#esp like if you're gonna talk all the time about liking me as an opener to the point you're happy I'll only be mornings on weekends

[jeannineee]

nsfw alphabet: suguru geto

warnings: uhh there's a lot lol. it's smut. minors don't interact.

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

the actual opposite of how he was only moments before. very attentive and doting. will massage your sore muscles, kiss any marks he left. usually runs you a bath unless you're too tired.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

on himself, probably his hands. finds it cute when you mindlessly fidget with them. also likes how they look wrapped around your neck.

for you he loves your ass. i feel like this is something we have all agreed on collectively lmao. geto is an ass man.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

prefers to cum inside you. he's a simple man.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

honestly, geto is very open about what he's into, and what he would like to get out of your sex life. i don't see him hiding anything from you.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

he's canonically the man w the most experience. above gojo, anyway. he knows exactly what he's doing. you won't have to guide him very much, if at all.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

remember how i said he is an ass man?

any position that gives him a good view of your ass is preferred. reverse cowgirl, prone bone, doggy.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

it really just depends. lazy morning sex? he's cracking jokes.

rough sex post-argument? he's v serious. it simply depends.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

he just keeps a small patch of hair at the base. yes, it matches the hair on his head.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

he can be very intimate. like, the type of intimacy that is almost overwhelming, if that makes sense? something w his presence idk if y'all are gonna follow me on this one but yeah.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

he does it whenever the need arises. but usually, you're around.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

first off, he has a daddy kink don't fight me on this. also into orgasm control, bondage--esp. shibari. bdsm in general tbh. likes mixing praise and degradation.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

he actually prefers the bedroom, so he can take his time with you. but if the two of you really need on another, he's down for anywhere.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

you, just you. it doesn't take much for him.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

he doesn't have very many limits lol do with that what you will.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

prefers giving!! but he's very teasing abt it. he very much enjoys edging you.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

usually on the rougher side.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

he doesn't prefer them. he would rather take his time with you.

see L= location.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

very happy to experiment. he regularly comes to you with new things to try, and encourages you to do the same.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

he can last for hours on end. good luck.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

he owns a plethora of toys, majority for you. lots of rope, vibrators, plugs, etc.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

he is very, very unfair when it comes to teasing. he loves hearing you beg, so don't expect him to give in very quickly.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

somewhere in the middle. talks a lot when he's teasing you. also talks you through it. hismoaning isn't super loud until he's close to finishing.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

wants to try subbing for you at least once, but isn't sure if he'd really enjoy it or not.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

he's hung. don't play with me. about 8 inches and very girthy.

(god i am gross LMFAOOOO)

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

moderate. enough time for you to be able to recover in between. you're gonna need it.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

it usually takes him awhile. (overthinkers club!!!) you're always the first one to fall asleep.

#suguru geto x reader #geto smut #jujutsu kaisen #jjk smut #suguru geto smut #geto x reader #geto headcanons #suguru geto headcanons

[grandlinedreams]

Hello, I've been reading Ur fics lately (esp with law) and I love them

I was wondering if you could make angst? Like... Let's say there's this big battle, like the one in wano, where reader and law gets separated, but after the battle Law finds reader unconscious and being treated by chopper who then explains they had severe wounds and might need blood transfusion.

It also just happens that he was gonna confess to them after all of the chaos so that they'd be safe in his arms. And that might not even happen since now they have each foot on both worlds.

I'd imagine Law going along with talking to them even if they're unconscious just to keep them here in the living. (If they're alone ofc)

I hope that's alright

OUGH some angst my beloved,,,i can absolutely do that, I hope I do this justice for you!!

[Heads up!: angst, serious injuries, some brief medical talk, hurt/very little comfort, keeping in line w Law literally calling none of the Strawhats by their names, open-ended]

Truth be told, Law doesn't keep much of an eye on you during battles. It's hard enough keeping an eye on what the enemy is doing ㅡ especially if the Strawhats are involved. They ㅡ especially their captain ㅡ have a knack for blowing careful plans out of the water and he's forced to play damage control until it's over.

You're also fully capable of looking after yourself, and he trusts you and your skillset. So when he doesn't immediately find you once things have started settling down, he doesn't think much of it.

When five minutes turns to ten, then to fifteen, then half an hour, however, alarm bells start going off in his head. You've never taken this long to check in with him. Has something happened? Have you beenㅡ

No, he won't let himself think of that option. Not now, not ever. So he keeps as optimistic as reality will allow him ㅡ until he hears his name being called.

"Oi, Law!"

It's Sanji. "What is it, Blackleg?"

The blond's expression is his first warning that whatever it is, it isn't pleasant. "Chopper told me to come get you."

That's his second warning. Eyes narrowing and trying to rifle through potential scenarios from best case to worst, he follows Sanji silently until they reach where Chopper is ㅡ and Law stares at who the little reindeer is desperately trying to patch up.

It's you.

Part of him whispers harshly that this is par for the course, that he's worn out his luck in terms of keeping you safe ㅡ another notes that he's never seen you look more fragile.

"What happened." It's a demand as he takes in the bandages all over you, trying not to think about how most of them are already soaked with blood. Your blood.

He barely hears the explanation above the rising ringing in his ears, but he gathers enough to find it in himself to mentally curse your perchance for heroics. He's told you time and time again that your self-sacrificing attitude will get you into trouble, and now it has. (As if he isn't guilty of it too from time to time, but that's neither here nor there.)

"They need a transfusion," he says, kneels to gather you into his arms, trying not to focus on how limp you are. "I'll take it from here."

If Chopper protests, he doesn't stick around long enough to hear it. From the second he sets foot back on the Polar Tang, it's a blur.

Bandages are stripped from you and replaced, an IV of fluid in one arm, blood in the other. One of the defaults to joining the crew is letting him know blood type so he has it on hand, and he's never been more grateful to have it and less so that he needs to use it.

For the next few hours, Law hardly blinks, barely lets himself breathe ㅡ afraid that somewhere between, you'll slip from him. He can feel the cold circle of death around you, measuring, evaluating. Deciding if you go, or if you stay.

He wants you to stay. If there were ever a way to guarantee that you do, he'd do it now ㅡ but there isn't. So he sits, counts your breath (in, out. Up, down.), and waits.

And he talks.

He tells you that you're a pain, that you need to stop thinking so much of others before yourself, that a quality like that is only admirable until it means a grave instead of life. That you shouldn't be so cavalier with your time, that there are people who care about you, and what are they supposed to do if you die?

He means himself in that too. He's gotten accustomed to your presence, the way you've slotted your way into his routines and habits like you belong, and perhaps, were he a romantic, he'd say you always have. But he hardly has time for that, barely lets himself entertain it ㅡ too soft, too ideal, too good to be true. Always too much of something.

But he wants it, wants you ㅡ wonders if he'll even get the slimmest chance to tell you now. Law could tell you now, but he doesn't. He's afraid if he does, it'll tip the scales further from his favor and he'll undoubtedly lose you.

He can't do that.

It isn't fair ㅡ but when has the world ever felt fit to treat him in a way that could ever be seen as kind enough to be called fair?

#ㅡmine. #one piece scenario #one piece x reader #trafalgar law x reader #law x reader #ㅡanswered. #anonymous #–ml: law. #one of these days i'll go into medical jargon detail

[thatdeadaquarius]

Genshin Sagau (?) Isekai Brainrot - Language

I've seen like ONE small kinda related Genshin Sagau/isekai idea for this but I wanted more of it so BAD

It’s not the most interesting thing in the world, it’s about our modern vernacular vs. Teyvat's flowery speech

Pls feel free to expand on or add to this pLEASE TAG ME IF U DO IM STARVING OUT HERE :)))

So I saw someone write like one sentence abt this (can’t remember who :( sorry I’ll update if I find them ) or like a brutally honest version??

But I also took inspo from how fucking wordy and long conversations that are in Genshin, even with ppl like Xiao (the rude boy that he is) or even Tighnari who gets to the point pretty quickly

It goes smth like:

So, all of Teyvet, (esp ppl like Zhongli 💀 u know the ones) talk,, flowery.

Like, the whole Pride and Prejudice style speaking, euphemisms, metaphors, for some characters (or Npcs) its full on POETRY. 

Lookin’ at you Kazuha.

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And going off of any variation of you being the Creator, (or otherwise an older mythical being?), they could have this thing where the older a deity/mythical thingy is, the simpler the speech. 

Kinda makes sense to them y’know? The older beings are serious, commanding, intimidating

And nothing says "I'm ancient as fuck and powerful as fuck" like simple blunt speech.

And being closer to the literal creation of the world, language would understandably be less complex (I’m assuming it’s the same as in human cultures in our world's history)

Like literally look at our fantasy typical stories, plenty of them have a dragon or ancient god that speaks in extremes, like so flowery its a metaphor, or so bluntly its startling (ie, "Be not afraid." "I am all powerful." etc etc)

And so, ancient powerful being = direct/blunt speech

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...Y'know,, almost like our modern vernacular.

Like, part of some of our modern day comedy is purely based on a sentence being delivered bluntly for impact

Hell our ads and videos and content in general we always want to get to the point, to say things simply

So with this in mind, even if you try to deny being the Creator, they might still think you are, or at least a more minor ancient deity/creature

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(like the Seven Sovereigns/Phanes/Shades/etc. for example would sound eerily modern or at least easy for you to understand bc of this trait lol)

(Also I'm just assuming u know Genshin lore enough to know what I meant by that ^)

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So, I love the AU where you just,, hitch a ride with the traveler like Paimon bc u start at the "beginning of the game",

And with every person you meet, you're like, "Ok, no, I promise this is just how my country/world speaks, it's not like that, I'm not some ancient deity…" 

And They're all like 🤨🤨🤨 "Well, fine traveler and companions, why does your speech sound so simplistic and sharp? Surely, you do not expect me to truly believe you.."

You: "Please I just talk like this, I'm a regular human."

Them: "Alright, if it is as you say,, you wish to not experience being "known" yes? Fear not, I will keep your secrets close to my chest."

You: "No, for the last time, that's not-" 

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And it just keeps happening, lol

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(srry I tried my best at emulate Genshin language + flowery speech idk how to do it)

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Like maybe you would just sound weird or like a foreigner speaking y’know in simpler sentences bc they don't know the language as well as native speakers, at least that could be how you sound to NPCs and ppl who don’t know abt simpler speech meaning

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...But the Adepti? Zhongli?? Barbatos maybe??? Even the Aranara??? Those who are old enough to maybe have heard how older beings speak or at least have knowledge of how they should speak/sound??

You couldn’t have predicted how shocked their faces were the second you opened you’re mouth… 

Sumeru scholars would freak tf out i stg, as soon as you meet Haypasia, she's already losing it, first the Irminsul progress, now this ancient being/Creator?? Girlie thinks its a sign lmao

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(I’m an Aether lover, and also bc I think Lumine looks badass as Abyss ruler, so I’m gonna go with Aether for traveler sorry Lumine mains love yall T-T)

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You, and Aether being equally confused at first pLEASE 😭 

lets say he speaks a little more fluffy than you at least, after all I’m assuming bc of the outfit that he’s from a fantasy-like place, and his replies can be a little fluffy like Teyvat’s residents, so he kinda fits in, kinda like everybody assumes he's just from another country when he gets to a new nation (at least that’s what I think happens??)

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Like after (maybe Diluc?) Lisa, Kaeya, Venti, and Jean (who I think would all be knowledgeable, thru diff means, about this enough to maybe recognize the simpler speech = ancient god thing)

ALL reacted shocked as hell at hearing you talk, and would probably explain (or Paimon before then?) in that infuriatingly roundabout way, that you would usually skip a couple dialogue boxes just to avoid bc yOU ALREADY GOT THE POINT or alternatively WHATS THE POINT HERE?? JUST SAY IT, WHATS THE COMMISSION/QUEST FOR/WHAT DO I DO??

(Those blue highlights be savin my impatient life, and i actually like lore stuff 💀)

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Oh that’s also another frustration. For you.

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It would drive me crazy if I had to wait like,, 2-3 minutes for ppl to explain what they ate for dinner or sm shit

Like, now imagine that’s everyone, about everything.

You don’t know how anything gets done in battles or wars, like you need faster communication for that right??💀

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Anyway, you, Aether and Paimon decide you just gotta not talk when you first meet people or like,, make sure you're gonna be around that person for a while so you don’t have to possibly get someone over the shock of your speech every time you guys talk to people 😭 that'd be so miserable I can already tell,,

Like at first, every convo ya’ll have had with people who recognize that direct speech trait as a thing, would take at least 10 minutes to finish talking about it/being shocked,,

It got so old so fast.

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(Like I already can’t communicate that good with ppl irl bc I misunderstand them, or they do me, or they just dont get what I mean, and as my friends put it, which I think would fit here for any language shenanigans we go thru in Teyvat, "A Shakespearean level of misunderstanding, hilarious but such a downward spiral to watch, it just gets more and more ridiculous as it goes on...")

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On another note, making fun of someone would be so fucking funny,

I’d like to give myself the benefit of the doubt that many characters, after getting used to your speech, would generally understand you (even if they always notice it, like an accent) and would actually rlly love hearing insults or even just generally how you would put things

(like maybe treating this almost like those vids of ppl with non-native english speaknig relatives/parents and its the most hilarious thing to watch them, usually get pissed 😭, at their kid, if u dont know what I mean look up on tiktok or smth)

And You just come off like those insults where you dont even use cuss words, you just like, drag queen read them into never showing their face again, and you did it in so few words!! 

They're amazed and oh, 

you've become the John Mulaney of Teyvat 

(Bad examples include:

Fontaine inventor: "...And I shall call my invention, crocks!"

You: "I wouldn't even be cremated in those." ) 

*Aether crying laughing in the background bc he never knows what you’re gonna say next, and Paimon's jaw dropped so hard

JFC this post is so long sorry, I probably will spam with a Part 2 but let me know if you’re interested in hearing more anyway!!

Thanks for reading this rambling!!

Or send in asks abt this 👀

Cheers,

🌒🌊🌧Aquarius♒️🌌🌘

#genshin sagau ideas #sagau #isekai #genshin god reader #genshin impact #genshin imagines #gender neutral y/n #gender neutral reader #genshin sagau #genshin isekai #going feral #genshin brainrot #genshin au

[skubean]

If you write for ten can you pls write one where the reader learns piano just to play with ren and ren is happy bcs of it 😭?

hi anon, thank you for the request! ren's actually one of the few that i used to watch, and i definitely loved this idea esp after the piano handcam stream SHASHAHSSDH. also losing my mind rn bcs ren's coming to nijigen but i'm too anxious to go to cons. anyways, hope you liked this <3 !

learning the piano for ren zotto!

summary: you decided to learn the piano for ren after seeing him play one day, and it comes of as a shock to the man, especially when it's something he's very passionate about.

notes: gender neutral reader, mentions of being in a relationship, just some fluff as per usual! slight mentions of misunderstandings but plenty of fluff afterwards.

it's not a surprise to you anymore everytime you come home and hear music coming from his room, or his studio. you know ren's passionate about music, and you've always been his #1 supporter. you've been there when he was working on songs in his studio and he's always letting you be the first to listen. he loves music, you know so. but lately, you've been so busy that you haven't had the time to indulge in his interests that you could sense ren being hesitant around you. when you asked him if anything was wrong, he shrugged it off and said that he was just worried he was bothering you with the noises, eventhough you've reassured him that you don't mind. the lack of communication probably got the best of you because you both ended up having trouble talking after some time, especially with how hard it is to see each other (since you're too busy). you know ren loves music and you know it's something that means a lot to him, and you want to cheer him up! also, as a sort of apology for not being able to be around after you've been so busy. so one morning, you wake up feeling the warmth of his body engulfing you in a hug as the bright shades of outside shine on you face. you groan before turning around to face him. ren was still sleeping, with his face squished against the pillow, mouth slightly opened. you giggled, and nestled closer into his chest, before feeling him squirm and hug you closer. "mmm.. don't go yet, love..stay with me some more..", he says as he basically locks you in his arms. "okay", was simply what you responded and nuzzled closer to him.

silence. that is until ren grabs you with a smile on his face. "wait, really? you're not busy anymore?", he asks you as he cups your cheeks and plants kisses all over your face. hearing him laugh made you laugh too as you shook your head explaining to him how you're done with whatever was keeping you occupied. truth be told, ren never wanted to pry into your business, so he never really asked what was causing you to be so busy. but, one thing for sure is that he's hella glad he has the whole day to spend with his beloved s/o. "well, actually. i was gonna show you something", you said as you dragged ren into his studio where his piano was in. ren, puzzled as he is, follows you behind until he sees you sitting in front of his piano with the brightest smile he'd ever seen. you signal ren for him to stand near you as you clumsily open the piano, and attempt to play his song, 'blue sugar'. you were so focused on getting the notes right, that you didn't even notice how serious you looked, only relaxing after hearing ren laugh. you were embarrassed, but it helped you relax. you could sense ren coming closer before he scooted next to you and played alongside you while he sang. it was amazing, how you felt so happy, and how endearing the whole entire thing was, especially seeing how relieved ren looked after you were done. here you were, two grown ups, just woken up and being all giddy in front of the piano. "what's this? when did you learn to play, y/n?", ren faces you as he plants a soft kiss on your cheek before pulling you closer. "hmmm..i don't know, maybe i was so busy learning the past few weeks, maybeeee", you exclaimed as you see the gears turning in his head. so that's why you've been so busy, he thought. he couldn't hide the soft, warm feeling engulfing his chest. he loved you like crazy, the things you'd do for him, and how just a gesture like this was enough to prove to him how much he's addicted to you. you both spent the rest of the day cuddled up in his studio as he teaches you more about piano, more so as compensation for not learning with him beforehand. (he was pouty you learnt it from someone else). needless to say, ren zotto loves music. but, he definitely loves you more. so imagine the look on his face when his favourite person learnt how to play his favourite instrument all for him.

a/n: sorry this ended up being a little self-indulged sksksks i wrote this without any drafts so it might be a bit loopy. <3 beanz

#ren playing instruments is a blessing to my ear #ren zotto x reader #nijisanji x reader #nijisanji en x reader #ren zotto #iluna #iluna x reader #njsj x reader #njsj en x reader

[all444miles]

songs that remind me of atsv characters! (series)

summary: just me saying what artists atsv characters would listen to, songs by said artists that js scream "(character)", albums, and lyrics that just make it make sense, yk?

warnings: pretty small spoilers, i suggest you watch the movie before reading this, of course!

a/n: i'm not proofreading this, so there might be some spelling mistakes. sorry if you see any, but enjoy! i also don't expect this to blow up, but reblogs r appreciated! (i will make a pt.2 if this gets enough attention, btw)

miles morales (1610)

miles to me seems like a future, frank ocean, kendrick lamar, steve lacy, PARTYNEXTDOOR, brent faiyaz/sonder and a lil sza, cuz lets be fr, its sza, kinda guy. he's the kinda guy to love music for the meaning, as long as its got a good beat to it. now, song wise?

solo by future, for sure. you can just listen to it and be like "yeah, thats miles." especially the lyrics, "i been solo now, i've been goin solo now". reminds me when he says "nah, ima do my own thing" in the movie.

her way by partynextdoor. this song feels like a song he'd play while he's drawing (coughs, drawing gwen for the 70th time) the lyrics, "She wasn't on a roll, now she roll with a winner" reminds me of gwen n miles cuz at first, when they met, it was kind of just the two of em, but now she's out with the spider society (well, she was) with hobie and patvir, "rollin with winners."

miles + brent faiyaz = perfection. needed portrays miles when he finds out about his friends' betrayal perfectly. "you and your friends, rammed my name to the ground." makes you think about the scene where he realises they knew what would happen to his father all along.

infrunami by steve lacy. ive seen this on tiktok too many dayum times not to include it lmaoo gwen and miles. every word of that song screams gwen and miles, but esp "can you come back to me? cuz I was blind to see that you were right infront of me." just remember that scene where miles was upside down infront of gwen and moved closer to kiss her but didnt cuz he was invisible? yeah, those exact lyrics match that exact moment and we ALL know it!

Let 'em know by bryson tiller. Ian even gonna go into the details but we all know why. "mf im him" (miles is him and always will be fr)

long time - intro by playboi carti. i also will try not to go tm into details but "i aint felt like this in a long time, i aint had shit in a long time" cuz miles hasn't had that "its me, myself and i (corny ik)" kind of vibe in a while. and "i'd rather die before i come in last" but think of it in a sense than he'd rather die than stand back and let his dad pass.

this is how it feels by d4vd and laufey. no explanation needed (ive js been talking tm), gwen and miles and their relationship

open arms by sza! i also think this song really reminds me of gwen and miles but miles' character overall, yk? gwen and miles primarily because "i gotta let you go i must, you're the only one that's holding me down." that "goodbye gwen", the look on his face while he says it and those lyrics make alot of sense together.

and yk what? loveeeeee song by rihanna, cuz why not.

i'm not gonna go too much into details with this so album wise:

sonder son by brent faiyaz

sos (slightly) by sza

starboy and after hours by the weeknd

DAMN. by kendrick lamar

petals to thorns by d4vd

call me if you get lost by tyler, the creator

her loss (coughs, spin bout U) by drake

a/n 2: and, thats all! i hope y'all enjoyed these hcs and found them accurate, as i said ill make a pt2 if this gets enough recognition! see ya'll soon <3

©all444miles 2023

- likes, comments, asks, n reblogs are rlly appreciated ! <3

#this is all canon idc #cuz i acc spent too long on this LMAO #pls dont let this flop #spiderman au #spiderverse au #spiderman atsv #spiderman #miles morales #atsv hcs #atsv miles #atsv headcanons #atsv #atsv miles morales #miles morales headcanons #miles morales hcs #spiderman: across the spiderverse #spiderman across the spiderverse

[a-libra-writes]

HIII!! can i ask, how do you write Mordecai Heller?? THANK YOUU!!

hmm Ill try to answer this best I can and try not to ramble too long but we'll see how that goes... Im not gonna act like im an expert or whatever, this is just my thought process ig? ALSO Im ace and so is he, and I add my own experiences into my writing. Anyway the long version here:

so first thing's first!! READ THE COMIC ALSO THE SIDE COMICS ALSO ALL THE EXTRAS bc esp the extras, you get to see a lot of his personality pre-Marigold. It's two very distinct points in his life - I'd venture to say that pre-Lackadaisy and early Lackadaisy Mordecai are also very different (and that makes sense - he was a kid, and he was with the Lackadaisy crew for 7 years). He has a very distinct character progression that in my opinion is very interesting and well-written!

actually, p much all lackadaisy characters are well-written, but mordecai is a fun case because he just has so much going on: his social skills are abysmal, and he doesn't seem to find it a problem. he has committed brutal murders and executions and considers them 'just business'. he doggedly pursues discrepancies. he fixates on things being neat and symmetrical if possible. He can deal with things not being that way, for a time (note when he's covered in bloody and filthy from a job, he doesn't freak out - because that's Business (tm) and he can just wash up anyway. But a driver getting a snot mess all over the car he has to drive in all the time? Unforgivable.) he grew up in squalor and has a serious phobia of spiders and rats. He's emotionally repressed in more ways than one. He's queer and is deeply uncomfortable with people (especially women) touching him or showing interest. He still thinks about his sisters fondly. he also thinks they're better off without him. He actually found a friend (or more) in Viktor and he'd never, ever, ever say it, and his way of keeping his friend out of crime and 'protecting' him was by shooting his kneecaps. his sense of humor is crap, and he doesn't understand why his mannerisms would be considered amusing. he got into crime at a young age, doing gangster's finances for them. as a kid.

im missing some other tidbits, but you get it. the dude is real interesting to think about and write, to say the least.

I think a lot of writing mordecai, esp if you're writing a more romantic fic or even if it's just platonic - he's so closed off! part of why the Savoys are so interested in him is they've worked with him a year and he just doesn't loosen up or talk much about himself. he and viktor knew each other seven whole-ass years and you think they ever talked about their families? how they came to know atlas? what they thought about the job? granted, Viktor is just as closed-off himself, but you get what im saying. he has a serious problem with letting people in, and part of writing him is getting a crowbar and figuring out which spot to put it in and bend it juuuust enough to open something up.

ok that metaphor went somewhere weird, but you get me. and, if im being honest, a LOT of what i channel is my own asexual experience. I used to be very touch averse, especially to the opposite gender - to the point where i'd panic if I felt a man was "too close" (i.e. less than 2 feet) and "lingering" (aka minding his business). I didnt mind my friends hugging me, but I didnt really like the cuddle sessions my female friends wanted to do, and after a point, I disliked hugs from my male friends. if a guy was crushing on me? Hell no, he wasnt going near me, even if I thought he was cute too (when I was younger I DEF had a thing for my female friends too, but i registered that as 'gaaaaal paaaals' for the LONGEST time until I accepted I was bi) There was like - an undercurrent of fear and anxiety. It took me a long time to identify why. while other people seemed delighted when people they liked held their hands and hugged and kissed, it sent me into a panic.

eventually i figured out my thought process: physical affection will inevitably lead to sex, and bc i thought i was straight, there was the terrifying thought of ... oh god if i date a guy he'll expect me to have sex. oh no oh no oh no-

(and no, no one taught me much about consent or taking things slow or talking to your partner. i had to figure it out, which sucked.)

all this to say ... when I write Mordecai, especially in a romantic sense, I kind of channel that anxiety I felt in my teens and early 20s. and like, this is the 1920's!!!!* Not to mention his upbringing, and of course his line of work - where he definiately cant have feelings getting in the way of murdering someone. I think this adds up to someone whose repressing themselves - their sexual thoughts (or lack thereof), memories of family, romantic thoughts, platonic thoughts, and so on.

I like to think - again, this is fanfiction, I seriously doubt it'll come up in the comics - in a romantic relationship (or even an intense platonic one), he gets intense about it. Because Mordecai is an intense guy - you can't hatchet up someone "because i was told to", or kneecap a friend you wanted to "protect", or switch sides to your father figure's rival and pretend like you betrayed everyone just to investigate that father figure and not be, uh. some kind of Intense. I often think that, in a relationship, his jealousy and confusion/apprehension around affection and sexuality would be just as intense. And eventually, the feelings of loyalty and devotion ... once he finally lets himself have it. Because I also think, to some degree, he doesn't think he should have it - just like he thinks his sisters and mother should just leave him behind.

when im writing him in the romantic sense - as I began to accept and understand my sexuality, and talk through my feelings with my partner (also generally have better mental health, my touch averseness got a lot better.** Again, Im also kind of projecting my feelings and experiences onto Mordecai regarding this. I like to think that, once he really trusts someone and allows them to touch him, other barriers begin to tumble down. its like raw nerves being touched sometimes, but he steadily gets used to it and eventually takes solace in it (now getting him to ADMIT that srfjsdfs--)

anyway! As always, fanfic is fanfic. You are free to characterize this murdercat however you wish. These are just the jumbled thoughts that run around in my brain.

* Asexuality, like homosexuality and many shades of queerness, was considered an illness. IF anyone even acknowledged asexuality at all - its definition and terminology hadn't really caught on until the 1970's, though the Kinsey scale attempted to address it (and Jennie June attempted to write and define this in the 1920s, but I seriously doubt her writings were widespread).

**A stranger can brush past me or put a hand on me and I only have a few seconds of anxiety. My friends and family can hug me for a while, or I can cuddle up to them. I don't mind my husband cuddling or kissing me at all anymore; he's actually the one person I can tolerate sustained affection from. A huge part of this change came from accepting and understand my asexuality as part of me. I wasnt "messed up" and "broken".

#libra yaps and talks and doesnt shut up !!!! challenge #libra says #mordecai heller x reader #kinda ?? idk what do i tag this #the lackadaisy tag doesnt need my shit LOL

[mod2amaryllis]

just gonna sliiide into your inbox to be like. got any complicated relationship with motherhood recs?? cause I'm👀

👁️👁️ b i s c i a.

the first rec is always for all time The Broken Earth trilogy by NK Jemisin

talk about books that changed my brain chemistry and boosted my writing, especially the fifth season, which pulls a narrative trick with its 3 main character perspectives that still has me reeling and makes me resent the fact that not every protagonist is an exhausted middle aged mother who's haunted by choices and horrors of her own making!!

The Devourers by Indra Das

a take on werewolves that's at times genuinely sickening to read, esp for my body-horror-scawy ass. lot of upsetting themes fyi, like. all the themes. are upsetting. but i was left feeling like I'd just gotten the world's most dire hug. also trans allegory out the wazoo.

i feel like this one is really obligatory like yeah no shit Beloved by Toni Morrison but still: Beloved by Toni Morrison

I've never felt smart enough for this book but i think about it constantly, not just because the contents are so traumatic but the way it's written..... even now i feel like such a dunce trying to say anything about it but it's like. it broke rules in my brain about how books are supposed to be structured and understood. there's a chapter that ends in a stream of thought that's borderline incomprehensible and it's in my head forever.

ok little different now and largely positive mushy gushy mom stuff, but a lot of Brandi Carlile's songs, especially The Mother:

and her whole In These Silent Days album. particularly it's celebrating lesbian motherhood. Mama Werewolf is awesome and introduces that complication that makes me ravenous, but my favorite is her love song to her wife, You And Me On The Rock

there's a song exploder podcast episode about it. she talks about how it's an homage to her good friend Joni Mitchell, how it's about this very feminine love she shares with her wife and daughter (and now also her son) and how she spent some of her youth grappling with that femininity.

speaking of song exploder!!!!!! the episode for Song For Our Daughter by Laura Marling

Laura Marling and her partner don't have children. this song is a hypothetical about the trauma of being a girl and having your boundaries crossed when you're young. but what absolutely destroys me is that there's a string section, which was written by a violinist to whom she gave creative liberty, and in his strings he says, "i wrote this to be the character of The Daughter, so she's here in the song soaring over everything" and it just. hearing the context and then listening to the song........i show this episode to anyone who's stuck in a car with me 25 minutes.

on the subject of music, of course there's Florence + The Machine's 2022 album Dance Fever, particularly King

like hell yeah let's get primal with it

and ok this is gonna clock my grew up as a theatre kid ass but still, to this day, Next To Normal.

listening to this show as a teenager who was just starting to hate my (wonderful awesome love her) mom was like......hoooooo. it blew open the my-parents-are-human empathy. idc about like whether or not this musical lives up to the insane hype it got in the late 2000s it just meant a lot to me personally.

also there's movies i guess! but if you're not already on the Everything Everywhere All At Once train idk what we're doing

then my oldest mom-centric media of all, so old that I'm not even sure how well it holds up to my current person sensibilities, Fruits Basket

the way her death is the inciting incident for everything that happens after, and how she's a ghost that haunts the rest of the story, at times a protective spirit and at other times a traumatic poltergeist, is like. i thought i was a 13yo reading a magical high school romance what's happening to me.

then of course the current rec, Priestdaddy by Patricia Lockwood

Lockwood is a poet and this is her memoir about growing up with a Catholic priest for a dad, something that in itself seems contradictory. it's phenomenal. i can't believe someone exists who's this good at writing. her relationship with her mother is hilariously, tenderly depicted and it's questioning and resentful and loving and there's a chapter about them called the cum queens of the hyatt palace and it's the funniest thing I've ever read

oops too many words

motherhood in media borders on fixation for me lol i don't always seek it out but when it's there I'm like AAAAAAAAH, AAAAAAAH AAAAAAAAAAAAH AAAAAH IS ANYONE ELSE SEEING THIS GRAAAAAHHHH!!!!

........oh and undertale. how could i forget Undertale.

#m2a #m2answers #not tagging all this shit lol yeah right!!!!! #i get into parent stuff in my writing every chance i freaking get #stream joat ch114 The Mother like comment subscribe for more toriel content

[graceful-not]

OKAY SEE THE THING IS: I LIKE the premise of the diabolical box, I just think it was executed terribly.

SPOILERS FOR EVERYTHING IN THE SECOND LAYTON GAME UNDER THE CUT-

THEY SHOULD HAVE FORESHADOWED THE HALLUCONENIC GAS PLOT!!! The thing about this game is that it starts MUCH too lighthearted!! Layton and Luke shouldn't have been so OKAY after the whole thing, BOTH mentally AND physically!!! Curious Village's vibe was very.. unsettling in a way that the other games weren't, Diabolical Box should have pushed that up to 10000! The townspeople should have been less... forward; the bellhop that interrupts Beluga??? was he real? and you're telling me that everyone in the room had the same hallucination of this one guy????? the person that interrupts Beluga should have been someone previously established on the train that tagged along. OR KATIA!!! IT COULDVE BEEN KATIA!!!!!!!!!! IT SHOULDVE BEEN KATIA! AND THE PERSON THAT STOPS THEM ON THEIR WAY TO THE CASTLE IN THE FOREST???? WAS HE REAL??? the villagers were so NORMAL and I think some of them should have been a little more...there should've been an NPC that, when you click on them, says nothing, and doesn't respond to either of the duos attempts to talk to them, just staring into space. and as Luke steps forward the person Walks Away and you never see them again. There should have been weird shadowy specters when you turn the corner and Luke's like "PROFESSAH did you see that?" and Laytons like "See what? Did you notice something, Luke?" and Luke just shakes it off. There should have been rumors of spirits to make the shadow hallucinations easier to fold in before the reveal. Do you get it. When they got to the castle it should increase tenfold. The professor should have stumbled. Should have lost his composure more than just "No, we need to keep moving, Luke, we're so close, we can't stop yet!" Their vision should have blurred a little. Esp during their time in the village! THEY SHOULD HAVE BEEN INCREDIBLY SICK AT THE END!!! Luke should have passed out when they opened the box (there's no way he didnt think he was gonna die) and it should have been INCREDIBLY nerve wracking and terrifying!! Do you understand me!! Also they could have Flora be there to Save Them (she managed to get in contact with people and rushed back w/ another inspector, or maybe Chelmey helps her when he gets there,) (also I want this to happen so that there's some form of narrative justification for her absense other than 'we didn't want her in the plot' shdhjsbs) only to see the professor on his last limb and Luke PASSED OUT on the rock! The last scene between Katia and Anton is still there though before Flora gets there I like it it's very sweet and sad. but EVERYONE (including Katia and Anton) is EVACUATED and the last animated scene is the Professor and Flora sitting next to Luke's hospital bed w/ the article about the miracle cure for his mentor. And everyone's fine at the end but we should be SCARED that they ARENT! They set up all of the "people were getting sick and dying etc etc etc" thing and that SHOULD BE AFFECTED LUKE AND LAYTON!! When they first get into the cave Luke should comment that it's a little difficult to breathe and the professor should say something like "it must be the air pressure difference in the cave" and when they read the journal it should be like "people keep saying it's hard to breathe, even in the town. Some of them are even dying from it" and make the reader go 'Oh! OH SHIT!!' y'know???? like. URGH. MAKE THEM SICK!! THEY SHOULD BE SICK!!!!!!

#professor layton #professor layton and the diabolical box #professor layton and pandora's box #hershel layton #luke triton #flora reinhold

[birlwrites]

my mind took "you're a mckinnon now" and ran and i've spent the last 3 days trying to make my thoughts into somewjat coherent, okay, i'm going to try to explain it now:

the mckinnons sort of… absorb families/bloodlines. that's why it's not very common for other sacred 28 purebloods to marry a mckinnon, and if they do, it's always a woman bc she's expected to give up her family name when she marries anyways

what i mean by absorb is that many of their spouses—both husband's & wives—are either only children (so the bloodline & family name continues thru them) (ends w them) or (esp for the men) don't mind giving up or don't want to keep their fam name

it isn't meant malicious now, when the mckinnons aren't sooo idk. extreme? but a few centuries ago? maybe their spouses weren't so cool with their kids being mckinnons…with being the last of their family (bc we know names & bloodlines are really important in wizarding britain)

and their family magic is spiritual, right? idrk how you mean by that, maybe you'll expand further as marlene gets a bit more involved in ttdl? but rn i've sort of related it like spirit→magic→blood. so if they're like, collecting? magical bloodlines? maybe that'd influence some magic & rituals. + old-age ideas of like absorbing magical bloodlines into your own

did that all make sense? i'm sending this to you because it won't leave me alone and ive got no one else to tell it to, sorry

ajglshkdjfsd ive been trying to think of like, a Deep and Intelligent response and i s2g the only image in my brain is the mckinnons' house opening its front door and going 'om nom nom' whenever one of the mckinnons brings their s/o home to meet the family

one very important thing about the mckinnon family specialty is that it is large-scale. on the most fundamental level, the more people they have, even if not all of their people were born with an affinity for their specialty, even if not all of their people have ties to any other important people, the more powerful they are as a family. the mckinnon specialty doesn't really require a powerful innate affinity in order to be used, although that helps - what it does require is LOTS OF PEOPLE

dark affinities will... decline if they're not used, if that makes sense? it's a combination of the dilution of successive generations having a smaller and smaller share of that affinity, and the lack of usage meaning that the body's capability for that magic decreases over time. this is why the specialties are still so distinct between different families, even after generations of intermarrying - you have to practice your specialty to keep your affinity for it strong and ensure that you'll pass it on to your kids. that's only passingly related to what you were talking about but since you mentioned collecting bloodlines i thought i'd mention it

the mckinnons are collectively like one enormous sponge for magical knowledge as well afjshglksjdf - oh you want to marry a mckinnon but you also want to keep the details of your inherited specialty secret from them because of loyalty to your original house? Too Bad. They're Gonna Find Out One Way Or Another And You Probably Won't Even Regret Telling Them

#dark lord wip #should i make an inbox tag #atfhv worldbuilding

[qprstobin]

Re:Steve being written as oblivious post: Steve would probs clock Eddies flirting, decide he wants to roll with it and be like 'yeah were taking it slow ig things have been so crazy for him lately it makes sense he's taking his time to make a move' while Eddie would go through 5 stages of grief every day with 'unrequited' pinning and Robbin would be freaking out she's being replaced as a bff bc Steve suddenly wants to spend time alone with Eddie & keeps talking how cool he is. Will would clock Eddie pinning but not Steve bc he never saw sb happy and confident with being queer. Dustin & the hellfire would see the tension but not know where it's coming from & Max & Erica would be the closest to cracking it but they're too cool to get involved & too busy helping El fit in back into Hawkins. Steve would only be oblivious to everyone being so anxious bc let's be real it's Hawkins they're always anxious so everyone is spiralling while Steve is having the happiest gayest time of his life

(opened my laptop to realize I never posted this I AM SO SORRY)

I'm gonna be frank and say I don't agree with all of this but also this made me giggle SO MUCH and I love it. I think that Steve would tell Robin that he is crushing on Eddie and thinks he has a chance, because they talk about everything and esp potential dates and Robin is torn between being happy and pretty sure that Eddie reciprocates but mainly just doesn't want Steve to get hurt because Eddie is pretty fucking weird and who knows how serious he is with all of his weird comments.

While I enjoy an Eddie who gets in over his head because he wasn't prepared for an object of flirtation to turn it back on him, I do also enjoy him just not thinking he has any chance and so is like, oh man these intricate straight jock rituals are intense, I hope this doesn't awaken anything in me I'm already ass over tea kettle about this man.

I totally agree with you about Will and Dustin and Hellfire sooo much. Will would definitely be like oh man I recognize that look of gay yearning but would think any vibes he was picking of from Steve were either wishful thinking or just Steve being Steve because Steve is honestly kind of weird too. Bc you're exactly right he probably would struggle with realizing that the weird vibes are Steve being if not completely comfortable, at least comfortable enough to go after a cute guy he's pretty sure is into him.

Dustin and Hellfire would have NO idea what it is they are picking up on dfgsiodj, especially Dustin. Hellfire it all depends on which members if any that Eddie is out to, and even then they would not likely be all that confident in Steve's intentions. Dustin most assuredly thinks that for some reason that Steve and Eddie don't like each other, or that something happened when they were all stuck in the Upside Down that they aren't talking about. I think if one or both of them came out to him, he would be able to put together the dots, but he definitely would not come to that conclusion on his own he is under the impression both of them are straight and have no reason to think otherwise.

I think you are most right about Steve not being oblivious to Eddie's affections, but he doesn't actually realize the chaos he is sewing by being impulsive with Eddie idrgjsirgjsr. There is too much going on for him to quite realize how weirdly his actions are being taken. Like I think he knows that he needs to be somewhat subtle because like he lives in rural Indiana in the 80s but that doesn't mean he isn't flagging as being up to something and really fucking weird. At least one person just thinks he has a new girlfriend that he won't introduce to them, but which isn't right but also is maybe closer than they realize? It's all just, so many shenanigans. Steve has never actually learned to be normal in his life

#steddie #asks #anonymous #anon #steve #eddie #the party #not tagging everyone #this was a lot of fun to read and then ramble about thank u for sending it to me

[resistance-squad]

Dear Persecutors (from one persecutor to others)

(I know not every system likes or uses that word, but I can't be the only one who feels like "yeah, that fits me" right? And this probably won't fit for everyone but I wanna say to you what I really wanted someone to say to me before.)

I see you.

I see that you're hurting. I know that you might feel like you're a bad person, but you aren't. Even if the others in your system think you're a bad person it doesn't mean you actually are.

A lot of the time others in our systems don't understand us. They think we're just mean. And sometimes we might say they're right, either cause we really started to think about ourselves like that or cause it's safer to say "yeah I just hate you all" than to say "I'm actually really scared".

Sometimes they expect us to open up to them but they haven't really given us any reason to trust them. They don't realize how often they ignore us, shut us out, judge the stuff we like, etc and it can feel like they just don't even care.

Sometimes they say they want us to open up to them but really they're trying to change us for their own comfort. It's not fair for them to expect us to just suddenly be happy and trusting and stuff. Esp cause a lot of the time it feels like they just want that for their own comfort in "dealing with us" and not really caring about how we feel. And sometimes when they're nice to us it feels like they just want us to not be persecutors anymore without actually understanding us, like being nice without actually trying to understand us.

It's ok if you're not ready to "feel better" yet. It's ok if you can't trust you're "safe" yet. When people get all impatient about it they forget that trying to MAKE somebody to feel safe is literally like the least safe feeling thing ever. And it's ok if you don't want to tell the rest of your system how you really feel if you don't trust them right now.

We aren't like this cause we think it's fun. (Like I said sometimes persecutors might say it is but that's like I mean how else can we cope with having to act like that?) We persecute cause we don't know what else to do with how scared and angry we are, or cause we thought we could stop other people from hurting us like that, or cause someone taught us we had to be like this, or cause it hurts less to get abused if we think we deserve to get hurt.

You deserve to have people in your system forgive you. Being a persecutor can feel like if you gave somebody CPR but you broke their rib but you saved their life and instead of being like wow thank you for saving my life, they acted like you're the worst person ever cause you broke their rib while saving their life. Like hello I was saving your life ok.

And you deserve to have someone listen to your feelings when you're ready to talk about them. And I mean really listen. To all of them even the most angriest ones. Not just "listen" like "I wanna listen and figure out how I can make you be nice to me now" but like actually listen like "I wanna understand you cause I see you're hurting and you don't have to be hurting all alone anymore". And you also deserve to get to open up about your feelings when YOU want to not on somebody else's timeline. Like who's gonna feel supported by someone trying to MAKE you open up about stuff that hurts.

And it's ok if you want people in your system to be gentle to you. Cause practically everybody wants that deep down when they're scared or sad, nobody wants people to be mean to them. But it's also ok if that's like too much and it feels scary or it hurts too much. And it's ok if you can't say that's why you're getting angry about it cause you don't know how or you don't trust them enough.

Like it's ok to be a persecutor. You aren't a bad person for being one. I know hearing that might make you mad cause it hurts to hear it sometimes. But you're doing your best and even if the rest of your system doesn't see it I do.

(Non-persecutors can reblog for the persecutors in their systems or for signal boosting or to understand where we're coming from better but this post is for persecutors, this is not the place for "but my persecutor did this!" type stuff.)

#🦁 #actuallydid #actually did #complex dissociative disorder #persecutors #did persecutor #dissociative identity disorder #did osdd

[ruvi-muffin]

it's weird, i keep seeing people who thought callowmoore was never a thing, but i saw them as flirty for ages

like, the kiss on the forehead that was hard to steal back at minimum

See, that's what's so fun is like... so much of the "i saw it coming" feeling comes from having had similar experiences.

I'm a lesbian so i usually catch it when girls have crushes in media (esp the friendly, tease flirting that girls will do sometimes), but boys are harder for me to clock

I Still don't rly See dorym or even widojest, despite knowing that caleb has a crush on jester canonically, and seeing people react to dorym very strongly, i Am genuinely trying to see if i can clock it, and i kinda do, but it's never like "oh i get it" like i am with some other characters. (Also did not see widomauk and still don't if i'm honest). It all just went over my head for years, even tho in hindsight it makes sense.

But i caught Veth's crush on caleb back when she was still Nott, and i caught that Fearne might be a bit bashful around Ash in ways she's not w chetney (plus they litterally kiss so there is That)

Nott was very adamant about the "he's my boy" thing in a way that sounded to me like "jee leave us alone w our bussiness gd" which i Also have experience doing. But people who don't, will just take her word for it and are Horrified when i say i read that statement as her covering, like: "im an adult woman with complicated feelings about the man im sharing a bed with bc he views me as a child bc i am actively lying about my identity and age" ya kno? Things like that are up for interpretation but it makes Sense that i view it that way.

And i've talked to ppl who are nb and into men who Really enjoy orym and ashton together, and like, i don't see it personally, but that makes sense to me when you consider that im nb and Not into men 😆 i'm just projecting what i know, and what i don't know goes over my head Entirely (like most of mr.o'brien's more subtle acting).

Cr at large is also subtle in that it doesn't have Framing the way a book or movie does. The closest we get is matt narrating to close in on a shot or narrative thread, but most of the dynamics all happen at once, so unless you're keyed in, you can easily miss things, or read things that werent intended by the actors, which then begs the question of: is it there at all?

But ye, shipping is Interesting in that way and the way that that emotion interacts w the source matterial is very facinating to me

But yes, i do feel validated that i was correct abt both fearne and ashton even tho it was only a hunch for a long time. For me, i was only convinced after Ashley talked about fearne not being as open as she seems, on 4sd, in regards to romance. Like she's not one to get Attached... Unless.... XD

aw bby gurl don't i know the feeling, my god. Never fall in love w ur chaotic gremlin bestie it's gonna get Complicated

#muffin rambles #ask a muffin #al1lowing me to ramble abt shipping is a risky endeavour anon but ty for indulging me XDD

[frecklystars]

Omg your newest art is so cute, I live to see these interactions between the various Ryan characters! Do you have any headcanons/thoughts about how they’d interact with each other that you feel like sharing? Like who instantly click? Did any start off confused or exasperated by the other at first but then unexpectedly bond hardcore over time? There’s such a range of characters that it’s fascinating to me to think about! 🐢

TURTLE ANON HIIIII :D I was just thinking about u the other day I hope you're doing well!!! <3 !!!!

AHHH AND THANK YOU!!!! Thank you for enjoying my art!!!!!!!! Goodness that means everything to me ahhh I appreciate youuuu 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 Ever since I've decided all of Ryan's characters spend time in one big room in BarbieLand I've been having sooo much fun daydreaming about it everyday sdflkjsldkff I love thinking about all kinds of shenanigans ensuing!!

I AM SO HAPPY YOU ASKED 👀 OKAY SO at least in my head, I like thinking about Ken being "the leader" of everyone since he's the first Ryan F/O I've ever had (and he's the favorite)! I think about all of Ryan's characters (the ones on my F/O list anyway) being in a big, open room in the Mojo Dojo Casa House, except Ken calls this place the "Mojo Dojo Casa Keri Ken Dreamhouse" and yes he WILL repeat that phrase every time someone asks in a baffled tone "the what?" and most of the time, it's the characters chilling out, waiting for me to come back from whatever other dimension. Or just chilling because their dimensions (aka movies) are STRESSFUL to be in... I can imagine Luke is constantly visiting BarbieLand like "hey i'm gonna wait for Keri to come home so let me just chill here and crack open a beer with you" and Ken is like RIGHT ON, MY DUDE, I HAVE FIFTEEN MINI-FRIDGES FULL OF BREWSKIS WITH YOUR NAME ON 'EM BRO. I think most Ryan characters would consider Ken fairly strange and unusual, even aside from the whole "this is a human-sized talking doll made out of plastic and he never seems to be wearing a shirt", he's just so talkative and energetic all the time. but they grow to like him very very much because he's such a fun sweetie-pie, and honestly most of these characters have been through soooo much... interacting with Ken would probably be like a breath of fresh air for most of them, once they get to know him and adjust to his energy levels haha

I think, since Ken is the "leader", he makes it his ultimate MISSION to make sure all the "other Kens" get along with each other, and any time there's a "new guy" (like I'm gonna watch another movie and get a new Ryan F/O) he's like "you wanna date MY sweet girl?? you gotta promise you're gonna love Keri and keep her safe no matter WHAT!!! we are an ARMY of KENS and we FIGHT for our sweet girl!!" and he acts all tough and imposing but really he is just an excited golden retriever and he's so happy to be making new friends. I AM GONNA RAMBLE HOLD ON--

Who would instantly click? OOH, okay, Ken and Colt, for sure. They've got the same exact energy. "Your Kenergy is nuclear, bro" and Colt has no idea what that means but he is not questioning it, he's like, aw hell yeah thanks dude. These two are constantly high-fiving and fist-bumping or whatever else. Not to mention his name is literally Colt, you KNOW Ken would go crazy go stupid about his name meaning "a young horse under the age of four years old". He'd say something about that. Excitedly. While showing off all of his horse stuff in the Mojo Dojo Casa Keri Ken Dreamhouse. Colt's slightly confused and a little surprised by all of the horse stuff but he's just happy to be here, man.

I think Driver and Six would get along too -- not at first, though, they'd definitely be weary of each other for sure, at least in my opinion. I think they're both trained to be instantly weary of others, esp when they're protective for someone they care for, so for the first few meetings at the Dreamhouse they are just staring at each other and kind of being on edge bc they both Like Keri Very Much and they're internally like "I sense this guy is dangerous, is he potentially a threat?" Six is able to keep that part of himself, that violence, a bit more hidden since he's trained to; he makes a joke out of everything, he's leaning back on the couch in a faux relaxed position, yet still ready to defend if necessary, meanwhile Driver is deadly silent and that sleeping predator inside of him keeps one eye open, his body tense. Six is more of a relaxed kind of protective, this is his job and it's all he's known for two decades now ("just another Thursday") while Driver is a more violent, unhinged kind of protective, like he only attacks when he's a scared, cornered animal, but his heart is still in the right place. But I think once they get past that initial distrust/discomfort they'd have a mutual respect for each other. Adding my own self ships with them into the mix, I think they'd bond over protecting me and self assigning themselves as my own personal bodyguards hehe. Six insists Driver's gotta get himself a weapon if he's gonna be involving himself with criminals all the time and Driver's like "I don't carry a weapon. I drive." y'know all broody haha

Hmm who else who else. Lars!!! Lars would love Ken. Love his dollness. He'd find Ken comforting to be around, I think, and he'd enjoy all of the pink. Lars would be one of the only people who doesn't immediately find Ken strange. A talking doll, sure that sounds nice. A talking doll who Keri loves and trusts and finds comfort in, yeah that sounds lovely, he finds him lovely. Ken's plastic, Ken's not a warm flesh and blood person (or maybe in BarbieLand he feels like one, since it's all in your imagination? like how at the beach you can hear the waves and feel the water even though it isn't real? how you can taste the food in BarbieLand even if it's plastic? eh who knows)... regardless, I think he wouldn't find Ken as overstimulating as "real" people are, wouldn't flinch at his touch quite as much, though Ken would have to remind himself quite often that he needs to not be as touchy with Lars. Maybe the sights of BarbieLand would be a little too bright and flashy sometimes, maybe the crowds of people would feel overwhelming, so he'd just stay in the Dreamhouse and sit on the couch and read a book with Ken sitting beside him and offering plastic snacks.

Here's some other stuff I like to think about

Jacob and Six would joke around with each other a little bit, Holland too! Holland and Jacob can share a drink at the bar together! I haven't watched The Nice Guys yet but he seems very easygoing and funny from the gifsets I have seen :D

Jacob would try to get Ken to wear literally anything else. "This outfit is way too neon, bro, you wanna impress your girl looking like that when you go on your rollerblading dates? And what the hell is THIS outfit, what kind of -- you trying to be like Sylvester Stallone? It isn't happening. You've got great abs, I'll tell you that much, but you can't keep your shirts open all the time. Only keep 3 buttons opened, it's enough to tease, makes people wonder how many drinks it'll take to get under that shirt." Ken's like "wuhhh..." I think I talked about this with you in a previous ask where Jacob would try to get Driver to wear different clothes because that dude wears the same thing every single day. Sebastian, too, he's always telling him he needs to add more pizzazz to his plain shirts. Add a nice jacket or spiffy up the trousers a little. Seb's having none of it.

I think Luke and Julian would have a hard time getting along with others bc they seem to be the most violent. Maybe Driver would be Julian's favorite because Driver doesn't ask questions and Julian returns the courtesy. They're both violent and silent and uhh I have NOT watched Only God Forgives yet but I hear that is a gorefest also directed by Nicolas Winding Refn and Julian's only got 17 lines. Maybe they'd bond over that, even if wordlessly so? who knows haha. Luke is a more... impulsive kind of violent guy, maybe he'd have some kind of respect for Julian or something. or not. I need to watch the movie omg

Luke, Holland, and Dean can all take smoke breaks together. I feel like another character smokes a lot but I can't remember him at the top of my head...

Ken would think Luke's tattoos are So Cool. Six, too. I find the mental image quite funny: Driver, Six, Dean, and Luke all comparing their tattoos and finding out "hey, I have a barcode tattoo exactly like that on my left wrist!"

I think any character who is normally reserved/stoic would open up a little bit over time because they're around all of these other characters so often, especially Ken, who just radiates good vibes all the time and it rubs off on the others. Like for example I think Ken would ask Sebastian to play a song on his keyboard and Ken would dance to it, purposefully getting the rhythm wrong, trying to make Sebastian laugh -- it doesn't work... until Driver, who has been standing next to Ken and being silent and unmoving, suddenly breaks into this big dance number with him, and Sebastian loses his shit because he's not used to seeing Driver act like that. and Driver quickly stops dancing and acts as if it didn't happen. and when Seb asks him to do that move again he shrugs and says he has no idea what Seb's talking about. Seb tells the others what happened and nobody believes him.

Or another example I think about ALL the time is that maybe a group of characters are sitting around talking, someone says something funny, and Driver just... starts laughing. Like really, really laughing. And everyone freezes and stares at him because they're not used to that. And then they all try to make him laugh more bc it's such a nice sight.

INCREDIBLY self indulgent but this is my self shipping blog so I might as well be self indulgent LOL: Jacob taking pictures with his polaroid camera (I often give my main F/Os gifts bc I love associating them with my own things irl, and for Jacob instead of giving him an accessory/trinket like I give to most F/Os, I give him a camera -- what else can you gift to the man who owns everything?) and he's showing off photos to the others. "LOOK at this picture I took of Keri yesterday, she looks so cute eating her ice cream" and Ken's like "OGOOHGHGH MY SWEET GIRL WUHWUWGHUWHUUWH" and Driver is smiling without saying a word and the others are like "aw, that's so nice, she looks happy" meanwhile Ken is... like... exploding SDLFJSDLFKHSDKF

Luke swears so often I think it would make some characters uncomfortable, namely Lars and Ken. Lars would tend to distance himself from everyone naturally however so I don't think he'd interact with Luke too often anyways? Luke and Dean might get along a bit, they have the same chill vibe and they've stolen money before

Colt would be lowkey jealous that Ken doesn't have to work out to have great abs. He just has plastic abs forever. Colt and Six probably have the biggest tits muscles out of everybody and they're like "whoa bro... sick pecs... what's your workout routine??"

Colt would mention he's a stunt guy for movies and Ken would be like "oh so is Driver!!!" and Colt's like "oh that's so cool man" and maybe they'd bond over that a little bit too!

Dean and Driver would probably get along fine, but for my own self shipping scenarios they uh. have a little bit of beef with each other because one time Driver saw Dean put his jacket around my shoulders and Driver was like "...why is MY GIRL wearing ANOTHER MAN'S JACKET??? 😤😤😤" then he angrily messes with his Rubik's cube for half an hour, just sitting there fuming while Ken is like "haha wow Driver you look REALLY mad :) do you wanna talk about that"

Colt would get along with others easily I think BUT again just for my own self shipping universe + the fact that they all bond over being my F/Os when I think about this stuff, I think. everyone. would be so... idk. not wary of Colt but they wouldn't immediately welcome him either. Ken would definitely get along with him later but just for my own daydreams, at first Ken's like "my god I cannot compete with this guy. his muscles are insane. he's a stunt guy. he's funny. he's insanely skilled. I bet HE can shred waves without any problems. oh, no... he looks like Ryan Gosling" to which somebody else says "dude. we ALL look like Ryan Gosling" and Ken's like "OKAY BUT??? HE LOOKS LIKE A MUCH HOTTER VERSION OF MYSELF AND I CANNOT COMPETE WITH THAT???"

I am wracking my brain trying to think of how Officer K would be with everyone. He's quiet and reserved too. I think he'd be the most level-headed. Often putting his hand on Ken's shoulder when Ken is panicking over something minimal and saying "have patience, Keri will return home soon" or something. or maybe I have a nightmare and Driver's worried and not quite himself bc he's worried I had nightmares about him. so K's also saying in a quiet, level tone "all is well, she loves you, it's going to be all right" stuff like that. I think Lars would like sitting next to K because K isn't intimidating, he's got a very reserved sort of gentleness about him. Maybe Lars can sense that ache within him too, that isolated loneliness.

Everybody eating breakfast together, for the sake of the scenario let's pretend the food is real and not plastic -- Six absolutely housing everything in front of him because it's rare that he's able to eat without somebody threatening to stab him in the back. Six being relaxed in this place just in general, surrounded by friends and, y'know, not being hunted for sport. Officer K loving to eat literally anything given to him because he's spent his whole life eating bland noodles or whatever was made from those protein worm things. He eats a cheese sandwich and thinks it's the best meal of his entire life and he wants 15 more please. Also Colt reminding everyone "you need!!!! CARBS!!!!!" 🥪

I think it would take a while for Officer K to feel like he's "allowed" to enjoy any of this. The others would gently yet constantly coax him to do things he wouldn't feel like he's "allowed" to do. Eat good food and eat as much as he wants, watch a TV show/movie, actually sit back and relax on the couch while talking to others and not be so tense. Make eye contact without fear.

I would honestly love to hear YOUR thoughts on their interactions!!!! I haven't seen all of Ryan's movies yet, just a handful, so I don't have a whole lot of variety of his characters personalities and how they'd mesh/clash in my head quite yet. I'd love to hear what you can come up with :3c

Off topic, I think we super briefly talked about it, I think you're the one who recommended The Nice Guys to me awhile back -- I am finally watching it next month!!! WOO!!! WOO!!!! WOOHOOOOO I'm also gonna be watching The Ides of March next month. Stephen is so damn pretty omg I cannot wait to stare at him for an hour and a half

Btw did you ever happen to watch Drive? I think you said you wanted to but hesitated to since it's a gory film -- if you want, I have timestamps on ALL of the gore moments and I can give you a heads up on what happens, where it happens and when to expect it! I am the most squeamish person alive and there are a few moments I can handle and a few where I definitely have to look away. I have watched Drive almost every single week for the last... um... since September. So I've got those content warnings DOWN!! But if you aren't the person who told me that, uh don't worry about it SDLFJSDF but yeah let me know if you watch/have watched Drive because I'd love to hear your thoughts on that too :D !!!!!

#anonymous #asks #🐢 anon #OH AND!!!!! HOW IS YOUR ART COMING ALONG BRO???? have you been drawing more??? :D #also i answered this while sleep deprived so um. good luck reading this KFDHDFKDH #i hope this queues for the afternoon sometimes i accidentally queue things for 2am and not 2pm...

[6irlpet]

Mm im a virgin and im nervous about my first time can u give me some tips

hmmmmmm ok ok ok ill try

first of all its normal to be shy/nervous but anyone who's worthy as a partner isnt gonna make u feel weird or bad about that. if they do they r not the one!

be safe 😑 similarly anyone who doesnt respect your wishes for things like... condoms, lube, or what u dont want to do, etc etc is not the one!!! never Ever not just for first times!!!! it is OK to not be comfortable with certain things!!!! i know this sounds like elementary advice but a lot of people think they know it, then freeze up in the actual situation :(

wear s/t that makes u feel cute and confident (doesnt have to be crazy lingerie just like. favorite pair of underwear ukno!) and i like to Always shower day of + wash downstairs like 5 mins before sex bc its (1) clean (2) less anxiety on my part

tbh dont build it up in ur head as something that HAS to be perfect and romantic or whatever....... maybe i'm just not a very romantic person (yes) but virginity is not a big deal imo? u wouldnt expect to be good at any hobby with your first attempt, your goal should just be to have fun. and its practice! u get better lol. like unless its the only time you're planning on having sex ever in your whole life it's ok if the planets didn't align or whatever, just learn what worked/what didnt and carry it with u for a better next time!

Have Fun!!!! even when i have someone tied up i love talking/teasing, laughing with them, etc etc... esp since i'm not very dominant and just top 4 friends, i try not to get frozen in my head about what i ~should~ be acting like. i'll go with what feels natural (it all comes easier than you'd think in the moment honestly) and try to channel a bit of what i know they like. but if ur sexy character breaks or whatever , its ok... have fun with it... just be urself fr... i know that sounds corny but its true!! just have fun and anyone who is worth it is gonna giggle along with u. sex is FUN its a connection with someone, an interaction between bodies, making e/o feel good, let it be natural.

dont be afraid to mention if something doesnt feel good? so many of my friends have told me like, "i didnt like when my parter did this / it turned me off or hurt" and i was appalled, like... tell them??? u can move someones hand elsewhere, u can Communicate. when im topping i like to ask 'is that ok? that feel good? can i touch u here?' etc. u can make it sexy by saying it teasingly, but it gives a real window for someone to say if its not.

this isnt possible for every situation but i think it is worth it to have your first experiences b with someone you trust. it doesn't have to be romantic but i think you're a lot more relaxed if you are comfortable with the person. a lot of my firsts were forced/not rly fun, my first Sex was while intoxicated w/ a guy i'd only known a few days + first kink experiences were also random rushed unsafe stuff. i dont exactly regret but i do feel weird about it sometimes and so i've only recently started to be ok with hooking up with people again. via doing so with FWBs i trust and it's been a vastly different experience!!! idk how to describe it, but like knowing we're good and that it's ok and safe and fun and that they're not judging body or whatever, it's given me more confidence in playing + communicating. i used to freeze up if anyone touched me and now im getting open enough to where im considering letting myself sub again, and ok with more physical contact. ofc not everyone has friends who are dtf but no matter who it is, being comfortable with them is everything!!

nothing should hurt or bleed and i'll die on that hill. with plenty of foreplay/arousal and lube and slowly working up a stretch (if ur being penetrated) it shouldn't hurt. example: i hadn't been penetrated with more than 2-3 fingers for months, when i got home recently i tried dildo and couldn't get it in, i just relaxed + worked up with a smaller toy + knew i could go for lube if i needed (i didnt bc i have a faucet pussy but it does make it easier) similarly with anal, u just gotta work up and relax

in line with #7..... theres nothing wrong with using lube. and foreplay IS essential bc when you get aroused your muscles will relax and you'll feel better and more receptive to every aspect of sex not just penetration. i also don't think there's anything wrong with using toys????? a straight girl im friends with said her boyf can't get her off and i told her to tell him to use a vibe and she was like "i don't think we're close enough for that" like girl what the fuck he's had his tongue in your vagina i think it's okay to use a toy 😭 people historically would have gone nuts for the availability of sex toys we have now fuckin shake it up and have some fun!! it's not weird!!!! god straight people and their sex hangups. anyway.

i hope that helps????? tbh i think a lot of these are aimed @ cishet men being awful in bed for the most part but! they can still apply to keep in mind! summary: dont let anyone make u feel weird or bad for wanting things / not wanting things and u should feel comfortable and good and dont be afraid to communicate what u like (give encouragement vocalize that u feel good!) + what ur not feeling (share if s/t hurts or if u want them to go faster/harder or move up a bit or whatever)! literally HAVE FUN AND BE YOURSELF

#sorry this got long i am passionate about sex ed and communication and consent #fr talk to ur partner!!!! the stories i hear bc (1) all my friends r comfortable talking about sex to me & (2) straight people r insane omf #ask

[de1-os]

i'll bite, whats the story about why you turned down those coms?

okay I wroite a whole response and everything but then my pc refused to connect to my router so I ahve to rewrite. all of it so I'm gonna try a keep it as thorough but short as possible

The 2nd one was requested a couple years ago (sweating nervously I wonder if it's been too recent to talk about it) but yeah this is when i did paypal only commissions on my old acc. The request was for me to draw a. Ok I don't know the semantics of the character's race but he's White and From Japan (like, the setting of the story, he was born and raised in Japan iirc).

^ this guy. he also has a wolf form with the same color scheme

and the requester asked me to draw his wolf form as a "Djinn" (shirtless, magic lamp, turban and all). Which. I was not comfortable with! And I was like "idk dude I don't think I draw something like that esp. because I don't. Know anything about Djinn." and they insisted and explained to me what a Djinn was and gave me examples of what they wanted, and tbh I don't remember if I was like "Seriously. No." or if I stopped responding entirely but they never contacted me again.

I looked up the person's url during this whole interaction and apparently they've publicly requested (and I assume commissioned) other artists to draw various other anime characters as "djinn" (which. the most distinct one I remember was Mt. Lady from BnHA.) and Only That. And it's just. it's feels at best cultural appropriation and at worst race fetishization (maybe not the precise phrases that describes what I mean, but if it gets the point across....) to me.

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The 1st commission I've ever rejected (and mind you the 1st one I got ever), I got back in late 2016. Despite having a tumblr at the time I only really posted my art on DeviantArt (and Google+ but I digress). I decided to open commissions after an internet friend of mine explained to me how it works (and the prices were horrendously low, like maximum $10 low, but I was like 12-13 years old) and I mostly did requests anyways.

Anyways this guy (and I still have the screenshots I sent my friends at the time, referring to them for accuracy) sends me a really polite message (like. waaay overly formal) asking me to draw Kumatetsu from The Boy and The Beast but "shrunk" and him going about his daily life in his shrunken form in oversized clothes. But like. this guy was really insistent about the specifics of how this character looked when "dwarfed". and was like "I Will Negotiate to get this art" (paraphrasing) and also asked for a comic about How this character was shrunk "if I wanted to" (paraphrasing). Which. 13 year old me had no idea how to take this??

I checked out his account and found a lot of art (reuploads of art he requested/commissioned I believe). And like, at the time I had no idea what it was but it was fetish art. A whole bunch of it. Baby/diaper stuff, shrunken characters, inflation??, uhm. Large. Feet? etc. of. children's show characters.

Which, t. to each their own abt their fetishes/paraphilias/fixations and what they post in their personal online spaces (the block button is free) but the actual issue in this situation was that this was an Adult Man (30s at the time, I believe) asking a 13 year old to draw fetish art for him, and even insisted that he would do Anything to negotiate getting that art. While it wasn't sexually explicit, that's like. really fucked up!!! I even actually drew out part of the commission before deciding to just not accept any money for it because it felt too weird and gross to me.

While this was like 7 years ago I still wouldn't accept the commission if I got it now. If you're going to commission fetish art from someone commission an artist who also has that fetish and isn't a minor.

Anyways that's the only 2 times I've every rejected someone's commission before.

#keni.ask #carbonatedcacti #hiii cacti ty for asking this shit has been living in my brain for Years #head in hands

[songmingisthighs]

WHY I WENT MIA

spoiler alert : it's not alien abduction

tw : everything triggering, read at your own risk

so i almost comitted suicide several times around the 24th-25th

it all began when i was a child but we don't have time for that crap so i'm gonna cut to the chase.

Recently things has been pretty hard for me with financial issues and stress over what the fuck i'm doing with my life, not to mention the ridiculous pressure my parents put on me (in a way that i had told them would not be effective on me as it would just cause me harm esp to my mental health that both my parents, esp my mom, decide to ignore) and my extended family, and what i want, and it was all just ridiculous. Not to mention something specific happened recently that kinda just made me gave up because it felt like a betrayal, abandonment, and the way it happened was just so absolutely unfair and out of the blue like i wasn't even informed of what happened until i seek for answers myself. It was just horrible and i was really going to go through with it. I had suicide notes ready and everything and i could've decided to do it on the 23rd but it was yunho's birthday and i wasn't gonna miss that so my options were on the 24th or 25th bc my parents were gone and had anything happened, i wouldn't be rushed to the hospital.

I was alone and i felt alone despite having one last friend to talk to but that friend was just sooooo so so so far away and idk it felt hopeless. It wasn't until i accidentally hinted to someone about what i was gonna do and they figured it out and after a whole shenanadoodles (at first this person was like "i can't be selfish, i can't keep you here because who tf am i?") and some words used on me, that person accidentally canceled my self destruction. It was literally something that no one had ever said to me in a sense of the intention and the words used. It was literally "you can't go anywhere now, you're staying to write for me" and it wasn't the sentiment that i HAVE to live for this person now, but it was the fact that i was given a purpose. this person wanted me and they have plans for me and that gave me an immediate feeling of security. It's so stupid, i know but it happened. That was what happened and i'm still at shock because that person said they didn't even know that it would work.

if someone goes to you, telling you they wanna end their life, i implore you to NEVER say "don't do it, but i'm not gonna stop you". because that kinda feels like you don't care and by god, this person is already suicidal now you're telling them that YOU wouldn't care whether or not they leave ???????

i can't speak for other people with suicidal tendencies or behaviour but i'm so glad to have the friends that i have rn. I used to say i don't have much friends but oh my god after being open about this, i realized how many friends i have and how easy it is to ask someone to be your friend.

I'm sharing this to not upset anyone but because i want my blog to be a very transparent and open space. I don't feel normal because i don't see people sharing about their experience esp with suicidal behaviour and/or tendencies bc it's a taboo and it's potentially triggering. that's why i don't feel normal and it makes me think that since i'm not welcomed, i'm not like anyone, i should just not be here. Someone told me to remove myself from uncomfortable situations and i took it to a whole new level. It didn't occur to me how much people cared for me and seriously, i'm just so very thankful. I know i have a long way to go and i'm gonna have more hardships to come, but right now i feel like the people who i have around me can help me even by just doing stupid shit like sending ateez pics or telling a random annecdote or even frantically trying to find a topic that can distract me.

this space that i have created is a safe space. I personally don't get triggered by other people's experience but i get it. honestly, i want to make a safe, open space for people but i just don't know how to. but that's basically what happened to me this past week.

to everyone who are still with me today, i want to thank all of you so much and while i don't know how to thank each of you privately or directly, i just want you to know i love you so much. God the love i received these past couple of days has just been making my heart feel full and honestly it kinda feels like i'm gonna pee. but eh what do i know.

#smt tmi #smt rant #tw #read at your own discretion