THIS MEME! Accepting more :D
Well, let's see what do we have here.
It would be interesting to explore the story of Cassia and Asgeld, like, seriously. Because I think they got an interesting dynamic and interesting narratives. That I would for love of me not be able to properly work with, but you know.
Longer answer, so goes under cut!
Here is some content about who they are:
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Starting from them growing up together as half-siblings, helping each other, having some hopes about what to do with their lives after things would eventually get better. Like, all the stuff they did together and made/got for each other and all this.
Cassia making Asgeld his little wooden pendant, Asgeld working with their father to forge her a fancy dagger, she teaching him reading/writing and him getting her all the fancy flowers for her alchemy experiments.
All, naturally, with the background of the majority of Orm's family disliking Linna somewhat and Cassia a lot due to the whole nord vs imperials tensions and what not. Like the whole Concordat thing, you know. I hope I am making sense. Like, also to say, Orm himself? Genuinely a cool dude and as soon as there happens to be a chance moved with Linna away to live in peace. Most of his family? Bastards with issues.
And then you know, it all ends with Asgeld happily leaving home to join Stormcloaks because of course this is the right thing to do! This is the nord thing to do, isn't he a hord? He is the nordest nord to ever nord! So he will join Ulfric and save Skyrim and you know, all the stuff, will help people and do a good thing, right?
And Cassia? The most wet and pathetic meow meow, fully accepting that she is kinda useless and apathetic about nearly everything. Leaves with Asgeld, but ends up on a wild trip across the province after almost poisoning Rolff in Wildhelm and then just vagabonding from town to town, getting kicked from one job after another.
Eventually ending up in Markarth and without a second of hesitation ratting people to Ondolemar (planting evidence perhaps too) for some quick money. Eventually ends up as a minimum wage token human janitor at the Embassy. Cassia "Well, I might as well make bootlicking for witch elves my permanent job" Illvia, you know.
Asgeld meanwhile generally enjoying his life in Windhelm and rising through the ranks and you know, having a good-enough time, even if getting slowly disillusioned in the whole Rebellion thing and some of the questionable leadership choices being made. But still full of hopes! He can make it work, right? He just needs to get higher up so his word will have more weight and then!
All this leads to how Cassia, already assigned to Valmir, eventually runs into Asgeld stationed in the Rift as well and how it is starts of this upbeat note of sibling reunion, and Asgeld being so happy to see his sister again, and tell her about all the stuff, and show her the camp, and treat her to some ale, and whatnot. This is his beloved sister, after all, and she is the best, right?
And Cassia on her end for a moment struggling with the situation, because, maybe, she can actually go with Asgeld, maybe she can actually stop doing, well, objectively awful stuff for people who mostly treat her like shit or like furniture, and in the end just, nah, I will steal your missives, I will drop some poison in your food and I will set everything on fire, because I am dead if I will leave, but if I will do what i do best and make the worst choice possible, maybe I will get some paid time off or a raise.
And so Asgeld gets his trust betrayed, some of his friends killed and his life kind of shattered, because of course he gets a lot of shit for what has happened, especially after him vouching so much for Cassia and all. His burning the pendant later and kind of, if he sees her again, this is on sight, but also genuinely grieving, because of everything good that was between them.
The end of his story being that after a particularly explosive conflict related to this situation he kind of just leave Stromcloaks and goes to find himself somewhere else, does some jobs here and there and eventually joins the group of Kyne worshippers, initially to guard them on the road, but then like, as an initiate into their religion.
Cassia? I honestly have no idea. Thalmor eventually leaves Skyrim when Elanor as Thurrahdaal comes into power, I doubt they would want to leave loose ends or drag some mildly useful janitor to a different province. So perhaps she gets the knife offscreen. On the other hand, she is still a host to a rather useful daedric spirit, so maybe she and Valmir go on to be awful people in Cyrodiil.
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THE HEIRESS: BRUCE WAYNE X F!READER X SELINA KYLE
summary: being adopted into one of the most wealthy families in Gotham would have been a dream come true if it were any other family but yours. when your beloved grandfather dies and names you the heir to everything,  all hell breaks loose and the only people who don’t want you dead are your exes Bruce Wayne and Selina Kyle.  
trigger warnings:  violence,  blood,   injuries, mentions of abuse,  illness,  soft dom!selina switch! bruce,  praise k!nk, someone said bruce wayne cries after sex and i support this. DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU ARE NOT 18+
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CHAPTER THREE SNEAK PEEK
Pretty words and dancing with a ghost.
You watched Bruce’s car go off into the distance, the reality of going back into the house you were planning on running away from only a few hours ago finally starting to sink in. 
“ You know, I've always liked that boy.” Greta said as you walked into the kitchen, clothes still damp from the rain. 
“ He just gave me a ride home Greta, I don’t think Mom was going to let me carpool after what just happened.  Oh god, you don’t know, do you?” Greta nods, sliding a mug of hot tea into your hand.
“ I’ve known for quite some time dear, just as I also know that if I go look in my purse right now, I’ll find triple my salary.”  Greta laughs at the bewilderment on your face, patting your hand.
“Did you honestly believe your grandfather was going to leave you with nothing?  I remember the day your mother brought you home, how scared you were of everything and everyone. Your grandfather was far from a perfect man but when you came into this house, you brought him the one thing he had been missing.”
“ Good publicity?”
“Hope.  Your parents adopted you as a publicity stunt, you know that, I know that, and your grandfather knew it too but you managed to reach him in a way his children did not and they hate you for it.  The things they did and continue to do to you under this roof I shudder to think about.  Your grandfather and I should have done a far better job protecting you-
“ Greta, it wasn’t your fault-
“No, let me finish. Every adult in your life has failed you in one way or another, including me but you have not and will not fail yourself.” Greta said, wiping away your tears and her own.
“ But what do I do now? What if I just took the money and ran? They’ll be back soon and I’m not sure I can face them yet.” 
“I can handle them. I know you want to leave and if you did, no one would blame you.  But there’s a benefit tonight, usually your uncle goes in your grandfather’s stead but if you’re feeling up to it and want to get out of the house a little longer, I can have a car ready in five.”
The tea cold in your hands, you weigh your options which seem to be running away for good, hiding upstairs until your family comes home, or going to a party where you won’t know anyone.
“ I don’t have anything to wear.”
Before you know it, you’ve outside of a gala, not exactly where you thought you’d be tonight but you’re there nonetheless.  You’re barely out of the car before journalists spot you and it takes everything in you to not do your usual routine of pretending you’re invisible.
“You’re the richest woman in Gotham now, how does it feel?”
“Who are you wearing?”
“Will you be spending your money on yourself or charity?”
“Where’s your date?”
“Gotham is well aware of my grandfather’s history of philanthropy and I hope to continue good work in his name. I understand what it is like to be without money, food, or shelter, and no one should have to feel that way. I acknowledge the place of privilege I am at now but I am committed to putting my money towards the people who need it and not those who seek to make a profit. I’m excited to get to work.” 
Where the fuck did that come from?
 The pretty words and a shy smile flow out of you way too easily as you move away from the press line, making your way into the party. The hard part was done, now you could just eat some shrimp puffs, drink champagne in a corner before going home to face your no doubt vengeful parents.  All you had to do now was-
“ Would the richest woman in Gotham care to dance?”
That voice.
That silky, life altering voice that brought you to your knees at one time in your life and even now had you wobbling in your heels as you turned around to face what had to be a ghost.
“Selina?”
 Hope you enjoyed this sneak peek! I’ve got some irl stuff that’s just popped up but I hope to have this finished up soon! See you soon and thank you for reading!
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Manifested Wrong
Written privately some time in December 2022:
What really happened, as of summer 2023:
You’re here. You’re finally here on my side of the country, in my city where you always said you’d be. I’m here with you, not living together yet but I made it, and you did too. We’re dating, we’re together. We speak daily, see each other a few days a week unless we’re busy - which happens to be often but at least we get a few days.
This is cute. You moved in immediately, and not only do we spend time together every single day, we sleep together a few nights a week. We speak all the damn time! <3
Sometimes you come over just to watch me with housework while I sip wine and have music playing in the background. These nights we spend together end in us tangled up together. Sharing details about our day as you help me put away dishes and place a kiss on my neck.
Oh, my beloved. Things turned out so much better than I imagined. I come home from work and everything I have piled on my to-do list is done already, thanks to you. When we spend the evenings together there's nothing to be done EXCEPT become wrapped up in each other. When we're home, we get so absorbed in our love that we don't even have time to get through videos and craft projects like we said we would. We're just too into each other that anything else seems almost like a distraction from our endless conversations.
On the weekends we hang out with our friends, with my sister and her family, my fiancé, or just with each other. We go places, do activities, find new places to try, all the fun things we said we’d do together. We have dinner at the fancy restaurants I like, and we find new cafes constantly. I take you to Rise or Asa's and you brag that nothing is better than NY bagels. It makes both of us laugh.
We definitely spend more time with each other than with anyone else. I'm happy to report that everything else is true, except I haven't taken you to a bagel shop here, yet. Soon!
I show you all my favorite spots in the suburbs that I call my home, a place that always felt solid and familiar. Sometimes we go out to Milwaukee to visit my family, spend time with my aunts, uncles, and cousins. I’m not afraid of introducing you, especially to my mother's side. Seeing us in the dynamic doesn’t worry me as I thought it once would.
I've shown you many places that hold meaning to me. I feel lucky I've gotten to see similar places to you. The family that has met you has loved you.
Sometimes we go out East to visit your family, your friends. Sometimes it’s for cons, sometimes it's just back to the Island for little weekends, occasionally it's for the City. We watch sunsets, we walk by the beach, I make an excuse to touch seawater every single time I get near it, you tell me about historically significant buildings and landmarks we pass, we share street food, I point out wildlife. You take my hand as we walk through the villages telling me this is the best love you’ve ever had. 
We've been back twice so far. This prediction was surprisingly accurate! Look at it! Everything came true. Well, take me back to the city for another day of adventures.
We share our traditions, or culture, stories from our upbringing and what its like to be raised by parents raised by immigrants. Things I thought most people wouldn’t understand but you do. The good, the bad, the ugly, the dirty, and the beautiful parts.
In the nights we stay up talking, joking, having sex, watching Netflix, laying next to each other in blissful comfort. We trust each other. I never thought it was possible to trust someone this much, I thought it was a myth, that it was something I only read or see on TV but you make it real. The closeness, the vulnerability. I overcame aversions because I want to be with you more than I’m afraid of being vulnerable. We learned from each other. The lessons we knew we needed to learn. You helped me to rely on others, to be open with others, to ask for help and let people help me. With my fierce love and adoration, I hope I'm helping you learn how to see the greatness within yourself. We’ve grown with each other, becoming better, stronger for each other all with the intention to continue to grow with and for each other.
Wow, okay. All true. Plus a plethora of pets. We've been through so much else the last few months, but when you look at it from December's perspective, I had no idea the depth of our bond could take us this far, and almost too easily.
I open up to you in ways I haven’t opened up to people before. And the best part, you don’t look at me like I’m crazy, or that I’m from another planet. Even if you thought as such you never make me feel alien for it. I don’t need validation, and you know that, but you let me find comfort in you without the fear of feeling like I made a mistake.
I let you be the weak one when you need to be. You want to be strong for me because I AM strong for you and for myself, but you know when to put away the façade and take a break. We lay down on the couch, your head on my chest as I play with your hair. Your long, silver, cloud-soft hair that I love so much. You talk as if no one is listening, opening up about things you keep buried deep. I respect your boundaries and you respect mine but we ask each other questions and tell each other our concerns without having any worry.
And when we look at each other and into each others eyes, we know it, better than we’ve ever known. We’re in love, and we always will be.
This is what I imagined for us. Prayed for. Beseeched the old Gods to grant for us. And it's true, except...
It's so, so much better than I dreamed.
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story-island · 2 years
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Facing The World (Hotch X Reader)
Authors Note: Hello everyone! This is from a different fandom than what I normally write, so I hope people can enjoy. From what I know A lot of Supernatural fans also watch or at least know what Criminal Minds is. But if you guys want me to stick to the Supernatural content, let me know. Otherwise enjoy : )
Summary: You have an off day and don't want to face the world, but Hotch comes home and helps
Warnings: None
Word Count: 594 (sorry its short, but I have college finals, but still wanted to write and this is the result)
Today was one of those days, you were technically fine, but facing the world was hard. So far, you have only left your bed once. You wanted to get up and do something but you were in your head, and everything seemed difficult. Right now what you wanted was a person to help you. That person just so happened to be Hotch. But he was busy with work, and not wanting to bother your beloved boyfriend you just sat there, thinking. You were so deep into your thoughts that you didn’t hear your phone go off.
It was your boyfriend, but you didn’t know that. You were caught up in finding the patterns on the ceiling. There was faint music playing in the background but your mind was gone. As your profiler boyfriend had pointed out, you had a tendency to dissociate when not having a good day. 
~Hotch’s perspective
It had been hours since texting Y/N, and she had yet to text back. Hotch knew what this meant, you were having a rough day and more than likely had no idea he had even texted. It was a slow day, and he had no need to fly out on a case, so he made the decision to take the rest of the day off. Letting everyone know he was leaving, Hotch walked out the door.
~Your perspective
Your mind was gone, the ceiling was still the focus of your eyes. But you had sunk into a happy space, brain filled with images of dragons and flying. You were so gone that the noise of the door didn’t make you stir.
“Sweetie? You there?” Hotch called.
Immediately you focused, realizing that your boyfriend was calling for you.
“I’m in here” You responded
Walking in, Hotch asked “Are you doing ok?”
“Meh, I’m here, but my mind is elsewhere. The world just seems scary right now”
“You want to have a lazy day? I want to help make you feel better.” Hotch said
“A lazy day sounds nice, can I have cuddles?” you ask
“Yes of course you can have cuddles, did you want to put on a movie too?” he asked
“Sure”
Eventually you moved from the bed, and picked out a movie. Hotch on the other hand was changing from his work suit, and getting some small snacks. He knew that you probably hadn’t eaten today, and figured it might help.
After a few minutes, Hotch was back with food and ready to let you curl up next to him. The movie started and you ate a few bites of food before laying your head on Hotch’s chest. He just let you lay there and took comfort in the fact that you had eaten and now seemed to be less spacy. The movie played and soon came to an end.
“Feeling any better?” Hotch asked
“For sure” you respond.
“Good enough to get out of bed and do something? You don’t want to completely lose the day” he said.
“What did you have in mind?” you ask, sitting up.
“Maybe a short walk? It is nice out today, the sun is shining and the sky is blue . . .or at least it was when I left work” Hotch said with a smile.
Giggling, you responded “sure, let's go for a walk around the block”
“Great! But maybe we should change out of comfy clothes so we don’t look like weirdos” he said with a small smile.
And with that the two of you got out of bed and faced the scary world together.
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Its in the Blood
This was suppose to be a fanfic, but as I am currently in no headspace to write it, any of you creative people out there can feel very welcome to make this idea your own!
Please me sure to tag me tho, I'd love to read where you take this concept!
Also TRIGGERWARNING for child murder, cannibalism, incest and murder
The Line of Atreus is really fecked up guys x.x
This is about the movie Remainder from 2015, starring our beloved Tom Sturridge in the main role as a nameless man, who looses his memory after a crash and desperately tries to reclaim it, using everything, anything and anyone at his disposal to do his bidding.
He starts off somewhat sympathetic, but in his ongoing mania, he rids himself of any moral or human notion, turning into a merciless killer in the end to get what he wants, and only realizing in a final moment of clarity, that he has been running in cirlces, and that he had just repeated everything up to the moment to which the crash occurred, making him loose him memory all again, indicating that this is an endless cycle, which the character has gone through before many times.
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When I first saw it, I admit, I was quite baffled and perplexed by it all and I couldn't really make sense of it. I appreciated the movie for the craft, the camera, the lighting, the acting, everything was great, but the story left me feeling hollow in a way, filled with dread.
Perhaps other people like movies like this, the kind that depict a downwards spiral, and usually I watch it once, and thats it, but this one lingered in my mind, as it did something similar, but just different enough: The downwards spiral NEVER ends. He will always loose his memory, try to reclaim it, turn into a horrible void doing it, just to be struck down and start from zero again. It has no beginning, no end, no meaning, besides the mental and physical suffering of this person and everyone around him. And that, for a lack of a better word, fucked me up. I do NOT like that, cause it just made me feel so helpless. Nothing is explain, nothing is clear, you just watch this human suffer, knowning the end of it will never come.
So it kind of got me thinking if there could be a reason for this, some kind of explanation. And I think there is perhaps an interesting viewpoint one could turn this into.
Maybe its not that interesting, idk, it is to me
Consider, the main character as a descent of House Atreus.
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For explaination, the bloodline of Atreus, as well as his brothers, were cursed, first by the actions of the grandfather Tantalus, who served his son Pelops to the olympian gods for food, to test their omniscience. This action got him sent to Tartarus, a part of the underworld, where he is damed to stay in water he can never drink, under a tree with rich fruit he can never reach.
His temper was passed down to his son, who, after being reassembled by the gods as good as they were able to (this will be relevant later), went on to live a normal life. However when the time came to marry, he was not the only suitor for the hand of a princess, so he convinced a servant by the name of Myrtilus to saboage his rivals chariot, which drove the man into death. However, instead of rewarding him, Pelops pushed the servant down a cliff, so his secret may die with him. In his dying fall, the servant uttered a curse on Pelops and his entire lineage, that the gods shall punish them all.
Pelops went on to have three sons: Chrysippus, Thyestes and Atreus. The ladder killed they half-brother Chrysippus in order to get the throne, but soon grew unsatisfied, resulting in another fight, which lead to Thyestes taking the throne, an act which was later resolved through devine help, as the gods helped Atreus claim the thone.
However, Atreus soon learned that his wife and brother had an affair, an affront that enraged him so much, that he invited his brother for a feast, only later to reveal the meal servend was made of his brothers own children. His brother was exiled for the crime of cannibalism and sought revenge, looking for the help of an oracle, which told him to have a child with his own daughter, which would later kill Atreus.
He did as the oracle told him, but the mother abandoned the child, ashamed of its origin, and it was discovered by shepherds and brought to Atreus palace, where the boy was raised, only later to kill his grandfather/father, after Thyestes revealed the plot to his own brother.
However, at this point, Atreus already had children of his own, the most important being Menelaus and Argamemnon. You know...the guys that went to war with Troy over Helen of Sparta, Menelauses wife. They went out to kill Thyestes to get back their kingdom and succeeded in their goal.
Coming back to the beginning of the Trojan however Argamemnon had angered Artemis goddess of the hunt by killing one of the sacred deer and boasting about being a better hunter then her, something she didn't take to too kindly, as he made the wind still and the ships unable to sail. A sacrifice had to be made: Iphigenia, his first born daughter.
But of course Iphigenia also had a mother, Clytemnestra, twin sister to Helen. Enraged by the sacrafice of her daughter, she started an affair with Aegisthus (the incest baby of Thyestes and his daughter) and started to plot her husbands murder, which she executed in the night her husband returned from the war. She let him into a bath, where she stabbed him to his death.
However, of course, Clytemnestra and Argamemnon had more then one child, however only one son Orestes, who had taken away by his sister Electra (or was exciled, depending on the version), and raised by/with her, swearing revenge on the murder of his father.
Him and his sister planned the murder, and Orestes executed it, being cursed by his mother in turn to be haunted by the Erinyes, the Three Furies. After wandering the land with guilt in his heart for many years, the gods decided, that enough penance had been done and freed the man from the curse.
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How as he have established, technically the curse should be cured, right? Well yes...and no. You see apart from the fact that most of the people mentioned before had siblings, male and female where barely their names are known, one significant person in this whole plot was not punished at all: Elektra.
Althought their is speculation, for the most part her whereabouts after the murder and during the brothers penance is unknown, and what happened to her finally is quite unclear. So let you propose this idea to you: The main character in Remainder as a descent of Electras bloodline.
This may seem like a strech, but considering how many children went barely or completely unnamed, especially if they were female (yey to that old greece, good job), there is a high chance, many descents were never cleared of the House of Atreus curse like Orestes was. Therefore, the curse is still active or simply lies dormant.
Perhaps one could entertain the idea, that it is spread throughout their children like Haemophilia, which is found primarily in men, due to the genetic defect laying in the X-Chromosome. It happens in women as well, but only rarely, when the other X has a malfunction in some capacity.
This is also the reason why I chose "In the Blood" as the title of this idea. Apart from it being an absolute banger song from the Hades videogame, I think it could be an interesting piece here as well considering its context of family and kin.
I linked it, give it a listen if you can, its amazing!
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So the characters spiral and violent tendencies could be attributed to that curse, okay, but how did he end up in this repeating nightmare you ask?
Simple: He's in hell. Well Tatarus. Actually both. Lemme explain.
As mythology got convoluted over time, so could the underworld be one giant realm which consists of many parts, including the Greek Underworld, as well the the concept known as hell in Christianity. And as seen in the show Lucifer, it is not uncommon to imagine hell to be a place where people relive their worst parts of life.
But the people in Lucifer are aware they are in hell, thats the whole point of it , you'd say, and yes, that is correct. However, what if this is not for his own mind to realize, apart from that small moment right before it all starts again, but for someone else to watch, to be amused by it. Someone that habours a resentment towards him, or maybe his entire line?
Far strech I know, but bare with me. A never-ending punishment made of agony, dispair and the very short realisation that it is indeed a punshiment, that sounds quite like Tantalus himself I think. Totured in Tartarus for all eternity for what he did.
Oh, also, to come back to the Pelops thing, ha, don't think I forgot! I mentioned before that the gods tried to put Pelops together as much as possible, because, while all the other gods immediately knew they were tricked, the goddess Demeter, still grieving the loss of the daughter Persephone, ate part of Pelops shoulder, which was deplaced by an ovory shoulder crafted by Hephaistos. So all of Pelops decendence have a white spot on the back of their shoulder. A nice little detail, you might wanna include if you like.
So yeah thats it, that was my rant about this idea, aka me trying to comprehend this movie, cause my little brain can't accept that there is suffering like this for no apparent reason.
I'd like to know y'alls views on it and feel free to use the idea in your own writing if I feel like it, see you around!
witch x.
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@electrivolt​ said: "What... what's a lantern rite?"
The question is immediate the moment they return home, little ball of fur just a little reluctantly slipping out of his cozy spot between layers of fabric and instead opting to allow the fox to take a seat right on top of the table, tails swishing and legs crossed as he watches his human put aside the recent purchases. ( and waiting for his fish, too. roark better not forget that. )
"And why are so many people talking about it? Is it important? They sounded happy about it. And rushing. Do we have to do something too?" Has Roark forgotten to mention something to him again? He better explain now, his fox needs to know everything. / the gays go to a lantern rite p1. | accepting.
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"Ah? Oh, right, I guess you would've never seen the rite from the outskirts beyond the mountain pass, huh," Roark pauses halfway between putting their basket of food for the week on a low counter, having let his small furball wiggle out from the depths of his jacket and onto the table. The market streets were bustling with crafts and materials, brightly colored lanterns strewn en masse and stalls being set up along the docks. Roark knew immediately by sheer habit, but this would have been Volkner's first, right? If Inazuma had anything similar, there was a good chance the kitsune was already ushered into hiding by then.
Well, then it's settled—he has to introduce him the right way. "It's a yearly celebration to bring in the new year. All the lantern material you see that's everywhere is so everyone can carve a wish into plaustrite, light a lantern with that wish, honor fallen heroes, and let go so it floats away." He continues while he organizes their plethora of meats and vegetables, sprinkling dash of salt on some of the cuts he's elected to be good for a curry and rice some time during the week. It's all fluid muscle memory. "When everyone releases them around the same time, the lanterns are like stars all grouped together—people come from all over to do this one thing together, guiding the honored home. It's really fun, and there's so much good food during the festival—" He whirls around, bounding over to the kitsune and taking his hands into his own, squeezing them and swinging them side to side, abandoning his beloved's tuna in his excitement. "And then—and then, there's the big mingxiao lantern that's built by everyone in Liyue and it's freaking huge and amazing and it's usually an adeptus but like! Watching it lift into the air after so much plaustrite! With the fireworks! Have you seen fireworks before, Volk?! They're so fun and colorful and loud and they explode into shapes now—it's so fun! Let's go and make our wishes together!"
Volkner can't say no to this adorable face, could he? ( not that roark was trying to convince him ) He only abruptly lets go to get back to the fresh slab of tuna that said kitsune had so politely ( read: kept pressing his cold snout into his chest ) reminded him to bring on the way home, separating food groups into their appropriate containers and placing them neatly into the icebox for later. Once Roark starts prepping the cutting board and his filet knife, Volkner will have his tuna in hand soon enough. That is, if he manages to get Roark to shut up.
"So you know those floaty rocks I've been coming home with recently? Those are the plaustrites! Civil Affairs usually asks for some level of procurement so they can guarantee enough people can engrave their wish, so needless to say, I like to do my part to help out with the lanterns. They allow the lantern to float away—I'll show you how it does it when I drop off this batch. Everyone that can do something usually does, whether it's gathering, or cooking, or even building the fireworks you'll see around. All if it is just for the celebration and charity in the end." With how happily he spoke about it, maybe it was an important tradition to him, one that he wanted to share with Volkner, now that he was here. “Everything is so delicious and vibrant along the docks, I have to show you everything there is to offer, if you’d have me! We can even make it a date and dress up nice, if that sounds fun to you, yeah?” 
It’s a miracle that he doesn’t manage to cut his fingers while he’s babbling excitedly, soon taking out a small dish to serve the freshest slices of tuna for the week for the fox in question, making sure there were no surprises of the parasitic variety, and upon finishing his examination, he comes back to Volkner to offer him his food. “So, you up for it?” 
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I can't stop thinking about anon that is afraid of being a disappointment to their family due to taking AD. And I hope if I write one more story it will help with a dialog about mental health. But Mari you can delete this ask if feel like it)
So I have had 2 major depressive episodes and most probably one very recently. The longest one was about 1.5 years or more (I dont remember some things from that period), I couldnt eat normally (ate only 1 small meal a day and all foods made me sick, had no appetite, lost 10 kg because of that), couldn't sleep well because I had nightmares every night that were so real and horrifying, kept waking up covered in sweat and didn't know where I was in reality or a nightmare, I could sleep 18 h or 3 hours, or wake up every 1.5 h, had severe anxiety (I still have this bitch but it's with me since childhood) and 2 more serious and very harmful things but I dont want to trigger anyone with them rn (I also cried every day multiple times a day). I went to a doctor and I found out that I had issues with thyroid that might have caused anxiety and depression, he prescribed me antidepressants and some other things that helped me with my sleep, they regulated my extreme mood swings and eventually helped with appetite. I also had therapist and talking stuff out means a lot, it made me free from all the thoughts I had in mind, especially the obsessive ones. My dad didn't know I took AD (I didn't feel the need for him to know), my doctor told my mom that AD were like "mood helper" (as far as I remember) because in my county it is extremely taboo topic.
If you are not comfortable with telling your parents that, it is totally okay, it is your choice but remember that you are definitely not a disappointment, taking care of yourself is very important and you deserve the best treatment. Sometimes we need that help. You are the bravest and the strongest person no matter what!
I know some people are afraid that they'll lose their spark but you will not lose it, you will get it back, you will feel better, it is such a beautiful and elevating feeling when you realize that your depression is over that you can enjoy everything in this world. A combination of therapy and medication should be the most effective. But also remember to be kind to yourself and just love yourself, listen to your needs, be the best friend to yourself. And please check your thyroid too, people often neglect this part but it is very important, it is responsible for hormones in our bodies. This is just my experience with AD and it is person's choice of course to decide if to take them or not. But taking them doesn't make you less of a human or less worthy or something.
I am sending a big hug to all the people who are going through hard times and I hope you all will feel better soon <3 P.S. I hope I expressed myself clear, my brain is tired today
Hello Tanya my beloved <3 And thank you for this. Thank you for being so open and honest. I truly truly hope this anon sees this message and I hope that if others were experiencing similar doubts, they read it too. Mental health is tricky, at such a young age we are taught to repress our feelings and all, but your story truly is inspiring.
I've always admired you and how resilient you are. I want you to know that.
I personally am getting my thyroid tested at the end of the month, and most people who enter a doctor's office with symptoms of depression will be checked for that. It is not to be overlooked for sure, but if you struggle with depression, it can be caused by a multitude of things too, and it's just a really good start to talk to a healthcare professional about it.
Again thank you so much Tanya for your courage and your honesty. I hope this makes more and more people feel seen. You're not alone at all, and you're not crazy, and you deserve treatment.
Hugs for everyone who wants them, and an extra one for you my Tanya ❤
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