#especially since im going to have to take many math

[queenofcoquette]

how to be ‘that girl’ at school

hey loves! i want to talk about being that girl. what it means to be her and how you can be your best self while at school! im gonna give some academic tips, tips on putting out good energy, looking and feeling your best, etc!

how to prepare:

write down your goals for this school year and some things you want to do. since im going to a new school i’ve been thinking about how im going to introduce myself and things like that.

what are your academic goals?

what do you want to do differently this year?

what new thing can you try this year?

what can you improve on this year?

once you know the changes you want to make you need to think about how you’re going to implement these.

academic:

make to-do lists. always keep a calendar and a list of assignments to do, tests to study for, etc. stay up to date with what you need to do.

take notes while in class. always take notes, especially in math and science. in math i always write down formulas and things like that.

do practice outside of school (i use khan academy for math practice, quizlet and quizizz for memorizing for science)

get your work done right when it’s assigned. work on beating procrastination. keep to-do lists and when you have free-time just get your work out of the way.

energy:

take good care of yourself.

be observant. the people you surround yourself with not only subconsciously effect your behavior and your speech habits, but it can also effect whether or not you get into drama. to put it simply- observe how ppl act and if u get the sense that someone’s fake or dramatic, be cautious.

stay out of drama. this is a big one- don’t get involved. don’t tell gossipy ppl how you feel about things, don’t get in the middle of things you don’t need to. put your energy towards academics, sports, hobbies and real friends. i always listen to drama but never comment on it.

if you have a problem with someone- have a private conversation. a big thing is when you have a problem with someone try just talking to them about it, there’s always a chance that they’ll change. maybe they don’t know how they come across. always do that before gossiping.

appearance:

prioritize being healthy on the inside. always work on how you’re eating, drinking enough water, etc. work on your gut health, staying active and taking care of your body. when you do that you immediately look and feel better, because your body is working at it’s best!

just have good hygeine and be clean. so many ppl at school have poor hygeine and its just- disgusting. STAY CLEAN! brush and floss your teeth, wear deodorant, shower, take care of your skin and hair. 

have a good fragrance. this is just a fun one but having a good scent always attracts people. at school i used to get told i smelt really nice and ppl noticed that. (i also shave my arms and legs all the time and wear a ton of lotion so i got known for having “barbie arms”)

wear whatevers comfortable and what YOU like. wear what feels good and what you’re comfortable with. school’s not a fashion show so if you don’t want to dress up you don’t have to, but it’s nice to put a little bit of effort into your look, making sure you look clean and just orderly. im probably picky about this cuz i went to a military school but it’s good to just look a little proper.

overall:

just define what being that girl means to you. for me it’s being my best- being healthy, active, getting good grades and just being kind. find who you want to be and work towards that. remember, progress isn’t linear, and learn from your mistakes. im sure this school year we’ll all learn so many lessons and grow a ton as people! always be open minded to change and observe. you’re already that girl, you just need to take care of yourself and have good habits.

#that girl #that girl 2023 #self improvement #pink pilates princess #back to school #girlblogging #queenofcoquette

[nerves-nebula]

why did your parents homeschool you when they didn't seem to have an interest in teaching you?

Sorry but this ask has me in hysterics cause like,,, I DUNNO, ANON WHY DID THEY????

Ok but fr, from what I can tell it was a mixture of not trusting public education, wanting direct control over what we learned, being bad at teaching kids, and then just kind of getting too busy and giving up. Like our mom did teach us how to read, right? But she kinda got … i dunno, bored?? tired?? Near the end?? So my youngest sister really got screwed in that department and needed tutoring.

I have a lot of memories though where we’d go somewhere like my brothers baseball game and she’d pull out different work books for each of us while starting on a reading lesson with another one of us. So, like, she DID try. I have way too many painful memories of frustrating homework to say that she didn’t try to teach us anything hah. she just didnt teach us very thoroughly, especially about things she assumed we'd just pick up eventually (like time, dates, and months)

Also, my dad is a philosophy professor with multiple degrees who heavily values the education of his children. But I don’t think he’s good at teaching kids, and he didn’t even live with us most of the time. So while he supported the whole thing and would administer science tests (AKA have me read a science text book and then take a test on the chapters I read) he wasn't super involved, from what I can recall.

Wanna know the funniest part tho? Home schooled kids tend to test higher than publicly educated kids. And despite the gaps in our general knowledge and downright educational neglect at times, that’s still the case for me & my siblings.

My brother got insane math scores, I’m talking better than 90% of his peers. And I always scored particularly high in English. my worst subject was math but i never failed anything. i had a breakdown when i got a B in my first ever semester of high school, because to me that was basically failing since my mom said it isn't that hard to get A's :/

my oldest sister has a theory that we're all autistic because we all kinda act like it, haha. which might explain why we didnt realize, cause if all of our siblings are autistic then its just normal to us.

but ALSO: we all have at least one thing we're insanely good at. my oldest brother was fantastic at math (before he self sabotaged but idc about him so whatever). my oldest sister is a wonderful writer and has a fantastic rate of success when she sends out her writing to be published, my other older sister is incredibly smart with math & science and is trying to become a doctor (she also makes all her own clothing and is really good at crafting). i got accepted to every art college i applied to, with scholarships & everything. my younger brother is one of the top football recruits of his year in our entire state. and my littlest sisters skill set is harder to describe, but the gist of it is that she's really good at manipulating people and lying. not sure where she's going with that but she's probably gotten hundreds of dollars of free stuff from people and she enjoys acting. excited to see where she goes cause i genuinely think she could do anything she wants to haha.

ok but now im just ranting about how cool my siblings are. THE POINT IS THIS- as much as I was neglected educationally, I think my parents accidentally did something right: I think they accidentally unschooled us, because our education was NOT as strict as some of the other home schooled kids I met.

my theory is that the neglect/accidental un-schooling kind of led to gaps in knowledge around things i didn't NEED to know to live day to day life (I didn't NEED to know the months or days until I went to public school. before that, I'd just ask mom what day it was, or else just go along with whatever she said we were doing that day)

BUT on the flip side! It also led to me and my siblings basically developing highly practiced skill sets based on our personal interests. and also kept our desire to learn relatively in tact, compared to kids who had the curiosity to learn beaten out of them in middle school with mind numbing homework hahafsdfadf.

OK SO I've clearly gotten away from your original question, anon, apologies but this sparked something in me and i HAD to ramble about my theories.

#nnstuff #ask #child neglect tw #homeschool #long post #my mom is bad lmao

[old-archivist]

Hi, I really enjoy your Bull analysis you wrote recently!

I was wondering, though - how old do you think he is in Inquisition?

I've seen different takes on his age from different people. Some say he's over 40, some say he's younger. I'd like to hear your take and any kind of math you could have though about 😁

Hey! Thanks, I’m glad you enjoyed it. I really should yell about him (and companions in general) more. Especially since my thoughts have definitely changed since 2014. As for Bull’s age, I’m so glad you asked cause I have thoughts.

According to Patrick Weekes, Bull is in his mid-to-late 30s. Thats what they had in mind while writing him. Which would be his canonical age range.

I think that is a perfectly reasonable range and likely a good one considering the age range they have for the Inquisitor. Which is up to the player but as young as 18, Patrick does specify the assumption is for them to be in adulthood.

But personally, for Bull, I put him in his 40s. I think my preference at the moment is mid 40s but it fluctuates depending on who im writing him with/what world state I have.

As for the math, I’ll put it below the cut.

So to start off, we know members of the Qun get their roles at the age of 12 if they’re born into the Qun. So while we don’t have a named year we can work from here.

From there the next thing is his time in Seheron. It is suggested by Gatt that the Qunari won’t send people into the thick of it in Seheron unless they’re “old enough”. There are stens who are stationed at quiet ports in Seheron before they’re 18, but other than that guess, I’ve been working with is 18 minimum for when you get sent into war zones.

To use Sten as an example, he is described as being very young when stationed at the port in Seheron City in 9:03. He is there for three years before disappearing for several before reappearing as a navel leader in 9:12 (its in total six years given the math.) So, even if he was 12 when he arrived at Seheron (though I have doubts) we don’t hear record of him being in active combat till he is at least 21.

So with that logic, Iron Bull is at the youngest 18 when he’s stationed in combat on Seheron. However, I go with 21 since he is put directly in a position of leadership and is known for many accomplishments in Par Vollen. There is no mention of him being younger than any other soldier, and nothing of note about him when he’s recommend for the position. He then works in Seheron for eight or ten years (World of Thedas offers both numbers) before he breaks and we lose some time on how long re-education takes.

Next, we know he ended up with the mercenary company Fisher’s Bleeders, who he worked with for several years (BioWare really likes to be ambiguous with this, as is the term itself.) There is also Bull himself saying he worked for them for a year or two. Consistency is lacking, as is par of the course with BioWare. The range lore gives is one to seven years; I say range, because as recently found with Cassandra, in game dialogue — when related to timelines — can be iffy. So, really, dealer’s choice.

Then comes the Chargers. We know he got set up and established in a few months, and that Krem was recruited somewhere in the beginning. Other than that, we just get the general “several years” which by definition is “more than a few but less than many”. (I really hate English sometimes.) Given the definition of “few” is typically associated with three or less, you’ve got a ballpark of three to seven years.

So keeping with the hard numbers, starting with 12:

Add 6 years to reach “adulthood”

Dealers choice if you want to add the 3 years till given a command role

Add the 8-10 years in Seheron

Add the 1-7 years with Fisher’s Bleeders

Plus the 3-7 years with the Chargers

You’re looking at a range of 30-42 if you have him in Seheron at 18.

If you put him there at 21, the range is 33-45.

This is just at the start of Inquisition and none of this accounts for how long he was re-educated, how long it took him to travel and even find Fisher’s Bleeders, or any of those unspecified and unaccounted numbers.

Come Trespasser you’ve known him for three years so you have a range of 33-45 or 36-48.

Now if you want my personal, hundred percent headcanon and only in my sandbox math? The time line is like this:

Role at 12 -> Seheron at 21 -> Asked for reeducation 31 -> got out of re-education 32 -> Traveled and joined up with Fisher’s Bleeders 33 -> left Fisher’s Bleeders/Formed the Chargers 37 -> Became well known across Free Marches, Nevarra, and Orlais 43 -> Joins the Inquisition 44 -> Trespasser 50

Which my math might change if he pops up anywhere in future installments. But main reasons why I prefer him in his 40s:

I find it miserable that he’s already worn down so much and he still has at least 40-50 years left unless he dies in battle/in game. I probably don’t ache as much as him (I hope), but gosh the fact it will likely get worse is not the kind of ouch I want cause it makes me worry about how my health will poorly age in 40-50 years.

Because everyone acts like being in your 40s is old and its not.

I also read him as more comparable to Blackwall and Solas who are written to be in their 40s as well.

Sources for all the ages:

Dragon Age TTRPG Faces of Thedas

World of Thedas vol 2

Dragon Age Inquisition - Dialogue

#archi talks #archi has opinions #ask #the iron bull #anon ask #iron bull #BioWare has migrated from conflicting numbers to being as vague as possible and still contradicting themselves #which I rather have the conflicting numbers honestly cause then you can have a ballpark at least

[zaynmirrors]

Fire on Fire: Part 18 (10k)

Pairings: 10k and mom!reader.

A/N: Hey! I know it’s really been a hot minute, I’ve had like no time to post the next couple chapters with fancy vet school and working full time. Hopefully you all can forgive me especially since the next few chapters are rough. Again, I’m sooooo sorry. :( If i managed to find some extra time would you be interested in a different 10k story line?

                                              Chapter 18

We stayed a few days, making sure doc was good to travel. Emma kept her distance from him, unsure of the new temporary member. 

She cried when I left, I heard her from outside the house. Begging for me to come back, it took everything in me to not turn around to say fuck you im not going. Doc tried to comfort me but it only turned the tears into anger. 

The first time I smelled the forgotten smell of rotten flesh I threw up. “Damn kid, you alright?” Doc asked as he held my hair. 

“Funnily enough I forgot how bad they smell” I weakly chuckled. He looked at me concerned. “What?”

“Are you-“ he hesitated for a moment, “any chance you’re pregnant?”

“Absolutely not, it’s been too long” at least I thought anyways. I’d have to try and worry about that math later. I was decently sure. 

Doc thought for a moment, his face softened “you’re right, it’s been a bit”

It took us two weeks to make it back to their camp, addy was the first one to notice. “Holy shit” she ran over and wrapped me in her arms squeezing me tight. 

I returned the gesture, watching over Addys shoulder as Vasquez and Warren turned to look. Warren let a small smile adorn her face. We took our time catching up before the plan went into action. 

I kept the hood over my head, waiting in line as Murphy bit people ahead of me. 

Did I know what waited for me? No I didn’t. Though I think I’d rather have death than being bit by him. 

“Take off that hood” one of his lackeys shouted at me. I pretending I didn’t hear him. “Yo, take it off” that earned me a shove. 

Back before the world went to shit, Angel had a friend who was deaf. He taught me some sign though I was surely rusty, I signed the best my memory could allow. The lackey was perplexed. 

“Hey they’re deaf, asshole. Leave them alone” Murphy stated, I watched as his feet made their way towards me. I swallowed down my anxiety. 

Looking up I managed to keep the hood covering the majority of my face. Murphy offered his hand and I took it. I’d been careful to remove anything he would’ve remembered was mine. He led the way inside the compound leaving the line of sick people fussing and whining. 

“Excuse me” the voice made my heart clench, one I couldn’t forget. Keeping my head bowed I watched hidden under the hood as his booted feet clunked away from us down the stairs. We came to a stop after many twists and turns. As much as I wanted to look up I didn’t. I watched his feet as he paced across the room we were in.

I heard scribbling And then nothing. A yellow note pad came into view. Written on the page was “take off the hood Y/N”. My Stomach fell, of course he knew. Carefully I pulled the hood off from over my head, light flooding my Vision. Murphy stood in front of me, blue tinged skin and his face holding a wolfish grin. 

“I really do admire your determination” the smugness exuded from him. “I knew you’d eventually come for him” 

I swallowed down “I’m here for you” he shook his head in refusal. 

“I have my own empire here, one you’re welcome to stay in” he offered, lurching closer, face looming over mine. “You’d have him, and be immune, what more could you want” his warm breath wafted on my face, the faintest hint of cinnamon scented it. 

I rolled my eyes, “I just want to go back to my daughter, I can’t do that unless I get you to come with me” 

“Why would I do that?” He had a point, I had nothing to offer and by the looks of it he really did have his own empire. “Cat got your tongue” he purrs, going to cup my cheek, I coil at the touch.“Mm how about, I send you and your lover on your merry way?” 

“What’s in it for you?” I questioned, it wasn’t like him to give up this offer. Especially if 10k was pissed at me. That was something I didn’t know, and something I probably shouldn’t chance.  

Murphy looks at his nails in contemplation, picking at them. “Without him, what leverage do they have? Why else would you have come?” He had a point, but I also promised Doc I’d return Murphy to them. “Your story could be over, I could make him forget you ever left. Send him home with you to make more little monsters” The offer was almost too good. I just couldn’t bring myself to take it. I shook my head and he smirked. “Have it your way”

He gestured to the door in a nice way of saying fuck off. I didn’t budge, I stood there holding my ground as if I wasn’t on “enemy” territory. His eyes bore into mine as if searching my soul. “I really like you kid” he spoke truth, baring his soul to me. It wasn’t a confession of anything but admiration. “If i decide to leave with you, would you be willing to make a deal?” 

“What kind of deal?” I asked, unsure of what he could possibly be proposing. He just smiled as a stinging sensation erupted at the base of my neck. I hissed, trying to step forward but swayed as the room began to spin. Opening my mouth to say something but unsure if anything fell out as my eyelids became too heavy to keep apart. Darkness swallowed me. 

-

God my head was pounding. What the hell happened. Can I even open my eyes. It feels like I’m trying to, maybe it’s just dark. Why did it smell like bleach. I’m gonna kill murphy, my new personal goal. 

“Hey, I think she’s awake” A unfamiliar voice sounded to the left of me. I couldn’t move, what the fuck. The little light that shown threw my lashes were enough to make me close them again. There was heels clicking on some type of flooring. 

“Group welcome our newest patient, Y/N” 

Part 19

Taglist: 

@whenmypartysover @multifandomlesbianic @isimpfordanielpark @ophelia-nightt @peezbabey @lizzardgreene @lizx13 @nohemi2500 @missricecrispy

#10K fanfic #10k znation #10k x reader #tommy 10k #10k #znation 10k fanfic #zNation #znation fanfiction #z nation #z nation x reader #doc #the murphy #citizen z #10k smut #Smut #10ksmut #nat zang #nat zang imagine #nat zang x reader #Addy Carver #Roberta Warren

[mystey-here]

ramble about geniuses in marvel

alright folks I have nowhere else to dump this thought post so here it goes I hope you enjoy. 

so I obviously love characters like Tony Stark and Peter Parker, but I think that when you compare yourself to them it creates a harmful standard -- many of you are probably like “duh” but idk this is something that I’m just realizing. that's because growing up I always was like “I wanna be like Tony stark” but I knew that I wasn't as smart as him, and so then I felt that I can't do those things. I think this is just a me thing; maybe it’s cause im on the spectrum and take everything literally, or maybe its just cause of how I am as a person which is that if im not excellent at something on the first try then I think im a failure and should stop. I keep comparing myself to Tony stark and Peter Parker, which is even worse since peter’s younger. I convinced myself in high school that I needed to be that smart and be doing such great things, that now in my adulthood I feel like ive failed even though im barely getting started. I literally have barely started university. im considering switching to a type of engineering, but since im not a genius at math and don't have it come naturally to me I fear that I won't be able to succeed in it, because I compare myself to fictional characters with whom it comes easily. I literally go to one of the top universities in the country but then beat myself up that its not THE top. I don't know what to do to get myself to stop comparing myself to others, but especially to characters that are meant to inspire me, not make me compare myself to and be sad about. I literally don't know what's wrong with me or why I do that

[ceilingfan5]

3 (what fic are you emotionally attached to?), 4 (what fic of your own do you read for comfort?), 12 (What’s your perfect environment to create/write?), and 13 (Do you take pride in your writing, or does it embarrass you? Why?), please :O!

you're the best for putting the questions also. hot damn

3 (what fic are you emotionally attached to?)

shocking no one my first answer is sticker stars cause it is the longest thing i wrote by myself followed by LSOH and Paper Crowns, which were rps with friends and also so fun to return to especially since LSOH was my chance to write with my WRITING CRUSH my BELOVED my ADORED author of the incredible Honey Sweet which i am ALSO emotionally attached to, but it isn't mine

4 (what fic of your own do you read for comfort?)

depends on the mood but definitely those three again and then like, one that were fun and silly and Tender. like jingle all the way and angus mcdonald and the arcade enigma and play with me and rub this on your body.

looks directly at the camera. read your own fic. you wrote it for you. and if you're not writing for you. start writing for you

OH AND RUN AWAY WITH ME, of course. god im good and prolific and funny

12 (What’s your perfect environment to create/write?)

fucking absolute silence, unfortchy. cannot have any distractions i will fully lose myself in them. no tv no music not even rain sounds unless they are very quiet and even then that is a stretch. lately i also go to my room with my laptop and get in bed all cozy cause being cold puts me in such a Mood i cannot think. sometimes i also write on my phone (in a ziplock bag) in the bathtub. what's the word for doing something out of spite except instead of spite it is because it's so fucking funny

13 (Do you take pride in your writing, or does it embarrass you? Why?)

here's the thing i am very proud of my writing and i know im good. i know my mechanics are good, my structure is good, my characterization is good, my figurative language, emotions, prose, rhythm, it's great. obviously there are places i can improve and things that would benefit from more editing, but i have a lot of writing experience and i know i can use it to build a sound structure. here's the thing tho. just because i am not embarrassed of it does not mean i want it to escape containment and context. my mom does not need to read Little Shop of Horny for MULTIPLE reasons. my coworkers do not need to know I write fanfiction. if i were writing in a professional writing capacity i would even then be subtle about my (2022-2013=.................................9?) years of fandom writing experience, or the 61 fics on my AO3. it's not embarrassing, it just isn't public info.

if someone is embarrassed of their work it's time to unclench and dive in to what you love about it. you gotta roll around in the mud and have fun and find joy in it. listen. listen. i have DRAMATICALLY less experience with art (1.5ish yrs) than with writing (literally since i was six, so uh 21 years, killing it on the math today folks).

that means that sometimes art is really fucking hard and demoralizing, and internal comparisons to my other skills make me miserable. but that means it is time to put it away, take a breath, eat some chocolate strawberries, and review my intentions for the craft. am i doing this for attention, or because i want to see the ocs in my head on the screen? am i doing this to Win and Be the Best or because i want to be able to render a beautiful frog cake or ghost wearing fishnets and heels, just because i can? like what is the point??

translated back to writing, yeah, if you lack experience, flaws may be visible and comparisons with experts may suck whole uncut ass. but like what is the point tho? we're not out here to win. we're out here to play. if this isn't the way that feels good to play, there are so many other crafts to pick up. but if it is the way that suits you, then take your time and enjoy the ride, and share it with people you trust. and if you want it to be better and look better and do better numbers....

first of all, numbers isn't everything, numbers are of the devil and suck joy like marrow from your bones. second of all, a lot of things influence numbers that you cannot in fact control, such as who follows you, when they see a given post, what mood they are in when they see it, and so on. C, if you actually want to IMPROVE YOUR CRAFT, then fuckin' improve your craft. if you want to be more famous, chill the fuck out.

if you want to write better, have someone beta. do studies. character studies, emotional studies, ficlets to help you tighten up your prose and timing. i used to be awful about writing under a certain word limit, but ive done a billion of those suckers and i feel ive really improved on my succinctness and overall cohesion. you also gotta remember that everybody is always growing all of the time. there's still shit i'm learning and there's still shit the art geniuses are learning and there's still so much out there for you to learn too.

and listen, i know it's hard to not get a lot of comments, or tags, or reblogs, or, or, or (that's my seal impression). it does. it does explicitly suck. but you gotta unhook your writing boat from the dock of internet points or your heart is gonna hurt and you're never gonna sail anywhere, man. (that's my pascal the otter from animal crossing impression).

qed make stuff and dont be embarrassed of it. do it for joy and do it for you and come back to it and roll in it as much as you want. if your friends can be nice, they're invited to roll in it too.

#thanks ise sorry i went off there #writing advice

[galaxywarp]

hey, i hope it's okay to ask a question- i'm pretty sure you went to collage(and if you didn't then feel free to just delete this haha), so as someone currently in high-school i was wondering: is it worth like. learning? i cheat a lot because school just isn't for me but i was thinking about giving college a shot since i feel like being able to choose things i'm interested in would help a lot, and wondered if i should be putting in an effort to really learn too. i'm not worried about grades and getting accepted into college. but i'm worried about being behind and being stuck because i don't understand things. i'm mostly worried about math? but again i can totally try and actually learn, i just don't know if it's worth it at this point. basically: is high-school knowledge actually important for college?

Oof……ok, so, DISCLAIMER: I’m not sure if this is the Good, Responsible answer I should be giving you, so please take what I say with a grain of salt. I’m just one guy and quite frankly an AWFUL student, because school really wasn’t an environment I thrived in cuz of my mental health struggles/disability, but I still managed to get my bachelors degree sooo…..I’ll just tell you what my experience was

Again, THIS IS JUST MY EXPERIENCE AND PLEASE READ THIS WITH THAT IN MIND AND UNDERSTAND THAT MY EXPERIENCE ISNT UNIVERSAL OR NECESSARILY APPLICABLE FOR YOUR SITUATION!! Okay? Okay! cool!

So….I cheated in school. Quite a bit. Whenever I could look up an answer with google, that’s what I did. I learned from a young age that “learning” and “passing the class” were two very different skills.

I actually did NOT learn much of anything from my time in school. Like I said, I hated the environment. It made me super depressed and stifled my desire to actually learn and use my mind. I would do shit like put off all of my assignments until the last week of the semester and then do them all at once, or I’d finish a final project in a single night (I do not recommend doing this tho jndhdbsbdvsb it caused me a lot of stress)

So, Pretty much, i prioritized passing classes over actually learning anything from them. It wasn’t until I graduated and got real-life experience outside of a school setting that I regained my passion for my field and began genuinely learning again

But that’s focusing a lot on my years in college. You’re asking about high school. I will say this: a lot of my entry level college classes were actually easier than the harder high school classes. Math is a bit of an exception (especially because I’m naturally weak at it) in that it does follow a more linear “path” as you advance from algebra to calculus and their various levels, and it’s harder to fake your way through something like calculus 2 (I wasn’t able to. I failed the shit out of it)

But depending on what you’re going into, you may not need many math credits? I only worried about math when I thought I wanted to go into engineering. When I switched to information technology/software development, I only needed a basic Algebra credit. And I cried in relief because I no longer needed to torture myself into learning calculus lmao

I feel like im rambling now. Is any of this helpful? I carried practically no knowledge from high school to college, and even once I was in college I still barely learned anything. But I did graduate!

Sorry, it’s late and I’m a bit tired. I hope me sharing my experience helps you a little!! Feel free to ask me any other questions you might have, okay?

[yanderelovlies]

✨Galaxy Anon ✨ here!

It’s great ugh the sadness turned into joy. Maybe you like pain…I don’t know how to feel about that.

Yup. That makes sense especially with Elon musk making up so many weird rules and sometimes the toxicity on the site. I wish I can commission or use patron. But my mom can’t know or I will be in big trouble.

Oh that makes it worse to me since if I don’t know the teacher and do it online causes me anxiety feeling like I’m bothering them. Oh that sucks since I’m a person who needs to be explained in more intricate detail or I mess up something up and feel like a failure. Yeah nope I will fail especially math since math is fucking hard like why is there letters in math? Why so many equations?! Why does science have to do with it all the sudden! I feel the memories resurfacing. Sorry to hear that it sucks. Wow that’s a lot of points and low B? Viví I would be lucky to have that grade in school especially math since dammit I almost failed a grade because of it.

At least your worried, lots of parents unfortunately don’t realize the dangers of the internet on children. At least your looking after them. Have you talked about it to them though? Some children maybe feel your harsh because since your there sibling and not actually the mom they feel you shouldn’t have that authority. I know I felt that way with my older sis when she was onto me. Maybe talking about why there so angry about it will help? Sorry if this sounds offensive and I definitely have no say in the matter just wanting to ask about it since maybe they feel this way to be cool with there peers or something. Kids should have limits and your right for that.

Good good because I don’t like the idea of you were alone with him. At least he lost interest. Me too or unfortunately you could’ve gotten hurt. I don’t want to assume he had bad intentions but from how the news is it’s better to be a bit paranoid then feel nothing can happen to you.

Also my god at work today I’m so glad I was so calm because this lady when I asked what she wanted to drink she said a alcholic drink and when she was about to pull her identification which was paper I said I couldn’t take it and she got mad and she threw the fucking menu on the ground and angrily said “ Of course!” And I still had to order and when she got her main dish when I asked if she wanted cheese she said no and when I was walking away she said she wanted cheese. Later on when asking if she needed anything else she wanted to pay but in such a rude tone. After the payment was done I had to get another table order but when I went back she rudely said “ I’m finished.” And shoved her dishes to me with aggression. Like bitch I know your finished get the hell out if you going to act like that. I was close to just telling her I wouldn’t deal with her and she acts like she never got disciplined in her life and little children act more civil than her. Like my god you mother be ashamed of you right now how stupid you look. Ugh it was humiliating .

Me when i read that:

Oh that doesn't sound good. PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF IM OVER STEPPING BOUNDARIES but if it's a money thing I wouldn't mind paying for a commission for you 💕

Oh, don't get me started in math! I made sure that was an in-person class cause I struggle so hard! I can't tell you how many sleepless nights I had for tests! AND I HAVE TO TAKE MORE FOR MY PROFESSION AAAAAHHH. Also I'm always worried about my grade due to my Fasfa indont want lose it cause I can't pay for college on my own 😭😭

No need to apologize I do appreciate your input. The oldest understands and is even willing to show it to me when I get curious. (I only check in once a month I give them space unless I hear or see something in passing I don't like.) I have talked to the youngest but doesn't make it easier cause they just see it as being mean. I just hope one day they will understand better.

Trust me I know. I've had terrible experiences so I tend to be more on guard with men i don't know well. I feel guilty about it sometimes, but bad memories and what I hear tells me otherwise.

Holy shit that sounds God awful. She was being a dick for not getting her way, and you're right her momma would be ashamed. Acting like a spoiled child in public. Disgusting.

#vivi talks #galaxy anon

[marshofspades]

(Another TUA post, non TUA mutuals im so sorry but I’m just obsessed 😭)

TUA fandom, how do you think the brellies lives look in the sparrow timeline? Here’s mine lol:

1. Luther: I think Luther’s life is relatively peaceful tbh, and I think that if Luther would meet his other self it would genuinely kind of hurt cause he just sees this big Swedish boy happily living his life and Luther just knows he could’ve had that.

2. Diego: I’m not super sure tbh. His hero complex definitely sprouted from Reggie’s abuse (maybe he always had a strong sense of justice, nature vs nurture idk), but I don’t think he’d be a vigilante or something a long the lines of that. I’m not even sure he’d know about his powers in the first place cause like? What normal kid is just gonna discover he can change the trajectory of projectiles? Maybe during a dodgeball match as a kid he just throws a perfect curveball and he’s just like “oh that’s pretty cool”

3. Allison, again not so sure. Especially since I’ve always wondered (this is a stupid question but who cares) do Alison’s powers work in different languages too? Do the people she’s using it on need to be able to understand what she’s saying? So many mysteries lol. But back to the point, I’m not sure if Allison would know about her powers either. Mostly due to the fact that “I heard a rumour” is kind of a random phrase that doesn’t get used a lot? Similar to Diego imagine if she’s just gossiping with her friends and out of nowhere they just get mind controlled. But maybe when Allison discovers her powers she becomes famous again, although I doubt it.

4. Klaus: ok so klaus obviously knows about his powers since their pretty much unignorable, but Im wondering how that would affect his home life and just life in general. Would he learned to adapt or does he do drugs/drink again?

5. Five is by far gonna be the most different. Honestly I’m kind of hoping that Irish Five is gonna be really silly and goofy. One thing that’s interesting though is that from what we know, Fives teleporting ability takes a lot of calculation and skill in general. I’m pretty sure he stated it himself, every jump he makes is calculated. Would he still be able to jump as accurately as the Five we know? Since Reginald was the one teaching Five what I assume must’ve been some very calculated math, I’m wondering if this version five ever got taught the same thing.

6. Ben: I don’t think I have to say a lot, however I would like to add one thing I noticed. They refer to Ben as “the schemer” and that’s genuinely kinda funny since umbrella Ben was known for being intelligent. It’s nice to see that they actually kept that character trait in so there’s still some feeling that old Ben is still in there somewhere

7. Viktor: ok I’m just gonna say this right off the bat, Viktor is probably the only brellie who probably has a worse life in the sparrow timeline. I don’t know why, this is just a hunch mostly. I think that there’s probably some Russian spy stuff going. Maybe a Russian spy Viktor? Ok wait that’s actually kinda cool. But either way, I’d also love to see a Viktor who’s very experienced in using his powers and in control. Like I feel like there’s a lot of potential in Viktors powers that could be used in some really cool ways, and Viktor hasn’t really had time to really learn how to use them in different ways than just like “ haha sound waves go boom”.

Okay tbh that’s everything I have to say, if you want to add anything feel free to repost!

#the umbrella academy

[kibonosentoki]

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER.  REPOST.

name.    Chavi (it's an old nickname)

pronouns.    He/Him

preference  of  communication.    Discord 100%, I either blog-hop too much or I don't get the notifs about the IM system. So Discord is easier to reach me thru!

name  of  muse.    Son Gohan (specifically Future Son Gohan)

rp  experience  /  how  long.     UH... If my math is correct, I've been writing for about... 12 years give or take. On many different platforms, Tumblr wise, about 6 years give or take.

best  experience.    Easy! Hands down all the stuff I've been able to write on my P.eter P.arker, T.enth D.octor and this blog. Like, I got such a soft spot for Pete that it's not even funny and the whole M.arvel RPC was the first big-time thing I wrote in, so it's been pretty fun! I'm still in the fandom, just not as active as I'd like lmao!

rp  pet  peeves  /  dealbreakers.    Tbh, I don’t really have too many pet peeves. The ones I have are mostly just small-time stuff, like over-formatting to the point where I can't read shit, or leaning SUPER HEAVY into purple prose to the point where I can’t understand what’s going on, it happened to me once and I literally had to crack open a dictionary so... Dealbreakers-wise, it’s gotta be rule violations and anyone who’s generally a terrible person!

fluff,  angst,  or  smut.   YES, YES, YES! — Lmao, joking aside, I do very much enjoy writing all three of these. Though I don't often write smut on Tumblr lol. I just like the opportunities to really dive into the inner machinations of, in this case, Gohan's mind and, y'know, dig around the parts that either aren't explored for whatever reason (not too much time on the spotlight for it, the author wasn't feeling it, etc...)

plots  or  memes.    UH... Trick question, I'm a fan of both! Though, truth be told, I tend to lean a bit more towards plotting since it helps me and my partner get an idea of what kind of relationship our muses might have, as well as a general direction on where to take things. But I LOVE memes, especially cause I can just jump around the timeline and write p much whatever the muse is feeling... I'm just slow at answering things lol.

long  or  short  replies.    Define long. Cause I've tried to do like, one-sentence things and I end up doing a short paragraph lmao. So I guess the answer is long.

best  time  to  write.    Trick question! I don't really have the best time to write, since I'm in college, I write when I got the time. It ranges from anywhere between "as soon as I get home." to "Oh boy! 1am, time to write!"

are  you  like  your  muse. uh... Maybe?! Like, he's 10 times more determined than me, not to mention smarter lmao but, I think we do share the whole "low image of ourselves" bit because he's constantly second-guessing himself about his ability to be the hero and so on. I'm regularly doing the same with my writing and so on. We do like learning things, so that's another stuff we got in common!

Tagged by: I stole it days ago off my dash lol Tagging: YOU, PERSON READING THIS! Just say I tagged you, lol

#( Chavi Speaking | OOC ) #( long post )

[frogboyandzombieface]

Hey !!! I heard your bored , so am I :) I have a few questions for you , you can answer them if you want <3 ( I‘ll only ask stranger things questions I hope that’s ok )

Favorite season ?

Favorite characters ?

A scene you want to see in season 4 ?

Is Mike gay or Bi ( or straight ) ?

What season 4 storyline are you most excited to see ?

Favorite ships ?

Favorite quote?

Least favorite character ?

Least favorite ship ?

I can’t think of more questions right now lol sorry 🙈. Have a great day and stay safe!! 💗

HIII OH YM GOD THANK YOU!??? I LOVE YOU???? DHDHDHS 😭i did NOT expect to get this many ... yes of course it's totally fine non !! (that's my nickname for anons lolol) THANK UUU ok here we go

favourite season?

SEASON TWOOO BAYBEEEE i just LOVE THAT motherfucker . it's got the BEST 80's vibes and awesome soundtrack and THE BYLER!!!!😭😭😭😭and also MAX AND STEVE AND ALSO I LOVE PUNK EL I KNOW THAT THAT PART OF THE STORYLINE IS CONTROVERSIAL AND I AGREE IT HAS SOME ISSUES BUT I LOVE PUNK EL OKAY and i love her exploring her darker side and using her powers to get revenge but she too much of a sweetie to be like kali. she's an angel. i love el . adore her <3333 and the colour palettes and the scenes and GAH!! i just love season 2 okay. though season 1 is SUUUPER close because holy fuck that one is so beautiful and emotional especially with joyce and will being missing and learning about hoppers past and GOD !!!! just fuckign great. And I LOVE THE LITTLE KIDS THEYRE SO CUTE ! AND SO MUCH FUN!!! god i love it . season 2's my fav but s1 is So So close by like a sliver ...

favourite characters?

MAX . ROBIN. UHH WILL. DUSTIN. MIKE. uM .... csnt fucking decide oKAY 3)33&28/8922 i love them all!!! they're all my blorbos and i adore them with every bit of my tiny little pathetic gay heart !!!?2! THOUGH.... my fav FAVs are max will and robin. im not gonna chose they're all at the same level i love em thoigh robin maybe just a tiny bit less because we don't know as much about her yet , i get more attached the more we learn though i guarantee that when season 4 comes out and we get a bit more robin stuff (hopefully)... she will definitely be with max and will. I just love them. though I LOVE DUSTIN AND MIKE TOOO!!!! dustin is such a great character he's been such an awesome staple and the show definitely would be bad as hell without him. and i love mike because i LOVE HIS FUCKING STORY AND HIS CHARACYER ARc he's just my pathetic little sad gay repressed homosexual. this is probably not making sense im so sorry😭

a scene you want to see in season 4?

GOD. anything. i just want to see A SCENE . i am so desperate for content that i will literally take anYYYTHINGZZZ ... though we have gotten some new shit lately in the lead up to s4 but it's been like what?? 3 years since we've had new stuff ? or is it 4? no it's gotta be 3 .. im terrible ag maths. but tbh i reALLY REALLY want to see ronance content , el discovering herself and like finding more things she's happy about specifically a hobby, i really want her to have an interest in something because she's had like . literally NOTHING except like all her trauma or just interest in like . mike. lIKE WHAT DOES SHE LOVE OTHER THAN THAT?? can she paint? will she write ? like give me a hobby pls!!! 💀as max says there's more to life than stupid boys please let her flourish as an individual . but like dude .. there as so many scenes i wanna see and this is So long already and i think i will leave it there before i go on an incomprehensible annoying ass tangent thank u

is mike gay bi or straight ?

ohhhkay so this discourse i been seeing a lot lately . ummm ima be dead honest he seems to be more queercoded as gay rather than bisexual like .. he throws himself into a relationship with el and like yes he does show genuine interest at first and like im going off the top of my head but basically just read @beepboop358 's byler proof google slides. that will summarise my whole opinion on the whole thing tbh. BUT !! im not opposed to him being bi!!! we have no idea at this standpoint guys rememebr that ! mike has a long way to go in terms of accepting himself and coming to terms and discovery etc let's just see what the duffers are gonna do with it !!! :)) so im gonna say it can be either one but i am leaning slightly towards gay because of all the subtext .

what season 4 storyline r u most excited to see ?

ALL OF THEM !!!! literally all of them. god im so so fuckimg exicted we're gonna get CONTENT BAYBEEEE i been watching the same 3 seasons for what feels like a goddamn lifetime like PLS.. ima be a bit basic and say the pizza gang mainly because i wanna see byler develop (and it looks like they're really leaning into it now !! HOLY SHIT FHDHDJDJB!!!!! i been shipping them since 2017 and ppl thought it was like a crack ship my god we've come so far .. ) though also very excited to see the older teens storyline especially with eddie seeing what kinda character he is !!

favourite ships ?

ummm obviously byler 😭😭😭😭and also elmax GOD elmax ... and also lumax !!! fucking love them. but also ronance and stoncy and also byclair and henclair .... like so much. i love em all. AND HENDERHOP very cute <3 and hopclair!!! i just love them ALL and also steveddie even though we barely have any content yet but i have a feeling it's gonna be really fun :))

favourite quote ?

mmm this is a good question honestly !!! i really like jonathan's quote "you shouldn't like things just cause people tell you you're supposed to" i love that honestly . makes me very happy :)) but like .. also hoppers letter at the end of s3??? it just gets to my heart in a way i can't explain... like damn. i remembr first time i watched it i CRIED my eyes out like jesus but also. half the quotes from season 1 i love 'em . so many iconic bits in that season

least favourite character ?

lonnie and brenner . those cunts can go rot in hell 🥰

least favourite ship?

umm i don't know to be honest. i don't have a ship that i hate , well actually h*rringrove i DESPISE they can fuck off .. hate the billy / karen thing years are taken off my life ever time im forced to see it..

i don't like j*pper very much (but only season 3, im not about to get into it rn i cant be fucked though i don't hate it) j*ncy is eh and m*leven . i don't hate melvin but i don't think they right for each other same with j*ncy. but otherwise idk i don't hate that many ships .. there's not that many that get under my skin except i don't prefer it if they don't really have chemistry or have issues though not saying relationships can't ever have issues that's unrealistic ,

and ITS OKAY THATS PLENTLY OF QUESTIONS FJDJDJ and i hope u like my annoying long ass answers becaude i have so much shit to say !!! I HOPE YOU HAGE A GREAT DAY/NIGHT TOO ANON THANK U I LOVE U <3333

#it's 12:50am for me rn #shhhh #well axtually nearly 1am #😳 #im a night owl #ive been trna get my schedule better but it's HARD #stranger things #byeler #byler #asks #anon

[runa-falls]

hi! could i take part in the shipping game?

i’m 5’2”, with brown hair (that has been dyed many different colors over the years), curvy with a lil bit of chub, and i have three tattoos (and i want to get more). i have mild agoraphobia, but once i warm up to you, i’m really nice. i’m witty, creative, easygoing, and i’d do almost anything for the people i care about. i can be pretty apathetic, stubborn and lazy at times. (i’m also a bit of a brat lmao) i’m easily startled, and i’m absolutely terrified of bugs, needles, and the dark. i suffer fibromyalgia and depression. i have 5 cats and i’m close with my mom and younger siblings. i prefer to stay home and be alone, and i like to sleep, daydream, play video games, write or read. i’m kinda nerdy, and i like horror stuff even though i’m a bit scaredy-cat. i love trinkets and the beach, but i hate sand. i can’t do math (even basic stuff!), but i’m an excellent writer.

thanks so much! hope you have a great day/night!! <3

im going to give you: protective!jake lockley

since you're easily startled, afraid of the dark, bugs, and needles, jake is always there to hold you hand and console you. usually, if he notices someone being scared of something, he'd tease them about it (especially steven lool), but when it comes to you, he never wants to see you uncomfortable (don't even get me started ab seeing you in pain!).

he likes cats, i mean, i think we all know he's a cat person. he's stoic about them, treats them like their fellow mobsters and speaks to them exclusively in spanish (whether you speak it or not). he's responsible, he feeds them at the same time everyday and regularly cleans out the litterbox bc he respects the cats 😭.

he loves that you're close with family, something he never got. when he's in the company of your mom and siblings he's a completely different person. he's charming and friendly, nothing like the sarcastic chaotic man you know at home (he wants to impress them 🤭 also he loves bothering you).

he LOVES horror and gore, so he'll definitely watch movies with you. when you're scared he gestures you over and holds you with a smug smile on his face. he's not great at video games but he is competitive so if it's something like mario kart, you can catch him practicing on off days just so he can beat you.

#anon #shipping game #jake lockley

[nogenderbee]

Im not sure if this is open or not, i hope you don't mind? Also, my condolences to the anon who lost their bird today

what nickname would you call your lover? - nicknames! im not comfortable abt pet names tbh

what's your perfect date idea? - just indoor dates, or (if i could force my ass to get up) aquarium dates(fishes are always interesting! Especially whale sharks) Or any date if they want too, im very much the type of person to follow their lead

what are your hobbies? - playing games, reading about biology, watching nature documentaries, organising stuff (especially rearranging monopoly), and if I don't have anything to do? I sleep

what's something you hate in others? - pretty much mean people, but mostly those who don't understand others, like everyone or myself, and those who thinks they are greater than everyone

What are your main 3-5 personality traits? - I am easygoing, the type of person to not worry about anything and just enjoyed to chill with everyone, though sometimes I could be lazy and that's a problem, i enjoy sharing my interest with other people if they ask about it, but sometimes it's a pain when i kept rambling about science. I am also quite dumb?(especially in math) Just middle smartness like most would have, but i do have high emotional intelligence, and that's a plus! I can tell when someone is sad or just them feeling negative emotions

what activities/hobbies you like? - gaming, drawing(especially drawing animal anatomy), skateboarding, and roller skating!

what activities/hobbies you don't like? - social events, i have to prepare a myself some clothes at 8 to go there because of my sleep schedule, and me not wanting to get out of bed

Have a good day!

Hii! Yes they are open! And also yes poor bird...

I don't mean to be mean now but... let's get to pairing, shall we?

So I pair you with...

🥁🥁🥁

Kanade Yoisaki!

⊱ Kanade is really alright with nicknames and she most probably won't use pet names for you if you won't either! So maybe you can call her "K" or "Kan"?

⊱ and she's really a big fan of indoor dates since it doesn't require her to go out but she can also spend some quality time with her lover! But going somewhere calm like aquarium is also alright with her, as long as you're not on sun or anywhere demanding energy from her it's gonna be amazing

⊱ I have a feeling like it depends on genre with games with her so maybe you can find some games in common! As for how much you like nature and biology in general, it may be funny but she got into it and is better at it thanks to you. And now she doesn't mind watching few nature documentaries with you! As for organizing... it's your difference... she does try to have things organized but it just ends up on that important things are organized and others aren't really... You both like to sleep tho-

⊱ as for your skateboarding and roller skating... she will give them a try if you ask her but pretend it'll drain all her energy...

⊱ and finally, she's not a fan of social events either so it's rare when she'd initiate meeting at those but she also can go through them so she may help you with preparations if you may need that

You and Kanade were at aquarium, it was rather calm, you were now sitting on a bench because she got tired of walking and you decided to take a little break to drink and maybe eat something.

"Thank you for doing it for me..."

"No problem! How did the photos turned out?"

"I think good. And Mafuyu liked them too."

She showed you few photos, there were many photos of all kind of fishes you could find in this aquarium but there also was a photo of just water in aquarium... but you decided to not question that and continue to admire all the really good photos she took.

"It's really pretty here~ Would you mind coming here with me and others form Nightcord next time? I think they may like it here as well..."

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#pairing #project sekai #colorful stage #project sekai colorful stage #x reader #project sekai x reader #colorful stage x reader #project sekai colorful stage x reader

[livingdiarrhea]

Here’s a vent with a good ending:

Sometimes I worry that the reason I am so good in school is because I’m not as busy as anyone else.

That everyone else has hobbies and passions or extracurriculars they are very good at, so understanding school is harder for them since they’re so busy. Or that everyone else has “valid” reasons for not being good at school (mental health issues, disorders, etc).

That everyone else who is my age and school smart is leagues better than me because they do extracurriculars on TOP of being school smart! Who cares if I’m 2 grades above in math, they’re super good at gymnastics! And this person does art really well! And that person is in the journaling club!

I mean, I do extra curriculars too, I take vocal lessons and am learning piano and music theory. And I did speech and debate for half the year.

But I guess I tell myself those aren’t valid. I was one of the worst people at speech and debate, and only did the bare minimum just to get credit (while still trying to look like I put in effort, because although I didn’t go to a lot of actual events, I still put quite a bit of time in speech and debate). I’m not that good at singing, everyone who tells me otherwise is just doing so to protect my feelings or keep me doing singing. I’m not good at piano either.

Well, I have hobbies! I have drawing as a hobby.

But no, it’s not valid. Im not good enough. People who don’t even like art are leagues better than me!

I write!

your writing is not that good. Sure, you can write an essay for school, so what? Other people can do that! Your stories are bad, your fan fiction is bad.

Well, I’m a good friend…

No you aren’t. You care about no one. You forget to call your friends constantly! You’re extremely socially awkward, and weird, and annoying! And it’s not like you were born that way or you can’t control it! You can! You’re just lazy!

And I know, all of that can’t be true. It just can’t…but sometimes I feel I don’t have a good counter argument.

Maybe there isn’t a counter argument. Maybe the only reason I have good grades is because I’m just lazy.

It’s not like I had to struggle. It came to me so easily, I understand things quickly in school. But I can’t do many basic chores. I don’t know crap about geography or events in history. I only have an A because I know how to memorize, I know what schools want, and I’m lucky to go to a good school.

Sometimes I feel like there’s nothing special about me. Like I’m below average. Or worse, I’m worst than almost everyone.

But that can’t be true either? I don’t know. I doubt a lot of things.

Am I only successful because of how lazy I am? Will I never be accepted into any college because they’ll see right through my facade? My disguise of being adequate?

I wanted to be a therapist, but I can barely speak to another human being normally.

Sometimes I think I might have a mental disorder or something, but maybe it’s just to justify my insecurity. It’s just that I feel…different than most people.

Is it just social anxiety? But I’m not always worried, I act weird and then got self-conscious about it?

I feel like there’s a disconnect between my brain and my body. I think I think smart, but all my actions and words sound like I’m immature. Like I’m stupid.

I think my personality seems to not be a solid thing. It’s just floating around waiting for me to find it. I act so different every few months, depending on my friends, my mental state, and especially what content I’m consuming.

I have a lot going on. And yet, so little.

I went through a really rough time in my life about a year ago. And even with EVERYTHING I feel right now. I still feel better than I did before. I feel less hopeless.

I don’t have friends, or at least, ones that I’m truly close with. But I’m okay.

Something’s suck. But I have two dogs. I have my family. I have my hobby and my little characters that I created in my head.

I have singing and piano and my grades.

I have my writings, my fanfic, my tumblr blog.

Im not living in a hotel anymore. I have my clear phonecase with it’s little cards, and my house, and my own room.

I have my art, in all of it’s messy, anatomically incorrect glory.

I have my skill set, whether it is less or more than anyone else’s doesn’t matter. It’s a skill set I can use to live a happy life.

I have a future and hope and value and worth.

#living diarrhea #sometimes you just got to tell your insecurities they aren’t valid because you are valid #bad life advice #rant #vent-ish #insecurity #cw vent #vent

[alansiganallanjamesbona]

Hello everyone my name is Allan James Bona Alansigan, I’d like to do many thing like to play many sports like basketball and baseball and also do some of my hobbies like playing mobile legends and pubg mobile with my friends and cousin. Some of the things I like about playing basketball with my friends as far as I can. Another thing I like about basketball is having the satisfaction of winning and making the other team know that my team is really good and wont quit until we get a win no matter what happens. One thing I love about football is putting on the hit stick and putting people on their backs. Another thing I like to do in football is put fear into the other players to make them scared to run the ball or catch the ball in the middle and just having me there for them to know im going to hit them ounce they get the ball. Some of my hobbies are hanging out with my friends and finding cool places to hangout that people wont really find. I also like to go hangout with friends on park street and walk around and see if we can find people we know that we could also hangout with. Another hobbies is to get pick up games of basketball and baseball and just go play at the park until we get bored. An Adventure I’d like to go on is to travel around the world ending in Hawaii and relaxing on the beach.

An adventure that I have gone on is going to japan and going around looking at some of the most important places in japan like a Buddhist temple and old castles that some of the leaders of japan had ounce used for their armies to defend japan and its people, and also ninja houses where ninja would hide out from the samurai and fight them off if they had to to give right to the people that were being treated unfairly. Some of my artistic endeavors are drawing graffiti and trying to draw thing that may look challenging but end up being easy and having the drawing come out better then it originally looked or sometimes worse. My educational history isn’t so good like in middle school and elementary school I liked to fool around and talk to my friends and not pay attention to the teacher also I wasn’t good at studying or getting good grades on test especially math and science. Grade wise they haven’t been as good as they could have been but right now that’s a work in progress with starting off a new year. And this year I’m going to try to make it the best year I have ever had in school academic wise and sports wise.I think this year will be a better year for me because it’s a nice clean and fresh start and im going to try to make it a good year no matter what I half to do whether it’s a lot of homework or having to study when im tired.

•Where do i see my self 10 years from no? Was my learning in SPUP vital to where I’m leading to?

I see my self successful bucause through my effort and also through my teachers who i get more learnings from them and also sharing thier experience to motivate me also make me working hard to my study. Additionaly, i see myself a good person who like a responsible citizen in our country also because of st.paul university i learned how to respect others and also help others. Lastly, That's i know what my life after 10 years from now.

Why STEM the best choice after all?

For me, stem is the best choice for me because this is strand where connected to my course and also stem is a good strand that can help me in advance to my course because when you say stem is study of science, mathematics, technology, and engineering that why, this is the best choice for me because in the future i want to be a marine and stem strand help me become a advantage in my subject in college.

•What course will you take in college and why?

I'm planning to take marine engineering in my college, because i know this is my dream course since in my high school and also marine engineering is demand and good salary in this time and i know that this course is not easy but i continue taking this course in my college because through my hard work, efforts, and study hard i know i commit this challenges to become a marine engineering and that's all.

[jayflrt]

hi akka! 🥺 it's been very long 😔 since i've talked to you. how are you? i hope you are doing good!! my boards are coming and they start from 27th april and i'm freaking our because first up is english and i suck at it :( but i'm confident that i'll do good, like not that confident but yes, i'm this much 🤏🏻 confident, hehe.

i've been preparing for boards all these weeks and finally got free time today. we had our farewell on 23rd april 😆😆 and i had so much fun but couldn't take much photos with my friends. i took only with friends i know and love. i didn't want to take photos with my love because if things didn't work out,😲 i'd see those pictures and feel upset that why was it not me with me? i'd really feel sad. ☹️

and for the boards, we have seating arrangement and my roll number and his roll number are in succeeding(?) order, like one after the other and i wish to sit behind him in the same class T_T 😁 this month has been good and bad because i stressed over exams and not feeling loved. i almost tried to move one because i've lost my patience but my heart hopes for it. 😔😔😔

i hope may will be the best month of this year, but you know we have so many days gap between each exams — like 4 to 5 days and for math we have 8 days which is on 5th may. and for information technology (IT) which is the last exam, 24th may, we have 7 days for that again and there is not much to read for IT.

i am wishing to do well in my boards 🦋🦋 and hope to score a good percentage. i'm scared from where the questions will be coming and i'm shitting my pants because i'm not good with maths :(

anyways at the end of the month, i have realized that "your first choice will always be your last choice" like i don't get this but it feels like real. 🤯

and i'd text you again once you reply this ask and how were your weeks since last i have talked and we got a fucking jaywon live T_T i was pretty shocked. and the second or third jaywon selcas 💘💘💖 too. how did you spend jay's birthday btw? i didn't do much but just told to myself "happy birthday jay" 💝 and wonki's mix and match 😔 they slayed. PERIODT!!!

do you have any predictions about enha's next comeback🤔💭 i'm thinking they might have it in june or july, i'm getting it there, or september first week?? who knows?? they are good at clowing. wonie was blonde and he is now red and sunoo was black and he is not blonde??? what the fuck is happening?

finally i wish you to have a happy week🌹and stay safe 😼and i don't want my boards to get cancel as fourth wave might hit again :( and it's surprisingly sad. are there any cases rising in your place? take care and drink water and eat healthy <3 i love you akka 🌼🌼🌼

bye 🥰

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omg hi hi 🦔 anon !!!! it’s been kinda long i hope you’ve been well 🥰🌷🌸💗 i’ve been good tho !!! and oh my gosh they start tomorrow for you ?? :o best of luck !! i’m sure you’re going to do great 🤧💓

omg im glad you’re getting english out of the way at least :’)) but you’ve studied so hard so im sure you’ll do great !! english can be rlly tricky ngl but you got this 🫶 and omg i’m glad your farewell was fun and you got to take pictures when your friends !! and aww i wish you could’ve gotten a picture with him as a memory D; did you get to talk to him tho ?? :o

it sounds like this month was super stressful especially with your board exams 🤧 i’m sure you’ll be v relaxed once they’re over and you won’t feel as stressed and unloved :(( also those day gaps sound so stressful ahhh so little time ☹️☹️ but you got this !!! 🥳💕

omg i’m not good at math either tbh HAHAH but just trust your gut and when you’re nervous in the moment, take a deep breath and recall the information you’ve been studying 💗💗 i’m sure you’ll breeze through it as long as you go in with a confident mindset !! 🥰 do you have a certain goal for the percentage you want ?? :o i’m not very familiar with the standard over there so what’s the expectation?

my weeks have been pretty okay, i’d say !!! it was just me trying to balance all my activities + trying to find an internship HAHAH (still looking sobsob) BUT OMFG YES THE JAYWON LIVE I CANT BELIEVE WE FINALLY GOT IT 😭🫶💓 THEY WERE SO CUTE <333 omg for the loml’s bday i too said happy bday jay HAHAH 💝💝 but he deserves the world so i was wishing from my side of the world that he had a rlly precious day and got showered with lots of love ♡ AND AHHH YES WONKI WERE SO GOOD 🤧 THEIR CHOREO STILL STUNS ME THEY WERE INCREDIBLE :O

also i’m not sure when the next cb is !! i hope it’s in july bc they have their japan cb coming soon i believe ?? and i feel like armys are gonna get angry if hybe announces a cb for enha around the same time as bts 😭💔💔 HAHAH RIGHT THE HAIR COLORS like i’m guessing that’s for their dj schedules ?? but i’m not sure omg 😵‍💫

omg cases are rising there ? stay safe love and mask up !! 🌷🌷 i hope you and your family and friends are all safe ☹️💕 i think it’s sorta getting bad here a little too — it disappeared for a while like no one was talking ab it, and then suddenly a few of my friends got covid 😵‍💫 but we’re all boosted up so it won’t be too bad !! 💖 and tysm love !! take care of yourself and drink lots of water and stay safe yourself 🥰💗 good luck on your exams and i’m rooting for you !! looking forward to hearing ab how they went ♡

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