#enough of the ex talk

[mlobsters]

supernatural s1e16 shadow (w. eric kripke)

aka the first time i had a full-tilt meltdown over this show.

#supernatural #eric kripke #spn 1x16 #sam and dean #sam winchester #dean winchester #mygifs #spngifs #sam and dean mush #how to feel about your brother #like watching soon to be exes-the relationship is clearly over and one flaying themselves open showing their squishy insides #trying to make it work but the other is gently shutting them down and saying it's over #wholly lost my shit about this. late enough in s1 where we know this is A LOT of (too much?) emotional vulnerabilty for dean #but also way too early in any show's run to expect this level of emotional vulnerability and guts being strewn about #truly threw me for a loop. but it certainly set the stage for where they would go with sam and dean over the years #Dean's little eyebrow raise to the “I'd do anything for you” and sad half smile “could be” just punch me in the gut #and that sweet open expression talking about being together and a family again. ugh. such a rarity to see that on him #and Sam's “i don't want them to be” absolutely crushing. in the kindest manner. #but by the end dean's got his walls back up. oh my heart.

[stellamancer]

falling out of love is!! a terrible feeling!! where all the things that used to charm you about another person slowly turn to annoyances!! when the excitement over the little things that brought you joy is gone!! but it was there! you know it was there, but now it's not or it's slipping through your fingers, you can't get it back, you can't save it you can only watch it disappear.

and then you ask yourself where do you go from there? do you suffer in misery and wait and hope that maybe the other person will just stop loving you? hope that you'll be lucky and you won't have to be the one to bring the axe down on them??? that they'll do the dirty work for you! because even though you don't love them any more, you did at one point, and you still care about them and you don't want to hurt them!! or do you just tell them 'no i can't do this any more. i don't feel the same any more.' and take their heart, and smash it on the ground??

and if they know?? they can feel you slipping away, slipping through their fingers, like sand, like water. and they try so desperately to hold onto you, to keep you, clinging to you. aND THEN THAT JUST BACK FIRES???? OHHHH OHHHHH WEEPS INTO MY HANDS

#nikuniku spam #tee tag #because we all know LMAO #I PROMISE I LOVE YOU TEE #the thought of falling out of love reminds me of my first bf #i thought that going to different schools would be enough #but he kept calling my house constantly #and finally my mom's ex was like #'you need to talk to that boy he won't stop calling' #and i did #and i told him we were done #it's easier when you don't have to see them anymore #but when you do #it's like walking hell on earth

[bonefall]

all this christian warriors talk reminds me of that one tumblr user who didnt/couldnt? listen to music as a child so they imagined warrior cats amvs to the church hymns

Iirc that person would nod off in church and imagine AMVs to the hymns, it wasn't that they were banned from music

But that happens too. Raise your hand if you ever had a family member freak out when they learned about something magic/satanic/heretical about some kind of media you were interested in 🖐

#I felt incredibly self conscious about liking dragons as a kid because Ex-Family Member would stress their innate evilness #So I had these big stories about My Good Christian dragons atoning for that sin lmao #Also any goats and snakes. Wasn't really allowed to be positive about those around her #And unicorns. Weirdly enough #Religious talk #Bone babble

[insomnya777]

espresso (the new sabrina carpenter song) is SOOOO joel smallishbeans coded

#the only thing i was thinking while listening #“too bad your ex don't do it for ya” HIMMMMMM SO HIM VIBES #“i can't relate to desperation” “my 'give a fucks' are on vacation” HIM HELLO ANYONE????? #am i screaming into the void with this one? probably #will i stop? never #joel smallishbeans #trafficblr #hermitblr #i would tag this boat boys because there are def boat boys undertones in this song but also it's not obvious enough in the post so. #sorry ethoslab #nya talks #pls hit the target audience (sabrina and hermitcraft fans...... ik im not the only one COME OUT)

[aahsoka]

this ex fiancee plot is like. aggravating for no reason. we already need to contend with him not admitting he might die in ten years we dont uhhhh need this?

#its so bizarrely plotted lmfao #jordan talks #marry my husband #i just feel like theres enough going on with the dying still being a possibility and the cancer going to her friend etc etc etc #i get what ji won is feeling rn but i hope shes gonna work through it #bc it is an irrational response based on anxiety. this man did everything right to be in a relationship with her #and this ex fiancee is just annoying like no wonder he doesnt like u girl #tbh like she could have had these kinds of relationship anxiety issues to work through Without ~another woman~ #I did. so #but i guess its a drama so FINE ill suffer through the annoying ex fiancee . just promise me more cute shit and epiphany later

[fortyfive-forty]

grabbing fistfuls of my own hair rocking back and forth repeating to myself like some kind of fucked up wizardly enchantment you should care about womens sports because its literally the same fucking sport why do i have to bend over backwards to convince you to care about womens sports like at an abstract level it is the exact same fucking thing and yet you cannot bear to possibly watch it unless you think the women are hot or there is some sort of social gain why is it so hard for you to care about womens sports when they are literally doing all of it better than the men

#i stand by my belief that womens sports are more entertaining anyways but i know that is somewhat personal preferences so ok! fine! #but they are the same then! #obviously yes there are legit differences in ~style~ and such based on the way different sports have evolved #ex: female basketballers are statistically better shooters than male basketballers #but like the sport itself is practically identical so why is it so fucking impossible for some people #to get interested in a sport they claim they love #just because women are doing it #i'm not sitting here like 'mmm how do i convince people to watch women's sport' like a legit plot #i'm just baffled i really don't understand #i mean i do understand of course but i'm just tired of it being this way lol #i want to talk to more people who have the level of brainrot i have about women's sports and it feels like everyone i know well #is just not that interested in the women even though they're interested in the men #of course there are people online but i get self-conscious and i don't know anyone well enough to truly go to the depths of my own brainrot #this is just a combination of genuine frustration but also my own loneliness lol #< wayyy more dramatic than it actually is for the record i'm not like lonely lonely #i just want someone who actually understands why i go nuts over this and who i feel comfortable spamming about it 😭 #blah blah blah words

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: a series of digital doodles and sketches based on the owl house, featuring either Willow or Hunter. The first image is a coloured sketch of Willow in her flyer derby uniform flying casually through the sky on her staff. Hunter can be seen in the background, and is labeled "lover boy" with a thought bubble indicating he's thinking about willows arms. The sketch is coloured and shaded and the palette is a mix of a sunset and the pansexual flag.

The next image is a doodle of Willow in I Was A Teenage Abomination next to Willow in Any Sport in a Storm. The younger willow is shorter and stands shyly while the older Willow is taller and more confident, winking at her younger self. Orange hearts are drawn around them. The doodle is coloured and shaded.

The next image is a simple black and white doodle of Willow, Hunter, Amity and Luz in their designs from thanks to them, based on the three weed smoking girlfriends meme. In the foreground willow says "my three (sort of) (ex) girlfriends. And yes, they smoke weed" while in the background, Luz coughs smoking a blunt, hunter looks on stoned while holding a bong, and amity looks uncomfortable holding a blunt.

The final doodle is a drawing of Hunter in hunting palismen next to Hunter in for the future. Both are in profile facing towards each other with the younger Hunter on the left and current Hunter on the right. Younger Hunter has slightly greyer skin, deeper eye bags and an unhappy expression, while current Hunter has brighter skin and a sad, fond expression. The doodle is coloured and labeled "HE WANTS TO BE NICE SO BAD!!!" Multiple times across the canvas. End ID]

Monthly doodle dump lmao. Yes I'm still gonna post the FTF reqs, it probably won't be until after exams are done, whoopsy. The theme of this doodle dump is "I love willow park and her boygirlfriend so fucking much"

#the owl house #toh #willow park #hunter toh #hunter noceda #huntlow #with some implied #willuz #and #amillow #though those last two are presented mostly comedically #the weed doodle is basically a summary on my willow shipping thoughts (since no one was brave enough to ask me abt them last time rip) #she's got that weird gay little girl platonic-romantic grey area relationship dealio going on w/ both luz and amity #in different directions (bestie life partners and bitter exes on the up and up) #and then hunter is her sweet little purse chihuahua she takes with her everywhere and talks up bc she thinks hes cute #drawing old vs new hunter made me emotional btw #HE'S SO TALL AND EMOTIONALLY MATURE NOW COMPARED TO BEFORE. WHERE DID THE TIME GO #same w/ 2B willow and ep3 willow. they are both very important to me and the contrast is important #she's learning to be nicer to the anxious little girl in the abomination track she used to be. #but during asias she was just trying to get away from her and that makes me sad even if i understand and relate #speaking of asias i gotta finish watching it it's been weeks lol. but posting this put me in the mood a lil #idk which dub to do tho. probably latin american? maybe Brazilian. we'll see what takes me fancy #anyway. uggy sketch dump be upon ye! appreciate it this is many weeks of struggling to create /j

[whoblewboobear]

Getting hung up on Tracker and Kristen taking digs at each other when they’re still talking about something bigger like religion frustrates me to no end. Yes they are exes, yes things can come off rude but neither one of them has been wrong in the meat of what they’re saying when discussing religion and the way they practice.

Outside of the fucking or fighting, Trackerbees have ALWAYS been able to understand each other and hear each other out when it comes to their respective gods or religion as a whole. They both have different perspectives to offer, different work ethics, and different wisdoms to share the other because there ultimately is a bigger picture. These young women are both incredibly wise.

They’re also messy ass teenagers! Those bigger, more introspective, and worldly questions will be interspersed with a low blow or two. But it’s a low blow because there can be some truth to it. Focusing ONLY on the low blows and using that to paint whoever you like less as a bad person gets you nowhere. ​It kinda does a disservice to the story telling when you paint it sooo one note bc Brennan and Ally do SUCH a good job at drawing out the complexities of their relationship. The infatuation, The toxicity, the hurt, the gratitude, the frustration, the support, and the love. All of it.

#whenever they talk there’s discourse about one of them being rude #look me in the fucking eyes and tell me you haven’t said some rude shit to your ex before I dare you 👊 #they are teenagers that broke up they’ve hurt each other they’re not always gonna be nice #I respect that they’re comfortable enough with each other to say the rude thing and then still want to lean on eachother and love eachother #there’s so much nuance to their relationship on so many levels #these ladies fascinate me and I’m not gonna villainize either of them bc if you blanket paint someone as shitty bc you didn’t like how they #phrased something the world gets a lot smaller #your circle gets a lot smaller #this is fully coming from personal experience #I have been the upset person that took digs at their ex before #I have been the person that cut people off bc they said something I don’t like #I know there are a wide spectrum of ages in the fandom but a lot of the posts that blanket call someone awful skew younger #it’s not a bad thing it’s just.. very tunnel visiony and very black and white #dimension 20 #fhjy

[coffeebanana]

imagine being a server dedicated to supporting fanworks and it being up for debate whether the mods should allow people to bash the fic they selected for book club

#kayla rants #look if you know you know #and if you don't you should #miraculous fanworks hate club #i do really like a lot of the mods on that server on an individual level. and i've met lots of lovely ppl there #but the mod environment is TOXIC #like. i cannot stress this enough and i know because i served my time kjasdfksjbdgf #ask any ex-mod. there are skeletons in that closet #and they're skeletons they DON'T WANT US TO TALK ABOUT #god the fear/guilt tactics they used

[oifaaa]

I would love to learn more about Alfred’s beliefs and why he does what he does re: enabling Bruce’s mission, helping the Robins and even directly giving Tim and Damian the suits. I’ve read fics where he’s like ‘i can’t stop you but i can at least help you stay safe’ but that doesn’t make enough sense of his actions for me. Do you have any thoughts on this, or recs of comics/posts/fics where this is explored? Thanks, i love your deep dives! No pressure tho ofc 💌

Alfred is difficult like most comics characters it really depends on who is writing him that decides what the finer points of his personality and relationship with Bruce are, some writers really like playing up the father son thing while others will make alfred a bit colder and focus more on alfred seeing himself as more of an employee and how this may negatively affect his relationship with Bruce and how much he's willing to push back on things like batman

Personally I enjoy it more when alfred will tell himself I'm just the butler but really he does see himself as a father to bruce and Bruce sees him as nothing but a father figure, I also enjoy when alfred is more believes in what Bruce is doing then pushing back considering as you said the things we've seen alfred do he is the one half the time handing out these costumes - alfreds background as well is kinda strange he was in the military then he went to mi5 and finally ended up an actor before his dad kicked it and he decided fuck it I'm gonna be the butler for the same family my dad worked for - this to say he's not the most normal guy out there

#ask #threadbury #alfred definitely does care about bruce #but yeah idk honestly #when you have a side character like alfred i do find it hard to pin point his personality #and figure out why he does what he does #bc i dont think most writers care enough anout alfred to really consider it #like take tom taylors nightwing #alfred is very much used as a prop #hes there to leave dick a lot of money in his will even tho that doesnt make a lot of sense #and hes there as a person for dick to look up to #but yeah that aside #crazy old man whos just fine and actually very enabling of his autistic sons bat night hobby is just more fun to me #hes a crazy old english ex mi5 Shakespearian actor with a daughter he never talks to #hes just a lil weirdo

[naamahdarling]

Oh shit I completely forgot about Lost Johns cave fuck that shit is horrifying

I think only 2 serial fiction podcasts have ever actually made me breathe a little too fast. The other was Limetown which...the Napoleon episode fucked me up (only episode I ever had to pause for a few seconds), as well as just the concept in general. But Magnus Archives in addition to being overall the best complete podcast I have listened to had a couple of real getters individually. MAG-15 Lost Johns Cave is one.

"It meant me harm."

And then when they played the recording back and I realized what she was saying my entire body just got cold.

Like, the reason I consume horror content isn't actually because it frightens me. It almost never does. So when it does more than unnerve and thrill me, it's doing a very good job. Congrats Jonny Sims for doing it a good two or three times in Magnus Archives.

By the way, the cave is real.

Here's how you go in.

Goodnight!

#two of the best horror movies ive ever seen weren't even horror movies #or werent marketed as such #the prestige is one #almost nobody appreciates it enough #and annihilation is another and shortlisted for movies that i will never ever watch again because i legit almost had to go throw up #borderline sorry i ever watched it and still occasionally think about that bear #it was a good movie but my god the body horror and existential dread and the infiltration of death into your treacherous body was HORRIFYIN #i was not sufficiently warned about annihilation #the prestige was a pleasant surprise even though i was curled up in the fetal position #because i figured out the twist EXACTLY when the movie wanted me to and it worked for me #it wasn't for everyone and my ex was pissed at it for quote cheating unquote #but i thought it had established the rules just fine in retrospect and it fell into place beautifully #i love horror deeply #i could talk about it all day

[cheekblush]

i'd rather be friendless than to constantly have my boundaries disrespected

#i am so frustrated and annoyed rn #at the beginning of this year my ex best friend reached out to me and i cautiously let her back into my life #things were going great but now she turned a harmless topic into a full blown discussion even though i told her multiple times that i no.. #.. longer want to discuss this matter but she kept going & then accusing me of continuing the discussion as well #and tbh i really should've stopped engaging with her messages much sooner but it's so annoying when someone sends you lots of messages with #their opinion although i mentioned several times that i want to drop the topic & then i'm just expected to shut up lol #she didn't respect my wish to move and made a huge fuss about nothing #i stopped replying to her since yesterday bc i really had enough & i should've just left her on read much sooner #but her messages were truly annoying me #her last message now says that we often have different opinions & she thinks she's more optimistic than me & that makes it hard for her to.. #talk to me..... i was so dumbfounded when i read that this morning #our initial conversation was about whether a song is more pop or rnb....... & she twisted that into me being negative lmao #she was so obsessed with being right that she couldn't drop the topic even though i told her how exhausting the convo was for me #and like it's such an irrelevant topic... imagine being that obsessed with always being right 😭 #idc anymore i'd rather be a negative bitch than someone who disrespects others' boundaries <3 #i thought she changed for the better but she's so self-righteous opinionated & stubborn it's awful #i calmly told her that her behavior is bothering me & we easily could've just moved on but she kept going on and on #and she herself admitted that it's one of her flaws that she always has to be right & she's being petty & yet she didn't stop 🤡 #even writing all this down feels so silly to me bc the initial topic was sooooo trivial #am i supposed to feel sorry for thinking a song was rnb rather than pop???? like go touch some grass please #she even sent me a screenshot of the wikipedia page of the song to prove that it's rnb & it literally said synth pop & rnb lol #but i wasn't even mad about that her not respecting my wish to drop the topic & move on even though i said it multiple times really pissed.. #me off though.... like girl just let it go it's not that deep!!! #but apparently i'm negative & pessimistic for having a different opinion than her 🤷🏼‍♀️ #like imagine starting a fight over smth SO IRRELEVANT but i'm the negative one sure lmao #okay i just needed to get this off my chest bc i don't have anyone to talk to about this & it's just ridiculous to me #☁️

[esteemed-excellency]

💫 :D

Some urchins elected Hiram's roof as their base, to snatch as many hats as possible from his guests. They don't trust him enough, as they don't trust any adult, and they would never accept an invitation, because the house is always so full of adults, but they sneak in sometimes when the place is not crawling with people. Coincidentally, they always seem to find a warm meal waiting for them. The house staff is always nice to them, and if they're lucky they'll find a spectacled captain or an old zailor willing to spin a yarn. The Precocious Tosher seems to like Hiram's company and the others agree he's fun to be around. Still, it's better not to get too involved with him, and better to avoid the place if there's no one inside. The mirrors hiss too much. They do appreciate the attic though, it's a bit creepy and full of interesting items, the best place to hang out and tell scary stories.

Hiram finds the hats thefts hilarious and he knows about the attic visits. He always keeps the most hazardous items in his rooms to avoid unpleasant accidents with his guests. He offered to adopt a particularly tempestuous girl once, but she couldn't accept the offer, and he doesn't mind her friends running around on his roof.

#i thought about the urchins and the house staff for the party story (rip who knows if I'll ever continue writing it) #the precocious tosher and the tempestuous urchin are there for sure #and the house staff is similar to the yacht crew (ex criminal or people in witness protection with a veeery good pay) #(thanks to prophet for brainstorming jamie's townhouse staff btw it made me want to elaborate too) #for now i have a disgruntled butler who may be the most annoyied and funny character I've ever thought about #he does his job very well but he just. doesn't give a shit. raising an eyebrow and silently judging type of guy. #he always keeps talking to people at the entrance to allow the urchins enough time to snatch the hats #oc asks #hiram hargrave #hiram lore #handsome townhouse

[ante--meridiem]

Well. Potentially inadvisable message I sent a few days ago not really expecting a reply to did, in fact, get a reply.

#personal #for those with enough knowledge of blog lore to know what I'm talking about here: #I caved and messaged First Ex/Former Closest Friend again #out of a mixture of the fact that I keep circling back to that friendship breakup on an approximately monthly basis that I knew #I'd never be able to really let it go unless I at least tried once #and the confidence from my knowledge of him that if our positions were reversed *he* would have tried #in any case. He's not sure if we'll succeed in being friends again but he *is* willing to talk #on the condition (which I offered in my initial message) of me not telling any of the people we mutually know #that he ended up having issues with #that we are speaking with #& there is (unsurprisingly since there was clearly a lot missing from the stories I'd gotten) more to said issues than I'd heard about #which it sounds like he's going to elaborate on when we talk #I think the biggest difficulty for me in re-establishing contact like this is going to be accepting that he and my mother #outright despise each other now #which. l mean - I'd never claim she's perfect #she can be very blunt in a way that comes off as just *mean* and hurtful and I've been hurt by that too #but she's also been a much better parent to me than most people's parents seem to be to them #it's possible maybe even likely that if some of our arguments when I was younger had ended in us cutting ties rather than #eventually talking it through that I would see her the same way Former Closest Friend does #but they didn't and she's been at certain points amazingly supportive since #so it's likely I'm going to have a hard time reconciling the version of her he's going to present to me with that #even though I'm totally open to believing that he's justified in how he feels about whatever happened #& I'm not going to be able to process it out loud irl bc that would violate the 'not telling people involved about this' clause #so there may be a lot of venty personal tumblr posts coming soon to a blog near you

[todayisafridaynight]

mine and aoki should be put in a room for ten minutes because i want mine to make it clear he wanted to join the yakuza for brotherhood and Family and i want aoki to seethe and rage and pop a blood vessel

#snap chats #this was aoki's like one singular valid point on the real. the romanticism of the yakuza is so deadly and dangerous #i say this right after giggling at the article about ex-yakuza going into softball BUT STILL #anyway. they should maul each other. but with words cause aoki swings once in a blue moon #and i just feel like mine wouldnt throw hands with a man not physically doing anything #i mean i already talked bout how they'd prob get along politically lowkey.... its just as soon as the topic of yakuza came up theyd explode #ryo 'the yakuza are a scorn on society and are nothing but glamorized brutes' aoki vs yoshitaka 'my bestie works there' mine #mine be like 'joining the yakuza gave me a new purpose in life and gave me a bond that i could never replace nor replicate' #and then aoki just throws up #anyway. i ordered a close-enough aoki suit and tie last month and it finally came in LMAO THATS WHY IM THINKING SO SICKLY TODAY #of coourse it had to come in on my One Year Anniversary after beating y7... lol.. #ok bye im gonna finally eat

[quietwingsinthesky]

castiel & uriel as michael & lucifer parallels drives me insane btw

#on the head of a pin fight scene u will always be famous #because like. despite all his talk of free will in s5 onwards. cas is like. #he's still working Within the framework of heaven. he is trying to graft free will onto the system of heaven. #which is. not something that can be done. heaven isn't set up to have that. #it's been explicitly Not set up to have that since lucifer fell. #in a lot of ways. cas is still serving god. he's a bit like ex-christians still using what they were taught to judge the world without #realizing that they have a bias. #and ANYWAY. this is me saying uriel rebel leader who wants nothing to do with heaven vs castiel rebel leader who wants to take heaven. #spn #castiel spn #uriel spn #lucifer didn't try to break the system of heaven hard enough. he still wanted a place in it. uriel would. uriel could. i believe in him.