#every single time and I have no idea why

[girlgerard]

mommm white people on tumblr are misconstruing my posts again despite the post being entirely about how important wording is + how i don’t feel comfortable posting large statements when i haven’t fully processed them yet.

#if you want to put me on a blocklist for loving netanyahu you can! i don’t! and no matter how many times i get told i do #i still don’t! #i literally said i hope his balls get cut off IN THAT POST #i don’t know how that read as unclear. #perhaps there are no hidden genocidal messages behind the wording of my tumblr posts - who knows! #when i said i cared about every single civilian living in that land i meant it. if you decide that i actually don’t that’s not my problem #if you somehow took my words and decided that what i really meant is that i’m a government bootlicker who loves murder #you can do that all you want. it won’t make it true and it won’t help save any lives #i was in ramallah and jerusalem six months ago. have you gone? #if the answer is no maybe think about that for a second #moreover if you’re viewing this from a purely racial or religious framework you have no idea how to navigate this subject #i don’t view israel and palestine through which government i want to back. why the fuck would i do that #palestinians and jews and everyone else in that land is who i care about. i care about gazans #if that’s not enough of ‘a side’ for you i don’t really think there’s much of a conversation to be had. #do you think i wake up every day NOT thinking about gaza? do you think i wouldn’t feel nauseous every second of every day because of gaza? #do you think that within everything i’m saying that the most logical conclusion would be to post all of my thoughts on tumblr? #because if you think any of that we’re not going to have a productive conversation. i don’t take kindly to being told my own emotions

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Growing up in an extremely ultra religious, cult-like family was a mindfuck for multiple reasons but that doesn't stop unfortunately, even when you escape. For example, see: The overwhelming feeling of boiling hatred and shame for who you used to be.

The angry hatred for the past person I used to be, the version of myself that mindlessly parroted my family's beliefs and listened to their every command, constantly simmered under my skin and invaded my every thought. I was embarrassed of what I used to be- even as I made friends of different ethnicities and faiths, as I listened and explored new ideas and worlds that I never knew existed, as I started the first LGBTQ+ club at my school and volunteered with kids who deserved so much more- there was always a little voice in the back of my head.

"They would hate you if they knew what you were. They would hate the horrendous teachings that were seared into your mind, the things that you used to say and believe. You are nothing but a pretender."

And it is true that my beliefs were bigoted in all the worst ways. It is true that I believed truly heart-wrenching things without a second thought and judged others in such harsh and unfair ways. I told myself that there was no coming back from that, not really. There was nothing I could do to ever make up for it.

Then I remembered that the person who said those things wore velcro light up sneakers and collected finger puppets that the librarians handed out as awards for reading picture books. The person that held signs at pro-life rallies and anti-LGBTQ+ protests had a cherished sticker book and hunted minnows in the creek after school and adored their puffle on club penguin and was really into greek mythology and had skinned knees from climbing trees at recess and knew every Disney song by heart and was absolutely terrified of the dark.

That person was a child.

I was a child.

It took a really long time. Years and years of reflection and distance, but I've decided that I can't hate the past version of myself anymore. I feel pity and remorse, I feel anger- I feel so much fury and violent rage- at what my childhood was and I grieve what could- no, should- have been, but I no longer resent who I was.

I'm not ashamed.

I am so, so, so unbelievably proud of that little kid. For being brave enough to leave the comfort and safety of what I was told was right. For not being afraid to be wrong. For seeking out information and knowledge in a culture that praised ignorance. For questioning everything, relentlessly.

I am by no means a perfect person, I never have been and I never will, but I am proud of myself in every iteration that has ever existed because I know that I have never stopped trying to understand and learn and grow, and I never will.

If you have ever been in a similar situation and feel similar things, first of all: My condolences on your lost childhood. Second of all: Please be nice to that past version of yourself and recognize all the hard work they did to make you who you are today. That person was a survivor and an inspiration. They deserve nothing but love.

#started anti depressants recently. kinda had an epiphany. i can't hate who i was. if i met me now i wouldn't blame that tiny child #for their rancid beliefs or for being dragged to protests. because thats a CHILD. i HAVE met kids in that position and i feel nothing but #pity and anger on their behalf. so why am i holding that version of myself to a higher standard? #i could not have known what i know now at 6 or 8 or 10. the same way that i could not have written a college level essay at that age #but i did what i could. in my own 8 y/o way. i believed in love and humanity and happiness. i was just misguided in the 'hows' of it all #and i am so so so so so proud. of every single microscopic step that i took. every question i asked. every thought that i hid and protected #and pondered secretly at night until new ideas and doubts bloomed like a dandelion through the pavement #and I'm so proud that i chased that doubt. that i asked why why why why until their ears bled and their voices were raw #until their answers stopped adding up. until i sought knowledge elsewhere with a mind dehydrated and malnourished and begging for knowledge #in any form i could get. i just. if i could hug that kid? if i could right now reach out and give that terrified and lonely child a hug? #i would. a million times over. #anyway sorry for the intense personal rant I'm just going through it rn and I'm like.... actually feeling alright #its wild. did you guys know about this??? anti depressants make you NOT depressed??? shits insane fam #irl #personal

[doodleodds]

royalty & fairy tale au’s are meant to be mixed and u can’t change my mind

Late shuake week 2022 day 3 - Royalty AU

#shuakeweek2022 #akechi goro #kurusu akira #I JUST REALLY LOVE SLEEPING BEAUTY OK #or well. i love the idea of 'sleeping curses.' idk why! they've always fascinated me #i used to be obsessed with aurora and snow white for that reason #and so here i am! as always! projecting this interest of mine onto my favorite characters :) #also for reference because i just realized how weird it reads: goro's gonna be in the tallest tower when he's cursed #that's why akira's got a reason to climb it. so. yeah #also in case you were wondering why i said 'see you tomorrow with more art' and then proceeded not to post for.....four days: #1) work decided that i'm going to be doing more hours so i now have very little free time; #2) i decided to actually try my hand at coloring again like an IDIOT and now here we are. sigh. coloring is hard #i was trying to hard not to just overdose on comic dots again lol & it resulted in this nonsense. me and my one very textured stone wall #ANYWAY lmao even though i missed like. every single day of akeshu week so far i'm still gonna be doing the prompts #just at my own pace! so. hopefully expect more art. soon. ish. hopefully not with another uhhh 2 month gap like last year lol #also quick fun fact since you made it this far in my tags! that second page originally wasn't supposed to be there! #i drew sleeping goro just cause i could and i was just gonna stick him under a read more but then i got attached lmao #and now he's in the main post! :D yayyyyyy goro #ANYWAY that was super long. thanks for reading & i hope u have a lovely day!!!!

[reel-fear]

MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

#ramblez #little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao #this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it #hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD #hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you #batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions #it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting #But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent #dw Im not going anywhere <3 #also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently #old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD #also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns #he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs #and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get #and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they #dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves #to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent #mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did #so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!

[grumpy-nyks]

The Fernweh Saga by @lacunafiction - Davor edition

I-I think Ms. Verner doesn't like him...😳

Davor "Dove" Kovač 🐝 RO: Becca Warrick

Personality: cautious // aloof // pessimistic // flirtatious (only towards Becca ...and Reese??) Traits: head // independent // resistance // believer Past affinity: math Primary ability: extrasensory awareness Past susceptibility: forward. 'it’s better to push forward. don’t look back on the past when you have new places to be and things to achieve.' <<< his motto

🕊️ Fernweh: Davor lived a happy life there and didn't think about leaving in the future. Maybe for some trips, but he knew it would always be his place, his safe place... 'It was a mistake to come back here.' - that was his first thought when he tried to fall asleep on the first night in Fernweh. The nightmares came back as he thought they would. He wants to leave as soon as possible because he feels that it is not safe for Becca to be here.

🕊️ Gramps Dan: That was his gramps who taught Davor how to play the guitar. As a young child, Davor always admired him and believed he was the most intelligent person in the world. After the death of his parents and how his grandfather treated him, he was devastated and angry. He wanted answers soo badly but didn't get any. He lived loathing his grandfather ever since. The news of his passing stirred up a lot of negative emotions that Davor had previously managed to suppress. At the beginning of the story he couldn't care less about his grandfather, but because of his journal he started to believe him. Things that his granfather lived through made Davor even more angry at this messy town …but he's willing to forgive his gramps…

🐝 Becca Warrick: It was a ...funny story that brought both of them together and they look after each other ever since. He considers Becca as his precious (not in a negative-possessive way) treasure, he literally can't let anything bad happen to her. That was also she who came up with the nickname 'Dove'... (and she's literally the only person who calls him that, others wouldn't dare...). He had feelings for her for quite some time but didn't act on it... until now. Although he didn't express it, he felt very nervous about Becca being in the town where he grew up. He was curious (but also scared) about what she could think of this town. He felt like he was revealing more of himself to her…. and he forgot about any worries pretty fast, because the town started being weird as fu--.

🕊️ Reese Verner: Back then Davor was quite cheerful and enjoyed competing with Reese regularly. They teased each other a lot. Davor always thought that Reese had a crush on him, was it true tho? donut know, but he certainly had. ...why does he appear in his nightmares? Maybe the crush stage never disappeared...? Seeing him again was a nice experience, sure... but ignoring the circumstances, he is still unsure if it was worth it and is struggling with his thoughts… Would it be worth it to return to Fernweh just to see him... again? welp, good thing he doesn't have to think about it much, am I right?

🕊️ Sofia Dorran: The two of them maybe did not have a strong relationship, but he knew Sofia is the ideal person for engaging in intelligent conversations. He enjoyed spending time with her, solving the puzzles that gramps created for them both. Davor wasn't a fan of fantasy books, but she managed to change his mind about them. Davor knows that Sofia did take good care of his grandfather, but he still doesn't quite know if he's grateful for that or wished she spent her time more... valuably... He was tempted to ask Sofia to borrow that book she found in his grandfather's bedroom, but he thought better of it. It's better to leave Fernweh… Even so, his curiosity wasn't properly fed.

🕊️ James Corvin: Maybe not brothers by blood, but definitely brothers by choice. Davor treated him as if he was the brother he always wanted to have. Back then Davor always placed a high value on his family… until now. At the time, Davor tended to be more impulsive and James was usually the one who kept him from getting into trouble (which often involved Reese). It was really hard, for both of them, to see each other after so long. Their first interaction was pretty awkward... I would even say that most of their interactions were . James noticed how Davor changed the question is: for the better or worse? I don't even know. Everyone can sense, that things around them are different now, and they aren't as close as before. Will it change?

🕊️ Alek Corvin: …To say that Alek wasn't a fan of Davor would be an understatement. Was it because James spent most of his time focusing only on Davor trying to get him out of trouble? Did Alek observe any possessiveness from Davor towards James? Or maybe simply because of the bond between those two, which was truly something that others would envy and desire? Davor never considered it, especially when he left Fernweh permanently. :)) As you can imagine, Alek doesn't seem very happy about Davor's return… But he took an interest in his new friend, Becca, which did not go unnoticed by Davor and he isn't really happy about it.

🕊️ The Waitress: Oh boy, it seems that Davor has taken up a new hobby, which is glaring harshly at the waitress. He finds her mistrustful and he smells trouble. Had they met when he was younger, there may have been a slim chance of them getting along.

🕊️ Waffles!: So um… Davor has a little issue with dogs and because of that his relationship with Waffles isn't as wonderful as I wish it would be... However, I believe that with time and help from Becca, they will eventually become friends.

#actually about his scar i have this whole headcanon... featuring some...umm.. doggos and Becca... 👀 especially how they met #(Davor was always team cats but after that incident even more xD) #also ouch that naming scene it hurt me so much! but i get it ;; aaaa! Davor why are you being so problematic Waffles is wonderful!!! #it was really interesting for me to messing with Davor in nightmares and showing him Reese!! the feelings the emotions aaaa #also yeeaah Davor thought several times if it would be a good idea to come back to Re-- *cough* Fernweh... and then Becca happened... #generally speaking Davor has a keen interest in Slavic mythologies and culture particularly those from western and southern regions of- #-Europe. I imagine that his father has roots in these regions and he took great pride in his heritage. Often taking about it to Davor #...and since Sofia's a smart girl she lent Davor a fantasy book written by Slavic author who took a great inspiration from Slavic myths👼😊 #yes it was enough to change Davor's mind about fantasy books XD he never really read one before he just assumed it's BORING! #and now I'm sure he will throw questions at Sofia about this book she found even more since he's staying at Fernweh... I can imagine how- #-they both are staying up late studying it and comparing their notes... it would remind Davor about the time they were kids- #-it seems that his Gramps gave them both the last puzzle to solve... will they succeed? #and ooohh that will be a hard time for James and Davor... that rejection at the end of book one wont help them im sure XD #about Davor's 'possesivenes' over James... Davor was needy that's true but he would never think about 'stealing' James from Alek or- #-'claiming' James belongs to him. I hope im not crossing a line here but in my headcanon Alek was TOTALLY jealous over their friendship #and Alek THOUGHT that Davor was receiving more attention from James 👀 #//which obv isn't true because James would never allow it. Alek is always a number one in James' heart// #in mine too I love A!!!! 💖 they're a BABY #but i must say that Davor didn't really think about Alek's feelings back then. he wasn't aware how Alek could feel- that's not an excuse #super curious about book two and how his relationships with every single one of them will develop!!! #fernweh saga #oc: davor kovac #no i totally did NOT change his surname..

[swagging-back-to]

you can also immediately tell if theyre a faker or an enabler bc they say anything along the lines of "I'd rather 100s of fakers use medical resoirces than even 1 actually diagnosed person not get help" or "fakeclaiming is actually way more harmful than spreading misinformation and taking up resources." this goes for any single disorder but esp Dissociative ones.

they convienently forget that those hundreds of fakers ARE MAKING IT SO HUNDREDS OF ACTUAL VICTIMS GO WITHOUT HELP.

theyre making it so that HUNDREDS OF VICTIMS REFUSE TO SEEK A DIAGNOSIS BECAUSE OF THE MOCKERY YOURE MAKING OF IT.

that they make it so that HUNDREDS OF VICTIMS face even more stigma over a disorder that EVEN MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS DO NOT BELIEVE EXISTS.

****you*** are the reason this stigma exists. ****you**** are the reason resources for dissociation is so horrible and hard to find. ****you**** are the reason medical professionals dont believe we exist.

because of your entilted woe is always me bullshit.

#did fakers #actually dissociative #faking disorders #did #osdd #osdd1a #rant #vent #im so fucking sick of it #every single post abput it on here is so disingenuine and ofc all the other fakers flock to defend its 'validity' #im so fucking tired. #i just want to be normal. #i just want to be able to give people a real reason for why i am the way i am but as soon as i say anything #along the lines of 'i have severe dissociative amnesia' they drop me faster than a dead fucking fly. #do you people u derstand how hard that is? #how actually fucking hard that is #how hard it is to not have any time in the day for myself because THERE IS NO TIME IN THE DAY FOR ME. #im comsciojs for a few minutes at a f #how hard it is to know something horrible happened but having no idea what it is #or who did it . #how hard it is to not have any single person to talk to about any of this besides myself? #i feel so fucking alone. #i dont want to die bc im so scared of what will happen to someone with so mamy fucked up parrs of their brain when they die #but i want to die. #i do not want to be around you people. #i do not want to be lumped in with you people. #i genuinely actually do hate you all #and you people will always be fucking vile to me #to the people who made fun of my diagnosis right after i told you and then tried to say you yourselves all had did; #iremember you every single fucking day and i wish so much harm on you. i hope your lives are as miserable now as they were when we were 14.

[littlehatmouse]

wips from valentines day art that i did not plan well and am not finishing tonight

#this is going to be shenjinlan but right now yun jin is BEATING MY ASS WHY IS SHE SO HARD TO DRAW #i think i need to completely chang ethe way i draw noses #dunmeshi has changed the way i draw noses from 3/4 view and i think i should change the way i draw front view too bc everything looks WEIRD #anywayyyyyy i have no idea when im going to finish this #but Hopefully soon!!!! #i can complete projects!!!! just you wait!!!!!!! #also i promise yelan isnt wearing lingerie it will hopefully look better when i color it #wip #i draw shenhe so different every time i draw her but its bc shes buff and i actually dont rlly know how muscles work #so im kind of bullshitting it every time #i should probably. get on learning anatomy and stuff #but idk how to go about that #and idk how to tell my art teacher Can i please learn how to draw muscular women #so i need to do that on my own #which is hard bc idk if ur supposed to study like anatomical muscle charts or muscular people #bc ik knowing every single muscle and bone and stuff is kind of unnecessary #but alsooo its good to know what muscles do what things #bc then i can make certain muscles stronger that would be used more #bc right now shes muscular kind of just. for looks lmfao #but i want to make it Make sense for what she does #like .. what muscles do you need to use a polearm and to lift things #i also Dont work out which would be useful for that information #anyway. shenhe would be buff af in canon if hyv wasnt a pussy #wdym she can lift rocks the size of houses IWHTOUT ANY TYPE OF ADEPTUS ENERGY #like shes just that strong.... #heart eyes emoji #shes wearing a skirt btw hejhfejfhjhr #you cant rlly tell because i Refuse to draw legs unless absolutely necessary #but i would like you to know that that Is a skirt #she could do anything to me

[dahldahlbills]

I really need to get serious about personal projects again

#I think I said something like this last year too lol #currently in a weird headspace about it #the biggest reason why I lost focus on them was bc I prioritized engaging in fandom #(something that I never really did when I was focused on publishing a few years back) #so part of me feels like in order to make considerable progress on projects again I need to cut myself off from fandom #and I kinda have been weening myself off a bit from animanga but not really for that reason #it was mostly bc I was getting overwhelmed by how much I was consuming and I wanted to appreciate things fully #I don’t think I’d cut myself off from fandom completely either I’d still try to keep up with stuff #but the idea of not engaging in fandom anymore kinda.. scares me? #idk I feel like a major loser admitting this lol #it just feels like I’d lose a lot of connections with people #and would lose a lot of the love I have for stories if I’m not actively interacting with them :( #and then there’s also that stupid feeling of being a ‘fake fan’ because I’m not dedicating every single second of free time to fandom #which is dumb bc like I have a life and need to make money yknow I got things to do #im just Stressed bc I’m at such a critical stage career wise and im getting closer to 26 so hhhhh healthcare coverage will be up in the air #so I really can’t afford to dawdle #there’s just so much I wanna do and while I’m not necessarily racing to get it done I still want to take advantage of the time I have #but it also sucks feeling like I’m giving up a part of myself to progress on another part of myself #I don’t think any of this makes sense sorry I just needed to dump my thoughts bc I am Terrified™️ #anyway personal projects! gotta get back to those ! #blahblahbills #delete later

[shummthechumm]

part of me wants to say that MV couldve really benefitted from being longer, but then i immediately remember that this is wc we are talking about and no matter what; they will find a way to deny just how dangerous a way of life following the code can be for those who don’t fit within it’s rules. 

all of warriors does this and it only confuses the narrative more. im not surprised that there is so much discourse surrounding the story and it’s characters, man. and on top of that the series is targeted towards kids in elementary school so. 

#god though i wish i could take back my older mv opinions though because holy hell that is embarassing #both times i read it i was like 11 and 14/15 respectively #or maybe 10 the first time i read it though i cant remember rlly #the same can be said for any arc though #theres this constant insistence on the characters to accept the code and view any cat breaking it as a moral pest #to the point where some scenes in wc imply that characters like tigerstar were only wrong cause they broke the code #or arent really that bad because they were a good warrior #staring at po3 bramble intently #this need the writers have to constantly badger the readers with the idea that code: good and anything outside of it deserves to be shunned #regardless of personal motivation or moral compass #and it hurts the story. it hurts it so bad man #this is why i love rewrites that take the clans/writers takes on the codes and use it to make their world and chars stronger #QUESTIONING THE STATUS QUO?? IN WC?? I EAT THAT UP EVERY SINGLE TIME #i feel like i derailed in the tags but STILL!! this part of worldbuilding does such a major disservice to this book and it really saddens me #wc

[fictionadventurer]

A Presidential History of the United States, Abridged

Party Leaders: This will be a very difficult election to win. We should choose a vice presidential candidate whose views are the opposite of the ones held by the presidential candidate. This will cause no problems.

Presidential Candidate: [Gets elected]

Party Leaders: Hooray! Look at how good our idea was! We are very smart!

President: [Dies partway through his term]

Vice President: Guess I'm president now. :)

Party Leaders: Oh no

#EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. #WE ARE FOUR FOR FOUR! #YOU WOULD THINK THEY WOULD LEARN! #my library ebook app happened to have the garfield biography features in the podcast ep #it's gripping so far #not least because garfield's up against a political enemy who is basically literally a supervillain #and the party picks arthur as vp to keep this guy happy #because arthur's in his pocket as his top henchman #and i'm just like WHY? #HAVE YOU NOT LEARNED?? #i await developments because arthur's podcast ep is titled 'redemption' #so things may turn out alright #it will not in the slightest change the fact that THIS WAS A HORRIBLE IDEA HOW ARE YOU PEOPLE RUNNING THE COUNTRY?? #history is awesome #presidential talk

[spaceorphan18]

Five Times Kurt Talks About Sex and One Time He Doesn't (Part Six -- FINAL)

A/N: So, this was inspired the other day by a Nonny who was asking about how Kurt interacts with others on the topic of sex and this little idea popped in my head.

It’s a little mini-series, and I’ll post one part a day, then I’ll get it up on Ao3 after it’s complete.

It’s set in a post-canon-ish world when they’re all living in New York. The whole thing takes place over the course of a day.

YES I'M POSTING TWICE IN ONE DAY - GO BACK AND CHECK OUT PART FIVE IF YOU MISSED IT!!

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Non-Conversation One: Blaine

Kurt sits on the edge of the bed swaying back and forth, attempting to keep his balance, as he holds a glass of water.  He’s supposed to be drinking the glass of water, but his stomach feels a little full, and not like it wants anything additional in it.  Still, he tries to sip anyway as he watches his husband -- his beautiful, sexy husband - come into the bedroom.  

“Santana went out like a light,” Blaine says.  He undoes his watch and puts it on the dresser.  “She’s on the couch and snoring.  I think she’ll be fine for the night.  Just how much did you guys drink?” 

Kurt hums happily.  “Ten shots.” 

“Jesus, Kurt, how are you still functioning?” 

“She had ten, I had nine, I won.” He snorts into his water, attempting another sip.  

“You both are ridiculous,” Blaine says, coming up to him. “Drink the water - I don’t want you vomiting on me in the middle of the night.”  

Kurt pulls at Blaine’s hand, catching him off guard, and draws him in for a kiss.  It’s sloppy and Kurt, admittedly, is probably using too much tongue, but he really doesn’t care.  He wants his husband.  

“You taste like raspberries…” Kurt coos as Blaine pulls away.  

“You taste like vodka,” Blaine laughs.  

“I want vanilla ice cream,” Kurt’s eyes are wide with desire.  

Blaine gives him an odd look, though, not getting it.  “How about we try the water first, and save the ice cream for when you’re sober.” 

“Noooo,” Kurt cries.  He reaches out to grope at Blaine’s dick through his pants.  “Ice cream,” he says quietly.  His own dick twitches with interest but with that much alcohol in his system, he doubts he’s going to get anywhere.  Stupid Santana.  Stupid shots.  He could have ended his night by fucking his husband.  And now he’ll have to settle for falling asleep.  

His bed does seem nice.  

Blaine laughs it off, and kisses his forehead.  “Maybe if you drink the water and make it through the night, you can have ice cream in the morning.” 

Kurt lets out a quiet, delighted ‘yay’ as he takes another sip.  

“We can take a trip up to the grocery store tomorrow,” Blaine says.  Kurt eyes him suspiciously - but there’s a twinkle in Blaine’s eyes that tells him Blaine’s being obtuse on purpose.  “You guys finished all my Cheetos.” 

“No Cheetos!” Kurt vehemently protests.  “No, no, no!”

Blaine’s eyes grow wide.  “Well we’re definitely going to come back around to that tomorrow.”  

“I’m not ever going to have Cheetos again!” His brain is indignant about it - but at the moment, he can’t figure out why.  

Blaine just smiles sweetly as he takes a step back to change.  He’s out of his shirt first, revealing a layer of glistening sweat on his skin.  Blaine always works so hard during his performances -- leaving his muscles firm and toned.  He then undoes his belt buckle and the pants go.  Followed by the underpants.  He’s not making a show of it, even if he is aware of Kurt’s eyes on him.  Not helping it, Kurt bites his bottom lip as he watches… Even flaccid, Blaine’s dick is the best dick of all the dicks.  He laughs at the thought, wishing his brain wasn’t so fuzzy so that he could play with that dick.

In the mirror, Kurt can see Blaine’s ass - so round and scrumptious.  See, Santana! He calls out in his head.  The mirror was a good call!  He could bite that ass if he wanted to.  Blaine would let him.  He has bitten it before.  

“No!” Blaine playfully scolds.  

“But…” 

“Kurt, no.  You need to sleep first.”  

Kurt scrunches his nose, letting out a protesting little grunt, as he attempts more water.  

Blaine puts on a clean pair of boxers, then heads back towards the bed.  “Okay, let’s get you ready for bed.  Sleep first.  Then I’ll wake you up with whatever you want.” 

Kurt grows excited.  “Even vanilla and caramel?” 

Blaine gives him a strange look, not quite following.  “Even vanilla and caramel,” he gives anyway.  

“Okay!”   

Blaine takes the glass and puts it on the nightstand.  Then gets him to stand, helping him out of his own pants, followed by the sweater (which takes longer than normal because it has a bunch of buckles on it).  Blaine’s hands are warm and soft and he doesn’t seem to mind when Kurt falls against him as they get him out of his clothes.  

The duvet is pulled back, and Blaine helps Kurt onto the bed.  “You are really, really pretty,” Kurt says, not able to help gazing into those honeyed eyes.  

“You are really; really drunk,” Blaine says amused in response.  

Kurt pulls him down into another kiss - this time a little smoother.  Blaine indulges, allowing for a little, light making out.  Kurt closes his eyes and relaxes into the bed, feeling warm and buzzed and loved and cared for.  He feels so good that he doesn’t quite mind when Blaine pulls away.  

“I’m going to finish up in the bathroom - are you going to be alright?” 

“MMmm-hmmm,” Kurt murmurs.  

Blaine pulls the covers over him, then kisses his nose and his cheek and his forehead.  “I’ll be back in a little bit, then we can snuggle, okay?”  

Kurt’s eyes remain firmly shut, but he grins as he thinks about Blaine getting into the bed next to him, moving in close so his arms will be firmly around him, and he’ll feel Blaine’s dick snug against his ass.  That’s just as good as sex anyway… 

“Love you,” Kurt says softly.  

Blaine gently kisses his lips.  “Love you, too.” 

Sleep is taking him quickly, but there’s one last lingering thing…

“Hey, Blaine?” 

“Yeah?” 

“I have a message for you?” 

“What’s that?” 

“Tomorrow - after ice cream and Cheetos you need to call Tina and let her know how to properly suck a penis.”

Kurt drifts off to sleep before Blaine is able to respond. 

#s.o. writes things #five times #kurt hummel #klaine #klaine fic #kurt hummel fic #yay i'm done! #i hope you guys liked this little adventure! #:) #i have no idea why kurt is drinking in every single one - but it became a thing

[seokwoosmole]

Pro tip for any fantasy still recovering from the reality of this whole sf8 situation: what you DONT want to do is turn on YouTube at 4am and watch their entire Kpop Nation Warsaw performance, followed up by the music show performances of the songs they sang, and finish up by watching the video where they get their first win.

Consequence: Bawling your eyes out over a bowl of Count Chocula

No, I don't speak from experience. Absolutely not...Just giving sound advice.

#imma be honest #watching/listening to scream was so easy #but any other song #OOF #Without fail every single time I was like #oh that's Rowoon's part :( #and this isn't a knock to the other members at all #taeyang & dawon covered most of his parts and they did it so well!! #sf9 is one of the few groups where each member is so special & talented & integral to the group #yet if members are missing the other members have no issue filling in the gap #like they make u FORGET there is a gap like if I've never heard of sf9 & saw them perform I wouldn't think they were incomplete at all #like idk why it makes me so emotional cuz I went thru scream era fine & saw the delight tour and was SO FINE #like during that concert was I thinking boo hoo this would be so much better with rowoon here? NO! #I SAW THE 6 MEMBERS IN FRONT OF ME & IT WAS THE MOST PERFECT EXPERIENCE & I HAD NO ONE ELSE IN MY MIND #but in the back of my head I was like NEXT TIME they'll be complete...but ig now I don't have that to cling to #was it a bad idea to put myself thru that? probably #but I WILL be streaming their fancon & binseong will be back & idc that they won't see me #but I will not be a sobbing mess crying over a member who's not there anymore when 2 members who've been gone for so long just came back #that sounds harsh but its the truth so I needed to warm up #anyway buy ur tickets to fandora!! #sf9 #youngbin #inseong #jaeyoon #dawon #rowoon #zuho #taeyang #hwiyoung #chani

[thisghosts-obsessions-again]

AYOOOOOOOO!!! I NEED A MOMENT*whizzing* jajsjakanakananam

#why is this man fine every single damn time???? #ahanajansbsjabsksbsksksbsjsks #personal rant #spoiler #screenshots #screenshots spoiler #screenshot #the many hc i have made for these two you have no idea 😭 #mechat glenn hobbs #me chat glenn hobbs #mechat #me chat

[dutybcrne]

Kaveh definitely wants at least one child of his own. Partially to continue his family line, partially bc he himself loves the idea of having a family of his own. He would however like to move out of Alhaitham’s place before he even dares consider getting a partner to begin with. And the longer he stays there, the more stress he feels thinking about it. He even has sketched out nursery ideas and plans on how to raise them all set to go, if only he'd get out of debt fast enough-

Furina also really wants to have a child of her own. She adores seeing the families around Fontaine, and has dreamed a great deal what parenthood would be like. Nothing brings her joy than when children about Fontaine invite her to join in on the little games they are playing, leaving her giddy and smiling bright as sunshine on her way home. Of course she knows that to be a parent, she really has to get her shit together. One can't just rear a child on macaroni and residual payments, after all.

#hc; kaveh #//Mans is stressing #//He’s like ‘I’m damn near pushing 30; I should have my life together by now aaAAAA’ #//Do like the idea of Haitham & Kaveh coparenting though #//Them raising a kid together; be it romantically/qp involved or just like #//Some Full House situation type beat lol #//Haitham does like helping kiddos learn after all. And it would make SO much a lot easier for Kav #//Kaveh would preferably want an even number of kids if he has a partner; so they don't ever feel lonely #//If it's just him & his kiddo; then yeah; he's a little more fine w only one. But he really wants them to have someone to fall back on jic #hc; furina #//She's had thoughts of having children of her own for damn near 500 years #//Which she knew would be Impossible; her role came first and foremost #//But now that she's free from that obligation; the thoughts came welling back up #//It's not entirely why she wants to stand on her own right and get better at so many things; but it is part of it #//She'd love the idea of having her own little family at last #//Though her Salon Solitaire buddies will have to do djbhgjfd #//She doesn't actually know how many she wants tho; maybe one if she's single; but whatever her partner is down for; she would be too #//She would be such a doting mom hjcbffg #//She genuinely wouldn't even mind not having a partner if it came down to it. She will most certainly be able to handle a kiddo on her own #//She thinks that; yet she also most certainly get overwhelmed Real quick at first #//Esp since she'd be such a sympathetic crier when it comes to her babu. & bc she already feels the urge to cry when frustrated #//But she would try her best #//Would absolutely consult with The Gals each and every time she needs anything #//Deffo would be the type to get matching outfits for her and her kid jffghh

[am0ngtheb0nes]

Hes the prettiest boy Pelican town - should be allowed to be the flower queen.

#my art #digital art #fanart #sdv farmer #stardew valley farmer #stardew oc #ridgeside village #its such a good mod #shiro is very lucky #got all the villagers acting unwise #everybody single was hopelessly down to clown by summer 2 #im just powerful like that #i have no idea why all my sdv farmer art comes out so slutty #must be something about svd #i mean there are the 4 farm sim genders #and i pick problematic gay every time #what is sdv but a complicated dating sim? #Farmer Kyo