#esaael

[msilverstar]

Author: @rohkeutta, @cobaltmoony , @esaael Date: 2018-10-31 Chapters: 6/6, Words: 33,918 Fandom: Captain America (Movies) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers Characters: Natasha Romanov (Marvel), Peggy Carter, Nick Fury Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe - Magical Realism, Bucky Barnes as Captain America, Steve Rogers as the Winter Soldier, Angst with a Happy Ending, Bucky Barnes Feels, Bucky Barnes & Natasha Romanov Friendship, Canon-Typical Violence, Bucky Barnes and the 21st Century, Presumed character death, Grief/Mourning, Action, POV Bucky Barnes, POV Steve Rogers, Magical Artifacts, Temporary Amnesia, Injury Recovery, Reunions, do not copy to another site Summary:

The first two years after Bucky gets out of the ice are-- surprisingly easy. Serve his country, learn to use his charmed robot hand, make friends, don’t think about the spark of magic in him that’s gone out, see the world, try to live with the grief (try to live with the grief, try to--)

Maybe they’re not that easy, in the end, but he’s settling - until he gets reluctantly pulled out of the Army and has Steve’s shield (Steve’s shield, its magic wary and curious and half-dormant) thrust onto him again, even though he’s already turned it down once before. The world has changed and so has he, but as he tries to immerse himself into a new life, he meets a ghost he could never leave behind.

Bookmarker’s Notes:

Gripping and very tense AU, Bucky surviving and missing Steve, but also his body magic.  The worldbuilding of the alternate universe is subtly different and very well done.

#fanfic rec #MCU AU fanfic rec #stucky #Bucky/Steve #Steve/Bucky #fic rec

[mitsususu]

Cha cha slides, cake slices, and the bouquet toss! If Steve or Bucky is at a wedding, the other is not far away. Below are my Top 5 Favorite stories:

“Welcome to Oblivious, Population: Two” (T, 11k) by leveragehunters (Monkeygreen)

Steve is a wedding photographer in need of an assistant. Bucky is unemployed and in need of a job. Sam and Natasha, in what turns out to be a successful attempt to solve both problems, arrange an introduction.

In a moment of frustrated brilliance, Bucky sets Steve on the path to incredible popularity and the two of them--and their relationship--on the path to complete obliviousness.

+ Modern AU. Steve and Bucky’s personal space rapidly dwindles. They share chairs, share beds, share food, and don’t know they’re already dating

-☆-

“A Fishy Deal” (E, 31k) by esaael, QueenoftheRandomWord42

James Buchanan Barnes was a man of many talents. He was a fantastic shot, could speak several languages, was skilled in a few martial arts, really passionate about space and science museums, Fuck Buddy of Steve Rogers, and was a proud owner of a few betta fish.

Things changed when Bucky's sister charged in to talk to her brother and wound up inviting Steve to the wedding as his plus one.

But Weddings bring out the best and the worst in people, will their relationship survive?

“What just happened?” Steve asked as he ducked back into the bathroom.

“I think you just got invited to my sister’s wedding in my ex-boyfriend’s stead…” Bucky said blinking.

+ Shrunkyclunks. Friendship with benefits, mutual pining, and developing relationships. Betta fish and Great Uncle Arnie Roth

-☆-

“You can't hurry love” (E, 8k) by obsessivereader

“Jesus!” Steve hurries forward. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you.” Before he’s even halfway into the room, the man’s already on his feet and turning around. He has a face as perfect as his ass. High forehead, square jaw, pink lips with a hint of a natural pout. Short, wavy, dark brown hair. His wide, deep-set eyes are a clear and luminous gray. Those eyes widen as the man takes in the sight of Steve staring at him.

Something about that wide-eyed, slightly nervous look catches at Steve’s memory. “Bucky?”

Steve remembers a shy, sweet teenager, with soft round cheeks, eyes too big for his face, and a wild head of hair. If this really is Bucky, some time in the last few years, he grew into his face and is now so gorgeous that Steve’s having a little trouble breathing. The lean, toned body beautifully displayed by a black shirt and gray pants don’t help the breathing situation either.

“You… have a beard now,” Bucky says faintly.

or, Bucky finally gets to do something about his decades-long crush on his best friend's older brother...

+ Modern AU. Bucky’s childhood dream (crush) comes true! Grinding on the dance floor and intercrural. 

-☆-

“The Wedding Planner('s Assistant)” (T, 40k) by crinklefries

Bucky Barnes is in a bit of a conundrum. 

For example, on the one hand, he’s the former extremely polished, brutally efficient, and impressively ruthless brainwashed weapon of mass murder for the secret Nazi arm of the United States government. 

On the other hand, he has an uncontrollable crush on the cute blond wedding planner who lives next door. 

What do you do when HYDRA agents keep climbing through your window and the Avengers can’t seem to leave you the fuck alone? Volunteer to help with wedding planning, he guesses. 

This won’t be difficult to balance at all.

+ Shrinkyclinks. Winter Soldier Bucky throws himself into wedding planning hell because it makes modern Steve’s life easier. Featuring a very amused Cap Sam and the Avengers team

-☆-

“if only you could see me (for the pie that i am)” (M, 35k) by bitelikefire (theoleo)

In which Steve is the proud owner of Frost; a semi famous local bakery in D.C. And despite the overwhelming insistence that it’s about time he start dating, Steve swears up and down he isn’t ready for that.

Or as of recently, just doesn’t have the time because of Mr. Barnes. The highly demanding wedding planner on the phone who keeps asking for nearly impossible deliveries and maybe Steve would like to personally strangle him. Maybe.

(There is pie. And misunderstandings. But a lot more desserts and eye rolls.)

+ Modern AU. Enemies to lovers with hidden identity. Steve is a stubborn baker who falls in love with Bucky, someone with an equally busy schedule.  

-☆-

*More other people’s weddings in the Proposals, Seasonal Sampler, Singer AU, Sex Work (others), Life Drawing, Rebecca Barnes, and President lists

#stucky #stucky fic #fic rec #Top 5 Favs #leveragehunters #esaael #QueenoftheRandomWord42 #obsessivereader #bitelikefire #crinklefries

[kitweewoos]

💯

(🙏🏻💕)

Thank you!!!! So close!!!

That bumpbump bumpbump bumpbump, quick and insistent, pounded out the sound of their futures.

#wip ask #wip positive #ask tag #talk to me #esaael

[koreanrage]

Hi! Chibi Steeb in beach wear or Steeb sees a snake? (I saw a snake today, exciting!)

Niccee glad you saw a snek today hope it was a good noodle boy.

In other news, chibi steve gets a little towel cover because his chibi skin is extra sensitive.

#esaael #steve rogers #marvel fanart #captain america fanart #my art #korean replies #so i forgot to take pictures of the doodles at work #imma try to just do them digitally this weekend haha #im reliving my childhood through chibi steeb #anyone else used to have those parka towel things

[luninosity]

For @thebestpersonherelovesbucky: here’s the full text of the fake film review I wrote yesterday, for Steadfast...

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Steadfast Combines History and Heart Into Triumph

 Jillian Poe’s latest directorial effort, Steadfast is at once familiar and unfamiliar: a Regency romance set against the Napoleonic War, full of ballroom scenes and lavish costumes, crackling with politics and passion. It’s (extremely) loosely based on the 1940s novel of the same name, which in turn was based on the historical Will Crawford’s surviving letters and notes, and the romance is real in more than one way—assuming you haven’t been living under a rock, you’ve seen the stories about on-set melodrama: Colby Kent and Jason Mirelli hooking up, being injured, falling in love, and from all reports being blissfully happy.

 Leaving the behind-the-scenes drama aside, the question is: is it a good film?

 The answer is unequivocally yes.

 It’s more than good. It’s a brave film, in the best ways: not only in telling a historical gay love story—and it is very, very gay; Jillian Poe and her cast don’t shy away from sex scenes—but in the raw emotion and power of the storytelling and the relationship. It’s the kind of film that gets remembered as a landmark: what good filmmaking can do. And it’s worth seeing, not only for the attention to period detail or the reminder that gay people (and black people, Indian people, and others; we see an impressively diverse London, especially among Will’s Home Office fellow recruits) have always existed in history, but for the sheer emotional experience. Steadfast is a romance, unashamedly so, and it wants you to fall in love, and you will.

 The casting and the script are spot-on, to start.

 Jillian Poe has her favorite stable of actors, so some familiar faces won’t be a surprise. Colby Kent, also a producer, and given co-writing credit with Ben Rogers, stars as Will Crawford—Rogers and Jillian Poe have independently confirmed that Colby did on-set rewrites, which means most of what we see is likely his. We’ve discussed Colby and the industry and uncredited script work at length back when that news broke, so here I’ll just say that Colby is a better writer than any of us realized—good at knowing and utilizing the source material, but also paring down, choosing the exact right word for each moment, giving his fellow actors dialogue that sounds effortlessly natural. Odds on a Best Adapted Screenplay award or two? Pretty high, I’d say.

 Speaking of Colby Kent, he’s always been quietly excellent on screen, often underrated (that Academy Award loss to Owen Heath should’ve gone the other way, no offense to Owen, who is also generally excellent), and equally capable of adorable clumsiness or aristocratic decadence. You could argue that playing young and wealthy and vulnerable and gay is exactly in his wheelhouse and hardly a stretch, and you might be right—but you would also be wrong.

 It’s an award-winning performance. It’s a master class in complex character acting. It’s compelling and dramatic and the core of the film, at least half of it, more on which later.

 Will Crawford—in ill health, a natural scientist, the Regency equivalent of a rich kid and only heir to a vast estate—might have come across as weak, or naïve and fragile, or in need of rescue. And Colby Kent’s good at fragile and lovely and desperate. But Will’s also a literal genius, determined to be useful, and willing to do anything—including spycraft and affecting the tide of battle and the fate of nations—to protect the man he loves. Colby Kent never lets us forget that, and the character and the story become richer for it. He’s almost at his best in moments without dialogue—I say almost because Colby, as ever, has flawless timing when delivering lines, both the heartbreaking and the wryly sarcastic. But his eyes and expressions say so much that every close-up could be a page’s worth of emotion-filled speeches, except not, because they’re not necessary. He’ll definitely get the Academy Award nomination; if there’s any justice, he’ll also win. Though, having said that, my personal vote might go to the biggest surprise of the film, just because I was so impressed and delighted. But we’ll get to that in a minute.

 The supporting cast is also superb—Leo Whyte, as Jason’s second-in-command, embodies complicated and compassionate loyalty, someone who’d follow his captain into battle and also sympathize with his captain’s difficult love, given his own socially fraught marriage to a poor Irish girl (Kate Fisher, having a marvelous time and some of the funniest lines). John Leigh gives his performance as a conflicted would-be mutineer some delicate nuance—he still admires his captain and ultimately makes a painful personal choice. Jim Whitwell epitomizes workmanlike British gentlemanly acting—though we get a hint of the dirtiness of his profession, and of his sympathy for Stephen and Will, which adds layers to his performance. And young Timothy Hayes is worth watching as Stephen’s favorite optimistic midshipman, with deft comedic timing in the midst of storms and the stalking of a French ship.

 The crown jewel of the supporting cast, of course—and the shoo-in for Best Supporting Actor—is Sir Laurence Taylor, notoriously picky about taking on new projects at this point, but here fully committed to his role as Will’s father, the aging Earl of Stonebrook.

 It’s easy to say that Sir Laurence is a legend, but sometimes we forget what that means. In this role, we remember. He delivers words that cut right through his on-screen son, and by extension the audience; but his anguish and grief are equally genuine: he’s a man who loved and lost his wife, who doesn’t understand his only son and heir, who clings to the need to protect the family name and estate and future, while faced with the dual truths that his son prefers men to women and in any case might die young—of illness, if not from daring the world in Regency spycraft. The Earl is awful and vicious and cruel to Will—but watching Sir Laurence stand at his son’s bedside, or come to the window and silently watch his son depart for London…those moments will make you hurt for him despite yourself, and it’s a virtuoso piece of acting.

 Speaking of brilliant pieces of acting, let’s talk about that biggest (and I don’t mean just the physique, though that can’t be missed) surprise of the film: Jason Mirelli.

 First, a confession: I, like quite a few people, felt some skepticism about this casting choice. That’s not to insult action films as such, and Jason Mirelli’s been a consistently reliable action-hero lead. But it’s a very different genre, and Jason’s previous filmography hasn’t, let’s say, exactly indicated much dramatic range. (Having said that, I’ll admit to unironically loving Saint Nick Steel. Is it ridiculous? Yes. Is it hilarious absurd so-bad-it’s-amazing fun? Also yes. Does it have Jason Mirelli in an artistically torn shirt chasing terrorists through a shopping mall while protecting small children and wearing a hat that makes him the reincarnated spirit of Christmas? Hell yes it does. We watch it every year.)

 If you, like me, were on the fence but willing to be convinced…

 I’ll say it right now: Jason Mirelli should be on that Academy Award ballot alongside Colby Kent.

 He’s the other half of the heart of this film, and the second he steps down from that carriage in the opening shot, he’s commanding the narrative. He’s captured the physicality of a wartime ship’s captain, but more than that, he’s captured the layers of character. Every motion of those shoulders, those eyes, that jawline, all means something—as do the moments when he chooses not to move and be still. Take the moment when he looks at Will in the morning-after scene, which is just a look and a few beats on camera, but Jason’s able to convey Stephen’s love, and wistful frustration over their different social classes, and genuine affection, and fear about Will’s illness, and surprised joy at having someone to wake up next to. It’s a hell of a role—romance, war, leadership on a ship’s deck, the shock when Will falls gravely ill, the emotion of the ending, which I won’t spoil here—and Jason’s a revelation. He’ll have his pick of roles after this, and he’ll deserve the Oscar nod, though it’s unlikely he’ll win—the Academy likes to reward previous nominees and is notoriously skeptical of popcorn-flick pedigrees, and Jason might need to prove himself once or twice more. But he shouldn’t have to. This is enough, and it’s fantastic to watch.

 Part of that epic transformation should be credited to Jillian Poe’s direction. With Steadfast, Poe demonstrates her skill as a director and her ability to handle multiple genres—she started out, you might remember, with lighter romantic-comedy fare, often also with Colby Kent—and her ability to get quality performances from her actors, every single one, every single time. I also wouldn’t be surprised at her picking up a directorial award or two; it’s an ambitious project, and also a labor of love, which shines through in each frame.

 The costuming and sets are as plush and attentive to detail as you would expect from an Oscar-bait period piece that’s a Jillian Poe production—that reputation for perfection’s deserved. The score is, if not anything out of the ordinary for a Regency setting, handled with delicacy and love—the music plays into the mood of each scene unobtrusively and expertly.

 Fans of the novel might have some minor critiques involving the looseness of the adaptation, in particular the ending, which—let me offer a minor spoiler warning, no detail, but stop reading if you want to know nothing at all—adds a final sequence that provides a happy ending for Stephen and Will. Is it book-accurate? No. But I called Steadfast a brave film earlier in this review, and this ending is an act of courage: imagining a happy ending for gay men in history, demanding that their love story end well and with joy. (And Colby Kent personally met with the novel’s famously reclusive author, so for all you purists, this change was made with permission.)

 Those stories matter. Steadfast as a film matters. Go see it. Fall in love.

#character bleed #i write fic for my fic #meta #headcanon #extras #thebestpersonherelovesbucky #esaael #turtletotem #nocturymiszczu #ahnjunae-blog #who am i forgetting to tag

[pineau-noir]

When I'm Reborn

Written for the 2019 Captain America Reverse Big Bang

Art by @esaael and words by me.

Chapter 1 on Ao3 today! A chapter will be posted everyday until the 23rd when the story concludes.

Stevie Rogers Barnes was always too small, too female to make a difference in the United States during WWII. After meeting Peggy Carter and Dr. Abraham Erskine of the Strategic Scientific Reserve, she changes. Her body might be big and strong, but her values are the same. Called to fight Hydra, the mystical scientific branch of the Nazis, she sees things that seem ripped out of the pulps she loves to read.

But when she loses everything, she must decide if being a hero is worth the cost.

#carbb #2019 captain america reverse big bang #reverse big bang #fem!Steve Rogers #inspired by fanart #captain america fanart #esaael #my writing #not the masterpost #chapter 1

[rohkeutta]

Heii, iloista loppuvuotta! Qs: 23) fics you wanted to write but didn’t and 24) favorite fic you read this year?

Kiitos! xx Sitä samaa, toivottavasti se on vähemmän kiireinen kuin mulla. :D

23. fics you wanted to write but didn’t

The @capreversebb fic I abandoned when I dropped out. I still don’t know what to do with it, it’s got over 8K of unedited bits and bobs but eh.

Also my Fandom Trumps Hate fic, which is still percolating with a couple hundred words in it :’) It will be done next, tho!

24. favorite fic you read this year

I re-read a ton, but some of my new favorites were march of the pumpkins by @silentwalrus1 and Nothern Sky by @thelittleblackfox and @warlockintraining!

fanfic meme

#esaael #ruh roh #writing meme

[chibisquirt]

esaael replied to your post “I’m baking tonight.  What do I want to bake?”

Carrot cupcakes?

O_O  Carrot cupcakes???  Carrot cake is my favorite cake (with rum cake coming into the number two spot, except when they switch), and cupcakes are deliciously eatable...  I would have to buy muffin tins, but I can also just plain do a carrot cake.  Or a carrot cake roll, with the icing in the middle...

#esaael

[worrisomeme]

Hey you! Happy new year and it's been too long! Qs 41 do you think everyone deserves a second chance and 146 was today a good day? 🙂

Hello friend!! Yes, it has been too long!

41 do you think everyone deserves a second chance? I would be inclined to say no here, though I would also be inclined to say most do. It’s very heavily reliant, i think, on the person and the circumstances surrounding said second chance and what they did to need it in the first place.

146 was today a good day? It’s only 1:15 PM here, but today has been both good and horrible. Hopefully by the end of the day the good parts will outweigh the bad :)

#ollie rambles #esaael

[velvetjinx]

Just realized I never posted about the parcel I received from the wonderful, darling @esaael !!! Included was some tasty Finnish chocolate, some lovely painting pens, a beautiful piece of her art, and a pack of Marvel Heroes playing cards which are officially my favorite things ever. THANK YOU, SWEETHEART!!!

#esaael #my friends are the best #her art is amazing #FUCKIN MARVEL PLAYING CARDS #im love them

[helenedraws]

esaael hat auf dein Foto geantwortet: The two winners of my giveaway will be notified...

What’s the book? :) My German is rusty as f but I’d consider it :D

hahaha bless you

“Dämonenbraut” is part of the Dämonen Trilogie

All three books will have covers by me! ;) 

Starting June, the book will be available on amazon or through your local bookstore to order with this cover (and a normal price :D ) !

#esaael #fandom friends

[sproings]

esaael replied to your post: Every month, my period starts to chill on day 3...

But wait… there’s more!! (sorry, this reminded me of the shopping infomercials…)

This is a bad time to be offering me extra Ginsu knives!

#esaael

[kitweewoos]

✒️ 5+1 marcstead pls?

(Forgive me Connor 😅)

Of course!!!!

“I can’t imagine why that would be. I’m having an incredible day that I would gladly repeat again,” he replied sarcastically. “Sorry. I’m just -”

Send me a ✒️ emoji and a wip title/codes and I’ll write 5 sentences per emoji!

#wip ask #wip 5+1 #ask tag #talk to me #esaael

[koreanrage]

WS!Steeb putting that black color on his face / eyes?? Or WS!Steeb jumping from somewhere without a parachute? (Have a good day at work!)

You can’t rush perfection Sam. ( ■_■)

#esaael #steve rogers #sam wilson #marvel fanart #captain america fanart #ws!steve #steve as the winter soldier au is the best au fight me #little doodles

[luninosity]

esaael said:                                                                                                                            Sound of gears grinding coming from Jason’s brain when he remembers what a cradle robber he is 😂😉                          

esaael said:                                                                                                                            Ooh who else, All Saints, Savage Garden, Natalie Imbruglia? :) Also here for Jason catching and then humming improbable songs :D                            

in reverse order:

2. SAVAGE GARDEN OH MY GOD YES (also Jewel)

1. Jason experiences occasional moments of existential horror at himself when reminded. Like, the difference between 38 and 30 (or 31 - Colby’ll be 31 before Jason turns 39) isn’t that bad. It doesn’t feel that bad..

But then his brain once in a while - usually prompted by Colby humming a very era-specific song or having a slightly different set of cultural references - remembers that he was nineteen when Colby was eleven. And then he wants to scream out loud a little.

Colby, who is basically an Old Person in a lot of ways anyway (museums, handwritten letters, no social media, etc), finds this deeply hilarious and sometimes does it on purpose.

(Though that has to be done just the right way, because there are ways that it can go tragically wrong and not end in sex at all, because Jason’s either too horrified or feeling too old. The right versions of the teasing involve a- getting Jason to take care of him and assert dominance, or b- provoking Jason into demonstrating lots of strength and vigor, thank you.)

#esaael #replies #character bleed #my brain #i love them so

[notlucy]

6. What’s the last thing you read that made you laugh? and 19. What’s your favorite character headcanon? please and thank you :)

6. What's the last thing you read that made you laugh?

Oh, this is interesting! I would say Burn by @crockzilla because Wade's predicament was legitimately fucking hilarious. Poor fella.

19. What's your favorite character headcanon?

I have a few! Peggy being the person who taught Steve how to fight like a brick wall is one of my favorites. I also headcanon Steve as having a bit of body dysmorphia with his new frame, and I try to work that in where I can when I'm writing canon Steve. For Bucky, I headcanon him being a Hufflepuff no matter how I write him. He's kind, he's willing to look past the surface to the person underneath, and he's thirsty for affection and love. I can't deal with asshole Bucky portrayals, which isn't to say that he's not snarky and ridiculous when I write him - he is. Just that there's a core of kindness and decency there. That's why I love him.

Ask me questions!

#ask meme #notlucy answers #esaael