#even if theyre hungry at 7 am and shes awake. at least schools starting so im waking up early

[whump-town]

My dear I have idea. So.

The team is on a case (+garcia because I say so) and it snows really bad so theyre all stuck at least another night and the only hotel around has only 1 family room available. So all 7 of them are sharing one family room and its all very family fluff. Maybe some gay with hotch/rossi, morgan/garcia, a little jemily.... its all I need in life

Not my usual stuff but I did a lot of school work today and I’m sitting here eating Frozen-themed graham cracker snacks and drinking water so I figured “eh, what the hell?” here we are:

The news had hit Hotch and JJ the hardest. Stuck here, in the snow, for another miserable night when they could be heading home to their kids. It’s not hard to imagine how they’d be upset and nothing is managing to stifle that disappointment. 

“I don’t want to stay another night,” JJ mumbles, going where she’s pulled. She caves into Emily, sighing, and trying to do her best to suppress the sob that wants to tear through her mouth. Henry’s sick and they’ve just worked seventy-two hours solving the case of little boys left naked in the woods. She’s seen awful things and she just needs to hold her baby. To remind herself of humanity… the good parts. 

Hotch remains passively silent where he stands looking out the sliding glass door. He doesn’t even turn around when the boy’s coming barging in. 

The sudden intrusion causes a shiver of the cold wind from outside gushing in. It’s well-worth the goodies they come baring. 

“I was starting to get worried,” Garcia says, uncurling her legs from underneath her. She stands and greets Morgan with a hug. 

Who, in turn, wraps his unzipped coat around her, pulling her between the fabric and his warm chest. “You worry too much,” he mumbles kissing the top of her head. “We just got a little caught up. Dave needed to make an extra stop.”

Dave raises his head when he hears the mention of his name but shrugs it off. The second stop was mandatory. He’s seen Hotch slowly wilting throughout this case and giving the temperature outside and the coffee they’ve consumed… He figured it would help to soothe some nerves to stop for some ABC store bourbon and tea. The bourbon is for the restless night they have ahead and the tea is to stave off the colds they’ll likely end up with. 

“JJ,” Dave calls, smiling sympathetically when he turns and Emily’s brushing tears away from JJ’s face. “I’m sorry we’re stuck here,” he starts, wrapping her up in his arms. “I really am.” He holds her for a good moment before pressing a kiss to her hair. “Do either of you have a heating pad?”

Emily nods first, placing why he’d want it before JJ. “Yeah, I can get it warmed up.” She takes JJ by the hand and directs her to one of the two beds they have to work with tonight. How seven adults are going to make that work is yet to be discovered but… they’ll figure it out. They always do.

“Pretty boy,” Morgan calls, motioning the younger man to him. “Chicken nuggets for the baby,” he jokes, handing Reid his chicken nuggets. 

Reid fails to hide the crimson creeping up his cheeks at the taunt but he’s starving so he lets it go.

“Aaron--”

Hotch cringes and pulls away from Dave’s hand brushing lightly across his knuckles. He pulls it to his chest like it stings, “I-I’m not hungry.” He raises his eyes to Dave’s and any fight he might have conjured up melts. “Please,” he whispers, eyes tracking the others in the room.

Dave steadies him with a hand cupped to his cheek, shushing him. “Forget them,” Dave says, with a shake of his head. “Tell me what’s wrong.”

Hotch clears his throat, swallowing thickly around the trepidation building solidly there. “I…” he ducks his head. “My ear is… I’m just not very hungry and--” Hotch frowns as Dave nods, handing him a mug. It smells like peppermint. Tea, he figures out a moment later. Dave’s made him tea.

Dave affectionately brushes a thumb across his cheek. “Drink the tea,” he says softly. “Warm up a little and when you’re ready Emily’s got the heating pad for that ear. Okay?”

Hotch nods. He nervously shifts a little, eyes darting back to the team who could be watching. “Will you…”

There’s a fearful glaze of vulnerability in his eyes that breaks Dave’s heart. It makes it impossible for him to say no. Dave reaches down and squeezes his hand, “of course.”

The beds ended up not being that big of a deal. It’s the TV that nearly causes Hell to crack open from the cheap, stained carpet and swallow them whole. 

Reid lays tangled along the bottom of Hotch and Rossi’s bed. He’s a bit of a blanket hog but he curls his long body into a ball and is out within minutes. He’s awake enough to side with Hotch and JJ when they vote for Alien over Cowboys and Aliens. 

Dave’s drinking bourbon from the bottle too distracted to really care. And why would he? He’s got Hotch laying curled into one of his sides. A heating pad pressed to his chest where Hotch is laying with it pressed to his ear and he’s watching as Hotch slowly succumbs to his tea and the relief from the pain in his ear. 

On the other side of the bed, Garcia’s talking Morgan through the heavy plot points of Alien (because Garcia had sided with Hotch and Reid). Her head is on his chest and Morgan’s rubbing a hand up and down her back. His eyes are closed and his head tilted back but he’s hanging on. Just hardly. 

Emily and JJ are out cold. Getting the blonde to finally settle down was no small act but she’s a sucker for having her hair played with. So after about five minutes of softly brushing her hands through JJ’s hair, she was out like a light. Now, her lidded eyes are fighting to stay open. She scowls over at Hotch. She still feels betrayed that he sided with Reid and not her. Dick. 

 They fall asleep to the horrified screams of astronauts-- not a single one makes it through the whole movie.

[shytiff]

Small August Wins

1 - DL, did my part for PKP, read a bit about leprosy reaction (PKP related), watched a cute movie tune in for love, ara stayed over at my home, edited 1 pld article

2 - exercised a bit, edited 3 pld articles, DL, finished ppt tinpus PKP, walked to the nearby lake with ara, ate nasgor smoked chicken (been a while!) and jco donuts and my tummy is happy, felt afraid with DV exam huft. I hope I can prepare myself properly

3 - DL, edited 1 article, went to school together w ara, deep fried by dr adhi for my minicex (but i am grateful for the opportunity), emir took a while to pick me up (he left home 1530 and arrived 1715) so i did some status work, arrived at home super hungry but moms food is delicious and wow glucose is finally in (after previously supported by nasi uduk and 1 jco donut) and the pain from today sort of fades away.

4 - DL, tried to study as much as i could (the panic is real), went to kencana to get dr adhis signature at 12 but he replied my chat at about 1330 🙃 , finished self reflection, group called with my group for exam prep

5 - did not DL bcs i fell asleep!! Thank god for streak freeze, met up with dr adhi in poli regarding minicex bcs turns out he brought my status etc, hes very kind 🥺 dr yudo kindly took his time to answer questions via wa voicenote even though he had a tiring day 🥺 bless all the kind people in this world

6 - DL, alhamdulillah passed the exam with dr sondang and dr larissa even though i was being a dumb ass student (thankfully theyre patient enough). Honestly panicked during the morning, i was super afraid. Searched some drug dosage for renata. I hope she passes the remed!!

7 - slept and lazed all day :( edited 1 article, dv closing. Managed to say thanks to dr yudo even though i was lowkey near tears bcs i cant for the life of me say something even mildy emotional, DL at like 15 mins before midnight

8 - finally at lvl 3 DL by cheating with my notes lmaoo, ate burgers and half pizza by dcheese pizza but had mencret2 the next day lmaooo, watched bosscha virtual sky sightseeing

9 - DL, watched Summer Vacation, edited 2 articles, put some sheet mask on (the numbers surely diminished since my cousin took some 🙂 ), pretty much watched youtube all day. At night i dreamed going to a villa that kinda looks like matamori, and the villa near it was also booked by other groups of friend, and i was recording snow falling from the sky and snow on the cliffs, but there was also a snake under the bed, and writing patients resume -_-(?)

10 - DL, read pem psikiatri cbt batch 1 optima, 25 CBT PADI, a fruitful 2,5 hr discussion with dr Heriani, SpKJ

11 - DL, poli with mendel hari and dr Khamelia, SpKJ, mustered some courage to do the ppt, phoned the patient to ask a little bit more, fell asleep and thank god i’ve prayed isya

12 - DL, lazied and played get rich, felt sick and was sick, nose congested, head starting to hurt, i dont know what is it that triggered my emotions but when my dad asked "tiff kok bersin2?" i felt like i have no privacy and they were too intruding and i wept silently in my room (bcs ppl outside can hear) and yall my nose just goes 100% blocked. aint accepting air today. Massaged my face around the sinus area until i can somehow breathe nicely and fall asleep. (took about half and hour of snot cleaning, drinking and mulling around)

13 - since i felt bad abt lazying i started my day early. Woke up at 5. Put on tretinoin, 15 CBT PADI, DL, naskah psikiatri WIP (Work in progress). It rained today. The sky was grey half of the day, which I LOVE. I felt better and more cheery, especially at abt 4-5 pm when it was raining hard and im snuggled in bed. The laptop stand arrived and bitch it was fucking amazing. My back and neck muscles felt less awkward and/or sore working at my ergonomically-awful table and chair combo turned ok thanks to laptop stand!!

14 - DL, poli with dr cika, crashed aras place (drank thai tea, ate flip burger and sausages), it felt refreshing to be in a different place rather than seeing my room all day everyday. Afterwards ara indah and i ate po noodle bar, the taste was kind of herbal (not brothy) in a good way. Tried some sort of gyoza, it was good too. Juan got accepted at USU civic engineering. Went to atikahs place, passed a red light and i got ppl a bit annoyed lmao sorry :(((, talked with atikah until 1-2ish pm

15 - richeese and fried rice for brunch time, went back home (felt socially refreshed!) to see 2 bottles of sbux coffee i ordered, claras nastar and vit d supplement from tokped. Did RPS and ikhtisar for naskah. DL. Sbux' coffee still upsets my stomach lmao but it did keep me awake and focused enough til 11 pm

16 - DL, after staying over at friends place i feel.suer content to be just at home. Ate while watching erna limdaughs vids, sleeeept

17 - DL, naskah WIP, whipped myself to go do naskah by drinking caramel macchiato and playing coffee - bts. It tasted better when i hear jks soothing voice

18 - DL, finally panicked a bit and did ppt, read a bit abt bipolar, chugged hazelnut dolce latte and somehow its not bitter anymore it actually tasted good. Talked w mendel and hari a bit abt the patient

19 - the dr actually showed up to zoom while i was opening other screen and i didnt realize (ultra embarrassing!!!) basically my diagnosis for axis I and II were wrong. She was kindly explaining and i was more dissapointed with myself but at least its all over? Talked w hansel a bit. Revised a bit of naskah. Submitted hardcopy of naskah and refleksi to mbak Asma. Went to ara. DL, ate gwen's dimsum (quite good and fulfilling). Planned to go to kashiwa but we ended up getting bakmi akiaw. Went back "home" to DM, took only 35 mins.

20 - DL, slept half of the day since im on my period (what even is daily structure), woke up in the evening, decided to start “the folk of the air” series. Binged the first book in one go, from 8 pm to 1 am lmaoo

21 - DL, finished the series at night. it’s nice but not as good as six of crows duology. bts comeback with dynamite!! :) i love them. its scary to think they are still progressing and going up and getting better stats. When will it all stop?

22 - discussion with dr natalia spKJ at 7.30 am, DL, drank matcha latte at starbucks airport hub (been a while! It doesnt taste quite good as i remembered) while backing up HD data at drive and some padi CBT (finished TO 3. After all this time, only to 3?!), felt a bit better after i went out, read a falling cohabitation again

23 - DL, danced to baepsae, slept in the afternoon (my body is too weak nowadays)

24 - DL, psychiatry closing, 1 pamela reif vid, 2P (CBT PADI)

25 - DL, made latar belakang for propeks nemo

26 - DL, 4P, rapat nemo

27 - DL, met up with atikah pupuy @ toska, tried yogurt and fruit, mac and cheese, vegan mentai rice and had dinner @ bakmi gm. mom somehow told (and allowed) me to go back home (it was 9 am and i was abt to stay over at atikah’s)

28 - DL, i dont feel like doing anything helppp, i know there’s stuff that im supposed to do but i cant bring myself to do it. a week will pass by, a month, and before you know it exam will arrive

29 - DL, ordered burgushi, i literally have no strength to go at static bike (can only do for a couple of mins), didnt rly do anything else bcs im in a slump nowadays

30 - its scary that the month is almost over again. my life just goes away like that but i still dont feel like doing anything, DL, tried to follow some dances on youtube to move my body

31 - DL, 2A, 4P